The children were at last in bed,
the drawing-room lodger had finished her dinner, the
welcome time of lull in the day’s occupations
had come, and Mrs. Home sat by the dining-room fire.
A large basket, filled with little garments ready
for mending, lay on the floor at her feet, and her
working materials were close by; but, for a wonder,
the busy fingers were idle. In vain Daisy’s
frock pleaded for that great rent made yesterday,
and Harold’s socks showed themselves most disreputably
out at heels. Charlotte Home neither put on her
thimble nor threaded her needle; she sat gazing into
the fire, lost in reverie. It was not a very
happy or peaceful reverie, to judge from the many changes
on her expressive face. The words, “Shall
I, or shall I not?” came often to her lips.
Many things seemed to tear her judgment in divers ways;
most of all the look in her little son’s eyes
when he asked that eager, impatient question, “mother,
why aren’t we rich?” but other and older
voices than little Harold’s said to her, and
they spoke pleadingly enough, “Leave this thing
alone; God knows what is best for you. As you
have gone on all these years, so continue, not troubling
about what you cannot understand, but trusting to
him.”
“I cannot; I am so tired sometimes,”
sighed the poor young wife.
She was still undetermined when her
husband returned. There was a great contrast
in their faces a greater almost in their
voices, in the tone of her dispirited, “Well,
Angus,” and his almost triumphant answer,
“Well, Lottie, that hard fight
has ended bravely. Thank God!”
“Ah! then the poor soul has
gone,” said the wife, moving her husband’s
chair into the warmest corner.
“She has truly gone; I saw her
breathe her last. But there is no need to apply
the word ‘poor’ to her; she has done with
all that. You know what a weakly, troubled creature
she always was, how temptation and doubt seemed to
wrap her round like a mist, and prevent her seeing
any of the shining of the blue sky. Well, it
all passed away at the last, and there was nothing
but a steadfast looking into the very face of her Lord.
He came for her, and she just stretched out her arms
and went to Him. Thank God for being privileged
to witness such a death; it makes life far more easy.”
A little weariness had crept perceptibly
into the brave voice of the minister as he said these
last words. His wife laid her hand sympathizingly
on his. They sat silent for a few moments, then
he spoke on a different subject,
“How is baby to-night, Lottie?”
“Better, I think; his tooth
is through at last. He will have rest now for
a bit, poor little darling.”
“We must be careful to keep
him from catching another cold. And how is Anne
getting on?”
“As well as we can expect from
such an ignorant little mite. And oh! Angus,
the nursery is such a cold, draughty room, and I do I
do wish we were rich.”
The last words were tumbled out with
a great irrepressible burst of tears.
“Why, my Lottie, what has come
to you?” said her husband, touched and alarmed
by this rare show of feeling “What is it, dear?
You wish we were rich, so do not I; I am quite content.
I go among so very much poorer people than myself,
Lottie, that it always seems to me I have far more
than my fair share of life’s good things; but,
at any rate my Lottie, crying won’t make us
rich, so don’t waste your strength over it.”
“I can’t help it sometimes,
Angus; it goes to my heart to see you shivering in
such a great-coat as you have just taken off, and then
I know you want better food, and wine; you are so
tired this moment you can scarcely speak. What
a lot of good some port wine would do you!”
“And what a lot of good, wishing
for it will do me! Come Lottie, be sensible;
we must not begin to repine for what we have not got,
and cannot get. Let us think of our mercies.”
“You make me ashamed of myself,
Angus. But these thoughts don’t come to
me for nothing; the fact is yes, I will
tell you at last, I have long been making up my mind.
The truth is, Angus, I can’t look at the children I
can’t look at you and see you all suffering,
and hold my peace any longer. We are poor, very very dreadfully
poor, but we ought to be rich.”
“Lottie!”
Such a speech, so uttered, would have
called for reproof from Angus Home, had it passed
the lips of another. But he knew the woman he
had married too well not to believe there was reason
in her words.
“I am sorry you have kept a
secret from me,” he said. “What is
this mystery, Lottie?”
“It was my mother, Angus.
She begged of me to keep it to myself, and she only
told me when she was dying. But may I just tell
you all from the very beginning?”
“Yes, dear. If it is a
romance, it will just soothe me, for though I am,
I own, tired, I could not sleep for a long time to
come.”
“First, Angus, I must confess
to a little bit of deceit I practised on you.”
“Ah, Lottie!” said her
husband playfully, “no wonder you cried, with
such a heavy burden on your soul; but confess your
sins, wife.”
“You know how it has always
fretted me, our being poor,” said Charlotte.
“Your income is only just sufficient to put bread
into our mouths, and, indeed, we sometimes want even
that. I have often lain awake at night wondering
how I could make a little money, and this winter, when
it set in so very severe, set my thoughts harder to
work on this great problem than ever. The children
did want so much, Angus new boots, and little
warm dresses and so and so one
day about a month ago, Mrs. Lisle, who reads and writes
so much, called, and I was very low, and she was kind
and sympathizing; somehow, at last out it all came,
I did so wish to earn money. She asked me if
I could write a good clear hand, a hand easily read.
I showed her what I could do, and she was good enough
to call it excellent. She said no more then,
but the next day she came early. She brought
me a Ms. written by a friend of hers; very illegible
it was. She would not tell me the name of her
friend, but she said she was a lady very desirous
of seeing herself in print. If I would copy this
illegible writing in my own good clear hand, the lady
would give me five pounds. I thought of the children’s
boots and their winter dresses, and I toiled over
it. I confess now that it was weary work, and
tired me more than I cared to own. I finished
it to-day; this evening, just before you came home,
that task was done; but this morning I did something
else. You know Miss Mitchell is always kind enough
to let me see the Times. This morning
Anne brought it down as usual, and, as I ran my eyes
over it I was struck by an advertisement, ’A
young lady living at Kensington wished for the services
of an amanuensis, for so many hours daily. Remuneration
good.’ I could not help it, Angus, my heart
seemed to leap into my mouth. Then and there I
put on my bonnet, and with a specimen of my handwriting
in my pocket, went off to answer the advertisement
in person. The house was in Prince’s Gate,
Kensington: the name of the young lady who had
advertised for my services was Harman.”
“Harman! how strange, wife!
your own name before you married.”
“Yes, dear; but such a different
person from me, so rich, while I am so poor; so very,
very beautiful, and graceful, and gracious: she
may have been a year or so younger than I, she was
not much. She had a thoughtful face, a noble
face. I could have drawn tears from her eyes had
I described the little children, but I did not.
It was delightful to look upon her calm. Not
for worlds would I disturb it; and, Angus, I found
out another thing her name was not only
Harman, but Charlotte Harman.”
There was no doubt at all that the
other Charlotte was excited now, the color had come
into her cheeks, her eyes sparkled. Her husband
watched her with undisguised surprise.
“I made a good thing of it Angus,”
she continued. “I am to go to Prince’s
Gate every morning, I am to be there at ten, and give
my services till one o’clock. I am then
to have lunch with the young lady, and for all this,
and the enjoyment of a good dinner into the bargain,
I am to receive thirty shillings a week. Does
not it sound too good to be true?”
“And that is how we are to be
rich, Lottie. Well, go on and prosper. I
know what an active little woman you are and how impossible
it is for you to let the grass grow under your feet.
I do not object to your trying this thing, if it is
not too much for your strength, and if you can safely
leave the children.”
“I have thought of the children,
Angus; this is so much for their real interest, that
it would be a pity to throw it away. But, as you
say, they must not be neglected. I shall ask
that little Alice Martin to come in to look after
them until I am back every day; she will be glad to
earn half-a-crown a week.”
“As much in proportion, as your
thirty shillings is to you eh, Lottie?
See how rich we are in reality.”
Mrs. Home sighed, and the bright look
left her face. Her husband perceived the change.
“That is not all you have got to tell me,”
he said.
“No, it is only leading up to
what I want to tell you. It is what has set me
thinking so hard all day that I can keep it to myself
no longer. Angus, prepare for a surprise; that
beautiful young lady, who bears the same name I bore
before I was married is is she
is my near relation.”
“Your near relation, Charlotte?
But I never knew you had any near relations.”
“No, dear, I never told you;
my mother thought it best that you should not know.
She only spoke to me of them when she was dying.
She was sorry afterwards that she had even done that;
she begged of me, unless great necessity arose, not
to say anything to you. It is only because it
seems to me the necessity has really come that I speak
of what gave my mother such pain to mention.”
“Yes, dear, you have wealthy
relations. I don’t know that it matters
very greatly. But go on.”
“There is more than that, Angus,
but I will try to tell you all. You know how
poor I was when you found me, and gave me your love
and yourself.”
“We were both poor, Lottie;
so much so that we thought two hundred a year, which
was what we had to begin housekeeping on, quite riches.”
“Yes, Angus; well, I had been
poor all my life, I could never do what rich girls
did, I was so accustomed to wearing shabby dresses,
and eating plain food, and doing without the amusements
which seem to come naturally into the lives of most
young girls, that I had ceased to miss them.
I was sent to a rather good school, and had lessons
in music and painting, and I sometimes wondered how
my mother had money even to give me these. Then
I met you, and we were married. It was just after
our little Harold was born that my mother died.”
“Yes, you went down into Hertfordshire;
you were away for six weeks.”
“I took Harold with me; mother
was so proud of him. Whenever she had an easy
moment, she used to like to have him placed on her
knee. She told me then that she had a little
son older than I, who died, and that our Harold reminded
her of him. One night, I remember so well, I was
sitting up with her. She had been going through
great pain, but towards the morning she was easier.
She was more inclined, however, to talk than to sleep.
She began again speaking about the likeness between
our Harold and my little brother who died.
“‘I shall give you little
Edgar’s christening robe for Harold,’ she
said. ’I never could bear to part with it
before but I don’t mind his having it.
Open my wardrobe, Charlotte, and you will find it folded
away in a blue paper, in the small wooden box.’
“I did so, and took out a costly
thing, yellow, it is true, with age, but half covered
with most valuable lace.
“‘Why, mother,’
I exclaimed, ’how did you ever get such a valuable
dress as this? Why, this lace would be cheap
at a guinea a yard!’
“‘It cost a great deal
more than that,’ replied mother, stroking down
the soft lace and muslin with her thin fingers; ’but
we were rich then, Lottie.’
“‘Rich!’ I said,
’rich! I never, never thought that you and
I had anything to say to money, mother.’
“‘You don’t remember your father,
child?’
“‘No, mother,’ I
said; ’how could I? I was only two years
old when he died.’
“Mother was silent after that,
and I think she went into a doze, but my curiosity
and wonder were excited, and I could not help seeking
to know more.
“‘I never knew that we
were rich,’ I said again the next day. ’Why
did you never tell me before? The next best thing
to enjoying riches would be to hear about them.’
“’I did not want to make
you discontented, Lottie. I thought what you
had never known or thought of you would never miss.
I feared, my dear, to make you discontented.’
“‘But I have thought of
money,’ I owned, ’I have thought of it
lately a great deal. When I look at Angus I long
to get him every luxury, and I want my little Harold
to grow up surrounded by those things which help to
develop a fine and refined character.
“‘But they don’t,
Lottie; they don’t indeed,’ answered my
dear dying mother. ’Riches bring a snare they
debase the character, they don’t ennoble it.’
“‘Mother,’ I said,
’I see plainly that you are well acquainted with
this subject. You will tell me, mother, what
you know?’
“‘Yes,’ replied
my mother; ’it won’t do you the least good;
but as I have said so much to you I may as well tell
the rest.’
“Then, Angus, my mother told
me the following story; it is not very long.
“She was an orphan and a governess
when my father found her and married her she
was my father’s second wife. She was much
younger than he he had grown-up sons two
grown-up sons at the time of his marriage; and they
were very deeply offended at his thinking of a second
marriage. So indignant were they that my father
and they came to quite an open quarrel, and mother
said that during the five years that my father lived
she never saw either of her stepsons until just at
the close. She was very happy as my father’s
wife; he loved her dearly, and as he had plenty of
money she wanted for nothing. My father was an
old man, as I have said, and he was tired of fuss,
and also of much society; so though they were so rich
mother lived rather a lonely life in a large
and beautiful place in Hertfordshire. She said
the place was called the Hermitage, and was one of
the largest and best in the neighborhood. At
last my father fell ill, very ill, and the doctors
said he must die. Then for the first time there
came hastening back to the Hermitage the two elder
sons their names were John and Jasper the
eldest John, my mother said, was very handsome, and
very kind and courteous to her. He was a married
man, and he told mother that he had a little daughter
much about my age, who was also called Charlotte.
My father and his two sons seemed quite reconciled
in these last days, and they spent most of their time
with him. On the evening, however, before he died,
he had mother and me with him alone. I sat on
the bed, a little baby child of two, and my father
held mother’s hand. He told mother how much
he loved her, and he spoke a very little about money
matters.
“‘John will make it all
right for you, Daisy,’ he said. ’John
knows all about my wishes with regard to you and little
Charlotte. I should like this little Charlotte
and his to be friends; they are both called after
my own mother, the best woman I ever met. You
will bring up little Charlotte with every comfort
and refinement, dear wife.’
“The next day my father died,
and John and Jasper went to London. They did
not even wait for the funeral, though Jasper came back
for it. John, he told mother, was kept by the
sudden dangerous illness of his wife. Jasper
said that John felt our father’s death most dreadfully.
Mother had liked John, who was always very civil to
her, but she could not bear Jasper: she said
he seemed a cleverer man than his brother, but she
never could get over a feeling of distrust towards
him. The will was never read to my mother, but
Jasper came back again from London to tell her of
its contents, and then judge of her surprise her
name was not even mentioned, neither her name nor
mine. She had been married without settlements,
and every farthing of all my father’s great wealth
was left to his two sons, John and Jasper. Jasper
expressed great surprise; he even said it was a monstrously
unfair thing of his father to do, and that certainly
he and his brother would try to rectify it in a measure.
He then went back to London, and mother was left alone
in the great empty house. She said she felt quite
stunned, and was just then in such grief for my father
that she scarcely heeded the fact that she was left
penniless. Two days afterwards a lawyer from London
came down to see her. He came with a message
from her two stepsons. They were much concerned
for her, and they were willing to help her. They
would allow her, between them, as long as she lived
the interest on three thousand pounds on
one condition. The condition was this: she
was never to claim the very least relationship with
them; she was to bring up her daughter as a stranger
to them. They had never approved of their father’s
marrying her; they would allow her the money on condition
that all connection between them be completely dropped.
The day it was renewed by either mother or daughter,
on that day the interest on the three thousand pounds
would cease to be paid. My mother was too young,
too completely inexperienced, and too bowed down with
grief, to make the least objection. Only one
faint protest did she make. ‘My husband
said,’ she faltered, ’on the very last
day of his life, he said that he wished my little
Charlotte and that other Charlotte in London to be
friends.’ But the lawyer only shook his
head. On this point his clients were firm.
‘All communication between the families must
cease.’
“That is the story, Angus,”
continued Charlotte Home, suddenly changing her voice,
and allowing her eyes, which had been lowered during
her brief recital, to rise to her husband’s
face. “My dear mother died a day or two
afterwards. She died regretting having to own
even what she did, and begging me not to think unkindly
of my father, and not to unsettle your mind by telling
you what could do no good whatever.
“‘I do not think unkindly
of my father, mother,’ I answered, ’and
I will not trouble my husband’s mind, at least,
not yet, never, perhaps, unless fitting opportunity
arises. But I know what I think, mother what,
indeed, I know. That was not my father’s
real will; my brothers John and Jasper have cheated
you. Of this I am very sure.’
“Mother, though she was so weak
and dying, got quite a color into her cheeks when
I said this. ‘No, no,’ she said, ’don’t
harbor such a thought in your heart my
darling, my darling. Indeed it is utterly impossible.
It was a real, real will. I heard it read, and
your brothers, they were gentlemen. Don’t
let so base a thought of them dwell in your heart.
It is, I know it is, impossible.’
“I said no more to trouble my
dear mother and shortly afterwards she died.
That is six years ago.”