That evening Charlotte came softly
into her father’s study and sat down by his
side. She had not appeared at dinner-time, sending
another excuse. She was not very well, she said;
she would see her father later in the evening.
But as she could not eat, she did not care to come
to dinner. She would like to see her father quite
alone afterwards. Charlotte had worded this verbal
message with great care, for she wished to prepare
her father for something of extra importance.
Even with the tenderest watching it was impossible
to avoid disturbing him a little, and she wished to
prepare him for the very slight but unavoidable shock
she must give. Jasper dined at Prince’s
Gate as usual. But after dinner he went away.
And Charlotte, when she knew this, instantly went down
to her father. She was now perfectly calm.
For the time being had forgotten herself absolutely.
Nothing gives outward composure like self-forgetfulness,
like putting yourself in your fellow-man’s place.
Charlotte had done this when she stepped up to her
old father’s side. She had dressed herself,
too, with special thought for him. There was a
muslin frock, quite clear and simple, which he had
loved. It was a soft Indian fabric, and clung
to her fine figure in graceful folds. She had
made Ward iron it out, and had put it on. Of late
she had considered it too girlish, but to-night she
appeared in it knowing it would please the eyes for
which it was worn.
Mr. Harman was chilly and sat by the
fire. As usual the room was softly but abundantly
lit by candles. Charlotte loved light, and, as
a rule, hated to talk to any one without looking at
that person fully. But to-night an opposite motive
caused her to put out one by one all the candles.
“Does not the room look cosy
with only the firelight?” she said. And
then she sat down on a low stool at her father’s
feet.
“You are better now, my love.
Tell me you are better,” he said, taking her
hand in his.
“I am well enough to sit and
talk to you, father,” she said.
“But what ailed you, Lottie?
You could not come to dinner either yesterday or to-day;
and I remember you looked ill this morning. What
is wrong?”
“I felt troubled, and that has
brought on a headache. But don’t let us
talk about me. I mean, I suppose we must after
a little, but not at first.”
“Whom shall we talk about first?
Who is more important? Is it Hinton? You
cannot get me to think that Charlotte.”
“You are more important. I want to talk
about you.”
Now she got hold of his hand, and,
turning round, gazed firmly into his face.
“Father, you have troubled me.
You have caused my headache.”
Instantly a startled look came into
his eyes; and she, reading him now as,
alas! she knew how to do but too well hastened
to soothe it.
“You wanted to send me away,
to make me less your own, if that were possible.
Father, I have come here to-night to tell you that
I am not going away that I am all your
own, even to the end.”
“My own to the end? Yes,
you must always be that. But what do you mean?”
She felt the hand she held trembling,
and hastened to add,
“Why did you keep the truth
from me? Why did you try to deceive me, your
nearest and dearest, as to your state of health?
But I know it all now. I am not going away from
you.”
“You mean you mean,
Charlotte, you will not marry Hinton next week?”
“No, father.”
“Have you told him?”
“Yes.”
“Charlotte, do you know the worst about me?”
“I know all about you.
I went to see Sir George Anderson this morning.
I forced from him the opinion he has already given
to you. He says that I cannot keep you long.
But while I can, we will never part.”
Mr. Harman’s hand had now ceased
to tremble. It lay warm and quiet in his daughter’s
clasp. After a time he said
“Put your arms round me darling.”
She rose to her feet, clasped her
hands round his neck, and laid her head on his shoulder.
In this position he kissed first her bright hair,
then her cheek and brow.
“But I want my little girl to
leave me,” he said. “Illness need
not make me selfish. You can still be my one
only dear daughter, and yet be Hinton’s wife.”
“I am your only dear daughter,”
she repeated. “Never mind about my being
any man’s wife.” She tried to smile
as she resumed her seat at his feet.
Mr. Harman saw the attempt at a smile,
and it instantly strengthened him to proceed.
“Charlotte, I am not sorry that
you know that which I had not courage either to tell
you or to cause another to tell you. I am yes,
I am dying. Some day before long I must leave
you, my darling. I must go away and return no
more. But before I die I want to see you Hinton’s
wife. It will make me happier to see this, for
you love him, and he can make you happy. You
do love him, Charlotte?”
“Yes, I love him,” she answered.
“Then we will not postpone the
marriage. My child shall marry the man she loves,
and have the strength of his love in the dark days
that must follow; and in one week you will be back
with me, no less my child because you are Hinton’s
wife.”
“Father, I cannot.”
“Not if I wish it, dear if I have
set my heart on it?”
“I cannot,” she repeated.
She felt driven to her wits’ end, and pressed
her hands to her face.
“Charlotte, what is the meaning
of this? There is more here than meets the eye.
Have you and Hinton quarrelled?”
“No, except over this.
And even over this it takes two to make a quarrel.
I cannot marry next week; I have told him so.
He is vexed, and you you are vexed.
Must I break my heart and leave you? You have
always given me my own way; give it now. Don’t
send me away from you. It would break my heart
to marry and leave you now.”
“Is this indeed so, Charlotte?”
he said. “Would you with your whole heart
rather put it off?”
“With my whole, whole heart, I would rather,”
she said.
“I will not urge it. I
cannot; and yet it destroys a hope which I thought
might cheer me on my dying bed.”
“Never mind the hope, father;
you will have me. I shall not spend that week
away from you.”
“No, that week did seem long to look forward
to.”
“Ah! you are glad after all
that I am to be with you,” she said. “You
will let me nurse you and care for you. You will
not force yourself to do more than you are able.
Now that I know all, I can take such care of you,
and the thought of that will make me happier by and
by.”
“It is a relief that you know
the worst,” said Mr. Harman, but he did not
smile or look contented; he, as well as Hinton, felt
that there was more in this strange desire of Charlotte’s
than met the eye.