Morning came with its cares and bustle.
Everyone got up and began to move about and talk,
dressmakers came again. Marya Dmitrievna appeared,
and they were called to breakfast. Natasha kept
looking uneasily at everybody with wide-open eyes,
as if wishing to intercept every glance directed toward
her, and tried to appear the same as usual.
After breakfast, which was her best
time, Marya Dmitrievna sat down in her armchair and
called Natasha and the count to her.
“Well, friends, I have now thought
the whole matter over and this is my advice,”
she began. “Yesterday, as you know, I went
to see Prince Bolkonski. Well, I had a talk with
him.... He took it into his head to begin shouting,
but I am not one to be shouted down. I said what
I had to say!”
“Well, and he?” asked the count.
“He? He’s crazy...
he did not want to listen. But what’s the
use of talking? As it is we have worn the poor
girl out,” said Marya Dmitrievna. “My
advice to you is finish your business and go back home
to Otradnoe... and wait there.”
“Oh, no!” exclaimed Natasha.
“Yes, go back,” said Marya
Dmitrievna, “and wait there. If your betrothed
comes here now there will be no avoiding
a quarrel; but alone with the old man he will talk
things over and then come on to you.”
Count Rostov approved of this suggestion,
appreciating its reasonableness. If the old man
came round it would be all the better to visit him
in Moscow or at Bald Hills later on; and if not, the
wedding, against his wishes, could only be arranged
at Otradnoe.
“That is perfectly true.
And I am sorry I went to see him and took her,”
said the old count.
“No, why be sorry? Being
here, you had to pay your respects. But if he
won’t that’s his affair,”
said Marya Dmitrievna, looking for something in her
reticule. “Besides, the trousseau is ready,
so there is nothing to wait for; and what is not ready
I’ll send after you. Though I don’t
like letting you go, it is the best way. So go,
with God’s blessing!”
Having found what she was looking
for in the reticule she handed it to Natasha.
It was a letter from Princess Mary.
“She has written to you.
How she torments herself, poor thing! She’s
afraid you might think that she does not like you.”
“But she doesn’t like me,” said
Natasha.
“Don’t talk nonsense!” cried Marya
Dmitrievna.
“I shan’t believe anyone,
I know she doesn’t like me,” replied Natasha
boldly as she took the letter, and her face expressed
a cold and angry resolution that caused Marya Dmitrievna
to look at her more intently and to frown.
“Don’t answer like that,
my good girl!” she said. “What I say
is true! Write an answer!” Natasha did
not reply and went to her own room to read Princess
Mary’s letter.
Princess Mary wrote that she was in
despair at the misunderstanding that had occurred
between them. Whatever her father’s feelings
might be, she begged Natasha to believe that she could
not help loving her as the one chosen by her brother,
for whose happiness she was ready to sacrifice everything.
“Do not think, however,”
she wrote, “that my father is ill-disposed toward
you. He is an invalid and an old man who must
be forgiven; but he is good and magnanimous and will
love her who makes his son happy.” Princess
Mary went on to ask Natasha to fix a time when she
could see her again.
After reading the letter Natasha sat
down at the writing table to answer it. “Dear
Princess,” she wrote in French quickly and mechanically,
and then paused. What more could she write after
all that had happened the evening before? “Yes,
yes! All that has happened, and now all is changed,”
she thought as she sat with the letter she had begun
before her. “Must I break off with him?
Must I really? That’s awful...” and
to escape from these dreadful thoughts she went to
Sonya and began sorting patterns with her.
After dinner Natasha went to her room
and again took up Princess Mary’s letter.
“Can it be that it is all over?” she thought.
“Can it be that all this has happened so quickly
and has destroyed all that went before?” She
recalled her love for Prince Andrew in all its former
strength, and at the same time felt that she loved
Kuragin. She vividly pictured herself as Prince
Andrew’s wife, and the scenes of happiness with
him she had so often repeated in her imagination, and
at the same time, aglow with excitement, recalled
every detail of yesterday’s interview with Anatole.
“Why could that not be as well?”
she sometimes asked herself in complete bewilderment.
“Only so could I be completely happy; but now
I have to choose, and I can’t be happy without
either of them. Only,” she thought, “to
tell Prince Andrew what has happened or to hide it
from him are both equally impossible. But with
that one nothing is spoiled. But am I really
to abandon forever the joy of Prince Andrew’s
love, in which I have lived so long?”
“Please, Miss!” whispered
a maid entering the room with a mysterious air.
“A man told me to give you this-” and she
handed Natasha a letter.
“Only, for Christ’s sake...”
the girl went on, as Natasha, without thinking, mechanically
broke the seal and read a love letter from Anatole,
of which, without taking in a word, she understood
only that it was a letter from him from
the man she loved. Yes, she loved him, or else
how could that have happened which had happened?
And how could she have a love letter from him in her
hand?
With trembling hands Natasha held
that passionate love letter which Dolokhov had composed
for Anatole, and as she read it she found in it an
echo of all that she herself imagined she was feeling.
“Since yesterday evening my
fate has been sealed; to be loved by you or to die.
There is no other way for me,” the letter began.
Then he went on to say that he knew her parents would
not give her to him for this there were
secret reasons he could reveal only to her but
that if she loved him she need only say the word yes,
and no human power could hinder their bliss.
Love would conquer all. He would steal her away
and carry her off to the ends of the earth.
“Yes, yes! I love him!”
thought Natasha, reading the letter for the twentieth
time and finding some peculiarly deep meaning in each
word of it.
That evening Marya Dmitrievna was
going to the Akharovs’ and proposed to take
the girls with her. Natasha, pleading a headache,
remained at home.