Caius clambered up the cliff and over
the fence to the highroad. A man with a cartload
of corn was coming past. Caius looked at him and
his horse, and at the familiar stretch of road.
It was a relief so to look. On a small green
hillock by the roadside thistles grew thickly; they
were in flower and seed at once, and in the sunshine
the white down, purple flowers, and silver-green leaves
glistened a little picture, perfect in
itself, of graceful lines and exquisite colour, having
for its background the hedge of stunted fir that bordered
the other side of the road. Caius feasted his
eyes for a minute and then turned homeward, walking
for awhile beside the cart and talking to the carter,
just to be sure that there was nothing wild or strange
about himself to attract the man’s attention.
The cart raised no dust in the red clay of the road;
the monotonous creak of its wheels and the dull conversation
of its owner were delightful to Caius because they
were so real and commonplace.
Caius felt very guilty. He could
not excuse himself to himself for the fact that he
had not only seen so wild a vision but now felt the
greatest reluctance to make known his strange adventure
to anyone. He could not precisely determine why
this reluctance was guilty on his part, but he had
a feeling that, although a sensible man could not be
much blamed for seeing a mermaid if he did see one,
such a man would rouse the neighbourhood, and take
no rest till the phenomenon was investigated; or,
if that proved impossible, till the subject was at
least thoroughly ventilated. The ideal man who
acted thus would no doubt be jeered at, but, secure
in his own integrity, he could easily support the
jeers. Caius would willingly have changed places
with this model hero, but he could not bring himself
to act the part. Even the reason of this unwillingness
he could not at once lay his hand upon, but he felt
about his mind far it, and knew that it circled round
and round the memory of the sea-maid’s face.
That fresh oval face, surrounded with
wet curls, crowned with its fantastic wreath of glistening
weed it was not alone because of its fresh
girlish prettiness that he could not endure to make
it the talk of the country, but because, strange as
it seemed to him to admit it, the face was to him
like the window of a lovely soul. It was true
that she had laughed and played; it was true that
she was, or pretended to be, half a fish; but, for
all that, he would as soon have held up to derision
his mother, he would as soon have derided all that
he held to be most worthy in woman and all that he
held to be beautiful and sacred in ideal, as have
done despite to the face that looked at him out of
the waves that afternoon. His memory held this
face before him, held it lovingly, reverently, and
his lips shut firmly over the tale of wonder he might
have told.
At the gate of one of the fields a
girl stood waiting for him. It was his cousin
Mabel, and when he saw her he knew that she must have
come to pay them a visit, and he knew too that she
must have come because he was at home. He was
not attached to his cousin, who was an ordinary young
person, but hitherto he had always rather enjoyed her
society, because he knew that it was her private ambition
to marry him. He did not attribute affection
to Mabel, only ambition; but that had pleased his
vanity. To-day he felt exceedingly sorry that
she had come.
Mabel held the gate shut so that he could not pass.
“Where have you been?” asked she, pretending
sternness.
“Just along by the shore.”
He noticed as he said it that Mabel’s frock
had a dragged look about the waist, and that the seams
were noticeable because of its tightness. He
remembered that her frocks had this appearance frequently,
and he wished they were not so ill-made.
“I shan’t let you in,”
cried Mabel sportively, “till you tell me exactly
what you’ve been doing for this age.”
“I have not been serving my
age much,” he said, with some weariness in his
tone.
“What?” said Mabel.
“You asked me what I had been
doing for this age,” said he. It was miserably
stupid to explain.
When Caius and Mabel had sauntered
up through the warm fields to the house, his mother
met them in the front parlour with a fresh cap on.
Her cap, and her presence in that room, denoted that
Mabel was company. She immediately began to make
sly remarks concerning Mabel’s coming to them
while Caius was at home, about her going to meet him,
and their homeward walk together.
The mother was comparatively at ease
about Mabel; she had little idea that Caius would
ever make love to her, so she could enjoy her good-natured
slyness to the full. What hurt Caius was that
she did enjoy it, that it was just her natural way
never to see two young people of opposite sex together
without immediately thinking of the subject of marriage,
and sooner or later betraying her thought. Heretofore
he had been so accustomed to this cast of mind that,
when it had tickled neither his sense of humour nor
his vanity, he had been indifferent to it. To-night
he knew it was vulgar; but he had no contempt for it,
because it was his mother who was betraying vulgarity.
He felt sorry that she should be like that that
all the men and women with whom she was associated
were like that. He felt sorry for Mabel, because
she enjoyed it, and consequently more tenderhearted
towards her than he had ever felt before.
He had not, however, a great many
thoughts to give to this sorrow, for he was thinking
continually of the bright apparition of the afternoon.
When he went to his room to get ready
for tea he fell into a muse, looking over the fields
and woods to the distant glimpse of blue water he
could see from his window. When he came down to
the evening meal, he found himself wondering foolishly
upon what food the child lost in the sea had fed while
she grew so rapidly to a woman’s stature.
The present meal was such as fell to the daily lot
of that household. In homely blue delft cups
a dozen or more eggs were ranged beside high stacks
of buttered toast, rich and yellow. The butter,
the jugs of yellow cream, the huge platter heaped
with wild raspberries as each of these met
his eye he was wondering if the sea-maid ever ate
such food, or if her diet was more delicate.
“Am I going mad?” he thought
to himself. The suspicion was depressing.
Three hours after, Caius sough his
father as the old man was making his nightly tour
of the barns and stables. By way of easing his
own sense of responsibility he had decided to tell
his father what he had seen, and his telling was much
like such confession of sins as many people make,
soothing their consciences by an effort that does not
adequately reveal the guilt to the listener.
Caius came up just as his father was
locking the stable door.
“Look here, father; wait a minute.
I have something to say. I saw a very curious
thing down at the shore to-day, but I don’t want
you to tell mother, or Mabel, or the men.”
The old man stood gravely expectant.
The summer twilight just revealed the outline of his
thin figure and ragged hair and beard.
“It was in the water swimming
about, making darts here and there like a big trout.
Its body was brown, and it looked as if it had horny
balls round its neck; and its head, you know, was
like a human being’s.”
“I never heard tell of a fish
like that, Caius. Was it a porpoise?”
“Well, I suppose I know what a porpoise is like.”
“About how large was it?”
said the elder man, abandoning the porpoise theory.
“I should think about five or six feet long.”
“As long as that? Did it look as if it
could do any harm?”
“No; I should think it was harmless;
but, father, I tell you its head looked like a person’s
head.”
“Was it a shark with a man stuck in its throat?”
“N n no.”
Not liking to deny this ingenious suggestion too promptly,
he feigned to consider it. “It wasn’t
a dead man’s head; it was like a live woman’s
head.”
“I never heard of sharks coming
near shore here, any way,” added the old man.
“What distance was it off half a mile?”
“It came between me and the
little island off which we lost baby Day. It
lay half-way between the island and the shore.”
The old man was not one to waste words.
He did not remark that in that case Caius must have
seen the creature clearly, for it went without saying.
“Pity you hadn’t my gun,” he said.
Caius inwardly shuddered, but because
he wished to confide as far as he might, he said outwardly:
“I shouldn’t have liked to shoot at it;
its face looked so awfully human, you know.”
“Yes,” assented the elder,
who had a merciful heart “it’s wonderful
what a look an animal has in its eyes sometimes.”
He was slowly shuffling round to the next door with
his keys. “Well, I’m sure, my lad,
I don’t know what it could ha’ been, unless
’twas some sort of a porpoise.”
“We should be quite certain
to know if there was any woman paying a visit hereabout,
shouldn’t we? A woman couldn’t possibly
swim across the bay.”
“Woman!” The old man turned
upon him sternly. “I thought you said it
was a fish.”
“I said she swam like
a fish. She might have been a woman dressed in
a fish-skin, perhaps; but there isn’t any woman
here that could possibly be acting like that and
old Morrison told me the same thing was about the
shore the summer before he died.”
His father still looked at him sharply.
“Well, the question is, whether the thing you
saw was a woman or a fish, for you must have seen it
pretty clear, and they aren’t alike, as far as
I know.”
Caius receded from the glow of confidence.
“It lay pretty much under the water, and wasn’t
still long at a time.”
The old man looked relieved, and in
his relief began to joke. “I was thinking
you must have lost your wits, and thought you’d
seen a mermaid,” he chuckled.
“I’d think it was a mermaid
in a minute” boldly “if
there were such things.”
Caius felt relieved when he had said
this, but the old man had no very distinct idea in
his mind attached to the mythical word, so he let go
the thought easily.
“Was it a dog swimming?”
“No,” said Caius, “it wasn’t
a dog.”
“Well, I give it up. Next
time you see it, you’d better come and fetch
the gun, and then you can take it to the musee up at
your college, and have it stuffed and put in a case,
with a ticket to say you presented it. That’s
all the use strange fish are that I know of.”
When Caius reflected on this conversation,
he knew that he had been a hypocrite.