Days had come of endless flaking snow;
and the hard frost kept the snow tight-packed in the
garden, alongside the house, the silent, massive building
whose thick white lines stood out against the low-hanging
snow-laden skies: one great greyness from out
of which the grey of the snow fell with a sleepy whirl
until it was caught in the grip of the frost and turned
white, describing the outlines of villa-houses and
the branching silhouettes of black and dreary trees
with round soft strokes of white. The road in
front of the house soon soiled its whiteness with
cart-tracks and footprints; and with the snow there
fell from the sky, like so much grey wool, the pale
melancholy of a winter in the country, all white decay
and white loneliness: days so short that it seemed
as though the slow hours slept and, when awake, but
dragged their whiter veils from grey dawn to grey
twilight, so that dawn might once again be turned
to night. And the short days were like white nights,
sunless, as though the light were shining through
velvet, as though life were breathing through velvet,
velvet cold as the breath of death, the breath of
death itself, striking down and embracing all things
in its chill velvet....
In the big house reigned the silent
warmth of domesticity in big heated rooms and passages,
with the rich browns of the heavy old carpets and
curtains which had lived long and were beginning to
grow worn in weary attitudes and folds of chamber
contemplation, as though the dead stuffs looked down
and dreamed and breathed in sympathy with all that
lived among them, while in the snowy light reflected
from outside the mahogany furniture also gleamed with
its own life or cast back things of long ago, past
sufferings of small people and past sentiments.
The silent moods of old and lonely people seemed to
rise up from the old, solemn furniture, which smiled
good-humouredly because so much new life had come
into the midst of it from the outside: the chair-springs
moaned, the cupboard-doors creaked, the looking-glasses
grew dull and bright in turns, the china became chipped,
the silver became scratched, full of the serviceable
humility of those very old, wearing things of daily
life, which had long been used and were dying off slowly,
while all around and about them blossomed the new
movement of the new life from without. And yet,
despite that new movement and that new life, a soul
of the past seemed to hover through the long passages,
up the brown stairs, to skim along the dark doors,
even though these, when opened, gave admission to
the rooms of the new life. Even in the rooms themselves,
something still hovered of that soul of the past; and
the furniture reflected that soul, as though it were
vaguely clinging to material things, a soul catching
at earthly things when itself had not yet died out
entirely....
In among these reflections of the
soul-things of the past there lingered a remnant of
biblical piety, because of the titles of certain books
in the book-cases, because of certain old-fashioned
engravings in the dark rooms; and at certain hours
of silent twilight there passed through the house
a sort of hover of prayer, which Constance sometimes
felt so intently that, on Sunday mornings, she always
insisted that the girls at least should go to church,
as though they were almost bound to do so out of reverence
for the old people who used to live and pray here ...
and especially for the old man. And the thought
that she herself did not go troubled her so greatly
that, very occasionally, she accompanied the girls,
though she continued insensible to any impression derived
from liturgical religion. And the things of the
past that flickered and hovered and formed the intangible
atmosphere of the dark passages and the rich-brown
rooms, in which the only gay note was struck by the
blue-and-white of the Delft pots and jars: those
things of the past all unconsciously harmonized with
the mood only of Van der Welcke, because
something of his childhood was wafted and reflected
in them, and of Addie, because of his vague sense
of inheriting not only the material but also the immaterial
things with which the big house remained filled.
Though he felt a stranger to the old man, he felt related
to the old woman, with a strange retrospect of what
he knew of her and remembered of her later, silent,
mystic years, when liturgical piety was not enough
to satisfy her.
But for the rest the house remained
as it were one great hospitality, though alien in
blood to so many who had found a shelter in it and
a sanctuary: the old, doting woman at the window,
peering out at the snow-grey garden-vistas; the mourning
and still young mother, with her grown-up children;
and Emilie, full of silent mystery. And, the other
day, in a drifting blizzard, Constance had brought
home Marietje van Saetzema Mary, as they
decided to call her and they had given her
Guy’s room, now that Guy worked in a corner of
Addie’s study, where he heaped up his books
on a little table. The house gradually became
very full. The daughter-in-law also remained
alien to the big house; but the children, Constance
and Jetje, were always like golden sunbeams, sometimes
whirling in a sound of yet stammering voices of early
springtime, as they went along the stairs and passages
with their nurse one already toddling on
foot, the other still carried to go for
a drive in the governess-cart or to play in the conservatory,
where the old great-grandmother, at the window, looked
on with vague smiles at their playfulness, which was
that of very small children.
And, the day after Constance’
arrival with Marietje in the grey-white blizzard,
how surprised they all were when Addie telegraphed
that he was coming, next day, with Uncle Ernst!
Two or three words only in the telegram, with no explanation:
how astounded they were that Addie had managed to
get that done! Constance and Guy went at once
to the little villa where they took in patients:
yes, the doctor had already wired for the two rooms,
they were told, and everything was being got ready,
that was to say, the bedroom; for the gentleman would
furnish the sitting-room himself. And on the
next day Addie and Uncle Ernst actually arrived.
Ernst’s furniture was being sent on from the
Hague; his china had been packed up under his own
and Addie’s supervision; and, though Ernst at
first looked at the bare sitting-room with great suspicion,
tapping at the walls, listening at the partition and
declaring that the people the man of the
house, himself a male nurse, and the trained nurse,
his wife were spying behind the door, just
like the landlady and her cad of a brother at the
Hague, nevertheless he was pleased, surprised to find
the room so large, though he missed the sombre canal
in the Nieuwe Uitleg, which he loved for the gloom
of its colouring and atmosphere. As he passed
through the garden with Addie, leaning on Addie’s
arm, he thought it strange that he saw walking through
the white snow, accompanied by the nurse, an old lady,
the only patient at the moment, though there were
several in the summer, and he looked at her with suspicion;
but he was pleased again and surprised when Addie
explained to him how very near he would be living to
all of them; and, when Addie brought him to the house,
Ernst stood by the garden-gate gazing at it and looked
up at the snow-corniced gable, at the soft snow on
the straight lines of the windows and above the door.
The great house seemed to look down upon him benignly
with all the eyes of its window-panes; and he went
on, leaning on Addie’s arm, through the garden
and inside. He had never been there before.
He took an immediate interest in the antique cabinet
in the hall, the engravings, the Delft jars and nodded
his head approvingly, admitting that this was beautiful.
Constance welcomed him cordially; and, though he had
not seen Mamma for years, he greeted her in all simplicity,
as if he had parted from her only yesterday.
She held his hand, looked him in the face, recognized
him for a son of hers but did not know his name, imagined
that he had come from Java, asked after things and
mentioned names.... They did not understand each
other; and Constance felt very sad, especially because
of little Klaasje, playing at Mamma’s feet with
lovely coloured picture-books which “Uncle”
Addie had given her:
“Look ... a blue man ... yellow
woman ... red! And outside ... everything white
... everything white.... everything white!...”
And suddenly so heavy a melancholy
arose in Constance that she could have burst out sobbing
because of her mother, her brother, because of that
child of her poor brother Gerrit! But she made
a violent effort of self-control, put her arm round
Ernst’s shoulder and led him away from Mamma;
and Adeline and Emilie came to speak to him. Oh,
the things of the past not the past things
of which the atoms still hovered about this house,
those of the old people, but the things of their own
past, of the bygone dead years of all of them, years
of a youth not so long ago how they crowded
in amongst them all, how they filled the atmosphere
of the faintly sombre room, while the snow reflected
its gleams indoors to water away brightly in the old
mirrors!... How did they all come to be here
like this, how did they all come to be here like this,
as in a refuge, as in a sanctuary, a silent haven of
simple love?... How nerveless she became, how
nerveless, when she saw her husband and her son come
in, those two who ...! She could not pursue
her thoughts of nervelessness and sadness any further.
Alex also now entered; and in him, so young, so young,
she also saw all the past, flashing at her suddenly
out of his eyes, with the vision of his father’s
death.... But now the girls came in too, and,
when Guy and Gerdy came, both laughing, she also laughed,
because of their gaiety, their flaxen-haired joy in
living, young and strong and healthy and simple, both
of them.... How happy, how happy those two were!
Oh, the more the past heaped itself up, the more the
present was overcast with shadow; but those two, Gerdy
and Guy, were young and strong and healthy and simple!...
Happy, happy! And, with a laugh almost of happiness,
however intensely she might feel all the things of
the past, she asked Addie:
“Isn’t it too much for Uncle Ernst, now?”
“Yes, I shall take him home,” said Addie.
“Can’t he stay and dine one day?”
“Perhaps later on; he must get
used to it first. The great thing is not to force
him.”
And he suggested to Ernst that they should go back.
But Ernst said:
“When will my packing-cases come?”
“To-morrow, Uncle.”
“You see, if I’m to get everything in
order....”
“I’ll help you.”
“Will you help me unpack?”
“I’ll help you too, Uncle,” said
Guy.
“Yes,” said Ernst, “that’s
right.... You see,” he whispered to Addie
...
“What, Uncle?”
“It’s not good ... for
the vases to remain in the cases so long.... You
don’t believe it, of course, but....”
He did not complete his sentence,
would not say that the vases were suffocating in their
cases, with all that paper and straw; he would not
say it, because Addie was so kind, a kind-hearted fellow,
really, but devoid of understanding, stupid, just
as stupid as all the rest of them....
“We shall unpack as quickly
as we can, Uncle, and make the room comfortable for
you.”
“Yes. I have only the bedroom at present.”
“The bedroom’s all right, isn’t
it?”
“Yes. Am I to have my dinner there to-night?”
“If you don’t mind ... as your sitting-room
isn’t ready....”
“Yes. I don’t care
for dining in my bedroom. Can’t I stay and
dine here?”
“Certainly, Uncle. We should
like that above all things. Aren’t the
troop of us too noisy for you?”
“They are a bit noisy, but ...
no, they’re very good. Tell me, Addie,
they’re all children of Uncle Gerrit, aren’t
they?”
“Of Uncle Gerrit, yes.”
“Yes, yes, I remember.
I should like to stay and dine, if I may. It’s
because the sitting-room isn’t ready, you see.”
“Very well, Uncle. Then
come upstairs now, to my study. Then you can
rest a bit and read, or sleep if you like, on the sofa.”
“No, I never sleep by day.”
“It’ll be quiet for you there.”
“Yes, it’s quiet where you are.”
“Come with me.”
He took Ernst upstairs.
“This is a nice, quiet room,” said Ernst.
“Then I’ll leave you by
yourself. You’ll find books and papers....
Can you manage to occupy yourself alone?”
“Yes, my dear boy; I want to
be alone. You’re kind, you’re very
kind. You understand me. I shall be glad
to stay and dine.”
“Would you like your dinner up here?”
“No, downstairs, with all of
you. They’re Uncle Gerrit’s children,
aren’t they? You see, it’s all family.
I’d rather dine downstairs.”
“All right, I’ll come and fetch you.”