“Yes,” said Paul, as he
followed Constance out of her own sitting-room, while
she, with her key-basket over her arm, went down the
stairs with Marietje and Gerdy, “yes, I’m
not ashamed to confess it: I’ve come to
see how the country suits me. The Hague is becoming
so dirty that I can’t stand it any longer.
What a dirty place a town is! It’s much
cleaner in the country.... You’re fortunate,
you people. But I daresay I should have stayed
on at the Hague I’m not really a man
for the country if my landlady wasn’t
getting so old, if she wasn’t always changing
the servants, if those servants weren’t so unspeakably
slovenly and dirty.... She produced such specimens
lately that I gave her notice.... I’d had
those rooms fourteen years.... It’ll be
a great change for me.... But I couldn’t
stand it any longer. I had to see to everything
myself; and I’m getting too old for that....
Yes, I still do my wash-hand-stand myself....
But look here, Constance, when it came to making my
bed because the servant’s hands were
dirty and my sheets one night smelt of onions you
know, that was really too much to expect. I’m
no longer a young man: I’m forty-six.
Yes, that’s right, you young baggages, laugh
at your old uncle! I’m forty-six, forty-six.
Lord, what a lot of dirt I’ve seen in those
years!... As the years go by, filth heaps itself
around you like a mountain: there’s no getting
through it. Politics, people, servants, bedclothes,
everything you eat, everything you touch, everything
you do, say, think or feel: it’s a beastly
business, just one sickening mass of filth....
The only pure, unsullied thing that I have found in
the world is music. Ah, what a pure thing music
is!...”
“Paul, I must just go down to
the store-room and have a talk with my cook about
the filth which I’m to give you this evening,”
said Constance; and the girls laughed.
“All right, I’ll come
with you ... I sha’n’t be in the way.
Ah, what a pure thing music is!” he continued,
in the store-room, while the cook opened wide eyes.
“Look at painting, for instance, how dirty:
oil-colours, turpentine, a palette, paint-brushes,
water, all equally messy. Sculpture: clay
and damp cloths; literature: what’s more
loathsomely dirty than ink, the oceans of ink which
an author pours forth?... But music: that’s
tone, that’s purity, that’s sheer Platonism....
Oh, no, since they’ve taken to building public
conveniences at the street-corners in the Hague, I
can’t go on living there!”
“Paul!” said Constance,
warningly; but he was too much worked up to understand
that she was rebuking him. “Run away now,
with the girls and leave me with Keetje. Look at
her, staring at you and not minding a word I say....
Keetje, listen to me, I want to order the dinner; and
you, Paul, ajo, be off!”
“Come away, Uncle!” said
Marietje, “Keetje, at Driebergen, isn’t
accustomed to hear everything called so dirty.”
“Keetje’s proud of her
kitchen, aren’t you, Keetje?” said Gerdy.
“Oh, well,” said Keetje,
“I expect meneer doesn’t mean all he says.”
“Not mean all I say!”
Paul shouted at the servant, who stood calmly with
her arms akimbo. “Not mean all I say!”
“One can do a lot with scrubbing,
sir, to keep things nice and clean.”
“And I tell you,” Paul
blazed out, “that everything’s dirty, except
music....”
“And except my kitchen!”
said Keetje, greatly offended. “I don’t
know what sort of servants meneer’s had.
But we’re good cleaners here, aren’t we,
ma’am?... Yes, I know, old Mie is
very old and mevrouw only keeps her on out of kindness
... and we’ve got young help besides....
But dirty!” shaking her head energetically.
“There’s no dirt here ... though it is
an old house ... and a big family....”
“Girls! Paul!” cried
Constance, in despair. “I’ve no time
to stand in my store-room arguing about what’s
dirty and what not in the world or in Keetje’s
kitchen.... Get out of this!... And you,
Keetje, listen to me and answer me.”
“Yes, ma’am.”
“Uncle, come along!” said Gerdy.
“We’ll show you Keetje’s kitchen.”
“Well, meneer can inspect that
with pleasure!” said Keetje, by way of a last
shot.
The girls dragged Paul off to the
kitchen, where they were joined by Adeletje and even
by Marietje van Saetzema; and they screamed with merriment
when Paul examined the pans one after the other:
“But look, Uncle ... they’re
shining like silver and gold!”
“Well, we can have our
dinner out of them to-night.... Still, children,
music, music is the only pure thing in the world!”
“Provided it’s not false.”
“Of course it mustn’t be false....
Have you a good piano here?”
“Yes, Uncle, Mathilde has hers
upstairs and here’s mine, in the conservatory,”
said Gerdy. “I’m the only one who
plays.”
Paul sat down at the piano, struck a few chords:
“The tone is fairly good.... Ah, music,
music!...”
And he played. He played Wotan’s
Farewell, followed by the Fire Magic....
He played very well, by heart: his pale, narrow
features became animated, his long fingers quivered,
his eyes lit up. In the conservatory the old
mother listened, heard merely a flow of soothing sound.
At her feet, Klaasje listened, playing with her toys.
Mathilde came from upstairs; after her came Guy, deserting
his books. Paul played, went on playing ... he
had forgotten all about them. Suddenly he stopped:
“You mustn’t think,”
he said abruptly, “that I am an unconditional
Wagner-worshipper. His music is delightful; his
poetry is crude, childish and thin; his philosophy
is very faulty and horribly German and vague....
Proofs? You ask for proofs?... Take the Rheingold:
did you ever see such gods? With no real strength,
no real marrow in their coarse thieves’ souls,
their burglars’ souls full of filth....
Is that the beginning of a world? No, a world
begins in a purer fashion.... And so childishly
and crudely: the world’s treasure, the gold,
the pure gold guarded by three dirty Lorelei, with
their hair full of sea-weed, who, the moment they
set eyes upon a dwarf, start giggling and making fun....
Are those the pure guardians of the pure gold?
But the music in itself, the purity of tone:
oh, in that purity of tone he is a master!...”
And he played the prelude to the Rheingold,
played it twice consecutively. Suddenly he stopped
once more:
“Oh, Gerdy, how dusty your piano
is!... Does no one ever wipe the keys?...
Where can I wash my hands?”
“Uncle dear, do go on playing!”
“And my fingers black with dust?
No, look here, Keetje’s pans may shine like
silver and gold, but your piano is a sounding-board
of dirt. Where can I wash my hands?”
“Here, at the tap.”
She led him to the hall.
“Well, first find me a clean towel.”
“The towel is clean, sir,” said Truitje,
who happened to be passing.
“No, I want a towel fresh from the wash, folded
in nice, clean folds.”
And it was great fun: Marietje
ran hunting for Constance, to get the keys of the
linen-press.
“So you’ve come to live
here?” said Van der Welcke, who came
down while Paul was washing his hands.
“Yes, I had a sudden, irresistible
impulse to move to Driebergen. I was feeling
a little lonely at the Hague,” he confessed.
“I am growing old and lonely. And it’s
cleaner in the country; the air is less foul, though
I’m not lucky with this thaw. The road outside
was one great puddle. But I have found two airy
rooms, in a villa.... It’s strange, I should
never have believed that I could ever come and live
at Driebergen ... and in the winter too!...”
He inspected his hands, which were now clean:
“Imagine,” he said, “if
there were no water left! I should be dead next
day!”
Paul really brightened up. He
was a great deal at the house, very soon got into
the habit of dining there every evening and, because
he felt scruples at always taking his meals at Van
der Welcke’s expense, he made handsome
presents, as a set-off for his sponging, he said, so
that in the end it cost him more than if he had dined
every day at home. He ordered fine flowers and
fruit from the Hague; on Van der Welcke’s
birthday, he gave him a case of champagne; on Constance’
birthday, a parcel of caravan tea, because he came
and had tea with them every afternoon. In this
way he contributed generously to the house-keeping
and relieved his scruples. He brightened up considerably,
after his recent years of loneliness, talked away
lustily, broached his philosophies, played Wagner;
and even Mathilde accepted him as a pleasant change,
with a touch of the Hague about him.
Constance would rebuke him at times and say:
“Paul, I won’t have you
constantly ordering that expensive fruit for me from
the Hague.”
“My dear Constance,” he
would answer, “I’m saving the cost of it
on my ties; for my dandyism is gradually wearing away.”
In the evening, in the great sitting-room while
the wind blew round the house and the dice fell hard
on the backgammon-board and the gaudy colour of the
cards flickered in the hands of the bridge-players Paul’s
music came as a new sound, driving away the grey melancholy,
tinkling in drops of silver harmony. He played
everything by heart; and the only thing that his attentive
audience couldn’t stand was his habit of suddenly
breaking off in the most delightful passages to defend
some philosophical thesis which no one at that instant
was thinking of attacking, with which everyone agreed
at the time. Nevertheless, despite his playing
and his new-found cheerfulness, he felt old, lonely
and aimless. Whenever he had an opportunity of
talking quietly to Constance for a moment, without
having to run after her downstairs, to the store-room,
he would say, sadly:
“I? I’m an old bachelor,
an old boy. I’m a typical old bachelor.”
“You ought to get married, Paul,” she
said, one day.
He gave a violent start:
“Constance,” he said,
“if ever you try to lay a trap for me, I swear
I’ll run away and you shall never set eyes on
me again!... Where should I find a wife who would
be as tidy as I? And then I’m so difficult
to please that the poor child would have a terrible
life of it.... Sometimes, yes, sometimes I do
cherish the illusion ... of marriage with a very young
girl, one whom I could train according to my ideas,
my philosophy, my ideas and philosophy of purity ...
of which the loftiest is the idea of purity in soul
and life....”
“That’s a regular old
bachelor’s idea, Paul: getting married to
a very young girl, training her in your ideas.
A fine woman of thirty or over: that’s
better.”
“As old as that!” exclaimed Paul.
“A woman of thirty is not old for a man of forty-six.”
“No, Constance, don’t
trouble your head. Marriage is a desperate affair.
No, it’s a good thing that I never got married....
But I do feel lonely sometimes. I’m glad
I came to live here.... It’s you who are
providing, the family-picture now.... Poor Mamma!
She still knows me quite well. But she thinks
that I am still very, very young.... Yes, the
family-picture is with you now, not on Sunday evenings,
but every day of the week.... Now that I’m
growing old, I feel myself becoming more pastoral
than I used to be. Do you remember how I used
to abuse the family and deny family-affection and
how angry poor Gerrit used to get? Now I’m
growing very idyllic and I’m throwing back and
longing for the family in the desert.... I’m
glad that your house has become a centre for the family,
Constance. But for that, there would be nothing
to keep us together. Oh, it’s a melancholy
thing to grow so old, lonely as I am! What have
I to live for? Nothing.... Well, with you,
I am still at least a sort of rich uncle, one from
whom the children may have expectations: I dare
say I shall leave each of my nephews and nieces a trifle.
I must have a talk with my solicitor one day.
It won’t be much for them, but I’ll leave
them enough to buy a clock, or some other ornament
for their mantelpiece..... And your old friend
Brauws is back at the Hague, you know.... Oh,
didn’t you know? Hasn’t he written?
He’s sure to soon.... I met him the other
day: the fellow’s grown old. He always
had an old face: wrinkles are things that need
looking after; they want massage.... I used to
massage mine, but I’ve given it up: my personal
vanity has gone. As you see, I wear the same
tie always. I’m fond of this tie. I
have it steamed from time to time: that keeps
it fresh. It’s a nice tie; but I no longer
have such a collection as I used to.... Yes, the
family no longer cling together at the Hague.
Karel and Cateau still do nothing but eat good dinners
by themselves. For years and years they have done
nothing but eat good meals together. Lord, Lord,
what a disgusting pair to find their pleasure in that!...
Saetzema and Adolphine: that’s a sad case;
you people have been very kind to Marietje....
Otto and Frances have a heap of children now and that
good Louise looks after them, while Frances makes
a scene one day and embraces her the next with a great
display of emotion and loads of tears. And that
has lasted for years too.... Yes, the years pass.
I simply couldn’t bear it any longer, especially
with those sluts of servants whom my landlady started
engaging lately. I yearned for cleanliness and
... for my family. It’s a sign that I’m
growing very old, Constance. My dotage is always
marked by that idyllic longing.... That’s
why I take so much pleasure in immersing myself amid
you all in family-affection. It’s a great
thing that none of you quarrel; even you and your
husband don’t quarrel any more. It’s
become the golden age.”