I live high up in a city house all
alone. My room is a cosy little place, though
there is nothing very splendid in it, — only
my pictures and books, my flowers and my little friend.
When I began to live there, I was very busy and therefore
very happy; but by-and-by, when my hurry was over
and I had more time to myself, I often felt lonely.
When I ate my meals I used to wish for a pleasant
companion to eat with me; and when I sat by the fire
of evenings, I thought how much more social it would
be if some one sat opposite. I had many friends
and callers through the day, but the evenings were
often rather dull; for I couldn’t read much,
and didn’t care to go out in the stormy weather.
I was wishing for a cheerful friend
one night, when all of a sudden I found one; for,
sitting on my hand, I saw a plump, jolly-looking fly.
He sat quietly staring at me, with a mild little hum,
as if to say, —
‘How are you? You wanted
a friend, and here I am. Will you have me?’
Of course I would, for I liked him
directly, he was so cheery and confiding, and seemed
as glad to see me as I was to see him. All his
mates were dead and gone, and he was alone, like myself.
So I waggled one finger, by way of welcome, fearing
to shake my hand, lest he should tumble off and feel
hurt at my reception. He seemed to understand
me, and buzzed again, evidently saying, —
’Thank you, ma’am.
I should like to stay in your warm room, and amuse
you for my board. I won’t disturb you, but
do my best to be a good little friend.’
So the bargain was struck, and he
stopped to tea. I found that his manners had
been neglected; for he was inclined to walk over the
butter, drink out of the cream-pot, and put his fingers
in the jelly. A few taps with my spoon taught
him to behave with more propriety, and he sipped a
drop of milk from the waiter with a crumb of sugar,
as a well-bred fly should do.
On account of his fine voice, I named
him Buzz, and we soon got on excellently together.
He seemed to like his new quarters, and, after exploring
every corner of the room, he chose his favourite haunts
and began to enjoy himself. I always knew where
he was, for he kept up a constant song, humming and
buzzing, like a little kettle getting ready to boil.
On sunny days, he amused himself by
bumping his head against the window, and watching
what went on outside. It would have given me a
headache, but he seemed to enjoy it immensely.
Up in my hanging basket of ivy he made his bower,
and sat there on the moss basking in the sunshine,
as luxuriously as any gentleman in his conservatory.
He was interested in the plants, and examined them
daily with great care, walking over the ivy leaves,
grubbing under the moss, and poking his head into the
unfolding hyacinth buds to see how they got on.
The pictures, also, seemed to attract
his attention, for he spent much time skating over
the glasses and studying the designs. Sometimes
I would find him staring at my Madonna, as if he said,
’What in the world are all those topsy-turvy
children about?’ Then he’d sit in the middle
of a brook, in a water-color sketch by Vautin, as if
bathing his feet, or seem to be eating the cherry
which one little duck politely offers another little
duck, in Oscar Pletch’s Summer Party. He
frequently kissed my mother’s portrait, and
sat on my father’s bald head, as if trying to
get out some of the wisdom stored up there, like honey
in an ill-thatched bee-hive. My bronze Mercury
rather puzzled him, for he could not understand why
the young gentleman didn’t fly off when he had
four wings and seemed in such a hurry.
I’m afraid he was a trifle vain,
for he sat before the glass a great deal, and I often
saw him cleaning his proboscis, and twiddling his
feelers, and I know he was ‘prinking,’
as we say. The books pleased him, too, and he
used to run them over, as if trying to choose which
he would read, and never seemed able to decide.
He would have nothing to say to the fat French Dictionary,
or my English Plays, but liked Goethe and Schiller,
Emerson and Browning, as well as I did. Carlyle
didn’t suit him, and Richter evidently made
his head ache. But Jean Ingelow’s Poems
delighted him, and so did her ‘Stories told to
a Child.’ ’Fairy Bells’ he
often listened to, and was very fond of the pictures
in a photograph book of foreign places and great people.
He frequently promenaded on the piazza
of a little Swiss chalet, standing on the mantel-piece,
and thought it a charming residence for a single gentleman
like himself. The closet delighted him extremely,
and he buzzed in the most joyful manner when he got
among the provisions, — for we kept house
together. Such revels as he had in the sugar-bowl;
such feasts of gingerbread and grapes; such long sips
of milk, and sly peeps into every uncovered box and
dish! Once I’m afraid he took too much
cider, for I found him lying on his back, kicking and
humming like a crazy top, and he was very queer all
the rest of that day; so I kept the bottle corked
after that. But his favorite nook was among the
ferns in the vase which a Parian dancing-girl carried.
She stood just over the stove on one little toe, rattling
some castanets, which made no sound, and never getting
a step farther for all her prancing. This was
a warm and pretty retreat for Buzz, and there he spent
much of his time, swinging on the ferns, sleeping snugly
in the vase, or warming his feet in the hot air that
blew up, like a south wind, from the stove.
I don’t believe there was a
happier fly in Boston than my friend Buzz, and I grew
fonder and fonder of him every day; for he never got
into mischief, but sung his cheery song, no matter
what the weather was, and made himself agreeable.
Then he was so interested in all I did, it was delightful
to have him round. When I wrote he came and walked
about over my paper to see that it was right, peeped
into my ink-stand, and ran after my pen. He never
made silly or sharp criticisms on my stories, but
appeared to admire them very much; so I am sure he
was a good judge. When I sewed, he sat in my
basket, or played hide-and-seek in the folds of my
work, talking away all the while in the most sociable
manner. He often flew up all of a sudden, and
danced about in the air, as if he was in such a jolly
mood he couldn’t keep still, and wanted me to
come and play with him. But, alas! I had
no wings, and could only sit stupidly still, and laugh
at his pranks. That was his exercise, for he never
went out, and only took a sniff of air now and then
when I opened the windows.
Well, little Buzz and I lived together
many weeks, and never got tired of one another, which
is saying a good deal. At Christmas I went home
for a week and left my room to take care of itself.
I put the hyacinths into the closet to be warm, and
dropped the curtain, so the frost should not nip my
ivy; but I forgot Buzz. I really would have taken
him with me, or carried him down to a neighbour’s
room to be taken care of while I was away, but I never
thought of him in the hurry of getting my presents
and myself ready. Off I went without even saying
‘good-bye,’ and never thought of my little
friend till Freddy, my small nephew, said to me one
evening at dusk, —
‘Aunt Jo, tell me a story.’
So I began to tell him about Buzz, and all of a sudden
I cried out, —
‘Mercy on me! I’m afraid he’ll
die of cold while I’m gone.’
It troubled me a good deal, and I
wanted to know how the poor little fellow was so much
that I would have gone to see if I had not been so
far away. But it would be rather silly to hurry
away twenty miles to look after one fly: so I
finished my visit, and then went back to my room,
hoping to find Buzz alive and well in spite of the
cold.
Alas, no! my little friend was gone.
There he lay on his back on the mantel-piece, his
legs meekly folded, and his wings stiff and still.
He had evidently gone to the warm place, and been
surprised when the heat died out and left him to freeze.
My poor little Buzz had sung his last song, danced
his last dance, and gone where the good flies go.
I was very sorry and buried him among the ivy roots,
where the moss lay green above him, the sun shone
warmly on him, and the bitter cold could never come.
I miss him very much; when I sit writing, I miss his
cheerful voice and busy wings; at meals there is no
tiny little body to drink up spilt drops and eat the
crumbs: in the evenings, when I sit alone, I
want him more than ever, and every day, as I water
my plants, I say, softly, —
’Grow green, ivy, lie lightly,
moss, shine warmly, sun, and make his last bed pleasant
to my little friend.’