“Oh, dear, how hard it does
seem to take up our packs and go on,” sighed
Meg the morning after the party, for now the holidays
were over, the week of merrymaking did not fit her
for going on easily with the task she never liked.
“I wish it was Christmas or
New Year’s all the time. Wouldn’t
it be fun?” answered Jo, yawning dismally.
“We shouldn’t enjoy ourselves
half so much as we do now. But it does seem so
nice to have little suppers and bouquets, and go to
parties, and drive home, and read and rest, and not
work. It’s like other people, you know,
and I always envy girls who do such things, I’m
so fond of luxury,” said Meg, trying to decide
which of two shabby gowns was the least shabby.
“Well, we can’t have it,
so don’t let us grumble but shoulder our bundles
and trudge along as cheerfully as Marmee does.
I’m sure Aunt March is a regular Old Man of
the Sea to me, but I suppose when I’ve learned
to carry her without complaining, she will tumble off,
or get so light that I shan’t mind her.”
This idea tickled Jo’s fancy
and put her in good spirits, but Meg didn’t
brighten, for her burden, consisting of four spoiled
children, seemed heavier than ever. She had not
heart enough even to make herself pretty as usual
by putting on a blue neck ribbon and dressing her hair
in the most becoming way.
“Where’s the use of looking
nice, when no one sees me but those cross midgets,
and no one cares whether I’m pretty or not?”
she muttered, shutting her drawer with a jerk.
“I shall have to toil and moil all my days,
with only little bits of fun now and then, and get
old and ugly and sour, because I’m poor and
can’t enjoy my life as other girls do.
It’s a shame!”
So Meg went down, wearing an injured
look, and wasn’t at all agreeable at breakfast
time. Everyone seemed rather out of sorts and
inclined to croak.
Beth had a headache and lay on the
sofa, trying to comfort herself with the cat and three
kittens. Amy was fretting because her lessons
were not learned, and she couldn’t find her
rubbers. Jo would whistle and make a great racket
getting ready.
Mrs. March was very busy trying to
finish a letter, which must go at once, and Hannah
had the grumps, for being up late didn’t suit
her.
“There never was such a cross
family!” cried Jo, losing her temper when she
had upset an inkstand, broken both boot lacings, and
sat down upon her hat.
“You’re the crossest person
in it!” returned Amy, washing out the sum that
was all wrong with the tears that had fallen on her
slate.
“Beth, if you don’t keep
these horrid cats down cellar I’ll have them
drowned,” exclaimed Meg angrily as she tried
to get rid of the kitten which had scrambled up her
back and stuck like a burr just out of reach.
Jo laughed, Meg scolded, Beth implored,
and Amy wailed because she couldn’t remember
how much nine times twelve was.
“Girls, girls, do be quiet one
minute! I must get this off by the early mail,
and you drive me distracted with your worry,”
cried Mrs. March, crossing out the third spoiled sentence
in her letter.
There was a momentary lull, broken
by Hannah, who stalked in, laid two hot turnovers
on the table, and stalked out again. These turnovers
were an institution, and the girls called them ‘muffs’,
for they had no others and found the hot pies very
comforting to their hands on cold mornings.
Hannah never forgot to make them,
no matter how busy or grumpy she might be, for the
walk was long and bleak. The poor things got no
other lunch and were seldom home before two.
“Cuddle your cats and get over
your headache, Bethy. Goodbye, Marmee. We
are a set of rascals this morning, but we’ll
come home regular angels. Now then, Meg!”
And Jo tramped away, feeling that the pilgrims were
not setting out as they ought to do.
They always looked back before turning
the corner, for their mother was always at the window
to nod and smile, and wave her hand to them.
Somehow it seemed as if they couldn’t have got
through the day without that, for whatever their mood
might be, the last glimpse of that motherly face was
sure to affect them like sunshine.
“If Marmee shook her fist instead
of kissing her hand to us, it would serve us right,
for more ungrateful wretches than we are were never
seen,” cried Jo, taking a remorseful satisfaction
in the snowy walk and bitter wind.
“Don’t use such dreadful
expressions,” replied Meg from the depths of
the veil in which she had shrouded herself like a nun
sick of the world.
“I like good strong words that
mean something,” replied Jo, catching her hat
as it took a leap off her head preparatory to flying
away altogether.
“Call yourself any names you
like, but I am neither a rascal nor a wretch and I
don’t choose to be called so.”
“You’re a blighted being,
and decidedly cross today because you can’t
sit in the lap of luxury all the time. Poor dear,
just wait till I make my fortune, and you shall revel
in carriages and ice cream and high-heeled slippers,
and posies, and red-headed boys to dance with.”
“How ridiculous you are, Jo!”
But Meg laughed at the nonsense and felt better in
spite of herself.
“Lucky for you I am, for if
I put on crushed airs and tried to be dismal, as you
do, we should be in a nice state. Thank goodness,
I can always find something funny to keep me up.
Don’t croak any more, but come home jolly,
there’s a dear.”
Jo gave her sister an encouraging
pat on the shoulder as they parted for the day, each
going a different way, each hugging her little warm
turnover, and each trying to be cheerful in spite of
wintry weather, hard work, and the unsatisfied desires
of pleasure-loving youth.
When Mr. March lost his property in
trying to help an unfortunate friend, the two oldest
girls begged to be allowed to do something toward
their own support, at least. Believing that they
could not begin too early to cultivate energy, industry,
and independence, their parents consented, and both
fell to work with the hearty good will which in spite
of all obstacles is sure to succeed at last.
Margaret found a place as nursery
governess and felt rich with her small salary.
As she said, she was ‘fond of luxury’,
and her chief trouble was poverty. She found
it harder to bear than the others because she could
remember a time when home was beautiful, life full
of ease and pleasure, and want of any kind unknown.
She tried not to be envious or discontented, but
it was very natural that the young girl should long
for pretty things, gay friends, accomplishments, and
a happy life. At the Kings’ she daily
saw all she wanted, for the children’s older
sisters were just out, and Meg caught frequent glimpses
of dainty ball dresses and bouquets, heard lively gossip
about theaters, concerts, sleighing parties, and merrymakings
of all kinds, and saw money lavished on trifles which
would have been so precious to her. Poor Meg
seldom complained, but a sense of injustice made her
feel bitter toward everyone sometimes, for she had
not yet learned to know how rich she was in the blessings
which alone can make life happy.
Jo happened to suit Aunt March, who
was lame and needed an active person to wait upon
her. The childless old lady had offered to adopt
one of the girls when the troubles came, and was much
offended because her offer was declined. Other
friends told the Marches that they had lost all chance
of being remembered in the rich old lady’s will,
but the unworldly Marches only said...
“We can’t give up our
girls for a dozen fortunes. Rich or poor, we
will keep together and be happy in one another.”
The old lady wouldn’t speak
to them for a time, but happening to meet Jo at a
friend’s, something in her comical face and blunt
manners struck the old lady’s fancy, and she
proposed to take her for a companion. This did
not suit Jo at all, but she accepted the place since
nothing better appeared and, to every one’s surprise,
got on remarkably well with her irascible relative.
There was an occasional tempest, and once Jo marched
home, declaring she couldn’t bear it longer,
but Aunt March always cleared up quickly, and sent
for her to come back again with such urgency that
she could not refuse, for in her heart she rather
liked the peppery old lady.
I suspect that the real attraction
was a large library of fine books, which was left
to dust and spiders since Uncle March died. Jo
remembered the kind old gentleman, who used to let
her build railroads and bridges with his big dictionaries,
tell her stories about queer pictures in his Latin
books, and buy her cards of gingerbread whenever he
met her in the street. The dim, dusty room, with
the busts staring down from the tall bookcases, the
cozy chairs, the globes, and best of all, the wilderness
of books in which she could wander where she liked,
made the library a region of bliss to her.
The moment Aunt March took her nap,
or was busy with company, Jo hurried to this quiet
place, and curling herself up in the easy chair, devoured
poetry, romance, history, travels, and pictures like
a regular bookworm. But, like all happiness,
it did not last long, for as sure as she had just
reached the heart of the story, the sweetest verse
of a song, or the most perilous adventure of her traveler,
a shrill voice called, “Josy-phine! Josy-phine!”
and she had to leave her paradise to wind yarn, wash
the poodle, or read Belsham’s Essays by the hour
together.
Jo’s ambition was to do something
very splendid. What it was, she had no idea
as yet, but left it for time to tell her, and meanwhile,
found her greatest affliction in the fact that she
couldn’t read, run, and ride as much as she
liked. A quick temper, sharp tongue, and restless
spirit were always getting her into scrapes, and her
life was a series of ups and downs, which were both
comic and pathetic. But the training she received
at Aunt March’s was just what she needed, and
the thought that she was doing something to support
herself made her happy in spite of the perpetual “Josy-phine!”
Beth was too bashful to go to school.
It had been tried, but she suffered so much that
it was given up, and she did her lessons at home with
her father. Even when he went away, and her mother
was called to devote her skill and energy to Soldiers’
Aid Societies, Beth went faithfully on by herself
and did the best she could. She was a housewifely
little creature, and helped Hannah keep home neat and
comfortable for the workers, never thinking of any
reward but to be loved. Long, quiet days she
spent, not lonely nor idle, for her little world was
peopled with imaginary friends, and she was by nature
a busy bee. There were six dolls to be taken
up and dressed every morning, for Beth was a child
still and loved her pets as well as ever. Not
one whole or handsome one among them, all were outcasts
till Beth took them in, for when her sisters outgrew
these idols, they passed to her because Amy would
have nothing old or ugly. Beth cherished them
all the more tenderly for that very reason, and set
up a hospital for infirm dolls. No pins were
ever stuck into their cotton vitals, no harsh words
or blows were ever given them, no neglect ever saddened
the heart of the most repulsive, but all were fed
and clothed, nursed and caressed with an affection
which never failed. One forlorn fragment of dollanity
had belonged to Jo and, having led a tempestuous life,
was left a wreck in the rag bag, from which dreary
poorhouse it was rescued by Beth and taken to her
refuge. Having no top to its head, she tied
on a neat little cap, and as both arms and legs were
gone, she hid these deficiencies by folding it in
a blanket and devoting her best bed to this chronic
invalid. If anyone had known the care lavished
on that dolly, I think it would have touched their
hearts, even while they laughed. She brought
it bits of bouquets, she read to it, took it out to
breathe fresh air, hidden under her coat, she sang
it lullabies and never went to bed without kissing
its dirty face and whispering tenderly, “I hope
you’ll have a good night, my poor dear.”
Beth had her troubles as well as the
others, and not being an angel but a very human little
girl, she often ‘wept a little weep’ as
Jo said, because she couldn’t take music lessons
and have a fine piano. She loved music so dearly,
tried so hard to learn, and practiced away so patiently
at the jingling old instrument, that it did seem as
if someone (not to hint Aunt March) ought to help
her. Nobody did, however, and nobody saw Beth
wipe the tears off the yellow keys, that wouldn’t
keep in tune, when she was all alone. She sang
like a little lark about her work, never was too tired
for Marmee and the girls, and day after day said hopefully
to herself, “I know I’ll get my music some
time, if I’m good.”
There are many Beths in the world,
shy and quiet, sitting in corners till needed, and
living for others so cheerfully that no one sees the
sacrifices till the little cricket on the hearth stops
chirping, and the sweet, sunshiny presence vanishes,
leaving silence and shadow behind.
If anybody had asked Amy what the
greatest trial of her life was, she would have answered
at once, “My nose.” When she was
a baby, Jo had accidently dropped her into the coal
hod, and Amy insisted that the fall had ruined her
nose forever. It was not big nor red, like poor
‘Petrea’s’, it was only rather flat,
and all the pinching in the world could not give it
an aristocratic point. No one minded it but herself,
and it was doing its best to grow, but Amy felt deeply
the want of a Grecian nose, and drew whole sheets
of handsome ones to console herself.
“Little Raphael,” as her
sisters called her, had a decided talent for drawing,
and was never so happy as when copying flowers, designing
fairies, or illustrating stories with queer specimens
of art. Her teachers complained that instead
of doing her sums she covered her slate with animals,
the blank pages of her atlas were used to copy maps
on, and caricatures of the most ludicrous description
came fluttering out of all her books at unlucky moments.
She got through her lessons as well as she could,
and managed to escape reprimands by being a model
of deportment. She was a great favorite with
her mates, being good-tempered and possessing the
happy art of pleasing without effort. Her little
airs and graces were much admired, so were her accomplishments,
for besides her drawing, she could play twelve tunes,
crochet, and read French without mispronouncing more
than two-thirds of the words. She had a plaintive
way of saying, “When Papa was rich we did so-and-so,”
which was very touching, and her long words were considered
‘perfectly elegant’ by the girls.
Amy was in a fair way to be spoiled,
for everyone petted her, and her small vanities and
selfishnesses were growing nicely. One thing,
however, rather quenched the vanities. She had
to wear her cousin’s clothes. Now Florence’s
mama hadn’t a particle of taste, and Amy suffered
deeply at having to wear a red instead of a blue bonnet,
unbecoming gowns, and fussy aprons that did not fit.
Everything was good, well made, and little worn,
but Amy’s artistic eyes were much afflicted,
especially this winter, when her school dress was a
dull purple with yellow dots and no trimming.
“My only comfort,” she
said to Meg, with tears in her eyes, “is that
Mother doesn’t take tucks in my dresses whenever
I’m naughty, as Maria Parks’s mother does.
My dear, it’s really dreadful, for sometimes
she is so bad her frock is up to her knees, and she
can’t come to school. When I think of this
deggerredation, I feel that I can bear even
my flat nose and purple gown with yellow sky-rockets
on it.”
Meg was Amy’s confidant and
monitor, and by some strange attraction of opposites
Jo was gentle Beth’s. To Jo alone did the
shy child tell her thoughts, and over her big harum-scarum
sister Beth unconsciously exercised more influence
than anyone in the family. The two older girls
were a great deal to one another, but each took one
of the younger sisters into her keeping and watched
over her in her own way, ‘playing mother’
they called it, and put their sisters in the places
of discarded dolls with the maternal instinct of little
women.
“Has anybody got anything to
tell? It’s been such a dismal day I’m
really dying for some amusement,” said Meg, as
they sat sewing together that evening.
“I had a queer time with Aunt
today, and, as I got the best of it, I’ll tell
you about it,” began Jo, who dearly loved to
tell stories. “I was reading that everlasting
Belsham, and droning away as I always do, for Aunt
soon drops off, and then I take out some nice book,
and read like fury till she wakes up. I actually
made myself sleepy, and before she began to nod, I
gave such a gape that she asked me what I meant by
opening my mouth wide enough to take the whole book
in at once.”
“I wish I could, and be done
with it,” said I, trying not to be saucy.
“Then she gave me a long lecture
on my sins, and told me to sit and think them over
while she just ‘lost’ herself for a moment.
She never finds herself very soon, so the minute her
cap began to bob like a top-heavy dahlia, I whipped
the Vicar of Wakefield out of my pocket, and
read away, with one eye on him and one on Aunt.
I’d just got to where they all tumbled into
the water when I forgot and laughed out loud.
Aunt woke up and, being more good-natured after her
nap, told me to read a bit and show what frivolous
work I preferred to the worthy and instructive Belsham.
I did my very best, and she liked it, though she only
said...
“’I don’t understand
what it’s all about. Go back and begin
it, child.’”
“Back I went, and made the Primroses
as interesting as ever I could. Once I was wicked
enough to stop in a thrilling place, and say meekly,
‘I’m afraid it tires you, ma’am.
Shan’t I stop now?’”
“She caught up her knitting,
which had dropped out of her hands, gave me a sharp
look through her specs, and said, in her short way,
’Finish the chapter, and don’t be impertinent,
miss’.”
“Did she own she liked it?” asked Meg.
“Oh, bless you, no! But
she let old Belsham rest, and when I ran back after
my gloves this afternoon, there she was, so hard at
the Vicar that she didn’t hear me laugh as I
danced a jig in the hall because of the good time
coming. What a pleasant life she might have if
only she chose! I don’t envy her much,
in spite of her money, for after all rich people have
about as many worries as poor ones, I think,”
added Jo.
“That reminds me,” said
Meg, “that I’ve got something to tell.
It isn’t funny, like Jo’s story, but I
thought about it a good deal as I came home.
At the Kings’ today I found everybody in a flurry,
and one of the children said that her oldest brother
had done something dreadful, and Papa had sent him
away. I heard Mrs. King crying and Mr. King
talking very loud, and Grace and Ellen turned away
their faces when they passed me, so I shouldn’t
see how red and swollen their eyes were. I didn’t
ask any questions, of course, but I felt so sorry for
them and was rather glad I hadn’t any wild brothers
to do wicked things and disgrace the family.”
“I think being disgraced in
school is a great deal try_inger_ than anything bad
boys can do,” said Amy, shaking her head, as
if her experience of life had been a deep one.
“Susie Perkins came to school today with a
lovely red carnelian ring. I wanted it dreadfully,
and wished I was her with all my might. Well,
she drew a picture of Mr. Davis, with a monstrous
nose and a hump, and the words, ’Young ladies,
my eye is upon you!’ coming out of his mouth
in a balloon thing. We were laughing over it
when all of a sudden his eye was on us, and
he ordered Susie to bring up her slate. She
was parrylized with fright, but she went, and
oh, what do you think he did? He took
her by the ear the ear! Just fancy
how horrid! and led her to the recitation
platform, and made her stand there half an hour, holding
the slate so everyone could see.”
“Didn’t the girls laugh
at the picture?” asked Jo, who relished the
scrape.
“Laugh? Not one! They
sat still as mice, and Susie cried quarts, I know
she did. I didn’t envy her then, for I
felt that millions of carnelian rings wouldn’t
have made me happy after that. I never, never
should have got over such a agonizing mortification.”
And Amy went on with her work, in the proud consciousness
of virtue and the successful utterance of two long
words in a breath.
“I saw something I liked this
morning, and I meant to tell it at dinner, but I forgot,”
said Beth, putting Jo’s topsy-turvy basket in
order as she talked. “When I went to get
some oysters for Hannah, Mr. Laurence was in the fish
shop, but he didn’t see me, for I kept behind
the fish barrel, and he was busy with Mr. Cutter the
fish-man. A poor woman came in with a pail and
a mop, and asked Mr. Cutter if he would let her do
some scrubbing for a bit of fish, because she hadn’t
any dinner for her children, and had been disappointed
of a day’s work. Mr. Cutter was in a hurry
and said ‘No’, rather crossly, so she was
going away, looking hungry and sorry, when Mr. Laurence
hooked up a big fish with the crooked end of his cane
and held it out to her. She was so glad and
surprised she took it right into her arms, and thanked
him over and over. He told her to ‘go
along and cook it’, and she hurried off, so
happy! Wasn’t it good of him? Oh,
she did look so funny, hugging the big, slippery fish,
and hoping Mr. Laurence’s bed in heaven would
be ’aisy’.”
When they had laughed at Beth’s
story, they asked their mother for one, and after
a moments thought, she said soberly, “As I sat
cutting out blue flannel jackets today at the rooms,
I felt very anxious about Father, and thought how
lonely and helpless we should be, if anything happened
to him. It was not a wise thing to do, but I
kept on worrying till an old man came in with an order
for some clothes. He sat down near me, and I
began to talk to him, for he looked poor and tired
and anxious.
“‘Have you sons in the
army?’ I asked, for the note he brought was not
to me.”
“Yes, ma’am. I had
four, but two were killed, one is a prisoner, and
I’m going to the other, who is very sick in a
Washington hospital.’ he answered quietly.”
“‘You have done a great
deal for your country, sir,’ I said, feeling
respect now, instead of pity.”
“’Not a mite more than
I ought, ma’am. I’d go myself, if
I was any use. As I ain’t, I give my boys,
and give ’em free.’”
“He spoke so cheerfully, looked
so sincere, and seemed so glad to give his all, that
I was ashamed of myself. I’d given one
man and thought it too much, while he gave four without
grudging them. I had all my girls to comfort
me at home, and his last son was waiting, miles away,
to say good-by to him, perhaps! I felt so rich,
so happy thinking of my blessings, that I made him
a nice bundle, gave him some money, and thanked him
heartily for the lesson he had taught me.”
“Tell another story, Mother,
one with a moral to it, like this. I like to
think about them afterward, if they are real and not
too preachy,” said Jo, after a minute’s
silence.
Mrs. March smiled and began at once,
for she had told stories to this little audience for
many years, and knew how to please them.
“Once upon a time, there were
four girls, who had enough to eat and drink and wear,
a good many comforts and pleasures, kind friends and
parents who loved them dearly, and yet they were not
contented.” (Here the listeners stole sly looks
at one another, and began to sew diligently.) “These
girls were anxious to be good and made many excellent
resolutions, but they did not keep them very well,
and were constantly saying, ‘If only we had
this,’ or ’If we could only do that,’
quite forgetting how much they already had, and how
many things they actually could do. So they
asked an old woman what spell they could use to make
them happy, and she said, ’When you feel discontented,
think over your blessings, and be grateful.’”
(Here Jo looked up quickly, as if about to speak,
but changed her mind, seeing that the story was not
done yet.)
“Being sensible girls, they
decided to try her advice, and soon were surprised
to see how well off they were. One discovered
that money couldn’t keep shame and sorrow out
of rich people’s houses, another that, though
she was poor, she was a great deal happier, with her
youth, health, and good spirits, than a certain fretful,
feeble old lady who couldn’t enjoy her comforts,
a third that, disagreeable as it was to help get dinner,
it was harder still to go begging for it and the fourth,
that even carnelian rings were not so valuable as good
behavior. So they agreed to stop complaining,
to enjoy the blessings already possessed, and try
to deserve them, lest they should be taken away entirely,
instead of increased, and I believe they were never
disappointed or sorry that they took the old woman’s
advice.”
“Now, Marmee, that is very cunning
of you to turn our own stories against us, and give
us a sermon instead of a romance!” cried Meg.
“I like that kind of sermon.
It’s the sort Father used to tell us,”
said Beth thoughtfully, putting the needles straight
on Jo’s cushion.
“I don’t complain near
as much as the others do, and I shall be more careful
than ever now, for I’ve had warning from Susie’s
downfall,” said Amy morally.
“We needed that lesson, and
we won’t forget it. If we do so, you just
say to us, as old Chloe did in Uncle Tom, ’Tink
ob yer marcies, chillen!’ ‘Tink ob
yer marcies!’” added Jo, who could not,
for the life of her, help getting a morsel of fun
out of the little sermon, though she took it to heart
as much as any of them.