While these things were happening
at home, Amy was having hard times at Aunt March’s.
She felt her exile deeply, and for the first time
in her life, realized how much she was beloved and
petted at home. Aunt March never petted any
one; she did not approve of it, but she meant to be
kind, for the well-behaved little girl pleased her
very much, and Aunt March had a soft place in her
old heart for her nephew’s children, though
she didn’t think it proper to confess it.
She really did her best to make Amy happy, but, dear
me, what mistakes she made. Some old people keep
young at heart in spite of wrinkles and gray hairs,
can sympathize with children’s little cares
and joys, make them feel at home, and can hide wise
lessons under pleasant plays, giving and receiving
friendship in the sweetest way. But Aunt March
had not this gift, and she worried Amy very much with
her rules and orders, her prim ways, and long, prosy
talks. Finding the child more docile and amiable
than her sister, the old lady felt it her duty to try
and counteract, as far as possible, the bad effects
of home freedom and indulgence. So she took
Amy by the hand, and taught her as she herself had
been taught sixty years ago, a process which carried
dismay to Amy’s soul, and made her feel like
a fly in the web of a very strict spider.
She had to wash the cups every morning,
and polish up the old-fashioned spoons, the fat silver
teapot, and the glasses till they shone. Then
she must dust the room, and what a trying job that
was. Not a speck escaped Aunt March’s
eye, and all the furniture had claw legs and much
carving, which was never dusted to suit. Then
Polly had to be fed, the lap dog combed, and a dozen
trips upstairs and down to get things or deliver orders,
for the old lady was very lame and seldom left her
big chair. After these tiresome labors, she
must do her lessons, which was a daily trial of every
virtue she possessed. Then she was allowed one
hour for exercise or play, and didn’t she enjoy
it?
Laurie came every day, and wheedled
Aunt March till Amy was allowed to go out with him,
when they walked and rode and had capital times.
After dinner, she had to read aloud, and sit still
while the old lady slept, which she usually did for
an hour, as she dropped off over the first page.
Then patchwork or towels appeared, and Amy sewed with
outward meekness and inward rebellion till dusk, when
she was allowed to amuse herself as she liked till
teatime. The evenings were the worst of all,
for Aunt March fell to telling long stories about her
youth, which were so unutterably dull that Amy was
always ready to go to bed, intending to cry over her
hard fate, but usually going to sleep before she had
squeezed out more than a tear or two.
If it had not been for Laurie, and
old Esther, the maid, she felt that she never could
have got through that dreadful time. The parrot
alone was enough to drive her distracted, for he soon
felt that she did not admire him, and revenged himself
by being as mischievous as possible. He pulled
her hair whenever she came near him, upset his bread
and milk to plague her when she had newly cleaned
his cage, made Mop bark by pecking at him while Madam
dozed, called her names before company, and behaved
in all respects like an reprehensible old bird.
Then she could not endure the dog, a fat, cross beast
who snarled and yelped at her when she made his toilet,
and who lay on his back with all his legs in the air
and a most idiotic expression of countenance when he
wanted something to eat, which was about a dozen times
a day. The cook was bad-tempered, the old coachman
was deaf, and Esther the only one who ever took any
notice of the young lady.
Esther was a Frenchwoman, who had
lived with ‘Madame’, as she called her
mistress, for many years, and who rather tyrannized
over the old lady, who could not get along without
her. Her real name was Estelle, but Aunt March
ordered her to change it, and she obeyed, on condition
that she was never asked to change her religion.
She took a fancy to Mademoiselle, and amused her
very much with odd stories of her life in France,
when Amy sat with her while she got up Madame’s
laces. She also allowed her to roam about the
great house, and examine the curious and pretty things
stored away in the big wardrobes and the ancient chests,
for Aunt March hoarded like a magpie. Amy’s
chief delight was an Indian cabinet, full of queer
drawers, little pigeonholes, and secret places, in
which were kept all sorts of ornaments, some precious,
some merely curious, all more or less antique.
To examine and arrange these things gave Amy great
satisfaction, especially the jewel cases, in which
on velvet cushions reposed the ornaments which had
adorned a belle forty years ago. There was the
garnet set which Aunt March wore when she came out,
the pearls her father gave her on her wedding day,
her lover’s diamonds, the jet mourning rings
and pins, the queer lockets, with portraits of dead
friends and weeping willows made of hair inside, the
baby bracelets her one little daughter had worn, Uncle
March’s big watch, with the red seal so many
childish hands had played with, and in a box all by
itself lay Aunt March’s wedding ring, too small
now for her fat finger, but put carefully away like
the most precious jewel of them all.
“Which would Mademoiselle choose
if she had her will?” asked Esther, who always
sat near to watch over and lock up the valuables.
“I like the diamonds best, but
there is no necklace among them, and I’m fond
of necklaces, they are so becoming. I should
choose this if I might,” replied Amy, looking
with great admiration at a string of gold and ebony
beads from which hung a heavy cross of the same.
“I, too, covet that, but not
as a necklace. Ah, no! To me it is a rosary,
and as such I should use it like a good catholic,”
said Esther, eyeing the handsome thing wistfully.
“Is it meant to use as you use
the string of good-smelling wooden beads hanging over
your glass?” asked Amy.
“Truly, yes, to pray with.
It would be pleasing to the saints if one used so
fine a rosary as this, instead of wearing it as a vain
bijou.”
“You seem to take a great deal
of comfort in your prayers, Esther, and always come
down looking quiet and satisfied. I wish I could.”
“If Mademoiselle was a Catholic,
she would find true comfort, but as that is not to
be, it would be well if you went apart each day to
meditate and pray, as did the good mistress whom I
served before Madame. She had a little chapel,
and in it found solacement for much trouble.”
“Would it be right for me to
do so too?” asked Amy, who in her loneliness
felt the need of help of some sort, and found that
she was apt to forget her little book, now that Beth
was not there to remind her of it.
“It would be excellent and charming,
and I shall gladly arrange the little dressing room
for you if you like it. Say nothing to Madame,
but when she sleeps go you and sit alone a while to
think good thoughts, and pray the dear God preserve
your sister.”
Esther was truly pious, and quite
sincere in her advice, for she had an affectionate
heart, and felt much for the sisters in their anxiety.
Amy liked the idea, and gave her leave to arrange the
light closet next her room, hoping it would do her
good.
“I wish I knew where all these
pretty things would go when Aunt March dies,”
she said, as she slowly replaced the shining rosary
and shut the jewel cases one by one.
“To you and your sisters.
I know it, Madame confides in me. I witnessed
her will, and it is to be so,” whispered Esther
smiling.
“How nice! But I wish
she’d let us have them now. Procrastination
is not agreeable,” observed Amy, taking a last
look at the diamonds.
“It is too soon yet for the
young ladies to wear these things. The first
one who is affianced will have the pearls, Madame has
said it, and I have a fancy that the little turquoise
ring will be given to you when you go, for Madame
approves your good behavior and charming manners.”
“Do you think so? Oh,
I’ll be a lamb, if I can only have that lovely
ring! It’s ever so much prettier than Kitty
Bryant’s. I do like Aunt March after all.”
And Amy tried on the blue ring with a delighted face
and a firm resolve to earn it.
From that day she was a model of obedience,
and the old lady complacently admired the success
of her training. Esther fitted up the closet
with a little table, placed a footstool before it,
and over it a picture taken from one of the shut-up
rooms. She thought it was of no great value,
but, being appropriate, she borrowed it, well knowing
that Madame would never know it, nor care if she did.
It was, however, a very valuable copy of one of the
famous pictures of the world, and Amy’s beauty-loving
eyes were never tired of looking up at the sweet face
of the Divine Mother, while her tender thoughts of
her own were busy at her heart. On the table
she laid her little testament and hymnbook, kept a
vase always full of the best flowers Laurie brought
her, and came every day to ‘sit alone’
thinking good thoughts, and praying the dear God to
preserve her sister. Esther had given her a
rosary of black beads with a silver cross, but Amy
hung it up and did not use it, feeling doubtful as
to its fitness for Protestant prayers.
The little girl was very sincere in
all this, for being left alone outside the safe home
nest, she felt the need of some kind hand to hold
by so sorely that she instinctively turned to the strong
and tender Friend, whose fatherly love most closely
surrounds His little children. She missed her
mother’s help to understand and rule herself,
but having been taught where to look, she did her
best to find the way and walk in it confidingly.
But, Amy was a young pilgrim, and just now her burden
seemed very heavy. She tried to forget herself,
to keep cheerful, and be satisfied with doing right,
though no one saw or praised her for it. In her
first effort at being very, very good, she decided
to make her will, as Aunt March had done, so that
if she did fall ill and die, her possessions might
be justly and generously divided. It cost her
a pang even to think of giving up the little treasures
which in her eyes were as precious as the old lady’s
jewels.
During one of her play hours she wrote
out the important document as well as she could, with
some help from Esther as to certain legal terms, and
when the good-natured Frenchwoman had signed her name,
Amy felt relieved and laid it by to show Laurie, whom
she wanted as a second witness. As it was a
rainy day, she went upstairs to amuse herself in one
of the large chambers, and took Polly with her for
company. In this room there was a wardrobe full
of old-fashioned costumes with which Esther allowed
her to play, and it was her favorite amusement to
array herself in the faded brocades, and parade up
and down before the long mirror, making stately curtsies,
and sweeping her train about with a rustle which delighted
her ears. So busy was she on this day that she
did not hear Laurie’s ring nor see his face peeping
in at her as she gravely promenaded to and fro, flirting
her fan and tossing her head, on which she wore a
great pink turban, contrasting oddly with her blue
brocade dress and yellow quilted petticoat. She
was obliged to walk carefully, for she had on high-heeled
shoes, and, as Laurie told Jo afterward, it was a
comical sight to see her mince along in her gay suit,
with Polly sidling and bridling just behind her, imitating
her as well as he could, and occasionally stopping
to laugh or exclaim, “Ain’t we fine?
Get along, you fright! Hold your tongue!
Kiss me, dear! Ha! Ha!”
Having with difficulty restrained
an explosion of merriment, lest it should offend her
majesty, Laurie tapped and was graciously received.
“Sit down and rest while I put
these things away, then I want to consult you about
a very serious matter,” said Amy, when she had
shown her splendor and driven Polly into a corner.
“That bird is the trial of my life,”
she continued, removing the pink mountain from her
head, while Laurie seated himself astride a chair.
“Yesterday, when Aunt was asleep
and I was trying to be as still as a mouse, Polly
began to squall and flap about in his cage, so I went
to let him out, and found a big spider there.
I poked it out, and it ran under the bookcase.
Polly marched straight after it, stooped down and
peeped under the bookcase, saying, in his funny way,
with a cock of his eye, ‘Come out and take a
walk, my dear.’ I couldn’t help laughing,
which made Poll swear, and Aunt woke up and scolded
us both.”
“Did the spider accept the old
fellow’s invitation?” asked Laurie, yawning.
“Yes, out it came, and away
ran Polly, frightened to death, and scrambled up on
Aunt’s chair, calling out, ’Catch her!
Catch her! Catch her!’ as I chased the
spider.”
“That’s a lie! Oh,
lor!” cried the parrot, pecking at Laurie’s
toes.
“I’d wring your neck if
you were mine, you old torment,” cried Laurie,
shaking his fist at the bird, who put his head on one
side and gravely croaked, “Allyluyer! bless
your buttons, dear!”
“Now I’m ready,”
said Amy, shutting the wardrobe and taking a piece
of paper out of her pocket. “I want you
to read that, please, and tell me if it is legal and
right. I felt I ought to do it, for life is
uncertain and I don’t want any ill feeling over
my tomb.”
Laurie bit his lips, and turning a
little from the pensive speaker, read the following
document, with praiseworthy gravity, considering the
spelling:
MY LAST WILL AND TESTIMENT
I, Amy Curtis March, being in my sane
mind, go give and bequeethe all my earthly property viz.
to wit: namely
To my father, my best pictures, sketches,
maps, and works of art, including frames. Also
my $100, to do what he likes with.
To my mother, all my clothes, except
the blue apron with pockets also my likeness,
and my medal, with much love.
To my dear sister Margaret, I give
my turkquoise ring (if I get it), also my green box
with the doves on it, also my piece of real lace for
her neck, and my sketch of her as a memorial of her
‘little girl’.
To Jo I leave my breastpin, the one
mended with sealing wax, also my bronze inkstand she
lost the cover and my most precious plaster
rabbit, because I am sorry I burned up her story.
To Beth (if she lives after me) I
give my dolls and the little bureau, my fan, my linen
collars and my new slippers if she can wear them being
thin when she gets well. And I herewith also
leave her my regret that I ever made fun of old Joanna.
To my friend and neighbor Theodore
Laurence I bequeethe my paper mashay portfolio, my
clay model of a horse though he did say it hadn’t
any neck. Also in return for his great kindness
in the hour of affliction any one of my artistic works
he likes, Noter Dame is the best.
To our venerable benefactor Mr. Laurence
I leave my purple box with a looking glass in the
cover which will be nice for his pens and remind him
of the departed girl who thanks him for his favors
to her family, especially Beth.
I wish my favorite playmate Kitty
Bryant to have the blue silk apron and my gold-bead
ring with a kiss.
To Hannah I give the bandbox she wanted
and all the patchwork I leave hoping she ‘will
remember me, when it you see’.
And now having disposed of my most
valuable property I hope all will be satisfied and
not blame the dead. I forgive everyone, and trust
we may all meet when the trump shall sound.
Amen.
To this will and testiment I set my
hand and seal on this 20th day of Nov. Anni
Domino 1861.
Amy Curtis March
Witnesses:
Estelle Valnor, Theodore Laurence.
The last name was written in pencil,
and Amy explained that he was to rewrite it in ink
and seal it up for her properly.
“What put it into your head?
Did anyone tell you about Beth’s giving away
her things?” asked Laurie soberly, as Amy laid
a bit of red tape, with sealing wax, a taper, and
a standish before him.
She explained and then asked anxiously,
“What about Beth?”
“I’m sorry I spoke, but
as I did, I’ll tell you. She felt so ill
one day that she told Jo she wanted to give her piano
to Meg, her cats to you, and the poor old doll to
Jo, who would love it for her sake. She was
sorry she had so little to give, and left locks of
hair to the rest of us, and her best love to Grandpa.
She never thought of a will.”
Laurie was signing and sealing as
he spoke, and did not look up till a great tear dropped
on the paper. Amy’s face was full of trouble,
but she only said, “Don’t people put sort
of postscripts to their wills, sometimes?”
“Yes, ‘codicils’, they call them.”
“Put one in mine then, that
I wish all my curls cut off, and given round to my
friends. I forgot it, but I want it done though
it will spoil my looks.”
Laurie added it, smiling at Amy’s
last and greatest sacrifice. Then he amused her
for an hour, and was much interested in all her trials.
But when he came to go, Amy held him back to whisper
with trembling lips, “Is there really any danger
about Beth?”
“I’m afraid there is,
but we must hope for the best, so don’t cry,
dear.” And Laurie put his arm about her
with a brotherly gesture which was very comforting.
When he had gone, she went to her
little chapel, and sitting in the twilight, prayed
for Beth, with streaming tears and an aching heart,
feeling that a million turquoise rings would not console
her for the loss of her gentle little sister.