Laurie went to Nice intending to stay
a week, and remained a month. He was tired of
wandering about alone, and Amy’s familiar presence
seemed to give a homelike charm to the foreign scenes
in which she bore a part. He rather missed the
‘petting’ he used to receive, and enjoyed
a taste of it again, for no attentions, however flattering,
from strangers, were half so pleasant as the sisterly
adoration of the girls at home. Amy never would
pet him like the others, but she was very glad to
see him now, and quite clung to him, feeling that he
was the representative of the dear family for whom
she longed more than she would confess. They
naturally took comfort in each other’s society
and were much together, riding, walking, dancing,
or dawdling, for at Nice no one can be very industrious
during the gay season. But, while apparently
amusing themselves in the most careless fashion, they
were half-consciously making discoveries and forming
opinions about each other. Amy rose daily in
the estimation of her friend, but he sank in hers,
and each felt the truth before a word was spoken.
Amy tried to please, and succeeded, for she was grateful
for the many pleasures he gave her, and repaid him
with the little services to which womanly women know
how to lend an indescribable charm. Laurie made
no effort of any kind, but just let himself drift
along as comfortably as possible, trying to forget,
and feeling that all women owed him a kind word because
one had been cold to him. It cost him no effort
to be generous, and he would have given Amy all the
trinkets in Nice if she would have taken them, but
at the same time he felt that he could not change
the opinion she was forming of him, and he rather dreaded
the keen blue eyes that seemed to watch him with such
half-sorrowful, half-scornful surprise.
“All the rest have gone to Monaco
for the day. I preferred to stay at home and
write letters. They are done now, and I am going
to Valrosa to sketch, will you come?” said Amy,
as she joined Laurie one lovely day when he lounged
in as usual, about noon.
“Well, yes, but isn’t
it rather warm for such a long walk?” he answered
slowly, for the shaded salon looked inviting after
the glare without.
“I’m going to have the
little carriage, and Baptiste can drive, so you’ll
have nothing to do but hold your umbrella, and keep
your gloves nice,” returned Amy, with a sarcastic
glance at the immaculate kids, which were a weak point
with Laurie.
“Then I’ll go with pleasure.”
and he put out his hand for her sketchbook.
But she tucked it under her arm with a sharp...
“Don’t trouble yourself.
It’s no exertion to me, but you don’t
look equal to it.”
Laurie lifted his eyebrows and followed
at a leisurely pace as she ran downstairs, but when
they got into the carriage he took the reins himself,
and left little Baptiste nothing to do but fold his
arms and fall asleep on his perch.
The two never quarreled. Amy
was too well-bred, and just now Laurie was too lazy,
so in a minute he peeped under her hatbrim with an
inquiring air. She answered him with a smile,
and they went on together in the most amicable manner.
It was a lovely drive, along winding
roads rich in the picturesque scenes that delight
beauty-loving eyes. Here an ancient monastery,
whence the solemn chanting of the monks came down to
them. There a bare-legged shepherd, in wooden
shoes, pointed hat, and rough jacket over one shoulder,
sat piping on a stone while his goats skipped among
the rocks or lay at his feet. Meek, mouse-colored
donkeys, laden with panniers of freshly cut grass
passed by, with a pretty girl in a capaline sitting
between the green piles, or an old woman spinning with
a distaff as she went. Brown, soft-eyed children
ran out from the quaint stone hovels to offer nosegays,
or bunches of oranges still on the bough. Gnarled
olive trees covered the hills with their dusky foliage,
fruit hung golden in the orchard, and great scarlet
anémones fringed the roadside, while beyond green
slopes and craggy heights, the Maritime Alps rose
sharp and white against the blue Italian sky.
Valrosa well deserved its name, for
in that climate of perpetual summer roses blossomed
everywhere. They overhung the archway, thrust
themselves between the bars of the great gate with
a sweet welcome to passers-by, and lined the avenue,
winding through lemon trees and feathery palms up
to the villa on the hill. Every shadowy nook,
where seats invited one to stop and rest, was a mass
of bloom, every cool grotto had its marble nymph smiling
from a veil of flowers and every fountain reflected
crimson, white, or pale pink roses, leaning down to
smile at their own beauty. Roses covered the walls
of the house, draped the cornices, climbed the pillars,
and ran riot over the balustrade of the wide terrace,
whence one looked down on the sunny Mediterranean,
and the white-walled city on its shore.
“This is a regular honeymoon
paradise, isn’t it? Did you ever see such
roses?” asked Amy, pausing on the terrace to
enjoy the view, and a luxurious whiff of perfume that
came wandering by.
“No, nor felt such thorns,”
returned Laurie, with his thumb in his mouth, after
a vain attempt to capture a solitary scarlet flower
that grew just beyond his reach.
“Try lower down, and pick those
that have no thorns,” said Amy, gathering three
of the tiny cream-colored ones that starred the wall
behind her. She put them in his buttonhole as
a peace offering, and he stood a minute looking down
at them with a curious expression, for in the Italian
part of his nature there was a touch of superstition,
and he was just then in that state of half-sweet,
half-bitter melancholy, when imaginative young men
find significance in trifles and food for romance
everywhere. He had thought of Jo in reaching after
the thorny red rose, for vivid flowers became her,
and she had often worn ones like that from the greenhouse
at home. The pale roses Amy gave him were the
sort that the Italians lay in dead hands, never in
bridal wreaths, and for a moment he wondered if the
omen was for Jo or for himself, but the next instant
his American common sense got the better of sentimentality,
and he laughed a heartier laugh than Amy had heard
since he came.
“It’s good advice, you’d
better take it and save your fingers,” she said,
thinking her speech amused him.
“Thank you, I will,” he
answered in jest, and a few months later he did it
in earnest.
“Laurie, when are you going
to your grandfather?” she asked presently, as
she settled herself on a rustic seat.
“Very soon.”
“You have said that a dozen times within the
last three weeks.”
“I dare say, short answers save trouble.”
“He expects you, and you really ought to go.”
“Hospitable creature! I know it.”
“Then why don’t you do it?”
“Natural depravity, I suppose.”
“Natural indolence, you mean.
It’s really dreadful!” and Amy looked
severe.
“Not so bad as it seems, for
I should only plague him if I went, so I might as
well stay and plague you a little longer, you can bear
it better, in fact I think it agrees with you excellently,”
and Laurie composed himself for a lounge on the broad
ledge of the balustrade.
Amy shook her head and opened her
sketchbook with an air of resignation, but she had
made up her mind to lecture ‘that boy’
and in a minute she began again.
“What are you doing just now?”
“Watching lizards.”
“No, no. I mean what do you intend and
wish to do?”
“Smoke a cigarette, if you’ll allow me.”
“How provoking you are!
I don’t approve of cigars and I will only allow
it on condition that you let me put you into my sketch.
I need a figure.”
“With all the pleasure in life.
How will you have me, full length or three-quarters,
on my head or my heels? I should respectfully
suggest a recumbent posture, then put yourself in
also and call it ’Dolce far niente’.”
“Stay as you are, and go to
sleep if you like. I intend to work hard,”
said Amy in her most energetic tone.
“What delightful enthusiasm!”
and he leaned against a tall urn with an air of entire
satisfaction.
“What would Jo say if she saw
you now?” asked Amy impatiently, hoping to stir
him up by the mention of her still more energetic sister’s
name.
“As usual, ‘Go away, Teddy.
I’m busy!’” He laughed as he spoke,
but the laugh was not natural, and a shade passed
over his face, for the utterance of the familiar name
touched the wound that was not healed yet. Both
tone and shadow struck Amy, for she had seen and heard
them before, and now she looked up in time to catch
a new expression on Laurie’s face a
hard bitter look, full of pain, dissatisfaction, and
regret. It was gone before she could study it
and the listless expression back again. She watched
him for a moment with artistic pleasure, thinking
how like an Italian he looked, as he lay basking in
the sun with uncovered head and eyes full of southern
dreaminess, for he seemed to have forgotten her and
fallen into a reverie.
“You look like the effigy of
a young knight asleep on his tomb,” she said,
carefully tracing the well-cut profile defined against
the dark stone.
“Wish I was!”
“That’s a foolish wish,
unless you have spoiled your life. You are so
changed, I sometimes think ” there
Amy stopped, with a half-timid, half-wistful look,
more significant than her unfinished speech.
Laurie saw and understood the affectionate
anxiety which she hesitated to express, and looking
straight into her eyes, said, just as he used to say
it to her mother, “It’s all right, ma’am.”
That satisfied her and set at rest
the doubts that had begun to worry her lately.
It also touched her, and she showed that it did, by
the cordial tone in which she said...
“I’m glad of that!
I didn’t think you’d been a very bad boy,
but I fancied you might have wasted money at that
wicked Baden-Baden, lost your heart to some charming
Frenchwoman with a husband, or got into some of the
scrapes that young men seem to consider a necessary
part of a foreign tour. Don’t stay out
there in the sun, come and lie on the grass here and
‘let us be friendly’, as Jo used to say
when we got in the sofa corner and told secrets.”
Laurie obediently threw himself down
on the turf, and began to amuse himself by sticking
daisies into the ribbons of Amy’s hat, that lay
there.
“I’m all ready for the
secrets.” and he glanced up with a decided expression
of interest in his eyes.
“I’ve none to tell. You may begin.”
“Haven’t one to bless
myself with. I thought perhaps you’d had
some news from home..”
“You have heard all that has
come lately. Don’t you hear often?
I fancied Jo would send you volumes.”
“She’s very busy.
I’m roving about so, it’s impossible to
be regular, you know. When do you begin your
great work of art, Raphaella?” he asked, changing
the subject abruptly after another pause, in which
he had been wondering if Amy knew his secret and wanted
to talk about it.
“Never,” she answered,
with a despondent but decided air. “Rome
took all the vanity out of me, for after seeing the
wonders there, I felt too insignificant to live and
gave up all my foolish hopes in despair.”
“Why should you, with so much energy and talent?”
“That’s just why, because
talent isn’t genius, and no amount of energy
can make it so. I want to be great, or nothing.
I won’t be a common-place dauber, so I don’t
intend to try any more.”
“And what are you going to do
with yourself now, if I may ask?”
“Polish up my other talents,
and be an ornament to society, if I get the chance.”
It was a characteristic speech, and
sounded daring, but audacity becomes young people,
and Amy’s ambition had a good foundation.
Laurie smiled, but he liked the spirit with which
she took up a new purpose when a long-cherished one
died, and spent no time lamenting.
“Good! And here is where
Fred Vaughn comes in, I fancy.”
Amy preserved a discreet silence,
but there was a conscious look in her downcast face
that made Laurie sit up and say gravely, “Now
I’m going to play brother, and ask questions.
May I?”
“I don’t promise to answer.”
“Your face will, if your tongue
won’t. You aren’t woman of the world
enough yet to hide your feelings, my dear. I
heard rumors about Fred and you last year, and it’s
my private opinion that if he had not been called
home so suddenly and detained so long, something would
have come of it, hey?”
“That’s not for me to
say,” was Amy’s grim reply, but her lips
would smile, and there was a traitorous sparkle of
the eye which betrayed that she knew her power and
enjoyed the knowledge.
“You are not engaged, I hope?”
and Laurie looked very elder-brotherly and grave all
of a sudden.
“No.”
“But you will be, if he comes
back and goes properly down on his knees, won’t
you?”
“Very likely.”
“Then you are fond of old Fred?”
“I could be, if I tried.”
“But you don’t intend
to try till the proper moment? Bless my soul,
what unearthly prudence! He’s a good fellow,
Amy, but not the man I fancied you’d like.”
“He is rich, a gentleman, and
has delightful manners,” began Amy, trying to
be quite cool and dignified, but feeling a little ashamed
of herself, in spite of the sincerity of her intentions.
“I understand. Queens
of society can’t get on without money, so you
mean to make a good match, and start in that way?
Quite right and proper, as the world goes, but it
sounds odd from the lips of one of your mother’s
girls.”
“True, nevertheless.”
A short speech, but the quiet decision
with which it was uttered contrasted curiously with
the young speaker. Laurie felt this instinctively
and laid himself down again, with a sense of disappointment
which he could not explain. His look and silence,
as well as a certain inward self-disapproval, ruffled
Amy, and made her resolve to deliver her lecture without
delay.
“I wish you’d do me the
favor to rouse yourself a little,” she said
sharply.
“Do it for me, there’s a dear girl.”
“I could, if I tried.”
and she looked as if she would like doing it in the
most summary style.
“Try, then. I give you
leave,” returned Laurie, who enjoyed having
someone to tease, after his long abstinence from his
favorite pastime.
“You’d be angry in five minutes.”
“I’m never angry with
you. It takes two flints to make a fire.
You are as cool and soft as snow.”
“You don’t know what I
can do. Snow produces a glow and a tingle, if
applied rightly. Your indifference is half affectation,
and a good stirring up would prove it.”
“Stir away, it won’t hurt
me and it may amuse you, as the big man said when
his little wife beat him. Regard me in the light
of a husband or a carpet, and beat till you are tired,
if that sort of exercise agrees with you.”
Being decidedly nettled herself, and
longing to see him shake off the apathy that so altered
him, Amy sharpened both tongue and pencil, and began.
“Flo and I have got a new name
for you. It’s Lazy Laurence. How do
you like it?”
She thought it would annoy him, but
he only folded his arms under his head, with an imperturbable,
“That’s not bad. Thank you, ladies.”
“Do you want to know what I honestly think of
you?”
“Pining to be told.”
“Well, I despise you.”
If she had even said ‘I hate
you’ in a petulant or coquettish tone, he would
have laughed and rather liked it, but the grave, almost
sad, accent in her voice made him open his eyes, and
ask quickly...
“Why, if you please?”
“Because, with every chance
for being good, useful, and happy, you are faulty,
lazy, and miserable.”
“Strong language, mademoiselle.”
“If you like it, I’ll go on.”
“Pray do, it’s quite interesting.”
“I thought you’d find
it so. Selfish people always like to talk about
themselves.”
“Am I selfish?” the question
slipped out involuntarily and in a tone of surprise,
for the one virtue on which he prided himself was generosity.
“Yes, very selfish,” continued
Amy, in a calm, cool voice, twice as effective just
then as an angry one. “I’ll show
you how, for I’ve studied you while we were
frolicking, and I’m not at all satisfied with
you. Here you have been abroad nearly six months,
and done nothing but waste time and money and disappoint
your friends.”
“Isn’t a fellow to have
any pleasure after a four-year grind?”
“You don’t look as if
you’d had much. At any rate, you are none
the better for it, as far as I can see. I said
when we first met that you had improved. Now
I take it all back, for I don’t think you half
so nice as when I left you at home. You have
grown abominably lazy, you like gossip, and waste
time on frivolous things, you are contented to be
petted and admired by silly people, instead of being
loved and respected by wise ones. With money,
talent, position, health, and beauty, ah you like
that old Vanity! But it’s the truth, so
I can’t help saying it, with all these splendid
things to use and enjoy, you can find nothing to do
but dawdle, and instead of being the man you ought
to be, you are only...” there she stopped, with
a look that had both pain and pity in it.
“Saint Laurence on a gridiron,”
added Laurie, blandly finishing the sentence.
But the lecture began to take effect, for there was
a wide-awake sparkle in his eyes now and a half-angry,
half-injured expression replaced the former indifference.
“I supposed you’d take
it so. You men tell us we are angels, and say
we can make you what we will, but the instant we honestly
try to do you good, you laugh at us and won’t
listen, which proves how much your flattery is worth.”
Amy spoke bitterly, and turned her back on the exasperating
martyr at her feet.
In a minute a hand came down over
the page, so that she could not draw, and Laurie’s
voice said, with a droll imitation of a penitent child,
“I will be good, oh, I will be good!”
But Amy did not laugh, for she was
in earnest, and tapping on the outspread hand with
her pencil, said soberly, “Aren’t you ashamed
of a hand like that? It’s as soft and
white as a woman’s, and looks as if it never
did anything but wear Jouvin’s best gloves and
pick flowers for ladies. You are not a dandy,
thank Heaven, so I’m glad to see there are no
diamonds or big seal rings on it, only the little old
one Jo gave you so long ago. Dear soul, I wish
she was here to help me!”
“So do I!”
The hand vanished as suddenly as it
came, and there was energy enough in the echo of her
wish to suit even Amy. She glanced down at him
with a new thought in her mind, but he was lying with
his hat half over his face, as if for shade, and his
mustache hid his mouth. She only saw his chest
rise and fall, with a long breath that might have been
a sigh, and the hand that wore the ring nestled down
into the grass, as if to hide something too precious
or too tender to be spoken of. All in a minute
various hints and trifles assumed shape and significance
in Amy’s mind, and told her what her sister
never had confided to her. She remembered that
Laurie never spoke voluntarily of Jo, she recalled
the shadow on his face just now, the change in his
character, and the wearing of the little old ring
which was no ornament to a handsome hand. Girls
are quick to read such signs and feel their eloquence.
Amy had fancied that perhaps a love trouble was at
the bottom of the alteration, and now she was sure
of it. Her keen eyes filled, and when she spoke
again, it was in a voice that could be beautifully
soft and kind when she chose to make it so.
“I know I have no right to talk
so to you, Laurie, and if you weren’t the sweetest-tempered
fellow in the world, you’d be very angry with
me. But we are all so fond and proud of you,
I couldn’t bear to think they should be disappointed
in you at home as I have been, though, perhaps they
would understand the change better than I do.”
“I think they would,”
came from under the hat, in a grim tone, quite as
touching as a broken one.
“They ought to have told me,
and not let me go blundering and scolding, when I
should have been more kind and patient than ever.
I never did like that Miss Randal and now I hate
her!” said artful Amy, wishing to be sure of
her facts this time.
“Hang Miss Randal!” and
Laurie knocked the hat off his face with a look that
left no doubt of his sentiments toward that young lady.
“I beg pardon, I thought...”
and there she paused diplomatically.
“No, you didn’t, you knew
perfectly well I never cared for anyone but Jo,”
Laurie said that in his old, impetuous tone, and turned
his face away as he spoke.
“I did think so, but as they
never said anything about it, and you came away, I
supposed I was mistaken. And Jo wouldn’t
be kind to you? Why, I was sure she loved you
dearly.”
“She was kind, but not in the
right way, and it’s lucky for her she didn’t
love me, if I’m the good-for-nothing fellow you
think me. It’s her fault though, and you
may tell her so.”
The hard, bitter look came back again
as he said that, and it troubled Amy, for she did
not know what balm to apply.
“I was wrong, I didn’t
know. I’m very sorry I was so cross, but
I can’t help wishing you’d bear it better,
Teddy, dear.”
“Don’t, that’s her
name for me!” and Laurie put up his hand with
a quick gesture to stop the words spoken in Jo’s
half-kind, half-reproachful tone. “Wait
till you’ve tried it yourself,” he added
in a low voice, as he pulled up the grass by the handful.
“I’d take it manfully,
and be respected if I couldn’t be loved,”
said Amy, with the decision of one who knew nothing
about it.
Now, Laurie flattered himself that
he had borne it remarkably well, making no moan, asking
no sympathy, and taking his trouble away to live it
down alone. Amy’s lecture put the matter
in a new light, and for the first time it did look
weak and selfish to lose heart at the first failure,
and shut himself up in moody indifference. He
felt as if suddenly shaken out of a pensive dream
and found it impossible to go to sleep again.
Presently he sat up and asked slowly, “Do you
think Jo would despise me as you do?”
“Yes, if she saw you now.
She hates lazy people. Why don’t you do
something splendid, and make her love you?”
“I did my best, but it was no use.”
“Graduating well, you mean?
That was no more than you ought to have done, for
your grandfather’s sake. It would have
been shameful to fail after spending so much time
and money, when everyone knew that you could do well.”
“I did fail, say what you will,
for Jo wouldn’t love me,” began Laurie,
leaning his head on his hand in a despondent attitude.
“No, you didn’t, and you’ll
say so in the end, for it did you good, and proved
that you could do something if you tried. If you’d
only set about another task of some sort, you’d
soon be your hearty, happy self again, and forget
your trouble.”
“That’s impossible.”
“Try it and see. You needn’t
shrug your shoulders, and think, ’Much she knows
about such things’. I don’t pretend
to be wise, but I am observing, and I see a great
deal more than you’d imagine. I’m
interested in other people’s experiences and
inconsistencies, and though I can’t explain,
I remember and use them for my own benefit. Love
Jo all your days, if you choose, but don’t let
it spoil you, for it’s wicked to throw away
so many good gifts because you can’t have the
one you want. There, I won’t lecture any
more, for I know you’ll wake up and be a man
in spite of that hardhearted girl.”
Neither spoke for several minutes.
Laurie sat turning the little ring on his finger,
and Amy put the last touches to the hasty sketch she
had been working at while she talked. Presently
she put it on his knee, merely saying, “How
do you like that?”
He looked and then he smiled, as he
could not well help doing, for it was capitally done,
the long, lazy figure on the grass, with listless
face, half-shut eyes, and one hand holding a cigar,
from which came the little wreath of smoke that encircled
the dreamer’s head.
“How well you draw!” he
said, with a genuine surprise and pleasure at her
skill, adding, with a half-laugh, “Yes, that’s
me.”
“As you are. This is as
you were.” and Amy laid another sketch beside
the one he held.
It was not nearly so well done, but
there was a life and spirit in it which atoned for
many faults, and it recalled the past so vividly that
a sudden change swept over the young man’s face
as he looked. Only a rough sketch of Laurie
taming a horse. Hat and coat were off, and every
line of the active figure, resolute face, and commanding
attitude was full of energy and meaning. The
handsome brute, just subdued, stood arching his neck
under the tightly drawn rein, with one foot impatiently
pawing the ground, and ears pricked up as if listening
for the voice that had mastered him. In the
ruffled mane, the rider’s breezy hair and erect
attitude, there was a suggestion of suddenly arrested
motion, of strength, courage, and youthful buoyancy
that contrasted sharply with the supine grace of the
‘Dolce far Niente’ sketch.
Laurie said nothing but as his eye went from one to
the other, Amy saw him flush up and fold his lips
together as if he read and accepted the little lesson
she had given him. That satisfied her, and without
waiting for him to speak, she said, in her sprightly
way...
“Don’t you remember the
day you played Rarey with Puck, and we all looked
on? Meg and Beth were frightened, but Jo clapped
and pranced, and I sat on the fence and drew you.
I found that sketch in my portfolio the other day,
touched it up, and kept it to show you.”
“Much obliged. You’ve
improved immensely since then, and I congratulate
you. May I venture to suggest in ‘a honeymoon
paradise’ that five o’clock is the dinner
hour at your hotel?”
Laurie rose as he spoke, returned
the pictures with a smile and a bow and looked at
his watch, as if to remind her that even moral lectures
should have an end. He tried to resume his former
easy, indifferent air, but it was an affectation now,
for the rousing had been more effacious than he would
confess. Amy felt the shade of coldness in his
manner, and said to herself...
“Now, I’ve offended him.
Well, if it does him good, I’m glad, if it
makes him hate me, I’m sorry, but it’s
true, and I can’t take back a word of it.”
They laughed and chatted all the way
home, and little Baptiste, up behind, thought that
monsieur and madamoiselle were in charming spirits.
But both felt ill at ease. The friendly frankness
was disturbed, the sunshine had a shadow over it,
and despite their apparent gaiety, there was a secret
discontent in the heart of each.
“Shall we see you this evening,
mon frère?” asked Amy, as they parted
at her aunt’s door.
“Unfortunately I have an engagement.
Au revoir, madamoiselle,” and Laurie bent as
if to kiss her hand, in the foreign fashion, which
became him better than many men. Something in
his face made Amy say quickly and warmly...
“No, be yourself with me, Laurie,
and part in the good old way. I’d rather
have a hearty English handshake than all the sentimental
salutations in France.”
“Goodbye, dear,” and with
these words, uttered in the tone she liked, Laurie
left her, after a handshake almost painful in its heartiness.
Next morning, instead of the usual
call, Amy received a note which made her smile at
the beginning and sigh at the end.
My Dear Mentor, Please make my adieux
to your aunt, and exult within yourself, for ‘Lazy
Laurence’ has gone to his grandpa, like the best
of boys. A pleasant winter to you, and may the
gods grant you a blissful honeymoon at Valrosa!
I think Fred would be benefited by a rouser.
Tell him so, with my congratulations.
Yours gratefully, Telemachus
“Good boy! I’m glad
he’s gone,” said Amy, with an approving
smile. The next minute her face fell as she glanced
about the empty room, adding, with an involuntary
sigh, “Yes, I am glad, but how I shall miss him.”