While Laurie and Amy were taking conjugal
strolls over velvet carpets, as they set their house
in order, and planned a blissful future, Mr. Bhaer
and Jo were enjoying promenades of a different sort,
along muddy roads and sodden fields.
“I always do take a walk toward
evening, and I don’t know why I should give
it up, just because I happen to meet the Professor
on his way out,” said Jo to herself, after two
or three encounters, for though there were two paths
to Meg’s whichever one she took she was sure
to meet him, either going or returning. He was
always walking rapidly, and never seemed to see her
until quite close, when he would look as if his short-sighted
eyes had failed to recognize the approaching lady till
that moment. Then, if she was going to Meg’s
he always had something for the babies. If her
face was turned homeward, he had merely strolled down
to see the river, and was just returning, unless they
were tired of his frequent calls.
Under the circumstances, what could
Jo do but greet him civilly, and invite him in?
If she was tired of his visits, she concealed her
weariness with perfect skill, and took care that there
should be coffee for supper, “as Friedrich I
mean Mr. Bhaer doesn’t like tea.”
By the second week, everyone knew
perfectly well what was going on, yet everyone tried
to look as if they were stone-blind to the changes
in Jo’s face. They never asked why she
sang about her work, did up her hair three times a
day, and got so blooming with her evening exercise.
And no one seemed to have the slightest suspicion that
Professor Bhaer, while talking philosophy with the
father, was giving the daughter lessons in love.
Jo couldn’t even lose her heart
in a decorous manner, but sternly tried to quench
her feelings, and failing to do so, led a somewhat
agitated life. She was mortally afraid of being
laughed at for surrendering, after her many and vehement
declarations of independence. Laurie was her
especial dread, but thanks to the new manager, he behaved
with praiseworthy propriety, never called Mr. Bhaer
‘a capital old fellow’ in public, never
alluded, in the remotest manner, to Jo’s improved
appearance, or expressed the least surprise at seeing
the Professor’s hat on the Marches’ table
nearly every evening. But he exulted in private
and longed for the time to come when he could give
Jo a piece of plate, with a bear and a ragged staff
on it as an appropriate coat of arms.
For a fortnight, the Professor came
and went with lover-like regularity. Then he
stayed away for three whole days, and made no sign,
a proceeding which caused everybody to look sober,
and Jo to become pensive, at first, and then alas
for romance very cross.
“Disgusted, I dare say, and
gone home as suddenly as he came. It’s
nothing to me, of course, but I should think he would
have come and bid us goodbye like a gentleman,”
she said to herself, with a despairing look at the
gate, as she put on her things for the customary walk
one dull afternoon.
“You’d better take the
little umbrella, dear. It looks like rain,”
said her mother, observing that she had on her new
bonnet, but not alluding to the fact.
“Yes, Marmee, do you want anything
in town? I’ve got to run in and get some
paper,” returned Jo, pulling out the bow under
her chin before the glass as an excuse for not looking
at her mother.
“Yes, I want some twilled silesia,
a paper of number nine needles, and two yards of narrow
lavender ribbon. Have you got your thick boots
on, and something warm under your cloak?”
“I believe so,” answered Jo absently.
“If you happen to meet Mr. Bhaer,
bring him home to tea. I quite long to see the
dear man,” added Mrs. March.
Jo heard that, but made no answer,
except to kiss her mother, and walk rapidly away,
thinking with a glow of gratitude, in spite of her
heartache, “How good she is to me! What
do girls do who haven’t any mothers to help
them through their troubles?”
The dry-goods stores were not down
among the counting-houses, banks, and wholesale warerooms,
where gentlemen most do congregate, but Jo found herself
in that part of the city before she did a single errand,
loitering along as if waiting for someone, examining
engineering instruments in one window and samples
of wool in another, with most unfeminine interest,
tumbling over barrels, being half-smothered by descending
bales, and hustled unceremoniously by busy men who
looked as if they wondered ‘how the deuce she
got there’. A drop of rain on her cheek
recalled her thoughts from baffled hopes to ruined
ribbons. For the drops continued to fall, and
being a woman as well as a lover, she felt that, though
it was too late to save her heart, she might her bonnet.
Now she remembered the little umbrella, which she
had forgotten to take in her hurry to be off, but
regret was unavailing, and nothing could be done but
borrow one or submit to a drenching. She looked
up at the lowering sky, down at the crimson bow already
flecked with black, forward along the muddy street,
then one long, lingering look behind, at a certain
grimy warehouse, with ’Hoffmann, Swartz, & Co.’
over the door, and said to herself, with a sternly
reproachful air...
“It serves me right! what business
had I to put on all my best things and come philandering
down here, hoping to see the Professor? Jo, I’m
ashamed of you! No, you shall not go there to
borrow an umbrella, or find out where he is, from
his friends. You shall trudge away, and do your
errands in the rain, and if you catch your death and
ruin your bonnet, it’s no more than you deserve.
Now then!”
With that she rushed across the street
so impetuously that she narrowly escaped annihilation
from a passing truck, and precipitated herself into
the arms of a stately old gentleman, who said, “I
beg pardon, ma’am,” and looked mortally
offended. Somewhat daunted, Jo righted herself,
spread her handkerchief over the devoted ribbons, and
putting temptation behind her, hurried on, with increasing
dampness about the ankles, and much clashing of umbrellas
overhead. The fact that a somewhat dilapidated
blue one remained stationary above the unprotected
bonnet attracted her attention, and looking up, she
saw Mr. Bhaer looking down.
“I feel to know the strong-minded
lady who goes so bravely under many horse noses, and
so fast through much mud. What do you down here,
my friend?”
“I’m shopping.”
Mr. Bhaer smiled, as he glanced from
the pickle factory on one side to the wholesale hide
and leather concern on the other, but he only said
politely, “You haf no umbrella. May I go
also, and take for you the bundles?”
“Yes, thank you.”
Jo’s cheeks were as red as her
ribbon, and she wondered what he thought of her, but
she didn’t care, for in a minute she found herself
walking away arm in arm with her Professor, feeling
as if the sun had suddenly burst out with uncommon
brilliancy, that the world was all right again, and
that one thoroughly happy woman was paddling through
the wet that day.
“We thought you had gone,”
said Jo hastily, for she knew he was looking at her.
Her bonnet wasn’t big enough to hide her face,
and she feared he might think the joy it betrayed
unmaidenly.
“Did you believe that I should
go with no farewell to those who haf been so heavenly
kind to me?” he asked so reproachfully that she
felt as if she had insulted him by the suggestion,
and answered heartily...
“No, I didn’t. I
knew you were busy about your own affairs, but we
rather missed you, Father and Mother especially.”
“And you?”
“I’m always glad to see you, sir.”
In her anxiety to keep her voice quite
calm, Jo made it rather cool, and the frosty little
monosyllable at the end seemed to chill the Professor,
for his smile vanished, as he said gravely...
“I thank you, and come one more time before
I go.”
“You are going, then?”
“I haf no longer any business here, it is done.”
“Successfully, I hope?”
said Jo, for the bitterness of disappointment was
in that short reply of his.
“I ought to think so, for I
haf a way opened to me by which I can make my bread
and gif my Jünglings much help.”
“Tell me, please! I like
to know all about the the boys,” said
Jo eagerly.
“That is so kind, I gladly tell
you. My friends find for me a place in a college,
where I teach as at home, and earn enough to make the
way smooth for Franz and Emil. For this I should
be grateful, should I not?”
“Indeed you should. How
splendid it will be to have you doing what you like,
and be able to see you often, and the boys!”
cried Jo, clinging to the lads as an excuse for the
satisfaction she could not help betraying.
“Ah! But we shall not
meet often, I fear, this place is at the West.”
“So far away!” and Jo
left her skirts to their fate, as if it didn’t
matter now what became of her clothes or herself.
Mr. Bhaer could read several languages,
but he had not learned to read women yet. He
flattered himself that he knew Jo pretty well, and
was, therefore, much amazed by the contradictions
of voice, face, and manner, which she showed him in
rapid succession that day, for she was in half a dozen
different moods in the course of half an hour.
When she met him she looked surprised, though it
was impossible to help suspecting that she had come
for that express purpose. When he offered her
his arm, she took it with a look that filled him with
delight, but when he asked if she missed him, she
gave such a chilly, formal reply that despair fell
upon him. On learning his good fortune she almost
clapped her hands. Was the joy all for the boys?
Then on hearing his destination, she said, “So
far away!” in a tone of despair that lifted
him on to a pinnacle of hope, but the next minute she
tumbled him down again by observing, like one entirely
absorbed in the matter...
“Here’s the place for
my errands. Will you come in? It won’t
take long.”
Jo rather prided herself upon her
shopping capabilities, and particularly wished to
impress her escort with the neatness and dispatch
with which she would accomplish the business.
But owing to the flutter she was in, everything went
amiss. She upset the tray of needles, forgot
the silesia was to be ‘twilled’ till it
was cut off, gave the wrong change, and covered herself
with confusion by asking for lavender ribbon at the
calico counter. Mr. Bhaer stood by, watching
her blush and blunder, and as he watched, his own bewilderment
seemed to subside, for he was beginning to see that
on some occasions, women, like dreams, go by contraries.
When they came out, he put the parcel
under his arm with a more cheerful aspect, and splashed
through the puddles as if he rather enjoyed it on
the whole.
“Should we no do a little what
you call shopping for the babies, and haf a farewell
feast tonight if I go for my last call at your so
pleasant home?” he asked, stopping before a window
full of fruit and flowers.
“What will we buy?” asked
Jo, ignoring the latter part of his speech, and sniffing
the mingled odors with an affectation of delight as
they went in.
“May they haf oranges and figs?”
asked Mr. Bhaer, with a paternal air.
“They eat them when they can get them.”
“Do you care for nuts?”
“Like a squirrel.”
“Hamburg grapes. Yes, we shall drink to
the Fatherland in those?”
Jo frowned upon that piece of extravagance,
and asked why he didn’t buy a frail of dates,
a cask of raisins, and a bag of almonds, and be done
with it? Whereat Mr. Bhaer confiscated her purse,
produced his own, and finished the marketing by buying
several pounds of grapes, a pot of rosy daisies, and
a pretty jar of honey, to be regarded in the light
of a demijohn. Then distorting his pockets with
knobby bundles, and giving her the flowers to hold,
he put up the old umbrella, and they traveled on again.
“Miss Marsch, I haf a great
favor to ask of you,” began the Professor, after
a moist promenade of half a block.
“Yes, sir?” and Jo’s
heart began to beat so hard she was afraid he would
hear it.
“I am bold to say it in spite
of the rain, because so short a time remains to me.”
“Yes, sir,” and Jo nearly
crushed the small flowerpot with the sudden squeeze
she gave it.
“I wish to get a little dress
for my Tina, and I am too stupid to go alone.
Will you kindly gif me a word of taste and help?”
“Yes, sir,” and Jo felt
as calm and cool all of a sudden as if she had stepped
into a refrigerator.
“Perhaps also a shawl for Tina’s
mother, she is so poor and sick, and the husband is
such a care. Yes, yes, a thick, warm shawl would
be a friendly thing to take the little mother.”
“I’ll do it with pleasure,
Mr. Bhaer.” “I’m going very
fast, and he’s getting dearer every minute,”
added Jo to herself, then with a mental shake she
entered into the business with an energy that was pleasant
to behold.
Mr. Bhaer left it all to her, so she
chose a pretty gown for Tina, and then ordered out
the shawls. The clerk, being a married man,
condescended to take an interest in the couple, who
appeared to be shopping for their family.
“Your lady may prefer this.
It’s a superior article, a most desirable color,
quite chaste and genteel,” he said, shaking out
a comfortable gray shawl, and throwing it over Jo’s
shoulders.
“Does this suit you, Mr. Bhaer?”
she asked, turning her back to him, and feeling deeply
grateful for the chance of hiding her face.
“Excellently well, we will haf
it,” answered the Professor, smiling to himself
as he paid for it, while Jo continued to rummage the
counters like a confirmed bargain-hunter.
“Now shall we go home?”
he asked, as if the words were very pleasant to him.
“Yes, it’s late, and I’m
so tired.” Jo’s voice was more
pathetic than she knew. For now the sun seemed
to have gone in as suddenly as it came out, and the
world grew muddy and miserable again, and for the
first time she discovered that her feet were cold,
her head ached, and that her heart was colder than
the former, fuller of pain than the latter.
Mr. Bhaer was going away, he only cared for her as
a friend, it was all a mistake, and the sooner it
was over the better. With this idea in her head,
she hailed an approaching omnibus with such a hasty
gesture that the daisies flew out of the pot and were
badly damaged.
“This is not our omniboos,”
said the Professor, waving the loaded vehicle away,
and stopping to pick up the poor little flowers.
“I beg your pardon. I
didn’t see the name distinctly. Never mind,
I can walk. I’m used to plodding in the
mud,” returned Jo, winking hard, because she
would have died rather than openly wipe her eyes.
Mr. Bhaer saw the drops on her cheeks,
though she turned her head away. The sight seemed
to touch him very much, for suddenly stooping down,
he asked in a tone that meant a great deal, “Heart’s
dearest, why do you cry?”
Now, if Jo had not been new to this
sort of thing she would have said she wasn’t
crying, had a cold in her head, or told any other feminine
fib proper to the occasion. Instead of which,
that undignified creature answered, with an irrepressible
sob, “Because you are going away.”
“Ach, mein Gott,
that is so good!” cried Mr. Bhaer, managing to
clasp his hands in spite of the umbrella and the bundles,
“Jo, I haf nothing but much love to gif you.
I came to see if you could care for it, and I waited
to be sure that I was something more than a friend.
Am I? Can you make a little place in your heart
for old Fritz?” he added, all in one breath.
“Oh, yes!” said Jo, and
he was quite satisfied, for she folded both hands
over his arm, and looked up at him with an expression
that plainly showed how happy she would be to walk
through life beside him, even though she had no better
shelter than the old umbrella, if he carried it.
It was certainly proposing under difficulties,
for even if he had desired to do so, Mr. Bhaer could
not go down upon his knees, on account of the mud.
Neither could he offer Jo his hand, except figuratively,
for both were full. Much less could he indulge
in tender remonstrations in the open street, though
he was near it. So the only way in which he
could express his rapture was to look at her, with
an expression which glorified his face to such a degree
that there actually seemed to be little rainbows in
the drops that sparkled on his beard. If he
had not loved Jo very much, I don’t think he
could have done it then, for she looked far from lovely,
with her skirts in a deplorable state, her rubber
boots splashed to the ankle, and her bonnet a ruin.
Fortunately, Mr. Bhaer considered her the most beautiful
woman living, and she found him more “Jove-like”
than ever, though his hatbrim was quite limp with
the little rills trickling thence upon his shoulders
(for he held the umbrella all over Jo), and every
finger of his gloves needed mending.
Passers-by probably thought them a
pair of harmless lunatics, for they entirely forgot
to hail a bus, and strolled leisurely along, oblivious
of deepening dusk and fog. Little they cared
what anybody thought, for they were enjoying the happy
hour that seldom comes but once in any life, the magical
moment which bestows youth on the old, beauty on the
plain, wealth on the poor, and gives human hearts a
foretaste of heaven. The Professor looked as
if he had conquered a kingdom, and the world had nothing
more to offer him in the way of bliss. While
Jo trudged beside him, feeling as if her place had
always been there, and wondering how she ever could
have chosen any other lot. Of course, she was
the first to speak intelligibly, I mean,
for the emotional remarks which followed her impetuous
“Oh, yes!” were not of a coherent or reportable
character.
“Friedrich, why didn’t you...”
“Ah, heaven, she gifs me the
name that no one speaks since Minna died!” cried
the Professor, pausing in a puddle to regard her with
grateful delight.
“I always call you so to myself I
forgot, but I won’t unless you like it.”
“Like it? It is more sweet
to me than I can tell. Say ‘thou’,
also, and I shall say your language is almost as beautiful
as mine.”
“Isn’t ‘thou’
a little sentimental?” asked Jo, privately thinking
it a lovely monosyllable.
“Sentimental? Yes.
Thank Gott, we Germans believe in sentiment, and
keep ourselves young mit it. Your English
‘you’ is so cold, say ‘thou’,
heart’s dearest, it means so much to me,”
pleaded Mr. Bhaer, more like a romantic student than
a grave professor.
“Well, then, why didn’t
thou tell me all this sooner?” asked Jo bashfully.
“Now I shall haf to show thee
all my heart, and I so gladly will, because thou must
take care of it hereafter. See, then, my Jo ah,
the dear, funny little name I had a wish
to tell something the day I said goodbye in New York,
but I thought the handsome friend was betrothed to
thee, and so I spoke not. Wouldst thou have said
‘Yes’, then, if I had spoken?”
“I don’t know. I’m
afraid not, for I didn’t have any heart just
then.”
“Prut! That I do not believe.
It was asleep till the fairy prince came through
the wood, and waked it up. Ah, well, ’Die
erste Liebe ist die beste’, but
that I should not expect.”
“Yes, the first love is the
best, but be so contented, for I never had another.
Teddy was only a boy, and soon got over his little
fancy,” said Jo, anxious to correct the Professor’s
mistake.
“Good! Then I shall rest
happy, and be sure that thou givest me all. I
haf waited so long, I am grown selfish, as thou wilt
find, Professorin.”
“I like that,” cried Jo,
delighted with her new name. “Now tell
me what brought you, at last, just when I wanted you?”
“This,” and Mr. Bhaer
took a little worn paper out of his waistcoat pocket.
Jo unfolded it, and looked much abashed,
for it was one of her own contributions to a paper
that paid for poetry, which accounted for her sending
it an occasional attempt.
“How could that bring you?”
she asked, wondering what he meant.
“I found it by chance.
I knew it by the names and the initials, and in it
there was one little verse that seemed to call me.
Read and find him. I will see that you go not
in the wet.”
IN THE GARRET
Four little chests all in
a row,
Dim with dust, and worn by
time,
All fashioned and filled,
long ago,
By children now in their prime.
Four little keys hung side
by side,
With faded ribbons, brave
and gay
When fastened there, with
childish pride,
Long ago, on a rainy day.
Four little names, one on
each lid,
Carved out by a boyish hand,
And underneath there lieth
hid
Histories of the happy band
Once playing here, and pausing
oft
To hear the sweet refrain,
That came and went on the
roof aloft,
In the falling summer rain.
“Meg” on the first
lid, smooth and fair.
I look in with loving eyes,
For folded here, with well-known
care,
A goodly gathering lies,
The record of a peaceful life
Gifts to gentle child and
girl,
A bridal gown, lines to a
wife,
A tiny shoe, a baby curl.
No toys in this first chest
remain,
For all are carried away,
In their old age, to join
again
In another small Meg’s
play.
Ah, happy mother! Well
I know
You hear, like a sweet refrain,
Lullabies ever soft and low
In the falling summer rain.
“Jo” on the next
lid, scratched and worn,
And within a motley store
Of headless dolls, of schoolbooks
torn,
Birds and beasts that speak
no more,
Spoils brought home from the
fairy ground
Only trod by youthful feet,
Dreams of a future never found,
Memories of a past still sweet,
Half-writ poems, stories wild,
April letters, warm and cold,
Diaries of a wilful child,
Hints of a woman early old,
A woman in a lonely home,
Hearing, like a sad refrain
“Be worthy, love, and
love will come,”
In the falling summer rain.
My Beth! the dust is always
swept
From the lid that bears your
name,
As if by loving eyes that
wept,
By careful hands that often
came.
Death canonized for us one
saint,
Ever less human than divine,
And still we lay, with tender
plaint,
Relics in this household shrine
The silver bell, so seldom
rung,
The little cap which last
she wore,
The fair, dead Catherine that
hung
By angels borne above her
door.
The songs she sang, without
lament,
In her prison-house of pain,
Forever are they sweetly blent
With the falling summer rain.
Upon the last lid’s
polished field
Legend now both fair and true
A gallant knight bears on
his shield,
“Amy” in letters
gold and blue.
Within lie snoods that bound
her hair,
Slippers that have danced
their last,
Faded flowers laid by with
care,
Fans whose airy toils are
past,
Gay valentines, all ardent
flames,
Trifles that have borne their
part
In girlish hopes and fears
and shames,
The record of a maiden heart
Now learning fairer, truer
spells,
Hearing, like a blithe refrain,
The silver sound of bridal
bells
In the falling summer rain.
Four little chests all in
a row,
Dim with dust, and worn by
time,
Four women, taught by weal
and woe
To love and labor in their
prime.
Four sisters, parted for an
hour,
None lost, one only gone before,
Made by love’s immortal
power,
Nearest and dearest evermore.
Oh, when these hidden stores
of ours
Lie open to the Father’s
sight,
May they be rich in golden
hours,
Deeds that show fairer for
the light,
Lives whose brave music long
shall ring,
Like a spirit-stirring strain,
Souls that shall gladly soar
and sing
In the long sunshine after
rain.
“It’s very bad poetry,
but I felt it when I wrote it, one day when I was
very lonely, and had a good cry on a rag bag.
I never thought it would go where it could tell tales,”
said Jo, tearing up the verses the Professor had treasured
so long.
“Let it go, it has done its
duty, and I will haf a fresh one when I read all the
brown book in which she keeps her little secrets,”
said Mr. Bhaer with a smile as he watched the fragments
fly away on the wind. “Yes,” he
added earnestly, “I read that, and I think to
myself, She has a sorrow, she is lonely, she would
find comfort in true love. I haf a heart full,
full for her. Shall I not go and say, ’If
this is not too poor a thing to gif for what I shall
hope to receive, take it in Gott’s name?’”
“And so you came to find that
it was not too poor, but the one precious thing I
needed,” whispered Jo.
“I had no courage to think that
at first, heavenly kind as was your welcome to me.
But soon I began to hope, and then I said, ’I
will haf her if I die for it,’ and so I will!”
cried Mr. Bhaer, with a defiant nod, as if the walls
of mist closing round them were barriers which he
was to surmount or valiantly knock down.
Jo thought that was splendid, and
resolved to be worthy of her knight, though he did
not come prancing on a charger in gorgeous array.
“What made you stay away so
long?” she asked presently, finding it so pleasant
to ask confidential questions and get delightful answers
that she could not keep silent.
“It was not easy, but I could
not find the heart to take you from that so happy
home until I could haf a prospect of one to gif you,
after much time, perhaps, and hard work. How
could I ask you to gif up so much for a poor old fellow,
who has no fortune but a little learning?”
“I’m glad you are poor.
I couldn’t bear a rich husband,” said
Jo decidedly, adding in a softer tone, “Don’t
fear poverty. I’ve known it long enough
to lose my dread and be happy working for those I love,
and don’t call yourself old forty
is the prime of life. I couldn’t help
loving you if you were seventy!”
The Professor found that so touching
that he would have been glad of his handkerchief,
if he could have got at it. As he couldn’t,
Jo wiped his eyes for him, and said, laughing, as
she took away a bundle or two...
“I may be strong-minded, but
no one can say I’m out of my sphere now, for
woman’s special mission is supposed to be drying
tears and bearing burdens. I’m to carry
my share, Friedrich, and help to earn the home.
Make up your mind to that, or I’ll never go,”
she added resolutely, as he tried to reclaim his load.
“We shall see. Haf you
patience to wait a long time, Jo? I must go away
and do my work alone. I must help my boys first,
because, even for you, I may not break my word to
Minna. Can you forgif that, and be happy while
we hope and wait?”
“Yes, I know I can, for we love
one another, and that makes all the rest easy to bear.
I have my duty, also, and my work. I couldn’t
enjoy myself if I neglected them even for you, so
there’s no need of hurry or impatience.
You can do your part out West, I can do mine here,
and both be happy hoping for the best, and leaving
the future to be as God wills.”
“Ah! Thou gifest me such
hope and courage, and I haf nothing to gif back but
a full heart and these empty hands,” cried the
Professor, quite overcome.
Jo never, never would learn to be
proper, for when he said that as they stood upon the
steps, she just put both hands into his, whispering
tenderly, “Not empty now,” and stooping
down, kissed her Friedrich under the umbrella.
It was dreadful, but she would have done it if the
flock of draggle-tailed sparrows on the hedge had been
human beings, for she was very far gone indeed, and
quite regardless of everything but her own happiness.
Though it came in such a very simple guise, that was
the crowning moment of both their lives, when, turning
from the night and storm and loneliness to the household
light and warmth and peace waiting to receive them,
with a glad “Welcome home!” Jo led her
lover in, and shut the door.