“Now just look at that!”
cried a young lady, pausing suddenly in her restless
march to and fro on one of the wide piazzas of a seaside
hotel.
“At what?” asked her companion,
lazily swinging in a hammock.
“The difference in those two
greetings. It’s perfectly disgraceful!”
was the petulant reply.
“I didn’t see any thing.
Do tell me about it,” said Clara, opening her
drowsy eyes with sudden interest.
“Why, young Barlow was lounging
up the walk, and met pretty Miss Ellery. Off
went his hat; he gave her a fine bow, a gracious smile,
a worn-out compliment, and then dawdled on again.
The next minute Joe King came along. Instantly
Barlow woke up, laughed out like a pleased boy, gave
him a hearty grip of the hand, a cordial ’How
are you, old fellow? I’m no end glad to
see you!’ and, linking arms, the two tramped
off, quite beaming with satisfaction.”
“But, child, King is Barlow’s
best friend; Kitty Ellery only an acquaintance.
Besides, it wouldn’t do to greet a woman like
a man.”
“Yes, it would, especially in
this case; for Barlow adores Kate, and might, at least,
treat her to something better than the nonsense he
gives other girls. But, no, it’s proper
to simper and compliment; and he’ll do it till
his love gets the better of ‘prunes and prisms,’
and makes him sincere and earnest.”
“This is a new whim of yours.
You surely wouldn’t like to have any man call
out ‘How are you, Anna?’ slap you on the
shoulder, and nearly shake your hand off, as Barlow
did King’s, just now,” said Clara, laughing
at her friend.
“Yes, I would,” answered
Anna, perversely, “if he really meant it to
express affection or pleasure. A good grip of
the hand and a plain, hearty word would please me
infinitely better than all the servile bowing down
and sweet nonsense I’ve had lately. I’m
not a fool; then, why am I treated like one?”
she continued, knitting her handsome brows and pacing
to and fro like an angry leopardess. “Why
don’t men treat me like a reasonable being? talk
sense to me, give me their best ideas, tell me their
plans and ambitions, let me enjoy the real man in them,
and know what they honestly are? I don’t
want to be a goddess stuck up on a pedestal.
I want to be a woman down among them, to help and be
helped by our acquaintance.”
“It wouldn’t do, I fancy.
They wouldn’t like it, and would tell you to
keep to your own sex.”
“But my own sex don’t
interest or help me one bit. Women have no hope
but to be married, and that is soon told; no ideas
but dress and show, and I’m tired to death of
both; no ambition but to outshine their neighbors,
and I despise that.”
“Thank you, love,” blandly murmured Clara.
“It is true, and you know it.
There are sensible women; but not in my set.
And I don’t seem to find them. I’ve
tried the life set down for girls like me, and for
three years I’ve lived and enjoyed it. Now
I’m tired of it. I want something better,
and I mean to have it. Men will follow,
admire, flatter, and love me; for I please them and
they enjoy my society. Very well. Then it’s
fair that I should enjoy theirs. And I should
if they would let me. It’s perfectly maddening
to have flocks of brave, bright fellows round me,
full of every thing that is attractive, strong, and
helpful, yet not be able to get at it, because society
ordains twaddle between us, instead of sensible conversation
and sincere manners.”
“What shall we do about it,
love?” asked Clara, enjoying her friend’s
tirade.
“You will submit to it,
and get a mental dyspepsia, like all the other fashionable
girls. I won’t submit, if I can help it;
even if I shock Mrs. Grundy by my efforts to get plain
bread and beef instead of confectionery.”
Anna walked in silence for a moment,
and then burst out again, more energetically than
ever.
“Oh! I do wish I could
find one sensible man, who would treat me as he treats
his male friends, even roughly, if he is
honest and true; who would think me worthy of his
confidence, ask my advice, let me give him whatever
I have that is wise and excellent, and be my friend
in all good faith.”
“Ahem!” said Clara, with
a significant laugh, that angered Anna.
“You need not try to abash me
with your jeers. I know what I mean, and I stand
by my guns, in spite of your ‘hems.’
I do not want lovers. I’ve had dozens,
and am tired of them. I will not marry till I
know the man thoroughly; and how can I know
him with this veil between us? They don’t
guess what I really am; and I want to prove to them
and to myself that I possess brains and a heart, as
well as ‘heavenly eyes,’ a ‘queenly
figure,’ and a ‘mouth made for kissing.’”
The scorn with which Anna uttered
the last words amused her friend immensely, for the
petulant beauty had never looked handsomer than at
that moment.
“If any man saw you now, he’d
promise whatever you ask, no matter how absurd.
But don’t excite yourself, dear child; it is
too warm for heroics.”
Anna leaned on the wide baluster a
moment, looking thoughtfully out upon the sea; and
as she gazed a new expression stole over her charming
face, changing its disdainful warmth to soft regret.
“This is not all a whim.
I know what I covet, because I had it once,”
she said, with a sigh. “I had a boy friend
when I was a girl, and for several years we were like
brother and sister. Ah! what happy times we had
together, Frank and I. We played and studied, quarrelled
and made up, dreamed splendid dreams, and loved one
another in our simple child fashion, never thinking
of sex, rivalry, or any of the forms and follies that
spoil maturer friendships.”
“What became of him? Did
he die angelically in his early bloom, or outgrow
his Platonics with round jackets?” asked Clara.
“He went to college. I
went abroad, to be ‘finished off;’ and
when we met a year ago the old charm was all gone,
for we were ‘in society’ and had our masks
on.”
“So the boy and girl friendship
did not ripen into love and end the romance properly?”
“No, thank Heaven! no flirtation
spoilt the pretty story. Frank was too wise,
and I too busy. Yet I remember how glad I was
to see him; though I hid it properly, and pretended
to be quite unconscious that I was any thing but a
belle. I got paid for my deceit, though; for,
in spite of his admiration, I saw he was disappointed
in me. I should not have cared if I had been
disappointed in him; but I was quick to see that he
was growing one of the strong, superior men who command
respect. I wanted to keep his regard, at least;
and I seemed to have nothing but beauty to give in
return. I think I never was so hurt in my life
as I was by his not coming to see me after a week
or two, and hearing him say to a friend, one night,
when I thought I was at my very best, ’She is
spoilt, like all the rest.’”
“I do believe you loved him,
and that is why you won’t love any one else,”
cried Clara, who had seen her friend in her moods before;
but never understood them, and thought she had found
a clew now.
“No,” said Anna, with
a quiet shake of the head. “No, I only wanted
my boy friend back, and could not find him. The
fence between us was too high; and I could not climb
over, as I used to do when I leaped the garden-wall
to sit in a tree and help Frank with his lessons.”
“Has the uncivil wretch never
come back?” asked Clara, interested in the affair.
“Never. He is too busy
shaping his life bravely and successfully to waste
his time on a frivolous butterfly like Anna West.”
An eloquent little gesture of humility
made the words almost pathetic. Kind-hearted
Clara was touched by the sight of tears in the “heavenly
eyes,” and tumbling out of the hammock she embraced
the “queenly figure” and warmly pressed
the “lips that were made for kissing,”
thereby driving several approaching gentlemen to the
verge of distraction.
“Now don’t be tragical,
darling. You have nothing to cry for, I’m
sure. Young, lovely, rich, and adored, what more
can any girl want?” said Clara, gushingly.
“Something besides admiration
to live for,” answered Anna, adding, with a
shrug, as she saw several hats fly off and several
manly countenances beam upon her, “Never mind,
my fit is over now; let us go and dress for tea.”
Miss West usually took a brisk pull
in her own boat before breakfast; a habit which lured
many indolent young gentlemen out of their beds at
unaccustomed hours, in the hope that they might have
the honor of splashing their legs helping her off,
the privilege of wishing her “Bon voyage,”
or the crowning rapture of accompanying her.
On the morning after her “fit,”
as she called the discontent of a really fine nature
with the empty life she led, she was up and out unusually
early; for she had kept her room with a headache all
the evening, and now longed for fresh air and exercise.
As she prepared the “Gull”
for a start, she was idly wondering what early bird
would appear eager to secure the coveted worm, when
a loud and cheerful voice was heard calling,
“Hullo, Anna!” and a nautically
attired gentleman hove in sight, waving his hat as
he hailed her.
She started at the unceremonious salute
and looked back. Then her whole face brightened
beautifully as she sprang up the bank, saying, with
a pretty mixture of hesitation and pleasure,
“Why, Frank, is that you?”
“Do you doubt it?”
And the new-comer shook both her hands
so vigorously that she winced a little as she said,
laughing,
“No, I don’t. That is the old squeeze
with extra power in it.”
“How are you? Going for
a pull? Take me along and show me the lions.
There’s a good soul.”
“With pleasure. When did
you come?” asked Anna, settling the black ribbon
under the sailor collar which set off her white throat
charmingly.
“Last night. I caught a
glimpse of you at tea; but you were surrounded then
and vanished immediately afterward. So when I
saw you skipping over the rocks just now, I gave chase,
and here I am. Shall I take an oar?” asked
Frank, as she motioned him to get in.
“No, thank you. I prefer
to row myself and don’t need any help,”
she answered, with an imperious little wave of the
hand; for she was glad to show him she could do something
besides dance, dress, and flirt.
“All right. Then I’ll
do the luxurious and enjoy myself.” And,
without offering to help her in, Frank seated himself,
folded his arms, stretched out his long legs, and
placidly remarked,
“Pull away, skipper.”
Anna was pleased with his frank and
friendly greeting, and, feeling as if old times had
come again, sprang in, prepared to astonish him with
her skill.
“Might I suggest that you” began
Frank, as she pushed off.
“No suggestions or advice allowed
aboard this ship. I know what I’m about,
though I am a woman,” was the severe answer,
as the boat glided from the wharf.
“Ay, ay, sir!” And Frank
meekly subsided, with a twinkle of amusement in the
eyes that rested approvingly on the slender figure
in a blue boating suit and the charming face under
the sailor hat.
Anna paddled her way dexterously out
from among the fleet of boats riding at anchor in
the little bay; then she seated herself, adjusted
one oar, and looked about for the other rowlock.
It was nowhere visible; and, after a silent search,
she deigned to ask,
“Have you seen the thing anywhere?”
“I saw it on the bank.”
“Why didn’t you tell me before?”
“I began to, but was quenched; so I obeyed orders.”
“You haven’t forgotten how to tease,”
said Anna, petulantly.
“Nor you to be wilful.”
She gave him a look that would have
desolated most men; but only made Frank smile affably
as she paddled laboriously back, recovered the rowlock
and then her temper, as, with a fine display of muscle,
she pulled out to sea.
Getting into the current, she let
the boat drift, and soon forgot time and space in
the bewildering conversation that followed.
“What have you been doing since
I saw you last?” she asked, looking as rosy
as a milkmaid, as she stopped rowing and tied up her
wind-tossed hair.
“Working like a beaver.
You see” and then, to her utter amazement,
Frank entered into an elaborate statement of his affairs,
quite as if she understood all about it and her opinion
was valuable. It was all Greek to Anna, but she
was immensely gratified; for it was just the way the
boy used to tell her his small concerns in the days
when each had firm faith in the other’s wisdom.
She tried to look as if she understood all about “investments,
percentage, and long credit;” but she was out
of her depth in five minutes, and dared say nothing,
lest she should betray her lamentable ignorance on
all matters of business. She got out of the scrape
by cleverly turning the conversation to old times,
and youthful reminiscences soon absorbed them both.
The faint, far-off sound of a gong
recalled her to the fact that breakfast was nearly
ready; and, turning the boat, she was dismayed to
see how far they had floated. She stopped talking
and rowed her best; but wind and tide were against
her, she was faint with hunger, and her stalwart passenger
made her task doubly hard. He offered no help,
however; but did the luxurious to the life, leaning
back, with his hat off, and dabbling his hands in
the way that most impedes the progress of a boat.
Pride kept Anna silent till her face
was scarlet, her palms blistered, and her breath most
gone. Then, and not till then, did she condescend
to say, with a gasp, poorly concealed by an amiable
smile,
“Do you care to row? I ought to have asked
you before.”
“I’m very comfortable,
thank you,” answered Frank. Then, as an
expression of despair flitted over poor Anna’s
face, he added bluntly, “I’m getting desperately
hungry, so I don’t care if I do shorten the
voyage a bit.”
With a sigh of relief, she rose to
change seats, and, expecting him to help her, she
involuntarily put out her hands, as she passed.
But Frank was busy turning back his cuffs, and never
stirred a finger; so that she would have lost her
balance and gone overboard if she had not caught his
arm.
“What’s the matter, skipper?”
he asked, standing the sudden grip as steadily as
a mast.
“Why didn’t you help me?
You have no more manners than a turtle!” cried
Anna, dropping into the seat with the frown of a spoiled
beauty, accustomed to be gallantly served and supported
at every step.
Frank only added to his offence by
laughing, as he said carelessly,
“You seemed so independent, I didn’t like
to interfere.”
“So, if I had gone overboard,
you would not have fished me out, unless I asked you
to do it, I suppose?”
“In that case, I’m afraid
I shouldn’t have waited for orders. We can’t
spare you to the mermen yet.”
Something in the look he gave her
appeased Anna’s resentment; and she sat silently
admiring the strong swift strokes that sent the “Gull”
skimming over the water.
“Not too late for breakfast,
after all,” she said graciously, as they reached
the wharf, where several early strollers stood watching
their approach.
“Poor thing! You look as
if you needed it,” answered Frank. But he
let her get out alone, to the horror of Messrs. Barlow,
King, & Co.; and, while she fastened the boat, Frank
stood settling his hatband, with the most exasperating
unconsciousness of his duty.
“What are you going to do with
yourself this morning?” she asked, as she walked
up the rocky path, with no arm to lean upon.
“Fish. Will you come along?”
“No, thank you. One gets
so burnt. I shall go to my hammock under the
pine,” was the graciously suggestive reply of
the lady who liked a slave to fan or swing her, and
seldom lacked several to choose from.
“See you at dinner, then.
My room is in the Cottage. So by-by for the present.”
And, with a nod, Frank strolled away, leaving the lovely
Miss West to mount the steps and cross the hall unescorted.
“The dear fellow’s manners
need polish. I must take him in hand, I see.
And yet he is very nice, in spite of his brusque ways,”
thought Anna, indulgently. And more than once
that morning she recalled his bluff “Hullo,
Anna!” as she swung languidly in her hammock,
with a devoted being softly reading Tennyson to her
inattentive ears.
At dinner she appeared in unusual
spirits, and kept her end of the table in a ripple
of merriment by her witty and satirical sallies, privately
hoping that her opposite neighbor would discover that
she could talk well when she chose to do so.
But Frank was deep in politics, discussing some new
measure with such earnestness and eloquence that Anna,
pausing to listen for a moment, forgot her lively
gossip in one of the great questions of the hour.
She was listening with silent interest,
when Frank suddenly appealed to her to confirm some
statement he had just made; and she was ignominiously
obliged to confess she knew too little about the matter
to give any opinion. No compliment ever paid
her was more flattering than his way of turning to
her now and then, as if including her in the discussion
as a matter of course; and never had she regretted
any thing more keenly than she did her ignorance on
a subject that every man and woman should understand
and espouse.
She did her best to look intelligent;
racked her brain to remember facts which she had heard
discussed for weeks, without paying any attention to
them; and, thanks to her quick wit and womanly sympathy,
she managed to hold her own, saying little, but looking
much.
The instant dinner was over, she sent
a servant to the reading-room for a file of late papers,
and, retiring to a secluded corner, read up with a
diligence that not only left her with clearer ideas
on one subject, but also a sense of despair at her
own deficiencies in the knowledge of many others.
“I really must have a course
of solid reading. I do believe that is what I
need; and I’ll ask Frank where to begin.
He always was an intelligent boy; but I was surprised
to hear how well he talked. I was actually proud
of him. I wonder where he is, by the way.
Clara wants to be introduced, and I want to see how
he strikes her.”
Leaving her hiding-place, Anna walked
forth in search of her friends, looking unusually
bright and beautiful, for her secret studies had waked
her up and lent her face the higher charm it needed.
Clara appeared first. The new-comer had already
been presented to her, and she professed herself “perfectly
fascinated.” “Such a personable man!
Quite distinguished, you know, and so elegant in his
manners! Devoted, graceful, and altogether charming.”
“You like his manners, do you?”
and Anna smiled at Clara’s enthusiasm.
“Of course I do; for they have
all the polish of foreign travel, with the indescribable
something which a really fine character lends to every
little act and word.”
“Frank has never been abroad,
and if I judged his character by his manners I should
say he was rather a rough customer,” said Anna,
finding fault because Clara praised.
“You are so fastidious, nothing
ever suits you, dear. I didn’t expect to
like this old friend of yours. But I frankly confess
I do immensely; so, if you are tired of him, I’ll
take him off your hands.”
“Thank you, love. You are
welcome to poor Frank, if you can win him. Men
are apt to be more loyal to friendship than women;
and I rather fancy, from what I saw this morning,
that he is in no haste to change old friends for new.”
Anna spoke sweetly, but at heart was
ill pleased with Clara’s admiration of her private
property, as she considered “poor Frank,”
and inwardly resolved to have no poaching on her preserves.
Just then the gentleman in question
came up, saying to Anna, in his abrupt way,
“Every one is going to ride,
so I cannot get the best horses; but I’ve secured
two, and now I want a companion. Will you come
for a good old-time gallop?”
Anna thought of her blistered hands,
and hesitated, till a look at Clara’s hopeful
face decided her to accept. She did so, and rode
like an Amazon for several hours, in spite of heat,
dust, and a hard-mouthed horse, who nearly pulled
her arms out of the sockets.
She hoped to find a chance to consult
Frank about her course of useful reading; but he seemed
intent on the “old-time gallop,” and she
kept up gallantly till the ride was over, when she
retired to her room, quite exhausted, but protesting
with heroic smiles that she had had a delightful time.
She did not appear at tea; but later
in the evening, when an informal dance was well under
way, she sailed in on the arm of a distinguished old
gentleman, “evidently prepared to slay her thousands,”
as young Barlow said, observing the unusual brilliancy
of her eyes and the elaborate toilette she had made.
“She means mischief to-night.
Who is to be the victim, I wonder?” said another
man, putting up his glass for a survey of the charmer.
“Not the party who came last
evening. He is only an old friend,” she
says.
“He might be her brother or
her husband, judging by the cavalier way in which
he treats her. I could have punched his head this
morning, when he let her pull up that boat alone,”
cried a youthful adorer, glaring irefully at the delinquent,
lounging in a distant doorway.
“If she said he was an old friend,
you may be sure he is an accepted lover. The
dear creatures all fib in these matters; so I’ll
lay wagers to an enormous amount that all this splendor
is for the lord and master, not for our destruction,”
answered Barlow, who was wise in the ways of women
and wary as a moth should be who had burnt his wings
more than once at the same candle.
Clara happened to overhear these pleasing
remarks, and five minutes after they were uttered
she breathed them tenderly into Anna’s ear.
A scornful smile was all the answer she received;
but the beauty was both pleased and annoyed, and awaited
with redoubled interest the approach of the old friend,
who was regarded in the light of a successful lover.
But he seemed in no haste to claim his privileges,
and dance after dance went by, while he sat talking
with the old general or absently watching the human
teetotums that spun about before him.
“I can’t stand this another
moment!” said Anna to herself, at last, and
beckoned the recreant knight to approach, with a commanding
gesture.
“Why don’t you dance, sir?”
“I’ve forgotten how, ma’am.”
“After all the pains I took
with you when we had lessons together, years ago?”
“I’ve been too busy to attend to trifles
of that sort.”
“Elegant accomplishments are
not trifles, and no one should neglect them who cares
to make himself agreeable.”
“Well, I don’t know that I do care, as
a general thing.”
“You ought to care; and, as
a penance for that rude speech, you must dance this
dance with me. I cannot let you forget all your
accomplishments for the sake of business; so I shall
do my duty as a friend and take you in hand,”
said Anna, severely.
“You are very kind; but is it worth the trouble?”
“Now, Frank, don’t be
provoking and ungrateful. You know you like to
give pleasure, to be cared for, and to do credit to
your friends; so just rub up your manners a bit, and
be as well-bred as you are sensible and brave and
good.”
“Thank you, I’ll try.
May I have the honor, Miss West?” and he bowed
low before her, with a smile on his lips that both
pleased and puzzled Anna.
They danced the dance, and Frank acquitted
himself respectably, but relapsed into his objectionable
ways as soon as the trial ended; for the first thing
he said, with a sigh of relief, was,
“Come out and talk; for upon
my life I can’t stand this oven any longer.”
Anna obediently followed, and, seating
herself in a breezy corner, waited to be entertained.
But Frank seemed to have forgotten that pleasing duty;
for, perching himself on the wide baluster of the piazza,
he not only proceeded to light a cigarette, without
even saying, “By your leave,” but coolly
offered her one also.
“How dare you!” she said,
much offended at this proceeding. “I am
not one of the fast girls who do such things, and
I dislike it exceedingly.”
“You used to smoke sweet-fern
in corn-cob pipes, you remember; and these are not
much stronger,” he said, placidly restoring the
rejected offering to his pocket.
“I did many foolish things then
which I desire to forget now.”
“And some very sweet and sensible
ones, also. Ah, well! it can’t be helped,
I suppose.”
Anna sat silent a moment, wondering
what he meant; and when she looked up, she found him
pensively staring at her, through a fragrant cloud
of smoke.
“What is it?” she asked,
for his eyes seemed seeking something.
“I was trying to see some trace
of the little Anna I used to know. I thought
I’d found her again this morning in the girl
in the round hat; but I don’t find her anywhere
to-night.”
“Indeed, Frank, I’m not
so much changed as I seem. At least, to you I
am the same, as far as I can be. Do believe it,
and be friends, for I want one very much?” cried
Anna, forgetting every thing but the desire to reestablish
herself in his good opinion. As she spoke, she
turned her face toward the light and half extended
her hand, as if to claim and hold the old regard that
seemed about to be withdrawn from her.
Frank bent a little and scanned the
upturned face with a keen glance. It flushed
in the moonlight and the lips trembled like an anxious
child’s; but the eyes met his with a look both
proud and wistful, candid and sweet, a
look few saw in those lovely eyes, or, once seeing,
ever forgot. Frank gave a little nod, as if satisfied,
and said, with that perplexing smile of his,
“Most people would see only
the beautiful Miss West, in a remarkably pretty gown;
but I think I catch a glimpse of little Anna, and I
am very glad of it. You want a friend? Very
good. I’ll do my best for you; but you
must take me as I am, thorns and all.”
“I will, and not mind if they
wound sometimes. I’ve had roses till I’m
tired of them, in spite of their sweetness.”
As he spoke, Frank had taken the hand
she offered, and, having gravely shaken it, held the
“white wonder” for an instant, glancing
from the little blisters on the delicate palm to the
rings that shone on several fingers.
“Are you reading my fortune?”
asked Anna, wondering if he was going to be sentimental
and kiss it.
“After a fashion; for I am looking
to see if there is a suspicious diamond anywhere about.
Isn’t it time there was one?”
“That is not a question for
you to ask;” and Anna caught away her hand,
as if one of the thorns he spoke of had suddenly pricked.
“Why not? We always used
to tell each other every thing; and, if we are to
go on in the old friendly way, we must be confidential
and comfortable, you know.”
“You can begin yourself then,
and I’ll see how I like it,” said Anna,
aroused and interested, in spite of her maidenly scruples
about the new arrangement.
“I will, with all my heart.
To own the truth, I’ve been longing to tell
you something; but I wasn’t sure that you’d
take any interest in it,” began Frank, eating
rose-leaves with interesting embarrassment.
“I can imagine what it is,”
said Anna, quickly, while her heart began to flutter
curiously, for these confidences were becoming exciting.
“You have found your fate, and are dying to
let everybody know how happy you are.”
“I think I have. But I’m
not happy yet. I’m desperately anxious,
for I cannot decide whether it is a wise or foolish
choice.”
“Who is it?”
“Never mind the name. I
haven’t spoken yet, and perhaps never shall;
so I may as well keep that to myself, for
the present, at least.”
“Tell me what you like then,
and I will ask no more questions,” said Anna,
coldly; for this masculine discretion annoyed her.
“Well, you see, this dear girl
is pretty, rich, accomplished, and admired. A
little spoilt, in fact; but very captivating, in spite
of it. Now, the doubt in my mind is whether it
is wise to woo a wife of this sort; for I know I shall
want a companion in all things, not only a pretty
sweetheart or a graceful mistress for my house.”
“I should say it was not
wise,” began Anna, decidedly; then hastened
to add, more quietly: “But perhaps you only
see one side of this girl’s character.
She may have much strength and sweetness hidden away
under her gay manner, waiting to be called out when
the right mate comes.”
“I often think so myself, and
long to learn if I am the man; but some frivolous
act, thoughtless word, or fashionable folly on her
part dampens my ardor, and makes me feel as if I had
better go elsewhere before it is too late.”
“You are not madly in love, then?”
“Not yet; but I should be if
I saw much of her, for when I do I rather lose my
head, and am tempted to fall upon my knees, regardless
of time, place, and consequences.”
Frank spoke with sudden love and longing
in his voice, and stretched out his arms so suggestively
that Anna started. But he contented himself with
gathering a rose from the clusters that hung all about,
and Anna slapped an imaginary mosquito as energetically
as if it had been the unknown lady, for whom she felt
a sudden and inexplicable dislike.
“So you think I’d better
not say to my love, like the mad gentleman to Mrs.
Nickleby, ’Be mine, be mine’?” was
Frank’s next question, as he sat with his nose
luxuriously buried in the fragrant heart of the rose.
“Decidedly not. I’m
sure, from the way you speak of her, that she is not
worthy of you; and your passion cannot be very deep
if you can quote Dickens’s nonsense at such
a moment,” said Anna, more cheerfully.
“It grows rapidly, I find; and
I give you my word, if I should pass a week in the
society of that lovely butterfly, it would be all over
with me by Saturday night.”
“Then don’t do it.”
“Ah! but I want to desperately.
Do say that I may, just for a last nibble at temptation,
before I take your advice and go back to my bachelor
life again,” he prayed beseechingly.
“Don’t go back, love somebody
else, and be happy. There are plenty of superior
women in the world who would be just the thing for
you. I am sure you are going to be a man of mark,
and you must have a good wife, not
a silly little creature, who will be a clog upon you
all your life. So do take my advice, and
let me help you, if I can.”
Anna spoke earnestly, and her face
quite shone with friendly zeal; while her eyes were
full of unspoken admiration and regard for this friend,
who seemed tottering on the verge of a precipice.
She expected a serious reply, thanks, at
least, for her interest; and great was her surprise
to see Frank lean back against the vine-wreathed pillar
behind him, and laugh till a shower of rose-leaves
came fluttering down on both their heads.
“I don’t see any cause
for such unseemly merriment,” was her dignified
reproof of this new impropriety.
“I beg your pardon. I really
couldn’t help it, for the comical contrast between
your sage counsels and your blooming face upset me.
Your manner was quite maternal and most impressive,
till I looked at you in your French finery, and then
it was all up with me,” said Frank, penitently,
though his eyes still danced with mirth.
The compliment appeased Anna’s
anger; and, folding her round white arms on the railing
in front of her, she looked up at him with a laugh
as blithe as his own.
“I dare say I was absurdly sober
and important; but you see it is so long since I have
had a really serious thought in my head or felt a
really sincere interest in any one’s affairs
but my own that I overdid the matter. If you
don’t care for my advice, I’ll take it
all back; and you can go and marry your butterfly
as soon as you like.”
“I rather think I shall,”
said Frank, slowly. “For I fancy she has
got a hidden self, as you suggested, and I’d
rather like to find it out. One judges people
so much by externals that it is not fair. Now,
you, for instance, if you won’t mind my saying
it, don’t show half your good points; and a
casual observer would consider you merely a fashionable
woman, lovely, but shallow.”
“As you did the last time we met,” put
in Anna, sharply.
If she expected him to deny it, she
was mistaken for he answered, with provoking candor,
“Exactly. And I quite grieved
about it; for I used to be very fond of my little
playmate and thought she’d make a fine woman.
I’m glad I’ve seen you again; for I find
I was unjust in my first judgment, and this discovery
gives me hope that I may have been mistaken in the
same way about my well, we’ll say
sweetheart. It’s a pretty old word and I
like it.”
“If he only would forget
that creature a minute and talk about something more
interesting!” sighed Anna to herself. But
she answered, meekly enough: “I knew you
were disappointed in me, and I did not wonder for
I am not good for much, thanks to my foolish education
and the life I have led these last few years.
But I do sincerely wish to be more of a woman, only
I have no one to tell me how. Everybody flatters
me and”
“I don’t!” cried Frank, promptly.
“That’s true.”
And Anna could not help laughing in the middle of her
confessions at the tone of virtuous satisfaction with
which he repelled the accusation. “No,”
she continued, “you are honest enough for any
one; and I like it, though it startles me now and
then, it is so new.”
“I hope I’m not disrespectful,”
said Frank, busily removing the thorns from the stem
of his flower.
“Oh, no! Not that exactly.
But you treat me very much as if I was a sister or
a masculine friend.” Anna meant
to quote the expression Clara had reported; but somehow
the word “wife” was hard to utter, and
she finished the sentence differently.
“And you don’t like it?”
asked Frank, lifting the rose to hide the mischievous
smile that lurked about his mouth.
“Yes, I do, infinitely
better than the sentimental homage other men pay me
or the hackneyed rubbish they talk. It does me
good to be a little neglected; and I don’t mind
it from you, because you more than atone for it by
talking to me as if I could understand a man’s
mind and had one of my own.”
“Then you don’t quite
detest me for my rough ways and egotistical confidences?”
asked Frank, as if suddenly smitten with remorse for
the small sins of the day.
“No, I rather fancy it, for
it seems like old times, when you and I played together.
Only then I could help you in many ways, as you helped
me; but now I don’t seem to know any thing, and
can be of no use to you or any one else. I should
like to be; and I think, if you would kindly tell
me what books to read, what people to know, and what
faculties to cultivate, I might become something besides
’a fashionable woman, lovely but shallow.’”
There was a little quiver of emotion
in Anna’s voice as she uttered the last words
that did not escape her companion’s quick ear.
But he only smiled a look of heartfelt satisfaction
to the rose, and answered soberly:
“Now that is a capital idea,
and I’ll do it with pleasure. I have often
wondered how you bright girls could be contented
with such an empty sort of life. We fellows are
just as foolish for a time, I know, far
worse in the crops of wild oats we sow; but we have
to pull up and go to work, and that makes men of us.
Marriage ought to do that for women, I suppose; but
it doesn’t seem to nowadays, and I do pity you
poor little things from the bottom of my heart.”
“I’m ready now to ‘pull
up and go to work.’ Show me how, Frank,
and I’ll change your pity into respect,”
said Anna, casting off her lace shawl, as if preparing
for immediate action; for his tone of masculine superiority
rather nettled her.
“Come, I’ll make a bargain
with you. I’ll give you something strong
and solid to brace up your mind, and in return you
shall polish my manners, see to my morals, and keep
my heart from wasting itself on false idols.
Shall we do this for one another, Anna?”
“Yes, Frank,” she answered
heartily. Then, as Clara was seen approaching,
she added playfully, “All this is sub rosa,
you understand.”
He handed her the flower without a
word, as if the emblem of silence was the best gage
he could offer. Many flowers had been presented
to the beauty; but none were kept so long and carefully
as the thornless rose her old friend gave her, with
a cordial smile that warmed her heart.
A great deal can happen in a week,
and the seven days that followed that moonlight tete-a-tete
seemed to Anna the fullest and the happiest she had
ever known. She had never worked so hard in her
life; for her new tutor gave her plenty to do, and
she studied in secret to supply sundry deficiencies
which she was too proud to confess. No more novels
now; no more sentimental poetry, lounging in a hammock.
She sat erect upon a hard rock and read Buckle, Mill,
and Social Science Reports with a diligence that appalled
the banished dawdlers who usually helped her kill
time. There was early boating, vigorous horse
exercise, and tramps over hill and dale, from which
she returned dusty, brown, and tired, but as happy
as if she had discovered something fairer and grander
than wild flowers or the ocean in its changeful moods.
There were afternoon concerts in the breezy drawing-rooms,
when others were enjoying siestas, and Anna sang
to her one listener as she had never sung before.
But best of all were the moonlight séances
among the roses; for there they interchanged interesting
confidences and hovered about those dangerous but
delightful topics that need the magic of a midsummer
night to make the charm quite perfect.
Anna intended to do her part honorably;
but soon forgot to correct her pupil’s manners,
she was so busy taking care of his heart. She
presently discovered that he treated other women in
the usual way; and at first it annoyed her that she
was the only one whom he allowed to pick up her own
fan, walk without an arm, row, ride, and take care
of herself as if she was a man. But she also
discovered that she was the only woman to whom he
talked as to an equal, in whom he seemed to find sympathy,
inspiration, and help, and for whom he frankly showed
not admiration alone, but respect, confidence, and
affection.
This made the loss of a little surface
courtesy too trifling for complaint or reproof; this
stimulated and delighted her; and, in striving to
deserve and secure it, she forgot every thing else,
prouder to be one man’s true friend than the
idol of a dozen lovers.
What the effect of this new league
was upon the other party was less evident; for, being
of the undemonstrative sex, he kept his observations,
discoveries, and satisfaction to himself, with no sign
of especial interest, except now and then a rapturous
allusion to his sweetheart, as if absence was increasing
his passion.
Anna tried to quench his ardor, feeling
sure, she said that it was a mistake to lavish so
much love upon a person who was so entirely unworthy
of it. But Frank seemed blind on this one point;
and Anna suffered many a pang, as day after day showed
her some new virtue, grace, or talent in this perverse
man, who seemed bent on throwing his valuable self
away. She endeavored to forget it, avoided the
subject as much as possible, and ignored the existence
of this inconvenient being entirely. But as the
week drew to an end a secret trouble looked out at
her eyes, a secret unrest possessed her, and every
moment seemed to grow more precious as it passed,
each full of a bitter sweet delight never known before.
“I must be off to-morrow,”
said Frank, on the Saturday evening, as they strolled
together on the beach, while the sun set gloriously
and the great waves broke musically on the sands.
“Such a short holiday, after
all those months of work!” answered Anna, looking
away, lest he should see how wistful her tell-tale
eyes were.
“I may take a longer holiday,
the happiest a man can have, if somebody will go with
me. Anna, I’ve made up my mind to try my
fate,” he added impetuously.
“I have warned you, I can do
no more.” Which was quite true, for the
poor girl’s heart sunk at his words, and for
a moment all the golden sky was a blur before her
eyes.
“I won’t be warned, thank
you; for I’m quite sure now that I love her.
Nothing like absence to settle that point. I’ve
tried it, and I can’t get on without her; so
I’m going to ’put my fortune to the touch
and win or lose it all.’”
“If you truly love her, I hope
you will win, and find her the wife you deserve.
But think well before you put your happiness into any
woman’s hands,” said Anna, bravely trying
to forget herself.
“Bless you! I’ve
hardly thought of any thing else this week! I’ve
enjoyed myself, though; and am very grateful to you
for making my visit so pleasant,” Frank added
warmly.
“Have I? I’m so glad!”
said Anna, as simply as a pleased child; for real
love had banished all her small coquetries, vanities,
and affectations, as sunshine absorbs the mists that
hide a lovely landscape.
“Indeed, you have. All
the teaching has not been on my side, I assure you;
and I’m not too proud to own my obligation to
a woman! We lonely fellows, who have neither
mother, sister, nor wife, need some gentle soul to
keep us from getting selfish, hard, and worldly; and
few are so fortunate as I in having a friend like
little Anna.”
“Oh, Frank! what have I done
for you? I haven’t dared to teach one so
much wiser and stronger than myself. I’ve
only wanted to, and grieved because I was so ignorant,
so weak, and silly,” cried Anna, glowing beautifully
with surprise and pleasure at this unexpected revelation.
“Your humility blinded you;
yet your unconsciousness was half the charm.
I’ll tell you what you did, dear. A man’s
moral sense gets blunted knocking about this rough-and-tumble
world, where the favorite maxim is, ‘Every man
for himself and the Devil take the hindmost.’
It is so with me; and in many of our conversations
on various subjects, while I seemed to be teaching
you, your innocent integrity was rebuking my worldly
wisdom, your subtle instincts were pointing out the
right which is above all policy, your womanly charity
softening my hard judgments, and your simple faith
in the good, the beautiful, the truly brave was waking
up the high and happy beliefs that lay, not dead,
but sleeping, in my soul. All this you did for
me, Anna, and even more; for, in showing me the hidden
side of your nature, I found it so sweet and deep and
worshipful that it restores my faith in womankind,
and shows me all the lovely possibilities that may
lie folded up under the frivolous exterior of a fashionable
woman.”
Anna’s heart was so full she
could not speak for a moment; then like a dash of
cold water came the thought, “And all this that
I have done has only put him further from me, since
it has given him courage to love and trust that woman.”
She tried to show only pleasure at his praise; but
for the life of her she could not keep a tone of bitterness
out of her voice as she answered gratefully,
“You are too kind, Frank.
I can hardly believe that I have so many virtues;
but if I have, and they, like yours, have been asleep,
remember you helped wake them up, and so you owe me
nothing. Keep your sweet speeches for the lady
you go to woo. I am contented with honest words
that do not flatter.”
“You shall have them;”
and a quick smile passed over Frank’s face, as
if he knew what thorn pricked her just then, and was
not ill pleased at the discovery. “Only,
if I lose my sweetheart, I may be sure that my old
friend won’t desert me?” he asked, with
a sincere anxiety that was a balm to Anna’s
sore heart.
She did not speak, but offered him
her hand with a look which said much. He took
it as silently, and, holding it in a firm, warm grasp,
led her up to a cleft in the rocks, where they often
sat to watch the great breakers thunder in. As
she took her seat, he folded his plaid about her so
tenderly that it felt like a friendly arm shielding
her from the fresh gale that blew up from the sea.
It was an unusual attention on his part, and coming
just then it affected her so curiously that, when he
lounged down beside her, she felt a strong desire to
lay her head on his shoulder and sob out,
“Don’t go and leave me!
No one loves you half as well as I, or needs you half
so much!”
Of course, she did nothing of the
sort; but began to sing, as she covertly whisked away
a rebellious tear. Frank soon interrupted her
music, however, by a heavy sigh; and followed up that
demonstration with the tragical announcement,
“Anna, I’ve got something awful to tell
you.”
“What is it?” she asked,
with the resignation of one who has already heard
the worst.
“It is so bad that I can’t
look you in the face while I tell it. Listen
calmly till I am done, and then pitch me overboard
if you like, for I deserve it,” was his cheerful
beginning.
“Go on.” And Anna
prepared herself to receive some tremendous shock with
masculine firmness.
Frank pulled his hat over his eyes,
and, looking away from her, said rapidly, with an
odd sound in his voice.
“The night I came I was put
in a room opening on the back piazza; and, lying there
to rest and cool after my journey, I heard two ladies
talking. I knocked my boots about to let them
know I was near; but they took no notice, so I listened.
Most women’s gabble would have sent me to sleep
in five minutes; but this was rather original, and
interested me, especially when I found by the names
mentioned that I knew one of the parties. I’ve
been trying your experiment all the week. Anna,
how do you like it?”
She did not answer for a moment, being
absorbed in swift retrospection. Then she colored
to her hat-brim, looked angry, hurt, amused, gratified,
and ashamed, all in a minute, and said slowly, as she
met his laughing eyes,
“Better than I thought I should.”
“That’s good! Then
you forgive me for my eavesdropping, my rudeness, and
manifold iniquities? It was abominable; but I
could not resist the temptation of testing your sincerity.
It was great fun; but I’m not sure that I shall
not get the worst of it, after all,” said Frank,
sobering suddenly.
“You have played so many jokes
upon me in old times that I don’t find it hard
to forgive this one; though I think it rather base
in you to deceive me so. Still, as I have enjoyed
and got a good deal out of it, I don’t complain,
and won’t send you overboard yet,” said
Anna, generously.
“You always were a forgiving
angel.” And Frank settled the plaid again
more tenderly than before.
“It was this, then, that made
you so brusque to me alone, so odd and careless?
I could not understand it and it hurt me at first;
but I thought it was because we had been children
together and soon forgot it, you were so kind and
confidential, so helpful and straightforward.
It was ‘great fun,’ for I always
knew you meant what you said; and that was an unspeakable
comfort to me in this world of flattery and falsehood.
Yes, you may laugh at me, Frank, and leave me to myself
again. I can bear it, for I’ve proved that
my whim was a possibility. I see my way now,
and can go on alone to a truer, happier life than that
in which you found me.”
She spoke out bravely, and looked
above the level sands and beyond the restless sea,
as if she had found something worth living for and
did not fear the future. Frank watched her an
instant, for her face had never worn so noble an expression
before. Sorrow as well as strength had come into
the lovely features, and pain as well as patience touched
them with new beauty. His own face changed as
he looked, as if he let loose some deep and tender
sentiment, long held in check, now ready to rise and
claim its own.
“Anna,” he said penitently,
“I’ve got one other terrible confession
to make, and then my conscience will be clear.
I want to tell you who my sweetheart is. Here’s
her picture. Will you look at it?”
She gave a little shiver, turned steadily,
and looked where he pointed. But all she saw
was her own astonished face reflected in the shallow
pool behind them. One glance at Frank made any
explanation needless; indeed, there was no time for
her to speak before something closer than the plaid
enfolded her, something warmer than tears touched her
cheek, and a voice sweeter to her than wind or wave
whispered tenderly in her ear,
“All this week I have been studying
and enjoying far more than you; for I have read a
woman’s heart and learned to trust and honor
what I have loved ever since I was a boy. Absence
proved this to me: so I came to look for little
Anna, and found her better and dearer than ever.
May I ask her to keep on teaching me? Will she
share my work as well as holiday, and be the truest
friend a man can have?”
And Anna straightway answered, “Yes.”