RECORDING THE ASTONISHING VALOUR DISPLAYED
BY A CERTAIN SMALL MOUSE IN A CORNER
As Honoria St. Quentin and the reluctant
Shotover stepped, side by side, from the warmth and
dimness obtaining in the anteroom, into the pleasant
coolness of the moonlit balcony, Lady Constance Quayle,
altogether forgetful of her usual careful civility
and pretty correctness of demeanour, uttered an inarticulate
cry a cry, indeed, hardly human in its
abandon and unreasoning anguish, resembling rather
the shriek of the doubling hare as the pursuing greyhound
nips it across the loins. Regardless of all her
dainty finery of tulle, and roses, and flashing diamonds,
she flung herself forward, face downwards, across
the coping of the balustrade, her bare arms outstretched,
her hands clasped above her head. Mr. Decies,
blue-eyed, black-haired, smooth of skin, looking noticeably
long and lithe in his close-fitting, dress clothes,
made a rapid movement as though to lay hold on her
and bear her bodily away. Then, recognising the
futility of any such attempt, he turned upon the intruders,
his high-spirited Celtic face drawn with emotion,
his attitude rather dangerously warlike.
“What do you want?” he demanded hotly.
“My dear good fellow,”
Lord Shotover began, with the most assuaging air of
apology. “I assure you the very last thing
I we I mean I want
is to be a nuisance. Only Miss St. Quentin thought in
fact, Decies, don’t you see dash
it all, you know, there seemed to be some sort of worry
going on out here and so ”
But Honoria did not wait for the conclusion
of elaborate explanations, for that cry and the unrestraint
of the girl’s attitude not only roused, but
shocked her. It was not fitting that any man,
however kindly or even devoted, should behold this
well-bred, modest and gentle, young maiden in her
present extremity. So she swept past Mr. Decies
and bent over Lady Constance Quayle, raised her, strove
to soothe her agitation, speaking in tones of somewhat
indignant tenderness.
But, though deriving a measure of
comfort from the steady arm about her waist, from
the strong, protective presence, from the rather stern
beauty of the face looking down into hers, Lady Constance
could not master her agitation. The train had
left the metals, so to speak, and the result was confusion
dire. A great shame held her, a dislocation of
mind. She suffered that loneliness of soul which
forms so integral a part of the misery of all apparently
irretrievable disaster, whether moral or physical,
and places the victim of it, in imagination at all
events, rather terribly beyond the pale.
“Oh!” she sobbed, “you
ought not to be so kind to me. I am very wicked.
I never supposed I could be so wicked. What shall
I do? I am so frightened at myself and at everything.
I did not recognise you. I didn’t see it
was only Shotover.”
“Well, but now you do see, my
dear Con, it’s only me,” that gentleman
remarked, with a cheerful disregard of grammar.
“And so you mustn’t upset yourself any
more. It’s awfully bad for you, and uncomfortable
for everybody else, don’t you know. You
must try to pull yourself together a bit and we’ll
help you of course, I’ll help you.
We’ll all help you, of course we will, and pull
you through somehow.”
But the girl only lamented herself the more piteously.
“Oh no, Shotover, you must not
be so kind to me! You couldn’t if you knew
how wicked I have been.”
“Couldn’t I?” Lord
Shotover remarked, not without a touch of humorous
pathos. “Poor little Con!”
“Only, only please do not tell
Louisa. It would be too dreadful if she knew she,
and Alicia, and the others. Don’t tell her,
and I will be good. I will be quite good, indeed
I will.”
“Bless me, my dear child, I
won’t tell anybody anything. To begin with
I don’t know anything to tell.”
The girl’s voice had sunk away
into a sob. She shuddered, letting her pretty,
brown head fall back against Honoria St. Quentin’s
bare shoulder, while the moonlight glinted
on her jewels and the night wind swayed the hanging
clusters of the pink geraniums. Along with the
warmth and scent of flowers, streaming outward through
the open windows, came a confused sound of many voices,
of discreet laughter, mingled with the wailing sweetness
of violins. Then the pleading, broken, childish
voice took up its tale again:
“I will be good. I know
I have promised, and I have let him give me a number
of beautiful things. He has been very kind to
me, because he is clever, and of course I am stupid.
But he has never been impatient with me. And
I am not ungrateful, indeed, Shotover, I am not.
It was only for a minute I was wicked enough to think
of doing it. But Mr. Decies told me he asked
me and and we were so happy at
Whitney in the winter. And it seemed too hard
to give it all up, as he said it was true. But
I will be good, indeed I will. Really it was only
for a minute I thought of it. I know I have promised.
Indeed, I will make no fuss. I will be good.
I will marry Richard Calmady.”
“But this is simply intolerable!”
Honoria said in a low voice.
She held herself tall and straight,
looking gallant yet pure, austere even, as some pictured
Jeanne d’Arc, a great singleness of purpose,
a high courage of protest, an effect at once of fearless
challenge and of command in her bearing. “Is
it not a scandal,” she went on, “that in
a civilised country, at this time of day, woman should
be allowed, actually forced, to suffer so much?
You must not permit this martyrdom to be completed you
can’t!”
As she spoke Decies watched her keenly.
Who this stately, young lady so remarkably
unlike the majority of Lord Shotover’s intimate,
feminine acquaintance might be, he did not
know. But he discerned in her an ally and a powerful
one.
“Yes,” he said impulsively,
“you are right. It is a martyrdom and a
scandalous one. It’s worse than murder,
it’s sacrilege. It’s not like any
ordinary marriage. I don’t want to be brutal,
but it isn’t. There’s something repulsive
in it, something unnatural.”
The young man looked at Honoria, and
read in her expression a certain agreement and encouragement.
“You know it, Shotover you
know it just as well as I do. And that justified
me in attempting what I suppose I would not otherwise
have felt it honourable to attempt. Look
here, Shotover, I will tell you what has just happened.
I would have had to tell you to-morrow, in any case,
if we had carried the plan out. But I suppose
I have no alternative but to tell you now, since you’ve
come.”
He ranged himself in line with Miss
St. Quentin, his back against one of the big stone
vases. He struggled honestly to keep both temper
and emotion under control, but a rather volcanic energy
was perceptible in him.
“I love Lady Constance,”
he said. “I have told her so, and and
she cares for me. I am not a Croesus like Calmady.
But I am not a pauper. I have enough to keep
a wife in a manner suitable to her position, and my
own. When my Uncle Ulick Decies dies which
I hope he’ll not hurry to do, since I am very
fond of him there’ll be the Somersetshire
property in addition to my own dear, old place in County
Cork. And your sister simply hates this marriage ”
“Lord bless me, my dear fellow,
so do I!” Lord Shotover put in with evident
sincerity.
“And so, when at last I had
spoken freely, I asked her to ”
But the young girl cowered down, hiding
her face in Honoria St. Quentin’s bosom.
“Oh! don’t say it again don’t
say it,” she implored. “It was wicked
of me to listen to you even for a minute. I ought
to have stopped you at once and sent you away.
It was very wrong of me to listen, and talk to you,
and tell you all that I did. But everything is
so strange, and I have been so miserable. I never
supposed anybody could ever be so miserable.
And I knew it was ungrateful of me, and so I dared
not tell anybody. I would have told papa, but
Louisa never let me be alone with him. She said
papa indulged me, and made me selfish and fanciful,
and so I have never seen him for more than a little
while. And I have been so frightened.” She
raised her head, gazing wide-eyed first at Miss St.
Quentin and then at her brother. “I have
thought such dreadful things. I must be very
bad. I wanted to run away. I wanted to die ”
“There, you hear, you hear,”
Decies cried hoarsely, spreading abroad his hands,
in sudden violence of appeal to Honoria. “For
God’s sake help us! I am not aware whether
you are a relation, or a friend, or what. But
I am convinced you can help, if only you choose to
do so. And I tell you she is just killing herself
over this accursed marriage. Some one’s
got at her and talked her into some wild notion of
doing her duty, and marrying money for the sake of
her family.”
“Oh! I say, damn it all,”
Lord Shotover exclaimed, smitten with genuine remorse.
“And so she believes she’s
committing the seven deadly sins, and I don’t
know what besides, because she rebels against this
marriage and is unhappy. Tell her it’s
absurd, it’s horrible, that she should do what
she loathes and detests. Tell her this talk about
duty is a blind, and a fiction. Tell her she
isn’t wicked. Why, God in heaven, if we
were none of us more wicked than she is, this poor
old world would be so clean a place that the holy
angels might walk barefoot along the Piccadilly pavement
there, outside, without risking to soil so much as
the hem of their garments! Make her understand
that the only sin for her is to do violence to her
nature by marrying a man she’s afraid of, and
for whom she does not care. I don’t want
to play a low game on Sir Richard Calmady and steal
that which belongs to him. But she doesn’t
belong to him she is mine, just my own.
I knew that from the first day I came to Whitney,
and looked her in the face, Shotover. And she
knows it too, only she’s been terrorised with
all this devil’s talk of duty.”
So far the words had poured forth
volubly, as in a torrent. Now the speaker’s
voice dropped, and they came slowly, defiantly, yet
without hesitation.
“And so I asked her to go away
with me, now, to-night, and marry me to-morrow.
I can make her happy oh, no fear about that!
And she would have consented and gone. We’d
have been away by now if you and this lady
had not come just when you did, Shotover.”
The gentleman addressed whistled very softly.
“Would you, though?” he
said, adding meditatively: “By George
now, who’d have thought of Connie going the
pace like that!”
“Oh, Shotover, never tell, promise
me you will never tell them!” the poor child
cried again. “I know it was wicked, but ”
“No, no, you are mistaken there,”
Honoria put in, holding her still closer. “You
were tempted to take a rather desperate way out of
your difficulties. It would have been unwise,
but there was nothing wicked in it. The wrong
thing is as Mr. Decies tells you to
marry without love, and so make all your life a lie,
by pretending to give Richard Calmady that which you
do not, and cannot, give him.”
Then the young soldier broke in resolutely again.
“I tell you I asked her to go away, and I ask
her again now ”
“The deuce you do!” Lord
Shotover exclaimed, his sense of amusement getting
the better alike of astonishment and of personal regrets.
“Only now I ask you to sanction
her going, Shotover. And I ask you” he
turned to Miss St. Quentin “to come
with her. I am not even sure of your name, but
I know by all that you’ve said and done in the
last half-hour, I can be very sure of you. And,
I perceive, that if you come nobody will dare to say
anything unpleasant there’ll be nothing,
indeed, to be said.”
Honoria smiled. The magnificent
egoism of mankind in love struck her as distinctly
diverting. Yet she had a very kindly feeling towards
this black-haired, bright-eyed, energetic, young lover.
He was in deadly earnest to the removing
even of mountains. And he had need to be so,
for that mountains immediately blocked the road to
his desires was evident even to her enthusiastic mind.
She looked across compellingly at Lord Shotover.
Let him speak first. She needed time, at this
juncture, in which to arrange her ideas and to think.
“My dear good fellow,”
that gentleman began obediently, patting Decies on
the shoulder, “I’m all on your side.
I give you my word I am, and I’ve reason to
believe my father will be so too. But you see,
an elopement specially in our sort of highly
respectable, humdrum family is rather a
strong order. Upon my honour, it is, you know,
Decies. And, even though kindly countenanced by
Miss St. Quentin, and sanctioned by me, it would make
a precious undesirable lot of talk. It really
is a rather irregular fashion of conducting the business
you see. And then advice I always
give others and only wish I could always remember
to take myself it’s very much best
to be off with the old love before you’re on
with the new.”
“Yes, yes,” Miss St. Quentin
put in with quick decision. “Lord Shotover
has laid his finger on the heart of the matter.
It is just that. Lady Constance’s
engagement to Richard Calmady must be cancelled before
her engagement to you, Captain Decies, is announced.
For her to go away with you would be to invite criticism,
and put herself hopelessly in the wrong. She
must not put herself in the wrong. Let me think!
There must be some way by which we can avoid that.”
An exultation, hitherto unexperienced
by her, inspired Honoria St. Quentin. Her attitude
was slightly unconventional. She sat on the stone
balustrade, with long-limbed, lazy grace, holding the
girl’s hand, forgetful of herself, forgetful,
in a degree, of appearances, concerned only with the
problem of rescue presented to her. The young
man’s honest, wholehearted devotion, the young
girl’s struggle after duty and her piteous desolation,
nay, the close contact of that soft, maidenly body
that she had so lately held against her in closer,
more intimate, contact than she had ever held anything
human before, aroused a new class of sentiment, a
new order of emotion, within her. She realised,
for the first time, the magnetism, the penetrating
and poetic splendour of human love. To witness
the spectacle of it, to be thus in touch with it,
excited her almost as sailing a boat in a heavy sea,
or riding to hounds in a stiff country, excited her.
And it followed that now, while she perched aloft
boy-like on the balustrade, her delicate beauty took
on a strange effulgence, a something spiritual, mysterious,
elusive, and yet dazzling as the moonlight which bathed
her charming figure. Seeing which, it must be
owned that Lord Shotover’s attitude towards
her ceased to be strictly fraternal, while the attractions
of ladies more fair and kind than wise paled very
sensibly.
“I wish I hadn’t been
such a fool in my day, and run amuck with my chances,”
he thought.
But Miss St. Quentin was altogether
innocent of his observation or any such thinkings.
She looked up suddenly, her face irradiated by an
exquisite smile.
“Yes, I have it,” she cried. “I
see the way clear.”
“But I can’t tell them,” broke in
Lady Constance.
Honoria’s hand closed down on hers reassuringly.
“No,” she said, “you
shall not tell them. And Lord Shotover shall not
tell them. Sir Richard Calmady shall tell Lord
Fallowfeild that he wishes to be released from his
engagement, as he believes both you and he will be
happier apart. Only you must be brave, both for
your own sake, and for Mr. Decies’, and for
Richard Calmady’s sake, also. Lady
Constance,” she went on, with a certain gentle
authority, “do you want to go back to Whitney
to-morrow, or next day, all this nightmare of an unhappy
marriage done away with and gone? Well, then,
you must come and see Sir Richard Calmady to-night,
and, like an honourable woman, tell him the whole
truth. It must be done at once, or your courage
may fail. We will come with you Lord
Shotover and I ”
“Good Lord, will we though!”
the young man ejaculated, while the girl’s great,
heifer’s eyes grew strained with wonder at this
astounding announcement.
“I know it will be rather terrible,”
Honoria continued calmly. “But it is a
matter of a quarter of an hour, as against a lifetime,
and of honour as against a lie. So it’s
worth while, don’t you think so, when your whole
future, and Mr. Decies’” she
pressed the soft hand again steadily “is
at stake? You must be brave now, and tell him
the truth just simply that you do not love
him enough that you have tried, you
have, I know you have done that, but you
have failed, that you love some one else, and that
therefore you beg him, in mercy, before it is too
late, to set you free.”
Fascinated both by her appearance
and by the simplicity of her trenchant solution of
the difficulty, Lord Shotover stared at the speaker.
Her faith was infectious. Yet it occurred to him
that all women, good and bad, are at least alike in
this that their methods become radically
unscrupulous when they find themselves in a tight
place.
“It is a fine plan. It
ought to work, for cripple or not poor
Calmady’s a gentleman,” he said, slowly.
“But doesn’t it seem just a trifle rough,
Miss St. Quentin, to ask him to be his own executioner?”
Honoria had slipped down from the
balustrade, and stood erect in the moonlight.
“I think not,” she replied.
“The woman pays, as a rule. Lady Constance
has paid already quite heavily enough, don’t
you think so? Now we will have the exception
that proves the rule. The man shall pay whatever
remains of the debt. But we must not waste time.
It is not late yet, we shall still find him up, and
my brougham is here. I told Lady Aldham I should
be home fairly early. Get a cloak Lady Constance
and meet us in the hall. I suppose you can go
down by some back way so as to avoid meeting people.
Lord Shotover, will you take me to say good-night to
your sister, Lady Louisa?”
The young man fairly chuckled.
“And you, Mr. Decies, must stay
and dance.” She smiled upon him very
sweetly. “I promise you it will come through
all right, for, as Lord Shotover says, whatever his
misfortunes may be, Richard Calmady is a gentleman. Ah!
I hope you are going to be very happy. Good-bye.”
Decies’ black head went down
over her hand, and he kissed it impulsively.
“Good-bye,” he said, the
words catching a little in his throat. “When
the time comes, may you find the man to love you as
you deserve though I doubt if there’s
such a man living, or dead either, for that matter!
God bless you.”
Some half-hour later Honoria stood
among the holland-shrouded furniture in Lady Calmady’s
sitting-room in Lowndes Square. The period of
exalted feeling, of the conviction of successful attainment,
was over, and her heart beat somewhat painfully.
For she had had time, by now, to realise the surprising
audacity of her own proceedings. Lord Shotover’s
parley with Richard Calmady’s man-servant, on
the door-step, had brought that home to her, placing
what had seemed obvious, as a course of action to
her fervid imagination, in quite a new light. Sir
Richard Calmady was at home? He was still up? To
that, yes. Would he see Lady Constance Quayle
upon urgent business? To that again, yes after
a rather lengthy delay, while the valet, inscrutable,
yet evidently highly critical, made inquiries. The
trees in the square had whispered together uncomfortably,
while the two young ladies waited in the carriage.
And Lord Shotover’s shadow, which had usually,
very surely, nothing in the least portentous about
it, lay queerly, three ways at once, in varying degrees
of density, across the gray pavement in the conflicting
gas and moonlight.
And now, as she stood among the shrouded
furniture, which appeared oddly improbable in shape
seen in the flickering of two hastily lighted candles,
Honoria could hear Shotover walking back and forth,
patiently, on that same gray pavement outside.
She was overstrained by the emotions and events of
the past hours. Small matters compelled her attention.
The creaking of a board, the rustle of a curtain, the
silence even of this large, but half-inhabited, house,
were to her big with suggestion, disquietingly replete
with possible meaning, of exaggerated importance to
her anxiously listening ears.
Lord Shotover had stopped walking.
He was talking to the coachman. Honoria entertained
a conviction that, in the overflowing of his good
nature, he talked sooner or later to
every soul whom he met. And she derived almost
childish comfort from the knowledge of the near neighbourhood
of that eminently good-natured presence. Lord
Shotover’s very obvious faults faded from her
remembrance. She estimated him only by his size,
his physical strength, his large indulgence of all
weaknesses including his own. He constituted
a link between her and things ordinary and average,
for which she was rather absurdly thankful at this
juncture. For the minutes passed slowly, very
slowly. It must be getting on for half an hour
since little Lady Constance, trembling and visibly
affrighted, had passed out of sight, and the door of
the smoking-room had closed behind her. The nameless
agitation which possessed her earlier that same evening
returned upon Honoria St. Quentin. But its character
had suffered change. The questioning of the actual,
the suspicion of universal illusion, had departed,
and in its place she suffered alarm of the concrete,
of the incalculable force of human passion, and of
a manifestation of tragedy in some active and violent
form. She did not define her own fears, but they
surrounded her nevertheless, so that the slightest
sound made her start.
For, indeed, how slowly the minutes
did pass! Lord Shotover was walking again.
The horse rattled its bit, and pawed the ground impatient
of delay. Though lofty, the room appeared close
and hot, with drawn blinds and shut windows.
Honoria began to move about restlessly, threading her
way between the pieces of shrouded furniture.
A chalk drawing of Lady Calmady stood on an easel
in the far corner. The portrait emphasised the
sweetness and abiding pathos, rather than the strength,
of the original, and Honoria, standing before it,
put her hands over her eyes. For the pictured
face seemed to plead with and reproach her. Then
a swift fear took her of disloyalty, of hastiness,
of self-confidence trenching on cruelty. She
had announced, rather arrogantly, that whatever balance
debt remained to be paid, in respect of Sir Richard
and Lady Constance Quayle’s proposed marriage,
should be paid by the man. But would the man,
in point of fact, pay it? Would it not, must it
not, be paid, eventually, by this other noble and much
enduring woman whom she had called her
friend, and towards whom she played the part, as she
feared, of betrayer? In her hot espousal of Lady
Constance’s cause she had only saved one woman
at the expense of another Oh! how hot the
room grew! Suffocating Lord Shotover’s
steps died away in the distance. She could look
Lady Calmady in the face no more. Secure in her
own self-conceit and vanity, she had betrayed her
friend.
Suddenly the sharp peal of a bell,
the opening of a door, the dragging of silken skirts,
and the hurrying of footsteps. Honoria gathered
up her somewhat scattered courage, and swung out into
the hall. Lady Constance Quayle came towards
her, groping, staggering, breathless, her head carried
low, her face convulsed with weeping. But to this,
for the moment, Miss St. Quentin paid small heed.
For, at the far end of the hall, a bright light streamed
out from the open doorway. And in the full glare
of it stood a young man his head, with its
cap of close-cropped curls proudly distinguished as
that of some classic hero, his features the beautiful
features of Katherine Calmady, his height but two-thirds
the height a man of his make should be, his face drawn
and livid as that of a corpse, his arms hanging down
straight at his sides, his hands only just not touching
the marble quarries of the floor on either side of
him.
Honoria uttered an exclamation of
uncontrollable pity and horror, caught Constance Quayle
by the arm, and hurried out into the moonlit square
to the waiting carriage. Lord Shotover flung away
the end of his cigar and strolled towards them.
“Got through, fixed it all right eh,
Connie? Bravo that’s grand! Oh,
you needn’t tell me! I can imagine it’s
been a beastly piece of work, but anyway it’s
over now. You must go home and go to bed, and
I’ll account for you somehow to Louisa.
My mind’s becoming quite inventive to-night,
I promise you. There, get in try
to pull yourself together. Miss St. Quentin,
upon my word, I don’t know how to thank you.
You’ve been magnificent, and put us under an
everlasting obligation, Con and Decies, and my father
and I. Nice night, isn’t it?
You’ll put us down in Albert Gate? All
right. A thousand thanks. Yes, I’ll
go on the box again. You haven’t much room
for my legs among all those flounces. Bless me,
it occurs to me I’m getting confoundedly hungry.
I shall be awfully glad of some supper.”