WHEREIN TIME IS DISCOVERED TO HAVE WORKED CHANGES
Helen, however, did not stay to debate
as to the state of her affections. She had had
more than enough of reflection of late. Now action
invited her. She responded. The sweep of
her turquoise-blue cloth skirts sent the fallen Judas-blossoms
dancing, to left and right, in crazy whirling companies.
She did not wait even to put on her broad-brimmed,
garden hat, the crown of it encircled, as
luck would have it, by a garland of pale, pink tulle
and pale, pink roses, but braved the sunshine
with no stouter head-covering than the coils of her
honey-coloured hair. Rapidly she passed up the
central alley between the double row of glossy leaved
camellia bushes, laughter in her downcast eyes and
a delicious thrill of excitement at her heart.
She felt strong and light, her being vibrant, penetrated
and sustained throughout by the bracing air, the sparkling,
crystal-clear atmosphere. Yet for all her eagerness
Helen remained an artist. She would not forestall
effects. Thriftily she husbanded sensations.
Thus, reaching the base of the black-and-white marble
wall supporting the terrace, where, midway in its
long length, it was broken by an arched grotto of
rough-hewn stonework, in which maiden-hair fern rooted, the
delicate fronds of it caressing the shoulders of an
undraped nymph, with ever-dripping water-pitcher upon
her rounded hip, Helen turned sharp to
the left, and arrived at the bottom of the descending
flight of steps without once looking up. That
Richard Calmady still leaned on the balustrade some
twelve to fourteen feet above that same cool, green
grotto she knew well enough. But she did not choose
to anticipate either sight or greeting of him.
Both should come to her as a whole. She would
receive a single and unqualified impression.
So, silently, without apparent haste,
she passed up the flight of shallow steps on to the
edge of the wide black-and-white chequer-board platform.
It was sun-bathed, suspended, as it seemed, between
that glorious prospect of city, mountain, sea, and
the unsullied purity of the southern heavens.
It was vacant, save for the solitary figure and the
sharp-edged, yet amorphous, shadow cast by that same
figure. For the young man had moved as she came
up from the garden below. He stood clear of the
balustrade, only the fingers of his left hand resting
upon the handrail of it. Seeing him thus the
strangeness, the grotesque incompleteness, of his
person struck her as never before. But this,
though it did not move her to mirth as in her childhood,
moved her to pity no more now than it then had.
That which it did was to deepen, to stimulate, her
excitement, to provoke and to satisfy the instinct
of cruelty latent in every pagan nature such as hers.
Could Helen have chosen the moment of her birth she
would have been a great lady of Imperial Rome, holding
power of life and death over her slaves, and the mutes
and eunuchs with which the East should have furnished
her palace in the eternal city, and her dainty villa
away there on the purple flanks of Vesuvius at Herculaneum
or Pompeii. The delight of her own loveliness,
of her own triumphant health and activity, would have
been increased tenfold by the sight of, by power over,
such stultified and hopelessly disfranchised human
creatures. And the first sight of Richard Calmady
now, though she did not stop very certainly to analyse
the exact how and why of her increasing satisfaction,
took its root in this same craving for ascendency
by means of the suffering and loss of others.
While, unconsciously, the fine flavour of her satisfaction
was heightened by the fact that the victim, now before
her, was her equal in birth, her superior in wealth,
in intelligence and worldly station.
But as she drew nearer, Richard the
while making no effort to go forward and receive her,
buoyant self-complacency and self-congratulation suffered
diminution. For, rehearsing this same meeting
during those rain-blotted days of waiting at Perugia,
imagination had presented Dickie as the inexperienced,
tender-hearted, sweet-natured lad she had known and
beguiled at Brockhurst four years earlier. As
has already been stated her meetings with him, since
then, had been brief and infrequent. Now she
perceived that imagination had played a silly trick
upon her. The boy she had left, the man who stood
awaiting her so calmly were, save in one distressing
peculiarity, two widely different persons. For
in the interval Richard Calmady had eaten very freely
of the fruit of the Tree of the Knowledge of Good
and Evil, and that diet had left its mark not only
on his character, but on his appearance. He had
matured notably, all trace of ingenuous, boyish charm
having vanished. His skin, though darkened by
recent seafaring, was colourless. His features
were at once finer and more pronounced than of old the
bone of the face giving it a noticeable rigidity of
outline, index at once of indomitable will and irreproachable
breeding. The powerful jaw and strong muscular
neck might have argued a measure of brutality.
But happily the young man’s mouth had not coarsened.
His lips were compressed, relaxing rarely into the
curves which, as a lad, had rendered his smile so
peculiarly engaging. Still there was no trace
of grossness in their form or expression. Hard
living had, indeed, in Richard’s case, been
matter of research rather than of appetite. The
intellectual part of him had never fallen wholly into
bondage to the animal. He explored the borders
of the Forbidden hoping to find some anodyne with
which to assuage the ache of a vital discontent, rather
than by any compulsion of natural lewdness.
Much of this quick-witted Helen quickly
apprehended. He was cleverer, more serious, and
mentally more distinguished, than she had supposed
him. And this, while opening up new sources of
interest and pricking her ambition of conquest, disclosed
unforeseen difficulties in the way of such conquest.
Moreover, she was slightly staggered by the strength
and inscrutability of his countenance, the repose of
his bearing and manner. His eyes affected her
oddly. They were cold and clear as some frosty,
winter’s night, the pupils of them very small.
They seemed to see all things, yet tell nothing.
They were as windows opening onto an endless perspective
of empty space. They at once challenged curiosity
and baffled inquiry. Helen’s excitement
deepened, and she was sensible it needed all the subjective
support, all the indirect flattery, with which the
fact of his deformity supplied her self-love to prevent
her standing in awe of him. As consequence her
address was impulsive rather than studied.
“Richard, I have had a detestable
winter,” she said. “It wore upon me.
It demoralised me. I was growing dull, superstitious
even. I wanted to get away, to put a long distance
between myself and certain experiences, certain memories.
I wanted to hear another language. You have always
been sympathetic to me. It was natural, if a little
unconventional, to take refuge with you.”
Madame de Vallorbes spoke with an
unaccustomed and very seductive air of apology, her
face slightly flushed, her arms hanging straight at
her sides, the long, pink, tulle strings of the hat
she carried in her left hand trailing upon the black-and-white
squares of the pavement.
“To do so seemed obvious in
contemplation. I did not stop to consider possible
objections. But, in execution, the objections
become hourly more glaringly apparent. I want
you to reassure me. Tell me I have not dared
too greatly in coming thus uninvited?”
“Of course not,” he answered.
“I hope you found the house comfortable and
everything prepared for you. The servants had
their orders.”
“I know, I know. That you
should have provided against the possibility of my
coming some day moved me a little more than I care
to tell you.” Helen paused, looking
upon him, and that look had in it a delicate affinity
to a caress. But the young man’s manner,
though faultlessly courteous, was lacking in any hint
of enthusiasm. Helen could have imagined, and
that angered her, something of irony in his tone.
“Oh, there’s no matter
for thanks,” he said. “The house was
yours, will be yours again. The least I can do,
since you and de Vallorbes are good enough to let
me live in it meanwhile, is to beg you to make any
use you please of it. Indeed it is I, rather
than you, who come uninvited just now. I had
not intended being back here for another month.
But there was a case of something suspiciously like
cholera on board my yacht at Constantinople, and it
seemed wisest to get away to sea as soon as possible.
One of the firemen oh, he’s all right
now! Still I shall send him home to England.
He’s a married man the only one I
have on board. A useful fellow, but he must go.
I don’t choose to take the responsibility of
creating the widow and the fatherless whenever one
of my crew chances to fall sick and depart into the
unknown.”
Richard talked on, very evidently
for the mere sake of passing the time. And all
the while those eyes, which told nothing, dwelt quietly
upon Helen de Vallorbes until she became nervously
impatient of their scrutiny. For it was not at
all thus that she had pictured and rehearsed this
meeting during those days of waiting at Perugia!
“We got in last night,”
he continued. “But I slept on board.
I heard you had just arrived, and I did not care to
run the risk of disturbing you after your journey.”
“You are very considerate,” Helen remarked.
She was surprised out of all readiness
of speech. This new Richard impressed her, but
she resented his manner. He took her so very much
for granted. Admiration and homage were to her
as her daily bread, and that any man should fail to
offer them caused her frank amazement. It did
more. It raised in her a longing to inflict pain.
He might not admire, but at least he should not remain
indifferent. Therefore she backed a couple of
steps, so as to get a good view of Richard Calmady.
And, without any disguise of her purpose, took a comprehensive
and leisurely survey of his dwarfed and mutilated
figure. While so doing she pinned on her rose-trimmed
hat, and twisted the long, tulle strings of it about
her throat.
“You have altered a good deal,
Richard,” she said reflectively.
“Probably,” he answered.
“I had a good deal to learn, being a very thin-skinned
young simpleton. In part, anyhow, I have learned
it. And I do my best practically to apply my
knowledge. But if I have altered, so, happily,
have not you.”
“I remain a simpleton?”
she inquired, her irritation finding voice.
“You cannot very well remain
that which you never have been. What you do remain
is if I may say so victoriously
yourself, unspoiled, unmodified by contact with that
singularly stupid invention, society, true to my earliest
recollections of you even ”
Richard shuffled closer to the balustrade, threw his
left arm across it, grasping the outer edge of the
broad coping, “even in small details
of dress.”
He looked away over the immense and
radiant prospect, and then up at the radiant woman
in her vesture of turquoise, pink, and gold.
And, so doing, for the first time
his face relaxed, being lighted up by a flickering,
mocking smile. And something in his shuffling
movements, in the fine irony of his expression, pierced
Helen with a sensation hitherto unknown, broke up
the absoluteness of her egotism, stirred her blood.
She forgot resentment in an absorbed and absorbing
interest. The ordinary man of the world she knew
as thoroughly as her old shoe. Such an one presented
small field of discovery to her. But this man
was unique in person, and promised to be so in character
also. Her curiosity regarding him was profound.
For the moment it sunk all personal considerations,
all humorous or angry criticism, either of her own
attitude towards him or of his attitude towards her.
Silently she came forward, sat down on the marble
bench, close to where he stood, and, turning sideways,
leaned her elbows upon the top of the balustrade beside
him. She looked up now, rather than down at him,
and it went home to her, had nature spared him infliction
of that hideous deformity, what a superb creature
physically he would have been! There was a silence,
Helen remaining intent, quiet, apprehension and imagination
sensibly upon the stretch.
At last Richard spoke abruptly.
“By the way, did you happen
to observe the decorations of your room? Do you
like them?”
“Yes and no,” she answered.
“They struck me as rather wonderful, but liable
to induce dreams of Scylla and Charybdis, of the Fata
Morgana, and other inconvenient accidents of the deep.
Fortunately I was too tired last night to be excursive
in fancy, or I might have slept badly. You have
gathered all the colours of the ocean and fixed them,
somehow, on those carpets and hangings and strangely
frescoed walls.”
“You saw that?”
“How could I fail to see it,
since you kindly excuse me of being, or ever having
been, a simpleton?” Helen spoke lightly,
tenderly almost. An overmastering desire to please
had overtaken her. “You have employed a
certain wizardry in the furnishing of that room,”
she continued. “It lays subtle influences
upon one. What made you think of it?”
“A dream, an idea, which has
stuck by me queerly, though all other fond things
of the sort were pitched overboard long ago. I
suppose one is bound to be illogical on one point,
if only to prove to oneself the absolutism of one’s
logic on all others. Thus do I, otherwise sane
and consistent realist, materialist, pessimist, cling
to my one dream and ideal take it out,
dandle it, nourish and cherish it, with weakly sentimental
faithfulness. To do so is ludicrous. But
then my being here at all, calmly considered, is ludicrous.
And it, too, is among the results of the one idea.”
He paused, and Helen, leaning beside
him, waited. The sunshine covered them both.
The sea wind was fresh in their faces. While the
many voices of Naples came up to them confused, strident,
continuous, with sometimes a bugle-call, sometimes
a clang of hammers, or quick pulse of stringed instruments,
or jangle of church-bells, or long-drawn bellow of
a steamship clearing for sea, detaching itself from
the universal chorus. Capri, Ischia, Procida,
floated, islands of amethyst, upon the sapphire of
the bay, and the smoke of Vesuvius rolled ceaselessly
upward.
“You see and hear and feel all
this,” Richard continued presently. “Well,
when I saw it for the first time I was pretty thoroughly
out of conceit with myself and all creation.
I had been experimenting freely in things not usually
talked of in polite society. And I was abominably
sold, for I found the enjoyment such things procure
is decidedly overrated. Unmentionable matters,
once fully explored, are just as tedious and inadequate
as those which supply the most unexceptionable subjects
of conversation. Moreover, in the process of exploration
I had touched a good deal of pitch, and, the simpleton
being still superfluously to the fore in me, I was
squeamishly sensible of defilement.”
The young man shifted his position
slightly, resting his chin in the hollow of his hands,
speaking quietly and indifferently, as of some matter
foreign to himself and his personal interests.
“I have reason to believe I
was as fairly and squarely wretched as it is possible
for an intelligent being to be. I had convinced
myself, experimentally, that human existence, human
nature, was a bottomless pit and an uncommonly filthy
one at that. Reaction was inevitable. Then
I understood why men have invented gods, subscribed
to irrational systems of theology, hailed and accredited
transparently ridiculous miracles. Such lies
are necessary to certain stages of development simply
for the preservation of sanity, just as, at another
stage, sanity, for its own preservation, is necessarily
driven to declare their falsehood. And so I,
after the manner of my kind, was driven to take refuge
in a dream. The subjective, in some form or other,
alone makes life continuously possible. And all
this, we now look at, determined the special nature
of my attempt at subjective support and consolation.”
Richard paused again, contemplating the view.
“All this its splendour,
its diversity, its caprices and seductions, its
suggestion of underlying danger presented
itself to me as the embodiment of a personality that
has had remarkable influence in the shaping of my
life.”
So far Helen had listened intently
and silently. Now she moved a little, straightening
up her charming figure, pulling down the wide brim
of her hat to shelter her eyes from the heat and brightness
of the sun.
“A woman?” she asked briefly.
Richard turned to her, that same flickering
of mockery in his still face.
“Oh! you mustn’t require
too much of me!” he said. “Remember
the simpleton was not wholly eradicated then. Yes,
very much a woman. Of course. How should
it be otherwise? It gave me great pleasure to
look at that which looked like her. It gives
me pleasure even yet. So I wrote and asked de
Vallorbes to be kind enough to let me rent the villa.
You remember it was not particularly well cared for.
There was an air of fallen greatness about the poor
place. Inside it was something of a barrack.”
“I remember,” Helen said.
“Well, I restored and refurnished
it specially the rooms you now occupy,
in accordance with what I imagined to be her taste.
The whole proceeding was not a little feeble-minded,
since the probability of her ever inhabiting those
rooms was more than remote. But it amused, it
pacified me, as prayer to their self-invented deities
pacifies the devout. I never stay here for long
together. If I did the spell might be broken.
I go away, I travel. I even experiment in things
not usually spoken of, but with a cooler judgment
and less morbidly sensitive conscience than of old.
I amuse myself after more active and practical fashions
in other places. Here I amuse myself only with
my idea.”
The even flow of his speech ceased. “What
do you think of it, Helen?” he demanded, almost
harshly.
“I think it can’t last.
It is too intangible, too fantastic.”
“I admit that to keep it intact
needs an infinity of precautions. For instance,
I can make no near acquaintance with Naples. I
cannot permit myself to see the town at close quarters.
I only look at it from here. If I want to go
to or from the yacht, I do so at night and in a closed
carriage. I took on de Vallorbes’ box at
the San Carlo. If any good opera is given I go
and hear it. Otherwise I remain exclusively in
the house and garden. I am not acquainted with
a single soul in the place.”
“And the woman,” Helen
exclaimed, a singular emotion at once of envy and
protest upon her. “Do you treat her with
the same cold-blooded calculation?”
“Of the woman I know just as
much and just as little as I know of Naples.
It is conceivable there may be unlovely elements in
her character, as well as unlovely quarters of this
beautiful city. I have avoided knowledge of both.
You see the whole arrangement is designed not for
her benefit, but for my own. It’s an elaborate
piece of self-seeking on my part, but, so far, it
has really worked rather successfully.”
“It is preposterous. It
cannot in the nature of things continue successful,”
Helen declared.
“I am not so sure of that,”
he replied calmly. “Even the most preposterous
of religious systems proves to have a remarkable power
of survival. Why not this one? In any case,
neither the success nor the failure depends on me.
I shall be true, on my part. The rest depends
on her.”
As Richard spoke he turned, leaning
his back against the balustrade, his face away from
the sunlight and the wide view. Again the extent
of his deformity became arrestingly apparent to Madame
de Vallorbes.
“Has this woman ever been here?” she asked.
“Yes she has been here.”
“And then? And then?” Helen cried.
The young man looked up at her, his
face keen yet impassive, his eyes as windows
opening on to endless perspective of empty space telling
nothing. She recognised, once again, that he was
very strong. She also recognised that, notwithstanding
his strength, he was horribly sad.
“Ah! then,” he said, “the
last of the poor, little, subjective supports and
consolations seemed in danger of going overboard and
joining their fellows in the uneasy deeps of the sea. But
the history of that will keep till a more convenient
season, Cousin Helen. You have stood in the midday
sun, and I have talked about myself, quite long enough.
However, it was only fair to acquaint you with the
limited resources in the way of society and amusement
offered by your present dwelling. There are horses
and carriages of course. Give what orders you
please. Only remember both the town and the surrounding
country are pretty rough. It is not fit for a
lady to drive by herself. Always take your own
man, or one of mine, with you if you go out.
I hope you won’t be quite intolerably bored.
Ask for whatever you want. You let me dine
with you? Thanks.”