SPLENDIDE MENDAX
Unpunctuality could not be cited as
among Madame de Vallorbes’ offenses. Yet,
on the morning in question, she was certainly very
late for the twelve o’clock breakfast.
Richard Calmady awaiting her coming beneath
the glistering dome of the airy pavilion, set in the
angle of the terminal wall of the high-lying garden had
time to become conscious of slight irritation.
It was not merely that he was constitutionally impatient
of delay, but that his nerves were tiresomely on edge
just now. Trifles had power to endanger his somewhat
stoic equanimity. But when at length Helen emerged
from the house irritation was forgotten. Moving
through the vivid lights and shadows of the ilex and
cypress grove, her appearance had a charm of unwonted
simplicity. At first sight her graceful person
had the effect of being clothed in a religious habit.
Richard’s youthful delight in seeing a woman
walk beautifully remained to him. It received
satisfaction now. Helen advanced without haste,
a certain grandeur in her demeanour, a certain gloom,
even as one who takes serious counsel of himself,
indifferent to external things, at once actor in, and
spectator of, some drama playing itself out in the
theatre of his own soul. And this effect of dignity,
of self-recollection, was curiously heightened by
her dress of a very soft and fine, woolen
material, of spotless white, the lines of it at once
flowing and statuesque. While as head-gear, in
place of some startling construction of contemporary,
Parisian millinery, she wore, after the modest Italian
fashion, a black lace mantilla over her bright hair.
Arrived, she greeted Richard curtly,
and without apology for delay accepted the contents
of the first dish offered to her by the waiting men-servants,
ate as though determinedly and putting a force upon
herself, and that which was unusual with
her before sundown drank wine. And,
watching her, involuntarily Richard’s thought
traveled back to a certain luncheon party at Brockhurst,
graced by the presence of genial, puzzle-headed Lord
Fallowfeild and members of his numerous family, when
Helen had swept in, even as now, had been self-absorbed,
even as now. Of the drive to Newlands, all in
the sad November afternoon, following on that luncheon,
he also thought, of communications made by Helen during
that drive, and of the long course of event and action
directly or indirectly consequent on those communications.
He thought of the fog, too, enveloping and almost
choking him, when in the early morning driven by furies,
still virgin in body as in heart, he had ridden out
into a blank and sightless world hoping the chill
of it would allay the fever in his blood, and
of the fog again, in the afternoon, from out which
the branches of the great trees, like famine-stricken
arms in tattered draperies, seemed to pluck evilly
at the carriage, as he walked the smoking horses up
and down the Newlands’ drive, waiting for Helen
to rejoin him. And now, somehow, that fog seemed
to come up between him and the well-furnished breakfast-table,
between him and the radiant expanse of the vivacious,
capricious, half-classic, half-modern, mercantile city
outstretched there, teeming, breeding, fermenting,
in the fecundating heat of the noonday sun. The
chill of the fog struck cold into his vitals now,
giving him the strangest physical sensation. Richard
straightened himself in his chair, passed his hands
across his eyes impatiently. Brockhurst, and
all the old life of it, was a subject of which he
forbade himself remembrance. He had divorced himself
from all that, cut himself adrift from it long ago.
By an act of will, he tried to put it out of his mind
now. But the fog remained an actual
clouding of his physical vision, blurring all he looked
upon. It was horribly uncomfortable. He
wished he was alone. Then he might have slipped
down from his chair and, according to his poor capacity
of locomotion, sought relief in movement.
Meanwhile, silently, mechanically,
Helen de Vallorbes continued her breakfast. And
as she so continued, in addition to his singular physical
sensations of blurred vision and clinging chill, he
became aware of a growing embarrassment and constraint
between himself and his companion. So far, his
and her intercourse had been easy and spontaneous,
because superficial. Since that first interview
on the terrace a tacit agreement had existed to avoid
the personal note. Now, for cause unknown, that
intercourse threatened entering upon a new phase.
It was as though the concentration, the tension, which
he observed in her, and of which he was sensible in
himself, must of necessity eventuate in some unbosoming,
some act almost involuntary of
self-revelation. This unaccustomed silence and
restraint seemed to Richard charged with consequences
which, in his present condition of defective volition,
he was powerless to prevent. And this displeased
him, mastery of surrounding influences being very
dear to him.
At last, coffee having been served,
the men-servants withdrew to the house, but the constraint
was not thereby lessened. Helen sat upright,
her chin resting upon the back of her left hand, her
eyes, under their drooping lids, looking out with
a veiled fierceness upon the fair and glittering prospect.
Richard saw her face in profile. The black mantilla
draped her shoulders and bust with a certain austerity
of effect. It was evident that by
something she had been stirred to the extinction
of her habitual vivacity and desire to shine.
And Richard, for all his coolness of head and rather
cynical maturity of outlook, had a restless suspicion
of going forth even as on that foggy morning
at Brockhurst into a blank and sightless
world, full of hazardous possibility, where the safe
way was difficult of discovery and where masked dangers
might lurk. Solicitous to dissipate his discomfort
he spoke a little at random.
“You must forgive me for being
such an abominably bad host,” he said courteously.
“I am not quite the thing this morning, somehow.
I had a little go of fever last night. My brain
is like so much pulp.”
Helen dropped her hand upon the table
as though putting a term to an importunate train of
thought.
“I have always understood the
villa to be remarkably free from malaria,” she
remarked abstractedly.
“So it is. I quite believe
that. The servants certainly keep well enough.
But so, unfortunately, is not the port.”
Helen turned her head. A vertical
line was observable between her arched eyebrows.
“The port?” she repeated.
Richard swallowed his black coffee.
Perhaps it might steady him and clear his head.
The numbness of his faculties and senses alike exasperated
him, filling him with a persuasion he would say precisely
those things wisdom would counsel to leave unsaid.
“Yes you know I generally
go down and sleep on board the yacht.”
There was a momentary pause.
Madame de Vallorbes’ lips parted in a soundless
exclamation. Then she pushed back the modest folds
of the mantilla, leaving her neck free. The action
of her hands was very graceful as she did this, and
she looked fixedly at Richard Calmady.
“I did not know that,”
she said slowly. Then added, as though reasoning
out her own thought: “And Naples harbour
is admittedly one of the most pestilential holes on
the face of the earth. Are you not tempting providence
in the matter of disease, Richard? Are you not
rather wantonly indiscreet?”
“On the contrary,” he
answered, and something of mockery touched his expression,
“I see it quite otherwise. I have been congratulating
myself on the praiseworthy abundance of my discretion.”
And the words were no sooner out of
his mouth than Richard cursed himself for a bungler,
and a slightly vulgar one at that. But upon his
hearer those same words worked a remarkable change.
Her gloom, her abstraction, departed, leaving only
a pretty pensiveness. She smiled with chastened
sweetness upon Richard Calmady a smile nicely
attuned to the semi-religious simplicity of her dress.
“Ah! perhaps we are both a trifle
out of sorts this morning!” she said. “I,
too, have had my little turn of sickness sickness
of heart. And that seems unfair, since I rose
in the best disposition of spirit. Quite early
I went to confession.”
“Confession?” Richard
repeated. “I did not know your submission
to the Church carried you to such practical lengths.”
“Evidently we are each fated
to make small discoveries regarding the habits of
the other, to-day,” she rejoined. “Possibly
confession is to me just what those nights spent on
board the yacht, lying in that malodorous harbour,
are to you!”
Helen’s smile broadened to a
dainty naughtiness, infinitely provoking. But
pensiveness speedily supervened. She folded her
hands upon the edge of the table and looked down at
them meditatively.
“I relieved my conscience.
Not that there was much to relieve it of, thank heaven!
We have lived austerely enough most of us, this winter
in France. Only it becomes a matter of moral,
personal cleanliness, after a time, all that exaggerated,
but very comfortable. Just as one takes one’s
bath twice daily, not that it is necessary but that
it is a luxury of physical purity and self-respect,
so one comes to go to confession. That is a luxury
of moral purification. It is as a bath to the
soul, ministering to the perfection of its cleanliness
and health.”
She looked up at Richard smiling,
that same dainty naughtiness very present.
“You observe I am eminently
candid. I tell you exactly how my religion affects
me. I can only reach high-thinking through acts
which are external and concrete. In short, I
am a born sacramentalist.”
And Richard listened, interested and
entertained. Yet, since that strange blurring
of fog still confused his vision and his judgment,
vaguely suspicious that he missed the main intent of
her speech. Suspicious as one who, listening
to the clever patter of a conjurer, detects in it
the effort to distract attention from some difficult
feat of legerdemain, until that feat has passed from
attempt merely into accomplished fact.
“And, indirectly, that is where
my heart-sickness comes in,” she continued,
with a return to something of her former abstraction
and gloom. “I was coming away, coming back
here and I was very happy. It is not
often one can say that. And then pouf –like
that,” she brought her hands smartly together,
“the charming bubble burst! For, upon the
very church steps, I met a man whom I have every cause
to hate.”
As she spoke, the fog seemed to draw
away, burnt up by the great, flaming sun-god there.
Richard’s brain grew clear clearer,
indeed, than in perfect health and his
still face grew more still than was, even to it, quite
natural.
“Well?” he asked, almost harshly.
And Helen, whose faith in her own
diplomacy had momentarily suffered eclipse, rejoiced.
For the tone of his voice betrayed not disgust, but
anxiety. It stirred her as a foretaste of victory.
And victory had become a maddening necessity to her.
Destournelle had forced her hand. His natural
infirmity of purpose relieved her of the fear he could
work her any great mischief. Yet his ingenuity,
inspired by wounded vanity, might prove beyond her
calculations. It is not always safe to forecast
the future by experience of the past in relation to
such a being as Destournelle! Therefore it became
of supreme importance, before that gentleman had time
further to obtrude himself, to bind Richard Calmady
by some speech, some act, from which there was no going
back. And more than just that. The sight
of her ex-lover, though she now loathed him possibly
just because she so loathed him provoked
passion in her. It was as though only in a new
intrigue could she rid herself of the remembrance
of the old intrigue which was now so detestable to
her. She craved to do him that deepest, most
ultimate, despite. And passion cried out in her.
The sight of him, though she loathed him, had made
her utterly weary of chastity. All of which emotions but
held as hounds in a leash, ready to be slipped when
the psychological moment arrived, and by no means
to be slipped until the arrival of it dictated
the tenor of her next speech.
“Well,” she answered,
with an air of half-angry sincerity altogether convincing,
“I really don’t know that I am particularly
proud of the episode. I know I was careless,
that I laid myself open to the invidious comment,
which is usually the reward of all disinterested action.
One learns to accept it as a matter of course.
And you see Paul Destournelle ”
“Oh, Destournelle!” Richard exclaimed.
“You have read him?”
“Every one has read him.”
“And what do you think of him?”
“That his technique is as amazingly
clever as his thought is amazingly rotten.”
“I know I know,”
she said eagerly. “And that is just what
induced me to do all I could for him. If one
could cut the canker away, give him backbone and decency,
while retaining that wonderful technique, one would
have a second and a greater Theophile Gautier.”
Richard was looking full at her.
His face had more colour, more animation, than usual.
“If yes if,”
he returned. “But that same if bulks
mighty big to my mind.”
“I know,” she repeated.
“Yet it seemed to me worth the attempt.
And then, you understand, who better? that
if one’s own affairs are not conspicuously happy,
one has all the more longing the affairs of others
should be crowned with success. And this winter
specially, among the sordid miseries, disgraces, deprivations,
of the siege, one was liable to take refuge in an
over-exalted altruism. It was difficult in so
mad a world not to indulge in personal eccentricity to
the neglect of due worship of the great goddess Conventionality.
With death in visible form at every street corner,
one’s sense of humour, let alone one’s
higher faculties, rebelled against the futility of
such worship. So many detestable sights and sounds
were perpetually presented to one not to
mention broth of abominable things daily for dinner that
one turned, with thanksgiving, to beautiful form in
art, to perfectly felicitous words and phrases.
The meaning of them mattered but little just then.
They freed one from the tyranny of more or less disgusting
fact. They satisfied eye and ear. One asked
nothing more just then luckily, you will
say, since the animal Destournelle has very surely
nothing more to give.”
In speaking, Helen pushed her chair
back, turning it sideways to the table. Her speech
was alive with varied and telling inflections.
Her smallest gesture had in it something descriptive
and eloquent.
“And so I fell to encouraging
the animal,” she continued, almost plaintively,
yet with a note of veiled laughter in her voice.
“Reversing the order of Circe Naples
inclines one to classic illustration, sometimes a
little hackneyed by the way, speaking of
Naples, look at the glory of it all just now, Richard! I
tried to turn, not men to swine, but swine to men.
And I failed, of course. The gods know best.
They never attempt metamorphosis on the ascending
scale! I let Destournelle come to see me frequently.
The world advised itself to talk. But, being
rather bitterly secure of myself, I disregarded that.
If one is aware that one’s heart was finally
and long ago disposed of, one ceases to think seriously
of that side of things. You must know all that
well enough witness the sea-born furnishings
of my bedroom up-stairs!”
For half a minute she paused. Richard made no
comment.
“Hard words break no bones,”
she added lightly. “And so, to show how
much I despised all such censorious cackle, I allowed
Destournelle to travel south with me when I left Paris.”
“You pushed neglect of the worship
of conventionality rather far,” Richard said.
Helen rose to her feet. Excitement
gained on her, as always during one of her delightful
improvisations, her talented viva voce improvements
on dry-as-dust fact. She laughed softly, biting
her lip. More than one hound had been slipped
by now. They made good running. She stood
by Richard Calmady, looking down at him, covering
him, so to speak, with her eyes. The black mantilla
no longer veiled her bright head. It had fallen
to the ground, and lay a dark blot upon the mellow
fairness of the tesselated pavement. White-robed,
statuesque yet not with the severe grace
of marble, but with that softer, more humanly seductive
grace of some figure of cunningly tinted ivory she
appeared, just then, to gather up in herself all the
poetry, the intense and vivid light, the victorious
vitality, of the clear, burning, southern noon.
“Ah, well, conventionality proved
perfectly competent to avenge herself!” she
exclaimed. “The animal Destournelle took
the average, the banal view, as might have been anticipated.
He had the insane presumption to suppose it was himself,
not his art, in which I was interested. I explained
his error, and departed. I recovered my equanimity.
That took time. I felt soiled, degraded.
And then to-day I meet him again, unashamed, actually
claiming recognition. I repeated my explanation
with uncompromising lucidity ”
Richard moved restlessly in his chair,
looking up almost sharply at her.
“Waste of breath,” he
said. “No explanation is lucid if the hearer
is unwilling to accept it.”
And then the two cousins, as though
they had reached unexpectedly some parting of the
ways, calling for instant decision in respect of the
future direction of their journey, gazed upon one another
strangely each half defiant of the other,
each diligent to hide his own and read the other’s
thought, each sensible of a crisis, each at once hurried
and arrested by suspicion of impending catastrophe,
unless this way be chosen that declined though
it seemed, in good truth, not in their keeping, but
in that of blind chance only that both selection and
rejection actually resided. And, in this strait,
neither habit of society, fine sword-play of diplomacy
and tact, availed to help them. For suddenly
they had outpaced all that, and brought up amongst
ancient and secular springs of action and emotion
before which civilisation is powerless and the ready
tongue of fashion dumb.
But even while he so gazed, in fateful
suspense and indecision, the fog came up again, chilling
Richard Calmady’s blood, oppressing his brain
as with an uprising of foul miasma, blurring his vision,
so that Helen’s fair, downward-gazing face was
distorted, rendered illusive and vague. And,
along with this, distressing restlessness took him,
compelling him to seek relief in change of posture
and of place. He could not stop to reckon with
how that which he proposed to do might strike an onlooker.
His immediate sensations filled his whole horizon.
Silently he slipped down from his chair, stood a moment,
supporting himself with one hand on the edge of the
table, and then moved forward to that side of the
pavilion which gave upon the garden. Here the
sunshine was hot upon the pavement, and upon the outer
half of each pale, slender column. Richard leant
his shoulder against one of these, grateful for the
genial heat.
Since her first and somewhat inauspicious
meeting with him in childhood, Helen had never, close
at hand, seen Richard Calmady walk thus far.
She stared, fascinated by that cruel spectacle.
For the instant transformation of the apparently tall,
and conspicuously well-favoured, courtly gentleman,
just now sitting at table with her, into the shuffling,
long-armed, dwarfed and crippled creature was, at
first utterly incredible, then portentous, then, by
virtue of its very monstrosity, absorbing and, to
her, adorable, whetting appetite as veritable famine
might. Chastity became to her more than ever absurd,
a culpable waste of her own loveliness, of sensation,
of emotion, a sin against those vernal influences
working in this generous nature surrounding her and
working in her own blood. All the primitive instinct
of her womanhood called aloud in her that she must
wed must wed. And the strident voice
of the great, painted city coming up to her, urgent,
incessant, carried the same message, as did the radiant
sea, whose white lips kissed the indented coast-line
as though pale and hungry with love. While the
man before her, by his very abnormality and a certain
secretness inevitable in that, heightened her passion.
He was to her of all living men most desirable, so
that she must win him and hold him, must see and know.
In a few steps, light as those of
the little, rose-crowned dancer of long ago, she followed
him across the shining floor. There was a point
of north in the wind, adding exhilaration to the firm
sunshine as ice to rare wine. The scent of narcissus,
magnolia, and lemon blossom was everywhere. The
cypresses yielded an aromatic, myrrh-like sweetness.
The uprising waters of the fountain, set in the central
alley, swerved southward, falling in a jeweled rain.
Helen, in her spotless raiment, came close and Richard
Calmady turned to her. But his eyes no longer
questioned hers. They were as windows opening
back on to empty space, seeing all, yet telling nothing.
His face had become still again and inscrutable, lightened
only by that flickering, mocking smile. It seemed
as though the psychological moment were passed and
social sense, ordinary fashions of civilised intercourse,
had not only come back but come to stay.
“I think we will omit Destournelle
from our talk in future,” he said. “As
a subject of conversation I find he disagrees with
me, notwithstanding his felicity of style and his
admirable technique. I will give orders which,
I hope, may help to protect you from annoyance in
future. In this delightful land, by wise exercise
of just a little bribery and corruption, it is still
possible to make the unwelcome alien prefer to seek
health and entertainment elsewhere. Now, will
you like to go back to the house?”
The approach to the pavilion from
the lower level of the garden was by a carefully graded
slope of Roman brick, set edgewise. At regular
intervals of about eighteen inches this was crossed on
the principle of a gang-plank by raised
marble treads. Without waiting for his cousin’s
reply, Richard started slowly down the slope.
At the best of times this descent for him demanded
caution. Now his vision was again so queerly
blurred that he miscalculated the distance between
the two lowest treads, slipped and stumbled, lunging
forward. Quick as a cat, Madame de Vallorbes
was behind him, her right hand grasping his right
elbow, her left hand under his left armpit.
“Ah! Dickie, Dickie, don’t
fall!” she cried, a sudden terror in her voice.
Her muscles hardened like steel.
It needed all her strength to support him, for he
was heavy, his body inert as that of one fainting.
For a moment his head rested against her bosom; and
her breath came short, sighing against his neck and
cheek.
By sheer force of will Richard recovered
his footing, disengaging himself from her support,
shuffling aside from her.
“A thousand thanks, Helen,” he said.
Then he looked full at her, and she untender
though she was perceived that the perspective
of space on which, as windows might, his eyes seemed
to open back, was not empty. It was peopled, crowded even
as those steep, teeming byways of Naples by
undying, unforgetable misery, humiliation, revolt.
“Yes, it is rather unpardonable
to be as I am isn’t it?”
he said. Adding hastily, yet with a certain courteous
dignity: “I am ashamed to trouble
you, to ask you of all people to
run messages for me but would you go on
to the house ”
“Dickie, why may not I help you?” she
interrupted.
“Ah!” he said, “the
answer to that lies away back in the beginning of
things. Even unlucky devils, such as myself, are
not without a certain respect for that which is fitting,
for seemliness and etiquette. Send one of my
men please. I shall be very grateful to you thanks.”
And Helen de Vallorbes, her passion
baulked and therefore more than ever at white heat,
swept up the paved alley, amid the sweet scents of
the garden, beneath the jeweled rain of the fountain,
that point of north in the wind dallying with her
as in laughing challenge, making her the more mad
to have her way with Richard Calmady, yet knowing that
of the two he and she he was
the stronger as yet.