IN WHICH HELEN DE VALLORBES LEARNS HER RIVAL’S NAME
“I hear Morabita sings, in Ernani,
at the San Carlo on Friday night. Do you care
to go, Helen?”
The question, though asked casually,
had, to the listener, the effect of falling with a
splash, as of a stone into a well, awakening unexpected
echoes, disturbing, rather harshly, the constrained
silence which had reigned during the earlier part
of dinner.
All the long, hot afternoon, Madame
de Vallorbes had been alone Richard invisible,
shut persistently away in those rooms of the entresol
into which, as yet, she had never succeeded in penetrating.
Richard had not proposed to her to do so. And
it was part of that praiseworthy discretion which
she had agreed with herself to practise in
her character of scrupulously unexacting guest only
to accept invitations, never to issue them. How
her cousin might occupy himself, whom even he might
receive, during the time spent in those rooms, she
did not know. And it was idle to inquire.
Neither of her servants, though skilful enough, as
a rule, in the acquisition of information, could,
in this case, acquire any. And so it came about
that during those many still bright hours, following
on her rather agitated parting with Richard at midday,
while she paced the noble rooms of the first floor once
more taking note of their costly furnishings and fine
pictures, meeting her own restless image again and
again in their many mirrors and later, near
sundown, when she walked the dry, brown pathways of
the ilex and cypress grove, the wildest suspicions
of his possible doings assailed her. For she was
constrained to admit that, though she had spent a
full week now under his roof, it was but the veriest
fringe, after all, of the young man’s habits
and thought with which she was actually acquainted.
And this not only desperately intrigued her curiosity,
but the apartness, behind which he entrenched himself
and his doings, was as a slight put upon her and consequent
source of sharp mortification. So to-day she ranged
all permitted spaces of the villa and its grounds
softly, yet lithe, watchful, fierce as a she-panther her
ears strained to hear, her eyes to see, driven the
while by jealousy of that nameless rival, to remembrance
of whom all the whole place was dedicated, and by baffled
passion, as with whips.
Nor did superstition fail to add its
word of ill-omen at this juncture. A carrion
crow, long-legged, heavy of beak, alighting on the
clustered curls of the marble bust of Homer, startled
her with vociferous croakings. A long, narrow,
many-jointed, blue-black, evil-looking beetle crawled
from among the rusty, fibrous, cypress roots across
her path. A funeral procession, priest and acolytes,
with lighted tapers, sitting within the glass-sided
hearse at head and foot of the flower-strewn coffin,
wound slowly along the dusty, white road bordered
by queer growth of prickly-pear and ragged, stunted
palm-trees far below. She crossed herself,
turning hurriedly away. Yet, for an instant,
Death, triumphant, hideous, inevitable, and all the
spiritual terror and physical disgust of it, grinned
at her, its fleshless face, as it seemed, close against
her own. And alongside Death by some
malign association of ideas and ugly antic of profanity she
saw the bel tete de Jesu of M. Paul Destournelle
as she had seen it this morning, he looking back,
hat in hand, as he plunged down the break-neck, Neapolitan
side-street, with that impish, bleating, goatlike
laugh.
By the time the dinner-hour drew near
she found her outlook in radical need of reconstruction,
and to that end bade Zelie dress her in the crocus-yellow
brocade, reserved for some emergency such as the present.
It was a gown, surely, to restore self-confidence and
induce self-respect! Fashioned fancifully, according
to a picturesque, seventeenth-century, Venetian model,
the full sleeves and the long-waisted bodice of it this
cut low, generously displaying her shoulders and swell
of her bosom were draped with superb guipure
de Flandres a brides frisees and strings of seed
pearls. All trace of ascetic simplicity had very
certainly departed. Helen was resplendent strings
of seed pearls twisted in her honey-coloured hair,
a clear red in her cheeks and hard brilliance in her
eyes, bred of eager jealous excitement. She had,
indeed, reached a stage of feeling in which the sight
of Richard Calmady, the fact of his presence, worked
upon her to the extent of dangerous emotion. And
now this statement of his, and the question following
it, caused the flame of the inward fires tormenting
her to leap high.
“Ah! Morabita!” she
exclaimed. “What an age it is since I have
heard her sing, or thought about her! How is
her voice lasting, Richard?”
“I really don’t know,”
he answered, “and that is why I am rather curious
to hear her. There was literally nothing but a
voice in her case no dramatic sense, nothing
in the way of intelligence to fall back on. On
that account it interested me to watch her. She
and her voice had no essential relation to one another.
Her talent was stuck into her, as you might stick
a pin into a cushion. She produced glorious effects
without a notion how she produced them, and gave expression and
perfectly just expression to emotions she
had never dreamed of. At the best of times singers
are a feeble folk intellectually, but, of all singers
I have known, she was mentally the very feeblest.”
“No, perhaps she was not very
wise,” Helen put in, but quite mildly, quite
kindly.
“And so if the voice went, everything
went. And that made one reflect agreeably upon
the remarkably haphazard methods employed by that which
we politely call Almighty God in His construction of
our unhappy selves. Design? There’s
not a trace of design in the whole show. Bodies,
souls, gifts, superfluities, deficiencies, just pitched
together anyhow. The most bungling of human artists
would blush to turn out such work.”
Richard spoke rapidly. He had
refused course after course. And now the food
on his plate remained untasted. Seen in the soft
light of the shaded candles his face had a strange
look of distraction upon it, as though he too was
restless with an intimate, deep-seated restlessness.
His skin was less colourless than usual, his manner
less colourless also. And this conferred a certain
youthfulness on him, making him seem nearer so
Helen thought to the boy she had known at
Brockhurst, than to the man, whom lately, she had
been so signally conscious that she failed to know.
“No, I hope Morabita’s
voice remains to her,” he continued. “Her
absolute nullity minus it is disagreeable to think
of. And much as I relish collecting telling examples
of the fatuity of the Creator she, voiceless,
would offer a supreme one I would spare
her that, poor dear. For she was really rather
charming to me at one time.”
“So it was commonly reported,” Helen remarked.
“Was it?” Richard said absently.
Though as a rule conspicuously abstemious,
he had drunk rather freely to-night, and that with
an odd haste of thirst. Now he touched his champagne
tumbler, intimating to Bates, the house-steward sometime
the Brockhurst under butler that it should
be refilled.
“I can’t have seen Morabita
for nearly three years,” he went on. “And
my last recollections of her are unfortunate.
She had sent me a box, in Vienna it was I think, for
the Traviata. She was fat then, or rather,
fatter. Stage furniture leaves something to desire
in the way of solidity. In the death scene the
middle of the bed collapsed. Her swan-song ceased
abruptly. Her head and heels were in the air,
and the very largest rest of her upon the floor, bed
and bedclothes standing out in a frill all around.
It was a sight discouraging to sentiment. I judged
it kinder not to go to supper with her after the performance
that night.”
Richard paused, again drained his glass.
“I beg your pardon,” he said, “what
atrocious nonsense I am talking!”
“I think I rather enjoy it,”
Madame de Vallorbes answered. She looked at the
young man sideways, from under her delicate eyelids.
He was perfectly sober of that there was
no question. Yet he was less inaccessible, somehow,
than usual. She inclined to experiment. “Only
I am sorry for Morabita in more ways than one, poor
wretch. But then perhaps I am just a little sorry
for all those women whom you reject, Richard.”
“The women whom I reject?” he said harshly.
“Yes, whom you reject,”
Helen repeated. Then she busied herself
with a small black fig, splitting it deftly open,
disclosing the purple, and rose, and clear living
greens of the flesh and innumerable seeds of it, colours
rich as those of a tropic sky at sunset. “And
there are so many of those women it seems to me!
I am coming to have a quite pathetic fellowship for
them.” She buried her white teeth in the
softness of the fig. “Not without
reason, perhaps. It is idle to deny that you
are a pastmaster in the ungentle art of rejection.
What have you to say in self-defense, Dickie?”
“That talking nonsense appears
to be highly infectious and that it is
a disagreeably oppressive evening.”
Helen de Vallorbes smiled upon him,
glanced quickly over her shoulder to assure herself
the servants were no longer present then
spoke, leaning across the corner of the table towards
him, while her eyes searched his with a certain daring
provocation.
“Yes, I admit I have finished
my fig. Dinner is over. And it is my place
to disappear according to custom.” She
laid her rosy finger-tips together, her elbows resting
on the table. “But I am disinclined to
disappear. I have a number of things to say.
Take that question of going to the opera, for instance.
Half Naples will be there, and I know more than half
Naples, and more than half Naples knows me. I
do not crave to run incontinently into the arms of
any of de Vallorbes’ many relations. They
were not conspicuously kind to me when I was here as
a girl and stood very much in need of kindness.
So the question of going to the San Carlo, you see,
requires reflection. And then,” her
tone softened to a most persuasive gentleness, “then,
the evenings are a trifle long when one is alone and
has nothing very satisfactory to think about.
And I have been worried to-day, detestably worried.” She
looked down at her finger-tips. Her expression
became almost sombre. “In any case I shall
not plague you very much longer, Richard,” she
said rather grandly. “I have determined
to remove myself bag and baggage. It is best,
more dignified to do so. Reluctantly I own that.
Here have I no abiding city. I wish I had, perhaps,
but I haven’t. Therefore it is useless,
and worse than useless, to play at having one.
One must just face the truth.”
She looked full at the young man,
smiling at him, as though somehow forgiving him a
slight, an unkindness, a neglect.
“And so, just because to you
it all matters so uncommonly little, let us talk rather
longer this evening.”
She rose.
“I’ll go on into the long
drawing-room,” she said. “The windows
were still open there when I came in to dinner.
The room will be pleasantly cool. You will come?”
And she moved away quietly, thoughtfully,
opened the high double-doors, left them open, and
that without once looking back. Yet her hearing
was strained to catch the smallest sound above that
which accompanied her, namely, the rustling of her
dress. Then a queer shiver ran all down her spine
and she set her teeth, for she perceived that halting,
shuffling footsteps had begun to follow those light
and graceful footsteps of her own.
“Ce n’est que lé premier
pas qui coûte,” she said to herself.
“I have no fear for the rest.”
Yet, crossing the near half of the
great room, she sank down on a sofa, thankful there
was no farther to go. In the last few minutes
she had put forth more will-power, felt more deeply,
than she had supposed. Her knees gave under her.
It was a relief to sit down.
The many candles in the cut-glass
chandeliers, hanging from along the centre of the
painted ceiling, were lighted, filling the length and
breadth of the room with a bland, diffused radiance.
It touched picture and statue, tall mirror, rich curtain,
polished woodwork of chair and table, gleaming ebony
and ivory cabinet. It touched Helen de Vallorbes’
bright head and the strings of pearls twisted in her
hair, her white neck, the swell of her bosom, and
all that delicate wonder of needlework the
Flanders’ lace trimming her bodice.
It lay on her lap, too, as she leaned back in the
corner of the sofa, her hands pressed down on either
side her thighs lay there bringing the pattern
of her brocaded dress into high relief. This
was a design of pomegranates leaves, flowers,
and fruit and of trailing, peacock feathers,
a couple of shades lighter than the crocus-yellow
ground. The light took the over-threads and stayed
in them.
The window stood wide open on to the
balcony, the elaborately wrought-ironwork of which scroll
and vase, plunging dolphin and rampant sea-horse detached
itself from the opaque background of the night.
And in at the window came luscious scents from the
garden below, a chime of falling water, the music,
faint and distant, in rising and falling cadence of
a marching military band. In at it also, and rising
superior to all these in imperativeness and purpose,
came the voice of Naples itself no longer
that of a city of toil and commerce, but that of a
city of pleasure, a city of licence, until such time
as the dawn should once again break, and the sun arise,
driving back man and beast alike to labour, the one
from merry sinning, the other from hard-earned sleep.
And once again, but in clearer, more urgent, accents,
the voice of the city repeated its message to Helen
de Vallorbes, calling aloud to her to do even as it
was doing, namely, to wed to wed. And,
hearing it, understanding that message, for a little
space shame took her, in face both of its and her
own shamelessness, so that she closed her eyes, unable
for the moment to look at Richard Calmady as he crossed
the great room in that bland and yet generous light.
But, almost immediately, his voice, cold and measured
in tone, there close beside her, claimed her attention.
“That which you said at dinner
rather distresses me, Helen.”
Then, shame or no shame, Madame de
Vallorbes, of necessity, opened her eyes. And,
so doing, it needed all her self-control to repress
a cry. She forced her open hands down very hard
on the mattress of the sofa. For Richard leaned
his back against the jamb of the open window, and
she saw his face and all his poor figure in profile.
His left hand hung straight at his side, the tips
of his fingers only just not touching the floor.
And again, as at midday the spectacle of his deformity
worked upon her strangely.
“What of all that which I said
at dinner distresses you?” she asked gently,
with sudden solicitude.
“You showed me that I have been
a wretchedly negligent host.” In
speaking, the young man turned his head and looked
at her, paused a moment, almost startled by her resplendent
aspect. Then he looked down at his own stunted
and defective limbs. His expression became very
grim. He raised his shoulders just perceptibly.
“I reproach myself with having allowed you to
be so much alone. It must have been awfully dull
for you.”
“It was a little dull,” Helen said, still
gently.
“I ought to have begged you
to ask some of the people you know in Naples to come
here. It was stupid of me not to think of it.
I need not have seen them, neither need they have
seen me.”
He looked at her steadily again, as
though trying to fix her image in his memory.
“Yes, it was stupid of me,”
he repeated absently. “But I have got into
churlish, bachelor habits that can hardly
be helped, living alone, or on board ship, as I do and
I have pretty well forgotten how to provide adequately
for the entertainment of a guest.”
“Oh! I have had that which
I wanted, that which I came for,” Helen answered,
very charmingly, “had it in part,
at all events. Though I could have put up with
just a little more of it, Dickie, perhaps.”
“I warned you, if you remember,
that opportunities of amusement as that
word is generally understood would be limited.”
“Amusement?” she exclaimed,
with an almost tragic inflection of contempt.
“Oh yes!” he said, “amusement
is not to be despised. I’d give all I am
worth, half my time, to be amused but that
again, like hospitality, is rather a lost art with
me. You remember, I warned you life at the villa
in these days was not precisely hilarious.”
Helen clapped her hands together.
“Ah! you are wilfully obtuse,
you are wilfully, cruelly pigheaded!” she cried.
“Pardon me, dear Richard, but your attitude is
enough to exasperate a saint. And I am no saint
as yet. I am still human radically,
for my own peace of mind lamentably, human. I
am only too capable of being grieved, humiliated,
hurt. But there, it is folly to say such things
to you! You are hopelessly insensible to all that.
So I take refuge in quoting your own words of this
morning against you that no explanation
is lucid if the hearer refuses to accept it.”
“I am dull, no doubt, but honestly
I fail to see how that remark of mine can be held
to apply in the present case.”
“It applies quite desolatingly
well!” Helen declared, with spirit. Then
her manner softened into a seductiveness of forgiveness
once again. “And so, dear Richard,
I am glad that I had already determined to leave here
to-morrow. It would have been a little too wretched
to arrive at that determination after this conversation.
You must go alone to hear your old flame, Morabita,
sing. Only, if her voice is still as sympathetic
as of old, if it moves you from your present insensibility,
you may read remembrance of some aspects of my visit
into the witchery of it if you like. It may occur
to you what those aspects really meant.”
Helen smiled upon him, leaning a little
forward. Her eyes shone, as though looking out
through unshed tears.
“It’s not exactly flattering
to one’s vanity to be compelled to depute to
another woman the making of such things clear.
But it is too evident I waste my time in attempting
to make them clear myself. No explanation is
lucid, et caetera ”
Helen shook back her head with an
extraordinary charm of half-defiant, half-tearful
laughter. She was playing a game, her whole intelligence
bent on the playing of it skilfully. Yet she was
genuinely touched. She was swayed by her very
real emotion. She spoke from her heart, though
every word, every passing action, subserved her ultimate
purpose in regard to Richard Calmady.
“And, after all, one must retain
some remnant of self-respect with which to cover the
nakedness of one’s Oh yes!
decidedly, Morabita’s voice had best do the
rest.”
Richard had moved from his station
in the window. He stood at the far end of the
sofa, resting his hands on the gilded and carven arm
of it. Now the ungainliness of his deformity
was hidden, and his height was greater than that of
his companion, obliging her to look up at him.
“I gave you my word, Helen,”
he said, “I have no notion what you are driving
at.”
“Driving at, driving at?”
she cried. “Why, the self-evident truth
that you are forcing me rather brutally to pay the
full price of my weakness in coming here, in permitting
myself the indulgence of seeing you again. You
told me directly I arrived, with rather cynical frankness,
that I had not changed. That is quite true.
What I was at Brockhurst, four years ago, what I then
felt, that I am and that I feel still. Oh! you
have nothing to reproach yourself with in defect of
plain speaking, or excess of amiable subterfuge!
You hit out very straight from the shoulder!
Directly I arrived you also told me how you had devoted
this place with which, after all, I am
not wholly unconnected to the cult, to
the ideal worship, of a woman whom you loved.”
“So I have devoted it,” Richard said.
“And yet I was weak enough to remain!”
The young man’s face relaxed, but its expression
remained enigmatic.
“And why not?” he asked.
“Because, in remaining, I have
laid myself open to misconstruction, to all manner
of pains and penalties, not easy to be endured, to
the odious certainty of appearing contemptible in
your estimation as well as in my own.”
Helen patted her pretty foot upon
the floor in a small frenzy of irritation.
“How can I hope to escape, since
even the precious being whom you affect to worship
you keep sternly at arm’s length, that is among
the other pleasing things you confided to me immediately
on my arrival lest, seen at close quarters,
she should fall below your requirements and so you
should suffer disillusion. Ah! you are frightfully
cold-blooded, repulsively inhuman. Whether you
judge others by yourself, reckoning them equally devoid
of natural feeling, or whether you find a vindictive
relish in rejecting the friendship and affection so
lavishly offered you ”
“Is it offered lavishly?
That comes as news to me,” he put in.
“Ah! but it is. And I leave
you to picture the pleasing entertainment afforded
the offerer in seeing you ignore the offering, or,
worse still, take it, examine it, and throw it aside
like a dirty rag! In one case you underline your
rejection almost to the point of insult.”
“This is very instructive.
I am learning a whole lot about myself,” Richard
said coolly.
“But look,” Madame de
Vallorbes cried, “do you not prefer exposing
yourself to the probability of serious illness rather
than remain under the same roof with me? The
inference hits one in the face. To you the pestilential
exhalations, the unspeakable abominations, of Naples
harbour appear less dangerous than my near neighbourhood.”
“You put it more strongly than
I should,” he answered, smiling. “Yet,
from a certain standpoint, that may very well be true.”
For an instant Helen hesitated.
Her intelligence, for all its alertness, was strained
exactly to appraise the value of his words, neither
over, nor under, rating it. And her eyes searched
his with a certain boldness and imperiousness of gaze.
Richard, meanwhile, folding his arms upon the carven
and gilt frame of the sofa, looked back at her, smiling
still, at once ironically and very sadly. Then
swift assurance came to her of the brazen card she
had best play. But, playing it, she was constrained
to avert her eyes and set her glance pensively upon
the light-visited surface of her crocus-yellow, silken
lap.
“I will do my best possible
to accept your nightly journeys as a compliment in
disguise, then,” she said, quite softly.
“For truly, when I come to think of it, were
she, herself, here she, the woman you so
religiously admire that you take elaborate pains to
avoid having anything on earth to do with her were
she herself here you could hardly take more extensive
measures to secure yourself against risk of disappointment,
hardly exercise a greater rage of caution!”
“Perhaps that’s just it.
Perhaps you have arrived at it all at last. Perhaps
she is here,” he said.
And he turned away, steadying himself
with one hand against the jamb of the window, and
shuffled out slowly, laboriously, onto the balcony
into the night.
For a quite perceptible length of
time Helen de Vallorbes continued to contemplate the
light-visited surface of her crocus-yellow, silken
lap. She followed the lines of the rich pattern pomegranate,
fruit and blossom, trailing peacock’s feather.
For by such mechanical employment alone could she
keep the immensity of her excitement and of her triumph
in check. To shout aloud, to dance, to run wildly
to and fro, would have been only too possible to her
just then. All that for which she had schemed,
had ruled herself discreetly, had ridden a waiting
race, had been hers, in fact, from the first the
prize adjudged before ever she left the starting-post.
She held this man in the hollow of her hand, and that
by no result of cunning artifice, but by right divine
of beauty and wit and the manifold seductions of her
richly-endowed personality. And, thinking of
that, she clenched her dainty fists, opened them again,
and again clenched them, upon the yielding mattress
of the sofa, given over to an ecstasy of physical enjoyment,
weaving even as, with clawed and padded paws, her
prototype the she-panther might. Slowly she raised
her downcast eyes and looked after Richard Calmady,
his figure a blackness, as of vacancy, against the
elaborate wrought-ironwork of the balcony. And
so doing, an adorable sensation moved her, at once
of hungry tenderness and of fear fear of
something unknown, in a way fundamental, incalculable,
the like of which she had never experienced before.
Ah! indeed, of all her many loves, here was the crown
and climax! Yet, in the midst of her very vital
rapture, she could still find time for remembrance
of the little, crescent-shaped scar upon her temple,
and for remembrance of Katherine Calmady, who had,
unwittingly, fixed that blemish upon her and had also
more than once frustrated her designs. This time
frustration was not possible. She was about to
revenge the infliction of that little scar! And,
at the same time the intellectual part of her was
agreeably intrigued, trying to disentangle the why
and wherefore of Richard’s late action and utterances.
While self-love was gratified to the highest height
of its ambition by the knowledge that not only in
his heart had she long reigned, but that he had dedicated
time and wealth and refined ingenuity to the idea
of her, to her worship, to the making of this, her
former dwelling-place, into a temple for her honour,
a splendid witness to her victorious charm, a shrine
not unfitting to contain the idol of his imagination.
For a little space she rested in all
this, savouring the sweetness of it as some odour
of costly sacrifice. For whatever her sins and
lapses, Helen de Vallorbes had the fine aesthetic
appreciations, as well as the inevitable animality,
of the great courtesan. The artist was at least
as present in her as the whore. And it was not,
therefore, until realisation of her present felicity
was complete, until it had soaked into her, so to
speak, to the extent of a delicious familiarity, that
she was disposed to seek change of posture or of place.
Then, at last, softly, languidly, for indeed she was
somewhat spent by the manifold emotions of the day,
she rose and followed Richard into the starless, low-lying
night. Her first words were very simple, yet to
herself charged with far-reaching meaning as
a little key may give access to a treasure-chest containing
riches of fabulous worth.
“Richard, is it really true,
that which you have told me?”
“What conceivable object could I have in lying?”
“Then why have you delayed? why
wasted the precious days the precious months
and years, if it comes to that?”
“How in honour and decency could
I do otherwise circumstances being such
as they are, I being that which I am?”
The two voices were in notable contrast.
Both were low, both were penetrated by feeling.
But the man’s was hoarse and rasping, the woman’s
smooth and soft as milk.
“Ah! it is the old story!”
she said. “Will you never comprehend, Dickie,
that what is to you hateful in yourself, may to some
one else be the last word of attraction, of seduction,
even?”
“God forbid I should ever comprehend
that!” he answered. “When I take
to glorying in my shame, pluming myself upon my abnormality,
then, indeed, I become beyond all example loathsome.
The most deplorable moment of my very inglorious career
will be precisely that in which I cease to look at
myself with dispassionate contempt.”
Helen knelt down, resting her beautiful
arms upon the dark hand-rail of the balcony, letting
her wrists droop over it into the outer dimness.
The bland light from the open window dwelt on her kneeling
figure and bowed head. But it was as well, perhaps,
that the night dropped a veil upon her face.
“And yet so it is,” she
said. “You may repudiate the idea, but the
fact remains. I do not say it would affect all
women alike affect those, for instance,
whose conception of love, and of the relation between
man and woman, is dependent upon the slightly improper
and very tedious marriage service as authorised by
the English Church. Let the conventional be conventional
still! So much the better if you don’t
appeal to them meagre, timid, inadequate,
respectable a generation of fashion-plates
with a sixpenny book of etiquette, moral and social,
stuck inside them to serve for a soul.”
Helen’s voice broke in a little
spasm of laughter, and her hands began, unconsciously,
to open and close, open and close, weaving in soft,
outer darkness.
“We may leave them out of the
argument. But there remain the elect, Richard,
among whom I dare count myself. And over them,
never doubt it, just that which you hate and which
appears at first sight to separate you so cruelly
from other men, gives you a strange empire. You
stimulate, you arrest, you satisfy one’s imagination,
as does the spectacle of some great drama. You
are at once enslaved and emancipated by this thing to
you hateful, to me adorable beyond all measure
of bondage or freedom inflicted upon, or enjoyed by,
other men. And in this, just this, lies magnificent
compensation if you would but see it. I have
always known that known that if you would
put aside your arrogance and pride, and yield yourself
a little, it was possible to love you, and give you
such joy in loving as one could give to no-one else
on earth.”
Her voice sweetened yet more.
She leaned forward, pressing her bosom against the
rough ironwork of the balcony.
“I knew that, from the first
hour we met, in the variegated, autumn sunshine, upon
the greensward, before the white summer-house overlooking
that noble, English, woodland view. I saw you,
and so doing I saw mysteries of joy in myself unimagined
by me before. It went very hard with me then,
Richard. It has gone very hard with me ever since.”
Madame de Vallorbes’ words died
away in a grave and delicate whisper. But she
did not turn her head, nor did Richard speak.
Only, close there beside her, she heard him breathe,
panting short and quick even as a dog pants, while
a certain vibration seemed to run along the rough
ironwork against which she leaned. And by these
signs Helen judged her speech, though unanswered,
had not been wholly in vain. From below, the
luscious fragrance of the garden, the chime of falling
water, and the urgent voice of the painted pleasure-city
came up about her. Night had veiled the face
of Naples, even as Helen’s own. Yet lines
of innumerable lights described the suave curve of
the bay, climbed the heights of Posilipo, were doubled
in the oily waters of the harbour, spread abroad alluring
gaiety in the wide piazzas, and shone like watchful
and soliciting eyes from out the darkness of narrow
street, steep lane, and cutthroat alley. While,
above all that, high uplifted against the opacity
of the starless sky, a blood-red beacon burned on
the summit of Vesuvius, the sombre glow of it reflected
upon the underside of the masses of downward-rolling
smoke as upon the belly of some slow-crawling, monstrous
serpent.
Suddenly Helen spoke once again, and
with apparent inconsequence.
“Richard, you must have known
she could never satisfy you why did you
try to marry Constance Quayle?”
“To escape.”
“From whom from me?”
“From myself, which is much
the same thing as saying from you, I suppose.”
“And you could not escape?”
“So it seems.”
“But but, dear Richard,”
she said plaintively, yet with very winning sweetness,
“why, after all, should you want so desperately
to escape?”
Richard moved a little farther from her.
“I have already explained that
to you, to the point of insult, so you tell me,”
he said. “Surely it is unnecessary to go
over the ground again?”
“You carry your idealism to
the verge of slight absurdity,” she answered.
“Oh! you of altogether too little faith, how
should you gauge the full flavour of the fruit till
you have set your teeth in it? Better, far better,
be a sacramentalist like me and embrace the idea through
the act, than refuse the act in dread of imperiling
the dominion of the idea. You put the cart before
the horse with a vengeance, Dickie! There’s
such a thing as being so reverently-minded towards
your god that he ceases to be the very least profit
or use to you.”
And again she heard that panting breath
beside her. Again laughter bubbled up in her
fair throat, and her hands fell to weaving the soft,
outer darkness.
“You must perceive that it cannot
end here and thus,” she said presently.
“Of course not,” he answered.
Then, after a moment’s pause, he added coldly
enough: “I foresaw that, so I gave
orders yesterday that the yacht was not to be laid
up, but only to coal and provision, and undergo some
imperatively necessary repairs. She should be
ready for sea by the end of the week.”
Helen turned sideways, and the bland
light, from the room within, touched her face now
as well as her kneeling figure.
“And then, and then?” she demanded, almost
violently.
“Then I shall go,” Richard
replied. “Where, I do not yet know, but
as far, anyhow, as the coal in the yacht’s bunkers
will drive her. Distance is more important than
locality just now. And I leave you here at the
villa, Helen. Do not regret that you came.
I don’t.”
He too had turned to the light, which
revealed his face ravaged and aged by stress of emotion,
revealed too the homelessness, as of empty space,
resident in his eyes.
“I shall be glad to remember
the place pleases and speaks to you. It has been
rather a haven of rest to me during these last two
years. You would have had it at my death, in
any case. You have it a little sooner that’s
all.”
But Helen held out her arms.
“The villa, the villa,”
she cried, “what do I want with that! God
in heaven, are you utterly devoid of all sensibility,
all heart? Or are you afraid afraid
even yet, oh, very chicken-livered lover that
behind the beauty of Naples you may find the filth?
It is not so, Dickie. It is not so, I tell you. Look
at me. What would you have more? Surely,
for any man, my love is good enough!”
And then hurriedly, with a rustling
of silken skirts, hot with anger from head to heel,
she sprang to her feet.
Across the room one of the men-servants advanced.
“The carriage is at the door, sir,” he
said.
And Madame de Vallorbes’ voice
broke in with a singular lightness and nonchalance:
“Surely it is rather imprudent
to go out again to-night? You told me, at dinner,
you were not well, that you had had a touch of fever.”
She held out her hand, smiling serenely.
“Be advised,” she said “avoid
malaria. I shall see you before I go to-morrow?
Yes an afternoon train, I think. Good-night,
we meet at breakfast as usual.”
She stepped in at the window, gathered
up certain small properties a gold scent-bottle,
one or two books, a blotting-case, as with a view to
final packing and departure. Just as she reached
the door she heard Richard say curtly:
“Send the carriage round. I shall not want
it to-night.”
But even so Helen did not turn back.
On the contrary, she ran, light of foot as the little
dancer, of long ago, with blush-roses in her hat,
through all the suite of rooms to her own sea-blue,
sea-green bedchamber, and there, sitting down before
the toilet-table, greeted her own radiant image in
the glass. Her lips were very red. Her eyes
shone like pale stars on a windy night.
“Quick, quick, undress me, Zelie!
Put me to bed. I am simply expiring of fatigue,”
she said.