TELLING HOW LUDOVIC QUAYLE AND HONORIA ST. QUENTIN
WATCHED THE TROUT
RISE IN THE LONG WATER
Some hour and a half later Miss St.
Quentin passed down the flight of stone steps, leading
from the southern end of the terrace to the grass
slopes of the park. Arrived at the lowest step
she gathered the skirt of her dress up over one arm,
thereby securing greater freedom of movement, and
displaying a straight length of pink and white petticoat.
Thus prepared she fared forth over the still smoking
turf. The storm had passed, but the atmosphere
remained thick and humid. A certain opulence
of colour obtained in the landscape. The herbs
in the grass, wild-thyme, wild-balm, and star-flowered
camomile, smelt strongly aromatic as she trod them
under foot, while the beds of bracken, dried and yellowed
by the drought, gave off a sharp, woody scent.
Usually, when thus alone and in contact
with nature, such matters claimed Honoria’s
whole attention, ministering to her love of earth-lore
and of Mother Earth producing in her silent
worship of those primitive deities who at once preside
over and inhabit the waste-land and the tilth, the
untamed forest and the pastures where heavy-uddered,
sweet-breathed cows lie in the deep, meadow grass,
the garden ground, all pleasant, orchard places, and
the broad promise of the waving crops. But this
afternoon, although the colour, odour, warmth, and
all the many voices praising the refreshment of the
rain, were sensibly present to her, Honoria’s
thought failed to be engrossed by them. For she
was in process of worshipping younger and more compassionate
deities, sadder, because more human, ones, whose office
lies not with Nature in her eternal repose and fecundity
but with man in his eternal failure and unrest.
Not august Ceres, giver of the golden harvest-fields,
or fierce Cybele, the goddess of the many paps, but
spare, brown-habited St. Francis, serving his brethren
with bleeding hands and feet, held empire over her
meditations. In imagination she saw saw
with only too lively realisation of detail that
eighteen-year-old lad, in the factory at Westchurch,
drawn up all the unspent hopes and pleasures
of his young manhood active in him by the
loose gearing, into the merciless vortex of revolving
wheels, and there, without preparation, without pause
of warning, without any dignity of shouting multitude,
of arena or of stake, martyred converted
in a few horrible seconds from health and wholeness
into a formless lump of human waste. And up and
down the land, as she reflected, wherever the great
systems of trade and labour, which build up the mechanical
and material prosperity of our day, go forward, kindred
things happen let alone question of all
those persons who are born into the world already
injured, or bearing the seeds of foul and disfiguring
diseases in their organs and their blood. Verily
Richard Calmady’s sad family was a rather terribly
large one, well calculated to maintain its numbers,
even to increase! For neither the age of human
sacrifice nor of cannibalism is really over, nor is
the practice of these limited to savage peoples in
distant lands or far-away isles of the sea. They
form the basis actually, though in differing of outward
aspect, of all existing civilisations, just as they
formed the basis of all past civilisations a
basis, moreover, perpetually recemented and relaid.
And, as she considered being courageous
and fair-minded it was inevitable that
this should be so, unthinkable that it should be otherwise,
since it made, at least indirectly, for the prosperity
of the majority and development of the race. Considering
which the apparently cruel paradox and
irony of it Honoria swung down past the
scattered hawthorns, thick with ruddy fruit, across
the fragrant herbs and short, sweet turf, through
the straggling fern-brakes, which impeded her progress,
plucking at her skirts, careless of the rich colour
and ample beauty outspread before her.
But soon, as a bird after describing
far-ranging circles drops at last upon the from at-first-determined
spot, so her thought settled down, with relief yet
in a way unwillingly and that not out of
any lingering repulsion, but rather from a certain
proud modesty and self-respect upon Richard
Calmady himself. Not only did he apprehend all
this, far more clearly, more intimately, than she
could. Had he not spoken of the advantages
of a certain blackness? Honoria’s
vision became somewhat indistinct. But
he set out to deal with it in a practical manner.
And in this connection she began to understand how
it had come about that through years of ingratitude
and neglect, and of loose-living, on his part, his
mother could still remain patient, could endure, and
supremely love. For behind the obvious, the almost
coarse, tragedy and consequent appeal of the man’s
deformity, there was the further appeal of something
very admirable in the man himself, for the emergence
and due blossoming of which it would be very possible,
very worth while, for whoso once recognised its existence
to wait. John Knott had been right in his estimate
of Richard. Ludovic Quayle had been right.
Lady Calmady had been right. Honoria had
begun to believe that, even before Richard had come
forth from his self-imposed seclusion, in the spring.
The belief had increased during her subsequent intercourse
with him, had been reinforced during her few days’
visit at Whitsuntide. Yet, until now, she had
never freely and openly admitted it. She wondered
why? And then hastily she put such wondering from
her. Again a certain proud modesty held her back.
She did not want to think of herself in relation to
him, or of him in relation to herself. She wished,
for a reason she refused to define, to exclude the
personal element. Doing that she could permit
herself larger latitude of admiration. His acknowledgment
of fellowship with, and obligation of friendship towards,
all victims of physical disaster kindled her enthusiasm.
She perceived that it was contrary to the man’s
natural arrogance, natural revolt against the humiliation
put upon him a rather superb overcoming,
in short, of nature by grace. Nor was it the outgrowth
of any morbid or sentimental emotion. It had
no tincture of the hysteric element. It took
its rise in conviction and in experiment. For
Richard, though still young, struck her as remarkably
mature. He had lived his life, sinned his sins she
did not doubt that suffered unusual sorrows,
bought his experience in the open market and at a sufficiently
high price. And this was the result! It pleased
her imagination by its essential unworldliness, its
idealism and individuality of outlook. She went
back on her earlier judgment of him, first formulated
as a complaint, he was strong, whether
for good or evil now unselfishly for good and
Honoria, being herself among the strong, supremely
valued and welcomed strength. And so it happened
that the tone of her meditations altered, being increasingly
attuned to a serious, but very real congratulation.
For she perceived that the tragedy of human life also
constitutes the magnificence of human life, since it
affords, and always must afford, supreme opportunity
of heroism.
She had traversed the open space of
turf, and come to the tall, iron hurdles enclosing
the paddock. She folded her arms on the topmost
bar of the iron gate and stood there. She wanted
to rest a little in these thoughts that had come to
her. She was not quite sure of them as yet.
But, if they meant anything, if they were other than
mere rhetoric, they must mean a very great deal, into
harmony with which it would be necessary to bring
her thought upon many other subjects. She was
conscious of an excitement, a reaching out towards
some but-half-disclosed glory, some new and very exquisite
fulness of life. But was it new, after all?
Was it not rather the at-last-permitted activity of
faculties and sensibilities hitherto refused development,
voluntarily, perhaps cowardly, held in check and repressed?
She appeared to be making acquaintance with unexpected
depths of apprehension and emotion in herself.
And this, for cause unknown, brought her into more
lively commerce with her immediate surroundings and
the sentiment of them. Her eyes rested on them
questioningly, as though they might afford a tally
to, perhaps an explanation of, the strange, yet lovely
emotion which had invaded her.
Here in the valley, notwithstanding
the recent drought, the grass was lush. Across
the paddock, just within the circuit of the far railings,
a grove of large beech trees broke the expanse of living
green. Beyond, seen beneath their down-sweeping
branches, the surface of the Long Water repeated the
hot purple, the dun-colour and silver-pink, of the
sky. On the opposite slope, extending from the
elm avenue to the outlying masses of the woods and
upward to the line of oaks which run parallel with
the park palings, were cornlands. The wheat, a
red-gold, was already for the most part bound in shocks.
A company of women, wearing lilac and pink sunbonnets
and all-round, blue, linen aprons faded by frequent
washing to a fine clearness of tone, came down over
the blond stubble. They carried, in little baskets
and shining tins, tea for the white-shirted harvesters
who were busy setting up the storm-fallen sheaves.
They laughed and talked together, and their voices
came to Honoria with a pleasant quality of sound.
Two stumbling baby-children, hand in hand, followed
them, as did a small, white-and-tan, spotted dog.
One woman was bareheaded and wore a black bodice,
which gave a singular value to her figure amid the
all-obtaining yellow of the corn.
The scene in its simple and homely
charm held the poetry of that happier side of labour,
of that most ancient of all industries the
husbandman’s and of the generous giving
of the soil. Set in a frame of opulently coloured
woodland and sky, the stately red-brick and freestone
house crowning the high land and looking forth upon
it all, the whole formed, to Honoria’s thinking,
a very noble picture. And then, of a sudden,
in the midst of her quiet enjoyment of it and a tenderness
which the sight of it somehow begot in her, Honoria
was seized by sharp, unreasoning regret that she must
so soon leave it. Unreasoning regret that she
had engaged to go abroad this winter, with poor, pretty,
frivolous, young Lady Tobermory spoilt child
of society and of wealth now half-crazed,
rendered desperate, by the fear that disease, which
had laid a threatening finger on her, might lay its
whole hand cutting short her playtime and breaking
her many toys. Of anything other than toys and
playtime she had no conception. “Those
brutes of doctors tell Tobermory I must give up low
gowns,” she wrote. “And I adore my
neck and shoulders. Every one always has admired
them. It makes me utterly miserable to cover
them up. And now that I am thinner I could have
my gowns cut lower than ever, nearly down to my waist,
which makes it all the more intolerable. I went
to Dessaix about it, went over to Paris on purpose,
though Tobermory was wild at my traveling in the heat.
He Dessaix, I mean, not poor T. was
just as nice as possible, and promised to invent new
styles. Still, of course, I must look dowdy at
night in a high gown. Everybody does. I shall
feel exactly like our clergyman’s wife at Ellerhay,
when she comes to dine with us at Christmas and Easter
and once in the summer. I refuse to have her
oftener than that. She has a long back and about
fourteen children, which she seems to think a great
credit to her. I don’t, as they are ugly,
and she is dreadfully poor. She wears her Sunday
silk with lace wound about, don’t you
know, but wound tight. That means full
dress. I am buying some lace, Duchesse
at three and a half guineas a yard. I suppose
I shall come to winding that of an evening.
Then I shall look like her. It makes me cry dreadfully,
and, as I tell Tobermory, that is worse for me than
any number of lungs. Darling H., if you really
love me in the least, bring nothing but high gowns.
Perhaps I mayn’t mind quite so much if I never
see you in a low one.” There had
been much more to the same effect, pathetic in its
inadequacy and egoism. Only, as Honoria reflected,
that is a style of pathos dangerously liable to pall
upon one. She sighed, for the prospect of spending
the winter participating in the frivolities, and striving
to restrain the indiscretions of this little, damaged
butterfly, did not smile upon her. She might have
stayed on here, stayed on at Brockhurst, worked over
the dear place as she had so often done before helping
Lady Calmady. Why had she promised? Well because
she had been rather restless, unsettled, and at loose
ends of late
Whereupon the young lady bent down
and unfastened the padlock with a certain decision
of movement, closed the gate, relocking it carefully
behind her, and started off across the deep grass of
the paddock, her pale face very serious, her small
head held high. She would keep faith with Evelyn
Tobermory. Of course she would keep faith with
her. It was not only a matter of honour, but
of expediency. It was much, very much better
to go. Yet whence this sudden heat proceeded,
and why the Egyptian journey assumed suddenly such
paramount desirability, she carefully did not stay
to inquire an omission not, perhaps, without
significance.
The half-dozen dainty fillies, meanwhile,
who had eyed her shyly from their station beneath
the beech trees, trotted gently towards her with friendly
whinnyings, their fine ears pricked, their long tails
carried well away in a sweeping curve. Honoria
went on to meet them. She was glad of something
to occupy her hands, some outside, concrete thing to
occupy her thought. She took the foremost, a dark
bay, by the nose strap of its leather head-stall,
patted the beast’s sleek neck, looked into its
prominent, heavy-lidded eyes, the blue film
over the velvet-like iris and pupil of them giving
a singular softness of effect, drew down
the fine, aristocratic head, and kissed the little
star where the hair turned in the centre of the smooth,
hard forehead. It was as perfectly bred as she
was herself so clean, so fresh, that to
touch it was wholly pleasant! Then she backed
away from it, holding it at arm’s-length, noting
how every line of its limbs and body was graceful
and harmonious, full of the purpose of easy strength,
easy freedom of movement. That it was a trifle
blown out in barrel, from being at grass, only gave
its contours an added suavity. It was a lovely
beast, a delicious beast! Honoria smiled upon
it, talked to, patted and coaxed it. While another
young beauty, waxing brave, pushed its black muzzle
under her arm, and lipped at her jacket pockets in
search of bread and of apples. And, these good
things once discovered, the rest of the drove came
about her, civilly, a trifle proudly, as befitted
such fine ladies, with no pushings and bustlings of
vulgar greed. And they charmed her. She
was very much at one with them. She fed them
fearlessly, thrusting one aside in favour of another,
giving each reward in due turn. She passed her
hands down over their slender limbs. The warm
colours and the gloss of them were pleasant to her
eyes. And they smelt sweet, as did the trampled
grass beneath their unshod hoofs. For a while
the human problem its tragedy, magnificence,
inadequacy alike ceased to trouble her.
The poetry of these beautiful, innocent, clean-feeding
beasts was, for the moment, sufficient in and by itself.
But, even while she thus played with
and rejoiced in them, remembrance of their owner came
back to her, his maiming, as against their perfection
of finish, the lamentable disparity between his physical
equipment and theirs. Honoria’s expression
lost its nonchalant gaiety. She pushed her gentle,
equine comrades away to left and right, not that they
ceased to please but that the human problem and the
tragedy of it once more became dominant. She
walked on across the paddock rapidly, while the fillies,
forming up behind her, followed in single file treading
a sinuous pathway through the grass, the foremost one
still pushing its black muzzle, now and again, under
her elbow and nibbling insinuatingly at her empty
jacket pockets. If only that horrible misfortune
had not befallen Richard Calmady! If if
But then, had it not befallen him, would he ever have
been excited to so admirable effort, would he ever
have attained so absorbing and vigorous a personality
as he actually had? Again her thought turned on
itself, to provocation of momentary impatience. Honoria
unfastened the second padlock with a return of her
former decision. There were conclusions
she wished instinctively to avoid, from which she instinctively
desired escape. She forced aside the all-too-affectionate,
bay filly who crowded upon her, shot back the bar
of the gate and relocked it. Then, once again,
she kissed the pretty beast on the forehead as it stretched
its neck over the top of the gate.
“Good-bye, dear lass,”
she said. “Win your races and, when the
time comes, drop foals as handsome as yourself, and
thank your stars you’re under orders, and so
have small chance to muddle your affairs as
with your good looks, my dear, you most assuredly
would like all the rest of us.”
With which excellent advice she swung
away down the last twenty yards of the avenue and
out on to the roadway of the red-brick and freestone
bridge. Here, in the open above the water, the
air was sensibly fresher. From the paddock the
deserted fillies whinnied to her. The voices
of the harvesters came cheerily from the cornland.
The men sat in the blond stubble, backed by a range
of upstanding sheaves. The women, bright in those
frail blues, clear pinks, and lilacs, knelt serving
their meal. She of the black bodice stood apart,
her hands upon her hips, looking towards the bridge
and its solitary occupant. The tan-and-white,
spotted dog ran to and fro chasing field-mice and
yapped. The baby children staggered after it,
uttering excited squeakings and cries. The lower
cloud had parted in the west, disclosing an upper
stratum of pale gold, which widened upward and outward
as the minutes passed. Save immediately below,
in the shadow of the bridge, this found reflection
in the water, overlaying it as with the blond of the
stubble and warmer tones of the sheaves. Honoria
sat down sideways on the coping of the parapet.
She watched the moor-hens, dark of plumage, a splash
of fiery orange on their jaunty, little heads, swim
out with restless, jerky motion from the edge of the
reed-beds and break up the shining surface with diverging
lines of rippling, brown shadow. In the shade
cast by the bridge, trout rose at the dancing gnats
and flies. She could see them rush upward through
the brown water. Sometimes they leapt clear of
it, exposing their silver bellies, pink-spotted sides,
and the olive-green of their backs. They dropped
again with a flop, and rings circled outward from the
place of their disappearing.
All this Honoria saw, but dreamily,
pensively. She realised, as never before, that,
much as she might love this place and the life of it,
she was a guest only, a pilgrim and sojourner.
The completeness of her own independence ceased to
please. “Me this unchartered freedom
tires.” As she quoted the line, Honoria
smiled. These were, indeed, new aspects of herself!
Where would they carry her, both in thought and in
action? It was a little alarming to contemplate
that. And then her pensiveness increased, a strange
nostalgia taking her amounting almost to
physical pain for that same but-half-disclosed
glory, that same new and very exquisite fulness of
life, apprehension of which had lately been vouchsafed
to her. If she could remain very still and undisturbed,
if she could empty her consciousness of all else,
bend her whole will to an act at once of determination
and of reception, perhaps, it would be given her clearly
to see and understand. The idealist, the mystic,
were very present in Honoria just then. She fixed
her eyes upon the shining surface of the water.
A conviction grew upon her that, could she maintain
a certain mental and emotional equilibrium, something
of permanent and very vital importance must take place.
Suddenly she heard footsteps upon
the gravel of the roadway. She started, turned
deliberately, holding in check the agitation which
possessed her, to find herself confronted by the tall,
preeminently modern and mundane, figure of Ludovic
Quayle. Honoria gave herself a little shake of
uncontrollable impatience. For less than twopence-halfpenny
she could have given the very gentlemanlike intruder
a shake too! He let her down with a bump, so to
speak, from regions mysterious and supernal, to regions
altogether social and of this world worldly.
And yet she knew that such feelings were not a little
hard and unjust as entertained towards poor Mr. Quayle.
The young man, in any case, was happily
ignorant of having offended. He sauntered out
on to the bridge, hat in hand, his head a trifle on
one side, his long neck directed slightly forward,
his expression that of polite and intimate amusement but
whether amusement at his own, or his fellow-creatures’
expense, it would have been difficult to declare.
“At last, I find you, my dear
Miss St. Quentin,” he said. “And I
have sought for you as for lost treasure. Forgive
a biblical form of address a reminiscence
merely of my father’s morning ministrations to
my unmarried sisters, the footmen, and the maids.
He reads them the most surprising little histories
at times, which make me positively blush but
that’s a detail. To account for my invasion
of your idyllic solitude I learned incidentally
you proposed coming here from Ormiston this week.
I thought I would venture on an early attempt to find
you. But I drew the house blank, though assisted
by Winter the terrace also blank.
Then from the troco-ground I beheld that which looked
promising, coquetting with Dickie’s yearlings.
So I followed on to know my father and
the maids again followed on to to
my reward.”
Mr. Quayle stood directly in front
of her. He spoke with admirable urbanity, yet
with even greater rapidity than usual. His beautifully
formed mouth pursed itself up between the sentences,
with that effect of indulgent superiority which was
at once so attractive and so excessively provoking.
But, for all that, Honoria perceived that, for once
in his life, the young man was distinctly, not to say
acutely, nervous.
“The reward will be limited
I’m afraid,” she replied, “for my
temper is unaccountably out of sorts this afternoon.”
“And, if one may make bold to
inquire, why out of sorts, dear Miss St. Quentin?”
He sat down on the parapet near her,
crossed his legs, and fell to nursing his left knee.
The woman of the black bodice went up across the pale
stubble to her companions. She talked to them,
nodding her head in the direction of the bridge.
“I have promised to do a certain
thing, and having promised, of course I must do it.”
Honoria looked away towards the harvesters
up there among the gold of the corn.
“And yet, now I have committed
myself, thinking it over I find I dislike doing it
warmly.”
“The statement of the case is
just a trifle vague,” Mr. Quayle remarked.
“But if one may brave a suggestion supersede
a first duty by a second and, of course, a greater.
With a little exercise of imagination, a little good-will,
a little assistance from a true friend thrown in perhaps,
it is generally quite possible to manage that, I think.”
“And you are prepared to play
the part of the true friend?”
“Undoubtedly.”
“Then go to Cairo for the winter
with Evelyn Tobermory. You must take no low gowns ah!
poor little soul, it is pathetic, though she’s
forbidden to wear them. And let me
stay here!” Honoria said.
Ludovic gazed at his hands as they
clasped his knee, then he looked sideways at his companion.
“Here, meaning meaning
Brockhurst, dear Miss St. Quentin?” he asked
very sweetly.
“Meaning England,” she declared.
“England? ah! really.
That pleases me better. Patriotism is an excellent
virtue. The remark is not a wholly original one,
but it comes in handy just now, all the same.”
The young lady’s head went up.
Her face straightened. She was displeased.
Turning sideways, she leaned both hands on the stonework
and stared down into the water. But speedily she
repented.
“See how the fish rise,”
she said. “It really is a pity one hasn’t
a fly-rod.”
“I was under the impression
you once told me that you objected to taking life,
except in self-defense or for purposes of commissariat.
The trout would almost certainly be muddy. And
I am quite unconscious of being exposed to any danger at
least from the trout.”
Miss St. Quentin kept her eyes fixed upon the water.
“I told you my temper was out of sorts,”
she said.
“Is that a warning?” Ludovic inquired,
with the utmost mildness.
Honoria was busy feeling in her jacket
pockets. At the bottom of them a few crumbs remained.
She emptied these on to the surface of the water,
by the simple expedient of turning the pockets inside
out.
“I know nothing about warnings,”
she said. “I state a plain fact. You
can make of it what you please.”
The young man rose leisurely from
his place, sauntered across the roadway, and stood
with his back to her, looking down the valley.
The harvesters, their meal finished, moved away towards
the further side of the great corn-field. The
women followed them slowly, gleaning as they went.
It was very quiet. And again there came to Honoria
that ache of longing for the but-half-disclosed glory
and fulness of life. It was there, an actuality could
she but find it, had she but the courage and the wit.
Then, from the open moorland beyond the park palings,
came the sound of horses trotting sharply. Ludovic
Quayle turned and recrossed the road. He smiled,
but his superfine manner, his effect of slight impertinence
were, for the moment, in abeyance.
“Miss St. Quentin,” he
said, “what is the use of fencing any longer?
I have done that which I engaged to do, namely, displayed
the patience of innumerable asses. And if
I may be pardoned mentioning such a thing the
years pass. Really they do. And I seem to
get no forwarder! My position becomes slightly
ludicrous.”
“I know it, I know it!” Honoria cried
penitently.
“That I am ludicrous?”
“No, no,” she protested,
“that I have been unreasonable and traded on
your forbearance, that I have done wrong in allowing
you to wait.”
“That you could not very well
help,” he said, “since I chose to wait.
And, indeed, I greatly preferred waiting as long as
there seemed to be a hope there was something anything,
in short to wait for.”
“Ah! but that is precisely what
I have never been sure about myself whether
there really was anything to wait for or not.”
She sat straight on the coping of
the parapet again. Her face bore the most engaging
expression. There was a certain softness in her
aspect to-day. She was less of a youth, a comrade,
so it seemed to Mr. Quayle, more distinctly, more
consciously a woman. But now, to the sound of
trotting horse-hoofs was added that of wheels.
With a clang the park gates were thrown open.
“And are you still uncertain?
In the back of your mind is there still a trifle of
doubt? If so, give me the benefit of it,”
the young man pleaded, half laughingly, half brokenly.
A carriage passed under the gray archway
of the red-brick and freestone lodges. Rapidly
it came on down the wide, smooth, string-coloured
road a space of neatly kept turf on either
side under the shade of the heavy-foliaged
elm trees. Mr. Quayle glanced at it, and paused
with raised eyebrows.
“I call you to witness that
I do not swear, dear Miss St. Quentin, though men
have been known to become blasphemous on slighter provocation
than this,” he said. “However, the
rather violently-approaching interruption will be
soon over, I hope and believe; since the driving is
that of Richard Calmady of Brockhurst when his temper like
your own being somewhat out of sorts, he,
as Jehu the son of Nimshi of old my father’s
morning ministrations to the maids again driveth
furiously.”
Then, with an air of humorous resignation,
his mouth working a little, his long neck directed
forward as in mildly-surprised inquiry, he stood watching
the approaching mail-phaeton. The wheels of it
made a hollow rumbling, the tramp of the horses was
impetuous, the pole-chains rattled, as it swung out
on to the bridge and drew up. The grooms whipped
down and ran round to the horses’ heads.
And these stood, a little extended, still and rigid
as of bronze, the red of their open nostrils and the
silver mounting of their harness very noticeable.
Lady Calmady called to Mr. Quayle. The young
man passed round at the back of the carriage, and,
standing on the far side of the roadway, talked with
her.
Honoria St. Quentin remained sitting
on the parapet of the bridge.
A singular disinclination to risk
any movement had come upon her. Not the present
situation in relation to Ludovic Quayle, but that other
situation of the but-half-disclosed glory, the new
and exquisite fulness of life oppressed her, penetrating
her whole being to the point of physical weakness.
Questioningly, yet with entire unself-consciousness,
she looked up at Richard Calmady. And he, from
the exalted height of the driving-seat, looked down
at her. A dark, cloth rug was wrapped tight round
him from the waist downward. It concealed the
high driving-iron against which his feet rested.
It concealed the strap which steadied him in his place.
His person appeared finely proportioned. His
head and face were surprisingly handsome seen thus
from below though it must be conceded the
expression of the latter was very far from angelic.
“You were well advised to stay
at home, Honoria,” he said. There was a
grating tone in his voice.
“The function was even more
distinguished for dulness than you expected?”
“On the contrary, it was not
in the least dull. It was actively objectionable,
ingeniously unpleasant. Whereas this ”
His face softened a little. He
glanced at the golden water and cornland, the lush
green of the paddock, the rich, massive colouring of
woodland and sky. Honoria glanced at it likewise,
and, so doing, rose to her feet. That nostalgia
of things new and glorious ached in her. Yet
the pain of it had a strange and intimate charm, making
it unlike any pain she had ever yet felt. It
hurt her very really, it made her weak, yet she would
not have had it cease.
“Yes, it is all very lovely, isn’t it?”
she said.
She laid her hand on the folded leather
of the carriage hood. Again she looked up.
“It is a good deal to have this always your
own, to come back to, Richard.”
She spoke sadly, almost unwillingly.
Dickie did not answer, but he looked down, a certain
violence and energy very evident in him, his blue
eyes hard, and, in the depth of them, desolate as the
sky of a winter night. Calmly, yet in a way desperately,
as those who dare inquiry beyond the range of permitted
human speech, the young man and woman looked at one
another. Lady Calmady’s sweet voice, meanwhile,
went on in kindly question. Ludovic Quayle’s
in well-placed, slightly elaborate answer. The
near horse threw back its head and the pole-chains
rattled smartly. Honoria’s lips parted,
but the words, if words indeed there were, died in
her throat. She raised her hands, as though putting
a tangible and actual presence away from her.
She did not change colour, but for the moment her
delicate features appeared thickened, as by a rush
of blood. She was almost plain. Yet the effect
was inexpressibly touching. It was as though she
had received some mysterious injury which she was
dumb, incapable to express. She let her hands
drop at her sides, turned away and walked to the far
end of the bridge.
Suddenly Richard’s voice came to her, aggressive,
curt.
“Look out, Ludovic stand clear of
the wheel.”
The horses sprang forward, the grooms
scrambled up at the back, and the carriage swung away
from the brightness of the open to the gloom of the
avenue and up the long hill to the house.
Mr. Quayle contemplated it for a minute
or so and then, with an air of amused toleration,
he followed Miss St. Quentin across the bridge.
“Poor, dear Dickie Calmady,
poor, dear Dickie!” he said. “He attempts
the impossible. Fails to attain it as
a matter of course, and, meanwhile, misses the possible equally
as a matter of course. It is all very magnificent,
no doubt, but it is also not a little uncomfortable,
at times, for other people. However that
trifle of criticism is, after all, beside the mark.
Now that the whirlwind has ceased, Miss St. Quentin,
may the still, small voice of my own affairs presume
to make itself ”
But there he stopped abruptly.
“My dear friend,” he asked
in quick anxiety, “what is the matter?
Pardon me, but what on earth has happened to you?”
For Honoria leaned both elbows on
the low, carved pillar terminating the masonry of
the parapet. She covered her face with her hands.
And, incontestably, she shuddered queerly from head
to foot.
“Wait half a second,”
she said, in a stifled voice. “It’s
nothing I’m all right.”
Slowly she raised herself, and took
a long breath. Then she turned to her faithful
lover, showing him a brave, if somewhat drawn and tired
countenance.
“Ludovic,” she said gently,
“don’t, don’t please let us talk
any more about all that. And don’t, I entreat
you, wait any longer. If there was any uncertainty,
if there was a doubt in the back of my mind, it’s
gone. Forgive me this must sound brutal but
there is no more doubt. I can’t marry you.
I am sorry, horribly sorry for you have
been as charming to me as a man could be but
I shall never be able to marry you.”
Mr. Quayle’s expression retained
its sweetness, even its effect of amusement, though
his lips quivered, and his eyelids were a little red.
“I do not come up to the requirements
of the grand passion?” he said. “Alas!
poor me ”
“No, no, it isn’t that,” Honoria
protested.
“Ah, then,” he
paused, with an air of extraordinary intelligence “Perhaps
some one else does?”
“Yes,” she said simply,
“I don’t like it, but it’s there,
and so I’ve got to go through with it some
one else does.”
“In that case it is indeed hopeless!
I give it up,” he cried.
He moved aside and stood gazing at
the rising trout in the golden-brown water. Then
he raised his head sharply, as in obedience to a thought
suddenly occurring to him, and gazed at Brockhurst
House. The brightness of the western sky found
reflection in its many windows. A noble cheerfulness
seemed to pervade it, as it crowned the hillside,
amid its gardens and far-ranging woods.
“By all that’s” Mr.
Quayle began. But he repressed the exclamation,
and his expression was wholly friendly as he returned
to Miss St. Quentin.
“Good-bye,” he said. “I
am glad, honestly glad, you have found the grand passion,
though the object of it can’t, in the first blush
of the affair be altogether persona grata to
myself. But, to show that really I have a little
root of magnanimity in me, I am quite prepared to
undertake a winter at Cairo, plus Evelyn Tobemory and
minus low dresses, if that will enable you to stay
on here I mean in England, of
course.”
He pursed up his beautiful mouth,
he carried his head on one side with the liveliest
effect of provocation, as he held the young lady’s
hand while bidding her farewell.
“Out of my heart I hope you
will be very happy,” he said.
“I shall never be anything but
Honoria St. Quentin,” she answered rather hastily.
Then she softened, forgiving him. “Oh!
why,” she said, “why will you make me
quarrel with you just now, just at the last?”
“Because because ”
Mr. Quayle’s voice broke, though his superior
smile remained to him. “I think I
will not prolong the interview,” he said.
“To be frank with you, dear Miss St. Quentin,
I am about as miserable as is consonant with complete
sanity and excellent health. I do not propose
to blow my brains out, but I think yes,
thanks you appreciate the desirability
of that course of action too? I think it
is about time I went.”