There was sorrow at the Abbey House
deeper and wilder than had entered within those doors
for many a year. To Mrs. Tempest the shock of
her husband’s death was overwhelming. Her
easy, luxurious, monotonous life had been very sweet
to her, but her husband had been the dearest part
of her life. She had taken little trouble to express
her love for him, quite willing that he should take
it for granted. She had been self-indulgent and
vain; seeking her own ease, spending money and care
on her own adornment; but she had not forgotten to
make the Squire’s life pleasant to him also.
Newly-wedded lovers in the fair honeymoon-stage of
existence could not have been fonder of each other
than the middle-aged Squire and his somewhat faded
wife. His loving eyes had never seen Time’s
changes in Pamela Tempest’s pretty face, the
lessening brightness of the eyes, the duller tints
of the complexion, the loss of youth’s glow
and glory. To him she had always appeared the
most beautiful woman in the world.
And now the fondly-indulged wife could
do nothing but lie on her sofa and shed a rain of
incessant tears, and drink strong tea, which had lost
its power to comfort or exhilarate. She would
see no one. She could not even be roused to interest
herself in the mourning, though, with a handsome widow,
Pauline thought that ought to be all important.
“There are so many styles of
widows’ caps now, ma’am. You really
ought to see them, and choose for yourself,”
urged Pauline, an honest young Englishwoman, who had
begun life as Polly, but whom Mrs. Tempest had elevated
into Pauline.
“What does it matter, Pauline?
Take anything you like. He will not be there
to see.”
Here the ready tears flowed afresh.
That was the bitterest of all. That she should
look nice in her mourning, and Edward not be there
to praise her. In her feebleness she could not
imagine life without him. She would hear his
step at her door surely, his manly voice in the corridor.
She would awake from this awful dream, in which he
was not, and find him, and fall into his arms, and
sob out her grief upon his breast, and tell him all
she had suffered.
That was the dominant feeling in this
weak soul. He could not be gone for ever.
Yet the truth came back upon her in
hideous distinctness every now and then-came
back suddenly and awfully, like the swift revelation
of a desolate plague-stricken scene under a lightning
flash. He was gone. He was lying in his
coffin, in the dear old Tudor hall where they had sat
so cosily. Those dismal reiterated strokes of
the funeral-bell meant that his burial was at hand.
They were moving the coffin already, perhaps.
His place knew him no more.
She tottered to the darkened window,
lifted the edge of the blind, and looked out.
The funeral train was moving slowly along the carriage
sweep, through the winding shrubberied road. How
long, and black, and solemnly splendid the procession
looked. Everybody had loved and respected him.
It was a grand funeral. The thought of this general
homage gave a faint thrill of comfort to the widow’s
heart.
“My noble husband,” she
ejaculated. “Who could help loving you?”
It seemed to her only a little while
ago that she had driven up to the Tudor porch for
the first time after her happy honeymoon, when she
was in the bloom of youth and beauty, and life was
like a schoolgirl’s happy dream.
“How short life is,” she
sobbed; “how cruelly short for those who are
happy!”
With Violet grief was no less passionate;
but it did not find its sole vent in tears. The
stronger soul was in rebellion against Providence.
She kept aloof from her mother in the time of sorrow.
What could they say to each other? They could
only cry together. Violet shut herself in her
room, and refused to see anyone, except patient Miss
McCroke, who was always bringing her cups of tea,
or basins of arrowroot, trying to coax her to take
some kind of nourishment, dabbing her hot forehead
with eau-de-Cologne-doing all
those fussy little kindnesses which are so acutely
aggravating in a great sorrow.
“Let me lie on the ground alone,
and think of him, and wail for him.”
That is what Violet Tempest would
have said, if she could have expressed her desire
clearly.
Roderick Vawdrey went back to the
Abbey House after the funeral, and contrived to see
Miss McCroke, who was full of sympathy for everybody.
“Do let me see Violet, that’s
a dear creature,” he said. “I can’t
tell you how unhappy I am about her. I can’t
get her face out of my thoughts, as I saw it that
dreadful night when I led her horse home-the
wild sad eyes, the white lips.”
“She is not fit to see anyone,”
said Miss McCroke; “but perhaps it might rouse
her a little to see you.”
Miss McCroke had an idea that all
mourners ought to be roused; that much indulgence
in grief for the dead was reprehensible.
“Yes,” answered Rorie
eagerly, “she would see me, I know. We are
like brother and sister.”
“Come into the schoolroom,”
said the governess, “and I’ll see what
I can do.”
The schoolroom was Vixen’s own
particular den, and was not a bit like the popular
idea of a schoolroom.
It was a pretty little room, with
a high wooden dado, painted olive green, and a high-art
paper of amazing ugliness, whereon brown and red storks
disported themselves on a dull green ground. The
high-art paper was enlivened with horsey caricatures
by Leech, and a menagerie of pottery animals on various
brackets.
A pot or a pan had been stuck into
every corner that would hold one. There were
desks, and boxes, and wickerwork baskets of every shape
and kind, a dwarf oak bookcase on either side of the
fireplace, with the books all at sixes and sevens,
leaning against each other as if they were intoxicated.
The broad mantelpiece presented a confusion of photographs,
cups and saucers, violet jars, and Dresden shepherdesses.
Over the quaint old Venetian glass dangled Vixen’s
first trophy, the fox’s brush, tied with a scarlet
ribbon. There were no birds, or squirrels, or
dormice, for Vixen was too fond of the animal creation
to shut her favourites up in cages; but there was
a black bearskin spread in a corner for Argus to lie
upon. In the wide low windows there were two
banks of bright autumn flowers, pompons and dwarf roses,
mignonette and verónica.
Miss McCroke drew up the blind, and stirred the fire.
“I’ll go and ask her to come,” she
said.
“Do, like a dear,” said Rorie.
He paced the room while she was gone,
full of sadness. He had been very fond of the
Squire, and that awfully sudden death, an apopleptic
seizure, instantaneous as a thunderbolt, had impressed
him very painfully. It was his first experience
of the kind, and it was infinitely terrible to him.
It seemed to him a long time before Vixen appeared,
and then the door opened, and a slim black figure came
in, a white fixed face looked at him piteously, with
tearless eyes made big by a great grief. She
came leaning on Miss McCroke, as if she could hardly
walk unaided. The face was stranger to him than
an altogether unknown face. It was Violet Tempest
with all the vivid joyous life gone out of her, like
a lamp that is extinguished.
He took her cold trembling hands and
drew her gently to a chair, and sat down beside her.
“I wanted so much to see you,
dear,” he said, “to tell you how sorry
we all are for you-my mother, my aunt,
and cousin”-Violet gave a faint shiver-“all
of us. The Duke liked your dear father so much.
It was quite a shock to him.”
“You are very good,” Violet said mechanically.
She sat by him, pale and still as
marble, looking at the ground. His voice and
presence impressed her but faintly, like something
a long way off. She was thinking of her dead
father. She saw nothing but that one awful figure.
They had laid him in his grave by this time. The
cold cruel earth had fallen upon him and hidden him
for ever from the light; he was shut away for ever
from the fair glad world; he who had been so bright
and cheerful, whose presence had carried gladness everywhere.
“Is the funeral quite over?”
she asked presently, without lifting her heavy eyelids.
“Yes, dear. It was a noble
funeral. Everybody was there-rich and
poor. Everybody loved him.”
“The poor most of all,”
she said. “I know how good he was to them.”
Somebody knocked at the door and asked
something of Miss McCroke, which obliged the governess
to leave her pupil. Roderick was glad at her
departure, That substantial figure in its new black
dress had been a hinderance to freedom of conversation.
Miss McCroke’s absence did not
loosen Violet’s tongue. She sat looking
at the ground, and was dumb. That silent grief
was very awful to Roderick.
“Violet, why don’t you
talk to me about your sorrow?” he said.
“Surely you can trust me-your friend-your
brother!”
That last word stung her into speech.
The hazel eyes shot a swift angry glance at him.
“You have no right to call yourself
that,” she said, “you have not treated
me like a sister.”
“How not, dear?”
“You should have told me about
your engagement-that you were going to
marry Lady Mabel Ashbourne.”
“Should I?” exclaimed
Rorie, amazed. “If I had I should have told
you an arrant falsehood. I am not engaged to
my cousin Mabel. I am not going to marry her.”
“Oh, it doesn’t matter
in the least whether you are or not,” returned
Vixen, with a weary air. “Papa is dead,
and trifles like that can’t affect me now.
But I felt it unkind of you at the time I heard it.”
“And where and how did you hear
this wonderful news, Vixen?” asked Rorie, very
pleased to get her thoughts away from her grief, were
it only for a minute.
“Mamma told me that everybody
said you were engaged, and that the fact was quite
obvious.”
“What everybody says, and I
what is quite obvious, is very seldom true, Violet.
You may take that for a first principle in social science.
I am not engaged to anyone. I have no thought
of getting married-for the next three years.”
Vixen received this information with
chilling silence. She would have been very glad
to hear it, perhaps, a week ago-at which
time she had found it a sore thing to think of her
old playfellow as Lady Mabel’s affianced husband-but
it mattered nothing now. The larger grief had
swallowed up all smaller grievances. Roderick
Vawdrey had receded into remote distance. He
was no one, nothing, in a world that was suddenly
emptied of all delight.
“What are you going to do, dear?”
asked Roderick presently. “If you shut
yourself up in your room and abandon yourself to grief,
you will make yourself very ill. You ought to
go away somewhere for a little while.”
“For ever!” exclaimed
Vixen passionately. “Do you think I can
ever endure this dear home without papa? There
is not a thing I look at that doesn’t speak
to me of him. The dogs, the horses. I almost
hate them for reminding me so cruelly. Yea, we
are going away at once, I believe. Mamma said
so when I saw her this morning.”
“Your poor mamma! How does she bear her
grief?”
“Oh, she cries, and cries, and
cries,” said Vixen, rather contemptuously.
“I think it comforts her to cry. I can’t
cry. I am like the dogs. If I did not restrain
myself with all my might I should howl. I should
like to lie on the ground outside his door-just
as his dog does-and to refuse to eat or
drink till I died.”
“But, dear Violet, you are not
alone in the world. You have your poor mamma
to think of.”
“Mamma-yes.
I am sorry for her, of course. But she is only
like a lay-figure in my life. Papa was everything.”
“Do you know where your mamma is going to take
you?”
“No; I neither know nor care.
It will be to a house with four walls and a roof,
I suppose. It will be all the same to me wherever
it is.”
What could Roderick say? It was
too soon to talk about hope or comfort. His heart
was rent by this dull silent grief; but he could do
nothing except sit there silently by Vixen’s
side with her cold unresponsive hands held in his.
Miss McCroke came back presently,
followed by a maid carrying a pretty little Japanese
tea-tray.
“I have just been giving your
poor mamma a cup of tea, Violet,” said the governess.
“Mr. Clements has been telling her about the
will, and it has been quite too much for her.
She was almost hysterical. But she’s better
now, poor dear. And now we’ll all have some
tea. Bring the table to the fire, Mr. Vawdrey,
please, and let us make ourselves comfortable,”
concluded Miss McCroke, with an assumption of mild
cheerfulness.
Perhaps there is not in all nature
so cheerful a thing as a good sea-coal fire, with
a log of beechwood on the top of the coals. It
will be cheerful in the face of affliction. It
sends out its gushes of warmth and brightness, its
gay little arrowy flames that appear and disappear
like elves dancing their midnight waltzes on a barren
moor. It seems to say: “Look at me
and be comforted! Look at me and hope! So
from the dull blackness of sorrow rise the many coloured
lights of new-born joy.”
Vixen suffered her chair to be brought
near that cheery fire, and just then Argus crept into
the room and nestled at her knee. Roderick seated
himself at the other side of the hearth-a
bright little fire-place with its border of high-art
tiles, illuminated with the story of “Mary,
Mary, quite contrary,” after quaintly mediaeval
designs, by Mr. Stacey Marks. Miss McCroke poured
out the tea in the quaint old red and blue Worcester
cups, and valiantly sustained that assumption of cheerfulness.
She would not have permitted herself to smile yesterday;
but now the funeral was over, the blinds were drawn
up, and a mild cheerfulness was allowable.
“If you would condescend to
tell me where you are going, Vixen, I might contrive
to come there too, by-and-by. We could have some
rides together. You’ll take Arion, of course.”
“I don’t know that I shall
ever ride again,” answered Violet with a shudder.
Could she ever forget that awful ride?
Roderick hated himself for his foolish speech.
“Violet will have to devote
herself to her studies very assiduously for the next
two years,” said Miss McCroke. “She
is much more backwards than I like a pupil of mine
to be at sixteen.”
“Yes, I am going to grind at
three or four foreign grammars, and to give my mind
to latitude and longitude, and fractions, and decimals,”
said Vixen, with a bitter laugh. “Isn’t
that cheering?”
“Whatever you do, Vixen,”
cried Roderick earnestly, “don’t be a
paradigm.”
“What’s that?”
“An example, a model, a paragon,
a perfect woman nobly planned, &c. Be anything
but that, Vixen, if you love me.”
“I don’t think there is
much fear of any of us being perfect,” said
Miss McCroke severely. “Imperfection is
more in the line of humanity.”
“Do you think so?” interrogated
Rorie. “I find there is a great deal too
much perfection in this world, too many faultless people-I
hate them.”
“Isn’t that a confession
of faultiness on your side?” suggested Miss
McCroke.
“It may be. But it’s the truth.”
Vixen sat with dry hollow eyes staring
at the fire. She had heard their talk as if it
had been the idle voices of strangers sounding in the
distance, ever so far away. Argus nestled closer
and closer at her knee, and she patted his big blunt
head absently, with a dim sense of comfort in this
brute love, which she had not derived from human sympathy.
Miss McCroke went on talking and arguing
with Rorie, with a view to sustaining that fictitious
cheerfulness which might beguile Vixen into brief
oblivion of her griefs. But Vixen was not so to
be beguiled. She was with them, but not of them.
Her haggard eyes stared at the fire, and her thoughts
were with the dear dead father, over whose newly-filled
grave the evening shadows were closing.