Tims was proud of the combined style
and economy of her dress. She was constantly
discovering and revealing to an unappreciative world
the existence of superb tailors who made amazingly
cheap dresses. For two years she had been vainly
advising her friends to go to the man who had made
her the frock she still wore for morning; a skirt and
coat of tweed with a large green check in it, a green
waistcoat with gilt buttons, and green gaiters to
match. In this costume and coiffed with a man’s
wig, of the vague color peculiar to such articles,
Tims came down at her usual hour, prepared to ask
Milly what she thought of hypnotism now. But there
was no Milly over whom to enjoy this petty triumph.
She climbed to the top story as soon as breakfast
was over, and entering Milly’s room, found her
patient still sleeping soundly, low and straight in
the bed, just as she had been the preceding night.
She was breathing regularly and her face looked peaceful,
although her eyes were still stained with tears.
The servant came in as Tims was looking at her.
“I’ve tried to wake Miss
Flaxman, miss,” she said. “She’s
always very particular as I should wake her, but she
was that sound asleep this morning, I ’adn’t
the ’eart to go on talking. Poor young lady!
I expect she’s pretty well wore out, working
away at her books, early and late, the way she does.”
“Better leave her alone, Emma,”
agreed Tims. “I’ll let Miss Burt know
about it.”
Miss Burt was glad to hear Milly Flaxman
was oversleeping herself. She had not been satisfied
with the girl’s appearance of late, and feared
Milly worked too hard and had bad nights.
Tims had to go out at ten o’clock
and did not return until luncheon-time. She went
up to Milly’s room and knocked at the door.
As before, there was no answer. She went in and
saw the girl still sound asleep, straight and motionless
in the bed. Her appearance was so healthy and
natural that it was absurd to feel uneasy at the length
of her slumber, yet remembering the triumph of hypnotism,
Tims did feel a little uneasy. She spoke to Miss
Burt again about Milly’s prolonged sleep, but
Miss Burt was not inclined to be anxious. She
had strictly forbidden Tims to hypnotize or
as she called it, mesmerize any one in
the house, so that Tims said no more on the subject.
She was working at the Museum in the early part of
the afternoon, only leaving it when the light began
to fail. But after work she went straight back
to Ascham. Milly was still asleep, but she had
slightly shifted her position, and altogether there
was something about her aspect which suggested a slumber
less profound than before. Tims leaned over her
and spoke softly:
“Wake up, M., wake up!
You’ve been asleep quite long enough.”
Milly’s body twitched a little.
A responsive flicker which was almost a convulsion,
passed over her face; but she did not awake. It
was evident, however, that her spirit was gradually
floating up to the surface from the depths of oblivion
in which it had been submerged. Tims took off
her Tam-o’-Shanter and ulster, and revealed
in the simple elegance of the tweed frock with green
waistcoat and gaiters, put the kettle on the fire.
Then she went down-stairs to fetch some bread and butter
and an egg, wherewith to feed the patient when she
awoke.
She had not long left the room when
the slumberer’s eyes opened gradually and stared
with the fixity of semi-consciousness at a stem of
blossoming jessamine in the wall-paper. Then she
slowly stretched her arms above her head until some
inches of wrist, slight and round and white, emerged
from the strictly plain night-gown sleeve. So
she lay, till suddenly, almost with a start, she pulled
herself up and looked about her. The gaze of
her wide-open eyes travelled questioningly around
the quiet-toned room which two windows at right angles
to each other still kept light with the reflection
of a yellow winter sunset. She pushed the bedclothes
down, dropped first one bare white foot, then the
other to the ground and looked doubtfully at a pair
of worn felt slippers which were placed beside the
bed, before slipping her feet into them. With
the same air as of one assuming garments which do not
belong to her, she put on the faded blue flannel dressing-gown.
Then she walked to the southern window. None
of the glories of Oxford were visible from it; only
the bare branches of trees through which appeared a
huddle of somewhat sordid looking roofs and the unimposing
spire of St. Aloysius. With the same air, questioning
yet as in a dream, she turned to the western window,
which was open. Below, in its wintry dulness,
lay the garden of the College, bounded by an old gray
wall which divided it from the straggling street;
beyond that, a mass of slate roofs. But a certain
glory was on the slate roofs and all the garden that
was not in shadow. For away over Wytham, where
the blue vapor floated in the folds of the hills,
blending imperceptibly with the deep brown of the leafless
woods, sunset had lifted a wide curtain of cloud and
showed between the gloom of heaven and earth, a long
straight pool of yellow light.
She leaned out of the window.
A mild fresh air which seemed to be pouring over the
earth through that rift in heaven which the sunset
had made, breathed freshly on her face and the yellow
light shone on her amber hair, which lay on her shoulders
about the length of the hair of an angel in some old
Florentine picture.
Miss Burt in galoshes and with a wrap
over her head was coming up the garden. She caught
sight of that vision of gold and pale blue in the
window and smiled and waved her hand to Milly Flaxman.
The vision withdrew, trembling slightly as though
with cold, and closed the window.
Tims came in, carrying a boiled egg
and a plate of bread and butter. Tims put down
the egg-cup and the plate on the table before she relaxed
the wrinkle of carefulness and grinned triumphantly
at her patient.
“Well, old girl,” she
asked; “what do you say to hypnotism now?
Put you to sleep, right enough, anyhow.
Know what time it is?”
The awakened sleeper made a few steps
forward, leaned her hands on the table, on the other
side of which Tims stood, and gazed upon her with
startling intentness. Then she began to speak
in a rapid, urgent voice. Her words were in themselves
ordinary and distinct, yet what she said was entirely
incomprehensible, a nightmare of speech, as though
some talking-machine had gone wrong and was pouring
out a miscellaneous stock of verbs, nouns, adjectives
and the rest without meaning or cohesion. Certain
words reappeared with frequency, but Tims had a feeling
that the speaker did not attach their usual meaning
to them. This travesty of language went on for
what appeared to the transfixed and terrified listener
quite a long time. At length the serious, almost
tragic, babbler, meeting with no response save the
staring horror of Tims’s too expressive countenance,
ended with a supplicating smile and a glance which
contrived to be charged at once with pathos and coquetry.
This smile, this look, were so totally unlike any
expression which Tims had ever seen on Milly’s
countenance that they heightened her feeling of nightmare.
But she pulled herself together and determined to show
presence of mind. She had already placed a basket-chair
by the fire ready for her patient, and now gently
but firmly led Milly to it.
“Sit down, Milly,” she
said and the use of her friend’s proper
name showed that she felt the occasion to be serious “and
don’t speak again till you’ve had some
tea. Your head will be clearer presently, it’s
a bit confused now, you know.”
The stranger Milly, still so unlike
the Milly of Tims’s intimacy, far from exerting
the unnatural strength of a maniac, passively permitted
herself to be placed in the chair and listened to what
Tims was saying with the puzzled intentness of a child
or a foreigner, trying to understand. She laid
her head back in its little cloud of amber hair, and
looked up at Tims, who, frowning portentously, once
more with lifted finger enjoined silence. Tims
then concealing her agitation behind a cupboard-door,
reached down the tea-things. By some strange accident
the methodical Milly’s teapot was absent from
its place; a phenomenon for which Tims was thankful,
as it imposed upon her the necessity of leaving her
patient for a few minutes. Shaking her finger
again at Milly still more emphatically, she went out,
and locked the door behind her. After a moment’s
thought, she reluctantly decided to report the matter
to Miss Burt. But Miss Burt was closeted with
the treasurer and an architect from London, and was
on no account to be disturbed. So Tims went up
to her own room and rapidly revolved the situation.
She was certain that Milly was not physically ill;
on the contrary, she looked much better than she had
looked on the previous day. This curious affection
of the speech-memory might be hysterical, as her sobbing
the night before had been, or it might be connected
with some little failure of circulation in the brain;
an explanation, perhaps, pointed to by the extraordinary
length of her sleep. Anyhow, Tims felt sceptical
as to a doctor being of any use.
She went to her cupboard to take out
her own teapot, and her eye fell upon a small medicine
bottle marked “Brandy.” Milly was
a convinced teetotaller; all the more reason, thought
Tims, why a dose of alcohol should give her nerves
and circulation a fillip, only she must not know of
it, or she would certainly refuse the remedy.
Pocketing the bottle and flourishing
the teapot, Tims mounted again to Milly’s room.
Her patient, who had spent the time wandering about
the room and examining everything in it, as well as
she could in the fast-falling twilight, resumed her
position in the chair as soon as she heard a step
in the passage, and greeted her returning keeper with
an attractive smile. Tims uttering words of commendation,
slyly poured some brandy into one of the large teacups
before lighting the candles.
“Now, my girl,” she said,
when she had made the tea, “drink this, and
you’ll feel better.”
Milly leaned forward, her round chin
on her hand, and looked intently at the tea-service
and at the proffered cup. Then she suddenly raised
her head, clapped her hands softly, and cried in a
tone of delighted discovery, “Tea!”
“Excuse me,” she added,
taking the cup with a little bow; and in two seconds
had helped herself to three lumps of sugar. Tims
was surprised, for Milly never took sugar in her tea.
“That’s right, M., you’re
going along well!” cried Tims, standing on the
hearth-rug, with one hand under her short coat-tails,
while she gulped her own tea, and ate two pieces of
bread and butter put together. Milly ate hers
and drank her tea daintily, looking meanwhile at her
companion with wonder which gradually gave way to
amusement. At length leaning forward with a dimpling
smile, she interrogated very politely and quite lucidly.
“Pardon me, sir, you are ?
Ah, the doctor, no doubt! My poor head, you see!”
and she drew her fingers across her forehead.
Tims started, and grabbed her wig,
as was her wont in moments of agitation. She
stood transfixed, the teacup at a dangerous angle in
her extended hand.
“Good God!” she ejaculated.
“You are mad and no mistake, my poor old girl.”
The “old girl” made a
supreme effort to contain herself, and then burst
into a pretty, rippling laugh in which there was nothing
familiar to Tims’s ear. She rose from her
chair vivaciously and took the cup from Tims’s
hand, to deposit it in safety on the chimney piece.
“How silly I was!” she
cried, regarding Tims sparklingly. “Do you
know I was not quite sure whether you were a man or
a woman. Of course I see now, and I’m so
glad. I do like men, you know, so much better
than women.”
“Milly,” retorted Tims,
sternly, settling her wig. “You are mad,
you need not be bad as well. But it’s my
own fault for giving you that brandy. You know
as well as I do that I hate men nasty, selfish,
guzzling, conceited, guffawing brutes! I never
wanted to speak to a man in my life, except in the
way of business.”
Milly waved her amber head gracefully
for a moment as though at a loss, then returned playfully,
“That must be because the women spoil you so.”
Tims smiled sardonically; but regaining
her sense of the situation, out of which she had been
momentarily shocked, applied herself to the problem
of calling back poor Milly’s wandering mind.
“Sit down, my girl,” she
said, abruptly, putting her arm around Milly’s
body, so soft and slender in the scanty folds of the
blue dressing-gown. Milly obeyed precipitately.
Then drawing a small chair close to her, Tims said
in gentle tones which could hardly have been recognized
as hers:
“M., darling, do you know where you are?”
Milly turned on her a face from which
the unnatural vivacity had fallen like a mask; the
appealing face of a poor lost child.
“Am I am I in
a maison de santé?” she asked tremulously,
fixing her blue eyes on Tims, full of piteous anxiety.
“A lunatic asylum? Certainly
not,” replied Tims. “Now don’t
begin crying again, old girl. That’s how
the trouble began.”
“Was it?” asked Milly,
dreamily. “I thought it was ”
she paused, frowning before her in the air, as though
trying to pursue with her bodily vision some recollection
which had flickered across her consciousness only
to disappear.
“Well, never mind that now,”
said Tims, hastily; “get your bearings right
first. You’re in Ascham College.”
“A College!” repeated
Milly vaguely, but in a moment her face brightened,
“I know. A place of learning where they
have professors and things. Are you a professor?”
“No, I’m a student. So are you.”
Milly looked fixedly at Tims, then
smiled a melancholy smile. “I see,”
she said, “we’re both studying medicine medicine
for the mind.” She stood up, locked her
hands behind her head in her soft hair and wailed
miserably. “Oh, why won’t some kind
person come and tell me where I am, and what I was
before I came here?”
Tears of wounded feelings sprang to
Tims’s eyes. “Milly, my beauty!”
she cried despairingly, “I’m trying to
be kind to you and tell you everything you want to
know. Your name is Mildred Flaxman and you used
to live in Oxford here, but now all your people have
gone to Australia because your father’s got
a deanery there.”
“Have they left me here, mad
and by myself?” asked Milly; “have I no
one to look after me, no one to give me a home?”
“I suppose Lady Thomson or the
Fletchers would,” returned Tims, “but you
haven’t wanted one. You’ve been quite
happy at Ascham. Do try and remember. Can’t
you remember getting your First in Mods. and how you’ve
been working to get one in Greats? Your brain’s
been right enough until to-day, old girl, and it will
be again. I expect it’s a case of collapse
of memory from overwork. Things will come back
to you soon and I’ll help you all I can.
Do try and recollect me Tims.”
There was an unmistakable choke in Tims’s voice.
“We have been such chums. The others are
all pretty nasty to me sometimes they seem
to think I’m a grinning, wooden Aunt Sally,
stuck up for them to shy jokes at. But you’ve
never once been nasty to me, M., and there’s
precious few things I wouldn’t do to help you.
So don’t go talking to me as though there weren’t
any one in the world who cared a brass farthing about
you.”
“I’m sure I’m most
thankful to find I have got some one here who cares
about me,” returned Milly, meekly, passing her
hand across her eyes for lack of a handkerchief.
“You see, it’s dreadful for me to be like
this. I seem to know what things are, and yet
I don’t know. A little while ago it seemed
to me I was just going to remember something something
different from what you’ve told me. But
now it’s all gone again. Oh, please give
me a handkerchief!”
Tims opened one of Milly’s tidy
drawers and sought for a handkerchief. When she
had found it, Milly was standing before the high chimney-piece,
over which hung a long, low mirror about a foot wide
and divided into three parts by miniature pilasters
of tarnished gilt. The mirror, too, was tarnished
here and there, but it had been a good glass and showed
undistorted the blue Delft jars on the mantel-shelf,
glimpses of flickering firelight in the room, amber
hair and the tear-bedewed roses of a flushed young
face. Suddenly Milly thrust the jars aside, seized
the candle from the table, and, holding it near her
face, looked intently, anxiously in the glass.
The anxiety vanished in a moment, but not the intentness.
She went on looking. Tims had always perceived
Milly’s beauty which had an odd way
of slipping through the world unobserved but
had never seen her look so lovely as now, her eyes
wide and brilliant, and her upper lip curved rosily
over a shining glimpse of her white teeth.
Beauty had an extraordinary fascination
for Tims, poor step-child of nature! Now she
stood looking at the reflection of Milly without noticing
how in the background her own strange, wizened face
peered dim and grotesque from the tarnished mirror,
like the picture of a witch or a goblin behind the
fair semblance of some princess in a fairy tale.
“I do remember myself partly,”
said Milly, doubtfully; “and yet somehow
not quite. I suppose I shall remember you and
this queer place soon, if they don’t put me
into a mad-house at once.”
“They sha’n’t,”
said Tims, decisively. “Trust to me, M.,
and I’ll see you through. But I’m
afraid you’ll have to give up all thought of
your First.”
“My what,” asked Milly, turning round
inquiringly.
“Your First Class, your place,
you know, in the Final Honors School, Lit. Hum.,
the biggest examination of the lot.”
“Do I want it very much, my First?”
“Want it? I should just think you do want
it!”
Milly stared at the fire for a minute,
warming one foot before she spoke again. Then:
“How funny of me!” she observed, meditatively.