About noon on Friday Milly Flaxman
awoke. She lay very quiet, sleepy and comfortable,
her eyes fixed idly on a curve in the jessamine-pattern
paper opposite her bed. The windows were wide
open, the blinds down and every now and again flapping
softly, as a capricious little breeze went by, whispering
through the leafy trees outside. There seemed
nothing unusual in that; she always slept with her
windows open. But as her senses emerged from
those mists which lie on the surface of the river of
sleep, she was conscious of a balmy warmth in the room,
of an impression of bright sunshine behind the dark
blinds, and of noises from the streets reaching her
with a kind of sharpness associated with sunshine.
She sat up, looked at her watch, and was shocked to
find how late she had slept. She must have missed
a lecture. Then the recollection of the dinner-party
at the Fletchers’, the verdict of Mr. Stewart
on her chance of a First, and her own hysterical outburst
returned to her, overpowering all outward impressions.
She felt calm and well now, but unhappy and ashamed
of herself. She put her feet out of bed and looked
round mechanically for her dressing-gown and slippers.
Their absence was unimportant, for no sense of chill
struck through her thin night-gown to her warm body,
and going to the window, she drew up the blind.
The high June sun struck full upon
her, hot and dazzling, but not so dazzling that she
could not see the row of garden trees through whose
bare branches she had yesterday descried the squalid
roofs of the town. They were spreading now in
a thick screen of fresh green leaves. She leaned
out, as though further investigation might explain
the phenomenon, and saw a red standard rose in full
flower under her window. The thing was exactly
like a dream, and she tried to wake up but could not.
She was panic-stricken and trembling. Had she
been very, very ill? Was it possible to be unconscious
for six months? She looked at herself in a dressing-glass
near the window, which she had never placed there,
and saw that she was pale and had dark marks under
her eyes, but not more so than had been the case in
that yesterday so strangely and mysteriously removed
in time. Her slender white arms and throat were
as rounded as usual. And if she had been ill,
why was she left alone like this? She found a
dressing-gown not her own, and went on a voyage of
discovery. But the other rooms on her floor were
dismantled and tenantless. The girls were gone
and the servants were “cleaning” in a
distant part of the College. She felt incapable
of getting into bed again and waiting for some one
to come, so she began dressing herself with trembling
hands. Every detail increased the sense of strangeness.
There were a number of strange clothes, ball-dresses
and others, hanging in her cupboard, strange odds
and ends thrust confusedly into her bureau. She
found at length a blue cotton frock of her own, which
seemed just home from the wash. She had twisted
up her hair and was putting on the blue frock, when
she heard a step on the stairs, and paused with beating
heart. Who was coming? How would the mystery
be resolved? The door opened and Tims came in the
old Tims, wrinkled face, wig, and old straw hat on
one side as usual.
“Tims!” cried Milly, flying
towards her and speaking with pale lips. “Please,
please tell me what has happened? Have
I been very ill?” And she stared in Tims’s
face with a tragic mask of terror and anxiety.
“Now take it easy take
it easy, M., my girl!” cried Tims, giving her
a great squeeze and a clap on the shoulder. “I’m
jolly glad to see you back. But don’t let’s
have any more of your hysterics. No, never no
more!”
“Have I been away?” asked
Milly, her lips still trembling.
“I should think you had!”
exclaimed Tims. “But nobody knows it except
me. Don’t forget that. Here’s
a note for you from old B. Read it first or we shall
both forget all about it. She had to go away early
this morning.”
Milly opened the note and read:
“Dear Milly, I
am sorry not to say good-bye, but glad you are
sleeping off your fatigue. I want to tell you,
between ourselves, not to go on worrying about
the results of the Schools, as I think you are
doing, in spite of your pretences to the contrary.
I hear you have done at least one brilliant paper,
and although I, of course, know nothing certain,
I believe you and the College will have reason to
rejoice when the list comes out.
“Yours affectionately,
“Mary Burt.”
“What does it mean? oh,
what can it mean?” faltered Milly, holding out
the missive to Tims.
“It means you’ve been
in for Greats, my girl, and done first-rate. But
the strain’s been a bit too much for you, and
you’ve had another collapse of memory.
You had one in the end of November. You’ve
been uncommonly well ever since, and worked like a
Trojan, but you’ve not been quite your usual
self, and I’m glad you’ve come right again,
old girl. Let me tell you the whole business.”
Tims did so. She wanted social
tact, but she had the tact of the heart which made
her hide from Milly how very different, how much more
brilliant and attractive Milly the Second had been
than her normal self. She only made her friend
feel that the curious episode had entailed no disgrace,
but that somehow in her abnormal condition she had
done well in the Schools, and probably touched the
top of her ambition.
“But I don’t feel as though
it had been quite straightforward to hide it up so,”
said Milly. “I shall write and tell Miss
Burt and Aunt Beatrice, and tell the Fletchers when
I go to them.”
“You’ll do nothing of
the kind, you stupid,” snapped Tims. “You’ll
be simply giving me away if you do. What is the
good? It won’t happen again unless you’re
idiot enough to overwork yourself again. Very
likely not then; for, as an open-minded, scientific
woman, I believe it to have been a case of hypnotism,
and in France and the United States they’d have
thought it a very interesting one. But in England
people are so prejudiced they’d say you’d
simply been out of your mind; although that wouldn’t
prevent them from blaming me for hypnotizing you.”
While Tims spoke thus, there was a
knocking without, and a maid delivered a note for
Miss Flaxman. Milly held it in her hands and
studied it musingly before opening the envelope.
Her pale, troubled face colored and grew more serious.
Tims had not mentioned Ian Stewart, but Milly had
not forgotten him or his handwriting. Tims knew
it too. She restrained her excitement while Milly
turned her back and stood by the window reading the
note. She must have read them several times over,
the two sides of the sheet inscribed with Stewart’s
small, scholarly handwriting, before she turned her
transfigured face towards the anxiously expectant
Tims.
“Tims, dear,” she said
at length, smiling tremulously, and laying tremulous
hands on Tims’s two thin shoulders “dear
old Tims, why didn’t you tell me?”
“Tell you what?” asked
Tims, grinning delightedly. Milly threw her arms
round her friend’s neck and hid her happy tears
and blushes between Tims’s ear and shoulder.
“Mr. Stewart it seems
too good to be true he loves me, he really
does. He wants me to be his wife.”
Most girls would have hugged and kissed
Milly, and Tims did hug her, but instead of kissing
her, she banged and slapped her back and shoulders
hard all over, shaking the while with deep internal
chuckles. It hurt, but Milly did not mind, for
it was sympathy. Presently she drew herself away,
and wiping her damp eyes, said, smiling shyly:
“He’s never guessed how
much I care about him. I’m so glad.
He says he doesn’t wonder at my hesitation and
talks about others more worthy to love me. But
you know there isn’t any one except Mr. Toovey.
Poor Mr. Toovey! I do hope I haven’t behaved
very badly to him.”
“Never mind Toovey,” chuckled
Tims. “Anyhow, Milly, I’ve got a good
load off my mind. I didn’t half like having
put that other girl into your boots. However,
you’ve come back, and everything’s going
to be all right.”
“All right!” breathed
Milly. “Why, Tims, darling, I never thought
any one in the world could be half so happy as I am.”
And Tims left Milly to write the answer
for which Ian Stewart was so anxiously waiting.
The engagement proceeded after the
manner of engagements. No one was surprised at
it and every one was pleased. The little whirlpool
of talk that it created prevented Milly’s ignorance
of the events of the past six or seven months from
coming to the surface. She lay awake at night,
devising means of telling Ian about this strange blank
in her life. But she shrank from saying things
that might make him suspect her of an unsound mind.
She had plainly been sane enough in her abnormal state,
and there was no doubt of her sanity now. She
told him she had had since the autumn, and still had,
strange collapses of memory; and he said that quite
explained some peculiarities of her work. She
tried to talk to him about French experiments in hypnotism,
and how it was said sometimes to bring to light unsuspected
sides of a personality. But he laughed at hypnotism
as a mixture of fraud and hysteria. So with many
searchings of heart, she dropped the subject.
She was staying at the Fletchers’
and saw Ian every day. He was all that she could
wish as a lover, and it never occurred to her to ask
whether he felt all that he himself could have wished
as such. He was very fond of Milly and quite
content with her, but not perfectly content with himself.
He supposed he must at bottom be one of those ordinary
and rather contemptible men who care more for the
excitement of the chase than for the object of it.
But he felt sure he was really a very lucky fellow,
and determined not to give way to the self-analysis
which is always said to be the worst enemy of happiness.
Miss Flaxman had been the only woman
in for Greats, and as a favor she was taken first
in viva voce. The questions were directed
to probing her actual knowledge in places where she
had made one or two amazing blunders. But she
emerged triumphant, and went in good spirits to Clewes,
Aunt Beatrice’s country home in the North, whither
Ian Stewart shortly followed her. Beyond the
fact that she wore perforce and with shame, not having
money to buy others, frocks which Lady Thomson disapproved,
she was once more the adoring niece to whom her aunt
was accustomed. And Lady Thomson liked Ian.
She never expected men to share her fads.
In due time came the announcement
of the First, bringing almost as many congratulatory
letters as the engagement. And on August 2d Milly
sailed for Australia, where she was to spend two or
three months with her family.
In October the newspapers announced
that the marriage of Miss Mildred Beatrice Flaxman,
eldest daughter of the Dean of Stirling, South Australia,
with Mr. Ian Stewart, Fellow of Durham College, Oxford,
would take place at Oxford in the second week in December.