On their return to Oxford the young
couple were feted beyond the common. People who
had known Milly Flaxman in earlier days were surprised
to think how little they had noticed her beauty or
guessed what a fund of humor, what an extraordinary
charm, had lurked beneath the surface of her former
quiet, grave manner. The Master of Durham alone
refused to be surprised. He merely affirmed in
his short squeak that he had always admired Mrs. Stewart
very much. She was now frequently to be found
in the place of honor at those dinners of his, where
distinguished visitors from London brought the stir
and color of the great world into the austere groves,
the rarefied atmosphere of Academe.
Wherever she appeared, the vivid personality
of Mrs. Stewart made a kind of effervescence which
that indescribable entity, a vivid personality, is
sure to keep fizzing about it. She was devoutly
admired, fiercely criticised, and asked everywhere.
It is true she had quite given up her music, but she
drew caricatures which were irresistibly funny, and
was a tremendous success in charades. Everything
was still very new to her, everything interesting
and amusing. She was enchanted with her house,
although Milly and Lady Thomson had chosen it, preferring
to a villa in the Parks an old gray house of the kind
that are every day recklessly destroyed by the march
of modern vulgarity. She approved of the few and
good pieces of old furniture with which they had provided
it; although Lady Thomson could not entirely approve
of the frivolity and extravagance of the chintzes
with which she helped the sunshine to brighten the
low, panelled rooms. But Aunt Beatrice, girt with
principles major and minor, armed with so Procrustean
a measure for most of her acquaintance, accepted Mildred’s
deviations with an astonishing ease. The secret
of personal magnetism is not yet discovered. It
may be that the aura surrounding each of us
is no mystic vision of the Neo-Buddhists, but a physical
fact; that Mildred’s personality acted by a
power not moral but physical on the nerves of those
who approached her, exciting those of some, of the
majority, pleasurably, filling others with a nameless
uneasiness, to account for which they must accuse
her manners or her character.
To Ian Stewart the old panelled house
with the walled garden behind, where snowdrops and
crocuses pushed up under budding orchard boughs, was
a paradise beyond any he had imagined. He found
Mildred the most adorable of wives, the most interesting
of companions. Her defects as a housekeeper,
which Aunt Beatrice noted in silence but with surprise,
were nothing to him. He could not help pausing
sometimes even in the midst of his work, to wonder
at his own good fortune and to reflect that whatever
the future might have in store, he would have no right
to complain, since it had been given to him to know
the taste of perfect happiness.
Since his marriage he had been obliged
to take more routine work, and the Long Vacation had
become more valuable to him than ever. As soon
as he had finished an Examination he had undertaken,
he meant to devote the time to the preparation of
a new book which he had in his mind. Mildred,
seemingly as eager as himself that the book should
be done, had at first agreed. Then some of her
numerous friends had described the pleasures of Dieppe,
and she was seized with the idea that they too might
go there. Ian, she said, could work as well at
Dieppe as at Oxford or in the country. Ian knew
better; besides, his funds were low and Dieppe would
cost too much. For the first time he opposed Mildred’s
wishes, and to her surprise she found him perfectly
firm. There was no quarrel, but although she
was silent he felt that she did not yield her opinion
and was displeased with him.
Late at night as he sat over Examination
papers, his sensitive imagination framed the accusations
of selfishness, pedantry, scrupulosity, which his
wife might be bringing against him in the “sessions
of silent thought;” although it was clearly to
her advantage as much as to his own that he should
keep out of money difficulties and do work which counted.
She had no fixed habits, and he flung down pipe and
pen, hoping to find her still awake. But she was
already sound asleep. The room was dark, but
he saw her by the illumination of distant lightning,
playing on the edge of a dark and sultry world.
His appointed task was not yet done and he returned
to the study, a long, low, dark-panelled room, looking
on the garden. The windows were wide open on
the hushed, warm, almost sulphurous darkness, from
which frail white-winged moths came floating in towards
the shaded lamp on his writing-table. He sat
down to his papers and by an effort of will concentrated
his mind upon them. Habit had made such concentration
easy to him as a rule, but to-night, after half an
hour of steady work, he was mastered by an invading
restlessness of mind and body. The cause was
not far to seek; he could hear all the time he worked
the dull, almost continuous, roar of distant thunder.
All else was very still, it was long past midnight
and the town was asleep.
He got up and paced the room once
or twice, grasping his extinguished pipe absently
in his hand. Suddenly a blast seemed to spring
out of nowhere and rush madly round the enclosed garden,
tossing the gnarled and leafy branches of the old
orchard trees and dragging at the long trails of creepers
on wall and trellis. It blew in at the windows,
hot as from the heart of the thunder-cloud, and waved
the curtains before it. It rushed into the very
midst of the old house with its cavernous chimneys,
deep cellars, and enormous unexplored walls, filling
it with strange, whispering sounds, as of half articulate
voices, here menacing, there struggling to reveal
some sinister and vital secret. The blast died
away, but it seemed to have left those voices still
muttering and sighing through the walls that had sheltered
so many generations, such various lives of men.
Ian was used to the creaking and groaning of the wood-work;
he knew how on the staircase the rising of the boards,
which had been pressed down in the day, simulated
ghostly footsteps in the night. He was in his
mental self the most rational of mortals, but at times
the Highland strain in his blood, call it sensitive
or superstitious, spoke faintly to his nerves never
before so strongly, so over-masteringly as to-night.
A blue blaze of crooked lightning zigzagged down the
outer darkness and seemed to strike the earth but a
little beyond the garden wall. Following on its
heels a tremendous clap of thunder burst, as it were,
on the very chimneys. The solid house shook to
its foundations. But the tide of horrible, irrational
fear which swept over Ian’s whole being was
not caused by this mere exaggerated commonplace of
nature. He could give no guess what it was that
caused it; he only knew that it was agony. He
knew what it meant to feel the hair lift on his head;
he knew what the Psalmist meant when he said, “My
bones are turned to water.” And as he stood
unable to move, afraid to turn his head, abject and
ashamed of his abjectness, he was listening, listening
for he knew not what.
At length it came. He heard the
stairs creak and a soft padding footstep coming slowly
down them; with it the brush of a light garment and
intermittently a faint human sound between a sigh and
a sob. He did not reflect that he could not really
have heard such slight sounds through a thick stone
wall and a closed door. He heard them. The
steps stopped at the door; a hand seemed feeling to
open it, and again there was a painful sigh.
The physical terror had not passed from him, but the
sudden though that it was his wife and that she was
frightened or ill, made him able to master it.
He seized the lamp, because he knew the light in the
hall was extinguished, rushed to the door, opened it
and looked out. There was no one there.
He made a hasty but sufficient search and returned
to the study.
The extremity of his fear was now
passed, but an unpleasantly eery feeling still lingered
about him and he had a very definite desire to find
himself in some warm, human neighborhood. He had
left the door open and was arranging the papers on
his writing-table, when once again he heard those
soft padding feet on the stairs; but this time they
were much heavier, more hurried, and stumbled a little.
He stood bent over the table, a bundle of papers in
his hand, no longer overcome by mortal terror, yet
somehow reluctant once more to look out and to see
once more nothing. There was a sound
outside the door, louder, hoarser than the faint sob
or sigh which he had heard before, and he seized the
lamp and turned towards it. Before he had made
a step forward, the door was pushed violently back
and his wife came in, leaning upon it as though she
needed support. She was barefooted and dressed
only in a long night-gown, white, yet hardly whiter
than her face. Her eyes did not turn towards
him, they stared in front of her, not with the fixed
gaze of an ordinary sleep-walker, but with purpose
and intensity. She seemed to see something, to
pursue something, with starting eyes and out-stretched
arms; something she hated even more than she feared
it, for her lips were blanched and tightened over
her teeth as though with fury, and her smooth white
forehead gathered in a frown. Again she uttered
that low, fierce sound, like that he had heard outside
the door. Then, loosing the handle on which she
had leaned, she half sprung, half staggered, with
uplifted hand, towards an open window, beyond which
the rush of the thunder shower was just visible, sloping
pallidly across the darkness. She leaned out
into it and uttered to the night a hoarse, confused
voice, words inchoate, incomprehensible, yet with a
terrible accent of rage, of malediction. This
transformation of his wife, so refined, so self-contained,
into a creature possessed by an almost animal fury,
struck Ian with horror, although he accepted it as
a phenomenon of somnambulism. He approached but
did not touch her, for he had heard that it was dangerous
to awaken a somnambulist. Her voice sank rapidly
to a loud whisper and he heard her articulate “My
husband! Mine! Mine!” but
in no tone of tenderness, rather pronouncing the words
as a passionate claim to his possession. Then
suddenly she drooped, half kneeling on the deep window-seat,
half fallen across the sill. He sprang to catch
her, but not before her forehead had come down sharply
on the stone edge of the outer window. He kneeled
upon the window-seat and gathered her gently in his
arms, where she lay quiet, but moaning and shuddering.
“My husband!” she wailed,
no longer furious now but despairing. “Ian!
My love! Ian! My life! my life!
My own husband!”
Even in this moment it thrilled him
to hear such words from her lips. He had not
thought she loved him so passionately. He lifted
her on to a deep old sofa at the end of the room,
wrapped her in a warm Oriental coverlet which hung
there, and held her to his heart, murmuring love and
comfort in her cold little ear. It seemed gradually
to soothe her, although he did not think she really
awoke. Then he put her down, lighted the lamp
outside, and, not without difficulty, carried her up
to bed. Her eyes were half closed when he laid
her down and drew the bedclothes over her; and a minute
or two later, when he looked in from his dressing-room,
she was evidently asleep.
When he got into bed she did not stir,
and while he lay awake for another hour, she remained
motionless and breathing regularly. He assured
himself that the whole curious occurrence could be
explained by the electrical state of the atmosphere,
which had affected his own nerves in a way he would
never humiliate himself by confessing to any one.
Those mysterious footsteps on the stairs which he had
heard, footsteps like his wife’s yet not hers;
that hand upon the door, that voice of sighs, were
the creation of his own excited brain. In time
he would doubtless come to believe his own assurances
on the point, but that night at the bottom of his
heart he did not believe them.