Ian only came home just in time to
scramble into his evening dress-suit for a dinner
at the Fletchers’. He needed not to fear
delay either from that shirt-button at the back, refractory
or on the last thread, or from any other and more
insidious trap for the hurrying male. Milly looked
after him in a way which, if the makers of traditions
concerning wives were not up to their necks in falsehood,
must have inspired devotion in the heart of any husband
alive. She had already observed that he had been
allowed to lose most of the pocket-handkerchiefs she
had marked for him in linen thread. That trifles
such as this should cause bitterness will seem as
absurd to sensible persons as it would to be told that
our lives are made up of mere to-morrows if
Shakespeare had not happened to put that in his own
memorable way. For it takes a vast deal of imagination
to embrace the ordinary facts of life and human nature.
But even the most sensible will understand that it
was annoying for Milly regularly to find her own and
the family purse reduced to a state that demanded
rigid economy. The Invader, stirring in that limbo
where she lay, might have answered that rigid economy
was Milly’s forte and real delight, and that
it was well she should have nothing to spend in ridiculously
disguising the fair body they were condemned to share.
Mildred certainly left behind her social advantages
which both Ian and Milly enjoyed without exactly realizing
their source, while her bric-a-brac purchases,
from an eighteenth-century print to a Chinese ivory,
were always sure to be rising investments. But
all such minor miseries as her invasion might multiply
for Milly, were forgotten in the horror of the abyss
that had now opened under her feet. For long after
that second return of hers, on the night of the thunderstorm,
a shadow, a dreadful haunting thought, had hovered
in the back of her mind. Gradually it had faded
with the fading of a memory; but to-night the colors
of that memory revived, the thought startled into a
more vivid existence.
In the press and hurry of life, not
less in Oxford than in other modern towns, the Stewarts
and Fletchers did not meet so often and intimately
as to make inevitable the discovery of Mildred Stewart’s
dual personality by her cousins. They said she
had developed moods; but with the conservatism of
relations, saw nothing in her that they had not seen
in her nursery days.
Ian and Milly walked home from dinner,
according to Oxford custom, but a Durham man walked
with them, talking over a College question with Ian,
and they did not find themselves alone until they were
within the wainscoted walls of the old house.
Milly had looked so pale all the evening that Ian
expected her to go to bed at once; but she followed
him into the study, where the lamp was shedding its
circle of light on the heaped books and papers of
his writing-table. Making some perfunctory remarks
which she barely answered, he sat down to work at an
address which he was to deliver at the meeting of a
learned society in London.
Milly threw off her white shawl and
seated herself on the old, high-backed sofa.
Her dress was of some gauzy material of indeterminate
tone, interwoven with gold tinsel, and a scarf of gauze
embroidered with gold disguised what had seemed to
her an over-liberal display of dazzling shoulders.
Ian, absorbed in his work, hardly noticed his wife
sitting in the penumbra, chin on hand, staring before
her into nothingness, like some Cassandra of the hearth,
who listens to the inevitable approaching footsteps
of a tragic destiny. At last she said:
“I’ve got something awful to tell you.”
Ian startled, dropped his pen and
swung himself around in his pivot chair.
“What about? Tony?” for
it was to this diminutive that Mildred had reduced
the flowing syllables of Antonio.
“No, your cousin, Maxwell Davison.”
Now, Ian liked his cousin well enough,
but by no means as well as he liked Tony.
“About Max!” he exclaimed,
relieved. “What’s happened to him?”
“Nothing but oh,
Ian! I hate even to speak of such a
thing ”
“Never mind. Just tell me what it is.”
“I was on the river with him
this afternoon, and he he made love to
me.”
The lines of Ian’s face suddenly hardened.
“Did he?” he returned,
significantly, playing with a paper-knife. Then,
after a pause: “I’m awfully sorry,
Milly. I’d no idea he was such a cad.”
“He he wanted me to run away with
him.”
Ian’s face became of an almost inhuman severity.
“I shall let Maxwell Davison know my opinion
of him,” he said.
“But it’s worse it’s
even more horrible than that. He was expecting
me. I I of course knew nothing
about it; I only knew about the garden-party at Lady
Margaret. But he said I’d promised to come;
he said all kinds of shocking, horrid things about
my having dressed myself up for him ”
“Please don’t tell me
what he said, Milly,” Ian interrupted, still
coldly, but with a slight expression of disgust.
“I’d rather you didn’t. I suppose
I ought to have taken better care of you, my poor little
girl, but really here in Oxford one never thinks of
anything so outrageous happening.”
“I must tell you one thing,”
she resumed, almost obstinately. “He said
he knew I didn’t love you that I
didn’t love you, my own darling husband.
Some one, some one must be responsible for
his thinking that. How do I know what happens
when when I’m away. My poor Ian!
Left with a creature who doesn’t love you!”
Ian rose. His face was cold and
hard still, but there was a faint flush on his cheek,
the mark of a frown between his black brows. He
walked to a window and looked out into the moonlit
garden, where the gnarled apple-trees threw weird
black shadows on grass and wall, like shapes of grotesque
animals, or half-hidden spectres, lurking, listening,
waiting.
“We’re getting on to a
dangerous subject,” he answered, at length.
“Don’t give me pain by imagining evil about about
yourself. You could never, under any aspect,
be anything but innocent and loyal and all that a
man could wish his wife to be.”
He smoothed his brow with an effort,
went up to her, and taking her soft face between his
hands kissed her forehead.
“There!” he exclaimed,
with a forced smile. “Don’t let’s
talk about it any more, darling. Go to bed and
forget all about it. It won’t seem so bad
to-morrow morning.”
But Milly did not respond. When
he released her head she threw it back against her
own clasped hands, closing her eyes. She was ghastly
pale.
“No,” she moaned, “I
can’t bear it by myself. It’s too,
too awful. It’s not Me; it’s something
that takes my place. I saw it once. It’s
an evil spirit. O God, what have I done that
such a thing should happen to me! I’ve
always tried to be good.”
There was a clash of pity and anger
in Ian’s breast. Pity for Milly’s
case, anger on account of her whom his inmost being
recognized as another, whatever his rational self
might say to the matter. He sat down beside his
wife and uttered soothing nothings. But she turned
upon him eyes of wild despair, the more tragic because
it broke through a nature fitted only for the quietest
commonplaces of life. She flung herself upon
him, clutching him tight, hiding her face upon him.
“What have I done?” she
moaned again. “You know I always believed
in God, in God’s love. I wouldn’t
have disbelieved even if He’d taken you away
from me. But now I can’t believe in anything.
There must be wicked spirits, but there can’t
be a good God if He allows them to take possession
of a poor girl like me, who’s never done any
one any harm. O Ian, I’ve tried to pray,
and I can’t. I don’t believe in anything
now.”
Ian was deeply perplexed. He
himself believed neither in a God nor in evil spirits,
and he knew not how to approach Milly’s mind.
At length he said, quietly:
“I should have expected you,
dear, to have reasoned about this a little more.
What’s the use of being educated if we give way
to superstition, like savages, directly something
happens that we don’t quite understand?
Some day an eclipse of conscious personality, like
yours, will come to be understood as well as an eclipse
of the moon. Don’t let’s make it
worse by conjuring up superstitious terrors.”
“At first I thought it was like
that an eclipse of memory. But now
I feel more and more it’s a different person
that’s here, it’s not I. To-night Cousin
David said that sometimes when he met me he expected
to find when he got home that his Lady Hammerton had
walked away out of the frame. And, Ian, I looked
up at that portrait, and suddenly I was reminded of that
fearful night when I came back and saw something.
I am descended from that woman, and you know how wicked
she was.”
Again the strange irritation stirred
in the midst of Ian’s pity.
“Wicked, darling! That’s an absurd
word to use.”
“She left her husband.
And it’s awful that I, who can’t understand
how any woman could be so wicked as to do that, should
be so terribly like her. I feel as though it
had something to do with this appalling thing happening
to me. Perhaps her sins are being visited on me.”
She held the lapels of his coat and looked tenderly,
yearningly, in his face. “And I could bear
it better if But oh, my Ian! I can’t
bear to think of you left with something wicked, with
some one who doesn’t love you, who deceives
you, and ”
“Milly,” he broke in,
“I won’t have you say things like that.
They are absolutely untrue, and I won’t have
them said.”
There was a note of sternness in his
voice that Milly had never heard before, and she saw
a hard look come into his averted face which was new
to her. When she spoke it was in a gasp.
“You love her? You love
that wicked, bad woman so much you won’t let
me tell you what she is?”
He drew himself away from her with
a gesture, and in a minute answered with cold deliberation:
“I cannot cease to love my own
wife because because she’s not always
exactly the same.”
They sat silent beside each other.
At length Milly rose from the sofa. The tinselled
scarf, that other woman’s delicate finery, had
slipped from the white beauty of her shoulders.
She drew it around her again slowly, and slowly with
bowed head left the room.