George Goring was never so confident
in himself as when he was fighting an apparently losing
game; and the refusal of Mildred to come to him, a
refusal based, as he supposed, on nothing but an insurmountable
prejudice against doing what was not respectable, struck
him as a stage in their relations rather than as the
end of them. He did not attempt to see her until
the close of the Easter Vacation. People began
to couple their names, but lightly, without serious
meaning, for Goring being popular with women, had
a somewhat exaggerated reputation as a flirt.
When a faithful cousin hinted things about him and
Mrs. Stewart to Lady Augusta, she who believed herself
to have seen a number of similar temporary enslavers,
put the matter by, really glad that a harmless nobody
should have succeeded to Maud Langham with her dangerous
opinions.
Ian Stewart on his side was barely
acquainted with Goring. Sir John Ireton and the
newspapers informed him that George Goring was a flashy,
untrustworthy politician; and the former added that
he was a terrible nuisance to poor Lord Ipswich and
Lady Augusta. That such a man could attract Mildred
would never have occurred to him.
The fear of Milly’s return,
which she could not altogether banish, still at times
checked and restrained Mildred. Could she but
have secured Tims’s assistance in keeping Milly
away, she would have felt more confident of success.
It was hopeless to appeal directly to the hypnotist,
but her daring imagination began to conceive a situation
in which mere good sense and humanity must compel
Tims to forbid the return of Milly to a life made
impossible for her. She had not seen Tims for
many weeks, not since the Easter Vacation, which had
already receded into a remote distance; so far had
she journeyed since then along the path of her fate.
Nor had she so much as wondered at not seeing Tims.
But now her mind was turned to consider the latent
power which that strange creature held over her life,
her dearest interests; since how might not Milly comport
herself with George?
Then it was that she realized how
long it had been since Tims had crept up the stairs
to her drawing-room; pausing probably in the middle
of them to wipe away with hasty pocket-handkerchief
some real or fancied trace of her foot on a carpet
which she condemned as expensive.
Mildred had written her a note, but
it was hardly posted when the door was flung open
and Miss Timson was formally announced by the parlor-maid.
Tony, who was looking at pictures with his mother,
rose from her side, prepared to take a hop, skip,
and jump and land with his arms around Tims’s
waist. But he stopped short and contemplated her
with round-eyed solemnity. The ginger-colored
man’s wig had developed into a frizzy fringe
and the rest of the coiffure of the hour. A large
picture hat surmounted it, and her little person was
clothed in a vivid heliotrope dress of the latest
mode. It was a handsome dress, a handsome hat,
a handsome wig, yet somehow the effect was jarring.
Tony felt vaguely shocked. “Bless thee!
Thou art translated!” he might have cried with
Quince; but being a polite child, he said nothing,
only put out a small hand sadly. Tims, however,
unconscious of the slight chill cast by her appearance,
kissed him in a perfunctory, patronizing way, as ladies
do who are afraid of disarranging their veils.
She greeted Mildred also with a parade of mundane
elegance, and sat down deliberately on the sofa, spreading
out her heliotrope skirts.
“You can run away just now,
little man,” she said to Tony. “I
want to talk to your mother.”
“How smart you are!” observed
Mildred, seeing that comment of some kind would be
welcome. “Been to Sir James Carus’s
big party at the Museum, I suppose. You’re
getting a personage, Tims.”
“I dare say I shall look in
later, but I shouldn’t trouble to dress up for
that, my girl. Clothes would be quite wasted there.
But I think one should always try to look decent,
don’t you? One’s men like it.”
Mildred smiled.
“I suppose Ian would notice
it if I positively wasn’t decent. But, Tims,
dear, does old Carus really criticise your frocks?”
For indeed the distinguished scientist,
Miss Timson’s chief, was the only man she could
think of to whom Tims could possibly apply the possessive
adjective. Tims bridled.
“Of course not; I was thinking of Mr. Fitzalan.”
That she had for years been very kind
to a lonely little man of that name who lived in the
same block of chambers, Mildred knew, but Heavens!
Even Mildred’s presence of mind failed her, and
she stared. Meeting her amazed eye, Tims’s
borrowed smile suddenly broke its bounds and became
her own familiar grin, only more so:
“We’re engaged,” she said.
“My dear Tims!” exclaimed
Mildred, suppressing an inclination to burst out laughing.
“What a surprise!”
“I quite thought you’d
have been prepared for it,” returned Tims.
“A bit stupid of you not to guess it, don’t
you know, old girl. We’ve been courting
long enough.”
Mildred hastened to congratulate the
strange bride and wish her happiness, with all that
unusual grace which she knew how to employ in adorning
the usual.
“I thought I should like you
to be the first to know,” said Tims, sentimentally,
after a while; “because I was your bridesmaid,
you see. It was the prettiest wedding I ever
saw, and I should love to have a wedding like yours all
of us carrying lilies, you know.”
“I remember there were green
stains on my wedding-dress,” returned Mildred,
with forced gayety.
Tims, temporarily oblivious of all
awkward circumstances, continued, still more sentimentally:
“Then I was there, as I’ve
told you, when Ian’s pop came to poor old M.
Poor old girl! She was awfully spifligatingly
happy, and I feel just the same now myself.”
“Well, it wasn’t I, anyhow,
who felt ‘awfully spifligatingly happy’
on that occasion,” replied Mildred, with a touch
of asperity in her voice.
Tims, legitimately absorbed in her
own feelings, did not notice it. She continued:
“I dare say the world will say
Mr. Fitzalan had an eye on my money; and it’s
true I’ve done pretty well with my investments.
But, bless you! he hadn’t a notion of that.
You see, I was brought up to be stingy, and I enjoy
it. He thought of course I was a pauper, and proposed
we should pauper along together. He was quite
upset when he found I was an heiress. Wasn’t
it sweet of him?”
Mildred said it was.
“Flora Fitzalan!” breathed
Tims, clasping her hands and smiling into space.
“Isn’t it a pretty name? It’s
always been my dream to have a pretty name.”
Then suddenly, as though in a flash seeing all those
personal disadvantages which she usually contrived
to ignore:
“Life’s a queer lottery,
Mil, my girl. We know what we are, we know not
what we shall be, as old Billy says. Who’d
ever have thought that a nice, quiet girl like Milly,
marrying the lad of her heart and all that, would
come to such awful grief; while look at me a
queer kind of girl you’d have laid your bottom
dollar wouldn’t have much luck, prospering like
anything, well up in the Science business, and now,
what’s ever so much better, scrumptiously happy
with a good sort of her own. Upon my word, Mil,
I’ve half a mind to fetch old M. back to sympathize
with me, for although you’ve said a peck of
nice things, I don’t believe you understand
what I’m feeling the way the old girl would.”
Mildred went a little pale and spoke quickly.
“You won’t do that really,
Tims? You won’t be so cruel to to
every one?”
“I don’t know. I
don’t see why you’re always to be jolly
and have everything your own way. Oh, Lord!
When I think how happy old M. was when she was engaged,
the same as I am, and then on her wedding-day just
the same as I shall be on mine.”
Mildred straightened out the frill
of a muslin cushion cover, her head bent.
“Just so. She had everything
her own way that time. I gave her that
happiness, it was all my doing. She’s had
it and she ought to be content. Don’t be
a fool, Tims ” she lifted her face
and Tims was startled by its expression “Can’t
you see how hard it is on me never to be allowed the
happiness you’ve got and Milly’s had?
Don’t you think I might care to know what love
is like for myself? Don’t you think I might
happen to want I tell you I’m a million
times more alive than Milly and I want I
want everything a million times more than she does.”
Tims was astonished.
“But it’s always struck
me, don’t you know, that Ian was a deal more
in love with you than he ever was with poor old M.”
“And you pretend to be in love
and think that’s enough! It’s not
enough; you must know it’s not. It’s
like sitting at a Barmecide feast, very hungry, only
the Barmecide’s sitting opposite you eating all
the time and talking about his food. I tell you
it’s maddening, perfectly maddening ”
There was a fierce vehemence in her face, her voice,
the clinch of her slender hands on the muslin frill.
That strong vitality which before had seemed to carry
her lightly as on wings, over all the rough places
of life, had now not failed, but turned itself inwards,
burning in an intense flame at once of pain and of
rebellion against its own pain.
Tims in the midst of her happiness,
felt vaguely scared. Mildred seeing it, recovered
herself and plunged into the usual engagement talk.
In a few minutes she was her old beguiling self the
self to whose charm Tims was as susceptible in her
way as Thomas the Rhymer had been in his.
When she had left, and from time to
time thereafter, Tims felt vaguely uncomfortable,
remembering Mildred’s outburst of vehement bitterness
on the subject of love. It was so unlike her
usual careless tone, which implied that it was men’s
business, or weakness, to be in love with women, and
that only second-rate women fell in love themselves.
Mildred seemed altogether more serious
than she used to be, and Milly herself could not have
been more sympathetic over the engagement. Even
Mr. Fitzalan, when Tims brought him to call on the
Stewarts was not afraid of her, and found it possible
to say a few words in reply to her remarks. Tims’s
ceremonious way of speaking of her betrothed, whom
she never mentioned except as Mr. Fitzalan, made Ian
reflect with sad humor on the number of offensively
familiar forms of address which he himself had endured
from her, and on the melancholy certainty that she
had never spoken of him in his absence by any name
more respectful than the plain unprefixed “Stewart.”
But he hoped that the excitement of her engagement
had wiped out of her remembrance that afternoon when
poor Milly had tried to return. For he did not
like to think of that moment of weakness in which
he had allowed Tims to divine so much of a state of
mind which he could not unveil even to himself without
a certain shame.