The intense heat of early afternoon
quivered on the steep woods which fell to the river
opposite the house. The sunlit stream curved under
them, moving clear and quiet over depths of brown,
tangled water-growths, and along its fringe of gray
and green reeds and grasses and creamy plumes of meadow-sweet.
The house was not very large. It was square and
white; an old wistaria, an old Gloire-de-Dijon,
and a newer carmine cluster-rose contended for possession
of its surface. Striped awnings were down over
all the lower windows and some of the upper. A
large lawn, close-shorn and velvety green, as only
Thames-side lawns can be, stretched from the house
to the river. It had no flower-beds on it, but
a cedar here, an ilex there, dark and substantial on
their own dark shadows, and trellises and pillars
overrun by a flood of roses of every shade, from deep
crimson to snow white. The lawn was surrounded
by shrubberies and plantations, and beyond it there
was nothing to be seen except the opposite woods and
the river, and sometimes boats passing by with a measured
sound of oars in the rowlocks, or the temporary commotion
of a little steam-launch. It looked a respectable
early Victorian house, but it had never been quite
that, for it had been built by George Goring’s
father fifty years earlier, and he himself had spent
much of his boyhood there.
Everything and every one seemed asleep,
except a young man in flannels with a flapping hat
hanging over his eyes, who stood at the end of a punt
and pretended to fish. There was no one to look
at him or at the house behind him, and if there had
been observers, they would not have guessed that they
were looking at the Garden of Eden and that he was
Adam. Only last evening he and that fair Eve of
his had stood by the river in the moonlight, where
the shattering hawthorn-bloom made the air heavy with
sweetness, and had spoken to each other of this their
exquisite, undreamed-of happiness. There had been
a Before, there would be an After, when they must
stand on their defence against the world, must resist
a thousand importunities, heart-breaking prayers, to
return to the old, false, fruitless existence.
But just for these days they could
be utterly alone in their paradise, undisturbed even
by the thoughts of others, since no one knew they were
there and together. Alas! they had been so only
forty-eight hours, and already a cold little serpent
of anxiety had crept in among their roses.
Before entrusting herself to him,
Mildred had told him that, in spite of her apparent
good health, she was occasionally subject to long
trance-like fits, resembling sleep; should this happen,
it would be useless to call an ordinary doctor, but
that a Miss Timson, a well-known scientific woman
and a friend of hers, must be summoned at once.
He had taken Miss Timson’s address and promised
to do so; but Mildred had not seemed to look upon
the fit as more than a remote contingency. Perhaps
the excitement, the unconscious strain of the last
few days had upset her nerves; for this morning she
had lain in what he had taken for a natural sleep,
until, finding her still sleeping profoundly at noon,
he had remembered her words and telegraphed to Miss
Timson. An answer to his telegram, saying that
Miss Timson would come as soon as possible, lay crumpled
up at the bottom of the punt.
The serpent was there, but Goring
did not allow its peeping coils thoroughly to chill
his roses. His temperament was too sanguine, he
felt too completely steeped in happiness, the weather
was too beautiful. Most likely Mildred would
be all right to-morrow.
Meantime, up there in the shaded room,
she who had been Mildred began to stir in her sleep.
She opened her eyes and gazed through the square window,
at the sunlit awning that overhung it, and at the green
leaves and pale buds of the Gloire-de-Dijon
rose. There was a hum of bees close by that seemed
like the voice of the hot sunshine. It should
have been a pleasant awakening, but Milly awoke from
that long sleep of hers with a brooding sense of misfortune.
The remembrance of the afternoon when she had so suddenly
been snatched away returned to her, but it was not
the revelation of Ian’s passionate love for
her supplanter that came back to her as the thing
of most importance. Surely she must have known
that long before, for now the pain seemed old and
dulled from habit. It was the terrible strength
with which the Evil Spirit had possessed her, seizing
her channels of speech even while she was still there,
hurling her from her seat without waiting for the
passivity of sleep. No, her sense of misfortune
was not altogether, or even mainly, connected with
that last day of hers. Unlike Mildred, she had
up till now been without any consciousness of things
that had occurred during her quiescence, and she had
now no vision; only a strong impression that something
terrible had befallen Ian.
She looked around the bedroom, and
it seemed to her very strange; something like an hotel
room, yet at once too sumptuous and too shabby.
There was a faded pink flock wall-paper with a gilt
pattern upon it, the chairs were gilded and padded
and covered with worn pink damask, the bed was gilded
and hung with faded pink silk curtains. Everywhere
there was pink and gilding, and everywhere it was
old and faded and rubbed. A few early Victorian
lithographs hung on the walls, portraits of ballet-dancers
and noblemen with waists and whiskers. No one
had tidied the room since the night before, and fine
underclothing was flung carelessly about on chairs,
a fussy petticoat here, the bodice of an evening dress
there; everywhere just that touch of mingled daintiness
and disorder which by this time Milly recognized only
too well.
The bed was large, and some one else
had evidently slept there besides herself, for the
sheet and pillow were rumpled and there was a half-burnt
candle and a man’s watch-chain on the small table
beside it. Wherever she was then, Ian was there
too, so that she was at a loss to understand her own
sinister foreboding.
She pulled at the bell-rope twice.
There were only three servants in
the house; a housekeeper and two maids, who all dated
from the days of Mrs. Maria Idle, ex-mistress of the
late Lord Ipswich, dead herself now some six months.
The housekeeper was asleep, the maids out of hearing.
She opened the door and found a bathroom opposite
her bedroom. It had a window which showed her
a strip of lawn with flower-beds upon it, beyond that
shrubberies and tall trees which shut out any farther
view. A hoarse cuckoo was crying in the distance,
and from the greenery came a twittering of birds and
sometimes a few liquid pipings; but there was no sound
of human life. The place seemed as empty as an
enchanted palace in a fairy story.
Milly’s toilet never took her
very long. She put on a fresh, simple cotton
dress, which seemed to have been worn the day before,
and was just hesitating as to whether she should go
down or wait for Ian to come, when Clarkson, the housekeeper,
knocked at her door.
“I thought if you was awake,
madam, you might like a bit of lunch,” she said.
Milly refused, for this horrible feeling
of depression and anxiety made her insensible to hunger.
She looked at the housekeeper with a certain surprise,
for Clarkson was as decorated and as much the worse
for wear as the furniture of the bedroom. She
was a large, fat woman, laced into a brown cashmere
dress, with a cameo brooch on her ample bosom; her
hair was unnaturally black, curled and dressed high
on the top of her head, she had big gold earrings,
and a wealth of powder on her large, red face.
“Can you tell me where I am
likely to find Mr. Stewart?” asked Milly, politely.
The woman stared, and when she answered
there was more than a shade of insolence in her coarse
voice and smile.
“I’m sure I can’t
tell, madam. Mr. Stewart’s not our gentleman
here.”
Milly, understanding the reply as
little as the housekeeper had understood the question,
yet felt that some impertinence was intended and turned
away.
There was nothing for it but to explore
on her own account. A staircase of the dull Victorian
kind led down to a dark, cool hall. The front
door was open. She walked to it and stood under
a stumpy portico, looking out. The view was much
the same as that seen from the bathroom, only that
instead of grass and flower-beds there was a gravel
sweep, and, just opposite the front door, a circle
of grass with a tall monkey-puzzle tree in the centre.
Except for the faded gorgeousness of the bedroom,
the house looked like an ordinary country house, belonging
to old people who did not care to move with the times.
Why should she feel at every step a growing dread
of what might meet her there?
She turned from the portico and opened,
hesitatingly, the door of a room on the opposite side
of the hall. It was a drawing-room, with traces
of the same shabby gorgeousness that prevailed in
the bedroom, but mitigated by a good deal of clean,
faded chintz; and at one end was a brilliant full-length
Millais portrait of Mrs. Maria Idle in blue silk and
a crinoline. It was a long room, pleasant in the
dim light; for although it had three windows, the
farthest a French one and open, all were covered with
awnings, coming low down and showing nothing of the
outer world but a hand’s breadth of turf and
wandering bits of creeper. It was sweet with
flowers, and on a consol table before a mirror stood
a high vase from which waved and twined tall sprays
and long streamers of cluster-roses, carmine and white.
It was beautiful, yet Milly turned away from it almost
with a shudder. She recognized the touch of the
hand that must have set the roses there. And
the nameless horror grew upon her.
Except for the flowers, there was
little sign of occupation in the room. A large
round rosewood table was set with blue glass vases
on mats and some dozen photograph albums
and gift-books, dating from the sixties. But
on a stool in a corner lay a newspaper; and the date
on it gave her a shock. She had supposed herself
to have been away about four months; she found she
had been gone sixteen. There had been plenty of
time for a misfortune to happen, and she felt convinced
that it had happened. But what? If Ian or
Tony were dead she would surely still be in mourning.
Then on a little rosewood escritoire, such as ladies
were wont to use when they had nothing to write, she
spied an old leather writing-case with the initials
M. B. F. upon it. It was one Aunt Beatrice had
given her when she first went to Ascham, and it seemed
to look on her pleasantly, like the face of an old
friend. She found a few letters in the pockets,
among them one from Ian written from Berlin a few days
before, speaking of his speedy return and of Tony’s
amusing letter from the sea-side. She began to
hope her feeling of anxiety and depression might be
only the shadow of the fear and anguish which she had
suffered on that horrible afternoon sixteen months
ago. She must try not to think about it, must
try to be bright for Ian’s sake. Some one
surely was with her at this queer place, since she
was sharing a room with another person probably
a female friend of that Other’s, who had such
a crowd of them.
She drew the awning half-way up and
stood on the step outside the French window.
The lawn, the trees, the opposite hills were unknown
to her, but the spirit of the river spoke to her familiarly,
and she knew it for the Thames. A gardener in
shirt-sleeves was filling a water-barrel by the river,
under a hawthorn-tree, and the young man in the punt
was putting up his fishing-tackle. As she looked,
the strangeness of the scene passed away. She
could not say where it was, but in some dream or vision
she had certainly seen this lawn, that view, before;
when the young man turned and came nearer she would
know his face. And the dim, horrible thing that
was waiting for her somewhere about the quiet house,
the quiet garden, seemed to draw a step nearer, to
lift its veil a little. Who was it that had stood
not far from where the gardener was standing now,
and seen the moon hanging large and golden over the
mystery of the opposite woods? Whoever it was,
some one’s arm had been fast around her and
there had been kisses kisses.
It took but a few seconds for these
half-revelations to drop into her mind, and before
she had had time to reflect upon them, the young man
in the punt looked up and saw her standing there on
the step. He took off his floppy hat and waved
it to her; then he put down his tackle, ran to the
near end of the punt and jumped lightly ashore.
He came up the green lawn, and her anxiety sent her
down to meet him almost as eagerly as love would have
done. The hat shaded all the upper part of his
face, and at a distance, in the strong sunshine, the
audacious chin, the red lower lip, caught her eye
first and seemed to extinguish the rest of the face.
And suddenly she disliked them. Who was the man,
and how did she come to know him? But former
experiences of strange awakenings had made her cautious,
self-controlling, almost capable of hypocrisy.
“So you’re awake!”
shouted George, still a long way down the lawn.
“Good! How are you? All right?”
She nodded “Yes,” with a constrained smile.
In a minute they had met, he had turned
her around, and with his arm under hers was leading
her towards the house again.
“All right? Really all
right?” he asked very softly, pressing her arm
with his hand and stooping his head to bring his mouth
on a level with her ear.
“Very nearly, at any rate,”
she answered, coldly, trying to draw away from him.
“What are you doing that for?”
he asked. “Afraid of shocking the gardener,
eh? What queer little dear little ways you’ve
got! I suppose Undines are like that.”
He drew her closer to him as he threw
back his head and laughed a noisy laugh that jarred
upon her nerves.
Milly began to feel indignant.
It was just possible that a younger sister in Australia
might have married and brought this extraordinary
young man home to England, but his looks, his tone,
were not fraternal; and she had never forgotten the
Maxwell Davison episode. She walked on stiffly.
“Every one seems to be out,”
she observed, as calmly as she could.
He frowned.
“You mean those devils of servants
haven’t been looking after you?” he asked.
“Yet I gave Clarkson her orders. Of course
they’re baggages, but I haven’t had the
heart to send them away from the old place, for who
on earth would take them? I expect we aren’t
improving their chances, you and I, at this very moment;
in spite of respecting the gardener’s prejudices.”
He chuckled, as at some occult joke of his own.
They stooped together under the half-raised
awning of the French window, and entered the dim,
flower-scented drawing-room side by side. The
young man threw off his hat, and she saw the silky
ripple of his nut-brown hair, his smooth forehead,
his bright-glancing hazel eyes, all the happy pleasantness
of his countenance. Before she had had time to
reconsider her dislike of him, he had caught her in
his arms and kissed her hair and face, whispering
little words of love between the kisses. For one
paralyzed moment Milly suffered these dreadful words,
these horrible caresses. Then exerting the strength
of frenzy, she pushed him from her and bounded to
the other side of the room, entrenching herself behind
the big rosewood table with its smug mats and vases
and albums.
“You brute! you brute! you hateful
cad!” she stammered with trembling lips; “how
dare you touch me?”
George Goring stared at her with startled eyes.
“Mildred! Dearest! Good God!
What’s gone wrong?”
“Where’s my husband?”
she asked, in a voice sharp with anger and terror.
“I want to go I must leave this horrid
place at once.”
“Your husband?”
It was Goring’s turn to feel
himself plunged into the midst of a nightmare, and
he grew almost as pale as Milly. How in Heaven’s
name was he going to manage her? She looked very
ill and must of course be delirious. That would
have been alarming in any case, and this particular
form of delirium was excruciatingly painful.
“Yes, my husband where
is he? I shall tell him how you’ve dared
to insult me. I must go. This is your house I
must leave it at once.”
Goring did not attempt to come near
her. He spoke very quietly.
“Try and remember, Mildred;
Stewart is not here. He will not even be in England
till to-morrow. You are alone with me. Hadn’t
you better go to bed again and ”
he was about to say, “wait until Miss Timson
comes,” but as it was possible that the advent
of the person she had wished him to summon might now
irritate her, he substituted “and
keep quiet? I promise not to come near you if
you don’t wish to see me.”
“I am alone here with you?”
Milly repeated, slowly, and pressed her hand to her
forehead. “Good God,” she moaned to
herself, “what can have happened?”
“Yes. For Heaven’s
sake, go and lie down. I expect the doctor can
give you something to soothe your nerves and then
perhaps you’ll remember.”
She made a gesture of fierce impatience.
“You think I’m mad, but
I’m not. I have been mad and I am myself
again; only I can’t remember anything that’s
happened since I went out of my mind. I insist
upon your telling me. Who are you? I never
saw you before to my knowledge.”
Her voice, her attitude were almost
truculent as she faced him, her right hand dragging
at the loose clasp of a big photograph album.
Every word, every look, was agony to Goring, but he
controlled himself by an effort.
“I am George Goring,”
he said, slowly, and paused with anxious eyes fixed
upon her, hoping that the name might yet stir some
answering string of tenderness in the broken lyre
of her mind.
She too paused, as though tracking
some far-off association with the name. Then:
“Ah! poor Lady Augusta’s
husband,” she repeated, yet sterner than before
in her anger. “My friend Lady Augusta’s
husband! And why am I here alone with you, Mr.
Goring?”
“Because I am your lover, Mildred.
Because I love you better than any one or any thing
in the world; and yesterday you thought you loved me,
you thought you could trust all your life to me.”
She had known the answer already in
her heart, but the fact stated plainly by another,
became even more dreadful, more intolerable, than
before. She uttered a low cry and covered her
eyes with her hand.
“Mildred dearest!” he breathed
imploringly.
Then she raised her head and looked
straight at him with flaming eyes, this fair, fragile
creature transformed into a pitiless Fury. She
forgot that indeed an Evil Spirit had dwelt within
her; George Goring might be victim rather than culprit.
In this hour of her anguish the identity of that body
of hers, which through him was defiled, that honor
of hers, yes and of Ian Stewart’s, which through
him was dragged in the dust, made her no longer able
to keep clearly in mind the separateness of the Mildred
Stewart of yesterday from herself.
“I tell you I was mad,”
she gasped; “and you you vile, wicked
man! you took advantage of it to ruin my
life to ruin my husband’s life!
You must know Ian Stewart, a man whose shoes you are
not fit to tie. Do you think any woman in her
senses would leave him for you? Ah! ”
she breathed a long, shuddering breath and her hand
was clinched so hard upon the loose album clasp that
it ran into her palm.
“Mildred!” cried George,
staggered, stricken as though by some fiery rain.
“I ought to be sorry for your
wife,” she went on. “She is a splendid
woman, she has done nothing to deserve that you should
treat her so scandalously. But I can’t I
can’t” a dry sob caught her
voice “be sorry for any one except
myself and Ian. I always knew I wasn’t good
enough to be his wife, but I was so proud of it so
proud and now Oh, it’s
too horrible! I’m not fit to live.”
George had sunk upon a chair and hidden
his face in his hands.
“Don’t say that,”
he muttered hoarsely, almost inaudibly. “It
was my doing.”
She broke out again.
“Of course it was. It’s
nothing to you, I suppose. You’ve broken
my husband’s heart and mine too; you’ve
hopelessly disgraced us both and spoiled our lives;
and all for the sake of a little amusement, a little
low pleasure. We can’t do anything, we can’t
punish you; but if curses were any use, oh, how I
could curse you, Mr. Goring!”
The sobs rising in a storm choked
her voice. She rushed from the room, closing
the door behind her and leaving George Goring there,
his head on his hands. He sat motionless, hearing
nothing but the humming silence of the hot afternoon.
Milly, pressing back her tears, flew
across the hall and up the stairs. The vague
nightmare thing that had lurked for her in the shadows
of the house, when she had descended them so quietly,
had taken shape at last. She knew now the unspeakable
secret of the pink and gold bedroom, the shabbily
gorgeous bed, the posturing dancers, the simpering,
tailored noblemen. The atmosphere of it, scented
and close, despite the open window, seemed to take
her by the throat. She dared not stop to think,
lest this sick despair, this loathing of herself, should
master her. To get home at once was her impulse,
and she must do it before any one could interfere.
It was a matter of a few seconds to
find a hat, gloves, a parasol. She noticed a
purse in the pocket of her dress and counted the money
in it. There was not much, but enough to take
her home, since she felt sure the river shimmering
over there was the Thames. She did not stay to
change her thin shoes, but flitted down the stairs
and out under the portico, as silent as a ghost.
The drive curved through a shrubbery, and in a minute
she was out of sight of the house. She hurried
past the lodge, hesitating in which direction to turn,
when a tradesman’s cart drove past. She
asked the young man who was driving it her way to the
station, and he told her it was not very far, but
that she could not catch the next train to town if
she meant to walk. He was going in that direction
himself and would give her a lift if she liked.
She accepted the young man’s offer; but if he
made it in order to beguile the tedium of his way,
he was disappointed.
The road was dusty and sunny, and
this gave her a reason for opening her large parasol.
She cowered under it, hiding herself from the women
who rolled by in shiny carriages with high-stepping
horses; not so much because she feared she might meet
acquaintances, as from an instinctive desire to hide
herself, a thing so shamed and everlastingly wretched,
from every human eye. And so it happened that,
when she was close to the station, she missed seeing
and being seen by Tims, who was driving to Mr. Goring’s
house in a hired trap which he had sent to meet her.