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A YOUNG MAN IN LOVE

The dance was well in progress when Larry and Ruth arrived. The latter was greeted cordially and not too impressively by gay little Sue Emerson, their hostess, and her friends. Ruth was ensconced comfortably in a big chair where she could watch the dancers and talk as much or little as she pleased. Everybody was so pleasant and natural and uncurious that she did not feel frightened or strange at all, and really enjoyed the little court she held between dances. Pretty girls and pleasant lads came to talk with her, the latter besieging her with invitations to dance which she refused so sweetly that they found the little Goldilocks more charming than ever for her very denial.

They rallied Larry however on his rigorous dragonship and finally Ruth herself dismissed him to dance with his hostess as a proper guest should. She never meant he must stick to her every moment anyway. That was absurd. He rose to obey reluctantly; but paused to ask if she wouldn’t dance with him just once. No, she couldn’t didn’t even know whether she could. He mustn’t try to make her. And seeing she was in earnest, Larry left her. But Ted came skating down the floor to her and he begged for just one dance.

“Oh, I couldn’t, Ted, truly I couldn’t,” she denied.

But obeying a sudden impulse Ted had swooped down upon her, picked her up and before she really knew what was happening she had slid into step with him and was whirling off down the floor in his arms.

“Didn’t I tell you, sweetness?” he exulted. “Of course you can dance. What fairy can’t? Tired?” He bent over to ask with the instinctive gentleness that was in all Holiday men.

Ruth shook her head. She was exhilarated, excited, tense, happy. She could dance she could. It was as easy and natural as breathing. She did not want to stop. She wanted to go on and on. Then suddenly something snapped. They came opposite Sue and Larry. The former called a gay greeting and approval. Larry said nothing. His face was dead white, his gray eyes black with anger. Both Ted and Ruth saw and understood and the lilt went out of the dance for both of them.

“Oh Lord!” groaned Ted. “Now I’ve done it. I’m sorry, Ruth. I didn’t suppose the old man would care. Don’t see why he should it you are willing. Come on, just one more round before the music stops and we’re both beheaded.”

But Ruth shook her head. There was no more joy for her after that one glimpse of Larry’s face.

“Take me to a seat, Ted, please. I’m tired.”

He obeyed and she sank down in the chair, white and trembling, utterly exhausted. She was hurt and aching through and through. How could she? How could she have done that to Larry when he loved her so? How could she have let Ted make her dance with him when she had refused to dance with Larry? No wonder he was angry. It was terrible cruel.

But he mustn’t make a scene with Ted. He mustn’t. She cast an apprehensive glance around the room. Larry was invisible. A forlornness came over her, a despair such as she had never experienced even in that dreadful time after the wreck when she realized she had forgotten everything. She felt as if she were sinking down, down in a fearful black sea and that there was no help for her anywhere. Larry had deserted her. Would he never come back?

In a minute Tony and the others were beside her, full of sympathetic questions. How had it seemed to dance again? Wasn’t it great to find she could still do it? How had she dared to do it while Larry was off guard? Why wouldn’t she, couldn’t she dance with this one or that one if she could dance with Ted Holiday? But they were quick to see she was really tired and troubled and soon left her alone to Tony’s ministrations.

“Ruth, what is the trouble? Where is Larry? And Ted is gone, too. What happened?” Tony’s voice was anxious. She hadn’t seen Larry’s face, but she knew Larry and could guess at the rest.

“Ted made me dance with him. I didn’t mean to. But when we got started I couldn’t bear to stop, it was so wonderful to do it and to find I could. I am afraid Larry didn’t like it.”

“I presume he didn’t,” said Larry’s sister drily. “Let him be angry if he wants to be such a silly. It was quite all right, Ruthie. Ted has just as much right to dance with you as Larry has.”

“I am afraid Larry doesn’t think so and I don’t think so either.”

Tony squeezed the other girl’s hand.

“Never mind, honey. You mustn’t take it like that. You are all of a tremble. Larry has a fearful temper, but he will hang on to it for your sake if for no other reason. He won’t really quarrel with Ted. He never does any more. And he won’t say a word to you.”

“I’d rather he would,” sighed Ruth. “You are all so good to me and I am making a dreadful lot of trouble for you all the time, though I don’t mean to and I love you so.”

“It isn’t your fault, Ruthie, not a single speck of it. Oh, yes. I mean just what you mean. Not simply Larry’s being so foolish as to lose his temper about this little thing, but the whole big thing of your caring for each other. It is all hard and mixed up and troublesome; but you are not to blame, and Larry isn’t to blame, and it will all come out right somehow. It has to.”

As soon as Ted had assured himself that Ruth was all right in his sister’s charge he had looked about for Larry. Sue was perched on a table eating marshmallows she had purloined from somewhere with Phil Lambert beside her, but there was no Larry to be seen.

Ted stepped outside the pavilion. He was honestly sorry his brother was hurt and angry. He realized too late that maybe he hadn’t behaved quite fairly or wisely in capturing Ruth like that, though he hadn’t meant any harm, and had had not the faintest idea Larry would really care, care enough to be angry as Ted had not seen him for many a long day. Larry’s temper had once been one of the most active of the family skeletons. It had not risen easily, but when it did woe betide whatever or whomever it met in collision. By comparison with Larry’s rare outbursts of rage Tony’s frequent ébullitions were as summer zéphyrs to whirlwinds.

But that was long past history. Larry had worked manfully to conquer his familiar demon and had so far succeeded that sunny Ted had all but forgotten the demon ever existed. But he remembered now, had remembered with consternation when he saw the black passion in the other’s face as they met on the floor of the dance hall.

Puzzled and anxious he stared down the slope toward the water. Larry was just stepping into the canoe. Was he going home, leaving Ruth to the mercies of the rest of them, or was he just going off temporarily by himself to fight his temper to a finish as he had been accustomed to do long ago when he had learned to be afraid and ashamed of giving into it? Ted hesitated a moment, debating whether to call him back and get the row over, if row there was to be, or to let him get away by himself as he probably desired.

“Hang it! It’s my fault. I can’t let him go off like that. It just about kills him to take it out of himself that way. I’d rather he’d take it out of me.”

With which conclusion Ted shot down the bank whistling softly the old Holiday Hill call, the one Dick had used that day on the campus to summon himself to the news that maybe Larry was killed.

Larry did not turn. Ted reached the shore with one stride.

“Larry,” he called. “I say, Larry.”

No answer. The older lad picked up the paddle, prepared grimly to push off, deaf, to all intents and purposes to the appeal in the younger one’s voice.

But Ted Holiday was not an easily daunted person. With one flying leap he landed in the canoe, all but upsetting the craft in his sudden descent upon it.

The two youths faced each other. Larry was still white, and his sombre eyes blazed with half subdued fires. He looked anything but hospitable to advances, however well meant.

“Better quit,” he advised slowly in a queer, quiet voice which Ted knew was quiet only because Larry was making it so by a mighty effort of will. “I’m not responsible just now. We’ll both be sorry if you don’t leave me alone.”

“I won’t quit, Larry. I can’t. It was my fault. Confound it, old man! Please listen. I didn’t mean to make you mad. Come ashore and punch my fool head if it will make you feel any better.”

Still Larry said nothing, just sat hunched in a heap, running his fingers over the handle of the paddle. He no longer even looked at Ted. His mouth was set at its stubbornest.

Ted rushed on, desperately in earnest, entirely sincere in his willingness to undergo any punishment, himself, to help Larry.

“Honest, I didn’t mean to make trouble,” he pleaded. “I just picked her up and made her dance on impulse, though she told me she wouldn’t and couldn’t. I never thought for a minute you would care. Maybe it was a mean trick. I can see it might have looked so, but I didn’t intend it that way. Gee, Larry! Say something. Don’t swallow it all like that. Get it out of your system. I’d rather you’d give me a dozen black eyes than sit still and feel like the devil.”

Larry looked up then. His face relaxed its sternness a little. Even the hottest blaze of wrath could not burn quite so fiercely when exposed to a generous penitence like his young brother’s. He understood Ted was working hard not only to make peace but to spare himself the sharp battle with the demon which, as none knew better that Larry Holiday, did, indeed, half kill.

“Cut it, Ted,” he ordered grimly. “’Nough said. I haven’t the slightest desire to give you even one black eye at present, though I may as well admit if you had been in my hands five minutes ago something would have smashed.”

“Don’t I know it?” Ted grinned a little. “Gee, I thought my hour had struck!”

“What made you come after me then?”

Ted’s grin faded.

“You know why I came, old man. You know I’d let you pommel my head off any time if it could help you anyhow. Besides it was my fault as I told you. I didn’t mean to be mean. I’ll do any penance you say.”

Larry picked up the paddle.

“Your penance is to let me absolutely alone for fifteen minutes. You had better go ashore though. You will miss a lot of dances.”

“Hang the dances! I’m staying.”

Ted settled down among the cushions against which Ruth’s blonde head had nestled a few hours ago. He took out his watch, struck a match, looked at the time, lit a cigarette with the same match, replaced the watch and relapsed into silence.

The canoe shot down the lake impelled by long, fierce strokes. Larry was working off the demon. Far away the rhythmic beat of dance music reached them faintly. Now and then a fish leaped and splashed or a bull frog bellowed his hoarse “Better go home” into the silence. Otherwise there was no sound save the steady ripple of the water under the canoe.

Presently Ted finished his cigarette, sent its still ruddy remains flashing off into the lake where it fell with a soft hiss, took out his watch again, lit another match, considered the time, subtracted gravely, looked up and announced “Time’s up, Larry.”

Larry laid down the paddle and a slow reluctant smile played around the corners of his mouth, though there was sharp distress still in his eyes. He loathed losing his temper like that. It sickened him, filled him with spiritual nausea, a profound disgust for himself and his mastering weakness.

“I’ve been a fool, kid,” he admitted. “I’m all right now. You were a trump to stand by me. I appreciate it.”

“Don’t mention it,” nonchalantly from Ted “Going back to the pavilion?”

His brother nodded, resumed the paddle and again the canoe shot through the waters, this time toward the music instead of away from it.

“I suppose you know why your dancing with Ruth made me go savage,” said Larry after a few moments of silence.

“Damned if I do,” said Ted cheerfully. “It doesn’t matter. I don’t need a glossary and appendix. Suit yourself as to the explanations. I put my foot in it. I’ve apologized. That is the end of it so far as I am concerned unless you want to say something more yourself. You don’t have to you know.”

“It was plain, fool movie stuff jealousy. That is the sum and substance of it. I’m in love with her. I couldn’t stand her dancing with you when she had refused me. I could almost have killed you for a minute. I am ashamed but I couldn’t help it. That is the way it was. Now forget it, please.”

Ted swallowed hard and pulled his forelock in genuine perturbation.

“Good Lord, Larry!” he blurted. “I ”

His brother held up an imperious warning hand.

“I said ‘forget it.’ Don’t make me want to dump you now, after coming through the rest.”

Ted saluted promptly.

“Ay, ay, sir! It’s forgot. Only perhaps you’ll let me apologize again, underscored, now I understand. Honest, I’m no end sorry, Larry.”

The other nodded acceptance of the underscored apology and again silence had its way.

As they landed Ted fastened the canoe and for a moment the two brothers stood side by side in the starlight. Larry put out his hand. Ted took it. Their eyes met, said more than any words could have expressed.

“Thank you, Ted. You’ve been great helped a lot.”

Larry’s voice was a little unsteady, his eyes were full of trouble and shame.

“Ought to, after starting the conflagration,” said Ted. “I’ll attend to the general explanations. You go to Ruth.”

More than one person had wondered at the mysterious disappearance of the two Holidays. It is quite usual, and far from unexpected, when two young persons of the opposite sex drift off somewhere under the stars on a summer night without giving any particular account of themselves; but one scarcely looks for that sort of social or unsocial eccentricity from two youths, especially two brothers. Nobody but Ruth and Tony, and possibly shrewd-eyed Sue, suspected a quarrel, but everybody was curious and ready to burst into interrogation upon the simultaneous return of the two young men which was quite as sudden as their vanishing had been.

“Larry and I had a wager up,” announced Ted to Sue in a perfectly clear, distinct voice which carried across the length of the small hall now that the music was silent. “He said he could paddle down to the point, current against him, faster than I could paddle back, current with me. We took a notion to try it out tonight. Please forgive us, Susanna, my dear. A Holiday is a creature of impulse you know.”

Sue made a little face at the speaker. She was quite sure he was lying about the wager, but she was a good hostess and played up to his game.

“You don’t deserve to be forgiven, either of you,” she sniffed. “Especially Larry who never comes to parties and when he does has to go off and do a silly thing like that. Who won though? I will ask that.” She smiled at Ted and he grinned back.

“Larry, of course. Give me a dance, Sue. I’ve got my second wind.”

“Bless Ted!” thought Tony, listening to her brother’s glib excuses. “Thank goodness he can lie like that. Larry never could.” And as her eyes met Ted’s a moment later when they passed each other in the maze of dancers he murmured “All right” in her ear and she was well content. Bless Ted, indeed!

Meanwhile Larry had gone, as Ted bade him, straight to Ruth. He bent over her tired little white face, an agony of remorse in his own.

“Ruth, forgive me. I’ll never forgive myself.”

“Don’t, Larry. It is I who ought to be sorry and I am oh so sorry you don’t know. Ted didn’t mean any harm. I ought not to have let him do it. It was my fault.”

“There was nobody at fault except me and my fool temper. I am desperately ashamed of myself Ruth. I’ve left you all alone all this time and I promised I wouldn’t. You’ll never trust me again and I don’t deserve to be trusted. It doesn’t do any good to say I am sorry. It can’t undo what I did. I didn’t dare stay and that’s the fact. I didn’t know what I’d do to Ted if he got in my way. I felt murderous.”

“Larry!”

“I know it sounds awful. It is awful. It is an old battle. I thought I’d won it, but I haven’t. Don’t look so scared though. Nothing happened. Ted came after me like the corking big-hearted kid he is and brought me to, in half the time I could have done it for myself. It is thanks to him I’m here now. But never mind that. It is only you that matters. Shall I take you home? I don’t deserve it, but if you will let me it will show you forgive me a little bit anyway,” he finished humbly.

“Don’t look so dreadfully unhappy, Larry. It is over now, and of course I forgive you if you think there is anything to forgive. I’m so thankful you didn’t quarrel with Ted. I was awfully worried and so was Tony. She watched the door every minute till you came back.”

“I suppose so,” groaned Larry. “I made one horrible mess of everything for you all. Are you ready to go?”

“I’d like to dance with you once first, Larry, if if you would like to.”

“Would I like to!” Larry’s face lost its mantle of gloom, was sudden sunshine all over. “Will you really dance with me after the rotten way I’ve behaved?”

“Of course, I will. I wanted to all the time, but I was afraid. But when Ted made me it all came back and I loved it, only it was you I wanted to dance with most. You know that, don’t you, Larry, dear?” The last word was very low, scarcely more than a breath, but Larry heard it and it nearly undid him. A flood of long-pent endearments trembled on his lips. But Ruth held up a hand of warning.

“Don’t, Larry. We mustn’t spoil it. We’ve got to remember the ring.”

“Damn the ring!” he exploded. “I beg your pardon.” Larry was genuinely shocked at his own bad manners. “I don’t know why I’m such a brute tonight. Let’s dance.”

And to the delight and relief of the younger Holidays, Larry and Ruth joined the dancers.

The dance over, they made their farewells. Larry guided Ruth down the slope, his arm around her ostensibly for her support, and helped her into the canoe. Once more they floated off over the quiet water, under the quiet stars. But their young hearts were anything but quiet. Their love was no longer an unacknowledged thing. Neither knew just what was to be done with it; but there it was in full sight, as both admitted in joy and trepidation and silence.

As Larry held open the door for her to step inside the quiet hall he bent over the girl a moment, taking both her hands in his. Then he drew away abruptly and bolted into the living room, leaving her to grope her way up stairs in the dark alone.

“I wonder,” she murmured to herself later as she stood before her mirror shaking out her rippling golden locks from their confining net. “I wonder if it would have been so terrible if he had kissed me just that once. Sometimes I wish he weren’t quite so so Holidayish.”