There was nothing surprising or exciting
to behold when the door flew open, and the two entered.
“Oh, I’ve met you before,”
said Marjorie politely to the man who had opened it.
She had danced with him the night before, and it was
pleasant to find that she had not to deal entirely
with strangers. He was a tired-looking, middle-aged
Englishman, with a tanned, plump face that had something
whimsical and what Marjorie characterized to herself
as motherly about it. And the fact that he was
clad in a flannel shirt and very disreputable overalls
did not make him the less distinctively gentle-bred.
He greeted her courteously, and took out his pipe a
pipe that was even more disreputable than his clothes.
“Mrs. Ellison wanted to come
over to-night and see what she had to do,” Francis
explained.
“You mean that you were in earnest
about her volunteering to take Pierre’s place?”
demanded the Englishman, looking at the little smiling
figure in pink organdy.
“I know I look useless,”
interposed Marjorie for herself. “But Mr.
Ellison will tell you that I really can work hard.
If somebody will only show me a little about the
routine I’ll be all right.”
“I’ve taken over Pierre’s
job for the moment,” he replied. “Assuredly
I’ll show you all I can. But it’s
rough work for a girl.”
Marjorie smiled on.
“Very well, show me, please,”
she demanded, as she would if the question had been
one of walking over red-hot plowshares.
She stood and looked about her as
he answered her, so intent that she did not hear what
he replied.
The place had rows of bunks in various
stages of untidiness. It was lighted by two
very smoky kerosene lamps, and had in its middle a
table with cards on it. Three men sat about
the table, as if they did not quite know whether to
come forward and be included in the conversation or
not. At the further end Marjorie could see the
door that led to the cooking-place, and eyed it with
interest.
“These are all of the men who
are here,” Francis explained. “There
is another camp some miles further in the forest.”
“Am I to cook for them as well?”
demanded Marjorie coolly.
“Oh, no,” the Englishman
answered. He seemed deeply shocked at the idea.
“They have a cook. By the way, Mrs. Ellison,
it is only poetic justice that you should have taken
over this job; for do you know that the reason Pierre
gave for his sudden flight in the direction of marriage
was that you and Mr. Ellison looked so happy he got
lonesome for a wife!”
“Good gracious!” gasped
Marjorie before she remembered herself. . . .
“That is I didn’t know our happiness
showed as far off as that.”
She did not dare to look at Francis,
whom she divined to be standing rigidly behind her.
“And now could you show me the place where I
have to cook, and the things to cook with?”
Mr. Pennington Harmsworth-Pennington
was his veritable name, as she learned later took
the hint and swept her immediately off to the lean-to.
The tout-ensemble was not terrifying.
It consisted of a kerosene stove of two burners,
another one near it for emergencies, a wooden cupboard
full of heavy white dishes, and a lower part to it
where the stores were.
“The hardest thing for you will
be getting up early,” he said sympathetically.
“The men have to have breakfast and be out of
here by seven o’clock. And they take dinner-pails
with them. Then there’s nothing to get
till the evening meal.”
“Of course there’d be
tidying to do,” suggested Marjorie avidly, for
she hated disorder, and saw a good deal about her.
“If you had the strength for
it,” said Pennington doubtfully.
“Francis thinks I have,”
she answered with a touch of wickedness.
Francis, behind her, continued to say nothing at all.
She spent five minutes more in the
lean-to with the opportune Pennington, and gathered
from him, finally, that next morning there would have
to be a big pot of oatmeal cooked, and bacon enough
fried for five hungry men. Griddle cakes, flapjacks,
or breadstuff of some kind had to be produced also;
coffee in a pot that looked big enough for a hotel,
with condensed milk, and a meal apiece for their dinner-hour.
“I just give ’em anything
cold that’s left over,” said Pennington
unsympathetically. “There has to be lots
of it, that’s all.”
Marjorie cried out in horror.
“Oh, they mustn’t have
those cold! But do they have to have
all that every morning?”
“Great Scott, no!” exclaimed
the scandalized Pennington. “Some days
they just have flapjacks, and some days just bacon
and eggs and bread. And sometimes oatmeal extra.
I didn’t mean that all these came at once.”
She felt a bit relieved.
“I’ll be in to-morrow
at six,” she assured him, still smiling bravely.
“I think I can manage it alone.”
“One of us can always do the
lifting for you, and odd chores,” he told her.
After that she met the other men,
and went back to the cabin. Francis was still
following her in silence.
“How nice they are, even the grumpy ones!”
she told him radiantly. “Don’t
forget to knock on my door in time to-morrow, Francis.”
She gave him no time to reply.
She simply went to bed. And in spite of all
that had come and gone she was so tired that she fell
asleep as soon as she was there.
She was awakened by Francis’s
knock at what seemed to her the middle of the night.
Then she remembered that the pines shut off the light
so that it was high daylight outside before it was
in here. A vague feeling of terror came over
her before she remembered why; and for a moment she
lay still in the unfamiliar bed, trying to remember.
When she did remember she was so much more afraid
that she sprang out hurriedly, because things, for
some reason, are always worse when you aren’t
quite awake. Or better. But there was nothing
to be better just now.
She bathed and dressed with a dogged
quickness, trying meanwhile to reassure herself.
After all, it was only cooking on a little larger
scale than she was used to. After all, it was
only for a few months. After all, she mightn’t
be broken down by it. And this was
the only thing that was any real comfort it
would free her so completely of Francis, this association
with him, and the daily, hourly realization that he
had treated her in a cruel, unjust way, that when she
went back she would be glad to forget that he had
ever lived; even the days when he had been so pleasant
and comforting.
If Francis knew that the little aproned
figure, with flushed cheeks and high-held head, was
terrified and homesick under the pride, he said nothing.
Nothing, that is, beyond the ordinary courtesies.
He offered to help her on with her cloak. After
one indignant look at him she let him. The indignation
would have puzzled him; but Marjorie’s feeling
was that a man who would doom you to this sort of a
life, put you to such a test as Francis had, was adding
insult to injury in helping you on and off with wraps.
He, of course, couldn’t grasp all this, and
felt a little puzzled.
She walked out and over to the door
of the lean-to, leaving him to follow.
Pennington’s kind and motherly
face was peering anxiously out. It came to Marjorie
that she was going to have a good deal of trouble keeping
him from taking too much work off her shoulders.
Some men have the maternal instinct strongly developed,
and of such, she was quite sure, was Pennington.
She wondered what he was doing so far from England,
and what she could do to pay him back for his friendliness for
she felt instinctively that she had a friend in him.
Sure enough, he had started the big
pot of water boiling for the oatmeal, and was salting
it as she entered.
“Oh, let me!” she cried,
and before his doubting eyes she began to stir the
oatmeal in.
“I suppose there never was a
double boiler big enough,” she began doubtfully.
“It would save so much trouble.”
“We might make one out of a
dishpan, perhaps, swung inside this pot,” he
said.
“And I always thought Englishmen
weren’t resourceful!” she commented, smiling
at him. “We’ll try it to-morrow.”
Meanwhile, having stirred in all the
oatmeal necessary, she lowered the burners a little
and began on the coffee. Then she saw the point
of the other stove, for she found she needed it for
the bacon and biscuits. The actual work was
not so complicated; the thing that appalled her was
Pennington’s insistence on the awful amount of
food needed for the six men and herself. But,
of course, as she reminded herself, there was
a difference between cooking for Cousin Anna and herself
on the maid’s day out, or for Lucille and herself,
and cooking for six hungry men who worked in the open
air at reforesting. She did not quite know how
people reforested, but she had a vague image in her
mind of people going along with armfuls of trees which
they stuck in holes.
Presently the breakfast was prepared,
and Pennington banged briskly on a dishpan and howled
“Chow!” in a way that was most incongruous.
He really should have been a Rural Dean, by his looks
and his gentle, almost clergymanly genial manners,
and every time Marjorie looked at him in his rough
clothes she got a shock because he wasn’t one.
There was a long trestled table down
the middle of the men’s cabin, and each man,
streaming out, picked up a plate and got it filled
with food, and sat himself down in what seemed to
be an appointed place. There were mugs for coffee,
and Marjorie, under Pennington’s direction, set
them at all the places, and then went up and down filling
them. There was a tin of condensed milk on the
table, set there by Pennington’s helpful hand.
She ran up and down, waiting on her
charges, and feeling very much as if she were conducting
a Sunday-school class picnic. The men, except
Pennington and the other young Englishman, who never
talked to the last day she knew him, seemed struck
into terrified silence by their new cook.
And then a terrible thought came over
her it was rather a funny one, though,
for the excitement of doing all this new work had stirred
her up, rather than saddened her. She had never
prepared any dinner-pails for them. She fled
back into the cook-place precipitately, snatched the
pails down from the shelf, and began feverishly spreading
large biscuits with butter and bacon.
“There’s marmalade in
the big tin back of you,” said Pennington’s
softly cultivated Oxford voice from the doorway.
“And if you fill the small buckets with coffee
they will take them, together with the rest of their
dinners.”
“But is that enough variety,
just bacon and marmalade sandwiches?” she asked.
He nodded.
“There are tinned vegetables
that you can give them to-night, if you wish.”
So, he helping her, they got the last
dinner-pail filled before the hungry horde poured
out again. Each passed with a sheepish or courteous
word of thanks, took his pail and went on. It
did not occur to Marjorie till she saw Pennington
go, eating as he went a large biscuit, that he must
have cut his own meal very short in order to help
her.
“What nice people there are
in the world!” she breathed, sinking on the
doorstep a minute to think and take breath.
She sat there longer than she really
should, because the air was so crisp and lovely, and
just as she was beginning to rise and go in to the
summoning dishes, a small striped squirrel trotted
across the grass and requested scraps with impudent
wavings of his two small front paws. So she really
had to stay and feed him. And after that there
was a bird that actually seemed as if it was going
to walk up to her, almost as the squirrel had done.
He flew away just at the most exciting moment, but
Marjorie didn’t hold it against him. And
then why, then, she felt suddenly sleepy
and lay down with her cloak swathed around her, under
a tree, for just a minute. And when she looked
at her wrist-watch it was eleven o’clock.
She felt guilty to the last degree.
What would they say at the office to a young woman
who took naps in the morning?
And then the blessed memory that there
was no reason why she shouldn’t do exactly as
she pleased with her time, so long as the dishes were
done after awhile, came to her.
“There’s no clock in the
forest,” she thought, smiling drowsily; and
lay serenely on the pine-needles for another half hour.
When she did go in, the quantity of
dishes wasn’t so terrific. There had been
no courses. Each man had left behind him an entirely
empty plate and mug and knife and fork; that was all.
And Marjorie seemed to have more energy and delight
in running about and doing things than she had ever
known she possessed, in the heavy New York air.
She washed the dishes and swept out the cabin with
a gay good will that surprised herself. She
tried to feel like Cinderella or Bluebeard’s
wife or some of the oppressed heroines who had loomed
large in her past, but it wasn’t to be done.
After that she was so hungry her own breakfast
had been taken in bites, on the run that
she ate up all the remaining biscuits, after toasting
them and making herself bacon sandwiches as she had
for the men; quite forgetting that her own abode lay
near, filled to repletion with stores of a quite superior
kind. The bacon sandwiches and warmed-over coffee
tasted better than anything she had ever eaten in
her life.
And then there was a whole long afternoon
ahead of her, before she had to do a solitary thing
for the men’s supper!
“I must have ’faculty’!”
said Marjorie to herself proudly, thinking more highly
of her own talents than she ever had before.
The fact that as a filing-clerk she had not shone
had made her rather meek about her own capacities.
She had always taken it impudently for granted that
she was attractive, because the fact had been, so to
speak, forced on her. But there had been a very
humble-minded feeling about her incapacity for a business
life. Miss Kaplan, for instance, she of the
exuberant emotions and shaky English, had a record
for accuracy and speed in her particular line which
was unsullied by a single lapse. And Lucille,
lazy, luxury-loving Lucille, concealed behind her
fluffinesses an undoubted and remorseless executive
ability. Compared to them Marjorie had always
felt herself a most useless person. That was
why she always was meeker in office hours than out
of them. And to find herself swinging this work,
even for one meal, without a feeling of incapacity
and unworthiness, made her very cheered indeed.
The truth was, she was doing a thing she had a talent
for.
“And I’m not tired!”
she marveled. The change of air was responsible
for that, of course.
She went back to her forgotten cabin,
singing beneath her breath. It had a rather
tousled air, but in her new enthusiasm she went through
it like a whirlwind. She attacked her own room
first, and created spotless order in it. Then
she went at the living-room. Then it
was with a curious reluctance she climbed
the stairs to Francis’s absurd little curtained
balcony.
Francis, evidently, did not sleep
so very well, or he had not that night at all events.
The couch was very tossed, one pillow lay on the
ground with a dent in its midst as if an angry hand
had thrust it there, and, most unfairly, hit it after
it was down. The covers were “every which
way,” as Marjorie said, picking them up and shaking
them out with housewifely care. Francis’s
pajamas and a shabby brown terry bath-robe lay about
the floor, the bathrobe in a ridiculously lifelike
position with both its sleeves thrown forward over
the pillow, as if it were trying to comfort it for
all it had been through.
Everything had aired since morning,
so she disguised the couch again in its slip-cover,
put the cretonne covers back on the pillows, and the
couch stood decorous and daytime-like again.
She laid her hand on the pillow for a moment after
she was all through, as if she were touching something
she was sorry for.
“Poor Francis!” she said
softly, smiling a little. “After all, he
isn’t so terribly much older than I am.”
She felt suddenly motherly toward him, and like being
very kind. That maltreated pillow was so funny
and boylike. “It isn’t a bit like
the storybooks,” she mused. “In them
you get all thrilled because a man is so masterful.
Well,” Marjorie tried to be truthful, even
when she was alone with herself and the couch, “I
guess I was thrilled, a little, when he carried me
off that way. I certainly couldn’t have
gone if I’d known about the housework business.
But now, the only part of him I like is when he isn’t
sitting on me. . . . I wonder if I’ll ever
be the same person, after all this?”
She never would. But, though
she wondered, she did not really think that she was
changing or would change. As a matter of fact,
she had made more decisions, gone through more emotions,
and become more of a woman in the little time since
Francis had carried her off than in all her life before.
The Marjorie of a year ago would not have answered
the challenge of her husband to prove herself an honorable
woman by taking over a long, hard, uncongenial task.
She would have picked up her skirts and fled back
to New York with Logan.
“I suppose it’s the war,”
said Marjorie uncomfortably. “Dear me,
I did think that when the war was over it would be
over. And everything seems so real yet.
I wonder if when I’m an old, old lady talking
to Lucille’s grandchildren I shall tell them,
’Ah, yes, my dears, your Grand-aunt Marjorie
was a very different person in the days before the
war! In those days you didn’t have to be
in earnest about anything. You didn’t even
to have any principles that showed. Life wasn’t
real and earnest a bit. People just went to
tea-dances and talked flippantly, and some of the
men had drinks. And everybody laughed a great
deal, and it was decadent, and the end of an era, and
a lot of shocking things but it wasn’t
half as hard as living now, because there weren’t
standards, except when they were had by aunts and
employers and such people. Ah, them was the days!’
And the grand-nieces, or whatever relation they’ll
be to me, will look shocked, because they’ll
be children of their time, and it will still be fashionable
to be earnest, and they’ll say, ’Dear me,
what a terrible time to have lived in!’ And
they’ll be a little bit envious. And they’ll
say, ‘And were even you frivolous?’ And
I’ll sigh, and say, ’Yes, indeed, my dears!
I married a worthy young man (as young men went then)
in a thoughtless moment, and then when he came back
I wouldn’t stay married to him. But by
that time the war was over, and we’d all stopped
being flippant and frivolous. So I washed dishes
for him three months before I went and left him.’
And they’ll commend me faintly for doing that
much, and go away secretly shocked.”
Marjorie was so cheered up by her
own fervent imaginings by this time that she stopped
to sit down on the arm of a chair, all by herself,
and laugh out loud. And so Francis saw her,
as he came in for something, and looked up, guided
by her laugh. He had scarcely heard her laugh
before for some time. She was perched birdlike
on the arm of the chair at the foot of his couch,
just to be glimpsed between the draperies of the balcony.
She looked, to his eyes, like something too fragile
and lovely to be real. And she was laughing!
That did not seem real, either. She might have
been pleasant, even cheerful, but this sprite, swinging
there and laughing at nothing whatever, almost frightened
him. For an awful moment he wondered if he had
driven Marjorie mad. . . . He had been unkind
to her hard on her, he knew.
Before he could stop himself he had
rushed up the stairs to the little balcony.
“Marjorie Marjorie!
What were you laughing about?” he demanded in
what seemed to her a very surprising way.
“Why, don’t you want me
to laugh?” she demanded in her turn, very naturally.
“I why yes!
But you frightened me, laughing all by yourself that
way.”
“Oh, I see!” said Marjorie,
looking a little embarrassed. “People
often look surprised when I forget, and do it on the
street. I think about things, and then when
they seem funny to me I laugh. Don’t you
ever have thoughts all by yourself that you laugh over,
when you’re alone?”
Francis shook his head. He had
a good mind, and a quick one, but he did not use it
as something to amuse himself with, as Marjorie did
with hers. He used it to work with.
“I beg your pardon for startling
you,” he said. “But ”
“I know. It looked queer.
I was just thinking how different everybody and everything
is since the war. We’re all so much more
grown up, and responsible. And I was hearing
myself talk to Lucille’s grandchildren, and
tell them all about the days before the war, when everybody
said they just didn’t care. . . . Aren’t
things different?”
Francis nodded.
“Yes, they’re different.
I don’t know exactly how, but they are.
And we are.”
“Do you think you are?”
Francis sat down on the couch, looked
at her, bright-eyed and grave, and nodded again.
“Yes. All the values are
changed. At least they are for me and most of
the men I came across. I don’t think the
women are so different; you see, the American women
didn’t have anything much to change them, except
the ones who went over. We were in such a little
while it didn’t have time to go deep.”
He meant no disparagement, but Marjorie flared up.
“You mean me and
Lucille and all the rest!” she accused
him. “You’re quite wrong.
That was just what I was telling Lucille’s grandchildren.
We are different. Why, do you think I would have
thought I owed you anything owed it to
you to stay up here and drudge before the
war? I never thought about being good, particularly,
or honorable, or owing things to people. Oh,
I suppose I did, in a way, because I’d always
been brought up to play fair. But never with
the top of my mind. You know yourself, all anybody
wanted was a good time. If anybody had told
me, when I was seventeen I was seventeen
when the war started, wasn’t I? that
I’d care more about standards than about fun,
I’d have just thought they were lying, or they
didn’t know. And right and wrong have
come to matter in the most curious way.”
“I think perhaps,” he
answered her they had quite forgotten that
they were enemies by now “that the
war was in the air. Maybe the world felt that
there wouldn’t be much chance for good times
for it for our generation again,
and snatched at it. You know, for a good many
years things won’t be the same, even for us
in America, who suffered less, perhaps, than any other
nation in the world. Life’s harder, and
it will be.”
“Oh, always?” demanded
Marjorie. “You know, Francis, I always
wanted good times worse than anything in the world,
but that isn’t saying I had them. I didn’t.
Won’t I ever have any more? That few weeks
when I raced around with you and Billy and Lucille
was really the first time I’d been free and
had fun with people I liked, ever since I’d been
born. And and I suppose it went to
my head a little bit.”
She looked up at him like a child
who has been naughty and is sorry, and he looked over
at her, his face going tense, as it did when he felt
things.
“I don’t think we were
exactly free agents,” he said musingly.
“Something was pushing us. I’m not
sorry . . . except that it was hardly fair to you ”
She leaned toward him impulsively,
holding out her hand. He bent toward her, flushing.
They were nearer than they had been since that day
when his summons to war came. And then Fate as
Mr. Logan might have said knocked at the
door.