Francis looked at her as if she had
said something very surprising.
“Thrilling?” he said,
apparently considering it the wrong adjective.
She nodded.
“Why, yes. I’ve
read of remittance men all my life, but I never dreamed
I’d meet one. And I always wanted
to know, Francis,” said she, as she opened the
door and walked in and settled herself cozily on the
window-seat. “What does he remit?
They never say.”
“He doesn’t remit,”
explained Francis rather disgustedly, following her
over and sitting down by her at the other corner of
the seat. “Other people do it.”
“‘Curiouser and Curiouser!
I begin to think I’m in Wonderland!’”
she quoted. “I think the easiest way for
you to do will be just to tell me all about remittance
men, the way you do a child when it starts to ask
questions. Just what are they, and do they all
look like Pennington, and are they trained to be it,
or does it come natural?”
“A remittance man,” Francis
explained again, “is a term, more or less, of
disgrace. He is a man who has done something
in his own country which makes his relatives wish
him out of it. So they remit money to him as
long as he stays away.”
If he expected to make Marjorie feel
shocked at Pennington by this tale he was quite disappointed.
“And does Pennington get money
for staying away, besides what he helps you and gets?”
she demanded. “What does he do with it
all?”
“I don’t suppose it’s
a great deal,” said Francis reluctantly.
“Well, all I have to say is,
I’m perfectly certain that if anybody’s
paying Pennington to stay away from England, they’re
some horrid kind of person that just is disagreeable,
and doesn’t know his real worth. Why, Francis,
he’s helped me learn the ways here, and looked
after me, as if he was my mother. He’s
exactly like somebody’s mother.”
Francis could not help smiling a little.
Marjorie, when she wanted to be sometimes
when she did not want to be was irresistible.
“But, Marjorie,” he began
to explain to her very seriously, “however much
he may seem like a mother, he isn’t one.
He’s a man, though he’s rather an old
one. And he did do things in England so he had
to leave. I don’t want him to fall in love
with you; it would be embarrassing for several reasons.”
“But why should he fall in love
with me?” she demanded innocently. “Lots
of people don’t.”
“But, Marjorie,” her husband
remonstrated, “they do. Look at Logan,
now. No reason on earth would have brought him
up here but being in love with you. You might
as well admit it.”
“All I ever did was to listen
to him when he talked,” said Marjorie, shrugging
one shoulder. She liked what Francis was saying,
but she felt in honor bound to be truthful about such
things. “And besides you, there was only
one other man ever asked me to marry him I
mean, not counting Logan, if you do count him.
Oh, yes, and then there was another one yet, with
a guitar. He always said he proposed to me.
He wrote me a letter all mixed up, about everything
in the world; and I was awfully busy just then, selling
tickets for a church fair of Cousin Anna’s.
I never was any good selling tickets anyhow,”
explained Marjorie, settling herself more nestlingly
in her corner of the window-seat; “and so when
he said somewhere in the letter that anything he could
ever do for me he would do on the wings of the wind,
I wrote back and said yes, he could buy two tickets
for the church fair. And, oh, but he was furious!
He sent the check for the tickets with the maddest
letter you ever saw; and he accused me of refusing
him in a cold and ignoring manner. And I’d
torn up the letter, the way I always do, and so I
couldn’t prove anything about it to him.
But he didn’t come to the fair. Ye-es,
I suppose that was a proposal. The man ought
to know, shouldn’t he?”
Francis was tired; he had a consciousness
of having behaved unkindly that weighed him down and
made for gloom. He had come in with Marjorie
for the purpose of delivering an imposing warning.
But he couldn’t help laughing.
“I suppose so,” he acknowledged.
“Never mind, Marjorie, you didn’t really
want him, did you?”
She shook her head.
“Oh, no. Nobody could.
Or wait, somebody must, because I think
he’s married. But he wasn’t the
kind a girl that cared what she got wanted.”
But Francis went back to Pennington.
“About Pennington,” he
began again. “You don’t know how
easy it is for you to let a man think you’re
encouraging him, when you really aren’t saying
a word or doing a thing, or think you aren’t.
I want you to promise me you’ll be very careful
where he’s concerned, even cold.”
“Cold!” she said indignantly.
“But I’m married! You seem to forget
that!”
Francis had not forgotten it in the
least. He forgot it all too little for his own
comfort, he might have told her. But he was rebuked.
“I didn’t know you went
on the principle that you had to act exactly like
a regular married woman,” he apologized with
meekness.
“I do,” she said shortly.
He rose and went over to where the
banjo lay and brought it back to her. It was
growing dusk now in the little cabin.
“Play for me, and sing, won’t
you, Marjorie?” he asked abruptly. “I
haven’t heard you for a long time.”
In Marjorie’s mind there arose
the memory of that boyish, loving little note that
she had found under the banjo, and for a minute her
throat clutched so that she couldn’t answer.
She had moments of being so intolerably sorry for
Francis that it hurt; quite irrational moments, when
he seemed to need it not at all. This was one.
“Yes,” she said, pulling
herself together. “That is, if you will
take my word for it that I have no designs on poor
old Mr. Pennington.”
“Of course I know you haven’t,”
he said. “It was the other way about that
I was afraid of.”
“His having designs on me?”
She laughed aloud as she began tuning
her strings. It did seem like the funniest thing
she had ever heard. The picture of Pennington,
girt with a sack for an apron, with that plump, quaint
face of his, and those kindly, fussy ways, drying
cups for her and having designs while he did it it
was enough to make even Logan laugh, and he
had never been known to be amused by anything that
wasn’t intellectual humor.
“Just a-wearyin’ for you,”
she began, in her soft little sympathetic
voice, that wasn’t much good for anything but
just this sort of thing, but could pull the heartstrings
out of you at it, and sang it through. She went
on after that without being asked, just because she
liked it. She knew where the simple chords were
in the dark, and she sang everything she wanted to,
forgetting finally Francis, and the woods, and everything
else in the world except the music and the old things
she was singing.
When she had finally done, after an
hour or so, and laid the banjo across her lap and
leaned back with a little laugh, saying “There!
You must be tired by this time!” Francis rose
with scarcely a thank-you, and walked out of the door.
“I want a turn in the air before I come to bed,”
he said.
Marjorie said nothing. She was
sleepy, as usual would she never get over
being sleepy up here? and she laid the instrument
on the floor and stretched out thoughtlessly on the
window-seat, instead of going off to bed as she had
been intending to do. As for her husband, he
walked across the veranda straight into a group of
his listening men. The music had drawn them over,
and, regardless of mosquitoes, they were sitting about
on the steps, liking the concert.
“We owe you a vote of thanks
for importing that little wife of yours, Ellison,”
said Pennington, getting up and stretching himself
widely in the moonlight. “Maybe if I do
some more dishes for her, she’ll come and sing
for us when she knows it, sometime soon.”
Francis had an irrational wish to
hit Pennington. But there was no reason why
he should. Pennington’s particular kind
of flippancy was merely a result of his having been,
in those far days before he was a remittance man,
an Oxford graduate. So was his soft and charmingly
inflected voice. But, quite reasonlessly, it
was all Francis could do to respond with the politeness
which is due to your almost irreplaceable second-in-command
on a rush job. His manners once made, he decided
that he didn’t want the air, after all.
He faced about, saying good-night to the risen men,
who responded jovially or respectfully, according
to their temperaments, and returned to the cabin where
he was, for all they knew, living an idyllic life with
the wife he adored and who adored him.
He went over, drawn in spite of himself,
to the window-seat where Marjorie lay. There
was enough moonlight to see her dimly, and he could
tell that she had, all in a minute, fallen asleep.
She looked very young and tired and childish in the
shadows, with her lips just parted, and her hands
out and half open at her sides.
“Marjorie! Marjorie, dear!”
he said. “Wake up! It’s time
you were in bed.”
He spoke to her affectionately, scarcely
knowing that he said it. She was very tired,
and she did not wake till he put his hand on her shoulder.
Even then she just moved a little, and turned back
to her old position.
He finally bent and lifted her to
a sitting position, but she only lay against him,
heavy still with sleep.
“Don’t want to get up,”
she murmured, like a child. So finally he had
to do as he had done the night he brought her home,
pick her up bodily and lay her on her own bed.
Her arms fell from his shoulders as he straightened
himself from laying her down. “’Night,”
she said, still sleepily and half-affectionately;
and Francis did not kiss her good-night. But
he did want to badly. Francis, unlike Marjorie,
was not sleeping well these nights.
But then he was used to his work and
she was not used to hers. He called her quite
unemotionally next morning, and she rose and went
through her routine as usual. All the camp watched
its mascot apprehensively, as if she might break well,
not every one, for two of them were tough old souls
who thought that hard work was what women were “fur.”
But, aside from these unregenerates, they did more.
Fired by Pennington’s example of unremitting
help, they did everything for her that thought could
suggest. They brought her in posies for the
table; they swept out the cabin for her; they dried
her dishes in desperate competition; they filled the
kerosene stoves so thoroughly that there was always
a dripping trail of oil on the floor, and Pennington
had to lay down the law about it; they ate what she
fed them gladly, and even sometimes forbore to ask
for more out of a wish to seem mannerly.
And Marjorie liked it to the core.
The lightening of the work was a help, and it made
things so that she was not more than healthfully tired,
though sometimes she felt that she was more than that;
but, being a woodland queen, as Pennington called
it, was pleasantest of all. She came to feel
as the time went on, there alone in the clearing with
them, that they were all her property. She mended
their clothes for them, she settled their disputes,
she heard their confidences and saw the pictures of
their sweethearts and wives, or, sometimes, photographs
of movie queens who were the dream-ideals of these
simple souls. Sometimes she went out to the
place where they worked, before the work moved too
far away for her to reach it in a short time.
And, curiously enough, she found that she was not
lonely, did not miss New York, and it seemed
to her that it was a rather shocking way to feel she
did not in the least feel a “lack of woman’s
nursing, or dearth of woman’s tears.”
She got along excellently without
Lucille, Cousin Anna, and the girls in the office.
And, thinking it over sometimes at twilight, in those
rare moments when there weren’t from one to three
of the men grouped adoringly around her, and Francis
wasn’t chaperoning her silently in the background,
she felt that the work was a small price to pay for
the pleasantness of the rest of her life there.
Always before she had been a cog in the machinery,
wherever she had been. At Cousin Anna’s
she was a little girl, loved and dominated.
With Lucille she was free, but Lucille, in compensation,
helped herself to the ungrudgingly given foreground.
But here she was lady and mistress, and pet besides.
In short, the punishment Francis had laid out for
her was only a punishment to him. She could
see that he felt guilty by spells. She thought,
too, that he had times of being fond of her.
How much they meant she could not tell. But
in spite of his warnings she became better and better
friends with Pennington, always exactly, at least as
far as she was concerned, as if he were a maiden aunt
of great kindness and experience. Indeed, Pennington,
she thought, was what kept her from missing girls
so.
He never told her anything about himself.
He might or might not have been a remittance man;
but he mentioned no remittances, at least. Once
he spoke of his childhood, the kind of childhood she
had read sometimes in English children’s books,
not like her own prim American suburban memories of
Sunday-school and being sent to school and store, and
sometimes playing in her back yard with other little
girls. He had had a pony, and brothers and sisters
to play with, and a governess, she gathered; and an
uncle who was an admiral, and came home once to them
in his full uniform, as a treat, so they could see
how he looked in it. And there had been a nurse,
and near by was a park where the tale went that there
were goblins. But it all must have been very
long ago, she thought, because Pennington looked forty
and over. And all his stories stopped short
before he was ten. After that he went to Eton,
he told her, and told her no more.
She did not ask. She liked him,
but, after all, he was not an important figure in
her life. The goal she never forgot was Francis’s
admission that she was an honorable woman; and, underneath
that, Francis’s missing her terribly when she
was through and left. Still, when Pennington
would come and demand tea from her of a Sunday, and
she would sit in her little living-room, or out on
the veranda, with the quaint yellow tea-set that was
a part of the furnishings, and pour it for him and
one or two of the other men, she would like having
him about. He talked as interestingly as Logan,
but not as egotistically. She felt as if she
were quite a wonderful person when he sat on the step
below her, and surrounded her with a soft deference
that was almost caressing, but not quite. And
in spite of Francis’s warnings she made more
and more of a friend of him.
The explosion came one Sunday afternoon
in June. She came out on the veranda, as usual,
with her tea-tray, about four, and waited for her
court. Peggy came over once in awhile on Sundays,
too. Logan never came. Peggy had never
said any more about him since her one outburst, but
Marjorie knew that he was ill yet, and being nursed
by the O’Maras. This day no Peggy appeared.
Indeed, nobody appeared for some time, and Marjorie
began to think of putting away the tea-things and considering
the men’s supper. And then, just as she
had come to this resolve, Pennington came through
the woods.
He was not sauntering in a seemingly
aimless manner, as he usually did. He was walking
straight for her, as if she were something he had been
aiming for for hours. And he did not drop at
her feet negligently on the steps, as he usually did,
and call her some fanciful name like “Queen
of the Woodlands,” or “Lady Marjorie.”
He sat erectly on a chair across from her, and Marjorie
bethought herself that he was very much like a curate
making a call. The kindly expression was always
on his face, even when he was most deeply in earnest,
and he was apparently in earnest to-day.
“I stopped the other men from
coming,” began Pennington with no preface.
“I wanted to have a long talk with you.
I want to tell you a story.”
“I wish you would,” she
said, though she had had so many scenes of late that,
without any idea what was coming, a little tremor of
terror crept around her heart. She leaned back
in her rustic rocker, there on the veranda, and looked
at him in her innocent, friendly fashion. He
paused a little before he began.
“Once upon a time,” he
began abruptly, “there was a man who had a very
fair start in life. His people saw to it that
everything was smooth for him too smooth,
perhaps. He didn’t realize that he could
ever be in a position where they wouldn’t be
able to straighten things out for him. He was
a decent enough chap; weak, perhaps, but kind, at least.
He went to school and college, and finally took orders,
and was given a living in a county near where his
people lived. Life went along easily enough
for him, and perhaps a bit stupidly. Too stupidly.
He got bored by it. So after a while he gambled.
He played the stock-market. Presently he used
some money that was not his that had been
intrusted to him by another. He lost that.
So he had to give up everything home,
friends, profession, country and go and
live in a strange country. His people, good
always, straightened things out for him, at a great
sacrifice; but they made it a condition that he should
stay where he was. Time went on, and things were
forgotten. And the people who had made him promise
not to return died. They left him, in dying,
some money. Not a great deal, but enough to keep
him comfortably. And he didn’t know what
to do. He was happy, for the first time in his
life, with a little friend he had found, some one
almost like a daughter, some one who seemed, in humble
ways, to need him to help her in what wasn’t
a very easy part of her life. So he stayed yet
a little longer. And presently he found that
he was in danger of something happening. He
had never been very good at making himself feel as
he wished to feel, or at holding his feelings to what
they should be, let us say. And his feelings
for this little daughter were not quite, he was afraid,
like a father’s. But he still did not
know what to do, Marjorie. She would never care,
and there were reasons why he did not want or expect
her to. It was only that he wondered which was
right which he ought to do.”
Pennington stopped.
Marjorie colored up.
“What what do you mean? Why why
do you tell me about it?”
“Because,” said Pennington,
“I would like to know what you think that man
ought to do. Ought he to go back home, against
his people’s wish, but where he belongs, and
try to pick up the rest of his life there, or do you
think that the need of him over here is enough to counterbalance
the danger he runs? You see, it’s rather
a problem.”
Marjorie was a perfectly intelligent
girl. She knew very well that Pennington was,
at last, telling her the outlines of his own pitiful
story. And he was leaving the decision in her
hands.
She sat quietly for awhile, and tried
to think. It was hard to think, because there
was a queer, hazy feeling in her head, and her hands
were hot. She had felt unusually excited and
energetic and gay earlier in the day, but that was
all gone, and only the hazy feeling left. She
did not want to move, or, particularly, to speak.
She wondered if a trip she had made that afternoon
before to a little swampy place, where she had sat
and strung berries for an hour, had been bad for her.
But there was Pennington he
looked very large, suddenly, and then seemed to fade
away far off for a minute, and have to be focused with
an effort and he had to be answered.
“I think,” she said hesitatingly,
“that he ought to do what seemed to him right,
without thinking of his feelings, or or
any one else’s.”
“But that’s just the trouble.
He couldn’t see which was right.”
Marjorie tried to focus harder than
ever. She wanted to be unselfish, and tell him
the thing that was right to do, at any cost though
she had not realized how much Pennington’s help
and society had been to her. She felt a terror
at the idea of his going, the more because she felt
ill. But that didn’t count that
mustn’t count. You have no right to let
a man stay where he may fall in love with you, merely
because you need him for a maiden aunt or something
of the sort. And that was the ultimate and entire
extent of her affection for him, strong though it
had come to be.
“I think I think
that man had better go back to the place where he had
really belonged at first,” she said in a low
voice. “No matter how much the girl missed
him, or needed him, she had no right to want him to
be hurt by staying near her.”
“You really think that?” he said.
“Yes,” she answered.
And then incoherently, “Oh, Mr. Pennington,
I do want to be good!”
She meant that she had done enough
wrong, in acting as she had toward Francis in the
first place. She felt now, very strongly, that
all the trouble had come from her cowardice when Francis
came home. She should have shut her teeth and
gone through the thing, no matter what her personal
feelings had been at first. It would all have
come out right then. She knew now that she and
Francis, the plunge once taken, could have stood each
other. And she would have kept her faith.
She had learned the meaning of honor.
“You are good,” said Pennington
in a moved tone. “Then I have
my answer. Yes I’ll go back.”
She leaned her heavy head on the chair-back
again. He seemed once more suddenly remote.
“I I wish you weren’t
going,” she said, only half conscious of what
she said.
He leaned forward, suddenly moved,
and caught her hand hard. Still in that dream,
she felt him kiss it. She did not care.
And then, still in the dream, Francis’s quick
tread up the steps, and his sharp voice
“And I believed in you!”