She looked at him in a blind sort
of way. His words made only a hazy impression;
but neither of the men could know that.
“Believed in me?” she
echoed, smiling faintly. “Why, did you?”
“Yes,” said Francis with
a concentrated fury that reached even her confused
senses. “But I never will again!
I thought I was beginning to think you
were the sort of woman you said. But you’re
just a flirt. Any man is better than the one
you’re married to.”
“I I think you want
me to go,” she said, trying to see him.
She could see two Francises, as a matter of fact,
neither of them clearly.
“Yes, I do. Either of
these men you’ve befooled can see you on your
way. And I’ll start divorce proceedings,
or you may, immediately.”
He said more than that; but that was
all she could get. The words hurt her, in spite
of their lack of meaning. Francis hated her;
he thought she was a bad girl, who never kept her
word. And she wasn’t.
“I I want to be good,”
she said aimlessly, as she had said to Pennington
a little earlier. “I” she
lost the thread again “I’ll
go.”
She rose, dropping the cup and saucer
on her knee, and not stopping to pick them up.
She caught hold of the doorpost to carry her in, and
dropped down on a seat inside. It was not that
she was weak, but she felt giddy. She wondered
again if it was the swamp. Probably. She
finally made her way back to her own room, mixed herself
some spirits of ammonia and took it, and sat down
to pull herself together. Through the wooden
partition she could hear the furious voices of the
men on the porch outside. She wondered if Francis
would say more dreadful things to her while he took
her over in the side-car. She hoped not.
Presently the dizziness departed for
a few minutes, and she tried to pack. She did
not seem able to manage it. If she was allowed
to stay at the Lodge with the O’Maras, she could
send Peggy over to gather up her things. Yes,
that would be the best way to do.
She pinned on her hat and drew her
cloak around her, just as she was, and came out.
Pennington and Francis were standing up, facing her,
and having a quarrel which might last some time.
“I’m ready,” she said weakly.
She knew she should have stood up
there, and told Francis how unkind and unjust and
bad-tempered and jealous he was, and defend herself
from his accusations. But she was too tired
to do it; and besides, words seemed so far away, and
feelings seemed far away, too. Francis and the
work at the cabin and Pennington, with his kind, plump,
rueful face, and even the O’Maras and Logan,
seemed suddenly unreal and of little account.
The only thing that really mattered was a chance to
go somewhere and lie down and sleep. Perhaps
she could lean back a little in the side-car as he
took her over.
Francis broke off short in what he
was saying, and went without looking at her toward
the place where he kept his motor-cycle. Perhaps
he thought that it did not matter, now, whether he
left her with Pennington or not.
Pennington, for his part, turned around he
had been standing so that his back was toward her and
began to speak. Marjorie thought he was saying
something to the effect that he was very sorry that
he had made this trouble for her, and that he had
been trying to explain; and thought he could make
Francis hear reason when he had cooled off.
“It doesn’t really matter,”
she said wearily. “Only tell him to hurry,
because I’m so sleepy.”
She sank into the chair where she
had been sitting before Francis appeared, and leaned
back and shut her eyes. Pennington, with a concerned
look on his face, came nearer her at that, and looked
down at her, reaching down to feel her pulse.
She moved her hand feebly away.
“Francis wouldn’t
like it,” she said; and that was the last thing
she remembered distinctly, though afterwards when
she tried she seemed to recall hearing Pennington,
very far off in the distance, calling peremptorily,
“Ellison! Ellison! Come here at once!”
She wondered faintly why Pennington
should want to hurry him up. It was about this
time that she quietly slipped sidewise from her chair,
and was in a little heap on the veranda before he could
turn and catch her, or Francis could respond to the
summons.
“This is what you’ve done,”
was what Pennington said quietly when Francis reappeared.
He did not offer to touch Marjorie or pick her up.
Francis flung himself down on his
knees beside his wife. Then he looked up at
Pennington, with a last shade of suspicion in his eyes.
“What do you think it is?”
he asked. “Is she really fainting?”
“You young fool, no!” said Pennington.
“She’s ill.”
“Ill!” said Francis, and
gathered her up and laid her on the settee at the
other end of the porch. “What’s the
matter, do you think? Is it serious?”
His words were quiet enough, but there
was a note of anguish in his voice which made Pennington
sorry for him in spite of himself. But he did
not show much mercy.
“It is probably overwork,”
he said. “We’ve all done what we
could to spare her, but a child like this shouldn’t
be put at drudgery, even to satisfy the most jealous
or selfish man. You’ve had a china cup,
my lad, and you’ve used it as if it was tin.
And it’s broken, that’s all.”
Francis looked down at Marjorie, holding
her head in his arms. It lay back limply.
Her eyes were half open, and her heart, as he put
his hand over it, was galloping. Her cheeks
were beginning to be scarlet, and her hand, when he
reached down and touched it, burned. He looked
up at Pennington with an unconscious appeal, unmindful
of the older man’s harsh words.
“Do you think she’ll die?” he asked.
“I have no way of knowing.
If she does, you have the consolation of knowing
that you’ve done what you could toward it.”
“Oh, my God, don’t, Pennington!”
cried out Francis, clutching Marjorie tighter unconsciously.
“It’s as true as gospel. But let
up now. Get somebody. Do something, for
heaven’s sake! You know about medicine
a little, don’t you?”
“Take her inside and put her
to bed,” Pennington commanded shortly.
“I’ll take your motor-cycle and go for
Mother O’Mara. I can get a doctor from
there by to-morrow, perhaps.”
Francis gathered the limp little body
up again without a word. Only he turned at the
door for a last appeal.
“Can’t you tell at all what it is?”
“Fever, I think. She’s
caught malarial fever, perhaps. She wouldn’t
have done if she’d been stronger. Take
her in.”
So Francis carried his wife over the
threshold, into the little brown room he had decked
for her so long ago, and laid her down again.
Her head fell back on the pillow, and her hands lay
as he dropped them. He stood back and looked
at her, a double terror in his heart. She would
never love him again. How could she? And
she would die surely she would die, and
he had killed her.
“I’m going,”
she said very faintly, as a sleep-talker speaks.
She was not conscious of what she said, but it was
the last straw for Francis. He had not slept
nor eaten lately, and he had worked double time all
day to keep his mind from the state of things, ever
since he had brought her back. So perhaps it
was not altogether inexcusable that he flung himself
on the floor by the bedside and broke down.
He was aroused after awhile by the
touch of Marjorie’s hand. He lifted his
head, thinking she had come to and touched him knowingly.
But he saw that it was only that she was tossing
a little, with the restlessness of the fever, and
his heart went down again.
He pulled himself up from the bedside,
and went doggedly at his work of undressing her and
putting her to bed.
She was as easy to handle as a child;
and once or twice, when he had to lift or turn her
in the process of undressing, he could feel how light
she was, and that she was thinner. She had always
been a little thing, but the long weeks of work had
made her almost too thin not too thin for
her own tastes, because, like all the rest of the women
of the present, she liked it; but thin enough to give
Francis a fresh pang of remorse. He felt like
a slave-driver.
When he had finished his task, he
stood back, and wondered if there was anything else
he could do before Pennington came back with Mrs. O’Mara,
and with or without a doctor. He felt helpless,
and as if he had to stand there and watch her die.
He got water and tried to make her drink it ineffectually he
filled a hot water bottle and brought it in, and then
thought better of it. She had a fever already.
Then he thought of bathing her in cold water; but
he could not bring himself to do that. He had
already done enough that she would hate him for, in
the way of undressing her. He must never tell
her he had done that. . . . But she would hate
him anyway. So he ended by sitting miserably
down on the floor beside her, and waiting the interminable
hours that the time seemed until the others returned.
He had expected Mrs. O’Mara
to reproach him, as Pennington had, as being the person
to blame for Marjorie’s state. But the
dear soul, comforting as always, said nothing of the
sort. She said very little of any sort, indeed;
she merely laid off the bonnet and cloak she had come
in, and went straight at her work of looking after
Marjorie. Only on her way she stopped to give
Francis a comforting pat on the shoulder.
“It’s not so bad but it
might be worse,” she said. “Anybody
might git them fevers without a stroke of work done.
An’ she’s young an’ strong.”
Francis looked up at her in mute gratitude
from where he sat.
“An’ now clear out, lie
down and rest, down on the couch or annywhere ye like,
till I see what’s to be done to this girl,”
she went on.
He went out without a word, and sat
down on the window-seat, where the banjo lay, still,
and picked it up mechanically. He could see
Marjorie, now, with it in her hands, singing to it
for the men or, sometimes, just for him.
How gay she had been through everything, and how
plucky, and how sweet! And just because she was
gay he had thought she was selfish and fickle, and
didn’t care. And because she had never
said anything about how hard the work was, he had thought he
could forgive himself even less for this that
it wasn’t hard. Looking back, he could
see not one excuse for himself except in his carrying
her off. That might have worked all right, if
he could have kept his temper. He let his mind
stray back over what might have been; suppose he had
accepted Logan’s following her up here as just
what it was the whim of a man in love with
Marjorie. Suppose he had believed that Pennington
could kiss his wife’s hand without meaning any
harm; suppose, in fine, that he had believed in Marjorie’s
desire and intention to do right, even if she had
been a coward for a few minutes to begin with?
Then why, then
By this time, perhaps, he could have
won her back. If he had not laid down the law
to her if he had not put her to the test.
What business had a man in love to make terms, anyhow?
It was for him to accept what terms Marjorie had
chosen to make for him.
He flung himself down on his knees
by the window-seat, heedless of any one who might
come or go.
“Oh, God,” prayed Francis
passionately, as he did everything. “Give
me another chance! Let her get well, and give
me one little chance then to have her forgive me!
I don’t care what else happens if that only
does!”
He did not know how long he knelt
there, praying with such intensity that he sprang
aside when some one touched him on the shoulder.
“She’s goin’ to
be all right in the long run,” said Mrs. O’Mara.
“I gev’ her a wee drink o’ water,
an’ she kem to herself fur a minute. An’
I says, ‘Me dear, where did ye git yer fever?’
An’ she says, ’The swamp, I think.
Don’t I have to travel to-day? I’m
in bed.’ An’ I says, ‘Not
to-day nor anny day till ye want, me child,’
and she turns over an’ snuggles down like a
lamb. An’ I’ve sponged her off with
cool water, an’ she feels better, though she’s
off agin, an’ I’m afraid the fever’ll
be runnin’ up on us before the doctor can git
here.”
“You mean she isn’t sensible
now?” demanded Francis, whose eyes had lighted
up with hope when she began to speak.
“Well, not so’s ye could
talk to her. An’ ye might excite her.
Them they loves does often.”
“Then I wouldn’t,”
said Francis recklessly. “Oh, Mother O’Mara,
I’ve been such a brute ”
“Hush, hush now, don’t
ye be tellin’ me. Sure we’re all
brutes wanst in awhile. Ye feel that way because
the child’s sick. Now go out and watch
fer the doctor, or do annything else that’ll
amuse ye.”
He obeyed her as if he were a little
boy. He was so miserable that he would have
done what any one told him just then if
Logan, even, with his cane and his superciliousness,
had given him a direction he would probably have obeyed
it blindly.
Mrs. O’Mara went back to the
sick-room. How much she knew of the situation
she never told. But Peggy was not a secretive
person, and Peggy had arrived at a point with Logan
where he told her a good deal, if she coaxed.
They never got it out of the old lady, at any rate.
Marjorie was quieter, but still not
herself. Mrs. O’Mara, who was an experienced
nurse, did not like the way she had collapsed so completely.
She was afraid it was going to be a hard illness,
and she knew Francis was breaking his heart over it.
“Still it may be a blessin’
in a way,” she said half aloud. “You
never can tell in this world o’ grief and danger.
I wonder has she people besides Mr. Francis.
They’ve never either of them said.”
The doctor came and went, and Monday
morning dawned, when Francis had to go to work whether
or no. And Pennington quietly took over Marjorie’s
duties again, and the men tiptoed up to the cabin where
she lay, and asked about her anxiously, and young
Peggy came over and took turns with her mother in
the nursing, and Logan, much more robust and tanned
than he had been in several years of New York life
in heated apartments, came with her and sat on the
porch waiting till she came out; and Francis saw him
there, and thought nothing of it except that he was
grateful to him for being interested in Marjorie.
He realized now that it was all he
need ever have thought. But he realized so many
things now, when it might be too late!
The days went on relentlessly.
Finally they decided to send for her cousin, the
only relative she had. Francis was a little doubtful
as to the wisdom of this, for he knew that Marjorie
had never been very happy with her cousin, but it
was one of those things which seem to have to be done.
And just as they had come to this resolution; a resolution
which felt to Francis like giving up all hope, Marjorie
took a little turn for the better.
It was not much to see. She
was a little quieter, that was all, and the nursing
did not have to be so intensive. Mrs. O’Mara
and Peggy did not feel that they had to sit with her
all the time; there were periods when she was left
alone. Francis felt more bitterly than anything
else that he had to go on with his work, instead of
staying in the house every moment, but it was better
for him. He would have driven the O’Maras
mad, they told him frankly, walking up and down, looking
repentant. Peggy was not quite softened to him
yet; but the older woman was so sorry for him that
any feelings she may have had about the way he had
behaved were swallowed up in sympathy.
“And it isn’t as if he
weren’t gettin’ his comeuppance, Peg,”
she reminded her intolerant young daughter.
“Sure annything he made her suffer he’s
payin’ for twice over and again to that.”
“And a very good thing, too,”
retorted Peggy, who was just coming off duty, and
casting an eye toward the window to see where Logan
was. He was exactly where she wished, waiting
with what, for him, was eagerness, to go off through
the woods with her.
“I suppose, now ye’ve
a man trailin’ ye, there’s nothin’
ye don’t know,” said her mother.
“And him a heretic, if not a heathen itself.
I’ve only to say to ye, keep yer own steps clean,
Peggy.”
“He is a heathen he
doesn’t believe a blessed thing; he said so
himself!” said Peggy with what sounded like triumph.
“The more reason for me to convert him, poor
dear! Empty things are easier filled than full
ones. If he was like them in there, with a religion
of his own, I wouldn’t have a show. But
as it is, I have my hopes.”
“Oh, it’s converting him
you are! Tell that to the pigs!” said her
mother scornfully. “And now go on; I suppose
you’re taking a prayer book and a rosary along
with you in that picnic basket.”
“No,” said Peggy reluctantly.
“I’m softening his heart first.”
She had the grace to giggle a little
as she said it, and the O’Mara sense of humor
rode triumphant over both of them then, and they parted,
laughing. Francis, entering on one of his frequent
flying trips from work to see how Marjorie was, felt
as if they were heartless.
Mrs. O’Mara, at the sight of
his tired, unhappy young face, sobered down with one
of her quick Irish transitions.
“Ah, sure now it’s the
best of news. The doctor’s been, and he
says she’s better. So it won’t be
necessary to send after the old aunt or cousin or
whatever, that ye say she wasn’t crazy over.
Come in an’ see her.”
Francis, a new hope in his heart,
tiptoed into the little brown bedroom where Marjorie
lay. It was too much to hope that she would know
him. She had been either delirious or asleep under
narcotics through the days of her fever.
And once or twice when she had spoken rationally,
it had never been Francis who had happened to be near
at the time.
She lay quite quietly, with her eyes
shut, and her long lashes trailing on her cheeks.
When Francis came in she opened her eyes as if it
was a trouble to make that much effort. She
was very weak. But she looked at him intelligently,
and even lifted one hand a little from the coverlet,
as if she wanted to be polite and welcome him.
He had been warned not to make any fuss or say anything
exciting, if this should come; so he only sat down
across from her and tried to speak naturally.
“Do you know me, Marjorie?”
he asked, trying to make his voice sound as it always
sounded. But it was a little hoarse.
She spoke, in a thread of a voice,
that yet had a little mockery in it. She seemed
to have taken things up where she dropped them.
“Yes, thank you. You’re
my sort of husband. This this is really
too bad of me, Francis. But, anyway, it was
your swamp!”
Just the old, mocking, smiling Marjorie,
or her shadow. But it did not make him angry
now; it seemed so piteous that he should have brought
her to this. The swamp faded to nothingness as
a cause of her illness when he compared it to his
own behavior.
“Marjorie,” he asked,
very gently so as not to disturb her, “would
it be too exciting if I talked to you a little bit
about things, and told you how sorry I was?”
“Why no,” she said weakly,
shutting her eyes.
“I was wrong, from start to
finish,” he said impetuously. “I’m
sorry. I want you to forgive me.”
“Why, certainly,” she
said, so indifferently that his heart sank. It
did not occur to him that he had never said that he
cared for her at all.
“Is there anything I could get
you?” he asked futilely as he felt.
“I’d like to see Mr. Pennington.
He was kind to me.”
“Marjorie, Marjorie, won’t you ever forgive
me for the way I acted?”
“Oh, yes,” she said, lying
with shut eyes, so quiet that her lips scarcely moved
when she talked. “I said so. But
you haven’t been kind. It’s like don’t
you know, when you get a little dog used to being
struck it gets so it cowers when you speak to it, no
matter if you aren’t going to strike it that
time. I don’t want to be hurt any more.
I don’t love Pennington he’s
too funny-looking, and awfully old. But he was
kind he never hurt my feelings. . . .”
She spoke without much inflection,
and using as few words as she could. When she
had finished she still lay there, as silent and out
of Francis’s reach as if she were dead.
He tiptoed out with a sick feeling that everything
was over, which he had never had before. She
was so remote. She cared so little about anything.
He went back to work, and told Pennington
that Marjorie wanted to see him. When the day
was over he returned to the cabin again, and found
Mrs. O’Mara on duty once more. Pennington
sat by Marjorie, holding her hand in his, and speaking
to her occasionally. Francis looked at him,
and spoke to him courteously. Pennington smiled
at him, and stayed where he was. Marjorie, Mrs.
O’Mara said, seemed to cling to him, and his
presence did her good. And she broke
it as gently as she could though the patient
was on the road to getting well now, she was disturbed
by his coming in and out. She seemed afraid of
him.
Francis took it very quietly.
After that he only came to the bedroom door to ask,
and stepped as softly as he could, so that she would
not even know he had been there. And time went
on, and she got better, and presently could be dressed
in soft, loose, fluffy things, and lie out on the
veranda during the warmest part of the day, and see
people for a little while each. It was about
this time that Francis went to sleep at the bunk-house.
“Why doesn’t Francis ever
come to see me?” she asked finally. “There
are a great many things I want to know about.”
Pennington, whom she had asked, told her gently.
“We thought the physician
thought that he upset you a little when
you were beginning to be better. He is staying
away on purpose. Would you like to see him?”
“Yes, I think I would,”
she said. “Can Peggy come talk to me?”
Peggy could, of course. She
came dashing up, from some sylvan nook where she had
been secluded, presumably with Logan, fell on Marjorie
with hearty good-will and many kisses, and demanded
to know what she could do.
“I I want to see
Francis and talk to him about a lot of things,”
said Marjorie, “and I thought perhaps if you’d
get me a mirror and a little bit of powder, and ”
“Say no more!” said Peggy.
“I know what you want as well as if you’d
told me all. I’ll be out in a minute with
everything in the world.”
She returned with her arms full of
toilet things, and for fifteen minutes helped Marjorie
look pretty. She finished by brushing out her
hair and arranging it loosely in curls, with a big
ribbon securing it, like Mary Pickford or one of her
rivals. She touched Marjorie’s face with
a little perfume to flush it, and draped her picturesquely
against the back of the long chair, with a silk shawl
over her instead of the steamer rug which Mrs. O’Mara,
less artistic than utilitarian, had provided.
“There,” she said, “you
look like a doll, or an angel, or anything else out
of a storybook. Now I’ll get Francis.”