When Roderick stepped on board the
night train for Montreal he was surprised and pleased
to find Doctor Archie Blair bustling into the opposite
compartment. That delightful person, with a suit-case,
a pile of medical journals, a copy of Burns, and a
new book of poems, had left Algonquin the day before,
and was now setting out on a tremendous journey all
the way to Halifax, to attend a great medical congress.
He welcomed his young fellow-townsman hilariously,
pulled him into his seat, jammed him into a corner,
and scowling fiercely, with his fists brandished in
the young man’s face and his eyes flashing, he
spent an hour demonstrating to Roderick that he had
just discovered a young Canadian singer of the spirit
if not the power of his great Scottish bard.
The other occupants of the sleeping-car watched the
violent big man with the terrible eye, nervously expecting
him every moment to spring upon his young victim and
throttle him. But to those who were within earshot,
the sternest thing he said was,
“Then gently scan thy brother
man,
Still gentler sister woman,
Though they may gang a keenin’ wrang,
To step aside is human.”
The charm of the doctor’s conversation,
drove away much of Roderick’s homesickness and
despondency, but it could not make him forget the pain
in his arm, which was hourly growing more insistent.
“And so you’re leaving
Algonquin for good,” said Archie Blair at last,
when the black porter sent them to the smoker while
he made up their berths. “Well, there’s
a great future ahead of you in that firm. Not
many young fellows have such a chance as that.
I wish Ed could have gone away before you left, though,
to Jericho, or Sodom and Gomorrah, or wherever it
is he and J. P. Thornton are heading for.”
Archie Blair, as every one in Algonquin
knew, lived as near to the rules of life set forth
in the Bible as any man in the town. But he
delighted in being known as a wicked and irreligious
person, and always made a fine pretence at being at
sea when speaking of anything Scriptural.
“Yes, sir, it’s rather
hard on old Ed; and there’s J. P. too.
He’s been waiting for Ed ever since the Holy
Land was discovered, as faithfully as Ruth waited
for Jacob or whoever it was. I can’t remember
when those two chaps weren’t planning to take
that trip, and it looks as if they’d get to
the New Jerusalem first. Cracky, now, I believe
you were the one that stopped their first trip and
here you’re interrupting another one!”
He laughed delightedly.
“I?” inquired Roderick. “How
was that?”
“Oh, Ed wouldn’t say so.
He’d be sure it was the hand of Providence.
It was the time you went off hunting the rainbow and
got lost, don’t you remember? and your father
got sick on the head of it. Ed stayed home that
time.”
“But it was Jock McPherson who
came to poor father’s rescue that time,”
said Roderick. “Lawyer Ed told me himself.”
Doctor Blair made a grimace.
“Roderick McRae,” he said,
after a moment, “I have a fatal weakness.
I suppose it’s the poet in me. I like
to think it is. I’m forever pouring out
the thoughts of my inmost heart which I really ought
to keep to myself. That was the way with Bobby
ye mind:
’Is there a whim-inspired fool
Owre fast for thought, owe hot for rule.’
And here I’ve been telling tales
I should keep tae ma’sel!”
“Well, you’ve got to finish,
now that you’ve started,” cried Roderick.
“Do you mean to tell me that Lawyer Ed-”
“No, I don’t mean to tell
you anything, but I’ve done it, and I might
as well make a full confession. Of course it
was Lawyer Ed did it. He always does things
like that, he’s got them scattered all over the
country.”
“But-why didn’t
I know?” cried Roderick sharply. “And
what did he do?”
“Because he didn’t want
it. I’m the only person in Algonquin that
knows, except J. P., of course. J. P. knows the
innermost thoughts that pass through Ed’s mind.
There’s another secret between us three.”
He smiled half-sadly. “I suppose, though,
your father knows this one-that Ed was
to have married J. P.’s only sister. She
was tall and willowy and just like a flower, and she
died a week before the wedding day. They buried
her in her white satin wedding dress with her veil
and orange blossoms.” Archie Blair’s
voice had sunk to a tender whisper. “I
saw her in her coffin, with a white lily in her hand.”
He was silent so long that Roderick
brought him back to the starting point. “But
you haven’t told me yet how he helped Father.”
So Archie Blair began at the beginning
and told him all, happily unconscious of how he was
harrowing Roderick’s feelings in the telling.
It was the old story of his father’s mortgage,
his own hunt for the rainbow, which, the doctor declared,
argued that he should have been a poet, his father’s
illness, and Lawyer Ed’s postponement of his
trip, and greatest of all, his setting aside of the
chance to leave Algonquin as partner with his old
chum, William Graham, now millionaire.
“Your father sort of brought
Ed up, you know, Rod, made him walk the straight and
narrow way as he has done with many a man. I
want to take my hat off every time I see that father
of yours.” He saw the distress in Roderick’s
face and was rather disconcerted. “Your
father paid him every cent with interest, of course,
Lad, you know that,” he added hurriedly.
“But there are some things can’t be paid
in money. Well, well-where did I
start? Oh, at Jerusalem, and I’ve wandered
from Dan to Beersheba and haven’t got anywhere
yet. Well, that was how Ed got started on the
habit of staying home from the Holy Land, and he doesn’t
seem to be able to get out of it. You know it’s
a good thing. I’m always sorry Wordsworth
ever went to Yarrow. It’s a hundred times
better to keep your dream-country a dream.
’Be Yarrow stream unseen, unknown!
It must, or we shall rue it.’
And if he ever goes, it’ll never
be what he thinks. His dreams of Galilee and
the Rose of Sharon and Mount Carmel will vanish when
he sees the poor reality. You see, in his Palestine,
the Lord is always there.” He dropped
his voice-
“’And in those little lanes
of Nazareth
Each morn His holy feet would come and
go.’”
Roderick was not listening.
He sat with downcast eyes and burning cheek.
Lawyer Ed had done all this for his father, for him,-and
this was his reward! The man had given up his
chance in life for his father and then the son had
come and done this abominable thing. Surely the
gleam of the rainbow-gold was beginning to mock him
already. And yet, as he sat there, overcome
with humiliation, his mind was busy arranging swift
compromises, as it had always done. He would
pay Lawyer Ed, oh, five fold, and send him away for
a year’s travel. And yet when all his
generous schemes had been exhausted, he knew they were
not what Lawyer Ed wanted. It was the love and
devotion of his friend’s son he preferred above
all worldly gain.
He came to a knowledge of his surroundings,
called back by a sudden exclamation from the doctor.
“I believe you’re sick,
Rod! You look like an advanced and violent case
of sea-sickness.”
Roderick became conscious that his
arm was paining him severely and said so. He
could have said quite truthfully that the pain in his
heart was quite as bad.
“That old arm,” cried
Archie Blair in distress. “I tell you,
Lad, you’ve got to have that thing looked after.
Here, get to bed and I’ll have a look at it
when you’re undressed.”
He came into Roderick’s berth
later and with rough kindness handled the swollen,
aching limb. “I always told you something
would come of this,” he grumbled. “And
like everybody, you won’t listen till it’s
too late. There’s some serious trouble
there, Rod, or I’m very badly mistaken.
Now, look here, you promise me on your word and honour
you’ll go straight to a doctor when you get to
Montreal-to Doctor Nicholls. Here,
I’ll give you his address. Now, will you
promise to go to-morrow morning, or must I stop off
and miss my train to Halifax to see you do it?”
Roderick promised and lay down in
his berth, but not to sleep. The pain in his
arm was severe enough to keep him awake, but it was
no worse than his heartache. It was a tender
heart, not yet calloused by constant pursuit of selfish
aims. That state would certainly be arrived
at, on the road he was travelling, but he was still
young and his very soul was longing to go back to
his father and Lawyer Ed. Again and again he tried
to comfort himself with the promise that he would
make up to them for all they had done, oh, many times
over, and in the end, they would both realise that
the course he had pursued was for the best.
As he made this firm resolution, for
the tenth time, the train drew up at a little station
in the woods. Roderick looked out at the steam
hissing from beneath his window and the dim light in
the little station. He recognised it as the
junction, where a branch line ran from the main road,
across the country, through forest and by lake shore,
straight to Algonquin. The home train was approaching
now. He could hear its rumbling wheels and its
clanging bell far down the curving track, and the
next moment, with a flare of light upon the snow,
it came tearing up out of the forest and roared into
the little station. Its brilliant windows flashed
past his dazzled eyes. It stopped with a great
exhaled breath of relief and stood panting and puffing
after its long run. Roderick knew that if he
chose he could slip out, leap on that train and go
speeding away up through the forest and be in Algonquin
before morning. He felt for a moment an almost
irresistible impulse to do it, to fling away everything
and go back. But he would look like a fool, and
the people would laugh at him, and quite rightly.
He could not go back now.
There was a gentle movement, and slowly
and smoothly he began to glide past those home-going
lights. In a moment more he was speeding eastward
into the white night.
When he reached Montreal he went immediately
to the hotel. He was to meet Mr. Graham and
the head of the firm there that evening, when everything
regarding his immediate duties was to be settled.
He registered, and found a room awaiting him, a luxurious
room, finer than any he could afford. It was
the beginning of his new life. He went down
to breakfast, but could eat nothing, for the pain in
his arm. He was not at all averse to obeying
Dr. Blair’s injunction, and as soon as he went
back to his room, he telephoned the doctor whose address
he had been given. He felt a strange dizziness
and, fearing to go out, he asked if the doctor would
call. When Roderick gave the name of the firm
he represented, there was an immediate rise in the
temperature at the other end of the telephone.
Evidently the young lady in charge of Doctor Nicholls’s
office knew her business. All uncertainty as
to the physician’s movements immediately vanished.
Doctor Nicholls would call in the
course of half an hour if convenient to Mr. McRae,
he was just about to visit the Bellevue House in any
case.
Roderick felt again the advantages
of his new position. The sensation of power
was very pleasant, but it could not keep his arm from
aching. The pain grew steadily worse, until at
last he lay on the bed waiting impatiently.
In a short time there came a tap on
the door. Thinking it was the doctor, Roderick
sprang up relieved. But it was only the boy in
buttons with a telegram. He signed the paper
indifferently. Even the most urgent business
of Elliot & Kent could not arouse his interest, he
was feeling so sick and miserable and down-hearted.
He opened the yellow paper slowly, and then sprang
up with a cry that made the boy stop in the hall and
listen. Roderick stood in the middle of the room
reading the terse message again and again:
“Father ill. Come at once.”
E. L. Brians.
He leaped to the telephone, then dropped
the receiver at the sight of a railway guide he had
left upon the table. The first train he could
take for home left at fifteen minutes past three in
the afternoon. And it was not yet ten o’clock!
He sat down on the bed, a dread fear possessing his
soul. Wild surmises rushed through his mind.
What could have happened? It was not twenty-four
hours since he had seen his father standing in the
doorway waving him farewell, the sunlight on his face
and that gallant, anguished attempt at a smile!
Roderick groaned aloud as he remembered. He
took up the telegram again, striving to extract from
its cruelly brief words some inkling of what had preceded
it, some hope for the future.
A second tap at the door sent him
to open it with a bound. Before him stood a
professional looking man, well-dressed and well-groomed,
with a small leather bag.
“Are you my patient?” he asked briskly.
“Patient?” Roderick stared at him stupidly.
“Yes; Mr. McRae, I believe? I am Doctor
Nicholls.”
“Oh,” said Roderick.
“I had forgotten all about it. Yes, come
in.” He stepped back and the physician
eyed him curiously. He looked desperately ill,
sure enough.
Roderick answered briefly and absently
all the doctor’s questions. Beside this
awful thing which threatened him, his arm seemed so
trivial, that he was impatient at the attention he
was compelled to give it. Evidently the physician
was of another opinion as to its importance.
His face was imperturbable, but after a careful examination
he said very gravely:
“You’ll have to have this
attended to immediately, Mr. McRae. Immediately.
It’s a case, if my judgment is correct, that
has been delayed much too long already. Could
you come to the hospital-this morning?"’
“I have to leave here on the
three-fifteen this afternoon,” said Roderick.
“I have just received a telegram that my father
is very ill-I can’t have anything
done to-day.”
“Ah, quite sad indeed. Not serious I hope?”
“I don’t know,” said Roderick dully.
“I must urge you especially
to come to-day. We have Dr. Berger here, from
New York. He is going to the congress at Halifax.
You have heard of him, of course. He is coming
to see some patients of mine this morning, and I should
like him to see you too. Indeed, I feel I must
urge you, Mr. McRae. You are trifling with your
health, perhaps your life,” he went on, puzzled
by Roderick’s indifference. “It is
imperative that something be done at once. How
about coming with me now? It leaves plenty of
time for your train.”
Roderick considered a moment.
He could not meet Mr. Graham now in any case.
He must leave a message for him that he had been called
back to Algonquin and telegraph home for more specific
news. That was all he could do until train time,
so he decided he might as well obey the doctor.
When he had despatched a telegram
and written a message for Mr. Graham he followed the
doctor to his car. The professional man seemed
eagerly delighted, as though Roderick were merely
a wonderful new specimen he had found and upon which
he intended to experiment. He chattered away
happily on the way to the hospital.
“Yes, Berger will be very much
interested. Yours is really a rare case, from
a medical standpoint, Mr. McRae. Quite unique.
You said you believed it was injured when you were
only six years old?”
He seemed almost pleased, but Roderick
did not care. The pain in his arm and that fiercer
pain raging in his heart made him indifferent.
“My father! My father!” he was repeating
to himself in anguished inquiry. What had happened
to his father? Perhaps he was dying, while his
son lingered far away from him. And what an age
he had to wait for that train, and what another age
to wait till it crawled back to Algonquin! He
remembered with wonder the strange wild impulse he
had had the night before to leap across into the home-bound
train and go back. He speculated upon what might
have happened, until his brain reeled. And when
would he get another telegram? And why had not
Lawyer Ed told him more? He asked himself these
futile questions over and over in wild impatience.
The fever of the night before had returned, his head
was hot, and ached as if it would burst.
He obeyed the doctor’s orders
mechanically. His mind was focussed on the time
for the train to leave and in the interval he did not
care what they did with him. So he let himself
be put into a bare little white room, heavy with the
smell of disinfectants, while a nurse in a blue uniform
and a young house surgeon in white and a silent footed
orderly moved about him.
The nurse’s blue dress reminded
him of another blue gown, one for which he used to
watch at the office window on summer mornings.
He followed it with his eyes, as the great surgeon
took him in hand and examined and questioned him.
He answered mechanically, his parched lips uttering
things with which his fevered brain seemed to have
no interest.
He listened in a detached way, as
though the doctor were speaking of some one else as,
with many technical terms, he diagnosed the case.
Doctor Nicholls was there, and two young house surgeons,
all eagerly listening, but the patient’s mind
was away in the old farm house on the shore of Lake
Algonquin desperately seeking relief from its suspense.
He scarcely noticed when they left
the room, but he came to himself completely when they
returned, and Dr. Nicholls announced to him briskly
and almost joyfully that Dr. Berger’s ultimatum
was an immediate operation.
“No, you won’t,”
said the patient with sudden vigour. “I
have to leave this afternoon for home on the three-fifteen.”
The great man looked down at him.
“Young man,” he said quietly, and there
was a still strength in his manner that carried conviction,
“you will do as you please of course, but if
you don’t take my advice and have that limb
attended to immediately, you’ll go to your long
home, and not much later than 3.15 either. Yours
is a most critical case. If you refuse you are
committing suicide. Now, Doctor Nicholls, I have
just half-an-hour to see your other patients.”
He walked out of the room. And
Roderick sat up in the bed and stared after them stupefied.
A young house-surgeon, who had been regarding the
patient with eyes holding more than professional interest,
came to his side. He tried to speak cheerfully.
“It’s a most unusual thing
to operate in such a hurry, but it’s better
for a patient, I think. It’s all over quickly
you know, and no long weary waiting.”
“But my father!” cried
Roderick. “My father is critically ill.
I’ve got to go home! I’ve got to,
I tell you! I can have this done-later-at
home.”
The fever flush deepened to a hot
crimson. He got to his feet, then staggered
back, dizzy with pain. The young physician laid
him on the bed. “Look here, now, you mustn’t
get worked up like that, Roderick,” he said.
Roderick looked up at him. The
young man had come into the room with Dr. Berger,
but not till this moment had he noticed him.
He stared, and a light, brighter even than the fever
had brought, leaped into his eyes.
“Wells!” he cried. “Is it
Dick Wells?”
“Dick Wells, it is,” said
the other, smiling, pleased that he had created such
a complete diversion. He took the patient’s
left hand and shook it with a cordiality that was
not returned.
“I haven’t seen you since
old ’Varsity days, Rod. And ’pon
my word I didn’t know you for a minute.
We’ll see you through this all right; don’t
worry.”
Roderick was staring at him in a disconcerting way.
“Where have you been since you graduated?”
he asked.
That harsh unsmiling manner was not
at all like the Roderick McRae he had known in college,
but the young man laid the change to his fevered condition.
“Here, in Montreal. Next
year I hope to go to Europe.” He made a
sign to the nurse who entered, and quietly began preparing
the arm for its operation. Roderick did not
pay any attention to even her blue uniform this time,
his eyes were fixed with a fierce intentness upon the
young doctor’s face. Wells had always
been known as a very handsome fellow, but his appearance
had not improved; he had grown stouter and coarser.
He was still good-looking, however, and his manner
had the old easy kindness Roderick remembered.
He was just going to ask him another abrupt question,
when the young doctor slipped his finger over the
patient’s pulse, and began talking quietly and
soothingly.
“And you went back to your old
home town, didn’t you? Let me see-”
his casual air did not deceive his alert listener-“Algonquin’s
your home, isn’t it?”
“Yes.”
“You’ve been practising
law there, haven’t you?” He took out his
watch and looked at it.
“Yes,-in Algonquin.”
A smile passed over the young physician’s
face, as of pleasant reminiscence. “Algonquin,”
he repeated-“pretty name. You
don’t happen to know-er-a
Miss Murray there, do you? A teacher.”
“Yes,” said Roderick,
“I’ve met her,” and held his breath
for the next words.
“I’ve met her too-several
times.” He laughed, glancing at Roderick
in a shamefaced manner. “I think when
you go home, if you’ll take me, I’ll go
along as travelling physician. I’d like
most awfully well to see that town of yours.”
Roderick involuntarily jerked his
wrist from the other’s grasp. Had he not
done so, the doctor would have been amazed at the leap
of the already bounding pulse.
“I thought-rumour
had it at college-that your affections were
in process of transition when you graduated.”
Roderick looked straight at him. It was impossible
to keep from his voice something of the bitterness
rising in his heart. He was risking his own secret.
But he felt he must know.
Dick Wells’ eyes dropped to
his watch again. He was silent for a moment.
The nurse left the room and he immediately spoke in
a low tone.
“It a fellow plays the fool
once in life,” he said, “that’s no
reason why he should take it up as a steady profession.
I’ve dropped it for good and all. And
if you behave yourself and have this operation right
away I’ll come and take Christmas dinner-no,
that’s holiday time-I’ll come
and prescribe for you shortly after New Year’s!”
He laughed joyfully. “I hope you’ll
welcome me,” he said, half-shyly. “For
I’ve reason to believe I’m going to be
welcomed in other quarters.”
“Dr. Wells, you are wanted in
the corridor,” said the nurse, returning.
He left the room, and Roderick lay
back and stared at the ceiling. He caught the
word amputation, and he knew they were talking about
his arm. They were going to cut it off, then.
The knowledge did not seem to add anything to the
overwhelming weight which had fallen upon him, and
was crushing him. The whole structure of his
life was tumbling about him, and he lay caught helpless
in its fall. His new position was gone, for
well he knew the company could not wait-indeed,
would not wait-for so insignificant a servant
as he. His father-perhaps his father
was gone. And now the rosy hope that had steadily
and surely arisen in his heart, since the day he had
seen Helen Murray on board the Inverness, until
it had lighted up his whole life, had suddenly vanished
in darkness. His fighting spirit rose against
these odds. He shoved the deft hands of the
nurse aside and sat up.
“I’m going home,”
he said hoarsely. Then the nurse, and the little
white table by the bedside with the bottles on it,
and the white uniformed man standing outside the doorway,
swung up to the ceiling and became an indistinct blur.
He recovered almost immediately. The nurse
slipped a little thermometer under his tongue, and
put a cool finger on his pulse.
“I must go home,” mumbled
Roderick. “Where’s Dr. Wells?”
“Dr. Wells is wanted in the
operating room,” she said soothingly. “You
will be glad to know he is going to assist. I
understand you are old friends.” She looked
at him anxiously. He was in the worst possible
condition mentally for an operation.
“If you’d just brace up,
you know,” she said encouragingly. “If
you would get hold of yourself.” She had
prepared many a patient for the operating table, and
had seen few so exercised as this one. “You
must be courageous,” she said. “The
operation may not be serious. And it will be
over soon.”
Roderick looked at her uncomprehendingly.
He cared not at all for the operation itself, but
it was the trap that had caught him, and he was writhing
to be free.
Her next words put a new face on it.
“If you have any message to
send to your friends,” she said gently, “I
should be glad to have it attended to. Have you
any-property or anything that should be
settled. We hope this operation will be simple;
but if not-you should be prepared, Mr. McRae.”
“There’s nothing,” said Roderick.
“Nothing.”
Everything in the world was slipping
from him. The props of life had given way one
by one, and now perhaps life itself was going.
He lay there on the small cot-bed, watching the nurse
and orderly hurry to and fro, and looked squarely
at the situation. It was desperate. Always
he had taken hold of difficulties and wrenched them
out of his path and gone proudly on his way.
But here he was helpless. For the first time
in his strong, successful youth he realised that which
his father had striven all his years to teach him,
man’s utter impotence before God. He was
bound hand and foot, helpless, just as the door of
success had flung open at his touch. He had
paddled out bravely into the open sea of life after
the rainbow gold, only to find it vanish and leave
him lost in a world of mists and shadows. He
remembered Dr. Leslie’s words: “If
His love cannot draw us into the way, it meets us on
the Damascus road and blinds us with its light.”
He lay there for what seemed an interminable
time. He was clinging to one faint hope.
Lawyer Ed would surely answer his telegram.
But the nurse returned with the word that there had
been no message, and that the doctors were preparing.
He was to go down to the operating room in ten minutes.
It seemed as if with that word the
last feeble support gave way, and then Roderick McRae’s
soul went down to the black brink of despair.
He was utterly alone, without help or friend.
Everything, his success, his health, his father,
his love, had been snatched from him in one moment.
There was even no God for him.
He had been so long dependent entirely upon himself,
that God had become a meaningless word. And now,
if God were real, His cruel Hand was behind that fearful
black mist that was closing about him shutting him
off from hope. He lay like a log, staring at
the white ceiling of the little hospital room.
The nurse and the orderly were bidding him brace
up and were shaking their heads over him. He
paid no more attention to them than to the strong odour
of drugs or the soft click-click of heels on the hardwood
floor of the corridor. Some subtle trick of
memory had taken him back to the one other time of
despair in his experience. He was back again
in that night, years ago, when he was lost on the
lake, drifting away in the darkness to unknown terrors;
and just as he had cried out that night, his whole
soul rose in one desperate demand upon his Father for
help.
“Oh, God!” he groaned, starting up, “oh,
God, help me!”
And then it happened; the great wonder.
The light from his Father’s boat! The
sound of his Father’s voice! Just as, long
ago, lost in mists and darkness, a prey to every terror,
his father’s voice, calling down the shaft of
light, had caught him up from despair to the heights
of joy, so it was now. Suddenly, without reason,
there fell upon the young man’s writhing soul
a great calm. He lay back on his pillow, perfectly
still, his whole being held in awe of what had happened.
For there, in the common light of day, within the
bare walls of the hospital room, not visible to the
human eye, but plain to the eye of the soul, staring
beyond the things that are seen for a gleam of hope,
a Presence was quietly standing. Serene, omnipotent,
all-calming, the gracious One stood, close to his
side, and fear and pain fled before Him.
Roderick was conscious of no feeling
of surprise or wonder. He felt only a great
serenity, and an absolute safety. He asked no
questions, felt no desire to ask any. There
had been another young man once, who had met this
same One in a like headlong career, planned by his
own strong right hand, and he had cried out in fear,
“Who art thou, Lord?” But Roderick knew
just as well as he had known his father’s voice
that night coming out of the mists and darkness.
His Eternal Father was at his side. That was
all he knew now. It was all he cared to know.
He lay there in perfect peace and, close to his side,
silent and strong, stood the Presence.
The orderly pushed up the little wheeled
conveyance to the bedside, the nurse took his wrist
in her hand again. She beamed happily.
“Good for you,” she said, as she placed
her hand upon his forehead. “Why, you’re
splendid. You’ve got your nerve all right,”
and she stared in amazement when Roderick smiled at
her. He did not answer, though, he was listening
to something. All the old promises he had learned
at his father’s knee and that had meant nothing
to him for so long, were flooding over his peaceful
soul, coming serenely and softly from the Presence
standing by his pillow.
“When thou passest through the
waters, I will be with thee and through the rivers
they shall not overflow thee; when thou walkest through
the fire, thou shalt not be burned; neither shall
the flame kindle upon thee... Thou shalt not
be afraid for the terror by night; nor for the arrow
that flieth by day, nor for the pestilence that walketh
in darkness.”
“Now, sir,” said the orderly,
“we’ll just move you onto this truck.”
But Roderick rose up strongly. “Why can’t
I walk down?” he asked. The nurse stared
and again felt the patient’s pulse for some explanation
of this transformation. The quiet steady beat
in the wrist was the strangest part of it all.
“Well,” she cried admiringly,
“I never saw anything like you. You’re
perfectly able to walk; but you’d better save
your strength. Just lie down on this.
You’ll be all over your operation in no time!”
Roderick obeyed, and the orderly wheeled him away
to the elevator; and along the bare hospital corridor
moved with him that strong Presence. And he
went with a perfect faith and as little fear as if
he had been going along the Pine Road to his home.
What did it matter as to the result, or what did
it matter that his father back in Algonquin did not
know? He and his father were safe, upheld by
the everlasting arms. It was well, no matter
what the outcome. When he reached the operating
room the Presence was there, just as real as the muffled
doctors standing ready to do their work, and when
he was stretched upon the table taking the anæsthetic,
he felt as peaceful as on that night when he sank
asleep in his father’s arms and was borne safely
homeward.
It seemed that the next moment he
awoke in the room he had so recently left. Dr.
Nicholls was at his side. “A normal pulse,”
he said, smiling into Rod’s enquiring face.
“You’re a wonder. What do you think
of that, nurse?”
“I expected that,” she said, smiling.
“You’ve behaved so well,”
continued the doctor, “that I believe you’re
able to receive two pieces of good news.”
“My father,” whispered
Roderick. The doctor nodded happily. “A
telegram came half-an-hour ago. It reads, ’Out
of danger, no need to come, will write. E. Brians.’”
Roderick felt the tears slipping over his cheek.
The nurse wiped them away. He was remembering
it all now. The Presence had been with his father
too.
“You haven’t asked about
my other news,” said the doctor.
Roderick looked at him enquiringly.
He was thinking of Helen, and had forgotten all about
the operation.
“Berger saved your arm.
And it will be as fit as ever in a few months.
It was the most delicate kind of operation, and one
of the finest he ever did. I shall tell you
more about it later, you must be quiet now. But
I must give you Dr. Berger’s message. He
had to leave for Halifax, but he said he wished he
could congratulate you on your nerve. I don’t
know what you did to get hold of yourself in such a
hurry, but you saved your own life. Now, I’ve
told you enough. You must neither speak nor
be spoken to until I see you again.”
He smiled again, radiant with the
true scientist’s joy over such a triumph of
skill as Roderick’s arm presented, and left the
room.
And Roderick, who knew so much more
about it all than mere science could ever teach, closed
his eyes and lay still, his whole soul raising to
its new-found God one inarticulate note of thanksgiving.