There was a glamour upon it.
One knew it was going to grow into one of those wonderful
and shining days in whose enchanted hours any exquisite
miracle might happen. I am perfectly sure that
the Lord God walked in the garden in the cool of an
April day, and that it was a morning in spring when
the angels visited Abraham, sitting watchful in the
door of his tent.
There was in the air itself something
long-missed and come back, a heady and heart-moving
delight, a promise, a thrill, a whisper of “April!
April!” that the Green Things and the hosts
of the Little People had heard overnight. In
the dark the sleeping souls of the golden butterflies
had dreamed it, known it was a true Word, and now
they were out, “Little flames of God” dancing
in the Sunday sunlight. The Red Gulf Fritillary
had heard it, and here she was, all in her fine fulvous
frock besmocked with black velvet, and her farthingale
spangled with silver. And the gallant Red Admiral,
the brave beautiful Red Admiral that had dared unfriendlier
gales, trimmed his painted sails to a wind that was
the breath of spring.
Over by the gate the spirea had ventured
into showering sprays exhaling a shy and fugitive
fragrance, and what had been a blur of gray cables
strung upon the oaks had begun to bud with emerald
and blossom with amethyst the wisteria
was a-borning. And one knew there was Cherokee
rose to follow, that the dogwood was in white, and
the year’s new mintage of gold dandelions was
being coined in the fresh grass.
There wasn’t a bird that wasn’t
caroling April! at the top of his voice from
the full of his heart; for wasn’t the world alive
again, wasn’t it love-time and nest-time, wasn’t
it Spring?
Even to the tired faces of my work-folks
that shining morning lent a light that was hope.
Without knowing it, they felt themselves a vital part
of the reborn world, sharers in its joy because they
were the children of the common lot, the common people
for whom the world is, and without whom no world could
be. Classes, creeds, nations, gods, all these
pass and are gone; God, and the common people, and
the spring remain.
When I was young I liked as well as
another to dwell overmuch upon the sinfulness of sin,
the sorrow of sorrow, the despair of death. Now
that these three terrible teachers have taught me a
truer wisdom and a larger faith, I like better to
turn to the glory of hope, the wisdom of love, and
the simple truth that death is just a passing phase
of life. So I sent my workers home that morning
rejoicing with the truth, and was all the happier
and hopefuller myself because of it.
Afterwards, when Clelie was giving
me my coffee and rolls, the Butterfly Man came in
to breakfast with me, a huge roll of those New York
newspapers which contain what are mistakenly known
as Comic Supplements tucked under his arm.
He said he bought them because they
“tasted like New York” which they do not.
Just as Major Cartwright explains his purchase of them
by the shameless assertion that it just tickles him
to death “to see what Godforsaken idjits those
Yankees can make of themselves when they half-way
try. Why, suh, one glance at their Sunday newspapers
ought to prove to any right thinkin’ man that
it’s safer an’ saner to die in South Carolina
than to live in New York!”
I think the Butterfly Man and
Major Cartwright buy those papers because they think
they are funny! After they have read and
sniggered, they donate them to Clelie and Daddy January.
And presently Clelie distributes them to a waiting
colored countryside, which wallpapers its houses with
them. I have had to counsel the erring and bolster
the faith of the backsliding under the goggle eyes
of inhuman creations whose unholy capers have made
futile many a prayer. And yet the Butterfly Man
likes them! Is it not to wonder?
He laid them tenderly upon the table
now, and smiled slyly to see me eye them askance.
“Did you know,” said he,
over his coffee, “that Laurence came in this
morning on the six-o’clock? January had
him out in the garden showing off the judge’s
new patent hives, and I stopped on my way to church
and shook hands over the fence. It was all I could
do to keep from shouting that all’s right with
the world, and all he had to do was to be glad.
I didn’t know how much I cared for that boy until
this morning. Parson, it’s a a
terrible thing to love people, when you come to think
about it, isn’t it? I told him you were
honing to see him: and that we’d be looking
for him along about eleven. And I intimated that
if he didn’t show up then I’d go after
him with a gun. He said he’d be here on
the stroke.” After a moment, he added gently:
“I figured they’d be here by then Madame
and Mary Virginia.”
“What! You have induced
Laurence to come while she is here without
giving him any intimation that he is likely to meet
her?” I said, aghast. “You are a
bold man, John Flint!”
The study windows were open and the
sweet wind and the warm sun poured in unchecked.
The stir of bees, the scent of honey-locust just opening,
drifted in, and the slow solemn clangor of church bells,
and lilts and flutings and calls and whistlings from
the tree-tops. We could see passing groups of
our neighbors, fathers and mothers shepherding little
flocks of children in their Sunday best, trotting
along with demure Sabbath faces on their way to church.
The Butterfly Man looked out, waved gaily to the passing
children, who waved back a joyous response, nodded
to their smiling parents, followed the flight of a
tanager’s sober spouse, and sniffed the air luxuriously.
“Oh, somebody’s got to
stage-manage, parson,” he said at last, lightly
enough, but with a hint of tiredness in his eyes.
“And then vanish behind the scenes, leaving
the hero and heroine in the middle of the spotlight,
with the orchestra tuning up ’The Voice that
Breathed o’er Eden,’” he finished,
without a trace of bitterness. “So I sent
Madame a note by a little nigger newsie.”
His eyes crinkled, and he quoted the favorite aphorism
of the colored people, when they seem to exercise
a meticulous care: “Brer Rabbit say, ‘I
trus’ no mistake.’”
“You are a bold man,”
said I again, with a respect that made him laugh.
Then we went over to his rooms to wait, and while we
waited I tried to read a chapter of a book I was anxious
to finish, but couldn’t, my eyes being tempted
by the greener and fresher page opening before them.
Flint smoked a virulent pipe and read his papers.
Presently he laid his finger upon
a paragraph and handed me the paper.... And I
read where one “Spike” Frazer had been
shot to death in a hand-to-hand fight with the police
who were raiding a dive suspected of being the rendezvous
of drug-fiends. Long wanted and at last cornered,
Frazer had fought tigerishly and died in his tracks,
preferring death to capture. A sly and secretive
creature, he had had a checkered career in the depths.
It was his one boast that more than anybody else he
had known and been a sort of protege of the once notorious
Slippy McGee, that King of Crooks whose body had been
found in the East River some years since, and whose
daring and mysterious exploits were not yet altogether
forgotten by the police or the underworld.
“Sic transit gloria mundi!”
said the Butterfly Man in his gentle voice, and looked
out over the peaceful garden and the Sunday calm with
inscrutable eyes. I returned the paper with a
hand that shook. It seemed to me that a deep
and solemn hush fell for a moment upon the glory of
the day, while the specter of what might have been
gibbered at us for the last time.
Out of the heart of that hush walked
two women one little and rosy and white-haired,
one tall and pale and beautiful with the beauty upon
which sorrow has placed its haunting imprint.
Her black hair framed her face as in ebony, and her
blue, blue eyes were shadowed. By an odd coincidence
she was dressed this morning just as she had been when
the Butterfly Man first saw her in white,
and over it a scarlet jacket. Kerry and little
Pitache rose, met them at the gate, and escorted them
with grave politeness. The Butterfly Man hastily
emptied his pipe and laid aside his newspapers.
“Your note said we were to come,
that everything was all right,” said my mother,
looking up at him with bright and trustful eyes.
“Such a relief! Because I know you never
say anything you don’t mean, John.”
He smiled, and with a wave of the
hand beckoned us into the workroom. Madame followed
him eagerly and expectantly she knew her
John Flint. Mary Virginia came listlessly, dragging
her feet, her eyes somber in a smileless face.
She could not so quickly make herself hope, she who
had journeyed so far into the arid country of despair.
But he, with something tender and proud and joyful
in his looks, took her unresisting hand and drew her
forward.
“Mary Virginia!” I had
not known how rich and deep the Butterfly Man’s
voice could be. “Mary Virginia, we promised
you last night that if you would trust us, the Padre
and me, we’d find the right way out, didn’t
we? Now this is what happened: the Padre
took his troubles to the Lord, and the Lord presently
sent him back to me with the beginning
of the answer in his hand! And here’s the
whole answer, Mary Virginia.” And he placed
in her hand the package of letters that meant so much
to her.
My mother gave a little scream.
“Armand!” she said, fearfully. “She
has told me all. Mon Dieu, how have you two
managed this, between midnight and morning? My
son, you are a De Rance: look me in the eyes
and tell me there is nothing wrong, that there will
be no ill consequences ”
“There won’t be any comebacks,”
said John Flint, with engaging confidence. “As
for you, Mary Virginia, you don’t have to worry
for one minute about what those fellows can do because
they can’t do anything. They’re double-crossed.
Now listen: when you see Hunter, you are to say
to him, ‘Thank you for returning my letters.’
Just that and no more. If there’s any questioning,
stare. Stare hard. If there’s
any threatening about your father, smile.
You can afford to smile. They can’t touch
him. But how those letters came into your
hands you are never to tell, you understand? They
did come and that’s all that interests you.”
He began to laugh, softly. “All Hunter will
want to know is that you’ve received them.
He’s too game not to lose without noise, and
he’ll make Inglesby swallow his dose without
squealing, too. So you’re finished
and done with Mr. Hunter and Mr. Inglesby!”
His voice deepened again, as he added gently:
“It was just a bad dream, dear girl. It’s
gone with the night. Now it’s morning,
and you’re awake.”
But Mary Virginia, white as wax, stared
at the letters in her hand, and then at me, and trembled.
“Trust us, my child,”
said I, somewhat troubled. “And obey John
Flint implicitly. Do just what he tells you to
do, say just what he tells you to say.”
Mary Virginia looked from one to the
other, thrust the package upon me, walked swiftly
up to him, and, laying her hands upon his arms stared
with passionate earnestness into his face: the
kind, wise, lovable face that every child in Appleboro
County adores, every woman trusts, every man respects.
Her eyes clung to his, and he met that searching gaze
without faltering, though it seemed to probe for the
root of his soul. It was well for Mary Virginia
that those brave eyes had caught something from the
great faces that hung upon his walls and kept company
and counsel with him day and night, they that conquered
life and death and turned defeat into victory because
they had first conquered themselves!
“Yes!” said she, with
a deep sigh of relief. “I trust you!
Thank God for just how much I can believe and trust
you!”
I think that meeting face to face
that luminous and unfaltering regard, Mary Virginia
must have divined that which had heretofore been hidden
from her by the man’s invincible modesty and
reserve; and being most generous and of a large and
loving soul herself, I think she realized to the uttermost
the magnitude of his gift. Her name, her secure
position, her happiness, the hopes that the coming
years were to transform into realities oh,
I like to think that Mary Virginia saw all this, in
one of those lightning-flashes of spiritual insight
that reveal more than all one’s slower years;
I like to think she saw it given her freely, nobly,
with joy, a glorious love-gift from the limping man
into whose empty hand she had one day put a little
gray underwing!
I glanced at my mother, and saw by
her most expressive face that she knew and understood.
She had known and understood, long before any of us.
“If I might offer a suggestion,”
I said in as matter-of-fact a voice as I could command,
“it would be, that the sooner those letters are
destroyed, the better.”
Mary Virginia took them from me and
dropped them on the coals remaining from last night’s
fire the last fire of the season. They
did not ignite quickly, though they began to turn brown,
and thin spirals of smoke arose from them. The
Butterfly Man knelt, thrust a handful of lightwood
splinters under the pile, and touched a match here
and there. When the resinous wood flared up, the
letters blazed with it. They blazed and then
they crumbled; they disappeared in bits of charred
and black paper that vanished at a touch; they were
gone while we watched, the girl kneeling upon the
hearthrug with her hand on Flint’s arm, and
I with my old heart singing like a skylark in my breast,
and my mother’s mild eyes upon us all.
Life and color and beauty flowed back
into Mary Virginia’s face and music’s
self sang again in her voice. She was like the
day itself, reborn out of a dark last night.
When the last bit of blackened paper went swirling
up the chimney, and the two of them had risen, the
most beautiful and expressive eyes under heaven looked
up like blue and dewy flowers into the Butterfly Man’s
face. She was too wise and too tender to try
to thank him in words, and never while they two lived
would this be again referred to so much as once by
either; but she took his hand, palm upward, gave him
one deep long upward glance, and then bent her beautiful
head and dropped into the center of his palm a kiss,
and closed the fingers gently over it for everlasting
keeping and remembrance. The eyes brimmed over
then, and two large tears fell upon his hand and washed
her kiss in, indelibly.
None of us four had the power of speech
left us. Heaven knows what we should have done,
if Laurence hadn’t opened the door at that moment
and walked in upon us. I don’t think he
altogether sensed the tenseness of the situation which
his coming relieved, but he went pale at sight of
Mary Virginia, and he would have left incontinently
if my mother, with a joyous shriek, hadn’t pounced
upon him.
“Laurence! Why, Laurence!
But we didn’t expect you home until to-morrow
night!” said she, kissing him motherly.
“My dear, dear boy, how glad I am to see you!
What happy wind blew you home to-day, Laurence?”
“Oh, I finished my work ahead
of schedule and got away just as soon as I could,”
Laurence briefly and modestly explained thus that he
had won his case. He edged toward the door, avoiding
Mary Virginia’s eyes. He had bowed to her
with formal politeness. He wondered at the usually
tactful Madame’s open effort to detain him.
It was a little too much to expect of him!
“I just ran in to see how you
all were,” he tried to be very casual.
“See you later, Padre. ’By, p’tite
Madame. ’By, Flint.” He bowed
again to Mary Virginia, whose color had altogether
left her, and who stood there most palpably nervous
and distressed.
“Laurence!” The Butterfly
Man spoke abruptly. “Laurence, if a chap
was dying of thirst and the water of life was offered
him, he’d be considerable of a fool to turn
his head aside and refuse to see it, wouldn’t
he?”
Laurence paused. Something in
the Butterfly Man’s face, something in mine
and Madame’s, but, above all, something in Mary
Virginia’s, arrested him. He stood wavering,
and my mother released his arm.
“I take it,” said John
Flint, boldly plunging to the very heart of the matter,
“I take it, Laurence, that you still care a very
great deal for this dear girl of ours?” And
now he had taken her hand in his and held it comfortingly.
“More, say, than you could ever care for anybody
else, if you lived to rival Methusaleh? So much,
Laurence, that not to be able to believe she cares
the same way for you takes the core out of life?”
His manner was simple and direct, and so kind that
one could only answer him in a like spirit. Besides,
Laurence loved the Butterfly Man even as Jonathan
loved David.
“Yes,” said the boy honestly,
“I still care for her like that.
I always did. I always will. She knows.”
But his voice was toneless.
“Of course you do, kid brother,”
said Flint affectionately. “Don’t
you suppose I know? But it’s just as well
for you to say it out loud every now and then.
Fresh air is good for everything, particularly feelings.
Keeps ’em fresh and healthy. Now, Mary Virginia,
you feel just the same way about Laurence, don’t
you?” And he added: “Don’t be
ashamed to tell the most beautiful truth in the world,
my dear. Well?”
She went red and white. She looked
entreatingly into the Butterfly Man’s face.
She didn’t exactly see why he should drive her
thus, but she caught courage from his. One saw
how wise Flint had been to have snared Laurence here
just now. One moment she hesitated. Then:
“Yes!” said she, and her
head went up proudly. “Yes, oh, yes, I
care like that. Only much, much more!
I shall always care like that, although he probably
won’t believe me now when I say so. And
I can’t blame him for doubting me.”
“But it just happens that I
have never been able to make myself doubt you,”
said Laurence gravely. “Why, Mary Virginia,
you are you.”
“Then, Laurence,” said
the Butterfly Man, quickly, “will you take your
old friends’ word for it mine, Madame’s,
the Padre’s that you were most divinely
right to go on believing in her and loving her, because
she never for one moment ceased to be worthy of faith
and affection? No, not for one moment! She
couldn’t, you know. She’s Mary Virginia!
And will you promise to listen with all your patience
to what she may think best to tell you presently and
then forget it? You’re big enough to do
that! She’s been in sore straits, and she
needs all the love you have, to help make up to her.
Can she be sure of it, Laurence?”
Laurence flushed. He looked at
his old friend with reproach in his fine brown eyes.
“You have known me all my life, all of you,”
said he, stiffly. “Have I ever given any
of you any reason to doubt me!”
“No, and we don’t.
Not one of us. But it’s good for your soul
to say things out loud,” said Flint comfortably.
“And now you’ve said it, don’t you
think you two had better go on over to the Parish House
parlor, which is a nice quiet place, and talk this
whole business over and out together?”
Laurence looked at Mary Virginia and
what he saw electrified him. Boyishness flooded
him, youth danced in his eyes, beauty was upon him,
like sunlight.
“Mary Virginia!” said
the boy lover to the girl sweetheart, “is it
really so? I was really right to believe all along
that you care?”
“Laurence, Laurence!”
she was half-crying. “Oh, Laurence, are
you sure you care yet? You
are sure, Laurence? You are sure?
Because I I don’t think
I could stand things now if if I were mistaken ”
I don’t know whether the boy
ran to the girl at that, or the girl to the boy.
I rather think they ran to each other because, in another
moment, perfectly regardless of us, they were clinging
to each other, and my mother was walking around them
and crying heartily and shamelessly, and enjoying
herself immensely. Mary Virginia began to stammer:
“Laurence, if you only knew Laurence,
if it wasn’t for John Flint and the
Padre ” The two of them had the two
of us, each by an arm; and the Butterfly Man was brick-red
and furiously embarrassed, he having a holy horror
of being held up and thanked.
“Why, I did what I did,”
said he, uncomfortably. “But,” he
brightened visibly “if you will
have the truth, have it. If it wasn’t for
this blessed brick of a parson I’d never have
been in a position to do anything for anybody.
Don’t you forget that!”
“What ridiculous nonsense the
man talks!” said I, exasperated by this shameless
casuistry. “John Flint raves. As for
me ”
“As for you,” said he
with deep reproach, “you ought to know better
than to tell such a thumping lie at this time of your
life. I’m ashamed of you, parson!
Why, you know good and well ”
“Why, John Flint, you ” I began,
aghast.
My mother began to laugh. “For
heaven’s sake, thank them both and have done
with it!” said she, a bit hysterically.
“God alone knows how they managed, but this
thing lies between them, the two great geese.
Did one ever hear the like?”
“Madame is right, as always,”
said Laurence gravely. “Remember, I don’t
know anything yet, except that somehow you’ve
brought Mary Virginia and me back to each other.
That’s enough for me. I haven’t
got any questions to ask.” His voice faltered,
and he gripped us by the hand in turn, with a force
that made me, for one, wince and cringe. “And
Padre Bughunter, you both know that I ”
he couldn’t finish.
“That we ” choked Mary Virginia.
“Sure we know,” said the
Butterfly Man hastily. “Don’t you
know you’re our kids and we’ve got to
know?” He began to edge them towards the door.
I think his courage was getting a little raw about
the corners. “Yes, you two go on over to
the Parish House parlor, where you’ll have a
chance to talk without being interrupted Madame
will see to that and don’t you show
your noses outside of that room until everything’s
settled the one and only way everything ought to be
settled.” His eyes twinkled as he manoeuvered
them outside, and then stood in the doorway to watch
them walk away beautiful, youthful, radiantly
happy, and very close together, the girl’s head
just on the level of the boy’s shoulder.
He was still faintly smiling when he came back to
us; if there was pain behind that smile, he concealed
it. My mother ran to him, impulsively.
“John Flint!” said she,
profoundly moved and earnest. “John Flint,
the good God never gave me but one child, though I
prayed for more. Often and often have I envied
her silly mother Mary Virginia. But now.
John, I know that if I could have had another child
that, after Armand, I’d love best and respect
most and be proudest of in this world, it would be
you. Yes, you. John Flint,
you are the best man, and the bravest and truest and
most unselfish, and the finest gentleman, outside
of my husband and my son, that I have ever known.
What makes it all the more wonderful is that you’re
a genius along with it. I am proud of you, and
glad of you, and I admire and love you with all my
heart. And I really wish you’d call me mother.
You should have been born a De Rance!”
This, from my mother! I was amazed.
Why, she would think she was flattering one of the
seraphim if she had said to him, “You might have
been a De Rance!”
“Madame!” stammered Flint, “why,
Madame!”
“Oh, well, never mind, then.
Let it go at Madame, since it would embarrass you
to change. But I look upon you as my son, none
the less. I claim you from this hour,”
said she firmly, as one not to be gainsaid.
“I’m beginning to believe
in fairy-stories,” said Flint. “The
beggar comes home and he isn’t a
beggar at all, he’s a Prince. Because the
Queen is his mother.”
My mother looked at him approvingly.
The grace of his manner, and the unaffected feeling
of his words, pleased her. But she said no more
of what was in her heart for him. She fell back,
as women do, upon the safe subject of housekeeping
matters.
“I suppose,” she mused,
“that those children will remain with us to-day?
Yes, of course. Armand, we shall have the last
of your great-grandfather’s wine. And I
am going to send over for the judge. Let me see:
shall I have time for a cake with frosting? H’m!
Yes, I think so. Or would you prefer wine jelly
with whipped cream, John?”
He considered gravely, one hand on
his hip, the other stroking his beard.
“Couldn’t we have both!”
he wondered hopefully. “Please! Just
for this once?”
“We could! We shall!”
said my mother, grandly, recklessly, extravagantly.
“Adieu, then, children of my heart! I go
to confer with Clelie.” She waved her hand
and was gone.
The place shimmered with sun.
Old Kerry lay with his head between his paws and dozed
and dreamed in it, every now and then opening his hazel
eyes to make sure that all was well with his man.
All outdoors was one glory of renewing life, of stir
and growth, of loving and singing and nest-building,
and the budding of new green leaves and the blossoming
of April boughs. Just such April hopes were theirs
who had found each other again this morning.
All of life at its best and fairest stretched sunnily
before those two, the fairer for the cloud that had
for a time darkened it, the dearer and diviner for
the loss that had been so imminent.
... That was a redbird again.
And now a vireo. And this the mockingbird, love-drunk,
emptying his heart of a troubadour in a song of fire
and dew. And on a vagrant air, a gipsy air, the
scent of the honey-locust. The spring for all
the world else. But for him I loved, what?
I suppose my wistful eyes betrayed
me, for used to the changing expressions of my thin
visage, he smiled; and stood up, stretching his arms
above his head. He drew in great mouthfuls of
the sweet air, and expanded his broad chest.
“I feel full to the brim!”
said he gloriously. “I’ve got almost
too much to hold with both hands! Parson, parson,
it isn’t possible you’re fretting over
me? Sorry for me? Why, man,
consider!”
Ah, but had I not considered?
I knew, I thought, what he had to hold fast to.
Honor, yes. And the friendship of some and the
admiration of many and the true love of the few, which
is all any man may hope for and more than most attain.
Outside of that, a gray moth, and a butterfly’s
wing, and a torn nest, and a child’s curl, and
a ragdoll in her grave; and now a girl’s kiss
on the palm and a tear to hallow it. But I who
had greatly loved and even more greatly lost and suffered,
was it not for me of all men to know and to understand?
“But I have got the thing itself,”
said the Butterfly Man, “that makes everything
else worth while. Why, I have been taught how
to love! My work is big but by itself
it wasn’t enough for me. I needed something
more. So I was swept and empty and ready and waiting when
she came. Now hadn’t there got to be something
fine and decent in me, when it was she alone out of
all the world I was waiting for and could love?”
“Yes, yes. But oh, my son, my son!”
“Oh, it was bad and bitter enough
at first, parson. Because I wanted her so much!
Great God, I was like a soul in hell! After awhile
I crawled out of hell on my hands and knees.
But I’d begun to understand things. I’d
been taught. It’d been burnt into me past
forgetting. Maybe that’s what hell is for,
if folks only knew it. Could anything ever happen
to anybody any more that I couldn’t understand
and be sorry for, I wonder?
“No, don’t you worry any
about me. I wouldn’t change places with
anybody alive, I’m too glad for everything that’s
ever happened to me, good and bad. I’m
not ashamed of the beginning, no, nor I’m not
afraid of the end.
“Will you believe me, though,
when I tell you what worried me like the mischief
for awhile? Family, parson! You can’t
live in South Carolina without having the seven-years’
Family-itch wished on you, you know. I felt like
a mushroom standing up on my one leg all by myself
among a lot of proper garden plants until
I got fed up on the professional Descendant banking
on his boneyard full of dead ones; then I quit worrying.
I’m Me and alive and I should worry
about ancestors! Come to think about it, everybody’s
an ancestor while you wait. I made up my mind
I’d be my own ancestor and my own descendant and
make a good job of both while I was at it.”
But I was too sad to smile. And
after awhile he asked gently:
“Are you grieving because you
think I’ve lost love? Parson, did you ever
know something you didn’t know how you knew,
but you know you know it because it’s true?
Well then I know that girl’s mine
and I came here to find her, though on the face of
it you’d think I’d lost her, wouldn’t
you? Somewhere and sometime I’ll come again and
when I do, she’ll know me.”
And to save my life I couldn’t
tell him I didn’t believe it! His manner
even more than his words impressed me. He didn’t
look improbable.
“One little life and one little
death,” said the Butterfly Man, “couldn’t
possibly be big enough for something like this to get
away from a man forever. I have got the thing
too big for a dozen lives to hold. Isn’t
that a great deal for a man to have, parson?”
“Yes.” said I. “It
is a great deal for a man to have.” But
I foresaw the empty, empty places, in the long, long
years ahead. I added faintly: “Having
that much, you have more than most.”
“You only have what you are
big enough not to take,” said he. “And
I’m not fooling myself I shan’t be lonesome
and come some rough tumbles at times. The difference
is, that if I go down now I won’t stay down.
If there was one thing I could grieve over, too, it
would be kids. I’d like kids.
My own kids. And I shall never have any.
It well, it just wouldn’t be fair
to the kids. Louisa’ll come nearest to being
mine by bornation though I’m thinking
she’s managed to wish me everybody else’s,
on her curl.”
“So! You are your own ancestor
and your own descendant, and everybody’s kids
are yours! You are modest, hein? And
what else have you got?”
His eyes suddenly danced. “Nothing
but the rest of the United States,” said the
Butterfly Man, magnificently. And when I stared,
he laughed at me.
“It’s quite true, parson:
I have got the whole United States to work for.
Uncle Sam. U.S. Us! I’ve been drafted
into the Brigade that hasn’t any commander,
nor any colors, nor honors, nor even a name; but that’s
never going to be mustered out of service, because
we that enlist and belong can’t and won’t
quit.
“Parson, think of me
representing the Brigade down here on the Carolina
coast, keeping up the work, fighting things that hurt
and finding out things that help Lord, what a chance!
A hundred millions to work for, a hundred millions
of one’s own people and a trail to
blaze for the unborn millions to come!” His glance
kindled, his face was like a lighted lamp. The
vision was upon him, standing there in the April sunlight,
staring wide-eyed into the future.
Its reflected light illumined me,
too a little. And I saw that in a
very large and splendid sense, this was the true American.
He stood almost symbolically for that for which America
stands the fighting chance to overcome
and to grow, the square deal, the spirit that looks
eagle-eyed and unafraid into the sunrise. And
above all for unselfish service and unshakable faith,
and a love larger than personal love, prouder than
personal pride, higher than personal ambition.
They do not know America who do not know and will
not see this spirit in her, going its noble and noiseless
way apart.
“The whole world to work for,
and a whole lifetime to do it in!” said the
voice of America, exultant. “Lord God, that’s
a man-sized job, but You just give me hands and eyes
and time, and I’ll do the best I can. You’ve
done Your part by me stand by, and I’ll
do mine by You!”
Are those curious coincidences, those
circumstances which occur at such opportune moments
that they leave one with a sense of a guiding finger
behind the affairs of men are they, after
all, only fortuitous accidents, or have they a deeper
and a diviner significance?
There stood the long worktable, with
orderly piles of work on it; the microscope in its
place; the books he had opened and pushed aside last
night; and some half-dozen small card-board boxes in
a row, containing the chrysalids he had been experimenting
with, trying the effect of cold upon color. The
cover of one box had been partially pushed off, possibly
when he had moved the books. And while we had
been paying attention to other things, one of these
chrysalids had been paying strict attention to its
own business, the beautiful and important business
of becoming a butterfly. Flint discovered it first,
and gave a pleased exclamation.
“Look! Look! A Turnus,
father! The first Turnus of the year!”
The insect had been out for an hour
or two, but was not yet quite ready to fly. It
had crawled out of the half-opened box, dragged its
wormy length across the table, over intervening obstacles,
seeking some place to climb up and cling to.
Now the Butterfly Man had left the
Bible open, merely shoving it aside without shutting
it, when he had found no comfort for himself last
night in what John had to say. Protected by piled-up
books and propped almost upright by the large inkstand,
it gave the holding-place the insect desired.
The butterfly had walked up the page and now clung
to the top.
There she rested, her black-and-yellow
body quivering like a tiny live dynamo from the strong
force of circulation, that was sending vital fluids
upward into the wings to give them power and expansion.
We had seen the same thing a thousand and one times
before, we should see it a thousand and one times
again. But I do not think either of us could
ever forego the delight of watching a butterfly’s
wings shaping themselves for flight, and growing into
something of beauty and of wonder. The lovely
miracle is ever new to us.
She was a big butterfly, big even
for the greatest of Carolina swallow-tails; not the
dark dimorphic form, but the true Tiger Turnus
itself, her barred yellow upper wings edged with black
enamel indented with red gold, her tailed lower wings
bordered with a wider band of black, and this not
only set with lunettes of gold but with purple
amethysts, and a ruby on the upper and lower edges.
Her wings moved rhythmically; a constant quivering
agitated her, and her antennæ with their flattened
clubs seemed to be sending and receiving wireless
messages from the shining world outside.
And as the wings had dried and grown
firmer in the mild warm current of air and the bright
sunlight, she moved them with a wider and bolder sweep.
The heavy, unwieldy body, thinned by the expulsion
of those currents driven upward to give flying-power
to the wings, had taken on a slim and tapering grace.
She had reached her fairy perfection. She was
ready now for flight and light and love and freedom
and the uncharted pathways of the air, ready to carry
out the design of the Creator who had fashioned her
so wondrously and so beautiful, and had sent ahead
of her the flowers for that marvelous tongue of hers
to sip.
Waiting still, opening and closing
her exquisite wings, trying them, spreading them flat,
the splendid swallow-tail clung to the page of the
book open at the Gospel of John. And I, idly enough,
leaned forward, and saw between the opening and the
closing wings, words. The which John Flint, bending
forward beside me, likewise saw. “Work,”
flashed out. And on a lower line, “while
it is day.”
I grasped the edge of the table; his
knuckles showed white beside mine.
“I must work the
works of him
that sent me, while
it is day.”
His eyes grew larger and deeper.
A sort of inward light, a serene and joyous acceptance
and assurance, flowed into them. I that had dared
to be despondent felt a sense of awe. The Voice
that had once spoken above the Mercy Seat and between
the wings of the cherubim was speaking now in immortal
words between, the wings of a butterfly.
She was poising herself for her first
flight, the bright and lovely Lady of the Sky.
Now she spread her wings flat, as a fan is unfurled.
And now she had lifted them clear and uncovered her
message. The Butterfly Man watched her, hanging
absorbed upon her every movement. And he read,
softly:
“I must work
... while it is day.”
Lightly as a flower, a living and
glorious flower, she lifted and launched herself into
the air, flew straight and sure for the outside light,
hung poised one gracious moment, and was gone.
He turned to me the sweetest, clearest
eyes I have ever seen in a mortal countenance, the
eyes of a little child. His face had caught a
sort of secret beauty, that was never to leave it any
more.
“Parson!” said the Butterfly
Man, in a whisper that shook with the beating of his
heart behind it: “Parson! Don’t
it beat hell?”
I rocked on my toes. Then I flung
my arms around him, with a jubilant shout:
“It does! It does!
Oh, Butterfly Man, by the grace and the glory and
the wonder of God, it beats hell!”