The Champneys chauffeur, greatly to
Mrs. MacGregor’s terror and disapproval, seemed
to live for speed alone; in consequence, one afternoon
Mrs. MacGregor and Nancy very narrowly escaped dying
for it. Whereupon Mr. Champneys summarily dismissed
the chauffeur and engaged in his place young Glenn
Mitchell, accidentally brought to his notice.
Mr. Champneys congratulated himself upon the discovery
of Glenn Mitchell. To begin with, he was a South
Carolinian, one of those well-born, penniless, ambitious
young Southerners who come to New York to make their
fortune. One of his forebears had married a Champneys.
That was in ante bellum days, but South Carolina has
a long memory, and this far-off tie immediately established
the young fellow upon a footing of family relationship
and of cousinly friendliness. He was a personable
youth of twenty, who had worked his way through high
school and meant presently to go through the College
of Physicians and Surgeons, his grandfather
had been a distinguished physician, Mr. Champneys
remembered. The boy proposed to use his skill
in handling a motor-car as a means toward that end.
Mr. Chadwick Champneys would gladly
have paid Glenn’s college expenses out of his
own pocket, but the young man, delicately sounded,
politely but sturdily declined. The next best
thing the kindly old Carolinian could do, then, was
to make the boy a member of his own household.
Hoichi had orders to prepare a room for Mr. Mitchell,
and Mrs. MacGregor was advised that he would take his
meals with the family. She was at first inclined
to be scandalized: to bring your chauffeur to
your own table was Americanism with a vengeance!
But when she met the young man, she was mollified.
This chauffeur was a gentleman, and in Mrs. MacGregor’s
estimation a gentleman may do many things without
losing caste. She remembered that the perfectly
decent younger son of a certain poverty-stricken nobleman
had driven a car. This young Mitchell was exceptionally
good-looking in a nice, boyish, fresh-faced way, and
she saw in his manner a youthful reflection of the
courtliness which distinguished Mr. Chadwick Champneys.
He had a great deal of that indefinable something
we call charm, and before she knew it Mrs. MacGregor
was won over to him, and looked upon his presence
as a distinct addition to the Champneys ménage.
When he had been introduced to Nancy,
she was mentioned as “My niece, Mrs. Champneys.”
Mrs. MacGregor called her “Anne.”
Mr. Champneys spoke to her as “Nancy,”
and Glenn thought he must have been mistaken as to
that “Mrs.” There was no sign of a
husband anywhere; neither was there any indication
of widowhood. Nobody mentioned Peter Mr.
Champneys because he was more interested in talking
about Glenn’s business than his own, on the occasions
when he had time to talk about anything; Mrs. MacGregor,
because she had never seen Peter, knew nothing at
all about him, except that there was a nephew somewhere
in the background of things, and wasn’t in the
least interested in anything but her own immediate
affairs; besides, it never would have occurred to
her to talk about her employer’s affairs, even
if she had known anything about them. An employer
who was a gentleman, and very wealthy, belonged to
the Established Order, and Mrs. MacGregor had the
thorough-going British respect for Established Order.
Nancy, for her part, wished to forget that Peter existed.
She never by any chance mentioned him, or even thought
of him if she could help it. So when young Glenn
Mitchell, after the pleasant South Carolina fashion,
addressed her as “Miss Nancy” it seemed
perfectly all right to everybody.
Nancy was a little over eighteen then.
She had grown taller, but she retained the pleasant
angularity of extreme youth. Because she didn’t
know how to arrange her hair, Mrs. MacGregor sternly
forbidding frizzing and curling, and insisting upon
a “modest simplicity becoming to a young girl”
she wore her red mane in a huge plait. She had
been so teased and badgered about her red hair, had
hated it so heartily, been so ashamed of it, that she
didn’t realize how magnificent it was now, after
two years of care and cleanliness. It wasn’t
auburn; it wasn’t Titian; it was a bright, rich,
glittering, unbuyable, undeniable red, and Nancy wore
her plait as a boy wears a chip on his shoulder.
Young Glenn Mitchell was seized with a wild desire
to catch hold of that braid that was like a cable
of gleaming copper, and wind it around his wrists.
For the first time, he thought, he was seeing the
true splendor and beauty of red hair; and the girl
had the wonderfully white skin that accompanies it.
He suspected that she must have been pretty badly freckled
when she was a child, for the freckles were still
fairly visible, though one saw that they would presently
vanish altogether. The curve of her throat and
chin, the “salt-cellars” at the base of
the neck, left nothing to be desired. Altogether
there was that about this girl that caught and held
his boyish attention. It wasn’t that she
was pretty, he had at first thought her
plain. It was rather that here lay a tantalizing
promise of unfoldment by and by, a sheathed hint of
something rare and perilous.
He didn’t quite know what to
make of Mr. Champneys’s niece. She was
abnormally silent, unbelievably unobtrusive, singularly
still. Watching her, he found himself wishing
she would smile, at least occasionally: he longed
to see what her mouth would look like if it should
curve into laughter. She had exquisite teeth,
and her eyes, when one was allowed to get a glimpse
of them, were of a curious, agaty, gray green, with
one or two little spots or flecks in the iris.
Hers was an impassive, emotionless face; yet she gave
a distinct impression of feeling, emotion, passion
held in check; it was as if her feelings had been
frozen. But suppose a spring thaw should set
in what then? Would there be just a
calm brook flowing underneath placid willows, or a
tempestuous torrent sweeping all before it? He
wondered!
She sat opposite him at table three
times a day, and never addressed a word to him, or
to Mrs. MacGregor, who carried on whatever conversation
there might be. Mrs. MacGregor liked to give details
of entertainments “at home,” at which
she herself had been present, or of events in which
A Member of My Family had participated. “I
said to the dear Bishop,” “His
Lordship remarked to My Cousin.” Sometimes
during these recitals the thin, fine edge of a smile
touched Nancy’s lips. It was gone so quickly
one wasn’t quite sure it had been there at all;
yet its brief passage gave her a strange expression
of mockery and of weariness. She offered no opinions
of her own about anything; she made no slightest attempt
to keep the conversation alive; you could talk, or
you could remain silent it was all one
to her. Yet dumb and indifferent though she appeared
to be, you felt her presence as something very vital,
listening, and immensely honest and natural.
He wished she would speak to him,
say something more than a mere “Yes” or
“No.” Girls had always been more than
willing to talk to Glenn Mitchell very
much prettier and more fascinating girls than this
silent, stubborn, red-headed Anne Champneys. He
began to feel piqued, as well as puzzled.
And then, one day, he happened to
glance up suddenly and in that instant encountered
a full, straight, intense look from her a
look that weighed, and wondered, and searched, and
was piercingly, almost unbearably eager and wistful.
He felt himself engulfed, as it were, in the bottomless
depths of that long, clear gaze, that went over him
like the surge of great waters, and drenched his consciousness
to the core. Brand-new Eve might have looked thus
at brand-new Adam, sinlessly, virginally, yet with
an avid and fearful questioning and curiosity.
For the second his heart shook and reeled in his breast.
Then the dark lashes fell and veiled the shining glance.
Her face was once more indifferent and mask-like.
As a matter of fact, Nancy was avidly
interested in Glenn, in whom for the first time she
encountered youth. He came like a fresh breeze
into an existence in which she stifled. From his
first appearance in the house she had watched him
stealthily, looking at him openly only when she thought
herself unobserved. Conscious of her own defects,
she was timid where this good-looking young man was
concerned. It never occurred to her that she might
interest him, but she did not wish him to think ill
of her. She kept herself in the background as
much as possible.
She had none of the joyousness natural
to a girl of her age. She had no young companions.
Was there some reason? Wasn’t she happy?
He felt vaguely troubled for her. She aroused
his sympathy, as well as his curiosity. He couldn’t
forget that look he had surprised. It stayed
in his memory, perilously. At night in his room,
when he should have been studying, that astonishing
glance came before him on his book, and cast a luminous
spell upon him.
He surprised no more such glances.
She still relegated to Mrs. MacGregor the full task
of talking to him; a task that lady performed nobly.
Just as she walked every morning with Mrs. MacGregor,
she took her place in the car every afternoon, apparently
obeying orders. Sometimes, twisting his head around,
he could glimpse her profile turned toward the moving
panorama of the crowded streets through which he was
skilfully manoeuvering his way. But if she were
interested in what she gazed at so fixedly, she made
no comment. One never knew what she thought about
anything.
One memorable evening she appeared
at dinner in a yellow frock, instead of the usual
serge or plain blue silk. It wasn’t an
elaborate dress, but its prettily low neck allowed
one to admire her full throat, with a string of amber
beads around it. Her hair hung in two thick braids
across her shoulders, and the straight lines of the
yellow satin accentuated the youthfulness of her figure.
Glenn’s heart behaved unmannerly.
She appeared not to see his quick,
pleased glance, but turned instead to Mrs. MacGregor,
who was regarding her critically. Mrs. MacGregor
hadn’t been consulted about the yellow frock,
and she viewed it with distinct disapproval.
Glenn found himself solidly aligned against Mrs. MacGregor,
and siding with the girl. He liked that yellow
frock; somehow it suited her coloring, enabled one
to see how unusual she really was. He wondered
that he had thought her so plain, at first. She
agitated him. He wished intensely that she would
look at him; and just then she did, and for the first
time saw admiration in a young man’s eyes, not
for another girl, but for herself! She held his
glance, doubtfully, timidly; but she couldn’t
doubt the evidence of her senses. Glenn was pleased
with her, he admired her! His ingenuous face
beamed the fact, from frank eyes and smiling lips.
There was somewhat more than admiration in his look,
but Nancy was more than content with what appeared
on the surface. Her eyes widened, a flush rose
to her cheek, a naïve and pleased smile transformed
her dissatisfied young mouth. When he ventured
to speak to her presently, she ventured to reply,
shyly, but with new friendliness. Once, when
Mrs. MacGregor said something sententious, and Glenn
laughed, Nancy laughed with him.
That frank and boyish admiration restored
to her, as it were, some rightful and precious heritage
long withheld, an indispensable birthright the lack
of which had beggared and stripped her. She had
a sense of profound gratitude to this likable and handsome
young man, a moved and touching interest in him.
He made her feel glad to be alive; through him the
world seemed of a sudden a kindlier place, full of
charming surprises. And when she accompanied Mrs.
MacGregor to church on the following Sunday, she looked
with a secret sisterliness at the girls she had envied
and disliked. It was as if she had been elected
to their ranks, been made one of them; she wasn’t
on the outside of things any more; somebody a
very desirable and handsome somebody admired
her, too. She didn’t analyze her feelings.
Youth never thinks or analyzes, it feels and realizes;
that is why it is divine, why it is lord of the earth.
Her growing liking for him was so shy, so naïve, so
touchingly sincere, that Glenn was profoundly moved
when he became aware of it. He had the old South
Carolina chivalry; to him women were still invested
with a halo, and one approached them with a manly reverence.
He had liked girls, many girls; he would have told
you, himself, that he never met a pretty girl without
loving her some! But this was the first time
Glenn had ever really fallen in love, and he fell
headlong, with an impetuous ardor that all but swept
him off his feet, and that was like strong wine to
Nancy, whose drink heretofore had been lukewarm water.
He didn’t know whether or not
she was Mr. Champney’s sole heir, and he didn’t
care: what difference could that make? He
was as well born as any Champneys, wasn’t he?
And if he wasn’t blessed with much of this world’s
goods just now, he took it for granted he was going
to be, after a while. As for that, hadn’t
Chadwick Champneys himself once been as poor as Job’s
turkeys? And hadn’t Mr. Champneys acknowledged
the relationship existing between them, slight and
distant though it was? Who’d have the effrontery
to look down on one of the Mitchells of Mitchellsville,
South Carolina? He’d like to know!
Glenn began to dream the rosy dreams of twenty.
It took Nancy somewhat longer to discover
the amazing truth. She was more suspicious and
at the same time very much more humble-minded than
Glenn. But suspicion faded and failed before his
honest passion. His agitation, his eagerness,
his face that altered so swiftly, so glowingly, whenever
she appeared, would have told the truth to one duller
than Nancy. If Mrs. MacGregor could have suspected
that anybody could fall in love with Anne Champneys,
she must have seen the truth, too. But she didn’t.
She was serenely blind to what was happening under
her eyes.
Nancy never forgot the day she discovered
that Glenn loved her. Mrs. MacGregor had one
of her rare headaches. She was a woman who hated
to upset the fixed routine of life, and as their afternoon
outing was one of the established laws, she insisted
that Nancy should go, though she herself must remain
at home. Half fearful, half delighted, Nancy
went. Glenn had looked at her, mutely entreating;
in response to that entreaty she took the seat beside
him. For some time neither spoke Glenn
because he was too wildly happy, Nancy because she
hadn’t anything to say. She was curious;
she waited for him to speak.
“I wonder,” gulped Glenn,
presently, “if you know just how happy I am.”
Nancy said demurely that she didn’t
know; but if he was happy she was glad: it must
be very nice to be happy!
“Aren’t you happy?” he ventured.
Nancy turned pink by way of answer.
As a matter of fact, she was nearer being happy then
than she had ever been. They fell into an intimate
conversation that is, Glenn talked, and
the girl listened. He explained his hopes, ambitions,
prospects. He talked eagerly and impetuously.
He wished her to understand him, to know all about
him, what he was, what he hoped to be.
A boy in love is like that.
In return for this confidence Nancy
explained that she hated oatmeal, and Hannah More;
some of these days she meant to buy every copy of
Hannah More she could lay her hands on, and burn them.
Of herself, her past, she said nothing.
“And so you’re going to
be a doctor!” she turned the conversation back
to him, as being much more interesting.
“Yes. Or rather, I’m
going to be a great surgeon.” And then he
asked, smilingly:
“And you what do you want
to be?”
“I want to be happy,” said Nancy, half
fiercely.
“There isn’t any reason why you shouldn’t
be a girl like you.”
Nancy looked a bit doubtful.
But no, he wasn’t poking fun. And after
a pause, he asked, as one putting himself to the test:
“Miss Anne Nancy do you
think you could be happy with me?”
“You?” breathed
Nancy, all a-tremble. She thought she could be
happier with Glenn than with anybody else. Why!
there wasn’t anybody else! That
is, nobody that cared. She was afraid to say so.
But her moved and changed face said it for her.
“Because, if you could be happy
with me, why shouldn’t you be?” asked
Glenn, brilliantly. But Nancy understood, and
her heart crowded into her throat with delight, and
terror, and a sort of agony. She felt that she
loved and adored this boy to distraction. She
would have adored anybody who loved and desired her,
who found her fair. But she didn’t understand
that; neither did Glenn.
“You care?” said the boy,
leaning toward her. They were running slowly,
along a road high above the river. “Nancy,
you care?”
Care? Of course she cared!
She considered him the most beautiful and desirable
of mortals; she was so enraptured, so thrilled with
the astounding fact that he cared for her, that she
couldn’t speak, but looked at him with swimming
eyes. He brought the car to a stop, slipped an
arm around her shoulder, and drew her close. She
knew that something momentous was going to happen
to her, and looked at him, full of a sweet terror.
“I love you!” said Glenn, and kissed her
on the mouth.
His beard was the ghost of down on
his cheek; her hair hung in a braid to her waist;
their kiss was the kiss of youth, tender,
passionately pure. Everything but that morning
face, pale with young emotion, looking at her with
enamored eyes, vanished from her mind; everything
else counted for nothing, went like chaff upon the
wind. The one fact alone remained: Glenn
loved her! Her senses were in a delicious
tumult from the power and the glory of it: Glenn
loved her! It was as if a skylark sang in
her breast, as if she walked in a rosy and new-born
world. Had Nancy been called upon to die for him
then, she would have gone to her death shining-eyed,
fleet-footed, joyous.
“I love you, I love you!”
Glenn repeated it like a litany. “Nancy!
Does it make you as happy because I love you as it
makes me because you love me?”
“Oh, ten thousand times ten
thousand times more!” she said fervently.
“I think it was your hair I
fell in love with, first off,” he told her presently.
“I have never seen a girl with such hair, and
such a lot of it. I’m crazy about your
hair, Nancy.”
“I think you must be,”
she agreed whole-heartedly. She wasn’t vain,
his girl!
They had no more plans than birds
or flowers have. Plenty of time for sober planning
by and by, when one grew accustomed to the sweet miracle
of being beloved as much as one loved! Glenn simply
took it for granted he was going to marry her.
He had known her all of three months a
lifetime, really! and she had allowed him
to kiss her, had admitted she cared. He supposed
they would have to wait until he had been through
his training and won that coveted degree. Until
then, they would keep their beautiful secret to themselves;
they didn’t wish to share it with anybody, yet.
It was only when she was alone in
her room that night that Nancy realized the true situation
that confronted her. On the one side was Glenn,
dear, wonderful Glenn, who loved her. On the other
was Peter Champneys, who had married her as she had
married him, for the Champneys money. Peter Champneys!
who despised her, and whom she must consider a barrier
between herself and whatever happiness life might
offer her! She could understand how Glenn had
made his mistake. Nobody had explained Peter
to him. To tell him the truth now meant to lose
him. She was like a person dying of thirst, yet
forbidden to drink the cup of cold water extended to
her.
Wasn’t it wiser to take what
life offered, drain the cup, and let come what might?
Why not snatch her chance of happiness, even though
it should be brief? Suppose one waited? Deep
in her heart was the hope that something would happen
that would save her; youth always hopes something
is going to happen that will save it. Wasn’t
it possible Peter might fall in love with somebody,
and divorce her? One saw how very possible indeed
such a thing was! For the present, let Glenn
love her. It was the most important and necessary
thing in the world that Glenn should love her.
What harm was she doing in letting Glenn love her?
Particularly when Peter Champneys didn’t, never
would, any more than she ever could or would love Peter
Champneys.
Even Mrs. MacGregor noticed the change
taking place in Anne Champneys. The girl had
more color and animation, and at times she even ventured
to express her own opinions, which were strikingly
shrewd and fresh and original. Her eyes had grown
sweeter and clearer, now that she no longer slitted
them, and her mouth was learning to curve smilingly.
Decidedly, Anne was vastly improved! And her
manner had subtly changed, too; she was beginning to
show an individuality that wasn’t without a
nascent fascination.
Mrs. MacGregor plumed herself upon
the improvement in her pupil, which she ascribed to
her own civilizing and potent influence, for she was
a God-fearing woman. She didn’t understand
that the greatest Power in heaven and earth was at
work with Nancy.
But although Glenn became daily more
enamored of the girl, he wasn’t so satisfied
with things as they were. He couldn’t say
that Nancy really avoided him, of course. He
drove her and Mrs. MacGregor, whom at times he wished
in Jericho, out in the car every afternoon. He
sat opposite her at table thrice daily. Sometimes
in the evening he spent an hour or two with her and
Mrs. MacGregor, before going to his own room to study.
But it so happened that he never was able to see her
alone any more; and Nancy certainly made no effort
to bring about that desirable situation. This
made him restive and at the same time increased his
passion for her.
For her part, she was perfectly content
just to look at him, to know that he was near.
But Glenn was more impatient. He wanted the fragrance
of her hair against his shoulder; he wanted the straight,
strong young body in his arms; he wished to kiss her.
And she held aloof. Although she no longer veiled
her eyes from him, although he was quite sure she
loved him, she was always tantalizingly out of his
reach. She didn’t seem to understand the
lover’s desire to be alone with the beloved,
he thought. He grew moody. The weeks seemed
years to his ardent and impetuous spirit. One
night, happening to need a book he had noticed in
the library, he went after it. And there, oh
blessed vision, sat Nancy! She had been sleepless
and restless, and had stolen out of her room for something
to read that hadn’t been selected by Mrs. MacGregor.
It was rather late, but finding the quiet library
pleasanter to her mood than her own room, she curled
up in a comfortable chair and began to read. The
book was Hardy’s “Tess,” and its
strong and somber passion and tragedy filled her with
pity and terror. Something in her was roused by
the story; she felt that she understood and suffered
with that simple and passionate soul.
She looked up, startled, as Glenn
entered the room. He came to her swiftly, his
arms outstretched, his face alight.
“You!” he cried, radiant and elate.
“You!”
Nancy rose, torn between the desire
to retreat, and to fling herself into those waiting
arms. Glenn left her no choice. He seized
her, roughly and masterfully, and held her close,
pressing her against his body. His lips fastened
upon hers. Nancy closed her eyes and shivered.
She felt small and helpless, a leaf before the wind,
and she was afraid.
“Nancy!” he whispered.
“Nancy! You’ve got to marry me.
We’ll just have to risk it, degree or no degree!
What’s the use of waiting all our lives, maybe,
when we love each other? When will you marry me,
Nancy?”
She knew then that she had to tell
him the truth, and she trembled.
“Glenn, I I ”
she stammered. Her tongue seemed to cleave to
the roof of her mouth.
“Soon? Say yes, Nancy!
I’m crazy about you, don’t you know that?
Why don’t you say when, Nancy?”
She felt desperate, as if some force
were closing in upon her, relentlessly. She had
to speak, and yet she couldn’t. She tried
to escape from the arms that held her, but they clasped
her all the closer. His eager lips closed on
hers.
“Nancy! Ah, darling, why
not let everything go and marry me at once?”
Ah, why not, indeed? As if Peter
Champneys had reached across the sea to divide her
and Glenn, a stern voice answered Glenn’s question.
“Because she has a husband already,”
it said harshly. Chalky white, with blazing eyes,
Chadwick Champneys confronted Peter’s wife in
another man’s arms. “She is married
to my nephew, Peter Champneys. Is it possible
you do not know?”
Glenn’s arms dropped. Intuitively
he moved away from her. His visage blanched,
and he stared at her strangely.
“Nancy, is this thing true?”
Nancy nodded. She said in a lifeless
voice: “Oh yes, it’s true. I
was trying to tell you, but ” And
then she broke into a cry: “Glenn, you
don’t understand! Glenn, listen, please
listen! I did love you, I do love you, Glenn!
You you don’t know you
don’t understand ”
The boy staggered. He was an
honorable, clean-souled boy, heir to old heritages
of pride, and faith, and chivalry. A dull, shamed
red crept from cheek to brow, replacing his pallor.
His gesture, as he turned away from her, made her
feel as if she had been struck across the face.
She winced. She saw herself judged and condemned.
“Mr. Champneys,” stammered
Glenn, painfully, “surely you know I didn’t
understand don’t you? I we fell
in love, sir. We’d meant to wait that’s
why I didn’t come to you at once but
I that is, I was very much in love with
her, and I was going to make a clean breast of it
and ask you what we’d better do. And you’re
not to think I’m dishonorable ”
he choked over the word.
Knowing the boy’s breed, Champneys
laid a not unkindly hand on his shoulder.
“I see how it was,” he
said. “And I guess you’re
punished enough, without any reproaches from me.”
Glenn turned to Nancy. “Why
did you do it?” he cried. “I loved
you, I trusted you. Nancy, why did you do such
a thing to me?”
She twisted her fingers. Well,
this was the end. She was to be thrust out of
the new brightness, back into the drab dreariness,
the emptiness that was her fate. She lifted tragic
eyes.
“I never expected you to love
me. But when you did I just had
to let you! Nobody else cared ever.
And I loved you for loving me I couldn’t
help it, Glenn; I couldn’t help it!” Her
voice broke. She stood there, twisting her fingers.
An old, wise, kind woman, or an old
priest who had seen and forgiven much, or men who
knew and pitied youth, would have understood.
Neither of the men to whom she spoke realized the significance
of that childishly pitiful confession. Champneys
felt that she had shamed his name, belittled the sacred
Family which was his fetish; Glenn thought she had
made a fool of him for her own amusement. Never
again would he trust a woman, he told himself.
And in his pain and shame, his smarting sense of having
been duped, his hideous revulsion of feeling, he spoke
out brutally. Nancy was left in no doubt as to
the estimation in which he now held her. And she
understood that it was his pride, even more than his
love, that suffered.
She made no further attempt to explain
or to exculpate herself; what was the use? She
knew that had they changed places, had Glenn been
in her shoes and she in his, her judgment had not been
thus swift and merciless. Her larger love would
have understood, and pitied, and forgiven. Pride!
They talked of Pride, and they talked of Name.
But she could only feel that the one love she had ever
known, or perhaps ever was to know, was going from
her, must go from her, unforgiving, as if she had
done it some irreparable wrong. She looked from
one wrathful, accusing face to the other, like a child
that has been beaten. How could Glenn, who had
seemed to love her so greatly, turn against her so
instantly? Not even Peter Champneys had
looked at her as Glenn was looking at her now!
And of a sudden she felt cold, and old, and sad, and
inexpressibly tired. So this was what men were
like, then! They always blamed. And they
never, never understood. She would not forget.
She checked the impulse to cry aloud
to Glenn, to try once more to make him understand.
Her eyes darkened, and two bright spots burnt in her
cheeks. Without a further word or glance she walked
out of the room and left the two standing close together.
So stepped Anne Champneys into her womanhood.
She locked her door upon herself.
Then she went over, after her fashion, and stared
at herself in her mirror. The herself staring
back at her startled her the flushed cheeks,
the mouth like coral, the eyes glowing like jewels
under straight black brows. The ropes of red
hair seemed alive, too; the whole figure radiated a
personality that could be dynamic, once its powers
should be fully aroused.
She viewed the woman in the glass
impersonally, as if it had been a stranger’s
face looking at her. That vivid creature couldn’t
be Nancy Simms, not quite three years ago the Baxter
slavey, the same Nancy that Peter Champneys had shrunk
from with aversion, and that Glenn had repudiated
to-night!
“Yes, it’s
me,” she murmured. “But I ain’t I
mean I am not really ugly any more. I’m I
don’t know just what I am or
whether I ought to like or hate me ”
But even while she shook her head, the face in the
glass changed; the mouth drooped, the color faded,
the light in the eyes went out. “But whatever
I am, I’m not enough to make anybody keep on
loving me.” Then, because she was just a
girl, and a very bewildered, sad, and undisciplined
girl, she put her red head down on her dressing-table
and wept despairingly.
The next morning Mr. Champneys explained
to the concerned and regretful Mrs. MacGregor that
Mr. Mitchell had been called away suddenly, last night,
and didn’t think he would be able to return.
The ladies were to accept Mr. Mitchell’s regrets
that he hadn’t been able to bid them good-by
in person. Mr. Champneys bowed for Mr. Mitchell,
in a very stately manner. He went on with his
breakfast, while Nancy made a pretense of eating hers,
hating life and wishing with youthful intensity that
she was dead, and Glenn with her. His empty place
mocked and tortured her. He had gone, and he didn’t,
wouldn’t, couldn’t understand. She
could never, never hope to make Glenn understand!
She rather expected Mr. Champneys to sit in judgment
upon her that morning, but a whole week passed before
Hoichi brought the message that Mr. Champneys wished
to see her in the library. Her uncle was standing
by the window when she entered, and he turned and
bowed to her politely. He was thinner, gaunter,
more Don Quixotish than usual. If only he had
been kind! But his face was set, and hers instinctively
hardened to match it.
“Nancy,” he began directly,
“I have not sent for you to load you with reproaches
for your inexplicable conduct. But I must say
this: deliberately to deceive and befool an honest
gentleman, to trifle with his affections out of mere
greedy vanity, is so base that I have no words strong
enough to condemn it.”
“I didn’t mean to fool
him. He fooled himself, and I let him do it,”
said she, dully. He thought her listlessness indifference,
and any bluntness in moral tone in a woman, scandalized
him. He could understand a Mrs. MacGregor, who
was without subtleties; or soft, loving, courageous
women like Milly and his sister-in-law, Peter’s
mother. But this girl he couldn’t fathom.
He beat his hands together, helplessly.
“I you ”
he groaned. And then: “Oh, Peter, what
have I done to you!”
“I can’t see you’ve
done anything to him, except pay him to go away and
learn how to make something out of himself,”
returned Nancy, practically. It brought him up
short. “Uncle Chadwick, please keep quiet
for a few minutes: I want you to listen to me.”
She met his eyes fully. “I didn’t
do Glenn Mitchell any real harm: he’ll fall
in love with somebody else pretty soon. I suppose
it’s easy for Glenn to love people because it’s
easier for people to love Glenn. And he’s
done me this much good: I won’t be so ready
to believe it’s easy for folks to love me,
Uncle Chadwick. I guess I’m the sort they
mostly don’t. I’ll
not forget.” She spoke without bitterness,
even with dignity. “One thing more, please.
If ever Peter Champneys finds out he loves somebody,
and he’ll let me know, I’ll give him his
freedom. Fortune or no fortune, I won’t
hold him. I know now a little what
loving somebody means,” she finished.
Her voice was so steady, her eyes
so clear and direct, her manner so contained, that
he was uncomfortably impressed. He felt put upon
the defensive. As a matter of fact, in his first
anger and surprise at what he still considered her
shameless behavior, he had seriously considered the
advisability of having Peter’s marriage annulled.
As soon as he had become calmer, his pride and obstinacy
rejected such a course. After all, no harm had
been done. She was very young. And he hoped
Glenn’s outspoken condemnation had taught her
a needed and salutary lesson. Looking at her
this morning, he realized that she had been punished.
But that she should so calmly speak of divorcing Peter,
of making way for some other woman, horrified him.
“You are talking immoral nonsense!”
he said, angrily. “Let him go, indeed!
Divorce your husband! What are we coming to?
In my day marriage was binding. No respectable
husband or wife ever dreamed of divorce!”
“But they were real husbands
and wives, weren’t they?” asked Nancy.
“All husbands and wives are
real husbands and wives!” he thundered.
She considered this and
him carefully. “Then you don’t
want Mr. Peter Champneys and me ever to be divorced?
I thought maybe you might.”
“I forbid you even to think
such wickedness,” cried he, alarmed. “A
girl of your age talking in such a manner! It’s
scandalous, that’s what it is, scandalous!
Shows the dry-rot of our national moral sense, when
the very children” he glared at Nancy “gabble
about divorce!”
“Then I I mean, things
are just to go along, the same as they have been?”
She looked at him pleadingly.
For a few minutes he drummed on the
library table with his thin brown fingers. His
bushy brows contracted. He asked unexpectedly:
“Would you like to go away for a while?
To travel?”
“Where?”
“Where? Why, anywhere!
There’s a whole world to travel in, isn’t
there? Well, take Mrs. MacGregor and travel around
in it, then.”
She shook her head.
“What’s the use?
Anywhere I went I’d have to go with me,
wouldn’t I? And I can’t seem to like
the idea of traveling around with Mrs. MacGregor,
either.”
“What do you want, then?”
“I don’t know,”
said she, in a low voice. And she added:
“So I think I might just as well stay right
on here at home, if it’s all the same to you.”
“Well, if it pleases you, of course ”
he began doubtfully.
“If I do stay, you needn’t
be afraid I’ll fall in love with anybody else
you hire,” said she, with a faint flush.
“I’m only a fool the same way once.”
Her bomb-shell directness all but stunned him.
He stammered, confusedly:
“Why very well then,
very well then! Quite so! I see exactly what
you mean! I ah am very glad
we understand each other.” But as the door
closed behind her, he mumbled to himself:
“Now, that was a devil of an
interview, wasn’t it! What’s come
over the girl? And what’s the matter with
me?” After a while he telephoned Mr.
Jason Vandervelde.
Everything went on as usual in the
orderly, luxurious house, for some ten quiet months
or so. And then one memorable morning at the
breakfast-table Mr. Champneys suddenly gasped and slid
down in his chair. Nancy and Hoichi carried him
into the library and placed him on a lounge.
He opened his eyes once, and stared into hers with
something of his old imperiousness. She took his
hand, pitifully, and bent down to him.
“Yes, Uncle Chadwick?”
But he didn’t speak to
her. His eyes wandered past her. His lips
trembled, into a whisper of “Milly!”
With that he went out to the wife of his youth.