He had said quietly: “You are going to
marry me!”
And she had replied, as if there could
be no possible doubt about it:
“Yes, I am going to marry you.”
“Because you love me better
than anything or anybody else in all the world, even
as I love you.”
“Because I love you better than
anything or anybody else in all the world,”
she repeated.
“So far, so good. When, Beloved Lady?”
At that she hesitated for a space
and fell silent. He pressed her head closer,
and bending his tall head laid his cheek to hers.
“When?”
“Presently. But before
that, dearest and best of men, there are so many,
many things I wish to tell you, so many things I wish
you to know! I wish you to know me. Everything
about me! For once upon a time there was a sad,
neglected child, a piteous child I must make you acquainted
with. There was an ignorant and undisciplined
young girl ”
“You?”
She nodded sorrowfully. His clasp
tightened. He slipped a hand beneath her chin,
tilted her face upward, and kissed her eyes that had
suddenly filled with tears, her lips that quivered.
“Beloved Lady, I understand:
for there was once upon a time a sad, neglected child,
an ugly little lad, barefooted and poverty-stricken
after his mother’s death. There was an ignorant
and undisciplined boy ”
“You?” Her arms went around
him protectingly, in a mothering and tender clasp.
“Who else? And being very
ignorant indeed, he sold himself into bondage for
a mess of pottage, and was thrall for weary years.
He got exactly what he paid for. And life was
ashes upon his head and wormwood in his mouth, and
his heart was empty in his breast, because he snatched
at shadows. And then one day the door of his
prison was opened by the keeper, and he said, ‘Now
I am free!’ But it was his fate to go down into
hell for a season. There were times when he asked
himself, ‘Why don’t I blow out my brains
and escape?’ Nothing but the simple faith and
heroism of common men about him saved him from despair.
One day a blinded soldier said, ’See for us!’
So he began to see, but still without hope,
still without happiness, until he came here and found you.”
His voice was melted gold.
She had listened breathlessly.
And after a pause she asked:
“Who was the keeper of his prison?”
“The woman to whom he had been married.”
Her arms fell from him. She tried
to draw herself away, but he held her all the closer.
“Do not think unkindly of her.
I don’t think she really knew she was an ogress!
After all, she did unlock the door and say, ‘Go!’
And well, here I am, darling woman.
And I’m going to marry you!”
“Did you never love her?”
“Never. I was so frightfully
unhappy that the best I could do was not to hate her.
I’m afraid she hated me poor ogress!
Well! That’s all over and done with.
Like an evil dream. I’m here, and you’re
going to marry me.” Very gently he drew
her arms around him again. “Ah, hold fast
to me! Hold fast! I have waited for you so
long, I need you so much!” he breathed.
“I don’t seem able to
help myself!” she sighed. And she asked
seriously: “What do the people who love
you most call you when they speak to you?”
The brown and bearded faces of comrades
rose before him, their voices sounded in his ears.
“Pierre.”
“Pierre,” said she, bravely,
as if to call him by his name emboldened her, “I
too have been freed from a hateful marriage.
Sometime I will tell you all about it. But oh,
do not let us talk about it now! I cannot bear
to think of him! I cannot bear to have his shadow,
even, fall upon me now, or come near you!”
That gangling bridegroom in his ill-fitting suit,
with his wincing mouth, his eyes full of disgust and
aversion, his air of a man sentenced to death or
marriage with herself came before her, and
she shivered.
Despite her words a horrible jealousy
of that unknown man assailed him. He asked fiercely:
“You loved him, once?”
“Oh, no! Oh, no! Never!
I why, Pierre, until you came, I didn’t
even know what love meant! Once that ignorant,
undisciplined girl I spoke of, thought she loved a
boy. She didn’t. She loved the idea
of love. And once again, Pierre, because my life
was so empty, and because I didn’t know any
better, I thought I should be willing to marry somebody
else. I thought that somebody else could fill
my life. But now I know that could never be.
You are here.”
He looked at her with infinite tenderness.
There were things he, too, would have to tell her,
by and by. And he was sure that the woman whose
coming little Denise had seemed to foreknow, would
understand. He said gravely:
“Yes, we have found each other.
That is all that really matters. Nothing, nobody
else, counts with you and me.” And then,
of a sudden, he laughed happily: “And,
Beloved Lady, I do not know your name! I can’t
call you ‘Mrs. Riley,’ can I? By what
name, then, shall the one who loves you most call
you?”
“Anne.” And she asked eagerly:
“Do you like it?”
He started. Anne! Strange
that the name that had been his chiefest unhappiness
should now become his chiefest joy! Strange that
he hadn’t guessed Anne could be the most beautiful
of all names for a woman! Like it? Of course
he liked it! Wasn’t it hers?
“Anne, you haven’t yet said when you will
marry me.”
“Oh, but you are sure of that!”
she parried.
“I am so sure of it that I am
quite capable of taking you by the hair and dragging
you off to the parson’s, if you try to make me
wait. Anne! Remember that ever since I was
that barefooted, lonely child I have been waiting
for you. My dear, I need you so greatly!”
She said passionately: “You
cannot need me as I need you. You are yourself.
You couldn’t be anything else. You were
you before you ever saw me. But I I
couldn’t be my real self until you came and
looked at me and kissed me.”
He felt humble, and reverent, and
at the same time exultant. When she said presently,
“I must go now,” he released her reluctantly.
They walked hand in hand, pausing at the small headland
beyond which the village came in sight. She took
both his hands and held them against her breast.
“You are my one man. I
love you so much that I am going to give my whole
life into your hands, as fully and as freely as I shall
some day give my spirit into the hands of God.
But, Pierre, there are those who have been very, very
kind to me, those to whom I owe well, explanations.
When I have made those explanations and and
settled my accounts, then all the rest of
my life is yours.”
“You are very, very sure, Anne?”
His voice was wistful.
“My love for you,” she
said proudly, “is the one great reality.
I am surer of that than I have ever been of anything
in this world.” And she stood there looking
at him with her heart in her eyes. Of a sudden,
with a little cry, she pulled his head down to her,
kissed him upon the mouth, pushed him from her, and
fled.
When she reached her room again, she
couldn’t sleep, but knelt by her window and
watched the skies pale and then flush like a young
girl’s face, and the morning-star blaze and pale,
and the sun come up over a bright and beautiful world
in which she herself was, she felt, new-born.
Far in the background of things, unreal as a dream,
hovered the unlovely figure of Nancy Simms, and nearer,
but still almost as unreal, the bright, cold figure
of Anne Champneys, that Anne Champneys who had wished
to marry Berkeley Hayden to gratify pride and ambition.
The woman kneeling by the window, watching the glory
of the morning, looked back upon those two as a winged
butterfly might remember its caterpillar crawlings.
All that glittering life Anne Champneys
had planned for herself? Swept away as if it
had been a bit of tinsel! Money? Position?
She laughed low to herself. She didn’t
care whether her man had possessions or lacked them.
All she asked was that he should be himself and
hers. All that Milly had been to Chadwick Champneys the
passionate lover, the perfect comrade, the friend
nothing daunted, no wind of fortune could change Anne
could be, would be to Pierre.
There was but one shadow upon her
new happiness: she hated to disappoint Marcia.
Marcia had set her heart upon the Hayden marriage.
It was toward that consummation, so devoutly to be
hoped, that Marcia had planned. And just when
that plan was nearing perfection Anne was going to
have to frustrate it. She hated to hurt Hayden
himself, and the thought of his angry disappointment
was painful to her. She liked Hayden.
She would always like him. But she couldn’t
marry him. To marry Hayden, loving Pierre, would
have been to work them both an irremediable injury.
A sort of horror of what she had been about to do
came upon her. The bare thought of it made her
recoil.
Her native shrewdness told her that
Hayden’s immense pride would come to his aid.
The fact that she had dared to desire somebody else,
to prefer another to his lordly self would be enough
to prove to Hayden that she wasn’t worthy of
his affections. He would feel that he had been
deceived in her. She couldn’t help hoping
that he wouldn’t altogether despise her.
She hoped that Marcia wouldn’t be too angry
to forgive her. And then her thoughts merged into
a prayer: Oh dear God, help her to make Pierre
happy, to grow to his stature, to be worthy of him!
Back there on the beach he lay with
his head in his arms, humble before the power and
the glory that had come to him. This, this was
the face he had always sought, the beauty that had
so long eluded him! Beauty, mere physical beauty,
appealed to him as it always appeals to an artist,
but it had never had the power to hold him for any
length of time. It had palled upon him. To
satisfy his demand, beauty must have upon it the ineffable
imprint of the soul. This woman’s face
was as baffling, as inexplicable, in its way, as was
Mona Lisa’s. One wasn’t sure that
she was beautiful; one was only sure that she was
unforgetable, and that after other faces had faded
from the memory, hers remained to haunt the heart.
And that red hair of hers, like the hair of a Norse
sun-goddess!
He fell into pleasant dreams.
He was going to take her down south with him; he wanted
her to see that little brown house in South Carolina,
to know the tide-water gurgling in the Riverton coves,
and mocking-birds singing to the moonlit night, and
the voice of the whippoorwill out of the thickets.
She must know the marshes, and the live-oaks hung
with moss. All the haunts of his childhood she
should know, and old Emma Campbell would sit and talk
to her about his mother. They would stay in the
little house hallowed by his mother’s mild spirit.
And he would show her that first sketch of the Red
Admiral. And afterward they two would plan how
to make the best use of the Champneys money.
He was very, very sure of her sympathy and her understanding.
Why, you couldn’t look into her eyes without
knowing how exquisite her sympathy would be!
He was so stirred, so thrilled, that
the creative power that had seemed to fail him, that
had left him so emptily alone these many bitter months,
came to him with a rush. He got to his feet and
went tramping up and down the strip of shore, his
eyes clouded with visions. Before his mind’s
eye the picture he meant to paint took shape and form
and color. And as he walked home he whistled like
a happy boy.
He had brought his materials along
with him as a matter of habit. With his powers
at high tide, in the first glamour of a great passion,
he set himself to work next morning to portray her
as his heart knew her.
He worked steadily, stopping only
when the light failed. He was so absorbed in
his task that he forgot his body. But Grandma
Baker was a wise old woman, and she came at intervals
and forced food upon him. Then he slept, and
awoke with the light to rush back to his work.
His old rare gift of visualizing a face in its absence
had grown with the years; and this was the face of
all faces. There was not a shade or a line of
that face he didn’t know. And after a while
she appeared upon his canvas, breathing, immensely
alive, with the inmost spirit of her informing her
gray-green eyes, her virginal mouth, her candid and
thoughtful brow. There she stood, Anne as Peter
Champneys knew and loved her.
He had done great work in his time.
But this was painted with the blood of his heart.
This was his high-water mark. It would take its
place with those immortal canvases that are the slow
accretions of the ages, the perfectest flowerings
of genius. He was swaying on his feet when he
painted in the Red Admiral. Then he flung himself
upon his bed and slept like a dead man.
When he awoke, she seemed to be a
living presence in his room. He gasped, and sat
with his hands between his knees, staring at her almost
unbelievingly. He looked at the Red Admiral above
his signature, and fetched a great, sighing breath.
“We’ve done it at last,
by God!” said he, soberly. “Fairy,
we’ve reached the heights!”
But when he appeared at the breakfast-table
Grandma Baker regarded him with deep concern.
“My land o’ love!”
she exclaimed. “Why, you look like you been
buried and dug up!”
“Permit me,” said he,
politely, “to congratulate you upon your perspicacity.
That is exactly what happened to me.”
“Eh!” said Grandma, setting
her spectacles straight on her old nose.
“And let me add: It’s
worth the price!” said the resurrected one,
genially. “Grandma Baker, were you
very much in love?”
“Abner tried his dumdest to
find that out,” said Grandma Baker. “He
was the plaguedest man ever was for wantin’ to
know things, but somehow I sort o’ didn’t
want him changed any. You got ways put me mightily
in mind o’ Abner.” The old eyes were
very sweet, and a wintry rose crept into her withered
cheek. She added: “I know what’s
ailin’ you, young man! Lord knows
I hope you’ll be happy as Abner and me was!”
He went back to his room and communed
with his picture. It was the sort that, if you
stayed with it a little while, liked to commune
with you. It would divine your mood, and the eyes
followed you with an uncanny understanding, the smile
said more than any words could say. You almost
saw her eyelids move, her breast rise and fall to
her breathing. The man trembled before his masterpiece.
His heart swelled. He exulted
in his genius, a high gift to be laid at the feet
of the beloved. All he had, all he could ever
be, belonged to her. She had called forth his
best. He said to her painted semblance:
“You are my first love-gift.
I am going to send you to her, and she’ll know
she hasn’t given her love, her beauty, her youth,
to an unworthy or an obscure lover. She’s
given herself to me, Peter Champneys, and because
she loves me I’ll give her a name she can wear
like a crown: I’ll set her upon the purple
heights!”
She was at the far end of the Thatcher
garden, behind the house and hidden from it, when
he arrived with the canvas, which he hadn’t
dared entrust to any other carrier he was
too jealously careful of it. No, he told Mrs.
Thatcher, it wasn’t necessary to disturb her
guest. Just allow him to place the canvas in Mrs.
Riley’s sitting-room. She would find it
there when she returned.
Mrs. Thatcher complied willingly enough.
She liked the tall, black-bearded man whom shrewd
old Grandma Baker couldn’t praise sufficiently.
“Excuse me for not goin’
up with you, on account of my hands bein’ in
the mixin’-bowl. It’s a picture, ain’t
it? You just step right upstairs and set it on
the mantel or anywheres you like. I’ll tell
her you been here.”
And so he placed it on the mantel,
where the north light fell full upon it, waved his
hand to it, and went away. It would tell her all
that was in his heart for her. It would explain
himself. The Red Admiral would assure that!
Anne had been having rather a troublesome
time. She had written to Marcia and to Berkeley
Hayden the night before, and the letters had been
posted only that morning. She had had to be very
explicit, to make her position perfectly plain to
them both, and the letters had not been easy to write.
But when she had finally written them, she had really
succeeded in explaining her true self. There was
no doubt as to her entire truthfulness, or the finality
of this decision of hers. When she posted those
letters, she knew that a page of her life had been
turned down, the word “Finis” written at
the bottom of it. She had tossed aside a brilliant
social career, a high position, a great fortune, and
counted it all well lost. Her one regret was
to have to disappoint Marcia. She loved Marcia.
And she hoped that Berkeley wouldn’t despise
her.
She was agitated, perturbed, and yet
rapturously happy. She wished to be alone to
hug that happiness to her heart, and so she had gone
out under the apple-trees at the far end of the Thatcher
orchard, and lay there all her long length in the
good green grass. The place was full of sweet
and drowsy odors. Birds called and fluted.
Butterflies and bees came and went. She had never
felt so close to Mother Earth as she did to-day, never
so keenly sensed the joy of being alive.
After a while she arose, reluctantly,
and went back to the house and her rooms. She
was remembering that she hadn’t yet written to
Jason, and she wanted Jason to know. Inside her
sitting-room door she stopped short, eyes widened,
lips fallen apart. On the mantel, glowing, jewel-like
in the clear, pure light, herself confronted her.
Herself as a great artist saw and loved her.
She stood transfixed. The sheer
power and beauty of the work, that spell which falls
upon one in the presence of all great art, held her
entranced. Her own eyes looked, at her as if they
challenged her; her own smile baffled her; there was
that in the pictured face which brought a cry to her
lips. Oh, was she so fair in his eyes? Only
great love, as well as great genius, could have so
portrayed her!
This was herself as she might be,
grown finer, and of a larger faith, a deeper and sweeter
charity. A sort of awe touched her. This
man who loved her, who had the power of showing her
herself as she might pray to become, this wonderful
lover of hers, was no mere amateur with a pretty gift.
This was one of the few, one of the torch-bearers!
And then she noticed the Red Admiral
in the corner. She stared at it unbelievingly.
That butterfly! Why why She
had read of one who signed with a butterfly above
his name pictures that were called great. A thought
that made her brain swim and her heart beat suffocatingly
crashed upon her like a clap of thunder. She walked
toward the mantel like one in a daze, until she stood
directly before the painting.
And it was his butterfly. And
under it was his name: Peter Devereaux Champneys.
The room bobbed up and down.
But she didn’t faint, she didn’t scream.
She caught hold of the mantel to steady herself.
She wondered how she hadn’t known; she had the
same sense of wild amazement that must fill one who
has been brought face to face with a stupendous, a
quite impossible miracle. Such a thing couldn’t
happen: and yet it is so! And oddly enough,
out of this welter of her thoughts, there came to
her memory a screened bed in a hospital ward, and
a dying gutter-girl looking at her with unearthly eyes
and telling her in a thin whisper:
“I wanted to see if you was
good enough for him. You ain’t.
But remember what I’m tellin’ you you
could be.”
Pierre Peter Champneys!
She slipped to her knees and hid her face in her shaking
hands. Peter Champneys! As in a lightning
flash she saw him as that girl Gracie had seen him.
Pierre Pierre, with his eyes of an archangel,
his lips that were the chrism of life this
was Peter Champneys! And she had hated him, let
him go, all unknowing, she had wished to put in his
place Berkeley Hayden. The handsome, worldly
figure of Hayden seemed to dwindle and shrink.
Pierre stood as on a height, looking at her steadfastly.
Her head went lower. Tears trickled between her
fingers.
You ain’t good enough for him, but you could
be.
“I can be, I can be! Oh,
God, I can be! Only let him love me when
he knows!”
She heard Mrs. Thatcher’s voice
downstairs, after a while. Then a deeper voice,
a man’s voice, with a note of impatience and
eagerness in it.
“No, don’t call her.
I’ll go right on up,” said the voice, over
the feminine apologies and protests. “I
have to see her I must see her now.
No, I can’t wait.”
Somebody came flying up the steps.
She hadn’t closed her door, and his tall figure
seemed to fill it. He stopped, with a gasp, at
sight of the weeping woman kneeling before the picture
on the mantel.
“Anne!” he cried.
“Anne!” And he would have raised her, but
she clung to his knees, lifting her tear-stained face,
her eyes full of an adoration that would never leave
them until life left them.
“Peter!” she cried.
“Peter! That that butterfly!
I know now, Peter!”
Again he tried to raise her, but she
clasped his knees all the closer.
“You mean you know my name is
really Peter Champneys, dearest?”
But she caught his hands. “Peter,
Peter, don’t you understand?” she cried,
laughing and weeping. “I I’m
the ogress! I’m Nancy Simms! I’m
Anne Champneys!”
He looked from her to her portrait
and back again. He gave a great ringing cry of,
“My wife!” and lifted her in a mighty grip
that swept her up and into his arms. “My
wife!” he cried. “My wife!”
Undoubtedly the Red Admiral was a fairy!
On a certain morning Mr. Jason Vandervelde
was sitting at his desk, disconnectedly dictating
a letter to his secretary. He was finding it
very difficult to fix his mind upon his correspondence.
What the mischief was happening up there in Maine,
anyhow? She hadn’t written for some time;
and he hadn’t had a word from Peter Champneys.
And when Marcia came home and found out he’d
been meddling well, the meddler would have
to pay the fiddler, that’s all!
The office boy came in with a telegram.
Mr. Vandervelde paused in his dictation, tore open
the envelop, and read the message. And then the
horrified secretary saw an amazing and an awesome sight.
Mr. Jason Vandervelde bounced to his feet as lightly
as though he had been a rubber ball, and performed
a solemnly joyful dance around his office. His
eyeglasses jigged on his nose, a lock of his sleekly
brushed hair fell upon his forehead. Meeting the
fixed stare of the secretary, he winked! And
with a sort of elephantine religiosity he finished
his amazing measure, caught once more the glassy eye
of the secretary, and panted:
“King David danced before the
ark of the Lord. For which reason your
salary is raised from to-day.”
He stopped then, snatched the telegram
off his desk, and read it again:
We have met and I have married
my wife. Anne sends love.
Thank you and God bless you, Vandervelde!
PETER CHAMPNEYS.
“Put up that note-book.
Take a day off. Go and enjoy yourself. Be
happy!” said Vandervelde to the secretary.
Then he snatched up the desk telephone.
“The florist’s? Yes?
How soon can you get six dozen bride roses up here,
to Mr. Vandervelde’s office? Yes, this is
Mr. Vandervelde speaking. You can? Well,
there’s a thumping tip for somebody who knows
how to rush! Half an hour? Thank you.
I’ll wait for ’em here.”
He hung up the receiver and turned
his beaming countenance to the stunned secretary.
His eyes twinkled like little blue stars, the corners
of his mouth curled more than usual.
“Anne and Peter Champneys have
been and gone and married each other!” he chuckled.
“I’m going to take a carful of bride roses
around to the Champneys house and put ’em under
old Chadwick Champneys’s portrait!”