But although he thought he had settled
all the conflict, he found that it returned when he
was lying in his bunk, or when he stood in the dome
and watched the stars, while they moved through the
Antares system toward the captive sun and the tiny
planet Lharillis.
It’s in my power to give this to all men....
Should a few Lhari stand in his way?
He lay in his bunk brooding, thinking
of death, staring at the yellow radiation badge. If
you fail, it won’t be in our lifetime. He’d
have to go back to little things, to the little ships
that hauled piddling cargo between little planets,
while all the grandeur of the stars belonged to the
Lhari. And if he succeeded, Vega Interplanet could
spread from star to star, a mighty memorial to Rupert
Steele.
One day Vorongil sent for him.
“Bartol,” he said, and his voice was not
unkind, “you and Ringg have always been good
friends, so don’t be angry about this.
He’s worried about you says you spend
all your spare time in your bunk growling at him.
Is there anything the matter, feathertop?”
He sounded so concerned, so the
word struck Bart with hysterical humor so
fatherly, that Bart wanted insanely to laugh
and to cry. Instead he muttered, “Ringg
should mind his own business.”
“But it’s not like that,”
Vorongil said. “Look, the Swiftwing’s
a world, young fellow, and a small one. If one
being in that world is unhappy, it affects everyone.”
Bart had an absurd, painful impulse to
blurt out the incredible truth to Vorongil, and try
to get the old Lhari to understand what he was doing.
But fear held him silent. He
was alone, one small human in a ship of Lhari.
Vorongil was frowning at him, and Bart mumbled, “It’s
nothing, rieko mori.”
“I suppose you’re pining
for home,” Vorongil said kindly. “Well,
it won’t be long now.”
The glare of the captive sun grew
and grew in the ports, and Bart’s dread mounted.
He had, as yet, had no opportunity to put the radiation
counter out of order. It was behind a panel in
the drive room, and try as he might, he could think
of no way to get to it unobserved. Sometimes,
in sleepless nights, it seemed that would be the best
way. Just let it go. But then the Lhari
would detect Montano’s ship, and kill Montano
and his men.
Did he believe that? He had to
believe it. It was the only way he could possibly
justify what he was doing.
And then his chance came, as so many
chances do when one no longer wants them. The
Second Officer met him at the beginning of one watch,
saying worriedly, “Bartol, old Rugel’s
sick not fit to be on his feet. Do
you think you can hold down this shift alone, if I
drop in and give you a hand from time to time?”
“I think so,” Bart said,
carefully not overemphasizing it. The Second
Officer, by routine, spent half of his time in the
drive room, and half his time down below in Maintenance.
When he left, Bart knew he would have at least half
an hour, uninterrupted, in the drive room. He
ripped open the panel, located the wires and hesitated;
he didn’t quite dare to cut them outright.
He jerked one wire loose, frayed the
other with a sharp claw until it was almost in shreds
and would break with the first surge of current, pulled
two more connections loose so that they were not making
full contact. He closed the panel and brushed
dust over it, and when the Second Officer came back,
Bart was at his own station.
As Antares fell toward them in the
viewport, he found himself worrying about Mentorians.
They would be in cold sleep, presumably in a safe part
of the ship, behind shielding, or Montano would have
made provisions for them. Still, he wished there
were a way to warn Meta.
He was not on watch when they came
into the planetary field of Lharillis, but when he
came on shift, he knew at once that the trouble had
been located. The panel was pulled open, the exposed
wires hanging, and Ringg was facing old Rugel, shouting,
“Listen, Baldy, I won’t have you accusing
me of going light on my work! I checked those
panels eight days ago! Tell me who’s going
to be opening the panels in here anyhow?”
“No, no,” Rugel said patiently,
“I’m not accusing you of anything, only
being careless, young Ringg. You poke with those
buzzing instruments and things, maybe once you tear
loose some wires.”
Bart remembered he wasn’t supposed
to know what was going on. “What’s
this all about?”
It was Rugel who answered. “The
radiation counter the planetary one, not
the one we use in space is out of order.
We don’t even need it this landing there’s
no radiation on Lharillis. If it were the landing
gear, now, that would be serious. I’m just
trying to tell Ringg
“He’s trying to say I
didn’t check it.” Ringg was not to
be calmed. “It’s my professional
competence
“Forget it,” Bart said.
“If Rugel isn’t sore about it, and if we
don’t need it for landing, why worry?”
He felt like Judas.
“Just take a look at my daybook,”
Ringg insisted, “I checked and marked it service
fit! I tell you, somebody was blundering around,
opening panels where they had no business, tore it
out by accident, then was too much of a filthy sneak
to report it and get it fixed!”
“Bartol was on watch alone one
night,” said the Second Officer, “but you
wouldn’t meddle with panels, would you, Bartol?”
Bart set his teeth, steadying his
breathing, as Ringg turned hopefully to him.
“Bartol, did you by mistake, maybe?
Because if you did, it won’t count against your
rating, but it means a black mark against mine!”
Bart hid his self-contempt in sudden,
tense fury. “No, I didn’t! You’re
going to accuse everybody on the Swiftwing,
all the way from me to Vorongil, before you
can admit a mistake, aren’t you? If you
want somebody to blame, look in a mirror!”
“Listen, you!” Ringg’s
pent-up rage exploded. He seized Bart by the
shoulder and Bart moved to throw him off, so that Ringg’s
outthrust claws raked only his forearm. In pure
reflex he felt his own claws flick out; they clinched,
closed, scuffled, and he felt his claws rake flesh;
half incredulous, saw the thin red line of blood welling
from Ringg’s cheek.
Then Rugel’s arms were flung
restrainingly around him, and the Second Officer was
wrestling with a furious, struggling Ringg. Bart
looked at his red-tipped claws in ill-concealed horror,
but it was lost in a general gasp of consternation,
for Vorongil had flung the drive room door open, taking
in the scene in one blistering glance.
"What’s going on down here?"
For the first time, Bart understood
Vorongil’s reputation as a tyrant. One
glance at Ringg’s bleeding face and Bart’s
ripped forearm, and he did not pause for breath for
a good fifteen minutes. By the time he finished,
Bart felt he would rather Ringg’s claws had laid
him bleeding to the bone than stand there in the naked
contempt of the old Lhari’s freezing eyes.
“Half-fledged nestlings trying
to do a man’s work! So someone forgot the
panel, or damaged the panel by mistake no,
not another word,” he commanded, as Ringg’s
crest came proudly up. “I don’t care
who did what! Any more of this, and the one who
does it can try his claws on the captain of the Swiftwing!”
He looked ugly and dangerous. “I thought
better of you both. Get below, you squalling kittens!
Let me not see your faces again before we land!”
As they went along the corridor, Ringg
turned to Bart, apology and chagrin in his eyes.
“Look I never meant to get the Bald
One down on us,” he said, but Bart kept his
face resolutely averted. It was easier this way,
without pretense of friendship.
The light from the small captive sun
grew more intense. Bart had never known anything
like it, and was glad to slip away and put the dark
contact lenses into his eyes. They made his eyes
appear all enormous, dilated pupil; fearfully, he
hoped no one would notice. His arm smarted, and
he did not speak to Ringg all through the long, slow
deceleration.
When the intercom ordered all crew
members to the hatchway, Bart lingered a minute, pinning
the yellow radiation badge in a fold of his cloak.
A spasm of fear threatened to overwhelm him again,
and nightmarish loneliness. He felt agonizingly
homesick for his own familiar face. It seemed
almost more than he could manage, to step out into
the corridor full of Lhari.
It won’t be long now.
The hatch opened. Even accustomed,
as he was, to Lhari lights, Bart squeezed his eyes
shut at the blue-white brilliance that assaulted him
now. Then, opening slitted lids cautiously, he
found that he could see.
A weirdly desolate scene stretched
away before them. Bare, burning sand, strewn
with curiously colored rocks, lay piled in strange
chaos; then he realized there was an odd, but perceptible
geometry to their arrangement. They showed alternate
crystal and opaque faces. Old Rugel noted his
look of surprise.
“Never been here before?
That’s right, you’ve always worked on the
Polaris run. Well, those aren’t true rocks,
but living creatures of a sort. The crystals
are alive; the opaque faces are lichens that have
something like chlorophyll and can make their food
from air and sunlight. The rocks and lichens
live in symbiosis. They have intelligence of
a sort, but fortunately they don’t mind us, or
our automatic mining machinery. Every time, though,
we find some new lichen that’s trying to set
up a symbiote cycle with the concrete of our bunkers.”
“And every time,” Ringg
said cheerfully, “somebody usually
me has to see about having them scraped
down and repainted. Maybe someday I’ll
find a paint the lichens don’t like the taste
of.”
“Going to explore with Ringg?”
Rugel asked, and Ringg, always ready to let bygones
be bygones, grinned and said, “Sure!” Bart
could not face him.
Vorongil stopped and said, “This
your first time here, young Bartol? How would
you like to visit the monument with me? You can
see the machinery on the way back.”
Relieved at not having to go with
Ringg, he followed the captain, falling into step
beside him. They moved in silence, along the smooth
stone path.
“The crystal creatures made
this road,” Vorongil said at last. “I
think they read minds a little. There used to
be a very messy, rocky desert here, and we used to
have to scrabble and scratch our way to the monument.
Then one day a ship not mine touched
down and discovered that there was a beautiful smooth
road leading up to the monument. And the lichens
never touch that stone but you probably
had all this in school. Excited, Bartol?”
“No no, sir. Why?”
“Eyes look a bit odd. But
who could blame you for being excited? I never
come here without remembering Rhazon and his crew on
that long jump. The longest any Lhari captain
ever made. A blind leap in the dark, remember,
Bartol. Through the dark, through the void, with
his own crew cursing him for taking the chance!
No one had ever crossed between galaxies and
remember, they were using the Ancient Math!”
He paused, and Bart said through a
catch of breath. “Quite an achievement.”
His badge still looked reassuringly yellow.
“You young people have no sense
of wonder,” Vorongil said. “Not that
I blame you. You can’t realize what it
was like in those days. Oh, we’d had star-travel
for centuries, we were beginning to stagnate.
And now look at us! Oh, they derided Rhazon said
that even if he did find anyone, any other race, they’d
be monsters with whom we could never communicate.
But here we have a whole new galaxy for peaceful trade,
a new mathematics that takes all the hazard out of
space travel, our Mentorian friends and allies.”
He smiled. “Don’t tell the High Council
on me, but I think they deserve a lot more credit than
most Lhari care to give them. Between ourselves,
I think the next Panarch may see it that way.”
Vorongil paused. “Here’s the monument.”
It lay between the crystal columns,
tall, of pale blue sandstone, with letters in deep
shadow of such contrast that the Lhari could read them:
a high, sheer, imposing stele. Vorongil read the
words slowly aloud in the musical Lhari language:
“’Here, with thanks to
Those who Watch the Great Night, I, Rhazon of Nedrun,
raise a stone of memory. Here we first do touch
the new worlds. Let us never again fear to face
the unknown, trusting that the Mind of All Knowledge
still has many surprises in store for all the living.’
“I think I admire courage more
than anything there is, Bartol. Who else could
have dared it? Doesn’t it make you proud
to be a Lhari?”
Bart had felt profoundly moved; now
he snapped back to awareness of who he was and what
he was doing. So only the Lhari had courage? Life
has surprises, all right, Captain, he thought
grimly.
He glanced down at the badge strip
of plastic on his arm. It began to tinge faint
orange as he looked, and a chill of fear went over
him. He had to get away somehow get
to cover!
He looked round and his fear was almost
driven from his mind. “Captain, the rocks!
They’re moving!”
Vorongil said, unruffled, “Why,
so they are. They do, you know; they have intelligence
of a sort. Though I’ve never actually seen
them move before, I know they shift places overnight.
I wonder what’s going on?” They were edging
back, the path widening and changing. “Oh,
well, maybe they’re going to do some more landscaping
for us. I once knew a captain who swore they
could read his mind.”
Bart saw the slow, inexorable deepening
of his badge he had to get away.
He tensed, impatient; gripped by fists of panic.
Somewhere on this world, Montano and his men were
setting up their lethal radiations....
Think of this: a Lhari ship
of our own to study, to know how it works, to see
the catalyst and find out where it comes from, to read
their records and star routes. Now we know we
can use it without dying in the warp-drive....
Think of this: to be human
again, yet to travel the stars with men of my own
race!
It’s worth a few deaths!
Even Vorongil? Standing here, talking to him, he might say it!
You talked to him as if he’d been your father!
Oh, Dad, Dad, what would you do?
His voice was steady, as he said,
“It’s very good of you to show me all
this, sir, but the other men will call me a slacker.
Hadn’t I better get to a work detail?”
“Hm, maybe so, feathertop,”
Vorongil said. “Let me see well,
down this way is the last row of bunkers. See
the humps? You can check inside to see if they’re
full or empty and save us the trouble of exploring
if they’re all empty. Have a look round
inside if you care to the robot machinery’s
interesting.”
Bart tensed; he had wondered how he’d
get hidden inside, but he asked, “Not locked?”
“Locked?” The old Lhari’s
short, yellowed crest bobbed in surprise. “Why?
Who ever comes here but our ships? And what could
we do with the stuff but take it back with us?
Why locked? You’ve been on the drift too
long among those thieving humans! It’s
time you got back to live among decent folk again.
Well, go along.”
The sting of the words stiffened Bart
as he took his leave. The color of the badge
seemed deeper orange....
When it’s red, you’re dead.
It’s true. The Lhari
don’t steal. They don’t even seem
to understand dishonesty.
But they lied lied to us all....
Knowing what we were like, maybe!
That we’d steal their ships, their secrets,
their lives!
The deepening color of the badge seemed
the one visible thing in a strange glaring world.
He walked along the row of bunkers, realizing he need
not check if they were full or empty the
Lhari wouldn’t live long enough to harvest their
better-than-graphite lubricant. They’d be
dead.
The last bunker was empty. He
looked at his orange badge and stepped inside, heart
pounding so loudly he thought it was an external sound it
was an external sound, a step.
“Don’t move one inch,”
said a voice in Universal, and Bart froze, trembling.
He looked cautiously round.
Montano stood there, spacesuited,
his head bare, dark contact lenses blurring his eyes.
And in his hand a drawn blaster was held level trained
straight at Bart’s heart.