Col. Selby had just come to Washington,
and taken lodgings in Georgetown. His business
was to get pay for some cotton that was destroyed during
the war. There were many others in Washington
on the same errand, some of them with claims as difficult
to establish as his. A concert of action was
necessary, and he was not, therefore, at all surprised
to receive the note from a lady asking him to call
at Senator Dilworthy’s.
At a little after three on Wednesday
he rang the bell of the Senator’s residence.
It was a handsome mansion on the Square opposite the
President’s house. The owner must be a
man of great wealth, the Colonel thought; perhaps,
who knows, said he with a smile, he may have got some
of my cotton in exchange for salt and quinine after
the capture of New Orleans. As this thought
passed through his mind he was looking at the remarkable
figure of the Hero of New Orleans, holding itself by
main strength from sliding off the back of the rearing
bronze horse, and lifting its hat in the manner of
one who acknowledges the playing of that martial air:
“See, the Conquering Hero Comes!” “Gad,”
said the Colonel to himself, “Old Hickory ought
to get down and give his seat to Gen. Sutler but
they’d have to tie him on.”
Laura was in the drawing room.
She heard the bell, she heard the steps in the hall,
and the emphatic thud of the supporting cane.
She had risen from her chair and was leaning against
the piano, pressing her left hand against the violent
beating of her heart. The door opened and the
Colonel entered, standing in the full light of the
opposite window. Laura was more in the shadow
and stood for an instant, long enough for the Colonel
to make the inward observation that she was a magnificent
Woman. She then advanced a step.
“Col. Selby, is it not?”
The Colonel staggered back, caught
himself by a chair, and turned towards her a look
of terror.
“Laura? My God!”
“Yes, your wife!”
“Oh, no, it can’t be. How came you
here? I thought you were ”
“You thought I was dead?
You thought you were rid of me? Not so long
as you live, Col. Selby, not so long as you live;”
Laura in her passion was hurried on to say.
No man had ever accused Col.
Selby of cowardice. But he was a coward before
this woman. May be he was not the man he once
was. Where was his coolness? Where was
his sneering, imperturbable manner, with which he
could have met, and would have met, any woman he had
wronged, if he had only been forewarned. He
felt now that he must temporize, that he must gain
time. There was danger in Laura’s tone.
There was something frightful in her calmness.
Her steady eyes seemed to devour him.
“You have ruined my life,”
she said; “and I was so young, so ignorant,
and loved you so. You betrayed me, and left me
mocking me and trampling me into the dust, a soiled
cast-off. You might better have killed me then.
Then I should not have hated you.”
“Laura,” said the Colonel,
nerving himself, but still pale, and speaking appealingly,
“don’t say that. Reproach me.
I deserve it. I was a scoundrel. I was
everything monstrous. But your beauty made me
crazy. You are right. I was a brute in
leaving you as I did. But what could I do?
I was married, and ”
“And your wife still lives?”
asked Laura, bending a little forward in her eagerness.
The Colonel noticed the action, and
he almost said “no,” but he thought of
the folly of attempting concealment.
“Yes. She is here.”
What little color had wandered back
into Laura’s face forsook it again. Her
heart stood still, her strength seemed going from her
limbs. Her last hope was gone. The room
swam before her for a moment, and the Colonel stepped
towards her, but she waved him back, as hot anger again
coursed through her veins, and said,
“And you dare come with her,
here, and tell me of it, here and mock me with it!
And you think I will have it; George? You think
I will let you live with that woman? You think
I am as powerless as that day I fell dead at your
feet?”
She raged now. She was in a
tempest of excitement. And she advanced towards
him with a threatening mien. She would kill me
if she could, thought the Colonel; but he thought
at the same moment, how beautiful she is. He
had recovered his head now. She was lovely when
he knew her, then a simple country girl, Now she was
dazzling, in the fullness of ripe womanhood, a superb
creature, with all the fascination that a woman of
the world has for such a man as Col. Selby.
Nothing of this was lost on him. He stepped
quickly to her, grasped both her hands in his, and
said,
“Laura, stop! think!
Suppose I loved you yet! Suppose I hated my fate!
What can I do? I am broken by the war.
I have lost everything almost. I had as lief
be dead and done with it.”
The Colonel spoke with a low remembered
voice that thrilled through Laura. He was looking
into her eyes as he had looked in those old days,
when no birds of all those that sang in the groves
where they walked sang a note of warning. He
was wounded. He had been punished. Her
strength forsook her with her rage, and she sank upon
a chair, sobbing,
“Oh! my God, I thought I hated him!”
The Colonel knelt beside her.
He took her hand and she let him keep it. She,
looked down into his face, with a pitiable tenderness,
and said in a weak voice.
“And you do love me a little?”
The Colonel vowed and protested.
He kissed her hand and her lips. He swore his
false soul into perdition.
She wanted love, this woman.
Was not her love for George Selby deeper than any
other woman’s could be? Had she not a right
to him? Did he not belong to her by virtue of
her overmastering passion? His wife she
was not his wife, except by the law. She could
not be. Even with the law she could have no
right to stand between two souls that were one.
It was an infamous condition in society that George
should be tied to her.
Laura thought this, believed it; because
she desired to believe it. She came to it as
an original propositions founded an the requirements
of her own nature. She may have heard, doubtless
she had, similar theories that were prevalent at that
day, theories of the tyranny of marriage and of the
freedom of marriage. She had even heard women
lecturers say, that marriage should only continue
so long as it pleased either party to it for
a year, or a month, or a day. She had not given
much heed to this, but she saw its justice now in
a dash of revealing desire. It must be right.
God would not have permitted her to love George Selby
as she did, and him to love her, if it was right for
society to raise up a barrier between them.
He belonged to her. Had he not confessed it himself?
Not even the religious atmosphere
of Senator Dilworthy’s house had been sufficient
to instill into Laura that deep Christian principle
which had been somehow omitted in her training.
Indeed in that very house had she not heard women,
prominent before the country and besieging Congress,
utter sentiments that fully justified the course she
was marking out for herself.
They were seated now, side by side,
talking with more calmness. Laura was happy,
or thought she was. But it was that feverish
sort of happiness which is snatched out of the black
shadow of falsehood, and is at the moment recognized
as fleeting and perilous, and indulged tremblingly.
She loved. She was loved. That is happiness
certainly. And the black past and the troubled
present and the uncertain future could not snatch
that from her.
What did they say as they sat there?
What nothings do people usually say in such circumstances,
even if they are three-score and ten? It was
enough for Laura to hear his voice and be near him.
It was enough for him to be near her, and avoid committing
himself as much as he could. Enough for him was
the present also. Had there not always been some
way out of such scrapes?
And yet Laura could not be quite content
without prying into tomorrow. How could the Colonel
manage to free himself from his wife? Would it
be long? Could he not go into some State where
it would not take much time? He could not say
exactly. That they must think of. That
they must talk over. And so on. Did this
seem like a damnable plot to Laura against the life,
maybe, of a sister, a woman like herself? Probably
not. It was right that this man should be hers,
and there were some obstacles in the way. That
was all. There are as good reasons for bad actions
as for good ones, to those who commit them.
When one has broken the tenth commandment, the others
are not of much account.
Was it unnatural, therefore, that
when George Selby departed, Laura should watch him
from the window, with an almost joyful heart as he
went down the sunny square? “I shall see
him to-morrow,” she said, “and the next
day, and the next. He is mine now.”
“Damn the woman,” said
the Colonel as he picked his way down the steps.
“Or,” he added, as his thoughts took a
new turn, “I wish my wife was in New Orleans.”