“It’s easy enough for
another fellow to talk,” said Harry, despondingly,
after he had put Philip in possession of his view of
the case. “It’s easy enough to say
‘give her up,’ if you don’t care
for her. What am I going to do to give her up?”
It seemed to Harry that it was a situation
requiring some active measures. He couldn’t
realize that he had fallen hopelessly in love without
some rights accruing to him for the possession of the
object of his passion. Quiet resignation under
relinquishment of any thing he wanted was not in his
line. And when it appeared to him that his surrender
of Laura would be the withdrawal of the one barrier
that kept her from ruin, it was unreasonable to expect
that he could see how to give her up.
Harry had the most buoyant confidence
in his own projects always; he saw everything connected
with himself in a large way and in rosy lines.
This predominance of the imagination over the judgment
gave that appearance of exaggeration to his conversation
and to his communications with regard to himself,
which sometimes conveyed the impression that he was
not speaking the truth. His acquaintances had
been known to say that they invariably allowed a half
for shrinkage in his statements, and held the other
half under advisement for confirmation.
Philip in this case could not tell
from Harry’s story exactly how much encouragement
Laura had given him, nor what hopes he might justly
have of winning her. He had never seen him desponding
before. The “brag” appeared to be
all taken out of him, and his airy manner only asserted
itself now and then in a comical imitation of its old
self.
Philip wanted time to look about him
before he decided what to do. He was not familiar
with Washington, and it was difficult to adjust his
feelings and perceptions to its peculiarities.
Coming out of the sweet sanity of the Bolton household,
this was by contrast the maddest Vanity Fair one could
conceive. It seemed to him a feverish, unhealthy
atmosphere in which lunacy would be easily developed.
He fancied that everybody attached to himself an
exaggerated importance, from the fact of being at
the national capital, the center of political influence,
the fountain of patronage, preferment, jobs and opportunities.
People were introduced to each other
as from this or that state, not from cities or towns,
and this gave a largeness to their representative
feeling. All the women talked politics as naturally
and glibly as they talk fashion or literature elsewhere.
There was always some exciting topic at the Capitol,
or some huge slander was rising up like a miasmatic
exhalation from the Potomac, threatening to settle
no one knew exactly where. Every other person
was an aspirant for a place, or, if he had one, for
a better place, or more pay; almost every other one
had some claim or interest or remedy to urge; even
the women were all advocates for the advancement of
some person, and they violently espoused or denounced
this or that measure as it would affect some relative,
acquaintance or friend.
Love, travel, even death itself, waited
on the chances of the dies daily thrown in the two
Houses, and the committee rooms there. If the
measure went through, love could afford to ripen into
marriage, and longing for foreign travel would have
fruition; and it must have been only eternal hope
springing in the breast that kept alive numerous old
claimants who for years and years had besieged the
doors of Congress, and who looked as if they needed
not so much an appropriation of money as six feet of
ground. And those who stood so long waiting for
success to bring them death were usually those who
had a just claim.
Representing states and talking of
national and even international affairs, as familiarly
as neighbors at home talk of poor crops and the extravagance
of their ministers, was likely at first to impose upon
Philip as to the importance of the people gathered
here.
There was a little newspaper editor
from Phil’s native town, the assistant on a
Peddletonian weekly, who made his little annual joke
about the “first egg laid on our table,”
and who was the menial of every tradesman in the village
and under bonds to him for frequent “puffs,”
except the undertaker, about whose employment he was
recklessly facetious. In Washington he was an
important man, correspondent, and clerk of two house
committees, a “worker” in politics, and
a confident critic of every woman and every man in
Washington. He would be a consul no doubt by
and by, at some foreign port, of the language of which
he was ignorant though if ignorance of
language were a qualification he might have been a
consul at home. His easy familiarity with great
men was beautiful to see, and when Philip learned
what a tremendous underground influence this little
ignoramus had, he no longer wondered at the queer
appointments and the queerer legislation.
Philip was not long in discovering
that people in Washington did not differ much from
other people; they had the same meannesses, generosities,
and tastes: A Washington boarding house had the
odor of a boarding house the world over.
Col. Sellers was as unchanged
as any one Philip saw whom he had known elsewhere.
Washington appeared to be the native element of this
man. His prétentions were equal to any he
encountered there. He saw nothing in its society
that equalled that of Hawkeye, he sat down to no table
that could not be unfavorably contrasted with his own
at home; the most airy scheme inflated in the hot
air of the capital only reached in magnitude some
of his lesser fancies, the by-play of his constructive
imagination.
“The country is getting along
very well,” he said to Philip, “but our
public men are too timid. What we want is more
money. I’ve told Boutwell so. Talk
about basing the currency on gold; you might as well
base it on pork. Gold is only one product.
Base it on everything! You’ve got to do
something for the West. How am I to move my crops?
We must have improvements. Grant’s got
the idea. We want a canal from the James River
to the Mississippi. Government ought to build
it.”
It was difficult to get the Colonel
off from these large themes when he was once started,
but Philip brought the conversation round to Laura
and her reputation in the City.
“No,” he said, “I
haven’t noticed much. We’ve been
so busy about this University. It will make
Laura rich with the rest of us, and she has done nearly
as much as if she were a man. She has great talent,
and will make a big match. I see the foreign
ministers and that sort after her. Yes, there
is talk, always will be about a pretty woman so much
in public as she is. Tough stories come to me,
but I put’em away. ’Taint likely
one of Si Hawkins’s children would do that for
she is the same as a child of his. I told her,
though, to go slow,” added the Colonel, as if
that mysterious admonition from him would set everything
right.
“Do you know anything about a Col. Selby?”
“Know all about him. Fine
fellow. But he’s got a wife; and I told
him, as a friend, he’d better sheer off from
Laura. I reckon he thought better of it and
did.”
But Philip was not long in learning
the truth. Courted as Laura was by a certain
class and still admitted into society, that, nevertheless,
buzzed with disreputable stories about her, she had
lost character with the best people. Her intimacy
with Selby was open gossip, and there were winks and
thrustings of the tongue in any group of men when she
passed by. It was clear enough that Harry’s
delusion must be broken up, and that no such feeble
obstacle as his passion could interpose would turn
Laura from her fate. Philip determined to see
her, and put himself in possession of the truth, as
he suspected it, in order to show Harry his folly.
Laura, after her last conversation
with Harry, had a new sense of her position.
She had noticed before the signs of a change in manner
towards her, a little less respect perhaps from men,
and an avoidance by women. She had attributed
this latter partly to jealousy of her, for no one is
willing to acknowledge a fault in himself when a more
agreeable motive can be found for the estrangement
of his acquaintances. But now, if society had
turned on her, she would defy it. It was not
in her nature to shrink. She knew she had been
wronged, and she knew that she had no remedy.
What she heard of Col. Selby’s
proposed departure alarmed her more than anything
else, and she calmly determined that if he was deceiving
her the second time it should be the last. Let
society finish the tragedy if it liked; she was indifferent
what came after. At the first opportunity, she
charged Selby with his intention to abandon her.
He unblushingly denied it.
He had not thought of going to Europe.
He had only been amusing himself with Sellers’
schemes. He swore that as soon as she succeeded
with her bill, he would fly with her to any part of
the world.
She did not quite believe him, for
she saw that he feared her, and she began to suspect
that his were the protestations of a coward to gain
time. But she showed him no doubts.
She only watched his movements day
by day, and always held herself ready to act promptly.
When Philip came into the presence
of this attractive woman, he could not realize that
she was the subject of all the scandal he had heard.
She received him with quite the old Hawkeye openness
and cordiality, and fell to talking at once of their
little acquaintance there; and it seemed impossible
that he could ever say to her what he had come determined
to say. Such a man as Philip has only one standard
by which to judge women.
Laura recognized that fact no doubt.
The better part of her woman’s nature saw it.
Such a man might, years ago, not now, have changed
her nature, and made the issue of her life so different,
even after her cruel abandonment. She had a
dim feeling of this, and she would like now to stand
well with him. The spark of truth and honor that
was left in her was elicited by his presence.
It was this influence that governed her conduct in
this interview.
“I have come,” said Philip
in his direct manner, “from my friend Mr. Brierly.
You are not ignorant of his feeling towards you?”
“Perhaps not.”
“But perhaps you do not know,
you who have so much admiration, how sincere and overmastering
his love is for you?” Philip would not have
spoken so plainly, if he had in mind anything except
to draw from Laura something that would end Harry’s
passion.
“And is sincere love so rare,
Mr. Sterling?” asked Laura, moving her foot
a little, and speaking with a shade of sarcasm.
“Perhaps not in Washington,”
replied Philip, tempted into a similar
tone. “Excuse my bluntness,” he continued,
“but would the knowledge of his love; would
his devotion, make any difference to you in your Washington
life?”
“In respect to what?” asked Laura quickly.
“Well, to others. I won’t equivocate to
Col. Selby?”
Laura’s face flushed with anger,
or shame; she looked steadily at Philip and began,
“By what right, sir, ”
“By the right of friendship,”
interrupted Philip stoutly. “It may matter
little to you. It is everything to him.
He has a Quixotic notion that you would turn back
from what is before you for his sake. You cannot
be ignorant of what all the city is talking of.”
Philip said this determinedly and with some bitterness.
It was a full minute before Laura
spoke. Both had risen, Philip as if to go, and
Laura in suppressed excitement. When she spoke
her voice was very unsteady, and she looked down.
“Yes, I know. I perfectly
understand what you mean. Mr. Brierly is nothing simply
nothing. He is a moth singed, that is all the
trifler with women thought he was a wasp. I
have no pity for him, not the least. You may
tell him not to make a fool of himself, and to keep
away. I say this on your account, not his.
You are not like him. It is enough for me that
you want it so. Mr. Sterling,” she continued,
looking up; and there were tears in her eyes that
contradicted the hardness of her language, “you
might not pity him if you knew my history; perhaps
you would not wonder at some things you hear.
No; it is useless to ask me why it must be so.
You can’t make a life over society
wouldn’t let you if you would and
mine must be lived as it is. There, sir, I’m
not offended; but it is useless for you to say anything
more.”
Philip went away with his heart lightened
about Harry, but profoundly saddened by the glimpse
of what this woman might have been. He told
Harry all that was necessary of the conversation she
was bent on going her own way, he had not the ghost
of a chance he was a fool, she had said,
for thinking he had.
And Harry accepted it meekly, and
made up his own mind that Philip didn’t know
much about women.