Two days only remained ere the first
of June, and in the solitude of her chamber Maggie
was weeping bitterly. “How can I tell them
who I am?” she thought. “How bear
their pitying scorn, when they learn that she whom
they call Maggie Miller has no right to that name?-that
Hagar Warren’s blood is flowing in her veins?-and
Madam Conway thinks so much of that! Oh, why
was Hagar left to do me this great wrong? why did
she take me from the pine-board cradle where she says
I lay, and make me what I was not born to be?”
and, falling on her knees, the wretched girl prayed
that it might prove a dream from which she would ere
long awake.
Alas for thee, poor Maggie Miller!
It is not a dream, but a stern reality; and you who
oft have spurned at birth and family, why murmur now
when both are taken from you? Are you not still
the same,-beautiful,-accomplished,
and refined,-and can you ask for more?
Strange that theory and practice so seldom should accord.
And yet it was not the degradation which Maggie felt
so keenly, it was rather the loss of love she feared;
without that the blood of royalty could not avail
to make her happy.
Maggie was a warm-hearted girl, and
she loved the stately lady she had been wont to call
her grandmother with a filial, clinging love which
could not be severed, and still this love was naught
compared to what she felt for Arthur Carrollton, and
the giving up of him was the hardest part of all.
But it must be done, she thought; he had told her
once that were she Hagar Warren’s grandchild
he should not be riding with her-how much
less, then, would he make that child his wife! and
rather than meet the look of proud disdain on his face
when first she stood confessed before him, she resolved
to go away where no one had ever heard of her or Hagar
Warren. She would leave behind a letter telling
why she went, and commending to Madam Conway’s
care poor Hagar, who had been sorely punished for
her sin. “But whither shall I go, and what
shall I do when I get there?” she cried, trembling
at the thoughts of a world of which she knew so little.
Then, as she remembered how many young girls of her
age went out as teachers, she determined to go at
all events. “It will be better than staying
here where I have no claim,” she thought; and,
nerving herself for the task, she sat down to write
the letter which, on the first of June, should tell
to Madam Conway and Arthur Carrollton the story of
her birth.
It was a harder task than she supposed,
the writing that farewell, for it seemed like severing
every hallowed tie. Three times she wrote “My
dear grandma,” then with a throb of anguish she
dashed her pen across the revered name, and wrote
simply “Madam Conway.” It was a rambling,
impassioned letter, full of tender love-of
hope destroyed-of deep despair-and
though it shadowed forth no expectation that Madam
Conway or Mr. Carrollton would ever take her to their
hearts again, it begged of them most touchingly to
think sometimes of “Maggie” when she was
gone forever. Hagar was then commended to Madam
Conway’s forgiveness and care. “She
is old,” wrote Maggie, “her life is nearly
ended, and if you have in your heart one feeling of
pity for her who used to call you grandma, bestow
it, I pray you, on poor old Hagar Warren.”
The letter was finished, and then
suddenly remembering Hagar’s words, that “all
had not been told,” and feeling it her duty to
see once more the woman who had brought her so much
sorrow, Maggie stole cautiously from the house, and
was soon walking down the woodland road, slowly, sadly,
for the world had changed to her since last she trod
that path. Maggie, too, was changed, and when
at last she stood before Hagar, who was now able to
sit up, the latter could scarcely recognize in the
pale, haggard woman the blooming, merry-hearted girl
once known as Maggie Miller.
“Margaret!” she cried,
“you have come again-come to forgive
your poor old grand-No, no,” she
added, as she saw the look of pain flash over Maggie’s
face, “I’ll never insult you with that
name. Only say that you forgive me, will you,
Miss Margaret?” and the trembling voice was
choked with sobs, while the aged form shook as with
a palsied stroke.
Hagar had been ill. Exposure
to the damp air on that memorable night had brought
on a second severe attack of rheumatism, which had
bent her nearly double. Anxiety for Margaret,
too, had wasted her to a skeleton, and her thin, sharp
face, now of a corpse-like pallor, contrasted strangely
with her eyes, from which the wildness all was gone.
Touched with pity, Maggie drew a chair to her side,
and thus replied: “I do forgive you, Hagar,
for I know that what you did was done in love; but
by telling me what you have you’ve ruined all
my hopes of happiness. In the new scenes to which
I go, and the new associations I shall form, I may
become contented with my lot, but never can I forget
that I once was Maggie Miller.”
“Magaret,” gasped Hagar,
and in her dim eye there was something of its olden
fire, “if by new associations you mean Henry
Warner, it must not be. Alas, that I should tell
this! but Henry is your brother-your father’s
only son. Oh, horror! horror!” and dreading
what Margaret would say, she covered her face with
her cramped, distorted hands.
But Margaret was not so much affected
as Hagar had anticipated. She had suffered severely,
and could not now be greatly moved. There was
an involuntary shudder as she thought of her escape,
and then her next feeling was one of satisfaction
in knowing that she was not quite friendless and alone,
for Henry would protect her, and Rose, indeed, would
be to her a sister.
“Henry Warner my brother!”
she exclaimed; “how came you by this knowledge?”
And very briefly Hagar explained to her what she knew,
saying that Hester had told her of two young children,
but she had forgotten entirely of their existence,
and now that she was reminded of it she could not
help fancying that Hester said the stepchild was a
boy. But the peddler knew, of course, and she
must have forgotten.
“When the baby they thought
was you died,” said Hagar, “I wrote to
the minister in Meriden, telling him of it, but I
did not sign my name, and I thought that was the last
I should ever hear of it. Why don’t you
curse me?” she continued. “Haven’t
I taken from you your intended husband, as well as
your name?”
Maggie understood perfectly now why
the secret had been revealed, and involuntarily she
exclaimed, “Oh, had I told you first, this never
need have been!” and then hurriedly she explained
to the repentant Hagar how at the very moment when
the dread confession was made she, Maggie Miller,
was free from Henry Warner.
From the window Maggie saw in the
distance the servant who had charge of Hagar, and,
dreading the presence of a third person, she arose
to go. Offering her hand to Hagar, she said:
“Good-by. I may never see you again, but
if I do not, remember that I forgive you freely.”
“You are not going away, Maggie.
Oh, are you going away!” and the crippled arms
were stretched imploringly towards Maggie, who answered:
“Yes, Hagar, I must go. Honor requires me
to tell Madam Conway who I am, and after that you
know that I can not stay. I shall go to my brother.”
Three times old Hagar essayed to speak,
and at last between a whisper and a moan, she found
strength to say: “Will you kiss me once,
Maggie darling? ’Twill be something to
remember, in the lonesome nights when I am all alone.
Just once, Maggie! Will you?”
Maggie could not refuse, and gliding
to the bowed woman’s side she put back the soft
hair from off the wrinkled brow, and left there token
of her forgiveness.
The last May sun had set, and ere
the first June morning rose Maggie Miller would be
nowhere found in the home her presence had made so
bright. Alone, with no eye upon her save that
of the Most High, she had visited the two graves,
and, while her heart was bleeding at every pore, had
wept her last adieu over the sleeping dust so long
held sacred as her mother’s. Then kneeling
at the other grave, she murmured, “Forgive me,
Hester Hamilton, if in this parting hour my heart
clings most to her whose memory I was first taught
to revere; and if in the better world you know and
love each other-oh, will both bless and
pity me, poor, wretched Maggie Miller!”
Softly the night air moved through
the pine that overshadowed the humble grave, while
the moonlight, flashing from the tall marble, which
stood a sentinel over the other mound, bathed Maggie’s
upturned face as with a flood of glory, and her throbbing
heart grew still as if indeed at that hushed moment
the two mothers had come to bless their child.
The parting with the dead was over, and Margaret sat
again in her room, waiting until all was still about
the old stone house. She did not add to her letter
another line telling of her discovery, for she did
not think of it; her mind was too intent upon escaping
unobserved; and when sure the family had retired she
moved cautiously down the stairs, noiselessly unlocked
the door, and without once daring to look back, lest
she should waver in her purpose, she went forth, heartbroken
and alone, from what for eighteen happy years had
been her home. Very rapidly she proceeded, coming
at last to an open field through which the railroad
ran, the depot being nearly a quarter of a mile away.
Not until then had she reflected that her appearance
at the station at that hour of the night would excite
suspicion, and she was beginning to feel uneasy, when
suddenly around a curve the cars appeared in view.
Fearing lest she should be too late, she quickened
her footsteps, when to her great surprise she saw
that the train was stopping! But not for her they
waited; in the bright moonlight the engineer had discovered
a body lying across the track, and had stopped in
time to save the life of a man, who, stupefied with
drunkenness, had fallen asleep. The movement startled
the passengers, many of whom alighted and gathered
around the inebriate.
In the meantime Margaret had come
near, and, knowing she could not now reach the depot
in time, she mingled unobserved in the crowd, and
entering the rear car, took her seat near the door.
The train at last moved on, and as at the station
no one save the agent was in waiting, it is not strange
that the conductor passed unheeded the veiled figure
which in the dark corner sat ready to pay her fare.
“He will come to me by and by,”
thought Maggie, but he did not, and when Worcester
was reached the fare was still uncollected. Bewildered
and uncertain what to do next, she stepped upon the
platform, deciding finally to remain at the depot
until morning, when a train would leave for Leominster,
where she confidently expected to find her brother.
Taking a seat in the ladies’ room, she abandoned
herself to her sorrow, wondering what Theo would say
could she see her then. But Theo, though dreaming
it may be of Maggie, dreamed not that she was near,
and so the night wore on, Margaret sleeping towards
daylight, and dreaming, too, of Arthur Carrollton,
who she thought had followed her-nay, was
bending over her now and whispering in her ear, “Wake,
Maggie, wake.”
Starting up, she glanced anxiously
around, uttering a faint cry when she saw that it
was not Arthur Carrollton, but a dark, rough-looking
stranger, who rather rudely asked her where she wished
to go.
“To Leominster,” she answered,
turning her face fully towards the man, who became
instantly respectful, telling her when the train would
leave, and saying that she must go to another depot,
at the same time asking if she had not better wait
at some hotel.
But Maggie preferred going at once
to the Fitchburg depot, which she accordingly did,
and drawing her veil over her face, lest some one of
her few acquaintances in the city should recognize
her, she sat there until the time appointed for the
cars to leave. Then, weary and faint, she entered
the train, her spirits in a measure rising as she felt
that she was drawing near to those who would love her
for what she was and not for what she had been.
Rose would comfort her, and already her heart bounded
with the thought of seeing one whom she believed to
be her brother’s wife, for Henry had written
that ere his homeward voyage was made Rose would be
his bride.
Ah, Maggie! there is for you a greater
happiness in store-not a brother, but a
sister-your father’s child is there
to greet your coming. And even at this early
hour her snow-white fingers are arranging the fair
June blossoms into bouquets, with which she adorns
her home, saying to him who hovers at her side that
somebody, she knows not whom, is surely coming to-day;
and then, with a blush stealing over her cheek, she
adds, “I wish it might be Margaret”; while
Henry, with a peculiar twist of his comical mouth,
winds his arm around her waist, and playfully responds,
“Anyone save her.”