I
Big Mary was sweeping the ward with
a broom muffled in a white bag. In the breeze
from the open windows, her blue calico wrapper ballooned
about her and made ludicrous her frantic thrusts after
the bits of fluff that formed eddies under the beds
and danced in the spring air.
She finished her sweeping, and, with
the joyous scraps captured in her dust-pan, stood
in the doorway, critically surveying the ward.
It was brilliantly clean and festive; on either side
a row of beds, fresh white for the day; on the centre
table a vase of Easter lilies, and on the record-table
near the door a potted hyacinth. The Nurse herself
wore a bunch of violets tucked in her apron-band.
One of the patients had seen the Junior Medical give
them to her. The Eastern sun, shining across
the beds, made below them, on the polished floor,
black islands of shadow in a gleaming sea of light.
And scattered here and there, rocking
in chairs or standing at windows, enjoying the Sunday
respite from sewing or the bandage-machine, women,
grotesque and distorted of figure, in attitudes of
weariness and expectancy, with patient eyes awaited
their crucifixion. Behind them, in the beds, a
dozen perhaps who had come up from death and held
the miracle in their arms.
The miracles were small and red, and
inclined to feeble and ineffectual wrigglings.
Fists were thrust in the air and brought down on smiling,
pale mother faces. With tight-closed eyes and
open mouths, each miracle squirmed and nuzzled until
the mother would look with pleading eyes at the Nurse.
And the Nurse would look severe and say:
“Good gracious, Annie Petowski,
surely you don’t want to feed that infant again!
Do you want the child to have a dilated stomach?”
Fear of that horrible and mysterious
condition, a dilated stomach, would restrain Annie
Petowski or Jennie Goldstein or Maggie McNamara for
a time. With the wisdom of the serpent, she would
give the child her finger to suck a finger
so white, so clean, so soft in the last week that
she was lost in admiration of it. And the child
would take hold, all its small body set rigid in lines
of desperate effort. Then it would relax suddenly,
and spew out the finger, and the quiet hospital air
would be rent with shrieks of lost illusion. Then
Annie Petowski or Jennie Goldstein or Maggie McNamara
would watch the Nurse with open hostility and defiance,
and her rustling exit from the ward would be followed
by swift cessation of cries, and, close to Annie or
Jennie or Maggie’s heart, there would be small
ecstatic gurglings and peace.
In her small domain the Nurse was
queen. From her throne at the record-table, she
issued proclamations of baths and fine combs, of clean
bedding and trimmed nails, of tea and toast, of regular
hours for the babies. From this throne, also,
she directed periodic searches of the bedside stands,
unearthing scraps of old toast, decaying fruit, candy,
and an occasional cigarette. From the throne,
too, she sent daily a blue-wrappered and pig-tailed
brigade to the kitchen, armed with knives, to attack
the dinner potatoes.
But on this Easter morning, the queen
looked tired and worn. Her crown, a starched
white cap, had slipped back on her head, and her blue-and-white
dress was stained and spotted. Even her fresh
apron and sleevelets did not quite conceal the damage.
She had come in for a moment at the breakfast hour,
and asked the Swede, Ellen Ollman, to serve the breakfast
for her; and at half past eight she had appeared again
for a moment, and had turned down one of the beds and
put hot-water bottles in it.
The ward ate little breakfast.
It was always nervous when a case was “on.”
Excursions down the corridor by one or another of the
blue-wrappered brigade brought back bits of news:
“The doctor is smoking a cigarette
in the hall;” or, “Miss Jones, the day
assistant, has gone in;” and then, with bated
breath, “The doctor with the red mustache has
come” by which it was known that
things were going badly, the staff man having been
summoned.
Suggestions of Easter began to appear
even in this isolated ward, denied to all visitors
except an occasional husband, who was usually regarded
with a mixture of contempt and scepticism by the other
women. But now the lilies came, and after them
a lame young woman who played the organ in the chapel
on Sundays, and who afterward went from ward to ward,
singing little songs and accompanying herself on the
mandolin she carried with her. The lame young
woman seated herself in the throne-chair and sang
an Easter anthem, and afterward limped around and
placed a leaflet and a spray of lilies-of-the-valley
on each bedside stand.
She was escorted around the ward by
Elizabeth Miller, known as “Liz” in Our
Alley, and rechristened Elizabeth by the Nurse.
Elizabeth always read the tracts. She had been
there four times, and knew all the nurses and nearly
all the doctors. “Liz” had been known,
in a shortage of nurses, to be called into the mysterious
room down the hall to assist; and on those occasions,
in an all-enveloping white gown over her wrapper,
with her hair under a cap, she outranked the queen
herself in regalness and authority.
The lame mandolin-player stopped at
the foot of the empty bed. “Shall I put
one here?” she asked, fingering a tract.
Liz meditated majestically.
“Well, I guess I would,” she said.
“Not that it’ll do any good.”
“Why?”
Liz jerked her head toward the corridor.
“She’s not getting on
very well,” she said; “and, even if she
gets through, she won’t read the tract.
She held her fingers in her ears last Sunday while
the Bible-reader was here. She’s young.
Says she hopes she and the kid’ll both die.”
The mandolin-player was not unversed in the psychology
of the ward.
“Then she isn’t
married?” she asked, and because she was young,
she flushed painfully.
Liz stared at her, and a faint light
of amusement dawned in her eyes.
“Well, no,” she admitted;
“I guess that’s what’s worrying her.
She’s a fool, she is. She can put the kid
in a home. That’s what I do. Suppose
she married the fellow that got her into trouble?
Wouldn’t he be always throwing it up to her?”
The mandolin-player looked at Liz,
puzzled at this new philosophy of life.
“Have have you a baby here?”
she asked timidly.
“Have I!” said Liz, and,
wheeling, led the way to her bed. She turned
the blanket down with a practised hand, revealing a
tiny red atom, so like the others that only mother
love could have distinguished it.
“This is mine,” she said
airily. “Funny little mutt, isn’t
he?”
The mandolin-player gazed diffidently at the child.
“He he’s very little,”
she said.
“Little!” said Liz.
“He holds the record here for the last six months eleven
pounds three ounces in his skin, when he arrived.
The little devil!”
She put the blanket tenderly back
over the little devil’s sleeping form.
The mandolin-player cast about desperately for the
right thing to say.
“Does does he look
like his father?” she asked timidly. But
apparently Liz did not hear. She had moved down
the ward. The mandolin-player heard only a snicker
from Annie Petowski’s bed, and, vaguely uncomfortable,
she moved toward the door.
Liz was turning down the cover of
the empty bed, and the Nurse, with tired but shining
eyes, was wheeling in the operating table.
The mandolin-player stepped aside
to let the table pass. From the blankets she
had a glimpse of a young face, bloodless and wan of
hurt, defiant blue eyes. She had never before
seen life so naked, so relentless. She shrank
back against the wall, a little sick. Then she
gathered up her tracts and her mandolin, and limped
down the hall.
The door of the mysterious room was
open, and from it came a shrill, high wail, a rising
and falling note of distress the voice of
a new soul in protest. She went past with averted
face.
Back in the ward Liz leaned over the
table and, picking the girl up bodily, deposited her
tenderly in the warm bed. Then she stood back
and smiled down at her, with her hands on her hips.
“Well,” she said kindly,
“it’s over, and here you are! But
it’s no picnic, is it?”
The girl on the bed turned her head
away. The coarsening of her features in the last
month or two had changed to an almost bloodless refinement.
With her bright hair, she looked as if she had been
through the furnace of pain and had come out pure gold.
But her eyes were hard.
“Go away,” she said petulantly.
Liz leaned down and pulled the blanket over her shoulders.
“You sleep now,” she said
soothingly. “When you wake up you can have
a cup of tea.”
The girl threw the cover off and looked
up despairingly into Liz’s face.
“I don’t want to sleep,”
she said. “My God, Liz, it’s going
to live and so am I!”
II
Now, the Nurse had been up all night,
and at noon, after she had oiled the new baby and
washed out his eyes and given him a teaspoonful of
warm water, she placed Liz in charge of the ward, and
went to her room to put on a fresh uniform. The
first thing she did, when she got there, was to go
to the mirror, with the picture of her mother tucked
in its frame, and survey herself. When she saw
her cap and the untidiness of her hair and her white
collar all spotted, she frowned.
Then she took the violets out of her
belt and put them carefully in a glass of water, and
feeling rather silly, she leaned over and kissed them.
After that she felt better.
She bathed her face in hot water and
then in cold, which brought her colour back, and she
put on everything fresh, so that she rustled with
each step, which is proper for trained nurses; and
finally she tucked the violets back where they belonged,
and put on a new cap, which is also proper for trained
nurses on gala occasions.
If she had not gone back to the mirror
to see that the general effect was as crisp as it
should be, things would have been different for Liz,
and for the new mother back in the ward. But she
did go back; and there, lying on the floor in front
of the bureau, all folded together, was a piece of
white paper exactly as if it has been tucked in her
belt with the violets.
She opened it rather shakily, and
it was a leaf from the ward order-book, for at the
top it said:
Annie Petowski may
sit up for one hour.
And below that:
Goldstein baby bran
baths.
And below that:
I love you.
E.J.
“E.J.” was the Junior Medical.
So the Nurse went back to the ward,
and sat down, palpitating, in the throne-chair by
the table, and spread her crisp skirts, and found
where the page had been torn out of the order-book.
And as the smiles of sovereigns are
hailed with delight by their courts, so the ward brightened
until it seemed to gleam that Easter afternoon.
And a sort of miracle happened: none of the babies
had colic, and the mothers mostly slept. Also,
one of the ladies of the House Committee looked in
at the door and said:
“How beautiful you are here,
and how peaceful! Your ward is always a sort
of benediction.”
The lady of the House Committee looked
across and saw the new mother, with the sunshine on
her yellow braids, and her face refined from the furnace
of pain.
“What a sweet young mother!”
she said, and rustled out, leaving an odor of peau
d’Espagne.
The girl lay much as Liz had left
her. Except her eyes, there was nothing in her
face to show that despair had given place to wild
mutiny. But Liz knew; Liz had gone through it
all when “the first one” came; and so,
from the end of the ward, she rocked and watched.
The odor of peau d’Espagne was
still in the air, eclipsing the Easter lilies, when
Liz got up and sauntered down to the girl’s bed.
“How are you now, dearie?”
she asked, and, reaching under the blankets, brought
out the tiny pearl-handled knife with which the girl
had been wont to clean her finger-nails. The girl
eyed her savagely, but said nothing; nor did she resist
when Liz brought out her hands and examined the wrists.
The left had a small cut on it.
“Now listen to me,” said
Liz. “None of that, do you hear? You
ain’t the only one that’s laid here and
wanted to end it all. And what happened?
Inside of a month they’re well and strong again,
and they put the kid somewhere, and the folks that
know what’s happened get used to it, and the
ones that don’t know don’t need to know.
Don’t be a fool!”
She carried the knife off, but the
girl made no protest. There were other ways.
The Nurse was very tired, for she
had been up almost all night. She sat at the
record-table with her Bible open, and, in the intervals
of taking temperatures, she read it. But mostly
she read about Annie Petowski being allowed to sit
up, and the Goldstein baby having bran baths, and
the other thing written below!
At two o’clock came the Junior
Medical, in a frock-coat and grey trousers. He
expected to sing “The Palms” at the Easter
service downstairs in the chapel that afternoon, and,
according to precedent, the one who sings “The
Palms” on Easter in the chapel must always wear
a frock-coat.
Very conscious, because all the ward
was staring at his gorgeousness, he went over to the
bed where the new mother lay. Then he came back
and stood by the table, looking at a record.
“Have you taken her temperature?”
he said, businesslike and erect.
“Ninety-eight.”
“Her pulse is strong?”
“Yes; she’s resting quietly.”
“Good. And did you get
my note?”
This, much as if he had said, “Did
you find my scarf-pin?” or anything merely casual;
for Liz was hovering near.
“Yes.” The nurse’s
red lips were trembling, but she smiled up at him.
Liz came nearer. She was only wishing him Godspeed
with his wooing, but it made him uncomfortable.
“Watch her closely,” he
said, “she’s pretty weak and despondent.”
And he looked at Liz.
“Elizabeth,” said the
Nurse, “won’t you sit by Claribel and fan
her?”
Claribel was the new mother.
Claribel is, of course, no name for a mother, but
she had been named when she was very small.
Liz went away and sat by the girl’s
bed, and said a little prayer to the effect that they
were both so damned good to everybody, she hoped they’d
hit it off. But perhaps the prayer of the wicked
availeth nothing.
“You know I meant that,”
he said, from behind a record. “I I
love you with all my heart and if only
you ”
The nurse shook down a thermometer
and examined it closely. “I love you, too!”
she said. And, walking shakily to one of the beds,
she put the thermometer upside down in Maggie McNamara’s
mouth.
The Junior Medical went away with
his shoulders erect in his frock-coat, and his heavy
brown hair, which would never part properly and had
to be persuaded with brilliantine, bristling with
happiness.
And the Nurse-Queen, looking over
her kingdom for somebody to lavish her new joy on,
saw Claribel lying in bed, looking at the ceiling
and reading there all the tragedy of her broken life,
all her despair.
So she rustled out to the baby-room,
where the new baby had never batted an eye since her
bath and was lying on her back with both fists clenched
on her breast, and she did something that no trained
nurse is ever supposed to do.
She lifted the baby, asleep and all,
and carried her to her mother.
But Claribel’s face only darkened when she saw
her.
“Take the brat away,”
she said, and went on reading tragedies on the ceiling.
Liz came and proffered her the little
mite with every art she knew. She showed her
the wrinkled bits of feet, the tiny, ridiculous hands,
and how long the hair grew on the back of her head.
But when Liz put the baby on her arm, she shuddered
and turned her head away. So finally Liz took
it back to the other room, and left it there, still
sleeping.
The fine edge of the Nurse’s
joy was dulled. It is a characteristic of great
happiness to wish all to be well with the world; and
here before her was dry-eyed despair. It was
Liz who finally decided her.
“I guess I’ll sit up with
her to-night,” she said, approaching the table
with the peculiar gait engendered of heel-less hospital
carpet-slippers and Mother Hubbard wrappers. “I
don’t like the way she watches the ceiling.”
“What do you mean, Elizabeth?” asked the
Nurse.
“Time I had the twins that’s
before your time,” said Liz “we
had one like that. She went out the window head
first the night after the baby came, and took the
kid with her.”
The Nurse rose with quick decision.
“We must watch her,” she
said. “Perhaps if I could find I
think I’ll go to the telephone. Watch the
ward carefully, Elizabeth, and if Annie Petowski tries
to feed her baby before three o’clock, take
it from her. The child’s stuffed like a
sausage every time I’m out for five minutes.”
Nurses know many strange things:
they know how to rub an aching back until the ache
is changed to a restful thrill, and how to change the
bedding and the patient’s night-dress without
rolling the patient over more than once, which is
a high and desirable form of knowledge. But also
they get to know many strange people; their clean
starchiness has a way of rubbing up against the filth
of the world and coming away unsoiled. And so
the Nurse went downstairs to the telephone, leaving
Liz to watch for nefarious feeding.
The Nurse called up Rose Davis; and
Rosie, who was lying in bed with the Sunday papers
scattered around her and a cigarette in her manicured
fingers, reached out with a yawn and, taking the telephone,
rested it on her laced and ribboned bosom.
“Yes,” she said indolently.
The nurse told her who she was, and
Rosie’s voice took on a warmer tinge.
“Oh, yes,” she said.
“How are you?... Claribel? Yes; what
about her?... What!”
“Yes,” said the Nurse. “A girl seven
pounds.”
“My Gawd! Well, what do
you think of that! Excuse me a moment; my cigarette’s
set fire to the sheet. All right go
ahead.”
“She’s taking it pretty
hard, and I I thought you might help her.
She she ”
“How much do you want?”
said Rose, a trifle coldly. She turned in the
bed and eyed the black leather bag on the stand at
her elbow. “Twenty enough?”
“I don’t think it’s
money,” said the Nurse, “although she needs
that too; she hasn’t any clothes for the baby.
But she’s awfully despondent almost
desperate. Have you any idea who the child’s
father is?”
Rosie considered, lighting a new cigarette
with one hand and balancing the telephone with the
other.
“She left me a year ago,”
she said. “Oh, yes; I know now. What
time is it?”
“Two o’clock.”
“I’ll tell you what I’ll
do,” said Rosie. “I’ll get the
fellow on the wire and see what he’s willing
to do. Maybe he’ll give her a dollar or
two a week.”
“Do you think you could bring him to see her?”
“Say, what do you think I am a
missionary?” The Nurse was wise, so she kept
silent. “Well, I’ll tell you what
I will do. If I can bring him, I will. How’s
that yellow-haired she-devil you’ve got over
there? I’ve got that fixed all right.
She pulled a razor on me first I’ve
got witnesses. Well, if I can get Al, I’ll
do it. So long.”
It did not occur to the Nurse to deprecate
having used an evil medium toward a righteous end.
She took life much as she found it. And so she
tiptoed past the chapel again, where a faint odour
of peau d’Espagne came stealing out into the
hall, and where the children from the children’s
ward, in roller-chairs and on crutches, were singing
with all their shrill young voices, earnest eyes uplifted.
The white Easter lilies on the altar
sent their fragrance out over the gathering, over
the nurses, young and placid, over the hopeless and
the hopeful, over the faces where death had passed
and left its inevitable stamp, over bodies freshly
risen on this Easter Sunday to new hope and new life over
the Junior Medical, waiting with the manuscript of
“The Palms” rolled in his hand and his
heart singing a hymn of happiness.
The Nurse went up to her ward, and
put a screen around Claribel, and, with all her woman’s
art, tidied the immaculate white bed and loosened
the uncompromising yellow braids, so that the soft
hair fell across Claribel’s bloodless forehead
and softened the defiance in her blue eyes. She
brought the pink hyacinth in its pot, too, and placed
it on the bedside table. Then she stood off and
looked at her work. It was good.
Claribel submitted weakly. She
had stopped staring at the wall, and had taken to
watching the open window opposite with strange intentness.
Only when the Nurse gave a final pat to the bedspread
she spoke.
“Was it a boy or a girl?” she
asked.
“Girl,” said the nurse
briskly. “A little beauty, perfect in every
way.”
“A girl to grow up
and go through this hell!” she muttered, and
her eyes wandered back to the window.
But the Nurse was wise with the accumulated
wisdom of a sex that has had to match strength with
wile for ages, and she was not yet ready. She
went into the little room where eleven miracles lay
in eleven cribs, and, although they all looked exactly
alike, she selected Claribel’s without hesitation,
and carried it to the mysterious room down the hall which
was no longer a torture-chamber, but a resplendently
white place, all glass and tile and sunlight, and
where she did certain things that are not prescribed
in the hospital rules.
First of all, she opened a cupboard
and took out a baby dress of lace and insertion, and
everybody knows that such a dress is used only when
a hospital infant is baptised, and she clothed
Claribel’s baby in linen and fine raiment, and
because they are very, very red when they are so new,
she dusted it with a bit of talcum to break
the shock, as you may say. It was very probable
that Al had never seen so new a baby, and it was useless
to spoil the joy of parenthood unnecessarily.
For it really was a fine child, and eventually it
would be white and beautiful.
The baby smelled of violet, for the
christening-robe was kept in a sachet.
Finally she gave it another teaspoonful
of warm water and put it back in its crib. And
then she rustled starchily back to the throne-chair
by the record-table, and opened her Bible at the place
where it said that Annie Petowski might sit up, and
the Goldstein baby bran baths, and the
other thing written just below.
III
The music poured up the well of the
staircase; softened by distance, the shrill childish
sopranos and the throaty basses of the medical staff
merged into a rising and falling harmony of exquisite
beauty.
Liz sat on the top step of the stairs,
with her baby in her arms; and, as the song went on,
Liz’s eyes fell to her child and stayed there.
At three o’clock the elevator-man
brought Rosie Davis along the hall Rosie,
whose costume betrayed haste, and whose figure, under
a gaudy motor-coat, gave more than a suggestion of
being unsupported and wrapper-clad. She carried
a clinking silver chatelaine, however, and at the
door she opened it and took out a quarter, extending
it with a regal gesture to the elevator-man.
“Here, old sport,” she
said, “go and blow yourself to a drink.
It’s Easter.”
Such munificence appalled the ward.
Rosie was not alone. Behind her,
uncomfortable and sullen, was Al. The ward, turning
from the episode of the quarter, fixed on him curious
and hostile eyes; and Al, glancing around the ward
from the doorway, felt their hostility, and plucked
Rosie’s arm.
“Gee, Rose, I’m not going
in there,” he said. But Rosie pulled him
in and presented him to the Nurse.
Behind the screen, Claribel, shut
off from her view of the open window, had taken to
staring at the ceiling again.
When the singing came up the staircase
from the chapel, she had moaned and put her fingers
in her ears.
“Well, I found him,” said
Rosie cheerfully. “Had the deuce of a time
locating him.” And the Nurse, apprising
in one glance his stocky figure and heavy shoulders,
his ill-at-ease arrogance, his weak, and just now
sullen but not bad-tempered face, smiled at him.
“We have a little girl here
who will be glad to see you,” she said, and
took him to the screen. “Just five minutes,
and you must do the talking.”
Al hesitated between the visible antagonism
of the ward and the mystery of the white screen.
A vision of Claribel as he had seen her last, swollen
with grief and despair, distorted of figure and accusing
of voice, held him back. A faint titter of derision
went through the room. He turned on Rosie’s
comfortable back a look of black hate and fury.
Then the Nurse gave him a gentle shove, and he was
looking at Claribel a white, Madonna-faced
Claribel, lying now with closed eyes, her long lashes
sweeping her cheek.
The girl did not open her eyes at
his entrance. He put his hat awkwardly on the
foot of the bed, and, tiptoeing around, sat on the
edge of the stiff chair.
“Well, how are you, kid?”
he asked, with affected ease.
She opened her eyes and stared at
him. Then she made a little clutch at her throat,
as if she were smothering.
“How did you how did you know I was
here?”
“Saw it in the paper, in the
society column.” She winced at that, and
some fleeting sense of what was fitting came to his
aid. “How are you?” he asked more
gently. He had expected a flood of reproaches,
and he was magnanimous in his relief.
“I’ve been pretty bad; I’m better.”
“Oh, you’ll be around
soon, and going to dances again. The Maginnis
Social Club’s having a dance Saturday night in
Mason’s Hall.”
The girl did not reply. She was
wrestling with a problem that is as old as the ages,
although she did not know it why this tragedy
of hers should not be his. She lay with her hands
crossed quietly on her breast and one of the loosened
yellow braids was near his hand. He picked it
up and ran it through his fingers.
“Hasn’t hurt your looks
any,” he said awkwardly. “You’re
looking pretty good.”
With a jerk of her head she pulled
the braid out of his fingers.
“Don’t,” she said
and fell to staring at the ceiling, where she had
written her problem.
“How’s the how’s the
kid?” after a moment.
“I don’t know or care.”
There was nothing strange to Al in
this frame of mind. Neither did he know or care.
“What are you goin’ to do with it?”
“Kill it!”
Al considered this a moment.
Things were bad enough now, without Claribel murdering
the child and making things worse.
“I wouldn’t do that,”
he said soothingly. “You can put it somewhere,
can’t you? Maybe Rosie’ll know.”
“I don’t want it to live.”
For the first time he realised her
despair. She turned on him her tormented eyes,
and he quailed.
“I’ll find a place for
it, kid,” he said. “It’s mine,
too. I guess I’m it, all right.”
“Yours!” She half rose
on her elbow, weak as she was. “Yours!
Didn’t you throw me over when you found I was
going to have it? Yours! Did you go through
hell for twenty-four hours to bring it into the world?
I tell you, it’s mine mine! And
I’ll do what I want with it. I’ll
kill it, and myself too!”
“You don’t know what you’re saying!”
She had dropped back, white and exhausted.
“Don’t I?” she said, and fell silent.
Al felt defrauded, ill-treated.
He had done the right thing; he had come to see the
girl, which wasn’t customary in those circles
where Al lived and worked and had his being; he had
acknowledged his responsibility, and even why,
hang it all
“Say the word and I’ll marry you,”
he said magnanimously.
“I don’t want to marry you.”
He drew a breath of relief. Nothing
could have been fairer than his offer, and she had
refused it. He wished Rosie had been there to
hear.
And just then Rosie came. She
carried the baby, still faintly odorous of violets,
held tight in unaccustomed arms. She looked awkward
and conscious, but her amused smile at herself was
half tender.
“Hello, Claribel,” she
said. “How are you? Just look here,
Al! What do you think of this?”
Al got up sheepishly and looked at the child.
“Boy or girl?” he asked politely.
“Girl; but it’s the living
image of you,” said Rose for Rose
and the Nurse were alike in the wiles of the serpent.
“Looks like me!” Al observed
caustically. “Looks like an over-ripe tomato!”
But he drew himself up a trifle.
Somewhere in his young and hardened soul the germs
of parental pride, astutely sowed, had taken quick
root.
“Feel how heavy she is,”
Rose commanded. And Al held out two arms unaccustomed
to such tender offices.
“Heavy! She’s about as big as a peanut.”
“Mind her back,” said Rose, remembering
instructions.
After her first glance Claribel had
not looked at the child. But now, in its father’s
arms, it began to whimper. The mother stirred
uneasily, and frowned.
“Take it away!” she ordered. “I
told them not to bring it here.”
The child cried louder. Its tiny
red face, under the powder, turned purple. It
beat the air with its fists. Al, still holding
it in his outstretched arms, began vague motions to
comfort it, swinging it up and down and across.
But it cried on, drawing up its tiny knees in spasms
of distress. Claribel put her fingers in her ears.
“You’ll have to feed it!” Rose shouted
over the din.
The girl comprehended without hearing,
and shook her head in sullen obstinacy.
“What do you think of that for
noise?” said Al, not without pride. “She’s
like me, all right. When I’m hungry, there’s
hell to pay if I’m not fed quick. Here,” he
bent down over Claribel, “you might
as well have dinner now, and stop the row.”
Not ungently, he placed the squirming
mass in the baptismal dress beside the girl on the
bed. With the instinct of ages, the baby stopped
wailing and opened her mouth.
“The little cuss!” cried
Al, delighted. “Ain’t that me all
over? Little angel-face the minute I get to the
table!”
Unresisting now, Claribel let Rose
uncover her firm white breast. The mother’s
arm, passively extended by Rose to receive the small
body, contracted around it unconsciously.
She turned and looked long at the
nuzzling, eager mouth, at the red hand lying trustfully
open on her breast, at the wrinkled face, the indeterminate
nose, the throbbing fontanelle where the little life
was already beating so hard.
“A girl, Rose!” she said.
“My God, what am I going to do with her?”
Rose was not listening. The Junior
Medical’s turn had come at last. Downstairs
in the chapel, he was standing by the organ, his head
thrown back, his heavy brown hair (which would never
stay parted without the persuasion of brilliantine)
bristling with earnestness.
“O’er all the
way, green palms and blossoms gay,”
he sang, and his clear tenor came
welling up the staircase to Liz, and past her to the
ward, and to the group behind the screen.
“Are strewn this day
in festal preparation,
Where Jesus comes to wipe our tears away
E’en now the throng to welcome Him
prepare.”
On the throne-chair by the record-table,
the Nurse sat and listened. And because it was
Easter and she was very happy and because of the thrill
in the tenor voice that came up the stairs to her,
and because of the page in the order-book about bran
baths and the rest of it, she cried a little, surreptitiously,
and let the tears drop down on a yellow hospital record.
The song was almost done. Liz,
on the stairs, had fed her baby twenty minutes too
soon, and now it lay, sleeping and sated, in her lap.
Liz sat there, brooding over it, and the last line
of the song came up the staircase.
“Blessed
is He who comes bringing sal-va-a-a-ation!”
the Junior Medical sang.
The services were over. Downstairs
the small crowd dispersed slowly. The minister
shook hands with the nurses at the door, and the Junior
Medical rolled up his song and wondered how soon he
could make rounds upstairs again.
Liz got up, with her baby in her arms,
and padded in to the throne-chair by the record-table.
“He can sing some, can’t he!” she
said.
“He has a beautiful voice.” The Nurse’s
eyes were shining.
Liz moved off. Then she turned and came back.
“I I know you’ll
tell me I’m a fool,” she said; “but
I’ve decided to keep the kid, this time.
I guess I’ll make out, somehow.”
Behind the screen, Rosie had lighted
a cigarette and was smoking, sublimely unconscious
of the blue smoke swirl that rose in telltale clouds
high above her head. The baby had dropped asleep,
and Claribel lay still. But her eyes were not
on the ceiling; they were on the child.
Al leaned forward and put his lips
to the arm that circled the baby.
“I’m sorry, kid,”
he said. “I guess it was the limit, all
right. Do you hate me?”
She looked at him, and the hardness
and defiance died out of her eyes. She shook
her head.
“No.”
“Do you still like me
a little?”
“Yes,” in a whisper.
“Then what’s the matter
with you and me and the little mutt getting married
and starting all over eh?”
He leaned over and buried his face
with a caressing movement in the hollow of her neck.
Rose extinguished her cigarette on
the foot of the bed, and, careful of appearances,
put the butt in her chatelaine.
“I guess you two don’t
need me any more,” she said yawning. “I’m
going back home to bed.”