1. In this book there will often
be mention of wisdom and destiny, of happiness, justice,
and love. There may seem to be some measure of
irony in thus calling forth an intangible happiness
where so much real sorrow prevails; a justice that
may well be ideal in the bosom of an injustice, alas!
only too material; a love that eludes the grasp in
the midst of palpable hatred and callousness.
The moment may seem but ill-chosen for leisurely search,
in the hidden recess of man’s heart, for motives
of peace and tranquility; occasions for gladness,
uplifting, and love; reasons for wonder and gratitude seeing
that the vast bulk of mankind, in whose name we would
fain lift our voice, have not even the time or assurance
to drain to the dregs the misery and desolation of
life. Not to them is it given to linger over the
inward rejoicing, the profound consolation, that the
satisfied thinker has slowly and painfully acquired,
that he knows how to prize. Thus has it often
been urged against moralists, among them Epictetus,
that they were apt to concern themselves with none
but the wise alone. In this reproach is some
truth, as some truth there must be in every reproach
that is made. And indeed, if we had only the courage
to listen to the simplest, the nearest, most pressing
voice of our conscience, and be deaf to all else,
it were doubtless our solitary duty to relieve the
suffering about us to the greatest extent in our power.
It were incumbent upon us to visit and nurse the poor,
to console the afflicted; to found model factories,
surgeries, dispensaries, or at least to devote ourselves,
as men of science do, to wresting from nature the
material secrets which are most essential to man.
But yet, were the world at a given moment to contain
only persons thus actively engaged in helping each
other, and none venturesome enough to dare snatch
leisure for research in other directions, then could
this charitable labor not long endure; for all that
is best in the good that at this day is being done
round about us, was conceived in the spirit of one
of those who neglected, it may be, many an urgent,
immediate duty in order to think, to commune with themselves,
in order to speak. Does it follow that they did
the best that was to be done? To such a question
as this who shall dare to reply? The soul that
is meekly honest must ever consider the simplest,
the nearest duty to be the best of all things it can
do; but yet were there cause for regret had all men
for all time restricted themselves to the duty that
lay nearest at hand. In each generation some
men have existed who held in all loyalty that they
fulfilled the duties of the passing hour by pondering
on those of the hour to come. Most thinkers will
say that these men were right. It is well that
the thinker should give his thoughts to the world,
though it must be admitted that wisdom be finds itself
sometimes in the reverse of the sage’s pronouncement.
This matters but little, however; for, without such
pronouncement, the wisdom had not stood revealed;
and the sage has accomplished his duty.
2. To-day misery is the disease
of mankind, as disease is the misery of man.
And even as there are physicians for disease, so should
there be physicians for human misery. But can
the fact that disease is, unhappily, only too prevalent,
render it wrong for us ever to speak of health? which
were indeed as though, in anatomy the physical
science that has most in common with morals the
teacher confined himself exclusively to the study
of the deformities that greater or lesser degeneration
will induce in the organs of man. We have surely
the right to demand that his theories be based on
the healthy and vigorous body; as we have also the
right to demand that the moralist, who fain would
see beyond the present hour, should take as his standard
the soul that is happy, or that at least possesses
every element of happiness, save only the necessary
consciousness.
We live in the bosom of great injustice;
but there can be, I imagine, neither cruelty nor callousness
in our speaking, at times, as though this injustice
had ended, else should we never emerge from our circle.
It is imperative that there should
be some who dare speak, and think, and act as though
all men were happy; for otherwise, when the day comes
for destiny to throw open to all the people’s
garden of the promised land, what happiness shall
the others find there, what justice, what beauty or
love? It may be urged, it is true, that it were
best, first of all, to consider the most pressing
needs, yet is this not always wisest; it is often
of better avail from the start to seek that which
is highest. When the waters beleaguer the home
of the peasant in Holland, the sea or the neighboring
river having swept down the dyke that protected the
country, most pressing is it then for the peasant to
safeguard his cattle, his grain, his effects; but wisest
to fly to the top of the dyke, summoning those who
live with him, and from thence meet the flood, and
do battle. Humanity up to this day has been like
an invalid tossing and turning on his couch in search
of repose; but therefore none the less have words
of true consolation come only from those who spoke
as though man were freed from all pain. For, as
man was created for health, so was mankind created
for happiness; and to speak of its misery only, though
that misery be everywhere and seem everlasting, is
only to say words that fall lightly and soon are forgotten.
Why not speak as though mankind were always on the
eve of great certitude, of great joy? Thither,
in truth, is man led by his instinct, though he never
may live to behold the long-wished-for to-morrow.
It is well to believe that there needs but a little
more thought, a little more courage, more love, more
devotion to life, a little more eagerness, one day
to fling open wide the portals of joy and of truth.
And this thing may still come to pass. Let us
hope that one day all mankind will be happy and wise;
and though this day never should dawn, to have hoped
for it cannot be wrong. And in any event, it
is helpful to speak of happiness to those who are sad,
that thus at least they may learn what it is that
happiness means. They are ever inclined to regard
it as something beyond them, extraordinary, out of
their reach. But if all who may count themselves
happy were to tell, very simply, what it was that
brought happiness to them, the others would see that
between sorrow and joy the difference is but as between
a gladsome, enlightened acceptance of life and a hostile,
gloomy submission; between a large and harmonious
conception of life, and one that is stubborn and narrow.
“Is that all?” the unhappy would cry.
“But we too have within us, then, the elements
of this happiness.” Surely you have them
within you! There lives not a man but has them,
those only excepted upon whom great physical calamity
has fallen. But speak not lightly of this happiness.
There is no other. He is the happiest man who
best understands his happiness; for he is of all men
most fully aware that it is only the lofty idea, the
untiring, courageous, human idea, that separates gladness
from sorrow. Of this idea it is helpful to speak,
and as often as may be; not with the view of imposing
our own idea upon others, but in order that they who
may listen shall, little by little, conceive the desire
to possess an idea of their own. For in no two
men is it the same. The one that you cherish may
well bring no comfort to me; nor shall all your eloquence
touch the hidden springs of my life. Needs must
I acquire my own, in myself, by myself; but you unconsciously
make this the easier for me, by telling of the idea
that is yours. It may happen that I shall find
solace in that which brings sorrow to you, and that
which to you speaks of gladness may be fraught with
affliction for me. But no matter; into my grief
will enter all that you saw of beauty and comfort,
and into my joy there will pass all that was great
in your sadness, if indeed my joy be on the same plane
as your sadness. It behooves us, the first thing
of all, to prepare in our soul a place of some loftiness,
where this idea may be lodged; as the priests of ancient
religions laid the mountain peak bare, and cleared
it of thorn and of root for the fire to descend from
heaven. There may come to us any day, from the
depths of the planet Mars, the infallible formula
of happiness, conveyed in the final truth as to the
aim and the government of the universe. Such a
formula could only bring change or advancement unto
our spiritual life in the degree of the desire and
expectation of advancement in which we might long have
been living. The formula would be the same for
all men, yet would each one benefit only in the proportion
of the eagerness, purity, unselfishness, knowledge,
that he had stored up in his soul. All morality,
all study of justice and happiness, should truly be
no more than preparation, provision on the vastest
scale way of gaining experience, a stepping-stone
laid down for what is to follow. Surely, desirable
day of all days were the one when at last we should
live in absolute truth, in immovable logical certitude;
but in the meantime it is given us to live in a truth
more important still, the truth of our soul and our
character; and some wise men have proved that this
life can be lived in the midst of gravest material
errors.
3. Is it idle to speak of justice,
happiness, morals, and all things connected therewith,
before the hour of science has sounded that
definitive hour, wherein all that we cling to may
crumble? The darkness that hangs over our life
will then, it may be, pass away; and much that we
do in the darkness shall be otherwise done in the
light. But nevertheless do the essential events
of our moral and physical life come to pass in the
darkness as completely, as inevitably, as they would
in the light, Our life must be lived while we wait
for the word that shall solve the enigma, and the happier,
the nobler our life, the more vigorous shall it become;
and we shall have the more courage, clear-sightedness,
boldness, to seek and desire the truth. And happen
what may, the time can be never ill-spent that we
give to acquiring some knowledge of self. Whatever
our relation may become to this world in which we
have being, in our soul there will yet be more feelings,
more passions, more secrets unchanged and unchanging,
than there are stars that connect with the earth, or
mysteries fathomed by science. In the bosom of
truth undeniable, truth all absorbing, man shall doubtless
soar upwards; but still, as he rises, still shall his
soul unerringly guide him; and the grander the truth
of the universe, the more solace and peace it may
bring, the more shall the problems of justice, morality,
happiness, love, present to the eyes of all men the
semblance they ever have worn in the eyes of the thinker.
We should live as though we were always on the eve
of the great revelation; and we should be ready with
welcome, with warmest and keenest and fullest, most
heartfelt and intimate welcome. And whatever the
form it shall take on the day that it comes to us,
the best way of all to prepare for its fitting reception
is to crave for it now, to desire it as lofty, as
perfect, as vast, as ennobling as the soul can conceive.
It must needs be more beautiful, glorious, and ample
than the best of our hopes; for, where it differ therefrom
or even frustrate them, it must of necessity bring
something nobler, loftier, nearer to the nature of
man, for it will bring us the truth. To man,
though all that he value go under, the intimate truth
of the universe must be wholly, preeminently admirable.
And though, on the day it unveils, our meekest desires
turn to ashes and float on the wind, still shall there
linger within us all we have prepared; and the admirable
will enter our soul, the volume of its waters being
as the depth of the channel that our expectation has
fashioned.
4. Is it necessary that we should
conceive ourselves to be superior to the universe?
Our reason may prove what it will: our reason
is only a feeble ray that has issued from Nature;
a tiny atom of that whole which Nature alone shall
judge. Is it fitting that the ray of light should
desire to alter the lamp whence it springs?
That loftiness within us, from whose
summit we venture to pass judgment on the totality
of life, to absolve or condemn it, is doubtless the
merest pin-prick, visible to our eye alone, on the
illimitable sphere of life. It is wise to think
and to act as though all that happened to man were
all that man most required. It is not long agoto
cite only one of the problems that the instinct of
our planet is invited to solvethat a scheme
was on foot to inquire of the thinkers of Europe whether
it should rightly be held as a gain or a loss to mankind
if an energetic, strenuous, persistent race, which
some, through prejudice doubtless, still regard as
inferior to the Aryan in qualities of heart and of
soulif the Jews, in a word, were to vanish
from the face of the earth, or to acquire preponderance
there. I am satisfied that the sage might answer,
without laying himself open to the charge of indifference
or undue resignation, “In what comes to pass
will be happiness.” Many things happen
that seem unjust to us; but of all the achievements
of reason there has been none so helpful as the discovery
of the loftier reason that underlies the misdeeds of
nature. It is from the slow and gradual vindication
of the unknown force that we deemed at first to be
pitiless, that our moral and physical life has derived
its chief prop and support. If a race disappears
that conforms with our every ideal, it will be only
because our ideal still falls short of the grand ideal,
which is, as we have said, the intimate truth of the
universe.
Our own experience has taught us that
even in this world of reality there exist dreams and
desires, thoughts and feelings of beauty, of justice,
and love, that are of the noblest and loftiest.
And if there be any that shrink from the test of realityin
other words, from the mysterious, nameless power of
lifeit follows that these must be different,
but not that their beauty is less, or their vastness,
or power to console. Till reality confront us,
it is well, it may be, to cherish ideals that we hold
to surpass it in beauty; but once face to face with
reality, then must the ideal flame that has fed on
our noblest desires be content to throw faithful light
on the less fragile, less tender beauty of the mighty
mass that crushes these desires. Nor does this
seem to me to imply a mere drowsy fatalism, or servile
acquiescence, or optimism shrinking from action.
The sage no doubt must many a time forfeit some measure
of the blind, the head-strong, fanatical zeal that
has enabled some men, whose reason was fettered and
bound, to achieve results that are nigh superhuman;
but therefore none the less is it certain that no
man of upright soul should go forth in search of illusion
or blindness, of zeal or vigour, in a region inferior
to that of his noblest hours. To do our true duty
in life, it must ever be done with the aid of all
that is highest in our soul, highest in the truth
that is ours. And even though it be permissible
at times in actual, every-day life to compromise with
events, and not follow impulse to the ruthless endas
did St. Just, for instance, who in his admirable and
ardent desire for universal peace, happiness, justice,
in all good faith sent thousands to the scaffoldin
the life of thought it is our unvarying duty to pursue
our thought right to the end.
Again, the knowledge that our actions
still await the seal of final truth can deter from
action those only who would have remained no less
inert had no such knowledge been theirs. Thought
that rises encourages where it disheartens. And
to those of a loftier vision, prepared in advance
to admire the truth that will nullify all they have
done, it seems only natural still to endeavour with
all might and main to enhance what yet may be termed
the justice, the beauty, the reason of this our earth.
They know that to penetrate deeper, to understand,
to respectall this is enhancement.
Above all, they have faith in “the idea of the
universe.” They are satisfied that every
effort that tends to improvement approaches the secret
intention of life; they are taught by the failure
of their noblest endeavours, by the resistance of this
mighty world, to discover anew fresh reasons for wonder,
for ardour, for hope.
As you climb up a mountain towards
nightfall, the trees and the houses, the steeple,
the fields and the orchards, the road, and even the
river, will gradually dwindle and fade, and at last
disappear in the gloom that steals over the valley.
But the threads of light that shine from the houses
of men and pierce through the blackest of nights, these
shine on undimmed. And every step that you take
to the summit reveals but more lights, and more, in
the hamlets asleep at your foot. For light, though
so fragile, is perhaps the one thing of all that yields
naught of itself as it faces immensity. Thus it
is with our moral light too, when we look upon life
from some slight elevation. It is well that reflection
should teach us to disburden our soul of base passions;
but it should not discourage, or weaken, our humblest
desire for justice, for truth, and for love.
Whence comes this rule that I thus
propound? Nay, I know not myself. To me
it seems helpful and requisite; nor could I give reasons
other than spring from the feelings alone. Such
reasons, however, at times should by no means be treated
too lightly. If I should ever attain a summit
whence this law seemed useless to me, I would listen
to the secret instinct bidding me not linger, but
climb on still higher, till its usefulness should
once again be clearly apparent to me.
5. This general introduction
over, let us speak more particularly of the influence
that wisdom can have upon destiny. And, the occasion
presenting itself here, I shall do well perhaps to
state now, at the very beginning, that in this book
it will be vain to seek for any rigorous method.
For indeed it is but composed of oft-interrupted thoughts,
that entwine themselves with more or less system around
two or three subjects. Its object is not to convince;
there is nothing it professes to prove. Besides,
in life books have by no means the importance that
writers and readers claim for them. We should
regard them as did a friend of mine, a man of great
wisdom, who listened one day to the recital of the
last moments of the Emperor Antoninus Pius. Antoninus
Piuswho was perhaps truly the best and
most perfect man this world has known, better even
than Marcus Aurelius; for in addition to the virtues,
the kindness, the deep feeling and wisdom of his adopted
son, he had something of greater virility and energy,
of simpler happiness, something more real, spontaneous,
closer to everyday lifeAntoninus Pius
lay on his bed, awaiting the summons of death, his
eyes dim with unbidden tears, his limbs moist with
the pale sweat of agony. At that moment there
entered the captain of the guard, come to demand the
watchword, such being the custom. Aequanimitasevenness
of mind, he replied, as he turned his head
to the eternal shadow. It is well that we should
love and admire that word, said my friend. But
better still, he added, to have it in us to sacrifice,
unknown to others, unknown even to ourselves, the
time fortune accords us wherein to admire it, in favour
of the first little useful, living deed that the same
fortune incessantly offers to every willing heart.
6. “It was doubtless the
will of their destiny that men and events should oppress
them whithersoever they went,” said an author
of the heroes of his book. Thus it is with the
majority of men; Indeed, with all those who have not
yet learned to distinguish between exterior and moral
destiny. They are like a little bewildered stream
that I chanced to espy one evening as I stood on the
hillside. I beheld it far down in the valley,
staggering, struggling, climbing, falling: blindly
groping its way to the great lake that slumbered,
the other side of the forest, in the peace of the
dawn. Here it was a block of basalt that forced
the streamlet to wind round and about four times;
there, the roots of a hoary tree; further on still,
the mere recollection of an obstacle now gone for
ever thrust it back to its source, bubbling in impotent
fury, divided for all time from its goal and its gladness.
But, in another direction, at right angles almost
to the distraught, unhappy, useless stream, a force
superior to the force of instinct had traced a long,
greenish canal, calm, peaceful, deliberate; that flowed
steadily across the country, across the crumbling
stones, across the obedient forest, on its clear and
unerring, unhurrying way from its distant source on
the horizon to the same tranquil, shining lake.
And I had at my feet before me the image of the two
great destinies offered to man.
7. Side by side with those whom
men and events oppress, there are others who have
within them some kind of inner force, which has its
will not only with men, but even with the events that
surround them. Of this force they are fully aware,
and indeed it is nothing more than a knowledge of
self that has far overstepped the ordinary limits of
consciousness.
Our consciousness is our home, our
refuge from the caprice of fate, our centre of happiness
and strength. But these things have been said
so often that we need do no more than refer to them,
and indicate them as our starting-point. Ennoblement
comes to man in the degree that his consciousness
quickens, and the nobler the man has become, the profounder
must consciousness be. Admirable exchange takes
place here; and even as love is insatiable in its
craving for love, so is consciousness insatiable in
its craving for growth, for moral uplifting; and moral
uplifting for ever is yearning for consciousness.
8. But this knowledge of self
is only too often regarded as implying no more than
a knowledge of our defects and our qualities, whereas
it does indeed extend infinitely further, to mysteries
vastly more helpful. To know oneself in repose
suffices not, nor does it suffice to know oneself
in the past or the present. Those within whom
lies the force that I speak of know themselves in the
future too. Consciousness of self with the greatest
of men implies consciousness up to a point of their
star or their destiny. They are aware of some
part of their future, because they have already become
part of this future. They have faith in themselves,
for they know in advance how events will be received
in their soul. The event in itself is pure water
that flows from the pitcher of fate, and seldom has
it either savour or perfume or colour. But even
as the soul may be wherein it seeks shelter, so will
the event become joyous or sad, become tender or hateful,
become deadly or quick with life. To those round
about us there happen incessant and countless adventures,
whereof every one, it would seem, contains a germ
of heroism; but the adventure passes away, and heroic
deed is there none. But when Jesus Christ met
the Samaritan, met a few children, an adulterous woman,
then did humanity rise three times in succession to
the level of God.
9. It might almost be said that
there happens to men only that they desire. It
is true that on certain external events our influence
is of the feeblest, but we have all-powerful action
on that which these events shall become in ourselvesin
other words, on their spiritual part, on what is radiant,
undying within them. There are thousands of men
within whom this spiritual part, that is craving for
birth in every misfortune, or love, or chance meeting,
has known not one moment of lifethese
men pass away like a straw on the stream. And
others there are within whom this immortal part absorbs
all; these are like islands that have sprung up in
the ocean; for they have found immovable anchorage,
whence they issue commands that their destiny needs
must obey. The life of most men will be saddened
or lightened by the thing that may chance to befall
themin the men whom I speak of, whatever
may happen is lit up by their inward life. When
you love, it is not your love that forms part of your
destiny; but the knowledge of self that you will have
found, deep down in your lovethis it is
that will help to fashion your life. If you have
been deceived, it is not the deception that matters,
but the forgiveness whereto it gave birth in your
soul, and the loftiness, wisdom, completeness of this
forgivenessby these shall your life be
steered to destiny’s haven of brightness and
peace; by these shall your eyes see more clearly than
if all men had ever been faithful. But if, by
this act of deceit, there have come not more simpleness,
loftier faith, wider range to your love, then have
you been deceived in vain, and may truly say nothing
has happened.
10. Let us always remember that
nothing befalls us that is not of the nature of ourselves.
There comes no adventure but wears to our soul the
shape of our everyday thoughts; and deeds of heroism
are but offered to those who, for many long years,
have been heroes in obscurity and silence. And
whether you climb up the mountain or go down the hill
to the valley, whether you journey to the end of the
world or merely walk round your house, none but yourself
shall you meet on the highway of fate. If Judas
go forth to-night, it is towards Judas his steps will
tend, nor will chance for betrayal be lacking; but
let Socrates open his door, he shall find Socrates
asleep on the threshold before him, and there will
be occasion for wisdom. Our adventures hover around
us like bees round the hive when preparing to swarm.
They wait till the mother-idea has at last come forth
from our soul, and no sooner has she appeared than
they all come rushing towards her. Be false, and
falsehoods will haste to you; love, and adventures
will flock to you, throbbing with love. They
seem to be all on the watch for the signal we hoist
from within: and if the soul grow wiser towards
evening, the sorrow will grow wiser too that the soul
had fashioned for itself in the morning.
11. No great inner event befalls
those who summon it not; and yet is there germ of
great inner event in the smallest occurrence of life.
But events such as these are apportioned by justice,
and to each man is given of the spoil in accord with
his merits. We become that which we discover
in the sorrows and joys that befall us; and the least
expected caprices of fate soon mould themselves
on our thoughts. It is in our past that destiny
finds all her weapons, her vestments, her jewels.
Were the only son of Thersites and Socrates to die
the same day, Socrates’ grief would in no way
resemble the grief of Thersites. Misfortune or
happiness, it seems, must be chastened ere it knock
at the door of the sage; but only by stooping low
can it enter the commonplace soul.
12. As we become wiser we escape
some of our instinctive destinies. There is in
us all sufficient desire for wisdom to transform into
consciousness most of the hazards of life. And
all that has thus been transformed can belong no more
to the hostile powers. A sorrow your soul has
changed into sweetness, to indulgence or patient smiles,
is a sorrow that shall never return without spiritual
ornament; and a fault or defect you have looked in
the face can harm you no more, or even be harmful
to others.
Instinct and destiny are for ever
conferring together; they support one another, and
rove, hand in hand, round the man who is not on his
guard. And whoever is able to curb the blind
force of instinct within him, is able to curb the
force of external destiny also. He seems to create
some kind of sanctuary, whose inviolability will be
in the degree of his wisdom and the consciousness
he has acquired becomes the centre of a circle of
light, within which the passer-by is secure from the
caprice of fate. Had Jesus Christ or Socrates
dwelt in Agamemnon’s palace among the Atrides,
then had there been no Oresteia; nor would Oedipus
ever have dreamed of destroying his sight if they had
been tranquilly seated on the threshold of Jocasta’s
abode. Fatality shrinks back abashed from the
should that has more than once conquered her; there
are certain disasters she dare not send forth when
this soul is near; and the sage, as he passes by,
intervenes in numberless tragedies.
13. The mere presence of the
sage suffices to paralyse destiny; and of this we
find proof in the fact that there exists scarce a drama
wherein a true sage appears; when such is the case,
the event needs must halt before reaching bloodshed
and tears. Not only is there no drama wherein
sage is in conflict with sage, but indeed there are
very few whose action revolves round a sage.
And truly, can we imagine that an event shall turn
into tragedy between men who have earnestly striven
to gain knowledge of self? But the heroes of
famous tragedies do not question their souls profoundly;
and it follows therefrom that the beauty the tragic
poet presents is only a captive thing, is fettered
with chains; for were his heroes to soar to the height
the real hero would gain, their weapons would fall
to the ground, and the drama itself become peacethe
peace of enlightenment. It is only in the Passion
of Christ, the Phaedo, Prometheus, the murder
of Orpheus, the sacrifice of Antigoneit
is only in these that we find the drama of the sage,
the solitary drama of wisdom. But elsewhere it
is rarely indeed that tragic poets will allow a sage
to appear on the scene, though it be for an instant.
They are afraid of a lofty soul; for they know that
events are no less afraid, and that a murder committed
in the presence of the sage seems quite other than
the murder committed in the presence of those whose
soul still knows not itself. Had Oedipus possessed
the inner refuge that Marcus Aurelius, for instance,
had been able to erect in himselfa refuge
whereto he could fly at all timeshad he
only acquired some few of the certitudes open to every
thinkerwhat could destiny then have done?
What would she have entrapped in her snares?
Would they have contained aught besides the pure light
that streams from the lofty soul, as it grows more
beautiful still in misfortune?
But where is the sage in Oedipus?
Is it Tiresias? He reads the future, but knows
not that goodness and forgiveness are lords of the
future. He knows the truth of the gods, but not
the truth of mankind. He ignores the wisdom that
takes misfortune to her arms and would fain give it
of her strength. Truly they who know still know
nothing if the strength of love be not theirs; for
the true sage is not he who sees, but he who, seeing
the furthest, has the deepest love for mankind.
He who sees without loving is only straining his eyes
in the darkness.
14. We are told that the famous
tragedies show us the struggle of man against Fate.
I believe, on the contrary, that scarcely a drama exists
wherein fatality truly does reign. Search as I
may, I cannot find one which exhibits the hero in
conflict with destiny pure and simple. For indeed
it is never destiny that he attacks; it is with wisdom
he is always at war. Real fatality exists only
in certain external disasters-as disease, accident,
the sudden death of those we love; but inner
fatality there is none. Wisdom has will power
sufficient to rectify all that does not deal death
to the body; it will even at times invade the narrow
domain of external fatality. It is true that we
must have amassed considerable and patient treasure
within us for this will power to find the resources
it needs.
15. The statue of destiny casts
a huge shadow over the valley, which it seems to enshroud
in gloom; but this shadow has clearest outline for
such as look down from the mountain. We are born,
it may be, with the shadow upon us; but to many men
is it granted to emerge from beneath it; and even
though infirmity or weakness keep us, till death, confined
in these sombre regions, still we can fly thence at
times on the wings of our hopes and our thoughts.
There may well be some few over whom Fate exerts a
more tyrannous power, by virtue of instinct, heredity
and other laws more relentless still, more profound
and obscure; but even when we writhe beneath unmerited,
crushing misfortune; even when fortune compels us
to do the thing we should never have done, had our
hands been free; even then, when the deed has been
done, the misfortune has happened, it still rests
with ourselves to deny her the least influence on
that which shall come to pass in our soul. She
may strike at the heart that is eager for good, but
still is she helpless to keep back the light that
shall stream to this heart from the error acknowledged,
the pain undergone. It is not in her power to
prevent the soul from transforming each single affliction
into thoughts, into feelings and treasure she dare
not profane. Be her empire never so great over
all things external, she always must halt when she
finds on the threshold a silent guardian of the inner
life. And if it be granted her then to pass through
to the hidden dwelling, it is but as a bountiful guest
she will enter, bringing with her new pledges of peace:
refreshing the slumberous air, and making still clearer
the light, the tranquillity deeperillumining
all the horizon.
16. Let us ask once again:
what had destiny done if she had, by some blunder,
lured Epicurus, or Marcus Aurelius, or Antoninus Pius
into the snares that she laid around Oedipus?
I will even assume that she might have compelled Antoninus,
for instance, to murder his father, and, all unwittingly,
to profane the couch of his mother. Would that
noble sovereign’s soul have been hopelessly
crushed? Would the end of it all not have been
as the end of all dramas must be wherein the sage is
attackedgreat sorrow surely, but also great
radiance that springs from this sorrow, and already
is partly triumphant over the shadow of grief?
Needs must Antoninus have wept as all men must weep;
but tears can quench not one ray in the soul that
shines with no borrowed light. To the sage the
road is long that leads from grief to despair; it is
a road untravelled by wisdom. When the soul has
attained such loftiness as the life of Antoninus shows
us that his had acquired, then is each falling tear
illumined by beautiful thought and by generous feeling.
He would have taken calamity to him, to all that was
purest, most vast, in his soul; and misfortune, like
water, espouses the form of the vase that contains
it. Antoninus, we say, would have brought resignation
to bear; but this is a word that too often conceals
the true working of a noble heart. There is no
soul so petty but what it too may believe that it
is resigned. Alas! it is not resignation that
comforts us, raises and chastens; but indeed the thoughts
and the feelings in whose name we embrace resignation;
and it is here that wisdom doles out the rewards they
have earned to her faithful.
Some ideas there are that lie beyond
the reach of any catastrophe. He will be far
less exposed to disaster who cherishes ideas within
him that soar high above the indifference, selfishness,
vanities of everyday life. And therefore, come
happiness or sorrow, the happiest man will be he within
whom the greatest idea shall burn the most ardently.
Had fate so desired it, Antoninus also, perhaps, had
been guilty of incest and parricide; but his inward
life would not have been crushed thereby, as was that
of Oedipus; nay, these very catastrophes would have
given him mightier strength, and destiny would have
fled in despair, strewing the ground by the emperor’s
palace with her nets and her blunted weapons; for
even as triumph of dictators and consuls could be
celebrated only in Rome, so can the true triumph of
Fate take place nowhere save in our soul.
17. Where do we find the fatality
in “Hamlet,” “King Lear,” in
“Macbeth”? Is its throne not erected
in the very centre of the old king’s madness,
on the lowest degree of the young prince’s imagination,
at the very summit of the Thane’s morbid cravings?
Macbeth we may well pass by; not need we linger over
Cordelia’s father, for his absence of consciousness
is all too manifest; but Hamlet, Hamlet the thinkeris
he wise? Is the elevation sufficient wherefrom
he looks down on the crimes of Elsinore? He seems
to regard them from the loftiest heights of his intellect;
but in the light-clad mountain range of wisdom there
are other peaks that tower far above the heights of
the intellectthe peaks of goodness and
confidence, of indulgence and love. If he could
have surveyed the misdeeds of Elsinore from the eminence
whence Marcus Aurelius or Fenelon, for instance, had
surely surveyed them, what would have resulted then?
And, first of all, does it not often happen that a
crime which is suddenly conscious of the gaze of a
mightier soul will pause, and halt, and at last crawl
back to its lair; even as bees cease from labour when
a gleam of sunshine steals into the hive?
The real destiny, the inner destiny
would in any event have followed its course in the
souls of Claudius and Gertrude; for these sinful ones
had delivered themselves into its hands, as must needs
be the case with those whose ways are evil; but would
it have dared to spread its influence abroad if one
of those sages had been in the palace? Would it
have dared to overstep the shining, denouncing barrier
that his presence would have imposed, and maintained,
in front of the palace gates? When the sage’s
destiny blends with that of men of inferior wisdom,
the sage raises them to his level, but himself will
rarely descend. Neither on earth nor in the domain
of fatality do rivers flow back to their source.
But to return: let us imagine a sovereign, all-powerful
soulthat of Jesus, in Hamlet’s place
at Elsinore; would the tragedy then have flown on
till it reached the four deaths at the end? Is
that conceivable? A crime may be never so skilfully
plannedwhen the eyes of deep wisdom rest
on it, it becomes like a trivial show that we offer
to very small children at nightfall: some magic-lantern
performance, whose tawdry imposture a last gleam of
sunshine lays bare. Can you conceive Jesus Christnay,
any wise man you have happened to meetin
the midst of the unnatural gloom that overhung Elsinore?
Is not every action of Hamlet induced by a fanatical
impulse, which tells him that duty consists in revenge
alone? and does it need superhuman effort to recognise
that revenge never can be a duty? I say again
that Hamlet thinks much, but that he is by no means
wise. He cannot conceive where to look for the
weak spot in destiny’s armour. Lofty thoughts
suffice not always to overcome destiny; for against
these destiny can oppose thoughts that are loftier
still; but what destiny has ever withstood thoughts
that are simple and good, thoughts that are tender
and loyal? We can triumph over destiny only by
doing the very reverse of the evil she fain would have
us commit. For no tragedy can be inevitable.
At Elsinore there is not a soul but refuses to see,
and hence the catastrophe; but a soul that is quick
with life will compel those around it to open their
eyes. Where was it written that Laertes, Ophelia,
Hamlet, Claudius, Gertrude, should diewhere,
save in Hamlet’s pitiful blindness? But
was this blindness inevitable? Why speak of destiny
when a simple thought had sufficed to arrest all the
forces of murder? The empire of destiny is surely
sufficiently vast. I acknowledge her might when
a wall crashes down on my head, when the storm drives
a ship on the rocks, when disease attacks those whom
I love; but into man’s soul she never will come,
uncalled. Hamlet is unhappy because he moves in
unnatural darkness; and his ignorance puts the seal
upon his unhappiness. We have but to issue commands
and fate will obeythere is nothing in the
world that will offer such long and patient submission.
Horatio, up to the last, could have issued commands;
but his master’s shadow lay on him, and he lacked
the courage to shake himself free. Had there been
but one soul courageous enough to cry out the truth,
then had the history of Elsinore not been shrouded
in tears of hatred and horror. But misfortune,
that bends beneath the fingers of wisdom like the cane
that we cut from the tree, becomes iron, and murderously
rigid, in the hand of unconsciousness. Once again,
all depended here, not on destiny, but on the wisdom
of the wisest, and this Hamlet was; therefore did he,
by his presence, become the centre of the drama of
Elsinore; and on himself only did the wisdom of Hamlet
depend.
18. And if you look distrustfully
on imaginary tragedies, you have only to investigate
some of the greatest dramas of authentic history to
find that in these too the destinies of men are no
different: that their ways are the same, and
their petulance, their revolt and submission.
You will discover that there too it is a force of man’s
own creating that plays the most active part in what
if pleases us to term “fatality.”
This fatality, it is true, is enormous, but rarely
irresistible. It does not leap forth at a given
moment from an inexorable, inaccessible, unfathomable
abyss. It is build up of the energy, the desires
and suffering, the thoughts and passions of our brothers;
and these passions should be well known to us, for
they differ not from our own. In our most inexplicable
moments, in our most mysterious, unexpected misfortunes,
we rarely find ourselves struggling with an invisible
enemy, or one that is entirely foreign to us.
Why strive of our own free will to enlarge the domain
of the inevitable? They who are truly strong
are aware that among the forces that oppose their
schemes there are some that they know not; but against
such as they do know they fight on as bravely as though
no others existed; and these men will be often victorious.
We shall have added most strangely to our safety and
happiness and peace the day that our sloth and our
ignorance shall have ceased to term fatal. What
should truly be looked on as human and natural by
our intelligence and our energy.
19. Let us consider one noteworthy
victim of destiny, Louis XVI. Never, it would
seem, did relentless fatality clamour so loudly for
the destruction of an unfortunate man; of one who
was gentle, and good, and virtuous, and honourable.
And yet, as we look more closely into the pages of
history, do we not find that fatality distils her poison
from the victim’s own wavering feebleness, his
own trivial duplicity, blindness, unreason, and vanity?
And if it be true that some kind of predestination
governs every circumstance of life, it appears to be
no less true that such predestination exists in our
character only; and to modify character must surely
be easy to the man of unfettered will, for is it not
constantly changing in the lives of the vast bulk of
men? Is your own character, at thirty, the same
as it was when you were ten years younger? It
will be better or worse in the measure that you have
believed that disloyalty, wickedness, hatred and falsehood
have triumphed in life, or goodness, and truth, and
love. And you will have thought that you witnessed
the triumph of hatred or love, of truth or of falsehood,
in exact accord with the lofty or baser idea as to
the happiness and aim of your life that will slowly
have arisen within you. For it is our most secret
desire that governs and dominates all. If your
eyes look for nothing but evil, you will always see
evil triumphant; but if you have learned to let your
glance rest on sincerity, simpleness, truth, you will
ever discover, deep down in all things, the silent
overpowering victory of that which you love.
20. It is scarcely from this
point of view, however, that Louis XVI. should be
Judged. Let us rather imagine ourselves in his
place, in the midst of his doubt and bewilderment,
his darkness and difficulties. Now that we know
all that happened it is easy enough to declare what
should have been done; but are we ourselves, at this
moment, aware of what is our duty? Are we not
contending with troubles and doubts of our own? and
were it not well that they who one day shall pass judgment
upon us should seek out the track that our footsteps
have left on the sands of the hillock we climbed,
hoping thence to discover the future? Louis XVI.
was bewildered: do we know what ought to be done?
Do we know what we best had abandon, what we best
had defend? Are we wiser than he as we waver
betwixt the rights of human reason and those that circumstance
claims? And when hesitation is conscientious,
does it not often possess all the elements of duty?
There is one most important lesson to be learned from
the example of this unfortunate king: and it is
that when doubt confronts us which in itself is noble
and great, it is our duty to march bravely onwards,
turning neither to right nor to left of us, going
infinitely further than seems to be reasonable, practical,
just. The idea that we hold to-day of duty, and
justice, and truth, may seem clear to us now, and
advanced and unfettered; but how different will it
appear a few years, a few centuries later! Had
Louis XVI. done what we should have donewe
who now are aware of what had been the right thing
to dohad he frankly renounced all the follies
of royal prerogative, and loyally adopted the new
truth and loftier justice that had sprung into being,
then should we to-day be admiring his genius.
And the king himself, perhapsfor he was
not a foolish man, or wickedmay have for
one instant beheld his own situation with the clear
eye of an impartial philosopher. That at least
is by no means impossible, historically or psychologically.
Even in our most solemn hours of doubt it is rare that
we know not where we should look for the fixed point
of duty, its unalterable summit; but we feel that
there stretches a distance too wide to be travelled
between the actual thing to be done and this mountain-peak,
that glitters afar in its solitude. And yet it
is proved by man’s whole historyby
the life of each one of usthat it is on
the loftiest summit that right has always its dwelling;
and that to this summit we too at the end must climb,
after much precious time has been lost on many an
intermediate eminence. And what is a sage, a great
man, a hero, if not one who has dared to go, alone
and ahead of the others, to the deserted table-land
that lay more or less within sight of all men?
21. We do not imply that Louis
XVI. should necessarily have been a man of this stamp,
a man of genius; although to have genius seems almost
the duty of him who sways in his hands the destiny
of vast numbers of men. Nor do we claim that
the best men among us to-day would have been able
to escape his errors, or the misfortunes to which they
gave rise. And yet there is one thing certain:
that of all these misfortunes none had super-human
origin; not one was supernaturally, or too mysteriously,
inevitable. They came not from another world;
they were launched by no monstrous god, capricious
and incomprehensible. They were born of an idea
of justice that men failed to grasp; an idea of justice
that suddenly had wakened in life, but never had lain
asleep in the reason of man. And is there a thing
in this world can be more reassuring, or nearer to
us, more profoundly human, than an idea of justice?
Louis XVI. may well have regretted that this idea,
that shattered his peace, should have awakened during
his reign; but this was the only reproach he could
level at fate; and when we murmur at fate ourselves
our complaints have much the same value. For the
rest, it is legitimate enough to suppose that there
needed but one single act of energy, absolute loyalty,
disinterested, clear-sighted wisdom, to change the
whole course of events. If the flight to Varennesin
itself an act of duplicity and culpable weaknesshad
only been arranged a little less childishly, foolishly
(as any man would have arranged it who was accustomed
to the habits of life), there can be not a doubt that
Louis XVI. would never have died on the scaffold.
Was it a god, or his blind reliance on Marie Antoinette,
that led him to entrust de Fersena stupid,
conceited, and tactless creaturewith the
preparations and control of this disastrous journey?
Was it a force instinct with great mystery, or only
his own unconsciousness, heedlessness, thoughtlessness,
and a kind of strange apathetic submissionsuch
as the weak and the idle will often display at moments
of danger, when they seem almost to challenge their
starthat induced him again and again,
at each change of horses, to put his head out of the
carriage window, and thus be recognised three or four
times? And at the moment that decided all, in
that throbbing and sinister night of Varennesa
night indeed when fatality should have been an immovable
mountain governing all the horizondo we
not see this fatality stumbling at every step, like
a child that is learning to walk and wonders, is it
this white pebble or that tuft of grass that will cause
it to fall to right or to left of the path? And
then, at the tragic halt of the carriage, in that
black night: at the terrible cry sent forth by
young Drouet, “In the name of the Nation!”
there had needed but one order from the king, one
lash of the whip, one pull at the collarand
you and I would probably not have been born, for the
history of the world had been different. And again,
in presence of the mayor, who stood there, respectful,
disconcerted, hesitating, ready to fling every gate
open had but one imperious word been spoken; and at
the shop of M. Sauce, the worthy village grocer; and,
last of all, when Goguelat and de Choiseul had arrived
with their hussars, bringing rescue, salvationdid
not all depend, a hundred times over, on a mere yes
or no, a step, a gesture, a look? Take any ten
men with whom you are intimate, let them have been
King of France, you can foretell the issue of their
ten nights. Ah, it was that night truly that heaped
shame on fatality, that laid bare her weakness!
For that night revealed to all men the dependence,
the wretched and shivering poverty of the great mysterious
force that, in moments of undue resignation, seems
to weigh so heavily on life! Never before has
she been beheld so completely despoiled of her vestments,
of her imposing, deceptive robes, as she incessantly
came and went that night, from death to life, from
life to death; throwing herself at last, like a woman
distraught, into the arms of an unhappy king, whom
she besought til dawn for a decision, an existence,
that she herself never can find save only in the depths
of the will and the intellect of man.
22. And yet this is not the entire
truth. It is helpful to regard events in this
fashion, thus seeking to minimise the importance of
fatality, looking upon it as some vague and wandering
creature that we have to shelter and guide. We
gain the more courage thereby, the more confidence,
initiative; and these are qualities essential to the
doing of anything useful; and they shall stand us
in good stead, too, when our own hour of danger draws
nigh. But for all that, we do not pretend that
there truly is no other forcethat all things
can be governed by our will and our intellect.
These must be trained to act like the soldiers of
a conquering army; they must learn to thrive at the
cost of all that opposes them; they must find sustenance
even in the unknown that towers above them. Those
who desire to emerge from the ordinary habits of life,
from the straitened happiness of mere pleasure-seeking
men, must march with deliberate conviction along the
path that is known to them, yet never forget the unexplored
regions through which this path winds. We must
act as though we were mastersas though
all things were bound to obey us; and yet let us carefully
tend in our soul a thought whose duty it shall be
to offer noble submission to the mighty forces we
may encounter. It is well that the hand should
believe that all is expected, foreseen; but well,
too, that we should have in us a secret idea, inviolable,
incorruptible, that will always remember that whatever
is great most often must be unforeseen. It is
the unforeseen, the unknown, that fulfil what we never
should dare to attempt; but they will not come to
our aid if they find not, deep down in our heart, an
altar inscribed to their worship. Men of the mightiest
willmen like Napoleonwere
careful, in their most extraordinary deeds, to leave
open a good share to fate. Those within whom there
lives not a generous hope will keep fate closely confined,
as they would a sickly child; but others invite her
into the limitless plains man has not yet the strength
to explore, and their eyes follow her every movement.
23. These feverish hours of history
resemble a storm that we see on the ocean; we come
from far inland; we rush to the beach, in keen expectation;
we eye the enormous waves with curious eagerness, with
almost childish intensity. And there comes one
along that is three times as high and as fierce as
the rest. It rushes towards us like some monster
with diaphanous muscles. It uncoils itself in
mad haste from the distant horizon, as though it were
bearer of some urgent, complete revelation. It
ploughs in its wake a track so deep that we feel that
the sea must at last be yielding up one of her secrets;
but all things happen the same as on a breathless
and cloudless day, when languid wavelets roll to and
fro in the limpid, fathomless water; from the ocean
arises no living thing, not a blade of grass, not a
stone.
If aught could discourage the sagethough
he is not truly wise whose astonishment is not enlightened,
and his interest quickened, by the unforeseen thing
that discouragesit would be the discovery,
in this French Revolution, of more than one destiny
that is infinitely sadder, more overwhelming, more
inexplicable, than that of Louis XVI. I refer
to the Girondins: above all, to the admirable
Vergniaud. To-day even, though we know all that
the future kept hidden from him, and are able to divine
what it was that was sought by the instinctive desire
of that exceptional centuryto-day even
it were surely not possible to act more nobly, more
wisely, than he. Let fortune hurl any man into
the burning centre of a movement that had swept every
barrier down, it were surely not possible to reveal
a finer character or loftier spirit. Could we
fashion, deep down in our heart, out of all that is
purest within us, out of all our wisdom and all our
love, some beautiful, spotless creature with never
a thought of self, without weakness or errorsuch
a being would desire a place by the side of Vergniaud,
on those deserted Convention seats, “whereon
the shadow of death seemed already to hover,”
that he might think as Vergniaud thought, and so speak,
and act. He saw the infallible, eternal, that
lay the other side of that tragical moment; he knew
how to be humane and benevolent still, through all
those terrible days when humanity and benevolence seemed
the bitterest enemies of the ideal of justice, whereto
he had sacrificed all; and in his great and noble
doubt he marched bravely onwards, turning neither
to right nor to left of him, going infinitely further
than seemed to be reasonable, practical, just.
The violent death that was not unexpected came towards
him, with half his road yet untravelled; to teach
us that often in this strange conflict between man
and his destiny, the question is not how to save the
life of our body, but that of our most beautiful feelings,
of our loftiest thoughts,
“Of what avail are my loftiest
thoughts if I have ceased to exist?” there are
some will ask; to whom others, it may be, will answer,
“What becomes of myself if all that I love in
my heart and my spirit must die, that my life may
be saved?” And are not almost all the morals,
and heroism, and virtue of man summed up in that single
choice?
24. But what may this wisdom
be that we rate thus highly? Let us not seek
to define it too closely; that were but to enchain
it. If a man were desirous to study the nature
of light, and began by extinguishing all the lights
that were near, would not a few cinders, a smouldering
wick, be all he would ever discover? And so has
it been with those who essayed definition. “The
word wise,” said Joubert, “when used to
a child, is a word that each child understands, and
that we need never explain.” Let us accept
it even as the child accepts it, that it may grow
with our growth. Let us say of wisdom what Sister
Hadewijck, the mysterious enemy of Ruijsbroeck the
Admirable, said of love: “Its profoundest
abyss is its most beautiful form.” Wisdom
requires no form; her beauty must vary, as varies
the beauty of flame. She is no motionless goddess,
for ever couched on her throne. She is Minerva
who follows us, soars to the skies with us, falls
to the earth with us, mingles her tears with our tears,
and rejoices when we rejoice. Truly wise you
are not unless your wisdom be constantly changing from
your childhood on to your death. The more the
word means to you, the more beauty and depth it conveys,
the wiser must you become; and each step that one
takes towards wisdom reveals to the soul ever-widening
space, that wisdom never shall traverse.
25. He who knows himself is wise;
yet have we no sooner acquired real consciousness
of our being than we learn that true wisdom is a thing
that lies far deeper than consciousness. The chief
gain of increased consciousness is that it unveils
an ever-loftier unconsciousness, on whose heights
do the sources lie of the purest wisdom. The heritage
of unconsciousness is for all men the same; but it
is situate partly within and partly without the confines
of normal consciousness. The bulk of mankind
will rarely pass over the border; but true lovers of
wisdom press on, till they open new routes that cross
over the frontier. If I love, and my love has
procured me the fullest consciousness man may attain,
then will an unconsciousness light up this love that
shall be quite other than the one whereby commonplace
love is obscured. For this second unconsciousness
hedges the animal round, whereas the first draws close
unto God; but needs must it lose all trace of the
second ere it become aware of itself. In unconsciousness
we ever must dwell; but are able to purify, day after
day, the unconsciousness that wraps us around.
26. We shall not become wise
through worshipping reason alone; and wisdom means
more than perpetual triumph of reason over inferior
instincts. Such triumphs can help us but little
if our reason be not taught thereby to offer profoundest
submission to another and different instinctthat
of the soul. These triumphs are precious, because
they reveal the presence of diviner instinct, that
grows ever diviner still. And their aim is not
in themselves; they serve but to clear the way for
the destiny of the soul, which is a destiny, always,
of purification and light.
27. Reason flings open the door
to wisdom; but the most living wisdom befinds itself
not in reason. Reason bars the gate to malevolent
destiny; but wisdom, away on the horizon, throws open
another gate to propitious destiny. Reason defends
and withdraws; forbids, rejects, and destroys.
Wisdom advances, attacks, and adds; increases, creates,
and commands. Reason produces not wisdom, which
is rather a craving of soul. It dwells up above,
far higher than reason; and thus is it of the nature
of veritable wisdom to do countless things whereof
reason disapproves, or shall but approve hereafter.
So was it that wisdom one day said to reason, It were
well to love one’s enemies and return good for
evil. Reason, that day, tiptoe on the loftiest
peak in its kingdom, at last was fain to agree.
But wisdom is not yet content, and seeks ever further,
alone.
28. If wisdom obeyed reason only,
and sought nothing more than to overcome instinct,
then would wisdom be ever the same. There would
be but one wisdom for all, and its whole range would
be known to man, for reason has more than once explored
its entire domain.
Certain fixed points there well may
be that are common to all classes of wisdom; but there
exists none the less the widest possible difference
between the atmospheres that enwrapped the wisdom of
Jesus Christ and of Socrates, of Aristides and Marcus
Aurelius, of Fenelon and Jean Paul. Let the same
event befall these men on the self-same day:
if it fall into the running waters of their wisdom,
it will undergo complete transformation, becoming
different in every one; if it fall into the stagnant
water of their reason, it will remain as it was, unchanged.
If Jesus Christ and Socrates both were to meet the
adulterous woman, the words that their reason would
prompt them to speak would vary but little; but belonging
to different worlds would be the working of the wisdom
within them, far beyond words and far beyond thoughts.
For differences such as these are of the very essence
of wisdom. There is but one starting-point for
the wisethe threshold of reason.
But they separate one from the other as soon as the
triumphs of reason are well understood; in other words,
as soon as they enter freely the domain of the higher
unconsciousness.
29. To say “this is reasonable”
is by no means the same as to say “this is wise.”
The thing that is reasonable is not of necessity wise,
and a thing may be very wise and yet be condemned
by over-exacting reason. It is from reason that
justice springs, but goodness is born of wisdom; and
goodness, we are told by Plutarch, “extends much
further than justice.” Is it to reason
or wisdom that heroism should be ascribed? Wisdom,
perhaps, is only the sense of the infinite applied
to our moral life. Reason, it is true, has the
sense of the infinite also, but dare not do more than
accord it bare recognition. It would seem opposed
to the very instinct of reason to regard the sense
of the infinite as being of importance in life; but
wisdom is wise in the measure that the Infinite governs
all she procures to be done.
In reason no love can be foundthere
is much love in wisdom; and all that is highest in
wisdom entwines around all that is purest in love.
Love is the form most divine of the infinite, and also,
because most divine, the form most profoundly human.
Why should we not say that wisdom is the triumph of
reason divine over reason of man?
30. We cannot cultivate reason
too fully, but by wisdom only should reason be guided.
The man is not wise whose reason has not yet been
taught to obey the first signal of love. What
would Christ, all the heroes, have done had their
reason not learned to submit? Is each deed of
the hero not always outside the boundary of reason?
and yet, who would venture to say that the hero is
not wiser by far than the sluggard who quits not his
chair because reason forbids him to rise? Let
us say it once morethe vase wherein we
should tend the true wisdom is love, and not reason.
Reason is found, it is true, at the root-springs of
wisdom, yet is wisdom not reason’s flower.
For we speak not of logical wisdom here, but of wisdom
quite other, the favourite sister of love.
Reason and love battle fiercely at
first in the soul that begins to expand; but wisdom
is born of the peace that at last comes to pass between
reason and love; and the peace becomes the profounder
as reason yields up still more of her rights to love.
31. Wisdom is the lamp of love,
and love is the oil of the lamp. Love, sinking
deeper, grows wiser; and wisdom that springs up aloft
comes ever the nearer to love. If you love, you
must needs become wise; be wise, and you surely shall
love. Nor can any one love with the veritable
love but his love must make him the better; and to
grow better is but to grow wiser. There is not
a man in the world but something improves in his soul
from the moment he lovesand that though
his love be but vulgar; and those in whom love never
dies must needs continue to love as their soul grows
nobler and nobler. Love is the food of wisdom;
wisdom the food of love; a circle of light within
which those who love, clasp the hands of those who
are wise. Wisdom and love are one; and in Swedenborg’s
Paradise the wife is “the love of the wisdom
of the wise.”
32. “Our reason,”
said Fenelon, “is derived from the clearness
of our ideas.” But our wisdom, we might
addin other words, all that is best in
our soul and our character, is to be found above all
in those ideas that are not yet clear. Were we
to allow our clear ideas only to govern our life,
we should quickly become undeserving of either much
love or esteem. For, truly, what could be less
clear than the reasons that bid us be generous, upright,
and just; that teach us to cherish in all things the
noblest of feelings and thoughts? But it happily
so comes to pass that the more clear ideas we possess,
the more do we learn to respect those that as yet
are still vague. We must strive without ceasing
to clarify as many ideas as we can, that we may thus
arouse in our soul more and more that now are obscure.
The clear ideas may at times seem to govern our external
life, but the others perforce must march on at the
head of our intimate life, and the life that we see
invariably ends by obeying the invisible life.
On the quality, number, and power of our clear ideas
do the quality, number, and power depend of those
that are vague; and hidden away in the midst of these
vague ones, patiently biding their hour, there may
well lurk most of the definite truths that we seek
with such ardour. Let us not keep them waiting
too long; and indeed, a beautiful crystal idea we awaken
within us shall not fail, in its turn, to arouse a
beautiful vague idea; which last, growing old, and
having itself become clear (for is not perfect clearness
most often the sign of decrepitude in the idea?), shall
also go forth, and disturb from its slumber another
obscure idea, but loftier, lovelier far than it had
been itself in its sleep; and thus, it may be, treading
gently, one after the other, and never disheartened,
in the midst of those silent rankssome
day, by mere chance, a small hand, scarce visible
yet, shall touch a great truth.
33. Clear ideas and obscure ideas;
heart, intellect, will, and reason, and soultruly
these words that we use do but mean more or less the
same thing: the spiritual riches of man.
The soul may well be no more than the most beautiful
desire of our brain, and God Himself be only the most
beautiful desire of our soul. So great is the
darkness here that we can but seek to divide it; and
the lines that we trace must be blacker still than
the sections they traverse. Of all the ideals
that are left to us, there is perhaps only one that
we still can accept; and that one is to gain full
self-knowledge; but to how great an extent does this
knowledge truly depend on our reasonthis
knowledge that at first would appear to depend on
our reason alone? Surely he who at last had succeeded
in realising, to the fullest extent, the place that
he filled in the universesurely he should
be better than others, be wiser and truer, more upright;
in a word, be more moral? But can any man claim,
in good faith, to have grasped this relation; and do
not the roots of the most positive morals lie hidden
beneath some kind of mystic unconsciousness?
Our most beautiful thought does no more than pass
through our intelligence; and none would imagine that
the harvest must have been reaped in the road because
it is seen passing by. When reason, however precise,
sets forth to explore her domain, every step that
she takes is over the border. And yet is it the
intellect that lends the first touches of beauty to
thought; the rest lies not wholly with us; but this
rest will not stir into motion until intellect touches
the spring. Reason, the well-beloved daughter
of intellect, must go take her stand on the threshold
of our spiritual life, having first flung open the
gates of the prison beneath, where the living, instinctive
forces of being lie captive, asleep. She must
wait, with the lamp in her hand; and her presence
alone shall suffice to ward off from the threshold
all that does not yet conform with the nature of light.
Beyond, in the regions unlit by her rays, obscure life
continues. This troubles her not; indeed, she
is glad. ... She knows that, in the eyes of the
God she desires all that has not yet crossed her arcade
of lightbe it dream, be it thought, even
actcan add nothing to, can take nothing
from, the ideal creature she is craving to mould.
She watches the flame of her lamp; needs must it burn
brightly, and remain at its post, and be seen from
afar. She listens, untroubled, to the murmur
of inferior instincts out there in the darkness.
But the prisoners slowly awake; there are some who
draw nigh to the threshold, and their radiance is
greater than hers. There flows from them a light
less material, softer and purer than that of the bold,
hard flame which her hand protects. They are
the inscrutable powers of goodness and love; and others
follow behind, more mysterious still, and more infinite,
seeking admission. What shall she do? If,
at the time that she took her stand there on the threshold,
she had still lacked the courage to learn that she
could not exist alone, then will she be troubled,
afraid; she will make fast the gates; and should these
be ever reopened, she would find only quivering cinders
at the foot of the gloomy stairs. But if her
strength be unshaken; if from all that she could not
learn she has learned, at least, that in light there
can never be danger, and that reason itself may be
freely staked where greater brightness prevailsthen
shall ineffable changes take place on the threshold,
from lamp unto lamp. Drops of an unknown oil will
blend with the oil of the wisdom of man; and when
the white strangers have passed, the flame of her
lamp shall rise higher, transformed for all time;
shall shed purer and mightier radiance amidst the columns
of the loftier doorway.
34. So much for isolated wisdom;
now let us return to the wisdom that moves to the
grave in the midst of the mighty crowd of human destinies;
for the destiny of the sage holds not aloof from that
of the wicked and frivolous. All destinies are
for ever commingling; and the adventure is rare in
whose web the hempen thread blends not with the golden.
There are misfortunes more gradual, less frightful
of aspect, than those that befell Oedipus and the
prince of Elsinore; misfortunes that quail not beneath
the gaze of truth or justice or love. Those who
speak of the profit of wisdom are never so wise as
when they freely admit, without pride or heart-burning,
that wisdom grants scarcely a boon to her faithful
that the foolish or wicked would prize. And indeed,
it may often take place that the sage, as he moves
among men, shall pass almost unnoticed, shall affect
them but slightly; be this that his stay is too brief,
that he comes too late, that he misses true contact;
or perchance that he has to contend with forces too
overwhelming, amassed by myriad men from time immemorial.
No miracles can he perform on material things; he
can save only that which life’s ordinary laws
still allow to be saved; and himself, it may be, shall
be suddenly seized in a great inexorable whirlwind.
But, though he perish therein, still does he escape
the fate that is common to most; for at least he will
die without having been forcedfor weeks,
or it may be for years, before the catastropheto
be the helpless, despairing witness of the ruin of
his soul. And to save some oneif we
admit that in life there are truly two livesdoes
not of necessity mean that we save him from death
and disaster; but indeed that we render him happier,
inasmuch as we try to improve him. Moral salvation
is the greatest salvation; and yet, what a trifle
this seems, as everything seems that is done on the
loftiest summits of soul. Was the penitent thief
not saved; and that not alone in the Christian sense
of the word, but in its fullest, most perfect meaning?
Still had he to die, and at that very hour; but he
died eternally happy; because at the very last moment
he too had been loved, and a Being of infinite wisdom
had declared that his soul had not been without value;
that his soul, too, had been good, and had not passed
through the world unperceived of all men.
35. As we go deeper down into
life we discover the secret of more and more sorrow
and helplessness. We see that many souls round
us lead idle and foolish lives, because they believe
they are useless, unnoticed by all, unloved, and convinced
they have nothing within them that is worthy of love.
But to the sage the hour must come when every soul
that exists claims his glance, his approval, his loveif
only because it possesses the mysterious gift of existence.
The hour must come when he sees that falsehood and
weakness and vice are but on the surface; when his
eye shall pierce through, and discover the strength,
and the truth, and the virtue that lie underneath.
Happy and blessed hour, when wickedness stands forth
revealed as goodness bereft of its guide; and treachery
is seen to be loyalty, for ever astray from the highway
of happiness; and hatred becomes only love, in poignant
despair, that is digging its grave. Then, unsuspected
of any, shall it be with all those who are near the
good man as it was with the penitent thief; into the
humblest soul that will thus have been saved by a look,
or a word, or a silence, shall the true happiness
fallthe happiness fate cannot touch; that
brings to all men the oblivion it gave unto Socrates,
and causes each one to forget, until nightfall, that
the deathgiving cup had been drained ere
the sun went down.
36. The inner life, perhaps,
is not what we deem it to be. There are as many
kinds of inner lives as there are of external lives.
Into these tranquil regions the smallest may enter
as readily as he who is greatest, for the gate that
leads thither is not always the gate of the intellect.
It often may happen that the man of vast knowledge
shall knock at this gate in vain, reply being made
from within by the man who knows nothing. The
inner life that is surest, most lasting, possessed
of the uttermost beauty, must needs be the one that
consciousness slowly erects in itself, with the aid
of all that is purest in the soul. And he is
wise who has learned that this life should be nourished
on every event of the day: he to whom deceit or
betrayal serves but to enhance his wisdom: he
in whom evil itself becomes fuel for the flame of
love. He is wise who at last sees in suffering
only the light that it sheds on his soul; and whose
eyes never rest on the shadow it casts upon those
who have sent it towards him. And wiser still
is the man to whom sorrow and joy not only bring increase
of consciousness, but also the knowledge that something
exists superior to consciousness even. To have
reached this point is to reach the summit of inward
life, whence at last we look down on the flames whose
light has helped our ascent. But not many can
climb so high; and happiness may be achieved in the
less ardent valley below, where the flames spring darkly
to life. And there are existences still more
obscure which yet have their places of refuge.
There are some that instinctively fashion inward lives
for themselves. There are some that, bereft of
initiative or of intelligence, never discover the
path that leads into themselves, and are never aware
of all that their refuge contains; and yet will their
actions be wholly the same as the actions of those
whose intellect weighs every treasure. There
are some who desire only good, though they know not
wherefore they desire it, and have no suspicion that
goodness is the one fixed star of loftiest consciousness.
The inner life begins when the soul becomes good,
and not when the intellect ripens. It is somewhat
strange that this inner life can never be formed out
of evil. No inner life is for him whose soul
is bereft of all nobleness. He may have full
knowledge of self; he may know, it may be, wherefore
he shuns goodness; and yet shall he seek in vain for
the refuge, the strength, the treasure of invisible
gladness, that form the possessions of him who can
fearlessly enter his heart. For the inward life
is built up of a certain rejoicing of soul; and the
soul can never be happy if it possess not, and love
not, something that is pure. It may perhaps err
in its choice, but then even will it be happier than
the soul to which it has never been given to choose.
37. And thus are we truly saving
a man if we bring about that he loves evil somewhat
less than he loved it before; for we are helping that
man to construct, deep down in his soul, the refuge
whereagainst destiny shall brandish her
weapons in vain. This refuge is the monument of
consciousness, or, it may be, of love; for love is
nothing but consciousness, still vaguely in search
of itself; and veritable consciousness nothing but
love that at last has emerged from the shadow.
And it is in the deepest recess of this refuge that
the soul shall kindle the wondrous fire of her joy.
And this joy of the soul is like unto no other joy;
and even as material fire will chase away deadly disease
from the earth, so will the joy of the soul scatter
sorrow that malevolent destiny brings. It arises
not from exterior happiness; it arises not from satisfied
self-love; for the joy that self-love procures becomes
less as the soul becomes nobler, but the joy of pure
love increases as nobility comes to the soul.
Nor is this joy born of pride; for to be able to smile
at its beauty is not enough to bring joy to the soul.
The soul that has sought in itself has the right to
know of its beauty; but to brood on this beauty too
much, to become over-conscious thereof, were perhaps
to detract somewhat from the unconsciousness of its
love. The joy that I speak of takes not from
love what it adds unto consciousness; for in this joy,
and in this joy alone, do consciousness and love become
one, feeding each on the other, each gaining from
that which it gives. The striving intellect may
well know happiness beyond the reach of the satisfied
body; but the soul that grows nobler has joys that
are often denied to the striving intellect. These
two will often unite and labour together at building
the house within. But still it will happen at
times that both work apart, and widely different then
are the structures each will erect. And were
this to be so, and the being I loved best of all in
the world came and asked me which he should choosewhich
refuge I held to be most unattackable, sweetest, profoundestI
would surely advise him to shelter his destiny in
the refuge of the soul that grows nobler.
38. Is the sage never to suffer?
Shall no storm ever break on the roof of his dwelling,
no traps be laid to ensnare him? Shall wife and
friends never fail him? Must his father not die,
and his mother, his brothers, his sonsmust
all these not die like the rest? Shall angels
stand guard at each highway through which sorrow can
pass into man? Did not Christ Himself weep as
He stood before Lazarus’ tomb? Had not
Marcus Aurelius to sufferfrom Commodus,
the son who already showed signs of the monster he
was to become; from Faustina, the wife whom he loved,
but who cared not for him? Was not destiny’s
hand laid heavy on Paulus Aemilius, who was fully
as wise as Timoleon? did not both his sons die, one
five days before his triumph in Rome, and the other
but three days after? What becomes of the refuge,
then, where wisdom keeps watch over happiness?
Must we take back all we have said? and is wisdom
yet one more illusion, by whose aid the soul would
fain conciliate reason, and justify cravings that
experience is sure to reject as being opposed to reason?
39. Nay, In truth, the sage too
must suffer. He suffers; and suffering forms
a constituent part of his wisdom. He will suffer,
perhaps, more than most men, for that his nature is
far more complete. And being nearer to all mankind,
as the wise ever must be, his suffering will be but
the greater, for the sorrows of others are his.
He will suffer in his flesh, in his heart, in his
spirit; for there are sides in all these that no wisdom
on earth can dispute against destiny. And so he
accepts his suffering, but is not discouraged thereby;
not for him are the chains that it fastens on those
who cringe down before it, unaware that it is but
a messenger sent by a mightier personage, whom a bend
in the road hides from view. Needs must the sage,
like his neighbour, be startled from sleep by the
shouts of the truculent envoy, by the blows at the
door that cause the whole house to tremble. He,
too, must go down and parley. But yet, as he
listens, his eyes are not fixed on this bringer of
evil tidings; his glance will at times be lifted over
the messenger’s shoulder, will scan the dust
on the horizon in search of the mighty idea that perhaps
may be near at hand. And indeed, when our thoughts
rest on fate, at such times as happiness enfolds us,
we feel that no great misfortune can be suddenly burst
upon us. The proportions will change, it is true,
when the blow falls; but it is equally true that before
the misfortune can wholly destroy the abiding courage
within us, it first must triumph in our heart over
all we adore, over all we admire, and love. And
what alien power can expel from our soul a feeling
and thought that we hurl not our selves from its throne?
Physical suffering apart, not a single sorrow exists
that can touch us except through our thoughts; and
whence do our thoughts derive the weapons wherewith
they attack or defend us? We suffer but little
from suffering itself; but from the manner wherein
we accept it overwhelming sorrow may spring.
“His unhappiness was caused by himself,”
said a thinker of one whose eyes never looked over
the brutal messenger’s shoulder“his
unhappiness was caused by himself; for all misery is
inward, and caused by ourselves. We are wrong
in believing that it comes from without. For
indeed we create it within us, out of our very substance.”
40. It is only in the manner
of our facing the event that its active force consists.
Assemble ten men who, like Paulus Aemilius, have lost
both their sons at the moment when life seemed sweetest,
then will the misfortune appear to vary in every one.
Misfortune enters within us, but must of necessity
yield obedience to all our commands. Even as the
order may be that it finds inscribed on the threshold,
so will it sow, or destroy, or reap. If my neighbour,
a commonplace man, were to lose his two sons at the
moment when fate had granted his dearest desires,
then would darkness steal over all, unrelieved by a
glimmer of light; and misfortune itself, contemptuous
of its too facile success, would leave naught behind
but a handful of colourless cinders. Nor is it
necessary for me to see my neighbour again to be aware
that his sorrow will have brought to him pettiness
only; for sorrow does merely restore to us that which
our soul had lent in happier days.
41. But this was the misfortune
that befell Paulus Aemilius. Rome, still aglow
with his triumph, waited, dismayed, wondering what
was to happen. Were the gods defying the sage,
and how would the sage reply? Would the hero
be crushed by his sorrow, or would sorrow acknowledge
its master? Mankind, at moments like these, seems
aware that destiny is yet once again making trial
of the strength of her arm, and that change of some
kind must befall if her blow crush not where it alights.
And see with what eagerness men at such moments will
question the eyes of their chiefs for the password
against the invisible.
But Paulus Aemilius has gathered together
an assembly of the people of Rome; he advances gravely
towards them, and thus does he speak: “I,
who never yet feared anything that was human, have,
amongst such as were divine, always had, a dread of
fortune as faithless and inconstant; and, for the
very reason that in this war she had been as a favourable
gale in all my affairs, I still expected some change
and reflux of things. In one day I passed the
Ionian Sea, and reached Corcyra from Brundisium; thence
in five more I sacrificed at Delphi, and in other
five days came to my forces in Macedonia, where, after
I had finished the usual sacrifices for the purifying
of the army, I entered on my duties, and in the space
of fifteen days put an honourable period to the war.
Still retaining a jealousy of fortune, even from the
smooth current of my affairs, and seeing myself secure
and free from the danger of any enemy, I chiefly dreaded
the change of the goddess at sea, whilst conveying
home my victorious army, vast spoils, and a captive
king. Nay, indeed, after I was returned to you
safe, and saw the city full of joy, congratulating,
and sacrifices, yet still I distrusted, well knowing
that fortune never conferred any great benefits that
were unmixed and unattended with probabilities of
reverse. Nor could my mind, that was still as
it were in labour, and always foreseeing something
to befall this city, free itself from this fear, until
this great misfortune befell me in my own family, and
till, in the midst of those days set apart for triumph,
I carried two of the best of sons, my only destined
successors, one after another to their funerals.
Now therefore, I am myself safe from danger, at least
as to what was my greatest care; and I trust and am
verily persuaded that, for the time to come, fortune
will prove constant and harmless unto you; since she
has sufficiently wreaked her jealousy at our great
successes on me and mine, and has made the conqueror
as marked an example of human instability as the captive
whom he led in triumph, with this only difference,
that Perseus, though conquered, does yet enjoy his
children, while the conqueror Aemilius is deprived
of his.”
42. This was the Roman fashion
of accepting the greatest sorrow that can befall a
man at the moment when sorrow is felt the most keenlyat
the moment of his greatest happiness. And there
are many ways of accepting misfortuneas
many, indeed, as there are generous feelings or thoughts
to be found on the earth; and every one of those thoughts,
every one of those feelings, has a magic wand that
transforms, on the threshold, the features and vestments
of sorrow. Job would have said, “The Lord
gave and the Lord hath taken away: blessed be
the name of the Lord”; and Marcus Aurelius perhaps,
“If it be no longer allowed me to love those
I loved high above all, it is doubtless that I may
learn to love those whom I love not yet.”
43. And let us not think that
these are mere empty words wherewith they console
themselves, words that in vain seek to hide the wound
that bleeds but the more for the effort. But
if it were so, if empty words could console, that
surely were better than to be bereft of all consolation.
And further, if we have to admit that all this is
illusion, must we not, in mere justice, also admit
that illusion is the solitary thing that the soul
can possess; and in the name of what other illusion
shall we venture to rate this illusion so lightly?
Ah, when the night falls and the great sages I speak
of go back to their lonely dwelling, and look on the
chairs round the hearth where their children once
were, but never shall be againthen, truly,
can they not escape some part of the sorrow that comes,
overwhelming, to those whose suffering no noble thought
chastens. For it were wrong to attribute to beautiful
feeling and thought a virtue they do not possess.
There are, external tears that they cannot restrain;
there are holy hours when wisdom cannot yet console.
But, for the last time let us say it, suffering we
cannot avoid for suffering there ever must be; still
does it rest with ourselves to choose what our suffering
shall bring. And let us not think that this choice,
which the eye cannot see, is truly a very small matter,
and helpless to comfort a sorrow whose cause the eyes
never cease to behold. Out of small matters like
these are all moral joys built up, and these are profounder
far than intellectual or physical joys. Translate
into words the feeling that spurs on the hero, and
how trivial it seems! Insignificant too does the
idea of duty appear that Cato the younger had formed,
when compared with the enormous disturbance it caused
in a mighty empire, or the terrible death it brought
on. And yet, was not Cato’s idea far greater
than the disturbance, or death, that ensued?
Do we not feel, even now, that Cato was right?
And was not his life rendered truly and nobly happy,
thanks to this very idea, that the reason of man will
not even consider, so unreasonable does it appear?
All that ennobles our life, all that we respect in
ourselves, the mainsprings of our virtue, the limits
that feeling will even impose upon vices or crimesall
these appear veriest trifles when viewed by the cold
eye of reason; and yet do they fashion the laws that
govern every man’s life. Would life be endurable
if we did not obey many truths that our reason rejects?
The wretchedest even obeys one of these; and the more
truths there are that he yields to, the less wretched
does he become. The assassin will tell you, “I
murder, it is true, but at least do not steal.”
And he who has stolen steals, but does not betray;
and he who betrays would at least not betray his brother.
And thus does each one cling for refuge to his last
fragment of spiritual beauty. No man can have
fallen so low but he still has a retreat in his soul,
where he ever shall find a few drops of pure water,
and be girt up anew with the strength that he needs
to go on with his life. For here again reason
is helpless, unable to comfort; she must halt on the
threshold of the thief’s last asylum, even as
she must halt on the threshold of Job’s resignation,
of the love of Marcus Aurelius, of the sacrifice made
by Antigone. She halts, is bewildered, she does
not approve; and yet knows full well that to rise
in revolt were only to combat the light whereof she
is shadow; for amidst all this she is but as one who
stands with the sun full upon him. His shadow
is there at his feet; as he moves, it will follow;
as he rises or stoops, its outline will alter; but
this shadow is all he commands, that he masters, possesses,
of the dazzling light that enfolds him. And so
has reason her being, too, beneath a superior light,
and the shadow cannot affect the calm, unvarying splendour.
Far distant as Marcus Aurelius may be from the traitor,
it is still from the selfsame well that they both
draw the holy water that freshens their soul; and
this well is not to be found in the intellect.
For, strangely enough, it is not in our reason that
moral life has its being; and he who would let reason
govern his life would be the most wretched of men.
There is not a virtue, a beautiful thought, or a generous
deed, but has most of its roots hidden far away from
that which can be understood or explained. Well
might man be proud could he trace every virtue, and
joy, and his whole inward life, to the one thing he
truly possesses, the one thing on which he can dependin
a word, to his reason. But do what he will, the
smallest event that arrives will quickly convince
him that reason is wholly unable to offer him shelter;
for in truth we are beings quite other than merely
reasonable creatures.
44. But if it be not our reason
that chooses what suffering shall bring us, whereby
is the choice then made? By the life we have lived
till then, the life that has moulded our soul.
Wisdom matures but slowly; her fruits shall not quickly
be gathered. If my life has not been as that
of Paulus Aemilius, there shall be no comfort for me
in the thoughts whereby he was consoled, not though
every sage in the world were to come and repeat them
to me. The angels that dry our eyes bear the
form and the features of all we have said and thoughtabove
all, of what we have done, prior to the hour of misfortune.
When Thomas Carlyle (a sage, although somewhat morbid)
lost the wife he had tenderly loved, with whom he
had lived forty years, then did his sorrow too, with
marvellous exactness, become as had been the bygone
life of his love. And therefore was this sorrow
of his majestic and vast; consoling and torturing
alike in the midst of his self-reproach, his regret,
and his tendernessas might be meditation
or prayer on the shore of a gloomy sea. In the
sorrow that floods our heart we have, as it were,
a synthetic presentment of all the days that are gone;
and as these were, so shall our sorrow be poignant,
or tender and gentle. If there be in my life
no noble or generous deeds that memory can bring back
to me, then, at the inevitable moment when memory melts
into tears, must these tears, too, be bereft of all
that is generous or noble. For tears in themselves
have no colour, that they may the better reflect the
past life of our soul; and this reflection becomes
our chastisement or our reward. There is but
one thing that never can turn into suffering, and
that is the good we have done. When we lose one
we love, our bitterest tears are called forth by the
memory of hours when we loved not enough. If
we always had smiled on the one who is gone, there
would be no despair in our grief; and some sweetness
would cling to our tears, reminiscent of virtues and
happiness. For our recollections of veritable
lovewhich indeed is the act of virtue
containing all otherscall from our eyes
the same sweet, tender tears as those most beautiful
hours wherein memory was born. Sorrow is just,
above all; and even as the cast stands ready awaiting
the molten bronze, so is our whole life expectant
of the hour of sorrow, for it is then we receive our
wage.
45. Here, standing close to the
mightiest pillar of destiny’s throne, we may
see once again how restricted her power becomes on
such as surpass her in wisdom. For she is barbarian
still, and many men tower above her. The commonplace
life still supplies her with weapons, which today
are old-fashioned and crude. Her mode of attack,
in exterior life, is as it always has been, as it
was in Oedipus’ days. She shoots like a
blear-eyed bow-man, aiming straight ahead of her; but
if the target be raised somewhat higher than usual,
her arrows fall harmless to earth.
Suffering, sorrow, tears, regretsthese
words, that vary so slightly in meaning, are names
that we give to emotions which in no two men are alike.
If we probe to the heart of these words, these emotions,
we find they are only the track that is left by our
faults; and there where these faults were noble (for
there are noble faults as there are mean or trivial
virtues) our sorrow will be nearer akin to veritable
happiness than the happiness of those whose consciousness
still is confined within narrowest limits. Would
Carlyle have desired to exchange the magnificent sorrow
that flooded his soul, and blossomed so tenderly there,
for the conjugal joys, superficial and sunless, of
his happiest neighbour in Chelsea? And was not
Ernest Renan’s grief, when Henriette, his sister,
died, more grateful to the soul than the absence of
grief in the thousands of others who have no love to
give to a sister? Shall our pity go forth to
him who, at times, will weep on the shore of an infinite
sea, or to the other who smiles all his life, without
cause, alone in his little room? “Happiness,
sorrow”could we only escape from
ourselves for one instant and taste of the hero’s
sadness, would there be many content to return to their
own superficial delights?
Do happiness and sorrow, then, only
exist in ourselves, and that even when they seem to
come from without? All that surrounds us will
turn to angel or devil, according as our heart may
be. Joan of Arc held communion with saints, Macbeth
with witches, and yet were the voices the same.
The destiny whereat we murmur may be other, perhaps,
than we think. She has only the weapons we give
her; she is neither just nor unjust, nor does it lie
in her province to deliver sentence on man. She
whom we take to be goddess, is a disguised messenger
only, come very simply to warn us on certain days
of our life that the hour has sounded at last when
we needs must judge ourselves.
46. Men of inferior degree, it
is true, are not given to judging themselves, and
therefore is it that fate passes judgment upon them.
They are the slaves of a destiny of almost unvarying
sternness, for it is only when man has been judged
by himself that destiny can be transformed. Men
such as these will not master, or alter within them,
the event that they meet; nay, they themselves become
morally transformed by the very first thing that draws
near them. If misfortune befall them, they grovel
before it and stoop down to its level; and misfortune,
with them, would seem always to wear its poorest and
commonest aspect. They see the finger of fate
in every least thing that may happenbe
it choice of profession, a friendship that greets them,
a woman who passes, and smiles. To them chance
and destiny always are one; but chance will be seldom
propitious if accepted as destiny. Hostile forces
at once take possession of all that is vacant within
us, nor filled by the strength of our soul; and whatever
is void in the heart or the mind becomes a fountain
of fatal influence. The Margaret of Goethe and
Ophelia of Shakespeare had perforce to yield meekly
to fate, for they were so feeble that each gesture
they witnessed seemed fate’s own gesture to
them. But yet, had they only possessed some fragment
of Antigone’s strengththe Antigone
of Sophocleswould they not then have transformed
the destinies of Hamlet and Faust as well as their
own? And if Othello had taken Corneille’s
Pauline to wife and not Desdemona, would Desdemona’s
destiny then, all else remaining unchanged, have dared
to come within reach of the enlightened love of Pauline?
Where was it, in body or soul, that grim fatality lurked?
And though the body may often be powerless to add
to its strength, can this ever be true of the soul?
Indeed, the more that we think of it, the clearer
does it become that there could be one destiny only
that might truly be said to triumph over man, the
one that might have the power loudly to cry unto all,
“From this day onward there shall come no more
strength to thy soul, neither strength nor ennoblement.”
But is there a destiny in the world empowered to hold
such language?
47. And yet virtue often is chastised,
and the advent of misfortune hastened, by the soul’s
very strength; for the greater our love may be, the
greater the surface becomes we expose to majestic sorrow;
wherefore none the less does the sage never cease
his endeavours to enlarge this beautiful surface.
Yes, it must be admitted, destiny is not always content
to crouch in the darkness; her ice-cold hands will
at times go prowling in the light, and seize on more
beautiful victims. The tragic name of Antigone
has already escaped me; and there will, doubtless,
be many will say, “She surely fell victim to
destiny, all her great force notwithstanding; and
is she not the instance we long have been seeking
in vain?” It cannot be gainsaid: Antigone
fell into the hands of the ruthless goddess, for the
reason that there lay in her soul three times the
strength of any ordinary woman. She died; for
fate had contrived it so that she had to choose between
death and what seemed to her a sister’s imperative
duty. She suddenly found herself wedged between
death and lovelove of the purest and most
disinterested kind, its object being a shade she would
never behold on earth. And if destiny thus has
enabled to lure her into the murderous angle that duty
and death had formed, it was only because her soul,
that was loftier far than the soul of the others,
saw, stretching before it, the insurmountable barrier
of dutythat her poor sister Ismene could
not see, even when it was shown her. And, at
that moment, as they both stood there on the threshold
of the palace, the same voices spoke to them; Antigone
listening only to the voice from above, wherefore she
died; Ismene unconscious of any save that which came
from belowand she lived. But instil
into Antigone’s soul something of the weakness
that paralysed Ophelia and Margaret, would destiny
then have thought it of service to beckon to death
as the daughter of Oedipus issued from the doorway
of Creon’s palace? It was, therefore, solely
because of the strength of her soul that destiny was
able to triumph. And, indeed, it is this that
consoles the wise and the justthe heroes;
destiny can vanquish them only by the good she compels
them to do. Other men are like cities with hundred
gates, that she finds unguarded and open; but the
upright man is a fortified city, with the one gate
onlyof light; and this gate remains closed
till love be induced to knock, and to crave admission.
Other men she compels to obey her; and destiny, doing
her will, wills nothing but evil; but would she subdue
the upright, she needs must desire noble acts.
Darkness then will no longer enwrap her approach.
The upright man is secure in the light that enfolds
him; and only by a light more radiant still can she
hope to prevail. Destiny then will become more
beautiful still than her victim. Ordinary men
she will place between personal sorrow and the misfortune
of others; but to master the hero or saint, she must
cause him to choose between the happiness of others
and the grief that shall fall on himself. Ordinary
men she lays siege to with the aid of all that is ugly;
against the others she perforce must enlist whatever
is noblest on earth. Against the first she has
thousands of weapons, the very stones in the road
becoming engines of mischief; but the others she can
only attack with one irresistible sword, the gleaming
sword of duty and truth. In Antigone’s
story is found the whole tale of destiny’s empire
on wisdom. Jesus who died for us, Curtius who
leaped into the gulf, Socrates who refused to desist
from his teaching, the sister of charity who yields
up her life to tending the sick, the humble wayfarer
who perishes seeking to rescue his fellows from deathall
these have been forced to choose, all these bear the
mark of Antigone’s glorious wound on their breast.
For truly those who live in the light have their magnificent
perils also; and wisdom has danger for such as shrink
from self-sacrifice, though it may be that they who
shrink from self-sacrifice are perhaps not very wise.
48. Pronounce the word “destiny,”
and in the minds of all men an image arises of gloom
and of terrorof death. In their thoughts
they regard it, instinctively, as the lane that leads
straight to the tomb. Most often, indeed, it
is only the name that they give unto death, when its
hand is not visible yet. It is death that looms
in the future, the shadow of death upon life.
“None can escape his destiny” we often
exclaim when we hear of death lying in wait for the
traveller at the bend of the road. But were the
traveller to encounter happiness instead, we would
never ascribe this to destiny; if we did, we should
have in our mind a far different goddess. And
yet, are not joys to be met with on the highways of
life that are greater than any misfortune, more momentous
even than death? May a happiness not be encountered
that the eye cannot see? and is it not of the nature
of happiness to be less manifest than misfortune,
to become ever less apparent to the eye as it reaches
loftier heights? But to this we refuse to pay
heed. The whole village, the town, will flock
to the spot where some wretched adventure takes place;
but there are none will pause for an instant and let
their eyes rest on a kiss, or a vision of beauty that
gladdens the soul, a ray of love that illumines the
heart. And yet may the kiss be productive of
joy no less great than the pain that follows a wound.
We are unjust; we never associate destiny with happiness;
and if we do not regard it as being inseparable from
death, it is only to connect it with disaster even
greater than death itself.
49. Were I to refer to the destiny
of OEdipus, Joan of Arc, Agamemnon, you would give
not a thought to their lives, but only behold the last
moments of all, the pathway of death. You would
stoutly maintain that their destiny was of the saddest,
for that their end was sad. You forget, however,
that death can never be happy; but nevertheless it
is thus we are given to judging of life. It is
as though death swallowed all; and should accident
suddenly end thirty years Lot unclouded joy, the thirty
years would be hidden away from our eyes by the gloom
of one sorrowful hour.
50. It is wrong to think of destiny
only in connection with death and disaster. When
shall we cease to believe that death, and not life,
is important; that misfortune is greater than happiness?
Why, when we try to sum up a man’s destiny,
keep our eyes fixed only on the tears that he shed,
and never on the smiles of his joy? Where have
we learned that death fixes the value of life, and
not life that of death? We deplore the destiny
of Socrates, Duncart, Antigone, and many others whose
lives were noble; we deplore; their destiny because
their end was sudden and cruel; and we are fain to
admit that misfortune prevails over wisdom and virtue
alike. But, first of all, you yourself are neither
just nor wise if you seek in wisdom and justice aught
else but wisdom and justice alone. And further,
what right have we thus to sum up an entire existence
in the one hour of death? Why conclude, from the
fact that Socrates and Antigone met with unhappy ends,
that it was their wisdom or virtue brought unhappiness
to them? Does death occupy more space in life
than birth? Yet do you not take the sage’s
birth into account as you ponder over his destiny.
Happiness or unhappiness arises from all that we do
from the day of our birth to the day of our death;
and it is not in death, but indeed in the days and
the years that precede it, that we can discover a
man’s true happiness or sorrowin
a word, his destiny. We seem to imagine that
the sage, whose terrible death is written in history,
spent all his life in sad anticipation of the end
his wisdom prepared; whereas in reality, the thought
of death troubles the wise far less than it troubles
the wicked. Socrates had far less cause than
Macbeth to dread an unhappy end. And unhappy as
his death may have been, it at least had not darkened
his life; he had not spent all his days in dying preliminary
deaths, as did the Thane of Cawdor. But it is
difficult for us not to believe that a wound, that
bleeds a few hours, must crumble away into nothingness
all the peace of a lifetime.
51. I do not pretend that destiny
is just, that it rewards the good and punishes the
wicked. What soul that were sure of reward could
ever claim to be good? But we are less just than
destiny even, when it is destiny that we judge.
Our eyes see only the sage’s misfortune, for
misfortune is known to us all; but we see not his happiness,
for to understand the happiness of the wise and the
just whose destinies we endeavour to gauge, we must
needs be possessed of wisdom and justice that shall
be fully equal to theirs. When a man of inferior
soul endeavours to estimate a great sage’s happiness,
this happiness flows through his fingers like water;
yet is it heavy as gold, and as brilliant as gold,
in the hand of a brother sage. For to each is
the happiness given that he can best understand.
The sage’s misfortune may often resemble the
one that befalls other men; but his happiness has
nothing in common with that which he who is not wise
terms happiness. In happiness there are far more
regions unknown than there are in misfortune.
The voice of misfortune is ever the same; happiness
becomes the more silent as it penetrates deeper.
When we put our misfortunes into one
scale of the balance, each of us lays, in the other,
all that he deems to be happiness. The savage
flings feathers, and powder, and alcohol into the scale;
civilised men some gold, a few days of delirium; but
the sage will deposit therein countless things our
eyes cannot seeall his soul, it may be,
and even the misfortune that he will have purified.
52. There is nothing in all the
world more just than happiness, nothing that will
more faithfully adopt the form of our soul, or so carefully
fill the space that our wisdom clings open. Yet
is it most silent of all that there is in the world.
The Angel of Sorrow can speak every languagethere
is not a word but she knows; but the lips of the Angel
of Happiness are sealed, save when she tells of the
savage’s joys. It is hundreds of centuries
past that misfortune was cradled, but happiness seems
even now to have scarcely emerged from its infancy.
There are some men have learned to be happy; why are
there none whose great gladness has urged them to
lift up their voice in the name of the silent Archangel
who has flooded their soul with light? Are we
not almost teaching happiness if we do only speak
of it; invoking it, if we let no day pass without
pronouncing its name? And is it not the first
duty of those who are happy to tell of their gladness
to others? All men can learn to be happy; and
the teaching of it is easy. If you live among
those who daily call blessing on life, it shall not
be long ere you will call blessing on yours.
Smiles are as catching as tears; and periods men have
termed happy, were periods when there existed some
who knew of their happiness. Happiness rarely
is absent; it is we that know not of its presence.
The greatest felicity avails us nothing if we know
not that we are happy; there is more joy in the smallest
delight whereof we are conscious, than in the approach
of the mightiest happiness that enters not into our
soul. There are only too many who think that
what they have cannot be happiness; and therefore is
it the duty of such as are happy, to prove to the
others that they only possess what each man possesses
deep down in the depths of his heart. To be happy
is only to have freed one’s soul from the unrest
of happiness. It were well if, from time to time,
there should come to us one to whom fortune had granted
a dazzling, superhuman felicity, that all men regarded
with envy; and if he were very simply to say to us,
“All is mine that you pray for each day:
I have riches, and youth, and health; I have glory,
and power, and love; and if to-day I am truly able
to call myself happy, it is not on account of the gifts
that fortune has deigned to accord me, but because
I have learned from these gifts to fix my eyes far
above happiness. If my marvellous travels and
victories, my strength and my love, have brought me
the peace and the gladness I sought, it is only because
they have taught me that it is not in them that the
veritable gladness and peace can be found. It
was in myself they existed, before all these triumphs;
and still in myself are they now, after all my achievement;
and I know full well that had but a little more wisdom
been mine, I might have enjoyed all I now enjoy without
the aid of so much good fortune. I know that today
I am happier still than I was yesterday, because I
have learned at last that I stand in no need of good
fortune in order to free my soul, to bring peace to
my thoughts, to enlighten my heart.”
53. Of this the sage is fully
aware, though no superhuman happiness may have descended
upon him. The upright man knows it too, though
he be less wise than the sage, and his consciousness
less fully developed; for an act of goodness or justice
brings with it a kind of inarticulate consciousness
that often becomes more effective, more faithful, more
loving, than the consciousness that springs into being
from the very deepest thought. Acts of this nature
bring, above all, a special knowledge of happiness.
Strive as we may, our loftiest thoughts are always
uncertain, unstable; but the light of a goodly deed
shines steadily on, and is lasting. There are
times when deep thought is no more than merely fictitious
consciousness; but an act of charity, the heroic duty
fulfilledthese are true consciousness;
in other words, happiness in action. The happiness
of Marcus Aurelius, who condones a mortal affront;
of Washington, giving up power when he feared that
his glory was leading his people astraythe
happiness of these will differ by far from that of
some mean-souled, venomous creature who might (if
such a thing may be assumed) by mere chance have discovered
some extraordinary natural law. Long is the road
that leads from the satisfied brain to the heart at
rest, and only such joys will nourish there as are
proof against winter’s storms. Happiness
is a plant that thrives far more readily in moral
than in intellectual life. Consciousnessthe
consciousness of happiness, above allwill
not choose the intellect as a hiding-place for the
treasure it holds most dear. At times it would
almost seem as if all that is loftiest in intellect,
fraught with most comfort, is transformed into consciousness
only when passed through an act of virtue. It
suffices not to discover new truths in the world of
thought or of fact. For ourselves, a truth only
lives from the moment it modifies, purifies, sweetens
something we have in our soul. To be conscious
of moral improvement is of the essence of consciousness.
Some beings there are, of vigorous intellect, whose
intellect never is used to discover a fault, or foster
a feeling of charity. And this happens often
with women. In cases where a man and a woman
have equal intellectual power, the woman will always
devote far less of this power to acquiring moral self-knowledge.
And truly the intellect that aims not at consciousness
is but beating its wings in the void. Loss and
corruption needs must ensue if the force of our brain
be not at once gathered up in the purest vase of our
heart. Nor can such an intellect ever know happiness;
nay, it seems to invite misfortune. For intellect
may be of the loftiest, mightiest, and yet perhaps
never draw near unto joy; but in the soul that is gentle,
and pure, and good, sorrow cannot for ever abide.
And even though the boundary line between intellect
and consciousness be not always as clearly defined
as here we seem to assume, even though a beautiful
thought in itself may be often a goodly actionyet,
none the less will a beautiful thought, that springs
not from noble deed, or wherefrom noble deed shall
not spring, add but little unto our felicity; whereas
a good deed, though it father no thought, will ever
fall like soft bountiful rain on our knowledge of
happiness.
54. “How final must his
farewell to happiness have been,” exclaims Renan,
speaking of the renouncement of Marcus Aurelius“how
final must his farewell to happiness have been, for
him to be capable of such excess! None will ever
know how great was the suffering of that poor, stricken
heart, or the bitterness the waxen brow concealed,
calm always, and even smiling. It is true that
the farewell to happiness is the beginning of wisdom,
and the surest road to happiness. There is nothing
sweeter than the return of joy that follows the renouncement
of joy, as there is nothing more exquisite, of keener,
deeper delight, than the enchantment of the disenchanted.”
In these terms does a sage describe
a sage’s happiness; but is it true that the
happiness of Marcus Aurelius, as of Renan himself,
arose only from the return of joy that followed the
renouncement of joy, and from the enchantment of the
disenchanted? For then were it better that wisdom
be less, that we be the less disenchanted. But
what can the wisdom desire that declares itself thus
disenchanted? Was it not truth that it sought?
and is there a truth that can stifle the love of truth
in the depths of a loyal heart? The truth that
has taught you that man is wicked and nature unjust;
that justice is futile, and love without power, has
indeed taught you nothing if it have not at the same
time revealed a truth that is greater still, one that
throws on these disillusions a light more brilliant,
more ample, than the myriad flickering beams it has
quenched all around you, For there lurks unspeakable
pride, and pride of the poorest kind, in thus declaring
ourselves satisfied because we can find satisfaction
in nothing that is. Such satisfaction, in truth,
is discontent only, too sluggish to lift its head;
and they only are discontented who no longer would
understand.
Does not the man who conceives it
his duty to forswear all happiness renounce something
as well that, as yet, has not turned into happiness?
And besides, what are the joys to which we bid this
somewhat affected farewell? It must surely be
right to discard all happiness injurious to others;
but happiness that injures others will not long wear
the semblance of happiness in the eyes of the sage.
And when his wisdom at length has revealed the profounder
joys, will it not be in all unconsciousness that he
renounces those of lesser worth?
Let us never put faith in the wisdom
or gladness that is based on contempt of a single
existing thing; for contempt and renouncement, its
sickly offspring, offer asylum to none but the weak
and the aged. We have only the right to scorn
a joy when such scorn is wholly unconscious.
But so long as we listen to the voice of contempt or
renouncement, so long as we suffer these to flood our
heart with bitterness, so long must the joy we discard
be a joy that we still desire.
We must beware lest there enter our
soul certain parasitic virtues. And renouncement,
often, is only a parasite. Even if it do not enfeeble
our inward life, it must inevitably bring disquiet.
Just as bees cease from work at the approach of an
intruder into their hive, so will the virtues and
strength of the soul into which contempt or renouncement
has entered, forsake all their tasks, and eagerly flock
round the curious guest that has come in the wake
of pride; for so long as renouncement be conscious,
so long will the happiness found therein have its
origin truly in pride. And he who is bent on renouncement
had best, first of all, forswear the delights of pride,
for these are wholly vain and wholly deceptive.
55. Within reach of all, demanding
neither boldness nor energy, is this “enchantment
of the disenchanted!” But what name shall we
give to the man who renounces that which brought happiness
to him, and rather would surely lose it to-day than
live in fear lest fortune haply deprive him thereof
on the morrow? Is the mission of wisdom only to
peer into the uncertain future, with ear on the stretch
for the footfall of sorrow that never may comebut
deaf to the whirr of the wings of the happiness that
fills all space?
Let us not look to renouncement for
happiness till we have sought it elsewhere in vain.
It is easy to be wise if we be content to regard as
happiness the void that is left by the absence of happiness.
But it was not for unhappiness the sage was created;
and it is more glorious, as well as more human, to
be happy and still to be wise. The supreme endeavour
of wisdom is only to seek in life for the fixed point
of happiness; but to seek this fixed point in renouncement
and farewell to joy, is only to seek it in death.
He who moves not a limb is persuaded, perhaps, he
is wise; but was this the purpose wherefor mankind
was created? Ours is the choicewhether
wisdom shall be the honoured wife of our passions
and feelings, our thoughts and desires, or the melancholy
bride of death. Let the tomb have its stagnant
wisdom, but let there be wisdom also for the hearth
where the fire still burns.
56. It is not by renouncing the
joys that are near us that we shall grow wise; but
as we grow wise we unconsciously abandon the joys that
now are beneath us. Even so does the child, as
years come to him, give up one by one without thinking
the games that have ceased to amuse. And just
as the child learns far more from his play than from
work that is given him, so does wisdom progress far
more quickly in happiness than in misfortune.
It is only one side of morality that unhappiness throws
into light; and the man whom sorrow has taught to be
wise, is like one who has loved and never been loved
in return. There must always be something unknown
to the love whereto no other love has made answer;
and this, too, will remain unknown to him whose wisdom
is born of sorrow.
“Is happiness truly as happy
as people imagine?” was asked of two happy ones
once by a philosopher whom protracted injustice had
saddened. No; it is a thing more desirable far,
but also much less to be envied, than people suppose;
for it is in itself quite other than they can conceive
who have never been perfectly happy. To be gay
is not to be happy, nor will he who is happy always
be gay. It is only the little ephemeral pleasures
that forever are smiling; and they die away as they
smile. But some loftiness once obtained, lasting
happiness becomes no less grave than majestic sorrow.
Wise men have said it were best for us not to be happy,
so that happiness thus might be always the one thing
desired. But how shall the sage, to whom happiness
never has come, be aware that wisdom is the one thing
alone that happiness neither can sadden nor weary?
Those thinkers have learned to love wisdom with a far
more intimate love whose lives have been happy, than
those whose lives have been sad. The wisdom forced
into growth by misfortune is different far from the
wisdom that ripens beneath happiness. The first,
where it seeks to console, must whisper of happiness;
the other tells of itself. He who is sad is taught
by his wisdom that happiness yet may be his; he who
is happy is taught by his wisdom that he may become
wiser still. The discovery of happiness may well
be the great aim of wisdom; and we needs must be happy
ourselves before we can know that wisdom itself contains
all.
57. There are some who are wholly
unable to support the burden of joy. There is
a courage of happiness as well as a courage of sorrow.
It may even be true that permanent happiness calls
for more strength in man than permanent sorrow; for
the heart wherein wisdom is not delights more in the
expectation of that which it has not yet, than in the
full possession of all it has ever desired. He
in whom happiness dwells is amazed at the heart that
finds aliment only in fear or in hope, and that cannot
be nourished on what it possesses, though it possess
all it ever desired.
We often see men who are strong and
morally prudent whom happiness yet overcomes.
Not finding therein all they sought, they do not defend
it, or cling to it, with the energy needful in life.
We must have already acquired some not inconsiderable
wisdom to be undismayed at perceiving that happiness
too has its sorrow, and to be not induced by this sorrow
to think that ours cannot be the veritable happiness.
The most precious gift that happiness brings is the
knowledge that springs up within us that it is not
a thing of mere ecstasy, but a thing that bids us
reflect. It becomes far less rare, far less inaccessible,
from the moment we know that its greatest achievement
is to give to the soul that is able to prize it an
increase of consciousness, which the soul could elsewhere
never have found. To know what happiness means
is of far more importance to the soul of man than
to enjoy it. To be able long to love happiness
great wisdom needs must be ours; but a wisdom still
greater for us to perceive, as we lie in the bosom
of cloudless joy, that the fixed and stable part of
that joy is found in the force which, deep down in
our consciousness, could render us happy still though
misfortune wrapped us around. Do not believe you
are happy till you have been led by your happiness
up to the heights whence itself disappears from your
gaze, but leaving you still, unimpaired, the desire
to live.
58. There are some profound thinkers,
such as Pascal, Schopenhauer, Hello, who seem not
to have been happy, for all that the sense of the
infinite, universal, eternal, was loftily throned in
their soul. But it may well be an error to think
that he who gives voice to the multitude’s sorrow
must himself always be victim to great personal despair.
The horizon of sorrow, surveyed from the height of
a thought that has ceased to be selfish, instinctive,
or commonplace, differs but little from the horizon
of happiness when this last is regarded from the height
of a thought of similar nature, but other in origin.
And after all, it matters but little whether the clouds
be golden or gloomy that yonder float over the plain;
the traveller is glad to have reached the eminence
whence his eye may at last repose on illimitable space.
The sea is not the less marvellous and mysterious to
us though white sails be not for ever flitting over
its surface; and neither tempest nor day that is radiant
and calm is able to bring enfeeblement unto the life
of our soul. Enfeeblement comes through our dwelling,
by night and by day, in the airless room of our cold,
self-satisfied, trivial, ungenerous thoughts, at a
time when the sky all around our abode is reflecting
the light of the ocean.
But there is a difference perhaps
between the sage and the thinker. It may be that
sorrow will steal over the thinker as he stands on
the height he has gained; but the sage by his side
only smilesand this smile is so loyal,
so human and natural, that the humblest creature of
all must needs understand, and will gladly welcome
it to him, as it falls like a flower to the foot of
the mountain. The thinker throws open the road
“which leads from the seen to the unseen;”
the sage throws open the highway that takes us from
that which we love to-day to that which we yet shall
love, and the paths that ascend from that which has
ceased to console to that which, for long time to come,
shall be laden with deep consolation. It is needful,
but not all-sufficient, to have reflected deeply and
boldly on man, and nature, and God; for the profoundest
thought is of little avail if it contain no germ of
comfort. Indeed, it is only thought that the thinker,
as yet, does nor wholly possess; as the other thoughts
are, too, that remain outside our normal, everyday
life. It is easier far to be sad and dwell in
affliction than at once to do what time in the end
will always compel us to do: to shake ourselves
free from affliction. He who spends his days
gloomily, in constant mistrust of his fellows, will
often appear a profounder thinker than the other,
who lives in the faith and honest simplicity wherein
all men should dwell. Is there a man can believe
he has done all it lay in his power to do if, as he
meditates thus, in the name of his brethren, on the
sorrows of life, he hides from themanxious,
perhaps, not to weaken his grandiose picture of sorrowthe
reasons wherefore he accepts life, reasons that must
be decisive, since he himself continues to live?
The thought must be incomplete surely whose object
is not to console. It is easier for you to tell
me the cause of your sorrow than, very simply, to speak
of the deeper, the weightier reasons that induce your
instinct to cling to this life whose distress you
bemoan. Which of us finds not, unsought, many
thousands of reasons for sorrow? It is doubtless
of service that the sage should point out those that
are loftiest, for the loftiest reasons for sorrow
must be on the eve of becoming reasons for gladness
and joy. But reasons that have not within them
these germs of greatness and happinessand
in moral life open spaces abound where greatness and
happiness blendthese are surely not worthy
of mention. Before we can bring happiness to
others, we first must be happy ourselves; nor will
happiness abide within us unless we confer it on others.
If there be a smile upon our lips, those around us
will soon smile too; and our happiness will become
the truer and deeper as we see that these others are
happy. “It is not seemly that I, who, willingly,
have brought sorrow to none, should permit myself
to be sad,” said Marcus Aurelius, in one of
his noblest passages. But are we not saddening
ourselves, and learning to sadden others, if we refuse
to accept all the happiness offered to man?
59. The humble thought that connects
a mere satisfied glance, an ordinary, everyday act
of simple kindness, or an insignificant moment of
happiness, with something eternal, and stable, and
beautiful, is of far greater value, and infinitely
nearer to the mystery of life, than the grand and
gloomy meditation wherein sorrow, love, and despair
blend with death and destiny and the apathetic forces
of nature. Appearances often deceive us.
Hamlet, bewailing his fate on the brink of the gulf,
seems profounder, imbued with more passion, than Antoninus
Pius, whose tranquil gaze rests on the self-same forces,
but who accepts them and questions them calmly, instead
of recoiling in horror and calling down curses upon
them. Our slightest gesture at nightfall seems
more momentous by far than all we have done in the
day; but man was created to work in the light, and
not to burrow in darkness.
60. The smallest consoling idea
has a strength of its own that is not to be found
in the most magnificent plaint, the most exquisite
expression of sorrow. The vast, profound thought
that brings with it nothing but sadness is energy
burning its wings in the darkness to throw light on
the walls of its prison; but the timidest thought of
hope, or of cheerful acceptance of inevitable law,
in itself already is action in search of a foothold
wherefrom to take flight into life. It cannot
be harmful for us to acknowledge at times that action
begins with reality only, though our thoughts be never
so large and disinterested and admirable in themselves.
’For all that goes to build up what is truly
our destiny is contained in those of our thoughts
which, hurried along by the mass of ideas still obscure,
indistinct, incomplete, have had strength sufficientor
been forced, it may beto turn into facts,
into gestures, into feelings and habits. We do
not imply by this that the other thoughts should be
neglected. Those that surround our actual life
may perhaps be compared with an army besieging a city.
The city once taken, the bulk of the troops would probably
not be permitted to pass through the gates. Admission
would be doubtless withheld from the irregular part
of the armybarbarians, mercenaries, all
those, in a word, whose natural tendencies would lead
them to drunkenness, pillage, or bloodshed. And
it might also very well happen that fully two-thirds
of the troops would have taken no part in the final
decisive battle. But there often is value in forces
that appear to be useless; and the city would evidently
not have yielded to panic and thrown open her gates,
had the well-disciplined force at the foot of the
walls not been flanked by the hordes in the valley.
So is it in moral life, too. Those thoughts are
not wholly vain that have been unable to touch our
actual life; they have helped on, supported, the others;
yet is it these others alone that have fully accomplished
their mission And therefore does it behove us to have
in our service, drawn up in front of the crowded ranks
of our sad and bewildered thoughts, a group of ideas
more human and confident, ready at all times to penetrate
vigorously into life.
61. Even when our endeavour to
emerge from reality is due to the purest desire for
immaterial good, one gesture must still be worth more
than a thousand intentions; nor is this that intentions
are valueless, but that the least gesture of goodness,
or courage, or justice, makes demands upon us far
greater than a thousand lofty intentions. Chiromantists
pretend that the whole of our life is engraved on our
palm; our life, according to them, being a certain
number of actions which imprint ineffaceable marks
on our flesh, before or after fulfilment; whereas
not a trace will be left by either thoughts or intentions.
If I have for many long days cherished projects of
murder or treachery, heroism or sacrifice, my hand
will tell nothing of these; but if I have killed some
oneinvoluntarily perhaps, imagining he
was about to attack me; or if I have rescued a child
from the flames that enwrapped itmy hand
will bear, all my life, the infallible sign of love
or of murder. Chiromancy maybe delusion or notit
matters but little; here we are concerned with the
great moral truth that underlies this distinction.
The place that I fill in the universe will never be
changed by my thought; I shall be as I was to the day
of my death; but my actions will almost invariably
move me forwards or backwards in the hierarchy of
man. Thought is a solitary, wandering, fugitive
force, which advances towards us today and perhaps
on the morrow will vanish, whereas every deed presupposes
a permanent army of ideas and desires which have,
after lengthy effort, secured foot-hold in reality.
62. But we find ourselves here
far away from the noble Antigone and the eternal problem
of unproductive virtue. It is certain that destinyunderstood
in the ordinary sense of the word as meaning the road
that leads only to deathis wholly disregardful
of virtue. This is the gulf, to which all systems
of morality must come, as to a central reservoir,
to be purified or troubled for ever; and here must
each man decide whether he will justify fate or condemn
it. Antigone’s sacrifice may well be regarded
as the type of all such as are made in the cause of
duty. Do we not all of us know of heroic deeds
whose reward has been only misfortune? A friend
of my own, one day, as he lay on the bed he was never
to leave save for that other one only which is eternal,
pointed out to me, one after the other, the different
stratagems fate had contrived to lure him to the distant
city, where the draught of poisonous water awaited
him that he was to swallow, wherefrom he must die.
Strangely clear were the countless webs that destiny
had spun round this life; and the most trivial event
seemed endowed with marvellous malice and forethought.
Yet had my friend journeyed forth to that city in
fulfilment of one of those duties that only the saint,
or the hero, the sage, detects on the horizon of conscience.
What can we say? But let us leave this point for
the moment, to return to it later. My friend,
had he lived, would on the morrow have gone to another
city, called thither by another duty; nor would he
have paused to inquire whether it was indeed duty that
summoned him. There are beings who do thus obey
the commands that their heart whispers low. They
fret not at fortune’s injustice; they care not
though virtue be thankless; theirs it is only to fight
the injustice of men, which is the only injustice
whereof they, as yet, seem aware.
Ought we never to hesitate, then?
and is our duty most faithfully done when we ourselves
are wholly unconscious that this thing that we do is
a duty? Is it most essential of all that we should
attain a height whence duty no longer is looked on
as the choice of our noblest feelings, but as the
silent necessity of all the nature within us?
63. There are some who wait and
question themselves, who ponder, consider, and then
at length decide. They too are right, for it matters
but little whether the duty fulfilled be result of
instinct or intellect. The gestures of instinct
will often recall the delicate, naïve and vague, unexpected
beauty that clings to the child’s least movement,
and touches us deeply; but the gestures of matured
resolve have a beauty, too, of their own, more earnest
and statelier, stronger. It is given to very
few hearts to be naively perfect, nor should we go
seek in them for the laws of duty. And besides,
there is many a sober-hued duty that instinct will
fail to perceive, that yet will be clearly espied
by mature resolution, bereft though this be of illusion;
and man’s moral value is doubtless established
by the number of duties he sees and sets forth to
accomplish.
It is well that the bulk of mankind
should listen to the instinct that prompts them to
sacrifice self on the altar of duty, and that without
too close self-questioning; for long must the questioning
be ere consciousness will give forth the same answer
as instinct. And those who do thus close their
eyes, and in all meekness follow their instinct, are
in truth following the light that is borne at their
head, though they know it not, see it not, by the
best of their ancestors. But still this is not
the ideal; and he who gives up the least thing of
all for the sake of his brother, well knowing what
it is he gives up and wherefore he does it, stands
higher by far in the scale of morality than the other,
who flings away life without throwing one glance behind.
64. In this world there are thousands
of weak, noble creatures who fancy that sacrifice
always must be the last word of duty; thousands of
beautiful souls that know not what should be done,
and seek only to yield up their life, holding that
to be virtue supreme. They are wrong; supreme
virtue consists in the knowledge of what should be
done, in the power to decide for ourselves whereto
we should offer our life. The duty each holds
to be his is by no means his permanent duty. The
paramount duty of all is to throw our conception of
duty into clearest possible light. The word duty
itself will often contain far more error and moral
indifference than virtue. Clytemnestra devoted
her life to revengeshe murdered her husband
for that he had slain Iphigenia; Orestes sacrificed
his life in avenging Agamemnon’s death on Clytemnestra.
And yet it has only needed a sage to pass by, saying,
“pardon your enemies,” for all duties of
vengeance to be banished for ever from the conscience
of man. And so may it one day suffice that another
sage shall pass by for many a duty of sacrifice too
to be exiled. But in the meanwhile there are
certain ideas that prevail on renouncement, resignation,
and sacrifice, that are far more destructive to the
most beautiful moral forces of man than great vices,
or even than crimes.
65. There are some occasions
in life, inevitable and of general bearing, that demand
resignation, which is necessary then, and good; but
there are many occasions when we still are able to
fight; and at such times resignation is no more than
veiled helplessness, idleness, ignorance. So
is it with sacrifice too, which indeed is most often
the withered arm resignation still shakes in the void.
There is beauty in simple self-sacrifice when its
hour has come unsought, when its motive is happiness
of others; but it cannot be wise, or of use to mankind,
to make sacrifice the aim of one’s life, or
to regard its achievement as the magnificent triumph
of the spirit over the body. (And here let us add
that infinitely too great importance is generally ascribed
to the triumph of spirit over body, these pretended
triumphs being most often the total defeat of life.)
Sacrifice may be a flower that virtue will pluck on
its road, but it was not to gather this flower that
virtue set forth on its travels. It is a grave,
error to think that the beauty of soul is most clearly
revealed by the eager desire for sacrifice; for the
soul’s fertile beauty resides in its consciousness,
in the elevation and power of its life. There
are some, it is true, that awake from their sleep
at the call of sacrifice only; but these lack the
strength and the courage to seek other forms of moral
existence. It is, as a rule, far easier to sacrifice
selfto give up, that is, our moral existence
to the first one who chooses to take itthan
to fulfil our spiritual destiny, to accomplish, right
to the end, the task for which we were created.
It is easier far, as a rule, to die morally, nay, even
physically, for others, than to learn how best we should
live for them. There are too many beings who
thus lull to sleep all initiative, personal life,
and absorb themselves wholly in the idea that they
are prepared and ready for sacrifice. The consciousness
that never succeeds in travelling beyond this idea,
that is satisfied ever to seek an occasion for giving
all that which it has, is a consciousness whose eyes
are sealed, and that crouches be-numbed at the foot
of the mountain. There is beauty in the giving
of self, and indeed it is only by giving oneself that
we do, at the end, begin to possess ourselves somewhat;
but if all that we some day shall give to our brethren
is the desire to give them ourselves, then are we
surely preparing a gift of most slender value.
Before giving, let us try to acquire; for this last
is a duty where from we are not relieved by the fact
of our giving. Let us wait till the hour of sacrifice
sounds; till then, each man to his work. The
hour will sound at last; but let us not waste all our
time in seeking it on the dial of life.
66. There are many ways of sacrifice;
and I speak not here of the self-sacrifice of the
strong, who know, as Antigone knew, how to yield themselves
up when destiny, taking the form of their brothers’
manifest happiness, calls upon them to abandon their
own happiness and their life. I speak of the
sacrifice here that is made by the feeble; that leans
for support, with childish content, on the staff of
its own inanitythat is as an old blind
nurse, who would rock us in the palsied arms of renouncement
and useless suffering. On this point let us note
what John Ruskin says, one of the best thinkers of
our time: “The will of God respecting us
is that we shall live by each other’s happiness
and life; not by each other’s misery or death.
A child may have to die for its parents; but the purpose
of Heaven is that it shall rather live for them; that
not by sacrifice, but by its strength, its joy, its
force of being, it shall be to them renewal of strength;
and as the arrow in the hand of the giant. So
it is in all other right relations. Men help
each other by their joy, not by their sorrow.
They are not intended to slay themselves for each
other, but to strengthen themselves for each other.
And among the many apparently beautiful things which
turn, through mistaken use, to utter evil, I am not
sure but that the thoughtlessly meek and self-sacrificing
spirit of good men must be named as one of the fatallest.
They have so often been taught that there is a virtue
in mere suffering, as such . . . that they accept
pain and defeat as if these were their appointed portion;
never understanding that their defeat is not the less
to be mourned because it is more fatal to their enemies
than to them.”
67. You are told you should love
your neighbour as yourself; but if you love yourself
meanly, childishly, timidly, even so shall you love
your neighbour. Learn therefore to love yourself
with a love that is wise and healthy, that is large
and complete. This is less easy than it would
seem. There is more active charity in the egoism
of a strenuous clairvoyant soul than in all the devotion
of the soul that is helpless and blind. Before
you exist for others it behoves you to exist for yourself;
before giving, you first must acquire. Be sure
that, if deeply considered, more value attaches to
the particle of consciousness gained than to the gift
of your entire unconsciousness. Nearly all the
great things of this world have been done by men who
concerned themselves not at all with ideas of self-sacrifice.
Plato’s thoughts flew onhe paused
not to let his tears fall with the tears of the mourners
in Athens; Newton pursued his experiments calmly, nor
left them to search for objects of pity or sorrow;
and Marcus Aurelius above all (for here we touch on
the most frequent and dangerous form of self-sacrifice)
Marcus Aurelius essayed not to dim the brightness of
his own soul that he might confer happiness on the
inferior soul of Faustina. And if this was right
in the lives of these men, of Plato and Newton and
Marcus Aurelius, it is equally right in the life of
every soul; for each soul has, in its sphere, the
same obligations to self as the soul of the greatest.
We should tell ourselves, once and for all, that it
is the first duty of the soul to become as happy, complete,
independent, and great as lies in its power.’
Herein is no egoism, or pride. To become effectually
generous and sincerely humble there must be within
us a confident, tranquil, and clear comprehension of
all that we owe to ourselves. To this end we
may sacrifice even the passion for sacrifice; for
sacrifice never should be the means of ennoblement,
but only the sign of our being ennobled.
68. Let us be ready to offer,
when necessity beckons, our wealth, and our time,
and our life, to our less fortunate brethren, making
them thus an exceptional gift of a few exceptional
hours; but the sage is not bound to neglect his happiness,
and all that environs his life, in sole preparation
for these few exceptional hours of greater or lesser
devotion. The truest morality tells us to cling,
above all, to the duties that return every day, to
acts of inexhaustible brotherly kindness. And,
thus considered, we find that in the everyday walk
of life the solitary thing we can ever distribute
among those who march by our side, be they joyful
or sad, is the confidence, strength, the freedom and
peace, of our soul. Let the humblest of men, therefore,
never cease to cherish and lift up his soul, even as
though he were fully convinced that this soul of his
should one day be called to console or gladden a God.
When we think of preparing our soul, the preparation
should never be other than befits a mission divine.
In this domain only, and on this condition, can man
truly give himself, can there be pre-eminent sacrifice.
And think you that when the hour sounds the gift of
a Socrates or Marcus Aureliuswho lived
many lives, for many a time had they compassed their
whole life arounddo you think such a gift
is not worth a thousand times more than what would
be given by him who had never stepped over the threshold
of consciousness? And if God there be, will He
value sacrifice only by the weight of the blood in
our body; and the blood of the heartits
virtue, its knowledge of self, its moral existencedo
you think this will all go for nothing?
69. It is not by self-sacrifice
that loftiness comes to the soul; but as the soul
becomes loftier, sacrifice fades out of sight, as the
flowers in the valley disappear from the vision of
him who toils up the mountain. Sacrifice is a
beautiful token of unrest; but unrest should not be
nurtured within us for sake of itself. To the
soul that is slowly awakening all appears sacrifice;
but few things indeed are so called by the soul that
at last lives the life whereof self-denial, pity,
devotion, are no longer indispensable roots, but only
invisible flowers. For in truth too many do thus
feel the need of destroyingthough it be
without causea happiness, love, or a hope
that is theirs, thereby to obtain clearer vision of
self in the light of the consuming flame. It
is as though they held in their hand a lamp of whose
use they know nothing; as though, when the darkness
comes on, and they are eager for light, they scatter
its substance abroad on the fire of the stranger.
Let us beware lest we act as he did
in the fable, who stood watch in the lighthouse, and
gave to the poor in the cabins about him the oil of
the mighty lanterns that served to illumine the sea.
Every soul in its sphere has charge of a lighthouse,
for which there is more or less need. The humblest
mother who allows her whole life to be crushed, to
be saddened, absorbed, by the less important of her
motherly duties, is giving her oil to the poor; and
her children will suffer, the whole of their life,
from there not having been, in the soul of their mother,
the radiance it might have acquired. The immaterial
force that shines in our heart must shine, first of
all, for itself; for on this condition alone shall
it shine for the others as well; but see that you
give not away the oil of your lamp, though your lamp
be never so small; let your gift be the flame, its
crown.
70. In the soul that is noble
altruism must, without doubt, be always the centre
of gravity; but the weak soul is apt to lose itself
in others, whereas it is in others that the strong
soul discovers itself. Here we have the essential
distinction. There is a thing that is loftier
still than to love our neighbour as we love ourselves;
it is to love ourselves in our neighbour. Some
souls there are whom goodness walks before, as there
are others that goodness follows. Let us never
forget that, in communion of soul, the most generous
by no means are they who believe they are constantly
giving. A strenuous soul never ceases to take,
though it be from the poorest; a weak soul always is
giving, even to those that have most; but there is
a manner of giving which truly is only the gesture
of powerless greed; and we should find, it may be,
if reckoning were kept by a God, that in taking from
others we give, and in giving we take away. Often
indeed will it so come about that the very first ray
of enlightenment will descend on the commonplace soul
the day it has met with another which took all that
it had to give.
71. Why not admit that it is
not our paramount duty to weep with all those who
are weeping, to suffer with all who are sad, to expose
our heart to the passer-by for him to caress or stab?
Tears and suffering and wounds are helpful to us only
when they do not discourage our life. Let us
never forget that whatever our mission may be in this
world, whatever the aim of our efforts and hopes,
and the result of our joys and our sorrows, we are,
above all, the blind custodians of life. Absolutely,
wholly certain is that one thing only; it is there
that we find the only fixed point of human morality.
Life has been given usfor a reason we
know notbut surely not for us to enfeeble
it, or carelessly fling it away. For it is a
particular form of life that we represent on this
planetthe life of feeling and thought;
whence it follows perhaps that all that inclines to
weaken the ardour of feeling and thought is, in its
essence, immoral. Our task let it be then to
foster this ardour, to enhance and embellish it; let
us constantly strive to acquire deeper faith in the
greatness of man, in his strength and his destiny;
or, we might equally say, in his bitterness, weakness,
and wretchedness; for to be loftily wretched is no
less soul-quickening than it is to be loftily happy.
After all, it matters but little whether it be man
or the universe that we admire, so long as something
appear truly admirable to us, and exalt our sense of
the infinite. Every new star that is found in
the sky will lend of its rays to the passions, and
thoughts, and the courage, of man. Whatever of
beauty we see in all that surrounds us, within us
already is beautiful; whatever we find in ourselves
that is great and adorable, that do we find too in
others. If my soul, on awaking this morning, was
cheered, as it dwelt on its love, by a thought that
drew near to a Goda God, we have said,
who is doubtless no more than the loveliest desire
of our soulthen shall I behold this same
thought astir in the beggar who passes my window the
moment thereafter; and I shall love him the more for
that I understand him the better. And let us
not think that love of this kind can be useless; for
indeed, if one day we shall know the thing that has
to be done, it will only be thanks to the few who love
in this fashion, with an ever-deepening love.
From the conscious and infinite love must the true
morality spring, nor can there be greater charity than
the effort to ennoble our fellows. But I cannot
ennoble you if I have not become noble myself; I have
no admiration to give you if there be naught in myself
I admire. If the deed I have done be heroic, its
truest reward will be my conviction that of an equal
deed you are capable too; this conviction ever will
tend to become more spontaneous within me, and more
unconquerable. Every thought that quickens my
heart brings quickening, too, to the love and respect
that I have for mankind. As I rise aloft, you
rise with me. But if, the better to love you,
I deem it my duty to tear off the wings from my love,
your love being wingless as yet; then shall I have
added in vain to the plaints and the tears in the
valley, but brought my own love thereby not one whit
nearer the mountain. Our love should always be
lodged on the highest peak we can attain. Let
our love not spring from pity when it can be born
of love; let us not forgive for charity’s sake
when justice offers forgiveness; nor let us try to
console there where we can respect. Let our one
never-ceasing care be to better the love that we offer
our fellows. One cup of this love that is drawn
from the spring on the mountain is worth a hundred
taken from the stagnant well of ordinary charity.
And if there be one whom you no longer can love because
of the pity you feel, or the tears that he sheds; and
if he ignore to the end that you love him because
you ennobled him at the same time you ennobled yourself,
it matters but little after all; for you have done
what you held to be best, and the best is not always
most useful. Should we not invariably act in
this life as though the God whom our heart desires
with its highest desire were watching our every action?
72. In a terrible catastrophe
that took place but a short time ago, destiny afforded yet another, and perhaps
the most startling instance of what it pleases men
to term her injustice, her blindness, or her irresponsibility.
She seemed to have singled out for especial chastisement
the solitary external virtue that reason has left usour
love for our fellow-man. There must have been
some moderately righteous men amongst the victims,
and it seems almost certain that there was at least
one whose virtue was wholly disinterested and sincere.
It is the presence of this one truly good man that
warrants our asking, in all its simplicity, the terrible
question that rises to our lips. Had he not been
there we might have tried to believe that this act
of seemingly monstrous injustice was in reality composed
of particles of sovereign justice. We might have
whispered to ourselves that what they termed charity,
out yonder, was perhaps only the arrogant flower of
permanent injustice.
We seem unwilling to recognise the
blindness of the external forces, such as air, fire,
water, the laws of gravity and others, with which we
must deal and do battle. The need is heavy upon
us to find excuses for fate; and even when blaming
her, we seem to be endeavouring still to explain the
causes of her past and her future action, conscious
the while of a feeling of pained surprise, as though
a man we valued highly had done some dreadful deed.
We love to idealise destiny, and are wont to credit
her with a sense of justice loftier far than our own;
and however great the injustice whereof she may have
been guilty, our confidence will soon flow back to
her, the first feeling of dismay over; for in our
heart we plead that she must have reasons we cannot
fathom, that there must be laws we cannot divine.
The gloom of the world would crush us were we to dissociate
morality from fate. To doubt the existence of
this high, protecting justice and virtue, would seem
to us to be denying the existence of all justice and
of all virtue.
We are no longer able to accept the
narrow morality of positive religion, which entices
with reward and threatens with punishment; and yet
we are apt to forget that, were fate possessed of the
most rudimentary sense of justice, our conception
of a lofty, disinterested morality would fade into
thin air. What merit in being just ourselves
if we be not convinced of the absolute injustice of
fate? We no longer believe in the ideals once
held by saints, and we are confident that a wise God
will hold of as little account the duty done through
hope of recompense, as the evil done for sake of gain;
and this even though the recompense hoped for be nothing
but the self-ensuing peace of mind. We say that
God, who must be at least as high as the highest thoughts
He has implanted in the best of men, will withhold
His smile from those who have desired but to please
Him; and that they only who have done good for the
sake of good and as though He existed not, they only
who have loved virtue more than they loved God Himself,
shall be allowed to stand by His side. And yet,
and for all this, no sooner does the event confront
us, than we discover that we still are guided by the
“moral maxims” of our childhood.
Of more avail would be a “List of chastised
virtues.” The soul that is quick with life
would find its profit therein; the cause of virtue
would gain in vigour and in majesty. Let us not
forget that it is from the very nonmorality of destiny
that a nobler morality must spring into life; for
here, as everywhere, man is never so strong with his
own native strength as when he realises that he stands
entirely alone. As we consider the crowning injustice
of fate, it is the negation of high moral law that
disturbs us; but from this negation there at once
arises a moral law that is higher still. He who
no longer believes in reward or punishment must do
good for the sake of good. Even though a moral
law seem on the eve of disappearing, we need have
no cause for disquiet; its place will be speedily filled
by a law that is greater still. To attribute morality
to fate is but to lessen the purity of our ideal;
to admit the injustice of fate is to throw open before
us the ever-widening fields of a still loftier morality.
Let us not think virtue will crumble, though God Himself
seem unjust. Where shall the virtue of man find
more everlasting foundation than in the seeming injustice
of God?
73. Let us not cavil, therefore,
at nature’s indifference to the sage. It
is only because we are not yet wise enough that this
indifference seems strange; for the first duty of
wisdom is to throw into light the humbleness of the
place in the universe that is filled by man.
Within his sphere he seems of importance,
as the bee in its cell of honey; but it were idle
to suppose that a single flower the more will blossom
in the fields because the queen bee has proved herself
a heroine in the hive. We need not fear that
we depreciate ourselves when we extol the universe.
Whether it be ourselves or the entire world that we
consider great, still will there quicken within our
soul the sense of the infinite, which is of the life-blood
of virtue. What is an act of virtue that we should
expect such mighty reward? It is within ourselves
that reward must be found, for the law of gravitation
will not swerve. They only who know not what
goodness is are ever clamouring for the wage of goodness.
Above all, let us never forget that an act of goodness
is of itself always an act of happiness. It is
the flower of a long inner life of joy and contentment;
it tells of peaceful hours and days on the sunniest
heights of our soul. No reward coming after the
event can compare with the sweet reward that went with
it. The upright man who perished in the catastrophe
I mentioned was there because his soul had found a
peace and strength in virtue that not happiness, love,
or glory could have given him. Were the flames
to retreat before such men, were the waters to open
and death to hesitate, what were righteousness or
heroism then? Would not the true happiness of
virtue be destroyed? virtue that is happy because
it is noble and pure, that is noble and pure because
it desires no reward? There may be human joy
in doing good with definite purpose, but they who do
good expecting nothing in return know a joy that is
divine. Where we do evil our reasons mostly are
known to us, but our good deed becomes the purer for
our ignorance of its motive. Would we know how
to value the righteous man, we have but to question
him as to the motives of his righteousness. He
will probably be the most truly righteous who is least
ready with his answer. Some may suppose that as
intellect widens many a motive for heroism will be
lost to the soul; but it should be borne in mind that
the wider intellect brings with it an ideal of heroism
loftier and more disinterested still. And this
much at least is certain: he who thinks that
virtue stands in need of the approval of destiny or
of worlds, has not yet within him the veritable sense
of virtue. Truly to act well we must do good
because of our craving for good, a more intimate knowledge
of goodness being all we expect in return. “With
no witness save his heart alone,” said St. Just.
In the eyes of a God there must surely be marked distinction
between the soul of the man who believes that the
rays of a virtuous deed shall shine through furthest
space, and the soul of the other who knows they illumine
his heart alone. There may be greater momentary
strength in the overambitious truth, but the strength
that is brought by the humble human truth is far more
earnest and patient. Is it wiser to be as the
soldier who imagines that each blow he strikes brings
victory nearer, or as the other who knows his little
account in the combat but still fights sturdily on?
The upright man would scorn to deceive his neighbour,
but is ever unduly inclined to regard some measure
of self-deception as inseparable from his ideal.
If there were profit in virtue, then
would the noblest of men be compelled to seek happiness
elsewhere; and God would destroy their main object
in life were He to reward them often. Nothing
is indispensable, perhaps, or even necessary; and
it may be that if the joy of doing good for sake of
good were taken from the soul, it would find other,
purer joys; but in the meantime, it is the most beautiful
joy we know, therefore let us respect it. Let
us not resent the misfortunes that sometimes befall
virtue, lest we at the same time disturb the limpid
essence of its happiness. The soul that has this
happiness dreams no more of reward, than others expect
punishment because of their wickedness. They
only are ever clamouring for justice who know it not
in their lives.
74. There is wisdom in the Hindu
saying: “Work as they work, who are ambitious.
Respect life, as they respect it who desire it.
Be happy, as they are happy who live for happiness
alone.”
And this is indeed the central point
of human wisdomto act as though each deed
must bear wondrous, everlasting, fruit, and yet to
realise the insignificance of a just action before
the universe; to grasp the disproportion of things,
and yet to march onwards as though the proportions
were established by man; to keep our eyes fixed on
the great sphere, and ourselves to move in the little
sphere with as much confidence and earnestness, with
as much assurance and satisfaction, as though the
great sphere were contained within it.
Is there need of illusion to keep
alive our desire for good? then must this desire stand
confessed as foreign to the nature of man. It
is a mistake to imagine that the heart will long cherish
within it the ideas that reason has banished; but
within the heart there is much that reason may take
to itself. And at last the heart becomes the refuge
to which reason is apt to fly, ever more and more
simply, each time that the night steals upon it; for
it is to the heart as a young, clairvoyant girl, who
still at times needs advice from her blind, but smiling,
mother. There comes a moment in life when moral
beauty seems more urgent, more penetrating, than intellectual
beauty; when all that the mind has treasured must
be bathed in the greatness of soul, lest it perish
in the sandy desert, forlorn as a river that seeks
in vain for the sea.
75. But let us exaggerate nothing
when dealing with wisdom, though it be wisdom itself.
The external forces, we know, will not yield to the
righteous man; but still he is absolute lord of most
of the inner powers; and these are for ever spinning
the web of nearly all our happiness and sorrow.
We have said elsewhere that the sage, as he passes
by, intervenes in countless dramas. Indeed his
mere presence suffices to arrest most of the calamities
that arise from error or evil. They cannot approach
him, or even those who are near him. A chance
meeting with creature endowed with simple and loving
wisdom has stayed the hands of men who else had committed
countless acts of folly or wickedness; for in life
most characters are subordinate, and it is chance
alone that determines whether the track which they
are to follow shall be that of suffering or peace.
The atmosphere around Jean-Jacques Rousseau was heavy
with lamentation and treachery, delirium, deceit,
and cunning; whereas Jean Paul moved in the midst of
loyalty and nobility, the centre of peace and love.
We subdue that in others which we have learned to
subdue in ourselves. Around the upright man there
is drawn a wide circle of peace, within which the
arrows of evil soon cease to fall; nor have his fellows
the power to inflict moral suffering upon him.
For indeed if our tears can flow because of our enemies’
malice, it is only because we ourselves would fain
make our enemies weep. If the shafts of envy
can wound and draw blood, it is only because we ourselves
have shafts that we wish to throw; if treachery can
wring a groan from us, we must be disloyal ourselves,
Only those weapons can wound the soul that it has not
yet sacrificed on the altar of Love.
76. The dramas of virtue are
played on a stage whose mysteries not even the wisest
can fathom. It is only as the last word is spoken
that the curtain is raised for an instant; we know
nothing of all that preceded, of the brightness or
gloom that enwrapped it. But of one thing at least
the just man may be certain; it will be in an act of
charity, or justice, that his destiny will meet him
face to face. The blow must inevitably find him
prepared, in a state of grace, as the Christian calls
it; in other words, in a state of inner happiness.
And that in itself bars the door on evil destiny within
us, and closes most of the gates by which external
misfortune can enter. As our conception of duty
and happiness gains in dignity, so does the sway of
moral suffering become the more restricted and purer.
And is not moral suffering the most tyrannical weapon
in the armoury of destiny? Our happiness mainly
depends on the freedom that reigns within us; a freedom
that widens with every good deed, and contracts beneath
acts of evil. Not metaphorically, but literally,
does Marcus Aurelius free himself each time he discovers
a new truth in indulgence, each time that he pardons,
each time he reflects. Still less of a metaphor
is it to declare that Macbeth enchains himself anew
with every fresh crime. And if this be true of
the great crimes of kings and the virtues of heroes,
it is no less true of the humblest faults and most
hidden virtues of ordinary life. Many a youthful
Marcus Aurelius is still about us; many a Macbeth,
who never stirs from his room. However imperfect
our conception of virtue, still let us cling to it;
for a moment’s forgetfulness exposes us to all
the malignant forces from without. The simplest
lie to myself, buried though it may be in the silence
of my soul, may yet be as dangerous to my inner liberty
as an act of treachery on the marketplace. And
from the moment that my inner liberty is threatened,
destiny prowls around my external liberty as stealthily
as a beast of prey that has long been tracking its
victim.
77. Can we conceive a situation
in life wherein a man who is truly wise and noble
can be made to suffer as profoundly as the man who
follows evil? In this world it is far more certain
that vice will be punished, than that virtue will
meet with reward; yet we must bear in mind that it
is the habit of crime to shriek aloud beneath its punishment,
whereas virtue rewards itself in the silence that is
the walled garden of its happiness. Evil drags
horrid catastrophe behind it; but an act of virtue
is only a silent offering to the profoundest laws of
life; and therefore, doubtless, does the balance of
mighty justice seem more ready to incline beneath
deeds of darkness than beneath those of light.
But if we can scarcely believe that “happiness
in crime” be possible, have we more warrant
for faith in the “unhappiness of virtue”?
We know that the executioner can stretch Spinoza on
the rack, and that terrible disease will spare Antoninus
Pius no more than Goneril or Regan; but pain such
as this belongs to the animal, not the human, side
of man. Wisdom has indeed sent science, the youngest
of her sisters, into the realm of destiny, with the
mission to bring the zone of physical suffering within
ever-narrowing limits; but there are inaccessible
regions within that realm, where disaster ever will
rule. Some stricken ones there will always be,
victims to irreducible injustice; and yet will the
true wisdom, in the midst of its sorrow, only be fortified
thereby, only gain in self-reliance and humanity all
that it, may lose in more mystic qualities. We
become truly just only when it is finally borne home
to us that we must search within ourselves for our
model of justice. Again, it is the injustice
of destiny that restores man to his place in the universe.
It is not well that he should for ever be pasting
anxious glances about him, like the child that has
strayed from its mother’s side. Nor need
we believe that these disillusions must necessarily
give rise to moral discouragement; for the truth that
seems discouraging does in reality only transform
the courage of those strong enough to accept it; and,
in any event, a truth that disheartens, because it
is true, is still of far more value than the most
stimulating of falsehoods. But indeed no truth
can discourage, whereas much that passes as courage
only bears the semblance thereof. The thing that
enfeebles the weak will but help to strengthen the
strong. “Do you remember the day,”
wrote a woman to her lover, “when we sat together
by the window that looked on to the sea, and watched
the meek procession of white-sailed ships as they
followed each other into harbour? . . . Ah! how
that day comes back to me! . . . Do you remember
that one ship had a sail that was nearly black, and
that she was the last to come in? And do you
remember, too, that the hour of separation was upon
us, and that the arrival of the last boat of all was
to be our signal for departure? We might perhaps
have found cause for sadness in the gloomy sail that
fluttered at her mast; but we who loved each other
had ‘accepted’ life, and we only smiled
as we once more recognised the kinship of our thoughts.”
Yes, it is thus we should act; and though we cannot
always smile as the black sail heaves in sight, yet
is it possible for us to find in our life something
that shall absorb us to the exclusion of sadness,
as her love absorbed the woman whose words I have
quoted. Complaints of injustice grow less frequent
as the brain and the heart expand. It is well
to remind ourselves that in this world, whose fruit
we are, all that concerns us must necessarily be more
conformable with our existence than the most beneficent
law of our imagination. The time has arrived
perhaps when man must learn to place the centre of
his joys and pride elsewhere than within himself.
As this idea takes firmer root within us, so do we
become more conscious of our helplessness beneath
its overwhelming force; yet is it at the same time
borne home to us that of this force we ourselves form
part; and even as we writhe beneath it, we are compelled
to admire, as the youthful Telemachus admired the
power of his father’s arm. Our own instinctive
actions awaken within us an eager curiosity, an affectionate,
pleased surprise: why should we not train ourselves
thus to regard the instinctive actions of nature?
We love to throw the dim light of our reason on to
our unconsciousness: why not let it play on what
we term the unconsciousness of the universe?
We are no less deeply concerned with the one than
the other. “After he has become acquainted
with the power that is in him,” said a philosopher,
“one of the highest privileges of man is to
realise his individual powerlessness. Out of
the very disproportion between the infinite which kills
us and this nothing that we are, there arises within
us a sensation that is not without grandeur; we feel
that we would rather be crushed by a mountain than
done to death by a pebble, as in war we would rather
succumb beneath the charge of thousands than fall
victim to a single arm. And as our intellect
lays bare to us the immensity of our helplessness,
so does it rob defeat of its sting.” Who
knows? We are already conscious of moments when
the something that has conquered us seems nearer to
ourselves than the part of us that has yielded.
Of all our characteristics, self-esteem is the one
that most readily changes its home, for we are instinctively
aware that it has never truly formed part of us.
The self-esteem of the courtier who waits on the mighty
king soon finds more splendid lodging in the king’s
boundless power; and the disgrace that may befall
him will wound his pride the less for that it has
descended from the height of a throne. Were nature
to become less indifferent, it would no longer appear
so vast. Our unfettered sense of the infinite
cannot afford to dispense with one particle of the
infinite, with one particle of its indifference; and
there will ever remain something within our soul that
would rather weep at times in a world that knows no
limit, than enjoy perpetual happiness in a world that
is hemmed in.
If destiny were invariably just in
her dealings with the wise, then doubtless would the
existence of such a law furnish sufficient proof of
its excellence; but as it is wholly indifferent, it
is better so, and perhaps even greater; for what the
actions of the soul may lose in importance thereby
does but go to swell the dignity of the universe.
And loss of grandeur to the sage there is none; for
he is as profoundly sensitive to the greatness of
nature as to the greatness that lurks within man.
Why harass our soul with endeavour to locate the infinite?
As much of it as can be given to man will go to him
who has learned to wonder.
78. Do you know a novel of Balzac,
belonging to the “Célibataires” series,
called Pierrette? It is not one of Balzac’s
masterpieces, but it has points of much interest for
us. It is the story of an orphaned Breton girl,
a sweet, innocent child, who is suddenly snatched away,
by her evil star, from the grandparents who adore
her, and transferred to the care of an aunt and uncle.
Monsieur Rogron and his sister Sylvia. A hard,
gloomy couple, these two; retired shopkeepers, who
live in a dreary house in the back streets of a dreary
country town. Their celibacy weighs heavily upon
them; they are miserly, and absurdly vain; morose,
and instinctively full of hatred.
The poor inoffensive girl has hardly
set foot in the house before her martyrdom begins.
There are terrible questions of money and economy,
ambitions to be gratified, marriages to be prevented,
inheritances to be turned aside: complications
of every kind. The neighbours and friends of
the Rogrons behold the long and painful sufferings
of the victim with unruffled tranquillity, for their
every natural instinct leads them to applaud the success
of the stronger. And at last Pierrette dies,
as unhappily as she has lived; while the others all
triumphthe Rogrons, the detestable lawyer
Vinet, and all those who had helped them; and the
subsequent happiness of these wretches remains wholly
untroubled. Fate would even seem to smile upon
them; and Balzac, carried away in spite of himself
by the reality of it all, ends his story, almost regretfully,
with these words: “How the social villainies
of this world would thrive under our laws if there
were no God!”
We need not go to fiction for tragedies
of this kind; there are many houses in which they
are matters of daily occurrence. I have borrowed
this instance from Balzac’s pages because the
story lay there ready to hand; the chronicle, day
by day, of the triumph of injustice. The very
highest morality is served by such instances, and a
great lesson is taught; and perhaps the moralists
are wrong who try to weaken this lesson by finding
excuses for the iniquities of fate. Some are
satisfied that God will give innocence its due reward.
Others tell us that in this case it is not the victim
who has the greatest claim upon our sympathy.
And these are doubtless right, from many points of
view; for little Pierrette, miserable though she was,
and cruelly tormented, did yet experience joys that
her tyrants never would know. In the midst of
her sorrow, she remained gentle, and tender, and loving;
and therein lies greater happiness than in hiding
cruelty, hatred, and selfishness beneath a smile.
It is sad to love and be unloved, but sadder still
to be unable to love. And how great is the difference
between the petty, sordid desires, the grotesque delights,
of the Rogrons, and the mighty longing that filled
the child’s soul as she looked forward to the
time when injustice at last should cease! Little
wistful Pierrette was perhaps no wiser than those
about her; but before such as must bear unmerited
suffering there stretches a wide horizon, which here
and again takes in the joys that only the loftiest
know; even as the horizon of the earth, though not
seen from the mountain peak, would appear at times
to be one with the corner-stone of heaven. The
injustice we commit speedily reduces us to petty, material
pleasures; but, as we revel in these, we envy our
victim; for our tyranny has thrown open the door to
joys whereof we cannot deprive himjoys
that are wholly beyond our reach, joys that are purely
spiritual. And the door that opens wide to the
victim is sealed in the tyrant’s soul; and the
sufferer breathes a purer air than he who has made
him suffer. In the hearts of the persecuted there
is radiance, where those who persecute have only gloom;
and is it not on the light within us that the wellbeing
of happiness depends? He who brings sorrow with
him stifles more happiness within himself than in
the man he overwhelms. Which of us, had he to
choose, but would rather be Pierrette than Rogron?
The instinct of happiness within us needs no telling
that he who is morally right must be happier than
he who is wrong, though the wrong be done from the
height of a throne. And, even though the Rogrons
be unaware of their Injustice, it alters nothing; for,
be we aware or unaware of the evil we commit, the
air we breathe will still be heavily charged.
Nay, moreto him who knows he does wrong
there may come, perhaps, the desire to escape from
his prison; but the other will die in his cell, without
even his thoughts having travelled beyond the gloomy
walls that conceal from him the true destiny of man.
79. Why seek justice where it
cannot be? and where can it be, save in our soul?
Its language is the natural language of the spirit
of man; but this spirit must learn new words ere it
can travel in the universe. Justice is the very
last thing of all wherewith the universe concerns
itself. It is equilibrium that absorbs its attention;
and what we term justice is truly nothing but this
equilibrium transformed, as honey is nothing but a
transformation of the sweetness found in the flower.
Outside man there is no justice; within him injustice
cannot be. The body may revel in illgotten
pleasure, but virtue alone can bring contentment to
the soul. Our inner happiness is measured out
to us by an incorruptible Judge and the mere endeavour
to corrupt him still further reduces the sum of the
final, veritable happiness he lets fall into the shining
scale. It is lamentable enough that a Rogron should
be able to torture a helpless child, and darken the
few hours of life the chance of the world had given;
but injustice there would be only if his wickedness
procured him the inner happiness and peace, the elevation
of thought and habit, that long years spent in love
and meditation had procured for Spinoza and Marcus
Aurelius. Some slight intellectual satisfaction
there may be in the doing of evil; but none the less
does each wrongful deed clip the wings of our thoughts,
till at length they can only crawl amidst all that
is fleeting and personal. To commit an act of
injustice is to prove we have not yet attained the
happiness within our grasp. And in evilreduce
things to their primal elements, and you shall find
that even the wicked are seeking some measure of peace,
a certain up-lifting of soul. They may think themselves
happy, and rejoice for such dole as may come to them;
but would it have satisfied Marcus Aurelius, who knew
the lofty tranquillity, the great quickening of the
soul? Show a vast lake to the child who has never
beheld the sea, it will clap its hands and be glad,
and think the sea is before it; but therefore none
the less does the veritable sea exist.
It may be that a man will find happiness
in the puny little victories that his vanity, envy,
or indifference win for him day after day. Shall
we begrudge him such happiness, we, whose eyes can
see further? Shall we strive for his consciousness
of life, for the religion that pleases his soul, for
the conception of the universe that justifies his cares?
Yet out of these things are the banks made between
which happiness flows; and as they are, so shall the
river be, in shallowness or in depth. He may
believe that there is a God, or that there is no God;
that all ends in this world, or that it is prolonged
into the next; that all is matter, or that all is
spirit. He will believe these things much as
wise men believe them; but do you think his manner
of belief can be the same? To look fearlessly
upon life; to accept the laws of nature, not with
meek resignation, but as her sons, who dare to search
and question; to have peace and confidence within our
soulthese are the beliefs that make for
happiness. But to believe is not enough; all
depends on how we believe. I may believe that
there is no God, that I am self-contained, that my
brief sojourn here serves no purpose; that in the
economy of this world without limit my existence counts
for as little as the evanescent hue of a flowerI
may believe all this, in a deeply religious spirit,
with the infinite throbbing within me; you may believe
in one all-powerful God, who cherishes and protects
you, yet your belief may be mean, and petty, and small.
I shall be happier than you, and calmer, if my doubt
is greater, and nobler, and more earnest than is your
faith; if it has probed more deeply into my soul,
traversed wider horizons, if there are more things
it has loved. And if the thoughts and feelings
on which my doubt reposes have become vaster and purer
than those that support your faith, then shall the
God of my disbelief become mightier and of supremer
comfort than the God to whom you cling. For,
indeed, belief and unbelief are mere empty words; not
so the loyalty, the greatness and profoundness of the
reasons wherefore we believe or do not believe.
80. We do not choose these reasons;
they are rewards that have to be earned. Those
we have chosen are only slaves we have happened to
buy; and their life is but feeble; they hold themselves
shyly aloof, ever watching for a chance to escape.
But the reasons we have deserved stand faithfully
by us; they are so many pensive Antigones, on whose
help we may ever rely. Nor can such reasons as
these be forcibly lodged in the soul; for indeed they
must have dwelt there from earliest days, have spent
their childhood there, nourished on our every thought
and action; and tokens recalling a life of devotion
and love must surround them on every side. And
as they throw deeper rootas the mists clear
away from our soul and reveal a still wider horizon,
so does the horizon of happiness widen also; for it
is only in the space that our thoughts and our feelings
enclose that our happiness can breathe in freedom.
It demands no material space, but finds ever too narrow
the spiritual fields we throw open; wherefore we must
unceasingly endeavour to enlarge its territory, until
such time as, soaring up on high, it finds sufficient
aliment in the space which it does of itself fling
open. Then it is, and then only, that happiness
truly illumines the most eternal, most human part
of man; and indeed all other forms of happiness are
merely unconscious fragments of this great happiness,
which, as it reflects and looks before it, is conscious
of no limit within itself or in all that surrounds
it.
81. This space must dwindle daily
in those who follow evil, seeing that their thoughts
and feelings must of necessity dwindle also. But
the man who has risen somewhat will soon forsake the
ways of evil; for look deep down enough and you shall
ever find its origin in straitened feeling and stunted
thought. He does evil no longer, because his
thoughts are purer and higher; and now that he is incapable
of evil, his thoughts will become purer still.
And thus do our thoughts and actions, having won their
way into the placid heaven where no barrier restrains
the soul, become as inseparable as the wings of a bird;
and what to the bird was only a law of equilibrium
is here transformed into a law of justice.
82. Who can tell whether the
satisfaction derived from evil can ever penetrate
to the soul, unless there mingle with it a vague desire,
a promise, a distant hope, of goodness or of pity?
The joy of the wretch whose victim
lies in his power is perhaps unredeemed in its gloom
and futility, save by the thought of mercy that flashes
across him. Evil at times would seem compelled
to beg a ray of light from virtue, to shed lustre
on its triumph. Is it possible for a man to smile
in his hatred and not borrow the smile of love?
But the smile will be short-lived, for here, as everywhere,
there is no inner injustice. Within the soul
the high-water mark of happiness is always level with
that of justice or charitywhich words I
use here indifferently, for indeed what is charity
or love but justice with naught to do but count its
jewels? The man who goes forth to seek his happiness
in evil does merely prove thereby that he is less happy
than the other who watches, and disapproves.
And yet his object is identical with that of the upright
man. He too is in search of happiness, of some
sort of peace and certainty. Of what avail to
punish him? We do not blame the poor because
their home is not a palace; it is sad enough to be
compelled to live in a hovel. He whose eyes can
see the invisible, knows that in the soul of the most
unjust man there is justice still: justice, with
all her attributes, her stainless garments and holy
activity. He knows that the soul of the sinner
is ever balancing peace and love, and the consciousness
of life, no less scrupulously than the soul of philosopher,
saint, or hero; that it watches the smiles of earthand
sky, and is no less aware of all whereby those smiles
are destroyed, degraded, and poisoned. We are
not wrong, perhaps, to be heedful of justice in the
midst of a universe that heeds not at all; as the
bee is not wrong to make honey in a world that itself
can make none. But we are wrong to desire an
external justice, since we know that it does not exist.
Let that which is in us suffice. All is for ever
being weighed and judged in our soul. It is we
who shall judge ourselves; or rather, our happiness
is our judge.
83. It may be urged that virtue
is subject to defeat and disappointment, no less than
vice; but the defeats and disappointments of virtue
bring with them no gloom or distress, for they do but
tend to soothe and enlighten our thoughts. An
act of virtue may sink into the void, but it is then,
most of all, that we learn to gauge the depths of
life and of soul; and often will it fall into these
depths like a radiant stone, beside which our thoughts
loom pale. With every vicious scheme that fails
before the innocence of Pierrette, Madame Rogron’s
soul shrivels anew; whereas the clemency of Titus,
falling on thankless soil, docs but induce him to
lift his eyes on high, far beyond love or pardon.
There is no gain in shutting out the world, though
it be with walls of righteousness. The last gesture
of virtue should be that of an angel flinging open
the door. We should welcome our disillusions;
for were it the will of destiny that our pardon should
always transform an enemy into a brother, then should
we go to our grave still unaware of all that springs
to light within us beneath the act of unwise clemency,
whose unwisdom we never regret. We should die
without once having matched all that is best in our
soul against the forces that hedge life around.
The kindly deed that is wasted, the lofty or only loyal
thought that falls on barren groundthese
too have their value, for the light they throw differs
far from the radiance triumphant virtue suffuses;
and thus may we see many things in their differing
aspect. There were surely much joy in the thought
that love must invariably triumph; but greater joy
is there still in tearing aside this illusion, am marching
straight on to the truth. “Man has been
but too prone,” said a philosopher, whom death
carried off too soon“man has been
but too prone, through all the course of his history,
to lodge his dignity within his errors, and to look
upon truth as a thing that depreciated himself.
It may sometimes seem less glorious than illusion,
but it has the advantage of being true. In the
whole domain of thought there is nothing loftier than
truth.” And there is no bitterness herein,
for indeed to the sage truth can never be bitter.
He, too, has had his longings in the past, has conceived
that truth might move mountains, that a loving act
might for ever soften the hearts of men; but to-day
he has learned to prefer that this should not be so.
Nor is it overweening pride that thus has changed
him; he does not think himself more virtuous than
the universe; it is his insignificance in the universe
that has been made clear to him. It is no longer
for the spiritual fruit it bears that he tends the
love of justice he has found implanted in his soul,
but for the living flowers that spring up within him,
and because of his deep respect for all created things.
He has no curses for the ungrateful friend, nor even
for ingratitude itself. He does not say, “I
am better than that man,” or “I shall not
fall into that vice.” But he is taught
by ingratitude that benevolence contains joys that
are greater than those that gratitude can bestow; joys
that are less personal, but more in harmony with life
as a whole. He finds more pleasure in the attempt
to understand that which is, than in the struggle
to believe that which he desires. For a long time
he has been like the beggar who was suddenly borne
away from his hut and lodged in a magnificent palace.
He awoke and threw uneasy glances about him, seeking,
in that immense hall, for the squalid things he remembered
to have had in his tiny room. Where were the
hearth, the bed, the table, stool, and basin?
The humble torch of his vigils still trembled by his
side, but its light could not reach the lofty ceiling.
The little wings of flame threw their feeble flicker
on to a pillar close by, which was all that stood
out from the darkness. But little by little his
eyes grew accustomed to his new abode. He wandered
through room after room, and rejoiced as profoundly
at all that his torch left in darkness as at all that
it threw into light. At first he could have wished
in his heart that the doors had been somewhat less
lofty, the staircases not quite so ample, the galleries
less lost in gloom; but as he went straight before
him, he felt all the beauty and grandeur of that which
was yet so unlike the home of his dream. He rejoiced
to discover that here bed and table were not the centre
round which all revolved, as it had been with him
in his hut. He was glad that the palace had not
been built to conform with the humble habits his misery
had forced upon him. He even learned to admire
the things that defeated his hopes, for they enabled
his eyes to see deeper. The sage is consoled and
fortified by everything that exists, for indeed it
is of the essence of wisdom to seek out all that exists,
and to admit it within its circle.
84. Wisdom even admits the Rogrons;
for she holds life of profounder interest than even
justice or virtue; and where her attention is disputed
by a virtue lost in abstraction, and by a humble, walled-in
life, she will incline to the humble life, and not
to the magnificent virtue that holds itself proudly
aloof. It is of the nature of wisdom to despise
nothing; indeed, in this world there is perhaps only
one thing truly contemptible, and that thing is contempt
itself. Thinkers too often are apt to despise
those who go through life without thinking. Thought
is doubtless of high value; our first endeavour should
be to think as often and as well as we can; but, for
all that, it is somewhat beside the mark to believe
that the possession, or lack, of a certain faculty
for handling general ideas can interpose an actual
barrier between men. After all, the difference
between the greatest thinker and the smallest provincial
burgher is often only the difference between a truth
that can sometimes express itself and a truth that
can never crystallise into form. The difference
is considerablea gap, but not a chasm.
The higher our thoughts ascend, the vainer and the
more arbitrary seems the distinction between him who
is thinking always and him who thinks not yet.
The little burgher is full of prejudice and of passions
at which we smile; his ideas are small and petty,
and sometimes contemptible enough; and yet, place him
side by side with the sage, before essential circumstance
of life, before love, grief, death, before something
that calls for true heroism, and it shall happen more
than once that the sage will turn to his humble companion
as to the guardian of a truth no less profound, no
less deeply human, than his own. There are moments
when the sage realises, that his spiritual treasures
are naught; that it is only a few words, or habits,
that divide him from other men; there are moments
when he even doubts the value of those words.
Those are the moments when wisdom flowers and sends
forth blossom. Thought may sometimes deceive;
and the thinker who goes astray must often retrace
his footsteps to the spot whence those who think not
have never moved away, where they still remain faithfully
seated round the silent, essential truth. They
are the guardians of the watch-fires of the tribe;
the others take lighted torches and go wandering abroad;
but when the air grows heavy and threatens the feeble
flame, then is it well to turn back and draw close
to the watch-fires once more. These fires seem
never to stir from the spot where they always have
been; but in truth they ever are moving, keeping time
with the worlds; and their flame marks the hour of
humanity on the dial of the universe. We know
exactly how much the inert forces owe to the thinker;
we forget the deep indebtedness of the thinker to
inert force. In a world where all were thinkers,
more than one indispensable truth might perhaps for
ever be lost. For indeed the thinker must never
lose touch with those who do not think, as his thoughts
would then quickly cease to be just or profound.
To disdain is only too easy, not so to understand;
but in him who is truly wise there passes no thought
of disdain, but it will, sooner or later, evolve into
full comprehension. The thought that can travel
scornfully over the heads of that great silent throng
without recognising its myriad brothers and sisters
that are slumbering there in its midst, is only too
often merely a sterile, vicious dream. We do
well to remind ourselves at times that the spiritual,
no less than the physical, atmosphere demands more
nitrogen than oxygen for the air to be breathed by
man.
85. It need not surprise us that
thinkers like Balzac should have loved to dwell on
these humble lives. Eternal sameness runs through
them, and yet does each century mark profoundest change
in the atmosphere that enwraps them. The sky
above has altered, but these simple lives have ever
the self-same gestures; and it is these unchanging
gestures that tell of the altered sky. A great
deed of heroism fascinates us; our eye cannot travel
beyond the act itself; but insignificant thoughts and
deeds lead us on to the horizon beyond them; and is
not the shining star of human wisdom always situate
on the horizon? If we could see these things
as nature sees them, with her thoughts and feelings,
we should realise that the uniform mediocrity that
runs through these lives cannot truly be mediocre,
from the mere fact of its uniformity. And indeed
this matters but little; we can never judge another
soul above the high-water mark of our own; and however
insignificant a creature may seem to us at first,
as our own soul emerges from shadow, so does the shadow
lift from him. There is nothing our eyes behold
that is too small to deserve our love; and there where
we cannot love, we have only to raise our lamp till
it reaches the level of love, and then throw its light
around. Let only one ray of this light go forth
every day from our soul, we may then be content.
It matters not where the light falls. There is
not a thing in this world whereupon your glance or
your thought can rest but contains within it more treasure
than either of these can fathom; nor is there a thing
so small but it has a vastness within that the light
that a soul can spare can, at best, but faintly illumine.
86. Is not the very essence of
human destiny, stripped of the details that bewilder
us, to be found in the most ordinary lives? The
mighty struggle of morality on the heights is glorious
to witness; but so will a keen observer profoundly
admire a magnificent tree that stands alone in a desert,
and, his contemplation over, once more go back to the
forest, where there are no marvellous trees, but trees
in countless abundance. The immense forest is
doubtless made up of ordinary branches and stems;
but is it not vast, is it not as it should be, seeing
that it is the forest? Not by the exceptional
shall the last word ever be spoken; and indeed what
we call the sublime should be only a clearer, profounder
insight into all that is perfectly normal. It
is of service, often, to watch those on the peaks
who do battle; but it is well, too, not to forget
those in the valley below, who fight not at all.
As we see all that happens to these whose life knows
no struggle; as we realise how much must be conquered
in us before we can rightly distinguish their narrower
joys from the joy known to them who are striving on
high, then perhaps does the struggle itself appear
to become less important; but, for all that, we love
it the more. And the reward is the sweeter to
us for the silence that enwraps its coming; nor is
this from a desire to keep our happiness secretsuch
as a crafty courtier might feel who hugs fortune’s
favours to himbut, perhaps, because it
is only when happiness thus whispers low in our ear,
and no other men know, that it is not according us
joys that are filched from our brother’s share.
Then do we no longer say to ourselves, as we look
on those brothers: “How great is the distance
between such as these and myself,” but in all
simplicity do we murmur at last to ourselves:
“The loftier my thoughts become, the less is
there to divide me from the humblest of my fellow-creatures,
from those who are most plentiful on earth; and every
step that I take towards an uncertain ideal, is a
step that brings me the nearer to those whom I once
despised, in the vanity and ignorance of my earliest
days.”
After all, what is a humble life?
It is thus we choose to term the life that ignores
itself, that drains itself dry in the place of its
birtha life whose feelings and thoughts,
whose desires and passions, entwine themselves around
the most insignificant things. But it suffices
to look at a life for that life to seem great.
A life in itself can be neither great nor small; the
largeness is all in the eye that surveys it; and an
existence that all men hold to be lofty and vast,
is one that has long been accustomed to look loftily
on itself from within. If you have never done
this, your life must be narrow; but the man who watches
you live will discern, in the very obscurity of the
corner you fill, an element of horizon, a foothold
to cling to, whence his thoughts will rise with surer
and more human strength. There is not an existence
about us but at first seems colourless, dreary, lethargic:
what can our soul have in common with that of an elderly
spinster, a slow-witted ploughman, a miser who worships
his gold? Can any connection exist between such
as these and a deep-rooted feeling, a boundless love
for humanity, an interest time cannot stale? But
let a Balzac step forward and stand in the midst of
them, with his eyes and ears on the watch; and the
emotion that lived and died in an old-fashioned country
parlour shall as mightily stir our heart, shall as
unerringly find its way to the deepest sources of life,
as the majestic passion that ruled the life of a king
and shed its triumphant lustre from the dazzling height
of a throne. “There are certain little
agitations,” says Balzac in the Cure de Tours,
the most admirable of all his studies of humble life“there
are certain little agitations that are capable of
generating as much passion within the soul as would
suffice to direct the most important social interests.
Is it not a mistake to imagine that time only flies
swiftly with those whose hearts are devoured by mighty
schemes, which fret and fever their life? Not
an hour sped past the Abbe Troubert but was as animated,
as laden with its burden of anxious thought, as lined
with pleading hope and deep despair, as could be the
most desperate hour of gambler, plotter, or lover.
God alone can tell how much energy is consumed in the
triumphs we achieve over men, and things, and ourselves.
We may not be always aware whither our steps are leading,
but are only too fully conscious of the wearisomeness
of the Journey. And yetif the historian
may be permitted to lay aside, for one moment, the
story he is telling, and to assume the rôle of the
criticas you cast your eyes on the lives
of these old maids and these two priests, seeking
to learn the cause of the sorrow which twisted their
heartstrings, it will be revealed to you, perhaps,
that certain passions must be experienced by man for
there to develop within him the qualities that make
a life noble, that widen its area, and stifle the
egoism natural to all.”
He speaks truly. Not for its
own sake, always, should we love the light, but for
the sake of what it illumines. The fire on the
mountain shines brightly, but there are few men on
the mountain; and more service may often be rendered
by the torchlight, there where the crowd is.
It is in the humble lives that is found the substance
of great lives; and by watching the narrowest feelings
does enlargement come to our own. Nor is this
from any repugnance these feelings inspire, but because
they no longer accord with the majestic truth that
controls us. It is well to have visions of a
better life than that of every day, but it is the
life of every day from which elements of a better life
must come. We are told we should fix our eyes
on high, far above life; but perhaps it is better
still that our soul should look straight before it,
and that the heights whereupon it should yearn to lay
all its hopes and its dreams should be the mountain
peaks that stand clearly out from the clouds that
gild the horizon.
87. This brings us back once
again to external destiny; but the tears that external
suffering wrings from us are not the only tears known
to man. The sage whom we love must dwell in the
midst of all human passions, for only on the passions
known to the heart can his wisdom safely be nourished.
They are nature’s artisans, sent by her to help
us construct the palace of our consciousnessof
our happiness, in other words; and he who rejects
these workers, deeming that he is able, unaided, to
raise all the stones of life, will be compelled for
ever to lodge his soul in a bare and gloomy cell.
The wise man learns to purify his passions; to stifle
them can never be proof of wisdom. And, indeed,
these things are all governed by the position we take
as we stand on the stairs of time. To some of
us moral infirmities are so many stairs tending downwards;
to others they represent steps that lead us on high.
The wise man perchance may do things that are done
by the unwise man also; but the latter is forced by
his passions to become the abject slave of his instincts,
whereas the sage’s passions will end by illumining
much that was vague in his consciousness. To love
madly, perhaps, is not wise; still, should he love
madly, more wisdom will doubtless come to him than
if he had always loved wisely. It is not wisdom,
but the most useless form of pride that can flourish
in vacancy and inertia. It is not enough to know
what should be done, not though we can unerringly
declare what saint or hero would do. Such things
a book can teach in a day. It is not enough to
intend to live a noble life and then retire to a cell,
there to brood over this intention. No wisdom
thus acquired can truly guide or beautify the soul;
it is of as little avail as the counsels that others
can offer. “It is in the silence that follows
the storm,” says a Hindu proverb, “and
not in the silence before it, that we should search
for the budding flower.”
88. The earnest wayfarer along
the paths of life does but become the more deeply
convinced, as his travels extend, of the beauty, the
wisdom, and truth of the simplest and humblest laws
of existence. Their uniformity, the mere fact
of their being so general, such matter of every day,
are in themselves enough to compel his admiration.
And little by little he holds the abnormal ever less
highly, and neither seeks nor desires it; for it is
soon borne home to him, as he reflects on the vastness
of nature, with her slow, monotonous movement, that
the ridiculous pretensions our ignorance and vanity
put forth are the most truly abnormal of all.
He no longer vexes the hours as they pass with prayer
for strange or marvellous adventure; for these come
only to such as have not yet learned to have faith
in life and themselves. He no longer awaits,
with folded arms, the chance for superhuman effort;
for he feels that he exists in every act that is human.
He no longer requires that death, or friendship, or
love should come to him decked out with garlands illusion
has woven, or escorted by omen, coincidence, presage;
but they come in their bareness and simpleness, and
are always sure of his welcome. He believes that
all that the weak, and the idle, and thoughtless consider
sublime and exceptional, that the fall equivalent
for the most heroic deed, can be found in the simple
life that is bravely and wholly faced. He no
longer considers himself the chosen son of the universe;
but his happiness, consciousness, peace of mind, have
gained all that his pride has lost. And, this
point once attained, then will the miraculous adventures
of a St. Theresa or Jean-de-la-Croix, the ecstasy
of the mystics, the supernatural incidents of legendary
loves, the star of an Alexander or a Napoleonthen
will all these seem the merest childish illusions
compared with the healthy wisdom of a loyal, earnest
man, who has no craving to soar above his fellows
so as to feel what they cannot feel, but whose heart
and brain find the light that they need in the unchanging
feelings of all. The truest man will never be
he who desires to be other than man. How many
there are that thus waste their lives, scouring the
heavens for sight of the comet that never will come;
but disdaining to look at the stars, because these
can be seen by all, and, moreover, are countless in
number! This craving for the extraordinary is
often the special weakness of ordinary men, who fail
to perceive that the more normal, and ordinary, and
uniform events may appear to us, the more are we able
to appreciate the profound happiness that this uniformity
enfolds, and the nearer are we drawn to the truth and
tranquillity of the great force by which we have being.
What can be less abnormal than the ocean, which covers
two-thirds of the globe; and yet, what is there more
vast? There is not a thought or a feeling, not
an act of beauty or nobility, whereof man is capable,
but can find complete expression in the simplest,
most ordinary life; and all that cannot be expressed
therein must of necessity belong to the falsehoods
of vanity, ignorance, or sloth.
89. Does this mean that the wise
man should expect no more from life than other men;
that he should love mediocrity and limit his desires;
content himself with little and restrict the horizon
of his happiness, because of the fear lest happiness
escape him? By no means; for the wisdom is halting
and sickly that can too freely renounce a legitimate
human hope. Many desires in man may be legitimate
still, notwithstanding the disapproval of reason,
sometimes unduly severe. But the fact that our
happiness does not seem extraordinary to those about
us by no means warrants our thinking that we are not
happy. The wiser we are, the more readily do
we perceive that happiness lies in our grasp; that
it has no more enviable gift than the uneventful moments
it brings. The sage has learnt to quicken and
love the silent substance of life. In this silent
substance only can faithful joys be found, for abnormal
happiness never ventures to go with us to the tomb.
The day that comes and goes without special whisper
of hope or happiness should be as dear to us, and
as welcome, as any one of its brothers. On its
way to us it has traversed the same worlds and the
self-same space as the day that finds us on a throne
or enthralled by a mighty love. The hours are
less dazzling, perhaps, that its mantle conceals; but
at least we may rely more fully on their humble devotion.
There are as many eternal minutes in the week that
goes by in silence, as in the one that tomes boldly
towards us with mighty shout and clamour. And
indeed it is we who tell ourselves all that the hour
would seem to say; for the hour that abides with us
is ever a timid and nervous guest, that will smile
if its host be smiling, or weep if his eyes be wet.
It has been charged with no mission to bring happiness
to us; it is we who should comfort the hour that has
sought refuge within our soul. And he is wise
who always finds words of peace that he can whisper
low to his guest on the threshold. We should
let no opportunity for happiness escape us, and the
simplest causes of happiness should be ever stored
in our soul. It is well, at first, to know happiness
as men conceive it, so that, later, we may have good
reason for preferring the happiness of our choice.
For, herein, it is not unlike what we are told of
love. To know what real love should be we must
have loved profoundly, and that first love must have
fled. It is well to know moments of material
happiness, since they teach us where to look for loftier
joys; and all that we gain, perhaps, from listening
to the hours that babble aloud in their wantonness
is that we are slowly learning the language of the
hours whose voice is hushed. And of these there
are many; they come in battalions, so close on the
heels of each other that treachery and flight cannot
be; wherefore it is on them alone that the sage should
depend. For he will be happy whose eyes have
learned to detect the hidden smile and mysterious jewels
of the myriad, nameless hours; and where are these
jewels to be found, if not in ourselves?
90. But there is a kind of ignoble
discretion that has least in common, of all things,
with the wisdom we speak of here; for we had far better
spend our energy round even fruitless happiness, than
slumber by the fireside awaiting joys that never may
come. Only the joys that have been offered to
all, and none have accepted, will knock at his door
who refuses himself to stir forth. Nor is the
other man wise who holds the reins too tight on his
feelings, and halts them when reason commands, or
experience whispers. The friend is not wise who
will not confide in his friend, remembering always
that friendships may come to an end; nor the lover,
who draws back for fear lest he may find shipwreck
in love. For here, were we twenty times unfortunate,
it is still only the perishable portion of our energy
for happiness that suffers; and what is wisdom after
all but this same energy for happiness cleansed of
all that is impure? To be wise we must first
learn to be happy, that we may attach ever smaller
importance to what happiness may be in itself.
We should be as happy as possible, and our happiness
should last as long as is possible; for those who
can finally issue forth from self by the portal of
happiness, know infinitely wider freedom than those
who pass through the gate of sadness. The joy
of the sage illumines his heart and his soul alike,
whereas sadness most often throws light on the heart
alone. One might almost compare the man who had
never been happy with a traveller whose every journey
had been taken by night. Moreover, there is in
happiness a humility deeper and nobler, purer and wider,
than sorrow can ever procure. There is a certain
humility that ranks with parasitic virtues, such as
sterile self-sacrifice, arbitrary chastity, blind
submission, fanatic renouncement, penitence, false
shame, and many others, which have from time immemorial
turned aside from their course the waters of human
morality, and forced them into a stagnant pool, around
which our memory still lingers. Nor do I speak
of a cunning humility that is often mere calculation,
or, taken at its best, a timidity that has its root
in pridea loan at usury that our vanity
of to-day extends to our vanity of to-morrow.
And even the sage at times conceives it well to lower
himself in his own self-esteem, and to deny superior
merits that are his when comparing himself with other
men. Humility of this kind may throw a charm around
our ways of life, but yet, sincere as it doubtless
may be, it nevertheless attacks the loyalty due to
ourselves, which we should value high above all.
And it surely implies a certain timidity of conscience;
whereas the conscience of the sage should harbour
neither timidity nor shame. But by the side of
this too personal humility there exists another humility
that extends to all things, that is lofty and strong,
that has fed on all that is best in our brain and
our heart and our soul. It is a humility that
defines the limit of the hopes and adventures of men;
that lessens us only to add to the grandeur of all
we behold; that teaches us where we should look for
the true importance of man, which lies not in that
which he is, but in that which his eyes can take in,
which he strives to accept and to grasp. It is
true that sorrow will also bring us to the realm of
this humility; but it hastens us through, branching
off on the road to a mysterious gate of hope, on whose
threshold we lose many days; whereas happiness, that
after the first few hours has nothing else left to
do, will lead us in silence through path after path
till we reach the most unforeseen, inaccessible places
of all. It is when the sage knows he possesses
at last all man is allowed to possess, that he begins
to perceive that it is his manner of regarding what
man may never possess, that determines the value of
such things as he truly may call his own. And
therefore must we long have sunned ourselves in the
rays of happiness before we can truly conceive an independent
view of life. We must be happy, not for happiness’
sake, but so that we may learn to see distinctly that
which vain expectation of happiness would for ever
hide from our gaze.
91. Economy avails us nothing
in the region of the heart, for it is there that men
gather the harvest of life’s very substance,
it were better that nothing were done there than that
things should be done by halves; and that which we
have not dared to risk is most surely lost of all.
To limit our passions is only to limit ourselves, and
we are the losers by just so much as we hoped to gain.
There are certain fastnesses within our soul that
lie buried so deep that love alone dare venture down;
and it returns laden with undreamed-of jewels, whose
lustre can only be seen as they pass from our open
hand to the hand of one we love. And indeed it
would seem that so clear a light springs from our
hands as they open thus to give, that it penetrates
substance too opaque to yield to the mysterious rays
just discovered.
92. It avails us nothing unduly
to bemoan our errors or losses. For happen what
may to the man of simple faith, still, at the last
minute of the sorrow-laden hour, at the end of the
week or year, still will he find some cause for gladness
as he turns his eyes within. Little by little
he has learned to regret without tears. He is
as a father might be who returns to his home in the
evening, his day’s work done. He may find
his children in tears perhaps, or playing dangerous,
forbidden games; the furniture scattered, glasses
broken, a lamp overturned; but shall he therefore
despair? It would certainly have been better had
the children been more obedient, had they quietly
learned their lessons –this would
have been more in keeping with every moral theory;
but how unreasonable the father who, in the midst of
his harsh rebuke, could withhold a smile as he turned
his head away! The children have acted unwisely,
perhaps, in their exuberance of life; but why should
this distress him? All is well, so long as he
return home at night, so long as he ever keep about
him the key of the guardian dwelling. As we look
into ourselves, and pass in review what our heart,
and brain, and soul have attempted and carried through
while we were away, the benefit lies far more in the
searching glance itself than in the actual inspection.
And if the hours have not once let fall their mysterious
girdle on their way past our threshold; if the rooms
be as empty as on the day of departure, and those
within have but sat with folded arms and worked not
at all –still, as we enter, shall
something be learned from our echoing footsteps, of
the extent, and the clearness, and the fidelity, of
our home.
93. No day can be uneventful,
save in ourselves alone; but in the day that seems
most uneventful of all, there is still room for the
loftiest destiny; for there is far more scope for
such destiny within ourselves than on the whole continent
of Europe. Not by the extent of empire is the
range of destiny governed, but, indeed, by the depth
of our soul. It is in our conception of life
that real destiny is found; when at last there is
delicate balance between the insoluble questions of
heaven and the wavering response of our soul.
And these questions become the more tranquil as they
seem to comprise more and more; and to the sage, whatever
may happen will still widen the scope of the questions,
still give deeper confidence to the reply. Speak
not of destiny when the event that has brought you
joy or sadness has still altered nothing in your manner
of regarding the universe. All that remains to
us when love and glory are over, when adventures and
passions have faded into the past, is but a deeper
and ever-deepening sense of the infinite; and if we
have not that within us, then are we destitute indeed.
And this sense of the infinite is more than a mere
assemblage of thoughts, which, indeed, are but the
innumerable steps that thither lead. There is
no happiness in happiness itself, unless it help our
comprehension of the rest, unless it help us in some
measure to conceive that the very universe itself
must rejoice in existence. The sage who has attained
a certain height will find peace in all things that
happen; and the event that saddens him, as other men,
tarries but an instant ere it goes to strengthen his
deep perception of life. He who has learned to
see in all things only matter for unselfish wonder,
can be deprived of no satisfaction whatever without
there spring to sudden life within him, from the mere
feeling that this joy can be dispensed with, a high
protecting thought that enfolds him in its light.
That destiny is beautiful wherein each event, though
charged with joy or sadness, has brought reflection
to us, has added something to our range of soul, has
given us greater peace wherewith to cling to life.
And, indeed, the accident that robs us of our love,
that leads us along in triumph, or even that seats
us on a throne, reveals but little of the workings
of destiny; which, indeed, lie far more in the thoughts
that arise in our mind as we look at the men around
us, at the woman we love; as we dwell on the feelings
within us; as we fix our eyes on the evening sky with
its crown of indifferent stars.
94. A woman of extraordinary
beauty and talent, possessed of the rarest qualities
of mind and soul, was one day asked by a friend, to
whom she seemed the most perfect creature on earth:
“What are your plans? Can any man be worthy
of your love? Your future puzzles me. I cannot
conceive a destiny that shall be lofty enough for a
soul such as yours.” He knew but little
of destiny. To him, as to most men, it meant
thrones, triumphs, dazzling adventures: these
things seemed to him the sum of a human destiny; whereby
he did but prove that he knew not what destiny was.
And, in the first place, why this disdain of to-day?
To disdain to-day is to prove that yesterday has been
misunderstood. To disdain to-day is to declare
oneself a stranger, and what can you hope to do in
a world where you shall ever pass as a stranger?
To-day has this advantage over yesterday, that it
exists and was made for us. Be to-day what it
will, it has wider knowledge than yesterday; and by
that alone does it become more beautiful, and vaster.
Why should we think that the woman I speak of would
have known a more brilliant destiny in Venice, Florence,
or Rome? Her presence might have been sought at
magnificent festival, and her beauty have found a fitting
surrounding in exquisite landscape. She might
have had princes and kings, the elect of the world,
at her feet; and perhaps it had needed but one of her
smiles to add to a great nation’s gladness, to
ennoble or chasten the thought of an epoch. Whereas
here all her life will be spent among four or five
peoplefour or five souls that know of her
soul, and love her. It may be that she never
shall stir from her dwelling; that of her life, of
her thoughts, and the strength that is in her, there
will remain not a trace among men. It may be
that her beauty, her force and her instinct for good,
will be buried within her: in her heart and the
hearts of the few who are near. And even then,
and if this be so, the soul of this woman doubtless
shall find its own thing to do. The mighty gates
through which we must pass to a helpful and noteworthy
life no longer grate on their hinges with the deafening
clamour of old. They are smaller, perhaps, than
they were; less vast and imposing; but their number
is greater to-day, and they admit us, in silence, to
paths that extend very far. And even though the
home of this woman be not brightened by one single
gleam from without, will she have failed to fulfil
her destiny because her life is lived in the shade?
Cannot destiny be beautiful and complete in itself,
without help from without? As the soul that has
truly conquered surveys the triumphs of the past,
it is glad of those only that brought with them a deeper
knowledge of life and a nobler humility; of those
that lent sweeter charm to the moments when love,
glory, and enthusiasm having faded away, the fruit
that a few hours of boiling passion had ripened was
gathered in meditation and silence. When the
feasting is over: when charity, kindness and
valorous deed all lie far behind us: what is there
left to the soul but some stray recollections, a gain
of some consciousness, and a feeling that helps us
to look on our place in the world with more knowledge
and less apprehensiona feeling blent with
some wisdom, from the numberless things it has learned?
When the hour for rest has soundedas it
must sound every night and at every moment of solitudewhen
the gaudy vestments of love, and glory, and power fall
helplessly round us; what is it we can take with us
as we seek refuge within ourselves, where the happiness
of each day is measured by the knowledge the day has
brought us, by the thoughts and the confidence it
has helped us to acquire? Is our true destiny
to be found in the things which take place about us,
or in that which abides in our soul? “Be
a man’s power or glory never so great,”
said a philosopher, “his soul soon learns how
to value the feelings that spring from external events;
and as he perceives that no increase has come to his
physical faculties, that these remain wholly unchanged,
neither altered nor added to, then does the sense
of his nothingness burst full upon him. The king
who should govern the world must still, like the rest
of his brothers, revolve in a limited circle, whose
every law must be obeyed; and on his impressions and
thoughts must his happiness wholly depend.”
The impressions his memory retains, we might add, because
they have chastened his mind; for the souls that we
deal with here will retain such impressions only as
have quickened their sense of goodness, as have made
them a little more noble. Is it impossible to
findit matters not where, nor how great
be the silencethe same undlssolvable matter
that lurks in the cup of the noblest external existence?
and seeing that nothing is truly our own till it faithfully
follow us into the darkness and silence, why should
the thing that has sprung to life there be less faithful
in silence and darkness? But we will pursue this
no farther, for it leads to a wisdom of over-much theory.
For all that a brilliant exterior destiny is not indispensable,
still should we always regard it as wholly desirable,
and pursue it as keenly as though we valued it highly.
It behoves the sage to knock at the door of every
temple of glory, of every dwelling where happiness,
love, and activity are to be found. And if his
strenuous effort and long expectation remain unrewarded,
if no door fly open, still may he find, perhaps, in
the mere expectation and effort an equivalent for all
the emotions and light that he sought. “To
act,” says Barres, “is to annex to our
thoughts vaster fields of experience.” It
is also, perhaps, to think more quickly than thought,
as more completely; for we no longer think with the
brain alone, but with every atom of life. It is
to wrap round with dream the profoundest sources of
thought, and then to confront them with fact.
But to act is not always to conquer. To attempt,
to be patient, and waitthese, too, may
be action; as also, to hear, to watch, and be silent.
If the lot of the woman we speak of
had been cast in Athens, or Florence, or Rome, there
had been, in her life, certain motives of grandeur,
occasions for beauty and happiness, that she may well
never meet with to-day. And she is the poorer
for lacking the efforts she might have put forth,
the memory of what might have been done; for in these
lies a force that is precious and vital, that often
indeed will transform many more things within us,
than a thought which is morally, mentally worth many
thousand such efforts and memories. And indeed
it is therefore alone that we should desire a brilliant,
feverish destiny; because it summons to life certain
forces and feelings that would otherwise never emerge
from the slumberous peace of an over-tranquil existence.
But from the moment we know, or even suspect, that
these feelings lie dormant within us, we are already
giving life to all that is best in those feelings;
and it is as though we were, for one brief moment,
looking down upon a glorious external destiny from
heights such destiny shall only attain at the end
of its days; as though we were prematurely gathering
the fruit of the tree, which it shall itself still
find barren until many a storm has passed.
95. Last night, re-reading Saint-Simonwith
whom we seem to ascend a lofty tower, whence our gaze
rests on hundreds of human destinies, astir in the
valley belowI understood what a beautiful
destiny meant to the instinct of man. It would
doubtless have puzzled Saint-Simon himself to have
told what it was that he loved and admired in some
of his heroes, whom he enwraps in a sort of resigned,
and almost unconscious, respect. Thousands of
virtues that he esteemed highly have ceased to exist
to-day, and many a quality now seems petty indeed that
he commended in some of his great ones. And yet
are there, unperceived as it were by him, four or
five men in the midst of the glittering crowd hard
by the monarch’s throne, four or five earnest
benevolent faces on whom our eye still rests gladly;
though Saint-Simon gives them no special attention
or thought, for in his heart he looks with disfavour
on the ideas that govern their life. Fenelon is
there; the Dukes of Chevreuse and Beauvilliers; there
is Monsieur lé Dauphin. Their
happiness is no greater than that of the rest of mankind.
They achieve no marked success, they gain no resplendent
victory, They live as the others livein
the fret and expectation of the thing that we choose
to call happiness, because it has yet to come.
Fenelon incurs the displeasure of the crafty, bigoted
king, who, for all his pride, would resent the most
trivial offence with the humbleness of humblest vanity;
who was great in small things, and petty in all that
was greatfor such was Louis XIV.
Fenelon is condemned, persecuted, exiled. The
Dukes of Chevreuse and Beauvilliers continue to hold
important office at Court, but none the less deem it
prudent to live in a kind of voluntary retirement.
The Dauphin is not in favour with the King; a powerful,
envious clique are for ever intriguing against him,
and they finally succeed in crushing his youthful military
glory. He lives in the midst of disgrace, misadventure,
disaster, that seem irreparable in the eyes of that
vain and servile Court; for disgrace and disaster
assume the proportions the manners of the day accord.
Finally he dies, a few days after the death of the
wife he had loved so tenderly. He diespoisoned,
perhaps, as she too; the thunderbolt falling just
as the very first rays of kingly favour, whereon he
had almost ceased to count, were stealing over his
threshold. Such were the troubles and misfortunes,
the sorrows and disappointments, that wrapped these
lives round; and yet, as we look on this little group,
standing firm and silent in the midst of the feverish,
intermittent glitter of the rest, then do these four
destinies seem truly beautiful to us, and enviable.
Through all their vicissitudes one common light shines
through them. The great soul of Fenelon illumines
them all. Fenelon is faithful to his loftiest
thoughts of piety, meekness, wonder, justice, and
love; and the other three are faithful to him, who
was their master and friend. And what though
the mystic ideas of Fenelon be no longer shared by
us: what though the ideas that we cling to ourselves,
and deem the profoundest and noblestthe
ideas that live at the root of our every conviction
of life, that have served as the basis of all our
moral happinesswhat though these should
one day fall in ruins behind us, and only arouse a
smile among such as believe that they have found other
thoughts still, which to them seem more human, and
final? Thought, of itself, is possessed of no
vital importance; it is the feelings awakened within
us by thought that ennoble and brighten our life.
Thought is our aim, perhaps; but it may be with this
as with many a journey we takethe place
we are bound for may interest us less than the journey
itself, the people we meet on the road, the unforeseen
that may happen. Here, as everywhere, it is only
the sincerity of human feeling that abides. As
for a thought, we know not, it may be deceptive; but
the love, wherewith we have loved it, will surely return
to our soul; nor can a single drop of its clearness
or strength be abstracted by error. Of that perfect
ideal that each of us strives to build up in himself,
the sum total of all our thoughts will help only to
model the outline; but the elements that go to construct
it, and keep it alive, are the purified passion, unselfishness,
loyalty, wherein these thoughts have had being.
The extent of our love for the thing which we hold
to be true is of greater importance than even the
truth itself. Does not love bring more goodness
to us than thought can ever convey? Loyally to
love a great error may well be more helpful than meanly
to serve a great truth; for in doubt, no less than
in faith, are passion and love to be found. Some
doubts are as generous and passionate as the very
noblest convictions. Be a thought of the loftiest,
surest, or of the most profoundly uncertain, the best
that it has to offer is still the chance that it gives
us of loving some one thing wholly, without reserve.
Whether it be to man, or a God; to country, to world
or to error, that I truly do yield myself up, the
precious ore that shall some day be found buried deep
in the ashes of love will have sprung from the love
itself, and not from the thing that I loved.
The sincerity of an attachment, its simplicity, firmness,
and zealthese leave a track behind them
that time can never efface. All passes away and
changes; it may be that all is lost, save only the
glow of this ardour, fertility, and strength of our
heart.
96. “Never did man possess
his soul in such peace as he,” says Saint-Simon
of one of them, who was surrounded on all sides by
malice, and scheming, and snares. And further
on he speaks of the “wise tranquillity”
of another, and this “wise tranquillity”
pervades every one of those whom he terms the “little
flock.” The “little flock,”
truly, of fidelity to all that was noblest in thought;
the “little flock” of friendship, loyalty,
self-respect, and inner contentment, that pass along,
radiant with peace and simplicity, in the midst of
the lies and ambitions, the follies and treacheries,
of Versailles. They are not saints, in the vulgar
sense of the word. They have not fled to the
depths of forest or desert, or sought egotistic shelter
in narrow cells. They are sages, who remain within
life and the things that are real. It is not
their piety that saves them; it is not in God alone
that their soul has found strength. To love God,
and to serve Him with all one’s might, will
not suffice to bring peace and strength to the soul
of man. It is only by means of the knowledge and
thought we have gained and developed by contact with
men that we can learn how God should be loved; for,
notwithstanding all things, the human soul remains
profoundly human still. It may be taught to cherish
the invisible, but it will ever find far more actual
nourishment in the virtue or feeling that is simply
and wholly human, than in the virtue or passion divine.
If there come towards us a man whose soul is truly
tranquil and calm, we may be certain that human virtues
have given him his tranquillity and his calmness.
Were we permitted to peer into the secret recesses
of hearts that are now no more, we might discover,
perhaps, that the fountain of peace whereat Fenelon
slaked his thirst every night of his exile lay rather
in his loyalty to Madame Guyon in her misfortune,
in his love for the slandered, persecuted Dauphin,
than in his expectation of eternal reward; rather
in the irreproachable human conscience within him,
overflowing with fidelity and tenderness, than in
the hopes he cherished as a Christian.
97. Admirable indeed is the serenity
of this “little flock!” No virtue, here,
to kindle dazzling fires on the mountain, but heart
and soul that are alive with flame. No heroism
but that of love, of confidence and sincerity, that
remember and are content to wait. Some men there
are whose virtue issues from them with a noise of
clanging gates; in others it dwells as silent as the
maid who never stirs from home, who sits thoughtfully
by the fireside, always ready to welcome those who
enter from the cold without. There is less need
of heroic hours, perhaps, in a beautiful life, than
of weeks that are grave, and uniform, and pure.
It may be that the soul that is loyal and perfectly
just is more precious than the one that is tender
or full of devotion It will enter less wholly perhaps,
and with less exaltation, into the more exuberant
adventures of life; but in the events that occur every
day we can trust it more fully, rely more completely
upon it; and is there a man, after all, no matter
how strange and delirious and brilliant his life may
have been, who has not spent the great bulk of his
time in the midst of most ordinary incident?
In our very sublimest hour, as we stand in the midst
of the dazzling circles it throws, are we not startled
to find that the habits and thoughts of our soberest
hour are whirling around with the rest? We must
always come back to our normal life, that is built
on the solid earth and primitive rock. We are
not called upon to contest each day with dishonour,
despair, or death; but it is imperative, perhaps,
that I should be able to tell myself, at every hour
of sadness, that there exists, somewhere, an unchangeable,
unconquerable soul that has drawn near to my soula
soul that is faithful and silent, blind to all that
it deems not conformable with the truth. We can
only have praise for heroism, and for surpassingly
generous deeds; but more praise stillas
it demands a more vigilant strengthfor
the man who never allows an inferior thought to seduce
him; who leads a less glorious life, perhaps, but one
of more uniform worth. Let us sometimes, in our
meditations, bring our desire for moral perfection
to the level of daily truth, and be taught how far
easier it is to confer occasional benefit than never
to do any harm; to bring occasional happiness than
never be cause of tears.
98. Their refuge, their “firm
rock,” as Saint-Simon calls it, lay in each
other, and, above all, in themselves; and all that
was blameless within their soul became steadfastness
in the rock. A thousand substances go to form
the foundations of this “firm rock,” but
all that we hold to be blameless within us will sink
to its centre and base. It is true that our standard
of conduct may often be sadly at fault; and the vilest
of men has a moment each night when he proudly surveys
some detestable thought, that seems wholly blameless
to him. But I speak of a virtue, here, that is
higher than everyday virtue; and the most ordinary
man is aware what a virtue becomes, when it is ordinary
virtue no longer. Moral beauty, indeed, though
it be of the rarest kind, never passes the comprehension
of the most narrow-minded of men; and no act is so
readily understood as the act that is truly sublime.
We may admire a deed profoundly, perhaps, and yet
not rise to its height; but it is imperative that
we should not abide in the darkness that covers the
thing we blame. Many a happiness in life, as many
a disaster, is due to chance alone; but the peace
within us can never be governed by chance. Some
souls, I know, for ever are building; others have
preference for ruins; and others, still, will wander,
their whole life through, seeking shelter beneath
strange roofs. And difficult as it may be to
transform the instincts that dwell in the soul, it
is well that those who build not should be made aware
of the joy that the others experience as they incessantly
pile stone upon stone. Their thoughts, and attachments,
and love; their convictions, deceptions, and even
their doubtsall stand in good service;
and when the passing storm has demolished their mansion,
they build once again with the ruins, a little distance
away, something less stately perhaps, but better adapted
to all the requirements of life. What regret,
disillusion, or sadness can shatter the homestead
of him who, in choosing the stones for his dwelling,
Was careful to keep all the wisdom and strength that
regret, disillusion, and sadness contain? Or might
we not say that it is with the roots of the happiness
we cherish within as with roots of great trees?
The oaks that are subject the most to the stress of
the storm thrust their roots the most staunchly and
firmly, deep down in eternal soil; and the fate that
unjustly pursues us is no more aware of what comes
to pass in our soul, than the wind is aware of what
happens below in the earth.
99. Here let us note how great
is the power, how mysterious the attraction, of veritable
happiness. Something of a hush comes over Saint-Simon’s
stirring narrative as one of the members of the “little
flock” passes through the careless, triumphant
crowd, unceasingly busy with intrigue and salutation,
petty love and petty triumph, amidst the marble staircases
and magnificent halls of Versailles. Saint-Simon
goes calmly on with his story; but for one second
we seem to have compared all this jubilant vanity
and ephemeral rejoicing, this brazen-tongued falsehood
that secretly trembles, with the serene, unvarying
loftiness of those strenuous, tranquil souls.
It is as though there should suddenly appear in the
midst of a band of childrenwho are plucking
flowers, it may be, stealing fruit, or playing forbidden
gamesa priest or an aged man, who should
go on his way, letting fall not one word of rebuke.
The games are suddenly stopped; startled conscience
awakens; and unbidden thoughts of duty, reality, truth,
rush in on the mind; but with men no more than with
children are impressions of long duration, though
they spring from the priest, or the sage, or only the
thought that has passed and gone on its way. But
it matters not, they have seen; and the human soul,
for all that the eyes are only too willing to close
or turn away, is nobler than most men would wish it
to be, for it often troubles their peace; and the
soul is quick to declare its preference for that it
has seen, and fain would abandon its enforced and
wearisome idleness. And although we may smile
and make merry as the sage disappears in the distance,
he has, though he know it not, left a clear track
in the midst of our error and folly, where, haply,
it still will abide for a long time to come. And
when the sudden hour of tears bursts upon us, then
most of all shall we see it enwrapped in light.
We find again and again, in Saint-Simon’s story,
that sorrow no sooner invades a soul somewhat loftier
than others, somewhat nearer to life perhaps, than
it speedily flies for comfort to one it has thus seen
pass by in the midst of the uneasy silence and almost
malevolent wonder, that in this world too often attend
the footsteps of a blameless life. It is not
our wont to question happiness closely in the days
when we deem ourselves happy; but when sorrow draws
nigh, our memory flies to the peace that somewhere
lies hidden: the peace that depends not on the
rays of the sun, or the kiss that has been withheld,
or the disapproval of kings. At such moments we
go not to those who are happy, as we once were happy;
for we know that this happiness melts away before
the first fretful gesture of fate. Would you
learn where true happiness dwells, you have only to
watch the movements of those who are wretched, and
seek consolation. Sorrow is like the divining-rod
that used to avail the seekers of treasure or of clear
running water; for he who may have it about him unerringly
makes for the house where profoundest peace has its
home. And this is so true that we should be wise,
perhaps, not to dwell with too much satisfaction on
our own peace of mind and tranquillity, on the sincerity
of our own acquiescence in the great laws of life,
or rely too complacently on the duration of our own
happiness, until such time as the instinct of those
who suffer impels them to knock at our door, and their
eyes can behold, shining bright on the threshold, the
steady, unwavering flame of the lamp that burns on
for ever. Yes; only they, it may be, have the
right to deem themselves safe to whose arms there come
to weep those whose eyes are heavy with tears.
And indeed there are not a few in this world whose
inner smile we can only behold when our eyes have
been cleansed by the tears that lay bare the mysterious
sources of vision; and then only do we begin to detect
the presence of happiness that springs not from the
favour or gleam of an hour, but from widest acceptance
of life. Here, as in much beside, desire and necessity
quicken our senses. The hungry bee will discover
the honey, be it hid never so deep in the cavern;
and the soul that mourns will spy out the joy that
lies hidden in its retreat, or in most impenetrable
silence.
100. Destiny begins when consciousness
wakes, and bestirs itself within man; not the passive,
impoverished consciousness of most souls, but the
active consciousness that will accept the event, whatever
it may be, as an imprisoned queen will accept a gift
that is offered to her in her cell. If nothing
should happen, your consciousness yet may create important
event from the manner in which it regards the mere
dearth of event; but perhaps to each man there occurs
vastly more than is needed to satisfy the thirstiest,
most indefatigable consciousness. I have at this
moment before me the history of a mighty and passionate
soul, whom every adventure that makes for the sorrow
or gladness of man would seem to have passed by with
averted head. It is of Emily Bronte I speak,
than whom the first fifty years of this century produced
no woman of greater or more incontestable genius.
She has left but one book behind her, a novel, called
“Wuthering Heights,” a curious title, which
seems to suggest a storm on a mountain peak.
She was the daughter of an English clergyman, the
Rev. Patrick Bronte, who was the most insignificant,
selfish, lethargic, pretentious creature the mind can
conceive. There were only two things in life that
seemed of importance to himthe purity
of his Greek profile, and solicitude for his digestion.
As for Emily’s unfortunate mother, her whole
life would seem to have been spent in admiring this
Greek profile and in studying this digestion.
But there is scarcely need to dwell upon her existence,
for she died only two years after Emily’s birth.
It is of interest to note, howeverif only
to prove once again that, in ordinary life, the woman
is usually superior to the man she has had to acceptthat
long after the death of the patient wife a bundle
of letters was found, wherein it was clearly revealed
that she who had always been silent was fully alive
to the indifference and fatuous self-love of her vain
and indolent husband. We may, it is true, be
conscious of faults in others from which we are ourselves
not exempt; although to discover a virtue, perhaps,
we must needs have a germ of it in us. Such were
Emily’s parents. Around her, four sisters
and one brother gravely watched the monotonous flight
of the hours. The family dwelling, where Emily’s
whole life was spent, was in the heart of the Yorkshire
Moors, at a place called Haworth, a gloomy, desolate
village; barren, forsaken, and lonely.
There can never have been a childhood
and youth so friendless, monotonous, and dreary as
that of Emily and her sisters. There came to
them none of those happy little adventures, bright
gleams from the unexpected, which we broider and magnify
as the years go by, and store at last in our soul
as the one inexhaustible treasure acquired by the
smiling memory of life. Each day was the same,
from first to lastlessons, meals, household
duties, work beside an old aunt, and long solitary
walks that these grave little girls would take hand
in hand, speaking but seldom, across the heather now
gay with blossom, now white beneath the snow.
At home the father they scarcely saw, who was wholly
indifferent, who took his meals in his room, and would
come down at night to the rectory parlour and read
aloud the appallingly dreary debates of the House
of Commons: without, the silence of the adjoining
graveyard, the great treeless desert, and the moors
that from autumn to summer were swept by the pitiless
wind from the north.
The hazard of lifefor
in every life some effort is put forth by fatethe
hazard of life removed Emily three or four times from
the desert she had grown to love, and to consideras
will happen to those who remain too long in one spotthe
only place in the world where the plants, and the
earth, and the sky were truly real and delightful.
But after a few weeks’ absence the light would
fade from her ardent, beautiful eyes; she pined for
home; and one or another of the sisters must hasten
to bring her back to the lonely vicarage.
In 1843she was then twenty-fiveshe
returned once again, never more to go forth until
summoned by death. Not an event, or a smile, or
a whisper of love in the whole of her life to the
day of this final return. Nor was her memory
charged with one of those griefs or deceptions, which
enable the weaklings, or those who demand too little
of life, to imagine that passive fidelity to something
that has of itself collapsed is an act of virtue;
that inactivity is justified by the tears wherein
it is bathed; and that the duty of life is accomplished
when suffering has been made to yield up all its resignation
and sorrow.
Here, in this virgin soul, whose past
was a blank, there was nothing for memory or resignation
to cling to; nothing before that last journey, as
nothing after; unless it be mournful vigils by the
side of the brother she nursedthe almost
demented brother, whose life was wrecked by his idleness
and a great unfortunate passion; who became an incurable
opium-eater and drunkard. Then, shortly before
her twenty-ninth birthday, on a December afternoon,
as she sat in the little whitewashed parlour combing
her long black hair, the comb slipped from the fingers
that were too weak to retain it, and fell into the
fire; and death came to her, more silent even than
life, and bore her away from the pale embraces of
the two sisters whom fortune had left her.
101. “No touch of love,
no hint of fame, no hours of ease lie for you across
the knees of fate,” exclaims Miss Mary Robinson,
who has chronicled this existence, in a fine outburst
of sorrow. And truly, viewed from without, what
life could be more dreary and colourless, more futile
and icily cold, than that of Emily Bronte? But
where shall we take our stand, when we pass such a
life in review, so as best to discover its truth,
to judge it, approve it, and love it? How different
it all appears as we leave the little parsonage, hidden
away on the moors, and let our eyes rest on the soul
of our heroine! It is rare indeed that we thus
can follow the life of a soul in a body that knew
no adventure; but it is less rare than might be imagined
that a soul should have life of its own, which hardly
depends, if at all, on incident of week or of year.
In “Wuthering Heights”wherein
this soul gives to the world its passions, desires,
reflections, realisations, ideals, which is, in a
word, its real historyin “Wuthering
Heights” there is more adventure, more passion,
more energy, more ardour, more love, than is needed
to give life or fulfilment to twenty heroic existences,
twenty destinies of gladness or sorrow. Not a
single event ever paused as it passed by her threshold;
yet did every event she could claim take place in
her heart, with incomparable force and beauty, with
matchless precision and detail. We say that nothing
ever happened; but did not all things really happen
to her much more directly and tangibly than unto most
of us, seeing that everything that took place about
her, everything that she saw or heard, was transformed
within her into thoughts and feelings, into indulgent
love, admiration, adoration of life? What matter
whether the event fall on our neighbour’s roof
or our own? The rain-drops the cloud brings with
it are for him who will hold out his vessel; and the
gladness, the beauty, the peace, or the helpful disquiet
that is found in the gesture of fate, belongs only
to him who has learned to reflect. Love never
came to her: there fell never once on her ear
the lover’s magical footfall; and, for all that,
this virgin, who died in her twenty-ninth year, has
known love, has spoken of love, has penetrated its
most impenetrable secrets to such a degree, that those
who have loved the most deeply must sometimes uneasily
wonder what name they should give to the passion they
feel, when she pours forth the words, exaltation and
mystery of a love beside which all else seems pallid
and casual. Where, if not in her heart, has she
heard the matchless words of the girl, who speaks
to her nurse of the man who is hated and harassed by
all, but whom she wholly adores? “My great
miseries in this world have been Heathcliff’s
miseries, and I watched and felt each from the beginning;
my great thought in living is himself. If all
else perished, and he remained, I should
still continue to be; and if all else remained, and
he were annihilated, the universe would turn to a mighty
stranger; I should not seem a part of it. My
love for Linton is like the foliage in the woods:
time will change it, I’m well aware, as winter
changes the trees. My love for Heathcliff resembles
the eternal rocks beneatha source of little
visible delight, but necessary. Nelly, I am
Heathcliff! He’s always, always in my mind:
not as a pleasure, any more than I am always a pleasure
to myself, but as my own being. ... I do not
love him because he’s handsome, but because he’s
more myself than I am. Whatever our souls are
made of, his and mine are the same.” ...
She has but little acquaintance with
the external realities of love, and these she handles
so innocently at times as almost to provoke a smile;
but where can she have acquired her knowledge of those
inner realities, that are interwoven with all that
is profoundest and most illogical in passion, with
all that is most unexpected, most impossible, and
most eternally true? We feel that one must have
lived for thirty years beneath burning chains of burning
kisses to learn what she has learned; to dare so confidently
set forth, with such minuteness, such unerring certainty,
the delirium of those two predestined lovers of “Wuthering
Heights”; to mark the self-conflicting movements
of the tenderness that would make suffer and the cruelty
that would make glad, the felicity that prayed for
death and the despair that clung to life; the repulsion
that desired, the desire drunk with repulsionlove
surcharged with hatred, hatred staggering beneath its
load of love. ...
And yet it is known to usfor
in this poor life of hers all lies openthat
she neither loved nor was loved. May it be true
then that the last word of an existence is only a
word that destiny whispers low to what lies most hidden
in our heart? Have we indeed an inner life that
yields not in reality to the outer life; that is no
less susceptible of experience and impression?
Can we live, it matters not where, and love, and hate,
listening for no footfall, spurning no creature?
Is the soul self-sufficient; and is it always the soul
that decides, a certain height once gained? Is
it only to those whose conscience still slumbers that
events can seem sad or sterile? Did not love
and beauty, happiness and adventuredid
not all that we go in search of along the ways of
life congregate in Emily Bronte’s heart?
Day after day passed by, with never a joy or emotion;
never a smile that the eye could see or the hand could
touch; wherefore none the less did her destiny find
its fulfilment, for the confidence within her, the
eagerness, hope, animation, all were astir; and her
heart was flooded with light, and radiant with silent
gladness. Of her happiness none can doubt.
Not in the soul of the best of all those whose happiness
has lasted the longest, been the most active, diversified,
perfect, could more imperishable harvest be found
than in the soul Emily Bronte lays bare. If to
her there came nothing of all that passes in joy and
in love, in sorrow, passion, and anguish, still did
she possess all that abides when emotion has faded
away. Which of the two will know more of the
marvellous palacethe blind man who lives
there, or the other, with wide-open eyes, who perhaps
only enters it once? “To live, not to live”we
must not let mere words mislead us. It is surely
possible to live without thought, but not to think,
without active life. The essence of the joy or
sorrow the event contains lies in the idea the event
gives birth to: our own idea, if we are strong;
that of others, if we are weak. On your way to
the grave there may come a thousand external events
towards you, whereof not one, it may be, shall find
within you the force that it needs to turn to moral
event. Then may you truthfully say, and then
only, “I have perhaps not lived.”
The intimate happiness of our heroine, as of every
human being, was in exact proportion to her morality
and her sense of the universe; and these indeed are
the clearings in the forest of accidents whose area
it is well we should know when we seek to measure
the happiness a life has experienced. Who that
had gained the altitude of peace and comprehension
whereon her soul reposed would still be wrought to
feeble, bitter, unrefreshing tears by the cares and
troubles and deceptions of ordinary life? Who
would not then understand why it was that she shed
no tears, unlike so many of her sisters, who spend
their lives in plaintive wanderings from one broken
joy to another? The joy that is dead weighs heavy,
and bids fair to crush us, if we cause it to be with
us for ever; which is as though a wood-cutter should
refuse to lay down his load of dead wood. For
dead wood was not made to be eternally borne on the
shoulder, but indeed to be burned, and give forth
brilliant flame. And as we behold the names that
soar aloft in Emily’s soul, then are we as heedless
as she was of the sorrows of the dead wood. No
misfortune but has its horizon, no sadness but shall
know comfort, for the man who in the midst of his
suffering, in the midst of the grief that must come
to him as to all, has learned to espy Nature’s
ample gesture beneath all sorrow and suffering, and
has become aware that this gesture alone is real.
“The sage, who is lord of his life, can never
truly be said to suffer.” wrote an admirable
woman, who had known much sorrow herself. “It
is from the heights above that he looks down on his
life, and if to-day he should seem to suffer, it is
only because he has allowed his thoughts to incline
towards the less perfect part of his soul.”
Emily Bronte not only breathes life into tenderness,
loyalty, and love, but into hatred and wickedness also;
nay, into the very fiercest revengeful ness, the most
deliberate perfidy; nor does she deem it incumbent
upon her to pardon, for pardon implies only incomplete
comprehension. She sees, she admits, and she loves.
She admits the evil as well as the good, she gives
life to both; well knowing that evil, when all is
said, is only righteousness strayed from the path.
She reveals to usnot with the moralist’s
arbitrary formula, but as men and years reveal the
truths we have wit to graspthe final helplessness
of evil, brought face to face with life; the final
appeasement of all things in nature as well as in death,
“which is only the triumph of life over one
of its specialised forms.” She shows how
the dexterous lie, begotten of genius and strength,
is forced to bow down before the most ignorant, puniest
truth; she shows the self-deception of hatred that
sows, all unwilling, the seeds of gladness and love
in the life that it anxiously schemes to destroy.
She is, perhaps, the first to base a plea for indulgence
on the great law of heredity; and when, at the end
of her book, she goes to the village churchyard and
visits the eternal resting-place of her heroes, the
grass grows green alike over grave of tyrant and martyr;
and she wonders how “any one could ever imagine
unquiet slumbers for the sleepers in that quiet earth.”
102. I am well aware that here
we are dealing with a woman of genius; but genius
only throws into bolder relief all that can, and actually
does, take place in the lives of all men; otherwise
were it genius no longer, but incoherence or madness.
It becomes clear to us, after a time, that genius
is by no means confined to the extraordinary; and
that veritable superiority is composed of elements
that every day offers to every man. But we are
not considering literature now; and indeed, not by
her literary gifts, but by her inner life, was Emily
Bronte comforted; for it by no means follows that moral
activity waits on brilliant literary powers.
Had she remained silent, nor ever grasped a pen, still
had there been no diminution of the power within her,
of the smile and the fulness of love; still had she
worn the air of one who knew whither her steps were
tending; and the profound certainty that dwelt within
her still had proclaimed that she had known how to
make her peace, far up on the heights, with the great
disquiet and misery of the world. We should never
have known of herthat is all.
There is much to be learned from this
humble life, and yet were it perhaps not well to hold
it forth as an example to such as already incline
overmuch to resignation, for these it might mislead.
It is a life that would seem to have been wholly passiveand
to be passive is not good for all. She died a
virgin in her twenty-ninth year: and it is sad
to die a virgin. Is it not the paramount duty
of every human being to offer to his destiny all that
can be offered to the destiny of man? And indeed
we had far better leave behind us work unfinished than
life itself incomplete. It is good to be indifferent
to vain or idle pleasures; but we have no right almost
voluntarily to neglect the most important chances
of indispensable happiness. The soul that is unhappy
may have within it cause for noble regret. To
look largely on the sadness of one’s life is
to make essay, in the darkness, of the wings that
shall one day enable us to soar high above this sadness.
Effort was lacking, perhaps, in Emily Bronte’s
life. (In her soul there was wealth of passion and
freedom and daring, but in her life timidity, silence,
inertness, conventions, and prejudice; the very things
that in thought she despised.) This is the history
often of the too-meditative soul. But it is difficult
to pass judgment on an entire existence; and here
there were much to be said of the devotion wherewith
she sacrificed the best years of her youth to an undeserving,
though unfortunate, brother. Our remarks then,
in a case such as this, must be understood generally
only; but still, how long and how narrow is the path
that leads from the soul to life! Our thoughts
of love, of justice and loyalty, our thoughts of bold
ambitionwhat are all these but acorns
that fall from the oak in the forest? and must not
thousands and tens of thousands be lost and rot in
the lichen ere a single tree spring to life?
“She had a beautiful soul,” said, speaking
of another woman, the woman whose words I quoted above,
“a wide intellect, and tender heart, but ere
these qualities could issue forth into life they had
perforce to traverse a straitened character. Again
and again have I wondered at this want of self-knowledge,
of return to self. The man who would wish us
to see the deepest recess of his life will begin by
telling us all that he thinks and he feels, will lead
as to his point of view; we are conscious, perhaps,
of much elevation of soul; then, as we enter with
him still further into his life, he tells of his conduct,
his joys and his sorrows; and in these we detect not
a gleam of the soul that had shone through his thoughts
and desires. When the trumpet is sounded for
action, the instincts rush in, the character hastens
between; but the soul stands aloof: the soul,
which is man’s very highest, being like the
princess who elects to live on in arrogant penury
rather than soil her hands with ordinary labour.”
Yes, alas, all is useless till such time as we have
learned to harden our hands; to transform the gold
and silver of thought into a key that shall open,
not the ivory gate of our dreams, but the very door
of this our dwellinginto a cup that shall
hold, not only the wondrous water of dreams, but the
living water that falls, drop by drop, on our roofinto
scales, not content vaguely to balance schemes for
the future, but that record, with unerring accuracy,
what we have done to-day. The very loftiest ideal
has taken no root within us, so long as it penetrate
not every limb, so long as it palpitate not at our
finger-tip. Some there are whose intellect profits
by this return to self; with others, the character
gains. The first have clearest vision for all
that concerns not themselves, that calls them not to
action; but it is above all when stern reality confronts
them, and time for action has come, that the eyes
of the others glow bright. One might almost believe
in there being an intellectual consciousness, languidly
resting for ever upon an immovable throne, whence she
issues commands to the will through faithless or indolent
envoys, and a moral consciousness, incessantly stirring,
afoot, at all times ready to march. It may be
that this latter consciousness depends on the formerindeed
who shall say that she is not the former, wearied from
long repose, wherein she has learned all that was to
be learned; that has at last determined to rise, to
descend the steps of inactivity and sally forth into
life? And all will be well, if only she have not
tarried so long that her limbs refuse their office.
Is it not preferable sometimes to act in opposition
to our thoughts than never dare to act in accord with
them? Rarely indeed is the active error irremediable;
men and things are quickly on the spot, eager to set
it right; but they are helpless before the passive
error that has shunned contact with the real.
Let all this, however, by no means be construed into
meaning that the intellectual consciousness must be
starved, or its growth arrested, for fear lest it
outpace the moral consciousness. We need have
no fear; no ideal conceived by man can be too admirable
for life to conform with it. To float the smallest
act of justice or love requires a very torrent of
desire for good. For our conduct only to be honest
we must have thoughts within us ten times loftier than
our conduct. Even to keep somewhat clear of evil
bespeaks enormous craving for good. Of all the
forces in the world there is none melts so quickly
away as the thought that has to descend into everyday
life; wherefore we must needs be heroic in thought
for our deeds to pass muster, or at the least be harmless.
103. Let us once again, and for
the last time, return to obscure destinies. They
teach us that, physical misfortune apart, there is
remedy for all; and that to complain of destiny is
only to expose our own feebleness of soul. We
are told in the history of Rome how a certain Julius
Sabinus, a senator from Gaul, headed a revolt
against the Emperor Vespasian, and was duly defeated.
He might have sought refuge among the Germans, but
only by leaving his young wife, Eponina, behind him,
and he had not the heart to forsake her. At moments
of disaster and sorrow we learn the true value of
life; nor did Julius Sabinus welcome the
idea of death. He possessed a villa, beneath which
there stretched vast subterranean caverns, known only
to him and two freedmen. This villa he caused
to be burned, and the rumour was spread that he had
sought death by poison, and that his body was consumed
by the flames. Eponina herself was deceived,
says Plutarch, whose story I follow, with the additions
made thereto by the Comte de Champagny, the historian
of Antoninus; and when Martialis the freedman
told her of her husband’s self-slaughter, she
lay for three days and three nights on the ground,
refusing all nourishment. When Sabinus heard
of her grief, he took pity and caused her to know
that he lived. She none the less mourned and
shed floods of tears, in the daytime, when people were
near, but when night fell she sought him below in his
cavern. For seven long months did she thus confront
the shades, every night, to be with her husband; she
even attempted to help him escape; she shaved off his
hair and his beard, wrapped his head round with fillets,
disguised him, and then had him sent, in a bundle
of clothes, to her own native city. But his stay
there becoming unsafe, she soon brought him back to
his cavern; and herself divided her stay between town
and the country, spending her nights with him, and
from time to time going to town to be seen by her
friends. She became big with child, and, by means
of an unguent wherewith she anointed her body, her
condition remained unsuspected by even the women at
the baths, which at that time were taken in common.
And when her confinement drew nigh she went down to
her cavern, and there, with no midwife, alone, she
gave birth to two sons, as a lioness throws off her
cubs. She nourished her twins with her milk,
she nursed them through childhood; and for nine years
she stood by her husband in the gloom and the darkness.
But Sabinus at last was discovered and taken
to Rome. He surely would seem to have merited
Vespasian’s pardon. Eponina led forth the
two sons she had reared in the depths of the earth,
and said to the Emperor, “These have I brought
into the world and fed on my milk, that we might one
day be more to implore thy forgiveness.”
Tears filled the eyes of all who were there; but Cæsar
stood firm, and the brave Gaul at last was reduced
to demand permission to die with her husband.
“I have known more happiness with him in the
darkness,” she cried, “than thou ever shalt
know, O Cæsar, in the full glare of the sunshine,
or in all the splendour of thy mighty empire.”
Who that has a heart within him can
doubt the truth of her words, or think without longing
of the darkness that so great a love illumined?
Many a dreary, miserable hour must have crawled by
as they crouched in their hiding-place; but are there
any, even among those who care only for the pettiest
pleasures of life, who would not rather love with such
depth and fervour in what was almost a tomb, than flaunt
a frigid affection in the heat and light of the sun?
Eponina’s magnificent cry is the cry of all
those whose hearts have been touched by love; as it
is also the cry of those whose soul has discovered
an interest, duty, or even a hope, in life. The
flame that inspired Eponina inspires the sage also,
lost in monotonous hours as she in her gloomy retreat.
Love is the unconscious sun of our soul; and it is
when its beams are most ardent, and purest, that they
bear most surprising resemblance to those that the
soul, aglow with justice and truth, with beauty and
majesty, has kindled within itself, and adds to, incessantly.
Is not the happiness that accident brought to the
heart of Eponina within reach of every heart, so the
will to possess it be there? Is not all that was
sweetest in this love of hersthe devotion
of self, the transformation of regret into happiness,
of pleasure renounced into joy that abides in the
heart for ever; the interest awakened each day by the
feeblest glimmer of light, so it fall on a thing one
admires; the immersion in radiance, in happiness susceptible
of infinite expansion, for one has only to worship
the moreare not all these, and a thousand
other forces no less helpful, no less consoling, to
be found in the intensest life of our soul, of our
heart, of our thoughts? And was Eponina’s
love other than a sudden lightning flash from this
life of the soul, come to her, all unconscious and
unprepared? Love does not always reflect; often
indeed does it need no reflection, no search into self,
to enjoy what is best in thought; but, none the less,
all that is best in love is closely akin to all that
is best in thought. Suffering seemed ever radiant
in aspect to Eponina, because of her love; but cannot
this thing that love brings about, all unknowing,
by fortunate accident, be also achieved by thought,
meditation, by the habit of looking beyond our immediate
trouble, and being more joyous than fate would seem
to demand? To Eponina there came not a sorrow
but kindled yet one more torch in the gloom of her
cavern; and does not the sadness that forces the soul
back into itself, to the retreat it has made, kindle
deep consolation there? And, as the noble Eponina
has taken us back to the days of persecution, may
we not liken such sorrow to the pagan executioner
who, suddenly touched by grace, or perhaps admiration,
in the very midst of the torture that he was inflicting,
flung himself down headlong at the feet of his victim,
speaking words of tenderest sympathy; who demanded
to share her suffering, and finally besought, in a
kiss, to be told the way to her heaven.
104. Go where we will, the plentiful
river of life flows on, beneath the canopy of heaven.
It flows between prison walls, where the sun never
gleams on its waters; as it flows by the palace steps,
where all is gladness and glory. Not our concern
the depth of this river, or its width, or the strength
of its current, as it streams on for ever, pertaining
to all; but of deepest importance to us is the size
and the purity of the cup that we plunge in its waters.
For whatever of life we absorb must needs take the
form of this cup, as this, too, has taken the form
of our thoughts and our feelings; being modelled, indeed,
on the breast of our intimate destiny as the breast
of a goddess once served for the cup of the sculptor
of old. Every man has the cup of his fashioning,
and most often the cup he has learned to desire.
When we murmur at fate, let our grievance be only
that she grafted not in our heart the wish for, or
thought of, a cup more ample and perfect. For
indeed in the wish alone does inequality lie, but this
inequality vanishes the moment it has been perceived.
Does the thought that our wish might be nobler not
at once bring nobility with it; does not the breast
of our destiny throb to this new aspiration, thereby
expanding the docile cup of the idealthe
cup whose metal is pliable, still to the cold stern
hour of death? No cause for complaint has he who
has learned that his feelings are lacking in generous
ardour, or the other who nurses within him a hope
for a little more happiness, a little more beauty,
a little more justice. For here all things come
to pass in the way that they tell us it happens with
the felicity of the elect, of whom each one is robed
in gladness, and wears the garment befitting his stature.
Nor can he desire a happiness more perfect than the
happiness which he possesses, without the desire wherewith
he desired at once bringing fulfilment with it.
If I envy with noble envy the happiness of those who
are able to plunge a heavier cup, and more radiant
than mine, there where the great river is brightest,
I have, though I know it not, my excellent share of
all that they draw from the river, and my lips repose
by the side of their lips on the rim of the shining
cup.
105. It may be remembered perhaps
that, before these digressions, we spoke of a woman
whose friend asked her, wonderingly, “Can any
man be worthy of your love?” The same question
might have been asked of Emily Bronte, as indeed of
many others; and in this world there are thousands
of souls, of loftiest intention, that do yet forfeit
the best years of love in constant self-interrogation
as to the future of their affections. Nay, morein
the empire of destiny it is to the image of love that
the great mass of complaints and regrets come flocking;
the image of love around which hover sluggish desire,
extravagant hope, and fears engendered of vanity.
At root of all this is much pride, and counterfeit
poetry, and falsehood. The soul that is misunderstood
is most often the one that has made the least effort
to gain some knowledge of self. The feeblest
ideal, the one that is narrowest, straitest, most
often will thrive on deception and fear, on exaction
and petty contempt. We dread above all lest any
should slight, or pass by unnoticed, the virtues and
thoughts, the spiritual beauty, that exist only in
our imagination. It is with merits of this nature
as it is with our material welfarehope
clings most persistently to that which we probably
never shall have the strength to acquire. The
cheat through whose mind some momentary thought of
amendment has passed, is amazed that we offer not
instant, surpassing homage to the feeling of honour
that has, for brief space, found shelter within him.
But if we are truly pure, and sincere, and unselfish;
if our thoughts soar aloft of themselves, in all simpleness,
high above vanity or instinctive selfishness, then
are we far less concerned than those who are near us
should understand, should approve, or admire.
Epictetus, Marcus Aurelius, Antoninus Pius are not
known to have ever complained that men could not understand
them. They hugged no belief to themselves that
something extraordinary, incomprehensible, lay buried
within them; they held, on the contrary, that whatever
was best in their virtue was that which it needed
no effort for all men to grasp and admit. But
there are some morbid virtues that are passed by unnoticed,
and not without reasonfor there will almost
always be some superior reason for the powerlessness
of a feelingmorbid virtues to which we
often ascribe far too great an importance; and that
virtue will surely be morbid that we rate over highly
and hold to deserve the respectful attention of others.
In a morbid virtue there is often more harm than there
is in a healthy vice; in any event it is farther removed
from truth; and there is but little to hope for when
we are divided from truth. As our ideal becomes
loftier so does it become more real; and the nobler
our soul, the less does it dread that it meet not
a soul of its stature; for it must have drawn near
unto truth, in whose neighbourhood all things must
take of its greatness. When Dante had gained the
third sphere, and stood in the midst of the heavenly
lights, all shining with uniform splendour, he saw
that around him naught moved, and wondered was he
standing motionless there, or indeed drawing nearer
unto the seat of God? So he cast his eyes upon
Beatrice; and she seemed more beautiful to him; wherefore
he knew that he was approaching his goal. And
so can we too count the steps that we take on the
highway of truth, by the increase of love that comes
for all that goes with us in life; the increase of
love and of glad curiosity, of respect and of deep
admiration.
106. Men, as a rule, sally forth
from their homes seeking beauty and joy, truth and
love; and are glad to be able to say to their children,
on their return, that they have met nothing. To
be for ever complaining argues much pride; and those
who accuse love and life are the ones who imagine
that these should bestow something more than they can
acquire for themselves. Love, it is true, like
all else, claims the highest possible ideal; but every
ideal that conforms not with some strenuous inward,
reality is nothing but falsehoodsterile
and futile, obsequious falsehood. Two or three
ideals, that lie out of our reach, will suffice to
paralyse life. It is wrong to believe that loftiness
of soul is governed by the loftiness of desire or
dream. The dreams of the weak will be often more
numerous, lovelier, than are those of the strong;
for these dreams absorb all their energy, all their
activity. The perpetual craving for loftiness
does not count in our moral advancement if it be not
the shadow thrown by the life we have lived, by the
firm and experienced will that has come in close kinship
with man. Then, indeed, as one places a rod at
the foot of the steeple to tell of its height by the
shadow, so may we lead forth this craving of ours
to the midst of the plain that is lit by the sun of
external reality, that thus we may tell what relation
exists between the shadow thrown by the hour and the
dome of eternity.
107. It is well that a noble
heart should await a great love; better still that
this heart, all expectant, should cease not from loving;
and that, as it loves, it should scarcely be conscious
of its desire for more exquisite love. In love
as in life, expectation avails us but little; through
loving we learn to love; and it is the so-called disillusions
of pettier love that will, the most simply and faithfully,
feed the immovable flame of the mightier love that
shall come, it may be, to illumine the rest of our
life.
We treat disillusions often with scantiest
justice. We conceive them of sorrowful countenance,
pale and discouraged; whereas they are really the
very first smiles of truth. Why should disillusion
distress you, if you are a man of honest intention,
if you strive to be just, and of service; if you seek
to be happy and wise? Would you rather live on
in the world of your dreams and your errors than in
the world that is real? Only too often does many
a promising nature waste its most precious hours in
the struggle of beautiful dream against inevitable
law, whose beauty is only perceived when every vestige
of strength has been sapped by the exquisite dream.
If love has deceived you, do you think that it would
have been better for you all your life to regard love
as something it is not, and never can be? Would
such an illusion not warp your most significant actions;
would it not for many days hide from you some part
of the truth that you seek? Or if you imagine
that greatness lay in your grasp, and disillusion
has taken you back to your place in the second rank;
have you the right, for the rest of your life, to
curse the envoy of truth? For, after all, was
it not truth your illusion was seeking, assuming it
to have been sincere? We should try to regard
disillusions as mysterious, faithful friends, as councillors
none can corrupt, And should there be one more cruel
than the rest, that for an instant prostrates you,
do not murmur to yourself through your tears that
life is less beautiful than you had dreamed it to
be, but rather that in your dream there must have been
something lacking, since real life has failed to approve.
And indeed the much-vaunted strength of the strenuous
soul is built up of disillusions only, that this soul
has cheerfully welcomed. Every deception and love
disappointed, every hope that has crumbled to dust,
is possessed of a strength of its own that it adds
to the strength of your truth; and the more disillusions
there are that fall to the earth at your feet, the
more surely and nobly will great reality shine on youeven
as the rays of the sun are beheld the more clearly
in winter, as they pierce through the leafless branches
of the trees of the forest.
108. And if it be a great love
that you seek, how can you believe that a soul shall
be met with of beauty as great as you dream it to be,
if you seek it with nothing but dreams? Have
you the right to expect that definite words and positive
actions shall offer themselves in exchange for mere
formless desire, and yearning, and vision? Yet
thus it is most of us act. And if some fortunate
chance at last accords our desire, and places us in
presence of the being who is all we had dreamed her
to beare we entitled to hope that our
idle and wandering cravings shall long be in unison
with her vigorous, established reality? Our ideal
will never be met with in life unless we have first
achieved it within us to the fullest extent in our
power. Do you hope to discover and win for yourself
a loyal, profound, inexhaustible soul, loving and quick
with life, faithful and powerful, unconstrained, free:
generous, brave, and benevolentif you
know less well than this soul what all these qualities
mean? And how should you know, if you have not
loved them and lived in their midst, as this soul
has loved and lived? Most exacting of all things,
unskilful, thick-sighted, is the moral beauty, perfection,
or goodness that is still in the shape of desire.
If it be your one hope to meet with an ideal soul,
would it not be well that you yourself should endeavour
to draw nigh to your own ideal? Be sure that
by no other means will you ever obtain your desire.
And as you approach this ideal it will dawn on you
more and more clearly how fortunate and wisely ordained
it has been that the ideal should ever be different
from what our vague hopes were expecting. So too
when the ideal takes shape, as it comes into contact
with life, will it soften, expand, and lose its rigidity,
incessantly growing more noble. And then will
you readily perceive, in the creature you love, all
that which is eternally true in yourself, and solidly
righteous, and essentially beautiful; for only the
good in our heart can advise us of the goodness that
hides by our side. Then, at last, will the imperfections
of others no longer seem of importance to you, for
they will no longer be able to wound your vanity,
selfishness, and ignorance; imperfections, that is,
which have ceased to resemble your own; for it is
the evil that lies in ourselves that is ever least
tolerant of the evil that dwells within others.
109. Let us have the same confidence
in love that we have in life; for confidence is of
our essence; and the thought that works the most harm
in all things is the one that inclines us to look with
mistrust on reality. I have known more than one
life that love broke asunder; but if it had not been
love, these lives would no doubt have been broken no
less by friendship or apathy, by doubt, hesitation,
indifference, inaction. For that only which in
itself is fragile can be rent in the heart by love;
and where all is broken that the heart contains, then
must all have been far too frail. There exists
not a creature but must more than once have believed
that his life was crushed; but they whose life has
indeed been shattered, and has fallen to ruin, owe
their misfortune often to some strange vanity of the
very ruin. Fortunate and unfortunate hazards
there must of necessity be in love as in all the rest
of our destiny. It may so come about that one
whose spirit and heart are abounding with tenderness,
energy, and the noblest of human desires, shall meet,
on his first setting forth, all unsought, the soul
that shall satisfy each single craving of love in the
ecstasy of permanent joy; the soul that shall content
the loftiest yearning no less than the lowliest:
the vastest, the mightiest no less than the daintiest,
sweetest: the most eternal no less than the most
evanescent. He, it may be, shall instantly find
the heart whereto he can givethe heart
which will ever receiveall that is best
in himself. It may happen that he shall at once
have attained the soul that perchance is unique; the
soul that is satisfied always, and always filled with
desire; the soul that can ever receive many thousand
times more than is given, and that never fails to
return many thousand times more than it receives.
For the love that the years cannot alter is built up
of exchanges like these, of sweet inequality; and
naught do we ever truly possess but that which we
give in our love; and whatever our love bestows, we
are no longer alone to enjoy.
110. Destinies sometimes are
met with that thus are perfectly happy; and each man,
it may be, is entitled to hope that such may one day
be his; yet must his hope be never permitted to fasten
chains on his life. All he can do is to make
preparation one day to deserve such a love; and he
will be most patient and tranquil who incessantly strives
to this end. It might so have happened that he
whom we spoke of just now should, day after day, from
youth to old age, have passed by the side of the wall
behind which his happiness lay waiting, enwrapped in
too secret a silence. But if happiness lie yonder
side of the wall, must despair and disaster of necessity
dwell on the other? Is not something of happiness
to be found in our thus being able to pass by the side
of our happiness? Is it not better to feel that
a mere slender chancetransparent, one
almost might call itis all that extends
between us and the exquisite love that we dream of,
than to be divided for ever therefrom by all that
is worthless within us, undeserving, inhuman, abnormal?
Happy is he who can gather the flower, and bear it
away in his bosom; yet have we no cause to pity the
other who walks until nightfall, steeped in the glorious
perfume of the flower no eyes can behold. Must
the life be a failure, useless and valueless, that
is not as completely happy as it possibly might have
been? It is you yourself would have brought what
was best in the love you regret; and if, as we said,
the soul at the end possess only what it has given,
does not something already belong to us when we are
incessantly seeking for chances of giving? Ah
yesI declare that the joy of a perfect,
abiding love is the greatest this world contains; and
yet, if you find not this love, naught will be lost
of all you have done to deserve it, for this will
go to deepen the peace of your heart, and render still
braver and purer the calm of the rest of your days.
111. And, besides, we always
can love. If our own love be admirable, most
of the joys of admirable love will be ours. In
the most perfect love, the lovers’ happiness
will not be exactly the same, be their union never
so close; for the better of the two needs must love
with a love that is deeper; and the one that loves
with a deeper love must be surely the happier.
Let your task be to render yourself worthy of loveand
this even more for your own happiness than for that
of another. For be sure that when love is unequal,
and the hours come clouded with sorrow, it is not
the wiser of the two who will suffer the mostnot
the one that shows more generosity, justice, more high-minded
passion. The one who is better will rarely become
the victim deserving our pity. For, indeed, to
be truly a victim it must be our own faults, our injustice,
wrongdoing, beneath which we suffer. However imperfect
you be, you still may suffice for the love of a marvellous
being; but for your love, if you are not perfect,
that being will never suffice. If fortune one
day should lead to your dwelling the woman adorned
with each gift of heart and of intellectsuch
a woman as history tells of, a heroine of glory, happiness,
loveyou will still be all unaware if you
have not learned, yourself, to detect and to love these
gifts in actual life; and what is actual life to each
man but the life that he lives himself? All that
is loyal within you will flower in the loyalty of
the woman you love; whatever of truth there abides
in your soul will be soothed by the truth that is
hers; and her strength of character can be only enjoyed
by that which is strong in you. And when a virtue
of the being we love finds not, on the threshold of
our heart, a virtue that resembles it somewhat, then
is it all unaware to whom it shall give the gladness
it brings.
112. And whatever the fate your
affections may meet with, do you never lose courage;
above all, do not think that, love’s happiness
having passed by you, you will never, right up to
the end, know the great joy of human life. For
though happiness appear in the form of a torrent, or
a river that flows underground, of a whirlpool or tranquil
lake, its source still is ever the same that lies
deep down in our heart; and the unhappiest man of
all men can conceive an idea of great joy. It
is true that in love there is ecstasy that he doubtless
never will know; but this ecstasy would leave deep
melancholy only in the earnest and faithful heart,
if there were not in veritable love something more
stable than ecstasy, more profound and more steadfast;
and all that in love is profoundest, most stable and
steadfast, is profoundest in noble lives toois
most stable and steadfast in them. Not to all
men is it given to be hero or genius, victorious,
admirable always, or even to be simply happy in exterior
things; but it lies in the power of the least favoured
among us to be loyal, and gentle, and just, to be generous
and brotherly; he that has least gifts of all can
learn to look on his fellows without envy or hatred,
without malice or futile regret; the outcast can take
his strange, silent part (which is not always that
of least service) in the gladness of those who are
near him; he that has barely a talent can still learn
to forgive an offence with an ever nobler forgiveness,
can find more excuses for error, more admiration for
human word and deed; and the man there are none to
love can love, and reverence, love. And, acting
thus, he too will have drawn near the source whither
happy ones flockoftener far than one thinks,
and in the most ardent hours of happiness eventhe
source over which they bend, to make sure that they
truly are happy. Far down, at the root of love’s
joysas at the root of the humble life of
the upright man from whom fate has withheld her smileit
is confidence, sincerity, generosity, tenderness,
that alone are truly fixed and unchangeable.
Love throws more lustre still on these points of light,
and therefore must love be sought. For the greatest
advantage of love is that it reveals to us many a
peaceful and gentle truth. The greatest advantage
of love is that it gives us occasion to love and admire
in one person, sole and unique, what we should have
had neither knowledge nor strength to love and admire
in the many; and that thus it expands our heart for
the time to come, And at the root of the most marvellous
love there never is more than the simplest felicity,
an adoration, a tenderness within the understanding
of all, a security, faith, and fidelity all can acquire
an intensely human admiration, devotionand
all these the eager, unfortunate heart could know
too, in its sorrowful life, had it only a little less
impatience and bitterness, a little more initiative
and energy.