“O, Auntee, what is it?”
The awed young voice paused at the threshold.
It was a sight the little girl had
never witnessed before she had seen Auntee
sad at occasional intervals, and a few times had looked
upon tears in the usually merry eyes of her beloved
chum, but never before had she beheld Auntee sobbing
in such an abandonment of grief.
There was a very tender tie of love
between these two Alsie, the dear little
twelve-year-old daughter of an older sister of the
family, and Alice, the only remaining unmarried child
of a household of many sons and daughters.
The family circle had never been broken,
however, and it was a household where love prevailed,
for although several members lived in far-away homes,
the flame of affection burned as brightly and the cord
of love bound them together as strongly as did ever
the same ties bind their sturdy Scotch ancestors into
clans.
Auntee (for that was Alsie’s
baby name for the aunt, with whom so many happy hours
had been spent) rose half way up from the bed with
a somewhat startled movement, but the sight of the
stricken little face at her side seemed to bring back
afresh the reminder of her pain, and she again buried
her face in the pillow with a sob.
After a few moments, however, the
young woman put her arm tenderly around the little
namesake and tried to explain.
“I did not intend to burden
you, Alsie dear, with my grief, but I feel so sad
and somehow I just couldn’t keep it shut in any
longer it had to come out.
But I thought you were playing with your little friend
Margaret, and I knew mother had started for the drug
store on an errand which would surely keep her an
hour.”
“Auntee, are you so sad because
dear Uncle James has gone away? You know grandma
said he had been called to his heavenly home, and there
are lots of us left to make you bright and happy.”
“So there are, Alsie, and I
will try to take courage in that thought, for surely
God wouldn’t take another loved one away from
us so soon so soon.” The last
two words were spoken pensively and as though she was
unconscious of the presence of the child. Little
Alsie’s face became white.
“O, Auntee, you don’t
mean that dear grandfather” her voice
faltered and she finished in a whisper “is
worse?”
Auntee regained her self-possession
in a moment and said hastily, “No, dear child,
no worse. But sit down with me and I will tell
you all about it. You must promise not to mention
it to grandmother, however, for we will have to be
brave together.” Then, sitting side by side
in the pretty little blue bedroom where only a few
months before so many joyous hours had been spent
in fixing everything up daintily to meet the gaze
of returned travelers, Aunt Alice related to young
Alice the story of her trip to the doctor’s
that very day, and how he had told her that the chances
were against the recovery of the beloved father and
grandfather, lying so patiently on his bed of pain
in the south bedchamber.
His health had begun to fail in the
spring, but grandfather, with his broad shoulders,
military bearing, and six feet of noble manhood, had
never been sick within the memory of either of these
two, and it was hard for them or, indeed,
any other to conceive that it was more than
a passing ailment, and would soon disappear. The
family became vaguely uneasy as the spring merged
into the summer, and a plan was proposed for the plump
little five-foot “wifey” to take her big
husband, the Captain, on a long trip to the seashore
and mountains.
The trip had been taken, but Captain
Gordon’s condition did not show the improvement
that the anxious members of his family had so earnestly
hoped to see, and after the return the busy little
wife immediately set about securing a couch for his
office, for the invalid insisted that he was able
to resume his duties. She explained that “the
Captain might rest a little now and then from his
labors,” for the sturdy old soldier would not
for a moment entertain the thought of giving up his
work the loved, chosen profession which
he had followed so faithfully and successfully since
he came out a gallant young officer of
twenty-three from the Civil War, the sole
survivor of the four members of his household who
had gone forth to fight for what was to be the Lost
Cause.
Everything at the office was made
especially comfortable, for how willingly would every
one have spared the quiet, kind professor, who combined
so wonderfully strength and manliness with gentleness
and lovableness of disposition.
The experiment lasted one week he
came home at the close of the sixth day and said quietly,
“I must get a substitute until I am well enough
to attend to my work as it should be done.”
So the substitute was secured and a consultation of
doctors followed, with the result that a new line
of treatment had been adopted. A few weeks failed
to bring good results, so other treatments had been
tried, until, a few weeks before, a skilled specialist
had ordered him off to the infirmary for a period of
several weeks.
The days spent here were days of great
suffering, but grandfather was a man of monumental
patience, and no word of complaint passed his lips.
It was just at this time that a crushing blow had
been dealt the hopeful, cheery little wifey, who had
always been laughingly termed “boss of the ranch,”
“head of the house,” and suchlike terms,
but whose right to these titles had never been disputed
by the indulgent husband or devoted sons and daughters,
for her ready hand always carried with it relief,
and her merry laugh brought cheer and sunshine.
Her only brother had been stricken,
and died within a few days, but the brave little wife
and mother had hidden her deep sorrow in her bosom,
and after a few days, only a smiling face was presented
about the house.
When the allotted time at the infirmary
had expired, the young doctor, who had studied the
case with such zeal and attended his patient with
the tender care of a son, brought him back to his home.
After having put her father to bed,
to rest from the weariness of the trip, Alice turned
around to the waiting physician, a foreboding anxiety
in her heart, and tried to make her question quite
natural:
“Well, doctor, how soon can
your friend, the specialist, have father well again?”
After a pause Dr. Emerson replied,
“He will not continue on the case, Miss Gordon.”
“O, doctor, what do you mean?
He has not given it up? I can not relinquish
hope I won’t.”
“And I do not wish you to, Miss
Gordon. Dr. Helm did not find your father’s
condition to be what he had expected, but we are going
to begin at once a treatment that has been practiced
with great success in Germany, in cases like his.”
Nothing more was said at that time
between them, but the memory of that conversation
was indelibly printed on Alice’s mind, and a
long night of the keenest anguish she had ever experienced,
followed.
She thought, and thought, and thought,
until the sounds from the sick-chamber near by, would
bring a flood of tender memories and her pillow would
be wet with tears.
It was thus that most of the night
was spent. Toward morning she sank into a deep
slumber, but, when she wakened, a terrible leaden weight
seemed to oppress her, and it was several hours before
the buoyant cheerfulness, with which she was by nature
endowed, could again assert itself.
After several days and nights spent
thus, Alice came to the wise conclusion that the situation
must be faced, for obvious reasons.
After this decision was reached, she
became more calm, and the next day, without consulting
any member of the family, slipped away to the doctor’s
downtown office, and waited patiently until he was
at leisure to see her.
Dr. Emerson seemed a little surprised
at her appearance, but said, “What is it, Miss
Gordon what can I do for you?”
“I only came, Dr. Emerson, to
say to you that I am now ready to hear what you have
to tell about my father. I want to know just how
much we may hope for or how little.”
Her voice faltered, but she continued, “I could
not listen a few days ago when you suggested that Dr.
Helm was not able to relieve him, but tell me all
now.”
Perhaps it was because the kind physician
felt sorry for the sorrowing daughter, or perhaps
it was because, personally, he cherished a deep affection
for the scholarly old gentleman on whom he was expending
his most earnest efforts, but whatever the reason,
he told her in the gentlest, kindest manner, enough
to make her understand that the chances were against
her father’s recovery. His concluding remarks,
however, were reassuring. “Please do not
understand for a moment, Miss Gordon, that I have
given up hope. I do not agree altogether with
Dr. Helm, and I feel that we have good ground for
expecting favorable results from the treatment that
we have recently begun.”
After hearing the news, Alice returned
home, to find a letter in which was a small check
from one of the loving family circle, to be spent in
a Christmas present for the dear sick one.
It had come to be a sort of habit
in the family for a few of the far-away members to
send little sums to Alice at Christmas time, in order
that the presents should be such as would give service
as well as pleasure.
The carrying out of these commissions
had always been a source of delight to both big and
little Alice, for did they not know best of
all the individual needs and hopes of each member of
the household? Who, then, could so well plan
and shop for the merry Christmas, which was always
a success in the Gordon household?
Yes, a merry, happy season it had
always been for, while all the comforts of a refined
home had ever been theirs, the provision of these
comforts had required constant economy and management
on the part of the busy little “wifey”
of the house. As the former children had grown
up and flitted away from the home nest to establish
families for themselves, they had gradually come to
realize that it was because of not having so
many things that they were enabled to get such a degree
of pleasure from those gifts which just fitted the
need, or perhaps those gifts, for which the ordinary
craving might be counted an extravagance.
It had always been the custom for
each one of the family to hang up his or her stocking,
and when the grandchildren began to appear upon the
scene, grandfather’s big sock always held a conspicuous
place among the stockings of all sizes.
It was the remembrance of all these
established customs that had caused the entire breakdown
of Alice’s walls of self-control (which she thought
had been so well built), and when little Alsie found
her there, alone in her chamber, in such deep distress,
it was not surprising that the little maid was frightened.
This was the first time that Alice
had ever confided to the child anything that was,
even, in a remote degree, depressing, but her heart
was so overwrought that she had poured out the whole
sad story to the little girl before time could be
taken for consideration of the wisdom of such a course.
A flicker of doubt, however, came to her as she saw
the troubled look of the child deepen into an expression
of pain and perplexity, and she continued, half apologetically,
“I ought not to feel so discouraged,
dearie, I know. I ought to be brave, but when
I tried to think what I could get for dear father
with the checks that will surely be coming in to me,
within the next two or three weeks, I felt so utterly
broken-hearted that I could do nothing but cry.”
The child put her arms tenderly around the neck of
her beloved aunt, and gave her message of sympathy
in mute kisses.
“I am completely at a loss to
know what to do,” said Alice, with emphasis.
“Here is Christmas, only a month distant I
have made no preparation, for I have had no heart
for it; we can not hang up the stockings after the
usual merry fashion, for it would be only a farce;
we should cry instead of laugh when we see them, so
I feel almost desperate to know what to do.
O, Alsie, can’t we think of some plan by which
we may give dear grandfather a merry Christmas, especially
if it is to be his last with us?”
“Auntee, I’ll think
of something I promise you I will and
it will be soon, too perhaps by to-morrow but
anyhow by the day after, so trust to me and let us
both hope that grandfather will get better.”
“I will, dear I will.
There! I feel more hopeful already. Don’t
you remember, when you were a wee tot, and would come
in and ask me for a piece of cake? When I would
say, ’Well, now, I wonder where grandma has
put that cake?’ you would reply, so eagerly,
’Fink hard, Auntee fink hard.’
You knew well that a real hard think would bring
results. Now we must both ‘think hard’
and see if we can’t produce a little genuine
Christmas cheer.”
They parted with this compact, and
when Alice, half an hour later, walked into Captain
Gordon’s sick-chamber, a pleasant smile was on
her lips and her voice had regained its usual composure.