The next morning brought a letter
from the farm bidding Claire welcome as soon as she
chose to arrive, but there was no second letter on
the table. Claire had not realised how confidently
she had expected its presence, until her heart sank
with a sick, heavy faintness as she lifted the one
envelope, and looked in vain for a second.
Erskine had not written. Did
that mean that he had taken her hasty answer as final,
and would make no further appeal? She had read
of men who had boasted haughtily that no girl should
have an opportunity of refusing them twice;
that the woman who did not know her own mind was no
wife for them, but like every other lover she felt
her own case to be unique. Driven to answer
in a moment of intolerable irritation, what else could
she have said?
But he had not written! What
did that mean? At the moment of discovering
her departure, Erskine had been consumed with anger,
but afterwards, had his mother’s counsels prevailed?
Had he repented himself of his hasty impulse?
Would the days pass on, and the months, and the years,
and leave her like Cecil, solitary, apart?
Claire made a pretence at eating her
breakfast, and then, too restless to stay indoors,
put on her hat, and went out to roam the streets until
it should be time to visit Sophie in her hospital.
Two hours later she returned and packed
up not only her entire wardrobe, but the whole of
her personal possessions. In the course of her
walk there had come to her one of those curious contradictory
impulses which are so characteristic of a woman’s
nature. Having poured out her heart in grief
because Erskine had neither written nor followed her
to town, she was now restlessly impatient to make
communication impossible, and to bury herself where
she could not be found. Before leaving the house
she made Lizzie happy by a present of money, accompanied
by quite a goodly bundle of clothing, after which
she interviewed the landlady, gave notice that she
no longer needed the rooms, and wrote out a cheque
in payment of all claims. Then a taxi was summoned,
the various boxes piled on top, and another chapter
of life had come to an end.
Claire drove to the station, whence
she proposed to take a late afternoon train to the
farm, deposited her boxes in the left luggage office,
and strolled listlessly towards the great bookstall
under the clock. Another hour remained to be
whiled away before she could start for the hospital;
she would buy a book, sit in the waiting-room, and
try to bury herself in its pages. She strolled
slowly down the length of the stall, her eyes passing
listlessly from one pile of books to another, finding
little interest in them, and even less in the men and
women who stood by her side. As Mrs Fanshawe
would have said, “No one was in town”;
even school-mistresses had flown from the region of
bricks and mortar. If she had thought about
it at all, Claire would have said that there was no
one she could meet, but suddenly a hand grasped
her arm, and brought her to a halt. She started
violently, and for an instant her heart leapt with
a wild glad hope. It was not Erskine Fanshawe
who confronted her, however, but a girl clad in a tweed
costume with a cloth cap to match, on the side of
which a sprig of heather was fastened by a gold brooch
fashioned in the shape of a thistle. In bewildered
surprise Claire recognised the brown eyes and round
freckled face of Janet Willoughby, whom she had believed
to be hundreds of miles away, in the highlands of
Scotland.
“Just come back,” Janet
explained. “The weather was impossible.
Nothing but sheets of rain. I got tired, and
came back to pay some visits in the south.”
She hesitated, then asked a sudden question.
“Are you busy? Going anywhere at once?
Could you spare half an hour? We might have
lunch together in the refreshment room!”
“Yes. No. I’d
like to. I’ve had no lunch.”
Claire faltered nervously, whereupon Janet turned
to her maid, who was standing near, dressing-bag in
hand, and gave a few quick instructions.
“Get a taxi, Ross, and take
all the things home. The car can wait for me.
I’ll follow later.”
The maid disappeared, and the two
girls made their way across the open space.
Both looked nervous and ill at ease, both dreaded the
coming tete-a-tete, yet felt that it was a
thing to be faced. Janet led the way to a table
in the farthest corner of the room, and they talked
trivialities until the ordered dishes were set on the
table, and the waiter had taken his departure.
Claire had ordered coffee, and drank eagerly, hoping
that the physical refreshment would help to steady
her nerves. Janet played with her knife and
fork, and said, without looking up-
“You have left the Fanshawes,
then! I heard that you were staying on.”
“Yes. Yesterday I-came back.”
The very lameness of the answer made
it significant. Janet’s freckled face
turned noticeably pale.
“Erskine went straight home after he left Scotland?”
“Yes.”
“And before he arrived, you had promised to
stay on?”
“Mrs Fanshawe asked me, before
he came, if I could stay for another week, and I was
very glad to accept. I had no other engagement.”
“And then?”
“Oh, then things were different.
She didn’t need company, and-and-
things happened. My friend, Miss Rhodes-”
Janet waved aside “my friend, Miss Rhodes,”
with an impatient hand.
“And Erskine? What did he say to
your leaving?”
The colour flamed in Claire’s
cheek; she stammered in hopeless confusion, and, in
the midst of her stammering, Janet laid both hands
on the table, and, leaning forward so that the two
faces were only a few inches apart, spoke a few startling
words-
“Has he-proposed to you?
I must know! You must tell me!”
It was a command, rather than an appeal,
and Claire automatically replied-
“He-he did! Yes, but-”
“And you?”
“I-couldn’t. I said no!”
“You said no! Erskine
asked you to be his wife, and you refused?”
Janet stared in incredulous bewilderment. A spark
of indignation shone in her brown eyes. “But
why? You care for him. Any girl might be
proud to marry Erskine Fanshawe. Why?”
“I can’t tell you.
It’s so difficult. His mother-she
didn’t want me. She would have hated it.
She almost turned me out.”
“His mother! Mrs
Fanshawe!” Janet’s voice was full of an
ineffable surprise. “You refused Erskine
because of her prejudice? But she is
always changing; she is the most undependable woman
on the face of the earth! She is charming, and
I’m fond of her, but I should not take her advice
about a pair of gloves. Nothing that she could
say would possibly have the slightest influence on
my life. She’s irresponsible; she sees
entirely from her own standpoint. And Erskine-Erskine
is a rock!” She paused, pressing her lips together
to still their trembling, and Claire answered with
a note of apology in her voice.
“Janet, I know!
Don’t think I don’t appreciate him.
Wait till you hear how it happened... He followed
me to the station; it was the very last moment, just
as the train was starting. There was time for
only one word, and-I was sore and angry!”
Janet looked at her, a long, searching look.
“It’s curious, but I always
knew this would come. When I saw you sitting
together at supper that first night, I knew then.
All the time I knew it in my heart, but on the surface
it seemed ridiculous, for you never met!”
“Never that you did not know,
except one time in the park. There was nothing
to tell you, Janet; nothing to hide.”
“No. So he said.
We talked of you in Scotland, you know, and it was
just as I thought-a case of recognising
each other at first sight. He said the moment
he saw you you seemed different from everyone else,
and he hoped and believed that you felt the same.
That is how people ought to love; the right way,
when both are attached, both feel the same...
And it is so rare. Yet you refused!”
“Would you marry a man if his family disapproved?”
“Oh, yes! I should not
be marrying the family. I’d be sorry, of
course, but I’d make up my mind that in time
I’d make them fall in love with me, too.
What are you going to do now?”
“Going away. Into the
country. I want to be quiet, and think.”
Janet did not ask the address.
She sat silent, staring into space, then asked a
sudden irrelevant question:
“Did he send you the cuckoo clock?”
“I-think so!
It had no name, but it came from Switzerland while
he was there. He has never referred to it since.”
“Ah!” Janet began pulling
on her gloves. “I knew that, too.
I felt that he had sent it. Well!
I must go. It will all come right, of course,
and you will be very happy. I’ve known
Erskine so long, and his wife is sure to be happy.”
Janet forced an artificial little laugh. “You
will be engaged before me, after all, but I dare say
I shall soon follow suit. It’s nice to
be loved. As one grows older, one appreciates
it more. And Captain Humphreys is a good man.”
“He is splendid! I loved
his face. And he is so devoted to you.
It was quite beautiful to watch him,” cried
Claire, thankful from her heart to be able to enthuse
honestly.
A load was lifted from her heart by
Janet’s prophecy of her own future. For
the moment it had no doubt been made more out of bravado
than any real conviction, and inevitably there must
be a period of suffering, but Janet was of a naturally
buoyant nature, and her wounded spirit would gradually
find consolation in the love which had waited so patiently
for its reward. It needed no great gift of prophecy
to see her in the future, a happy, contented wife.