“MAYN’T I SPEAK TO YOU, MAMMA?”
That was the worst of it-the
most puzzling part of it, rather, perhaps we should
say-with Geoffrey. He meant
to be good. He would not for worlds have done
anything that he distinctly saw to be wrong. He
worked well at his lessons, though to an accompaniment
of constant grumbling-at home, that is
to say; grumbling at school is not encouraged.
He was rather a favourite with his companions, for
he was a manly and “plucky” boy, entering
heartily into the spirit of all their games and amusements,
and he was thought well of by the masters for his steadiness
and perseverance, though not by any means of naturally
studious tastes. The wrong side of him was all
reserved for home, and for his own family.
Yet, only son and fatherless though
he was, he had not been “spoilt” in the
ordinary sense of the word. Mrs. Tudor, though
gentle, and in some ways timid, was not a weak or
silly woman. She had brought up her children
on certain broad rules of “must,” as to
which she was as firm as a rock, and these had succeeded
so well with the girls that it was a complete surprise
as well as the greatest of sorrows to her when she
first began to see signs of trouble with her boy.
And gradually her anxiety led her into the fatal mistake
of spoiling Geoffrey by making him of too much consequence.
It came to be recognized in the household that his
moods and humours were to be a sort of family barometer,
and that all efforts were to be directed towards the
avoidance of storms. Not that Geoff was passionate
or violent. Had he been so, things would have
sooner come to a crisis. He was simply tiresome-tiresome
to a degree that can scarcely be understood by those
who have not experienced such tiresomeness for themselves.
And as there is no doubt a grain of the bully somewhere
in the nature of every boy-if not of every
human being-what this tiresomeness might
have grown into had the Fates, or something higher
than the Fates, not interposed, it would be difficult
to exaggerate.
The cloudy look had not left Geoff’s
face when he came into the drawing-room. But,
alas! it was nothing new to see him “looking
like that.” His mother took no notice of
it.
“Well, Geoff?” she said
pleasantly. “How have you got on to-day,
my boy?”
He muttered something indistinctly,
which sounded like, “Oh, all right;” then
catching sight of Elsa’s reproachful face, he
seemed to put some constraint on himself, and, coming
forward to his mother, kissed her affectionately.
“Are you very tired to-night,
mamma?” he said. “Must I not speak
to you?”
Mrs. Tudor was very tired,
and she knew by old experience what Geoff’s
“speaking” meant-an hour or
more’s unmitigated grumbling, and dragging forward
of every possible grievance, to have each in turn talked
over, and sympathized about, and smoothed down by
her patient hand. Such talks were not without
their effect on the boy; much that his mother said
appealed to his good sense and good feeling, though
he but seldom gave her the satisfaction of seeing
this directly. But they were very wearing to
her, and it was carrying motherly unselfishness
too far to undertake such discussion with Geoff, when
she was already worn out with unusual anxiety.
She smiled, however, brightly enough,
in reply to his questions. It cheered her to
see that he could consider her even thus much.
“Of course I can speak to you,
Geoff. Have you anything particular to tell me?”
“Lots of things,” said
the boy. He drew forward a chair in which to
settle himself comfortably beside his mother, darting
an indignant glance at his sisters as he did so.
“Humbugging me as usual about mamma-anything
to keep me away from her,” he muttered.
But Elsa and Frances only glanced at each other in
despair.
“Well,” said Mrs. Tudor,
resignedly, leaning back in her chair.
“Mamma,” began Geoffrey,
“there must be something done about my pocket-money.
I just can’t do with what I’ve got.
I’ve waited to speak about it till I had talked
it over with some of the other fellows. They
nearly all have more than I.”
“Boys of your age-surely not?”
interposed Mrs. Tudor.
“Well, some of them are
not older than I,” allowed Geoff. “If
you’d give me more, and let me manage things
for myself-football boots, and cricket-shoes,
and that sort of thing. The girls”-with
cutting emphasis-“are always hinting
that I ask you for too many things, and I hate
to be seeming to be always at you for something.
If you’d give me a regular allowance, now, and
let me manage for myself.”
“At your age,” repeated
his mother, “that surely is very unusual.”
“I don’t see that it matters
exactly about age,” said Geoff, “if one’s
got sense.”
“But have you got sense enough,
Geoff?” said Frances, gently. “I’m
three years older than you, and I’ve only just
begun to have an allowance for my clothes, and I should
have got into a dreadful mess if it hadn’t been
for Elsa helping me.”
“Girls are quite different,”
said Geoff. “They want all sorts of rubbishing
ribbons and crinolines and flounces. Boys
only need regular necessary things.”
“Then you haven’t any
wants at present, I should think, Geoff,” said
Elsa, in her peculiarly clear, rather aggravating tones.
“You were completely rigged out when you came
back from the country, three weeks ago.”
Geoff glowered at her.
“Mamma,” he said, “will
you once for all make Elsa and Frances understand
that when I’m speaking to you they needn’t
interfere?”
Mrs. Tudor did not directly respond to this request.
“Will you tell me, Geoff,”
she said, “what has put all this into your head?
What things are you in want of?”
Geoff hesitated. Fancied wants,
like fancied grievances, have an annoying trick of
refusing to answer to the roll-call when distinctly
summoned to do so.
“There’s lots of things,”
he began. “I should have a pair of
proper football boots, instead of just an old common
pair with ribs stuck on, you know, like I have.
All the fellows have proper ones when they’re
fifteen or so.”
“But you are not fifteen.”
“Well, I might wait about the
boots till next term. But I do really
want a pair of boxing-gloves dreadfully,” he
went on energetically, as the idea occurred to him;
“you know I began boxing this term.”
“And don’t they provide
boxing-gloves? How have you managed hitherto?”
asked his mother, in surprise.
“Oh, well, yes-there
are gloves; but of course it’s much nicer
to have them of one’s own. It’s horrid
always to seem just one of the lot that can’t
afford things of their own.”
“And if you are not rich-and
I dare say nearly all your schoolfellows are richer
than you”-said Elsa, “is it
not much better not to sham that you are?”
“Sham,” repeated Geoff,
roughly. “Mamma, I do think you should speak
to Elsa.-If you were a boy-”
he added, turning to his sister threateningly.
“I don’t want to sham about anything; but
it’s very hard to be sent to a school when you
can’t have everything the same as the others.”
A look of pain crept over Mrs. Tudor’s
tired face. Had she done wrong? Was it another
of her “mistakes”-of which,
like all candid people, she felt she had made many
in her life-to have sent Geoff to a first-class
school?
“Geoff,” she said weariedly,
“you surely do not realize what you cause me
when you speak so. It was almost my principal
reason for settling in London seven years ago, that
I might be able to send you to one of the best schools.
We could have lived more cheaply, and more comfortably,
in the country; but you would have had to go to a different
class of school.”
“Well, I wish I had, then,”
said Geoff, querulously. “I perfectly hate
London; I have always told you so. I shouldn’t
mind what I did if it was in the country. It
isn’t that I want to spend money, or that I’ve
extravagant ideas; but it’s too hard to be in
a false position, as I am at school-not
able to have things like the other fellows. You
would have made me far happier if you had gone
to live in the country and let me go to a country
school. I hate London; and just because
I want things like other fellows, I’m scolded.”
Mrs. Tudor did not speak. She
looked sad and terribly tired.
“Geoff,” said Elsa, putting
great control on herself so as to speak very gently,
for she felt as if she could gladly shake him, “you
must see that mamma is very tired. Do wait to
talk to her till she is better able for it. And
it is getting late.”
“Do go, Geoff,” said his
mother. “I have listened to what you have
said; it is not likely I shall forget it. I will
talk to you afterwards.”
The boy looked rather ashamed.
“I haven’t meant to vex
you,” he said, as he stooped to kiss his mother.
“I’m sorry you’re so tired.”
There was silence for a moment after
he had left the room.
“I am afraid there is a mixture
of truth in what he says,” said Mrs. Tudor,
at last. “It has been one of the many mistakes
I have made, and now I suppose I am to be punished
for it.”
Elsa made a movement of impatience.
“Mamma dear!” she exclaimed,
“I don’t think you would speak that way
if you weren’t tired. There isn’t
any truth in what Geoff says. I don’t mean
that he tells stories; but it’s just his incessant
grumbling. He makes himself believe all sorts
of nonsense. He has everything right for a boy
of his age to have. I know there are boys whose
parents are really rich who have less than he has.”
“Yes, indeed, mamma; Elsa is
right,” said Frances. “Geoff is insatiable.
He picks out the things boys here and there may have
as an exception, and wants to have them all.
He has a perfect genius for grumbling.”
“Because he is always thinking
of himself,” said Elsa. “Mamma, don’t
think me disrespectful, but would it not be better
to avoid saying things which make him think himself
of such consequence-like telling him that
we came to live in town principally for his
sake?”
“Perhaps so,” said her
mother. “I am always in hopes of making
him ashamed, by showing how much has been done
for him.”
“And he does feel ashamed,”
said Frances, eagerly. “I saw it to-night;
he’d have liked to say something more if he hadn’t
been too proud to own that he had been inventing grievances.”
“Things have been too smooth
for him,” said Elsa; “that’s the
truth of it. He needs some hardships.”
“And as things are turning out
he’s very likely to get them,” said Mrs.
Tudor, with a rather wintry smile.
“Oh, mamma, forgive me!
Do you know, I had forgotten all about our money troubles,”
Elsa exclaimed. “Why don’t you tell
Geoff about them, mamma? It’s in a way
hardly fair on him; for if he knew, it might
make him understand how wrong and selfish he is.”
“I will tell him soon, but not
just yet. I do not want to distract his mind
from his lessons, and I wish to be quite sure first.
I think I should wait till I hear from your great-uncle.”
“And that will be-how
long? It is how many weeks since Mr. Norris first
wrote that he was uneasy? About seven, I should
say,” said Elsa.
“Quite that,” said her
mother. “It is the waiting that is so trying.
I can do nothing without Great-Uncle Hoot-Toot’s
advice.”
That last sentence had been a familiar
one to Mrs. Tudor’s children almost ever since
they could remember. “Great-Uncle Hoot-Toot”
had been a sort of autocrat and benefactor in one,
to the family. His opinions, his advice had been
asked on all matters of importance; his approval had
been held out to them as the highest reward, his displeasure
as the punishment most to be dreaded. And yet
they had never seen him!
“I wish he would come home himself,”
said Elsa. “I think Geoff would be much
the better for a visit from him,” she added,
with a slight touch of sharpness in her tone.
“Poor Geoff!” said her
mother. “I suppose the truth is that very
few women know how to manage boys.”
“I don’t see that,”
said Elsie. “On the contrary, a generous-natured
boy is often more influenced by a woman’s gentleness
than by a man’s severity. It is just that,
that I don’t like about Geoff. There is
a want of generous, chivalrous feeling about him.”
“No,” said Frances.
“I don’t quite agree with you. I think
it is there, but somehow not awakened. Mamma,”
she went on, “supposing our great-uncle did
come home, would he be dreadfully angry if he found
out that we all called him ’Hoot-Toot’?”
“Oh no,” said her mother,
smiling; “he’s quite used to it. Your
father told me he had had the trick nearly all his
life of saying ’Hoot-toot, hoot-toot!’
if ever he was perplexed or disapproving.”
“What a very funny little
boy he must have been!” exclaimed both the girls
together.