To complete the proces verbal,
my son wishes me to give my account of the things
which happened out of Semur during its miraculous occupation,
as it is his desire, in the interests of truth, that
nothing should be left out. In this I find a
great difficulty for many reasons; in the first place,
because I have not the aptitude of expressing myself
in writing, and it may well be that the phrases I
employ may fail in the correctness which good French
requires; and again, because it is my misfortune not
to agree in all points with my Martin, though I am
proud to think that he is, in every relation of life,
so good a man, that the women of his family need not
hesitate to follow his advice but necessarily
there are some points which one reserves; and I cannot
but feel the closeness of the connection between the
late remarkable exhibition of the power of Heaven
and the outrage done upon the good Sisters of St.
Jean by the administration, of which unfortunately
my son is at the head. I say unfortunately, since
it is the spirit of independence and pride in him
which has resisted all the warnings offered by Divine
Providence, and which refuses even now to right the
wrongs of the Sisters of St. Jean; though, if it may
be permitted to me to say it, as his mother, it was
very fortunate in the late troubles that Martin Dupin
found himself at the head of the Commune of Semur since
who else could have kept his self-control as he did? caring
for all things and forgetting nothing; who else would,
with so much courage, have entered the city? and what
other man, being a person of the world and secular
in all his thoughts, as, alas! it is so common for
men to be, would have so nobly acknowledged his obligations
to the good God when our misfortunes were over?
My constant prayers for his conversion do not make
me incapable of perceiving the nobility of his conduct.
When the evidence has been incontestible he has not
hesitated to make a public profession of his gratitude,
which all will acknowledge to be the sign of a truly
noble mind and a heart of gold.
I have long felt that the times were
ripe for some exhibition of the power of God.
Things have been going very badly among us. Not
only have the powers of darkness triumphed over our
holy church, in a manner ever to be wept and mourned
by all the faithful, and which might have been expected
to bring down fire from Heaven upon our heads, but
the corruption of popular manners (as might also have
been expected) has been daily arising to a pitch unprecedented.
The fêtes may indeed be said to be observed, but in
what manner? In the cabarets rather than in the
churches; and as for the fasts and vigils, who thinks
of them? who attends to those sacred moments of penitence?
Scarcely even a few ladies are found to do so, instead
of the whole population, as in duty bound. I
have even seen it happen that my daughter-in-law and
myself, and her friend Madame de Bois-Sombre, and
old Mere Julie from the market, have formed the whole
congregation. Figure to yourself the bon Dieu
and all the blessed saints looking down from heaven
to hear four persons only in our great
Cathedral! I trust that I know that the good God
does not despise even two or three; but if any one
will think of it the great bells rung,
and the candles lighted, and the cure in his beautiful
robes, and all the companies of heaven looking on and
only us four! This shows the neglect of all sacred
ordinances that was in Semur. While, on the other
hand, what grasping there was for money; what fraud
and deceit; what foolishness and dissipation!
Even the Mere Julie herself, though a devout person,
the pears she sold to us on the last market day before
these events, were far, very far, as she must have
known, from being satisfactory. In the same way
Gros-Jean, though a peasant from our own village near
La Clairiere, and a man for whom we have
often done little services, attempted to impose upon
me about the wood for the winter’s use, the
very night before these occurrences. ’It
is enough,’ I cried out, ‘to bring the
dead out of their graves.’ I did not know the
holy saints forgive me! how near it was
to the moment when this should come true.
And perhaps it is well that I should
admit without concealment that I am not one of the
women to whom it has been given to see those who came
back. There are moments when I will not deny I
have asked myself why those others should have been
so privileged and never I. Not even in a dream do
I see those whom I have lost; yet I think that I too
have loved them as well as any have been loved.
I have stood by their beds to the last; I have closed
their beloved eyes. Mon Dieu! mon Dieu! have
not I drunk of that cup to the dregs? But never
to me, never to me, has it been permitted either to
see or to hear. Bien! it has been so ordered.
Agnes, my daughter-in-law, is a good woman. I
have not a word to say against her; and if there are
moments when my heart rebels, when I ask myself why
she should have her eyes opened and not I, the good
God knows that I do not complain against His will it
is in His hand to do as He pleases. And if I
receive no privileges, yet have I the privilege which
is best, which is, as M. le Cure justly observes,
the highest of all that of doing my duty.
In this I thank the good Lord our Seigneur that my
Martin has never needed to be ashamed of his mother.
I will also admit that when it was
first made apparent to me not by the sounds
of voices which the others heard, but by the use of
my reason which I humbly believe is also a gift of
God that the way in which I could best
serve both those of the city and my son Martin, who
is over them, was to lead the way with the children
and all the helpless to La Clairiere, thus
relieving the watchers, there was for a time a great
struggle in my bosom. What were they all to me,
that I should desert my Martin, my only son, the child
of my old age; he who is as his father, as dear, and
yet more dear, because he is his father’s son?
’What! (I said in my heart) abandon thee, my
child? nay, rather abandon life and every consolation;
for what is life to me but thee?’ But while my
heart swelled with this cry, suddenly it became apparent
to me how many there were holding up their hands helplessly
to him, clinging to him so that he could not move.
To whom else could they turn? He was the one among
all who preserved his courage, who neither feared nor
failed. When those voices rang out from the walls which
some understood, but which I did not understand, and
many more with me though my heart was wrung
with straining my ears to listen if there was not
a voice for me too, yet at the same time this thought
was working in my heart. There was a poor woman
close to me with little children clinging to her; neither
did she know what those voices said. Her eyes
turned from Semur, all lost in the darkness, to the
sky above us and to me beside her, all confused and
bewildered; and the children clung to her, all in tears,
crying with that wail which is endless the
trouble of childhood which does not know why it is
troubled. ‘Maman! Maman!’
they cried, ‘let us go home.’ ’Oh!
be silent, my little ones,’ said the poor woman;
’be silent; we will go to M. le Maire he
will not leave us without a friend.’ It
was then that I saw what my duty was. But it
was with a pang bon Dieu! when
I turned my back upon my Martin, when I went away
to shelter, to peace, leaving my son thus in face
of an offended Heaven and all the invisible powers,
do you suppose it was a whole heart I carried in my
breast? But no! it was nothing save a great ache a
struggle as of death. But what of that?
I had my duty to do, as he had and as he
did not flinch, so did not I; otherwise he would have
been ashamed of his mother and I? I
should have felt that the blood was not mine which
ran in his veins.
No one can tell what it was, that
march to La Clairiere. Agnes at first
was like an angel. I hope I always do Madame Martin
justice. She is a saint. She is good to
the bottom of her heart. Nevertheless, with those
natures which are enthusiast which are upborne
by excitement there is also a weakness.
Though she was brave as the holy Pucelle when we set
out, after a while she flagged like another. The
colour went out of her face, and though she smiled
still, yet the tears came to her eyes, and she would
have wept with the other women, and with the wail of
the weary children, and all the agitation, and the
weariness, and the length of the way, had not I recalled
her to herself. ‘Courage!’ I said
to her. ’Courage, ma fille! We will
throw open all the chambers. I will give up even
that one in which my Martin Dupin, the father of thy
husband, died.’ ‘Ma mere,’
she said, holding my hand to her bosom, ’he is
not dead he is in Semur.’ Forgive
me, dear Lord! It gave me a pang that she could
see him and not I. ‘For me,’ I cried,
’it is enough to know that my good man is in
heaven: his room, which I have kept sacred, shall
be given up to the poor.’ But oh! the confusion
of the stumbling, weary feet; the little children
that dropped by the way, and caught at our skirts,
and wailed and sobbed; the poor mothers with babes
upon each arm, with sick hearts and failing limbs.
One cry seemed to rise round us as we went, each infant
moving the others to sympathy, till it rose like one
breath, a wail of ‘Maman! Maman!’
a cry that had no meaning, through having so much
meaning. It was difficult not to cry out too in
the excitement, in the labouring of the long, long,
confused, and tedious way. ‘Maman!
Maman!’ The Holy Mother could not but hear
it. It is not possible but that she must have
looked out upon us, and heard us, so helpless as we
were, where she sits in heaven.
When we got to La Clairiere
we were ready to sink down with fatigue like all the
rest nay, even more than the rest, for we
were not used to it, and for my part I had altogether
lost the habitude of long walks. But then you
could see what Madame Martin was. She is slight
and fragile and pale, not strong, as any one can perceive;
but she rose above the needs of the body. She
was the one among us who rested not. We threw
open all the rooms, and the poor people thronged in.
Old Leontine, who is the garde of the house,
gazed upon us and the crowd whom we brought with us
with great eyes full of fear and trouble. ‘But,
Madame,’ she cried, ‘Madame!’ following
me as I went above to the better rooms. She pulled
me by my robe. She pushed the poor women with
their children away. ’Allez donc, allez! rest
outside till these ladies have time to speak to you,’
she said; and pulled me by my sleeve. Then ’Madame
Martin is putting all this canaille into our
very chambers,’ she cried. She had always
distrusted Madame Martin, who was taken by the peasants
for a clerical and a devote, because she was noble.
’The bon Dieu be praised that Madame
also is here, who has sense and will regulate everything.’
’These are no canaille,’ I said:
’be silent, ma bonne Leontine, here is
something which you cannot understand. This is
Semur which has come out to us for lodging.’
She let the keys drop out of her hands. It was
not wonderful if she was amazed. All day long
she followed me about, her very mouth open with wonder.
‘Madame Martin, that understands itself,’
she would say. ’She is romanesque she
has imagination but Madame, Madame has
bon sens who would have believed
it of Madame?’ Leontine had been my femme
de menage long before there was a Madame Martin,
when my son was young; and naturally it was of me she
still thought. But I cannot put down all the
trouble we had ere we found shelter for every one.
We filled the stables and the great barn, and all the
cottages near; and to get them food, and to have something
provided for those who were watching before the city,
and who had no one but us to think of them, was a
task which was almost beyond our powers. Truly
it was beyond our powers but the Holy Mother
of heaven and the good angels helped us. I cannot
tell to any one how it was accomplished, yet it was
accomplished. The wail of the little ones ceased.
They slept that first night as if they had been in
heaven. As for us, when the night came, and the
dews and the darkness, it seemed to us as if we were
out of our bodies, so weary were we, so weary that
we could not rest. From La Clairiere
on ordinary occasions it is a beautiful sight to see
the lights of Semur shining in all the high windows,
and the streets throwing up a faint whiteness upon
the sky; but how strange it was now to look down and
see nothing but a darkness a cloud, which
was the city! The lights of the watchers in their
camp were invisible to us, they were so
small and low upon the broken ground that we could
not see them. Our Agnes crept close to me; we
went with one accord to the seat before the door.
We did not say ‘I will go,’ but went by
one impulse, for our hearts were there; and we were
glad to taste the freshness of the night and be silent
after all our labours. We leant upon each other
in our weariness. ‘Ma mere,’ she said,
’where is he now, our Martin?’ and wept.
’He is where there is the most to do, be thou
sure of that,’ I cried, but wept not. For
what did I bring him into the world but for this end?
Were I to go day by day and hour by
hour over that time of trouble, the story would not
please any one. Many were brave and forgot their
own sorrows to occupy themselves with those of others,
but many also were not brave. There were those
among us who murmured and complained. Some would
contend with us to let them go and call their husbands,
and leave the miserable country where such things
could happen. Some would rave against the priests
and the government, and some against those who neglected
and offended the Holy Church. Among them there
were those who did not hesitate to say it was our
fault, though how we were answerable they could not
tell. We were never at any time of the day or
night without a sound of some one weeping or bewailing
herself, as if she were the only sufferer, or crying
out against those who had brought her here, far from
all her friends. By times it seemed to me that
I could bear it no longer, that it was but justice
to turn those murmurers (pleureuses) away,
and let them try what better they could do for themselves.
But in this point Madame Martin surpassed me.
I do not grudge to say it. She was better than
I was, for she was more patient. She wept with
the weeping women, then dried her eyes and smiled upon
them without a thought of anger whereas
I could have turned them to the door. One thing,
however, which I could not away with, was that Agnes
filled her own chamber with the poorest of the poor.
‘How,’ I cried, thyself and thy friend
Madame de Bois-Sombre, were you not enough to fill
it, that you should throw open that chamber to good-for-nothings,
to va-nu-pieds, to the very rabble?’ ’Ma
mere,’ said Madame Martin, ‘our good
Lord died for them.’ ’And surely for
thee too, thou saint-imbecile!’ I cried out
in my indignation. What, my Martin’s chamber
which he had adorned for his bride! I was beside
myself. And they have an obstinacy these enthusiasts!
But for that matter her friend Madame de Bois-Sombre
thought the same. She would have been one of the
pleureuses herself had it not been for shame.
’Agnes wishes to aid the bon Dieu, Madame,’
she said, ‘to make us suffer still a little more.’
The tone in which she spoke, and the contraction in
her forehead, as if our hospitality was not enough
for her, turned my heart again to my daughter-in-law.
‘You have reason, Madame,’ I cried; ’there
are indeed many ways in which Agnes does the work
of the good God.’ The Bois-Sombres are
poor, they have not a roof to shelter them save that
of the old hotel in Semur, from whence they were sent
forth like the rest of us. And she and her children
owed all to Agnes. Figure to yourself then my
resentment when this lady directed her scorn at my
daughter-in-law. I am not myself noble, though
of the haute bourgeoisie, which some people
think a purer race.
Long and terrible were the days we
spent in this suspense. For ourselves it was
well that there was so much to do the food
to provide for all this multitude, the little children
to care for, and to prepare the provisions for our
men who were before Semur. I was in the Ardennes
during the war, and I saw some of its perils but
these were nothing to what we encountered now.
It is true that my son Martin was not in the war,
which made it very different to me; but here the dangers
were such as we could not understand, and they weighed
upon our spirits. The seat at the door, and that
point where the road turned, where there was always
so beautiful a view of the valley and of the town of
Semur were constantly occupied by groups
of poor people gazing at the darkness in which their
homes lay. It was strange to see them, some kneeling
and praying with moving lips; some taking but one
look, not able to endure the sight. I was of
these last. From time to time, whenever I had
a moment, I came out, I know not why, to see if there
was any change. But to gaze upon that altered
prospect for hours, as some did, would have been intolerable
to me. I could not linger nor try to imagine what
might be passing there, either among those who were
within (as was believed), or those who were without
the walls. Neither could I pray as many did.
My devotions of every day I will never, I trust, forsake
or forget, and that my Martin was always in my mind
is it needful to say? But to go over and over
all the vague fears that were in me, and all those
thoughts which would have broken my heart had they
been put into words, I could not do this even to the
good Lord Himself. When I suffered myself to
think, my heart grew sick, my head swam round, the
light went from my eyes. They are happy who can
do so, who can take the bon Dieu into their
confidence, and say all to Him; but me, I could not
do it. I could not dwell upon that which was
so terrible, upon my home abandoned, my son Ah!
now that it is past, it is still terrible to think
of. And then it was all I was capable of, to
trust my God and do what was set before me. God,
He knows what it is we can do and what we cannot.
I could not tell even to Him all the terror and the
misery and the darkness there was in me; but I put
my faith in Him. It was all of which I was capable.
We are not made alike, neither in the body nor in the
soul.
And there were many women like me
at La Clairiere. When we had done each
piece of work we would look out with a kind of hope,
then go back to find something else to do not
looking at each other, not saying a word. Happily
there was a great deal to do. And to see how some
of the women, and those the most anxious, would work,
never resting, going on from one thing to another,
as if they were hungry for more and more! Some
did it with their mouths shut close, with their countenances
fixed, not daring to pause or meet another’s
eyes; but some, who were more patient, worked with
a soft word, and sometimes a smile, and sometimes a
tear; but ever working on. Some of them were
an example to us all. In the morning, when we
got up, some from beds, some from the floor, I
insisted that all should lie down, by turns at least,
for we could not make room for every one at the same
hours, the very first thought of all was
to hasten to the window, or, better, to the door.
Who could tell what might have happened while we slept?
For the first moment no one would speak, it
was the moment of hope and then there would
be a cry, a clasping of the hands, which told what
we all knew. The one of the women who touched
my heart most was the wife of Riou of the octroi.
She had been almost rich for her condition in life,
with a good house and a little servant whom she trained
admirably, as I have had occasion to know. Her
husband and her son were both among those whom we
had left under the walls of Semur; but she had three
children with her at La Clairiere. Madame
Riou slept lightly, and so did I. Sometimes I heard
her stir in the middle of the night, though so softly
that no one woke. We were in the same room, for
it may be supposed that to keep a room to one’s
self was not possible. I did not stir, but lay
and watched her as she went to the window, her figure
visible against the pale dawning of the light, with
an eager quick movement as of expectation then
turning back with slower step and a sigh. She
was always full of hope. As the days went on,
there came to be a kind of communication between us.
We understood each other. When one was occupied
and the other free, that one of us who went out to
the door to look across the valley where Semur was
would look at the other as if to say, ‘I go.’
When it was Madame Riou who did this, I shook my head,
and she gave me a smile which awoke at every repetition
(though I knew it was vain) a faint expectation, a
little hope. When she came back, it was she who
would shake her head, with her eyes full of tears.
‘Did I not tell thee?’ I said, speaking
to her as if she were my daughter. ‘It
will be for next time, Madame,’ she would say,
and smile, yet put her apron to her eyes. There
were many who were like her, and there were those
of whom I have spoken who were pleureuses, never
hoping anything, doing little, bewailing themselves
and their hard fate. Some of them we employed
to carry the provisions to Semur, and this amused
them, though the heaviness of the baskets made again
a complaint.
As for the children, thank God! they
were not disturbed as we were to them it
was a beautiful holiday it was like Heaven.
There is no place on earth that I love like Semur,
yet it is true that the streets are narrow, and there
is not much room for the children. Here they were
happy as the day; they strayed over all our gardens
and the meadows, which were full of flowers; they
sat in companies upon the green grass, as thick as
the daisies themselves, which they loved. Old
Sister Mariette, who is called Marie de la Consolation,
sat out in the meadow under an acacia-tree and watched
over them. She was the one among us who was happy.
She had no son, no husband, among the watchers, and
though, no doubt, she loved her convent and her hospital,
yet she sat all day long in the shade and in the full
air, and smiled, and never looked towards Semur.
‘The good Lord will do as He wills,’ she
said, ’and that will be well.’ It
was true we all knew it was true; but it
might be who could tell? that
it was His will to destroy our town, and take away
our bread, and perhaps the lives of those who were
dear to us; and something came in our throats which
prevented a reply. ‘Ma soeur,’ I
said, ’we are of the world, we tremble for those
we love; we are not as you are.’ Sister
Mariette did nothing but smile upon us. ’I
have known my Lord these sixty years,’ she said,
’and He has taken everything from me.’
To see her smile as she said this was more than I could
bear. From me He had taken something, but not
all. Must we be prepared to give up all if we
would be perfected? There were many of the others
also who trembled at these words. ‘And
now He gives me my consolation,’ she said, and
called the little ones round her, and told them a tale
of the Good Shepherd, which is out of the holy Gospel.
To see all the little ones round her knees in a crowd,
and the peaceful face with which she smiled upon them,
and the meadows all full of flowers, and the sunshine
coming and going through the branches: and to
hear that tale of Him who went forth to seek the lamb
that was lost, was like a tale out of a holy book,
where all was peace and goodness and joy. But
on the other side, not twenty steps off, was the house
full of those who wept, and at all the doors and windows
anxious faces gazing down upon that cloud in the valley
where Semur was. A procession of our women was
coming back, many with lingering steps, carrying the
baskets which were empty. ’Is there any
news?’ we asked, reading their faces before they
could answer. And some shook their heads, and
some wept. There was no other reply.
On the last night before our deliverance,
suddenly, in the middle of the night, there was a
great commotion in the house. We all rose out
of our beds at the sound of the cry, almost believing
that some one at the window had seen the lifting of
the cloud, and rushed together, frightened, yet all
in an eager expectation to hear what it was. It
was in the room where the old Mere Julie slept that
the disturbance was. Mere Julie was one of the
market-women of Semur, the one I have mentioned who
was devout, who never missed the Salut in the
afternoon, besides all masses which are obligatory.
But there were other matters in which she had not
satisfied my mind, as I have before said. She
was the mother of Jacques Richard, who was a good-for-nothing,
as is well known. At La Clairiere Mere
Julie had enacted a strange part. She had taken
no part in anything that was done, but had established
herself in the chamber allotted to her, and taken
the best bed in it, where she kept her place night
and day, making the others wait upon her. She
had always expressed a great devotion for St. Jean;
and the Sisters of the Hospital had been very kind
to her, and also to her vaurien of a son, who
was indeed, in some manner, the occasion of all our
troubles being the first who complained
of the opening of the chapel into the chief ward,
which was closed up by the administration, and thus
became, as I and many others think, the cause of all
the calamities that have come upon us. It was
her bed that was the centre of the great commotion
we had heard, and a dozen voices immediately began
to explain to us as we entered. ‘Mere Julie
has had a dream. She has seen a vision,’
they said. It was a vision of angels in the most
beautiful robes, all shining with gold and whiteness.
’The dress of the Holy Mother
which she wears on the great fêtes was nothing
to them,’ Mere Julie told us, when she had composed
herself. For all had run here and there at her
first cry, and procured for her a tisane, and
a cup of bouillon, and all that was good for
an attack of the nerves, which was what it was at
first supposed to be. ’Their wings were
like the wings of the great peacock on the terrace,
but also like those of eagles. And each one had
a collar of beautiful jewels about his neck, and robes
whiter than those of any bride.’ This was
the description she gave: and to see the women
how they listened, head above head, a cloud of eager
faces, all full of awe and attention! The angels
had promised her that they would come again, when we
had bound ourselves to observe all the functions of
the Church, and when all these Messieurs had been
converted, and made their submission to
lead us back gloriously to Semur. There was a
great tumult in the chamber, and all cried out that
they were convinced, that they were ready to promise.
All except Madame Martin, who stood and looked at
them with a look which surprised me, which was of
pity rather than sympathy. As there was no one
else to speak, I took the word, being the mother of
the present Maire, and wife of the last, and in part
mistress of the house. Had Agnes spoken I would
have yielded to her, but as she was silent I took
my right. ‘Mere Julie,’ I said, ’and
mes bonnes femmes, my friends, know you that
it is the middle of the night, the hour at which we
must rest if we are to be able to do the work that
is needful, which the bon Dieu has laid upon
us? It is not from us my daughter and
myself who, it is well known, have followed
all the functions of the Church, that you will meet
with an opposition to your promise. But what I
desire is that you should calm yourselves, that you
should retire and rest till the time of work, husbanding
your strength, since we know not what claim may be
made upon it. The holy angels,’ I said,
’will comprehend, or if not they, then the bon
Dieu, who understands everything.’
But it was with difficulty that I
could induce them to listen to me, to do that which
was reasonable. When, however, we had quieted
the agitation, and persuaded the good women to repose
themselves, it was no longer possible for me to rest.
I promised to myself a little moment of quiet, for
my heart longed to be alone. I stole out as quietly
as I might, not to disturb any one, and sat down upon
the bench outside the door. It was still a kind
of half-dark, nothing visible, so that if any one
should gaze and gaze down the valley, it was not possible
to see what was there: and I was glad that it
was not possible, for my very soul was tired.
I sat down and leant my back upon the wall of our
house, and opened my lips to draw in the air of the
morning. How still it was! the very birds not
yet begun to rustle and stir in the bushes; the night
air hushed, and scarcely the first faint tint of blue
beginning to steal into the darkness. When I had
sat there a little, closing my eyes, lo, tears began
to steal into them like rain when there has been a
fever of heat. I have wept in my time many tears,
but the time of weeping is over with me, and through
all these miseries I had shed none. Now they
came without asking, like a benediction refreshing
my eyes. Just then I felt a soft pressure upon
my shoulder, and there was Agnes coming close, putting
her shoulder to mine, as was her way, that we might
support each other.
‘You weep, ma mere,’ she said.
‘I think it is one of the angels
Mere Julie has seen,’ said I. ’It
is a refreshment a blessing; my eyes were
dry with weariness.’
‘Mother,’ said Madame
Martin, ’do you think it is angels with wings
like peacocks and jewelled collars that our Father
sends to us? Ah, not so one of those
whom we love has touched your dear eyes,’ and
with that she kissed me upon my eyes, taking me in
her arms. My heart is sometimes hard to my son’s
wife, but not always not with my will, God
knows! Her kiss was soft as the touch of any
angel could be.
‘God bless thee, my child,’ I said.
‘Thanks, thanks, ma mere!’
she cried. ’Now I am resolved; now will
I go and speak to Martin of something in
my heart.’
‘What will you do, my child?’
I said, for as the light increased I could see the
meaning in her face, and that it was wrought up for
some great thing. ’Beware, Agnes; risk
not my son’s happiness by risking thyself; thou
art more to Martin than all the world beside.’
‘He loves thee dearly, mother,’
she said. My heart was comforted. I was
able to remember that I too had had my day. ’He
loves his mother, thank God, but not as he loves thee.
Beware, ma fille. If you risk my son’s
happiness, neither will I forgive you.’
She smiled upon me, and kissed my hands.
’I will go and take him his
food and some linen, and carry him your love and mine.’
‘You will go, and carry
one of those heavy baskets with the others!’
‘Mother,’ cried Agnes,
’now you shame me that I have never done it
before.’
What could I say? Those whose
turn it was were preparing their burdens to set out.
She had her little packet made up, besides, of our
cool white linen, which I knew would be so grateful
to my son. I went with her to the turn of the
road, helping her with her basket; but my limbs trembled,
what with the long continuance of the trial, what with
the agitation of the night. It was but just daylight
when they went away, disappearing down the long slope
of the road that led to Semur. I went back to
the bench at the door, and there I sat down and thought.
Assuredly it was wrong to close up the chapel, to deprive
the sick of the benefit of the holy mass. But
yet I could not but reflect that the bon Dieu
had suffered still more great scandals to take place
without such a punishment. When, however, I reflected
on all that has been done by those who have no cares
of this world as we have, but are brides of Christ,
and upon all they resign by their dedication, and the
claim they have to be furthered, not hindered, in
their holy work: and when I bethought myself
how many and great are the powers of evil, and that,
save in us poor women who can do so little, the Church
has few friends: then it came back to me how
heinous was the offence that had been committed, and
that it might well be that the saints out of heaven
should return to earth to take the part and avenge
the cause of the weak. My husband would have
been the first to do it, had he seen with my eyes;
but though in the flesh he did not do so, is it to
be doubted that in heaven their eyes are enlightened those
who have been subjected to the cleansing fires and
have ascended into final bliss? This all became
clear to me as I sat and pondered, while the morning
light grew around me, and the sun rose and shed his
first rays, which are as precious gold, on the summits
of the mountains for at La Clairiere
we are nearer the mountains than at Semur.
The house was more still than usual,
and all slept to a later hour because of the agitation
of the past night. I had been seated, like old
sister Mariette, with my eyes turned rather towards
the hills than to the valley, being so deep in my
thoughts that I did not look, as it was our constant
wont to look, if any change had happened over Semur.
Thus blessings come unawares when we are not looking
for them. Suddenly I lifted my eyes but
not with expectation languidly, as one looks
without thought. Then it was that I gave that
great cry which brought all crowding to the windows,
to the gardens, to every spot from whence that blessed
sight was visible; for there before us, piercing through
the clouds, were the beautiful towers of Semur, the
Cathedral with all its pinnacles, that are as if they
were carved out of foam, and the solid tower of St.
Lambert, and the others, every one. They told
me after that I flew, though I am past running, to
the farmyard to call all the labourers and servants
of the farm, bidding them prepare every carriage and
waggon, and even the charrettes, to carry back
the children, and those who could not walk to the
city.
‘The men will be wild with privation
and trouble,’ I said to myself; ’they
will want the sight of their little children, the comfort
of their wives.’
I did not wait to reason nor to ask
myself if I did well; and my son has told me since
that he scarcely was more thankful for our great deliverance
than, just when the crowd of gaunt and weary men returned
into Semur, and there was a moment when excitement
and joy were at their highest, and danger possible,
to hear the roll of the heavy farm waggons, and to
see me arrive, with all the little ones and their
mothers, like a new army, to take possession of their
homes once more.