For the first time in her life, Mrs.
Carr fully comprehended the sensations of a wild animal
caught in a trap. In her present painful predicament,
she was absolutely helpless, and she realised it.
It was Harlan’s house, as he had said, but so
powerful and penetrating was the personality of the
dead man that she felt as though it was still largely
the property of Uncle Ebeneezer.
The portrait in the parlour gave her
no light upon the subject, though she studied it earnestly.
The face was that of an old man, soured and embittered
by what Life had brought him, who seemed now to have
a peculiarly malignant aspect. Dorothy fancied,
in certain morbid moments, that Uncle Ebeneezer, from
some safe place, was keenly relishing the whole situation.
Upon her soul, too, lay heavily that
ancient Law of the House, which demands unfailing
courtesy to the stranger within our gates. Just
why the eating of our bread and salt by some undesired
guest should exert any particular charm of immunity,
has long been an open question, but the Law remains.
She felt, dimly, that the end was
not yet-that still other strangers were
coming to the Jack-o’-Lantern for indefinite
periods. She saw, now, why wing after wing had
been added to the house, but could not understand the
odd arrangement of the front windows. Through
some inner sense of loyalty to Uncle Ebeneezer, she
forebore to question either Mrs. Smithers or Dick-two
people who could probably have given her some light
on the subject. She had gathered, however, from
hints dropped here and there, as well as from the
overpowering evidence of recent events, that a horde
of relatives swarmed each Summer at the queer house
on the hilltop and remained until late Autumn.
Harlan said nothing, and nowadays
Dorothy saw very little of him. Most of the time
he was at work in the library, or else taking long,
solitary rambles through the surrounding country.
At meals he was moody and taciturn, his book obliterating
all else from his mind.
He doubtless knew, subconsciously,
that his house was disturbed by alien elements, but
he dwelt too securely in the upper regions to be troubled
by the obvious fact. Once in the library, with
every door securely bolted, he could afford to laugh
at the tumult outside, if, indeed, he should ever
become aware of its existence. The children might
make the very air vocal with their howls, Elaine might
have hysterics, Mrs. Smithers render hymns in a cracked,
squeaky voice, and Dick whistle eternally, but Harlan
was in a strange new country, with a beautiful lady,
a company of gallant knights, and a jester.
The rest was all unreal. He seemed
to see people through a veil, to hear what they said
without fully comprehending it, and to walk through
his daily life blindly, without any sort of emotion.
Worst of all, Dorothy herself seemed detached and
dream-like. He saw that her face was white and
her eyes sad, but it affected him not at all.
He had yet to learn that in this, as in everything
else, a price must inevitably be paid, and that the
sudden change of all his loved realities to hazy visions
was the terrible penalty of his craft.
Yet there was compensation, which
is also inevitable. To him, the book was vital,
reaching down into the very heart of the world.
Fancy took his work, and, to the eyes of its creator,
made it passing fair. At times he would sit for
an hour or more, nibbling at the end of his pencil,
only negatively conscious, like one who stares fixedly
at a blank wall. Presently, Elaine and her company
would come back again, and he would go on with them,
writing down only what he saw and felt.
Chapter after chapter was written
and tossed feverishly aside. The words beat in
his pulses like music, each one with its own particular
significance. In return for his personal effacement
came moments of supremest joy, when his whole world
was aflame with light, and colour, and sound, and
his physical body fairly shook with ecstasy.
Little did he know that the Cup was
in his hands, and that he was draining it to the very
dregs of bitterness. For this temporary intoxication,
he must pay in every hour of his life to come.
Henceforward he was set apart from his fellows, painfully
isolated, eternally alone. He should have friends,
but only for the hour. The stranger in the street
should be the same to him as one he had known for
many years, and he should be equally ready, at any
moment, to cast either aside. With a quick, merciless
insight, like the knife of a surgeon used without an
anæsthetic, he should explore the inmost recesses
of every personality with which he came in contact,
involuntarily, and find himself interested only as
some new trait or capacity was revealed. Calm
and emotionless, urged by some hidden power, he should
try each individual to see of what he was made; observing
the man under all possible circumstances, and at times
enmeshing new circumstances about him. He should
sacrifice himself continually if by so doing he could
find the deep roots of the other man’s selfishness,
and, conversely, be utterly selfish if necessary to
discover the other’s power of self-sacrifice.
Unknowingly, he had ceased to be a
man and had become a ferret. It was no light
payment exacted in return for the pleasure of writing
about Elaine. He had the ability to live in any
place or century he pleased, but he had paid for it
by putting his present reality upon precisely the same
footing. Detachment was his continually.
Henceforth he was a spectator merely, without any
particular concern in what passed before his eyes.
Some people he should know at a glance, others in a
week, a month, or a year. Across the emptiness
between them, some one should clasp his hand, yet
share no more his inner life than one who lies beside
a dreamer and thinks thus to know where the other
wanders on the strange trails of sleep.
In the dregs of the Cup lay the potential
power to cast off his present life as a mollusk leaves
his shell, and as completely forget it. For Love,
and Death, and Pain are only symbols to him who is
enslaved by the pen. Moreover, he suffers always
the pangs of an unsatisfied hunger, the exquisite
torture of an unappeased and unappeasable thirst, for
something which, like a will-o’-the-wisp, hovers
ever above and beyond him, past the power of words
to interpret or express.
It is often reproachfully said that
one “makes copy” of himself and his friends-that
nothing is too intimately sacred to be seized upon
and dissected in print. Not so long ago, it was
said that a certain man was “botanising on his
mother’s grave,” a pardonable confusion,
perhaps, of facts and realities. The bitter truth
is that the writer lives his books-and
not much else. From title to colophon, he escapes
no pang, misses no joy. The life of the book
is his from beginning to end. At the close of
it, he has lived what his dream people have lived and
borne the sorrows of half a dozen entire lifetimes,
mercilessly concentrated into the few short months
of writing.
One by one, his former pleasures vanish.
Even the divine consolation of books is partly if
not wholly gone. Behind the printed page, he sees
ever the machinery of composition, the preparation
for climax, the repetition in its proper place, the
introduction and interweaving of major and minor,
of theme and contrast. For the fine, glowing fancy
of the other man has not appeared in his book, and
to the eye of the fellow-craftsman only the mechanism
is there. Mask-like, the author stands behind
his Punch-and-Judy box, twitching the strings that
move his marionettes, heedless of the fact that in
his audience there must be a few who know him surely
for what he is.
If only the transfiguring might of
the Vision could be put into print, there would be
little in the world save books. Happily heedless
of the mockery of it all, Harlan laboured on, destined
fully to sense his entire payment much later, suffer
vicariously for a few hours on account of it, then
to forget.
Dorothy, meanwhile, was learning a
hard lesson. Harlan’s changeless preoccupation
hurt her cruelly, but, woman-like, she considered it
a manifestation of genius and endeavoured to be proud
accordingly. It had not occurred to her that
there could ever be anything in Harlan’s thought
into which she was not privileged to go. She had
thought of marriage as a sort of miraculous welding
of two individualities into one, and was perceiving
that it changed nothing very much; that souls went
on their way unaltered. She saw, too, that there
was no one in the wide world who could share her every
mood and tense, that ultimately each one of us lives
and dies alone, within the sanctuary of his own inner
self, cheered only by some passing mood of friend
or stranger, which chances to chime with his.
It was Dick who, blindly enough, helped
her over many a hard place, and quickened her sense
of humour into something upon which she might securely
lean. He was too young and too much occupied with
the obvious to look further, but he felt that Dorothy
was troubled, and that it was his duty, as a man and
a gentleman, to cheer her up.
Privately, he considered Harlan an
amiable kind of a fool, who shut himself up needlessly
in a musty library when he might be outdoors, or talking
with a charming woman, or both. When he discovered
that Harlan had hitherto earned his living by writing
and hoped to continue doing it, he looked upon his
host with profound pity. Books, to Dick, were
among the things which kept life from being wholly
pleasant and agreeable. He had gone through college
because otherwise he would have been separated from
his friends, and because a small legacy from a distant
relative, who had considerately died at an opportune
moment, enabled him to pay for his tuition and his
despised books.
“I was never a pig, though,”
he explained to Dorothy, in a confidential moment.
“There was one chump in our class who wanted
to know all there was in the book, and made himself
sick trying to cram it in. All of a sudden, he
graduated. He left college feet first, three on
a side, with the class walking slow behind him.
I never was like that. I was sort of an epicure
when it came to knowledge, tasting delicately here
and there, and never greedy. Why, as far back
as when I was studying algebra, I nobly refused to
learn the binomial theorem. I just read it through
once, hastily, like taking one sniff at a violet,
and then let it alone. The other fellows fairly
gorged themselves with it, but I didn’t-I
had too much sense.”
When Mr. Chester had been there a
week, he gave Dorothy two worn and crumpled two-dollar
bills.
“What’s this?” she
asked, curiously. “Where did you find it?”
“‘Find it’ is good,”
laughed Dick. “I earned it, my dear lady,
in hard and uncongenial toil. It’s my week’s
board.”
“You’re not going to pay any board here.
You’re a guest.”
“Not on your life. You
don’t suppose I’m going to sponge my keep
off anybody, do you? I paid Uncle Ebeneezer board
right straight along and there’s no reason why
I shouldn’t pay you. You can put that away
in your sock, or wherever it is that women keep money,
or else I take the next train. If you don’t
want to lose me, you have to accept four plunks every
Monday. I’ve got lots of four plunks,”
he added, with a winning smile.
“Very well,” said Dorothy,
quite certain that she could not spare Dick.
“If it will make you feel any better about staying,
I’ll take it.”
He had quickly made friends with Elaine,
and the three made a more harmonious group than might
have been expected under the circumstances. With
returning strength and health, Miss St. Clair began
to take more of an interest in her surroundings.
She gathered the white clover blossoms in which Dorothy
tied up her pats of sweet butter, picked berries in
the garden, skimmed the milk, helped churn, and fed
the chickens.
Dick took entire charge of the cow,
thus relieving Mrs. Smithers of an uncongenial task
and winning her heartfelt gratitude. She repaid
him with unnumbered biscuits of his favourite kind
and with many a savoury “snack” between
meals. He also helped Dorothy in many other ways.
It was Dick who collected the eggs every morning and
took them to the sanitarium, along with such other
produce as might be ready for the market. He secured
astonishing prices for the things he sold, and set
it down to man’s superior business ability when
questioned by his hostess. Dorothy never guessed
that most of the money came out of his own pocket,
and was charged up, in the ragged memorandum book
which he carried, to “Elaine’s board.”
Miss St. Clair had never thought of
offering compensation, and no one suggested it to
her, but Dick privately determined to make good the
deficiency, sure that a woman married to “a writing
chump” would soon be in need of ready money
if not actually starving at the time. That people
should pay for what Harlan wrote seemed well-nigh incredible.
Besides, though Dick had never read that “love
is an insane desire on the part of a man to pay a
woman’s board bill for life,” he took a
definite satisfaction out of this secret expenditure,
which he did not stop to analyse.
He brought back full price for everything
he took to the “repair-shop,” as he had
irreverently christened the sanitarium, though he seldom
sold much. On the other side of the hill he had
a small but select graveyard where he buried such
unsalable articles as he could not eat. His appetite
was capricious, and Dorothy had frequently observed
that when he came back from the long walk to the sanitarium,
he ate nothing at all.
He established a furniture factory
under a spreading apple tree at a respectable distance
from the house, and began to remodel the black-walnut
relics which were evidence of his kinsman’s poor
taste. He took many a bed apart, scraped off
the disfiguring varnish, sandpapered and oiled the
wood, and put it together in new and beautiful forms.
He made several tables, a cabinet, a bench, half a
dozen chairs, a set of hanging shelves, and even aspired
to a desk, which, owing to the limitations of the
material, was not wholly successful.
Dorothy and Elaine sat in rocking-chairs
under the tree and encouraged him while he worked.
One of them embroidered a simple design upon a burlap
curtain while the other read aloud, and together they
planned a shapely remodelling of the Jack-o’-Lantern.
Fortunately, the woodwork was plain, and the ceilings
not too high.
“I think,” said Elaine,
“that the big living room with the casement
windows will be perfectly beautiful. You couldn’t
have anything lovelier than this dull walnut with
the yellow walls.”
Whatever Mrs. Carr’s thoughts
might be, this simple sentence was usually sufficient
to turn the current into more pleasant channels.
She had planned to have needless partitions taken
out, and make the whole lower floor into one room,
with only a dining-room, kitchen, and pantry back of
it. She would take up the unsightly carpets, over
which impossible plants wandered persistently, and
have them woven into rag rugs, with green and brown
and yellow borders. The floor was to be stained
brown and the pine woodwork a soft, old green.
Yellow walls and white net curtains, with the beautiful
furniture Dick was making, completed a very charming
picture in the eyes of a woman who loved her home.
Outspeeding it in her fancy was the
finer, truer living which she believed lay beyond.
Some day she and Harlan, alone once more, with the
cobwebs of estrangement swept away, should begin a
new and happier honeymoon in the transformed house.
When the book was done-ah, when the book
was done! But he was not reading any part of
it to her now and would not let her begin copying
it on the typewriter.
“I’ll do it myself, when
I’m ready,” he said, coldly. “I
can use a typewriter just as well as you can.”
Dorothy sighed, unconsciously, for
the woman’s part is always to wait patiently
while men achieve, and she who has learned to wait
patiently, and be happy meanwhile, has learned the
finest art of all-the art of life.
“Now,” said Dick, “that’s
a peach of a table, if I do say it as shouldn’t.”
They readily agreed with him, for
it was low and massive, built on simple, dignified
lines, and beautifully finished. The headboards
of three ponderous walnut beds and the supporting
columns of a hideous sideboard had gone into its composition,
thus illustrating, as Dorothy said, that ugliness
may be changed to beauty by one who knows how and is
willing to work for it.
The noon train whistled shrilly in
the distance, and Dorothy started out of her chair.
“She’s afraid,” laughed Dick, instantly
comprehending. “She’s afraid somebody
is coming on it.”
“More twins?” queried
Elaine, from the depths of her rocker. “Surely
there can’t be any more twins?”
“I don’t know,”
answered Dorothy, vaguely troubled. “Someway,
I feel as though something terrible were going to
happen.”
Nothing happened, however, until after
luncheon, just as she had begun to breathe peacefully
again. Willie saw the procession first and ran
back with gleeful shouts to make the announcement.
So it was that the entire household, including Harlan,
formed a reception committee on the front porch.
Up the hill, drawn by two straining
horses, came what appeared at first to be a pyramid
of furniture, but later resolved itself into the component
parts of a more ponderous bed than the ingenuity of
man had yet contrived. It was made of black walnut,
and was at least three times as heavy as any of those
in the Jack-o’-Lantern. On the top of the
mass was perched a little old man in a skull cap,
a slippered foot in a scarlet sock airily waving at
one side. A bright green coil closely clutched
in his withered hands was the bed cord appertaining
to the bed-a sainted possession from which
its owner sternly refused to part.
“By Jove!” shouted Dick; “it’s
Uncle Israel and his crib!”
Paying no heed to the assembled group,
Uncle Israel dismounted nimbly enough, and directed
the men to take his bed upstairs, which they did,
while Harlan and Dorothy stood by helplessly.
Here, under his profane and involved direction, the
structure was finally set in place, even to the patchwork
quilt, fearfully and wonderfully made, which surmounted
it all.
Financial settlement was waved aside
by Uncle Israel as a matter in which he was not interested,
and it was Dick who counted out two dimes and a nickel
to secure peace. A supplementary procession appeared
with a small, weather-beaten trunk, a folding bath-cabinet,
and a huge case which, from Uncle Israel’s perturbation,
evidently contained numerous fragile articles of great
value.
“Tell Ebeneezer,” wheezed
the newcomer, “that I have arrived.”
“Ebeneezer,” replied Dick,
in wicked imitation of the old man’s asthmatic
speech, “has been dead for some time.”
“Then,” creaked Uncle
Israel, waving a tremulous, bony hand suggestively
toward the door, “kindly leave me alone with
my grief.”