I was not more than ten years old
when I first heard mention of the Quakers. The
grown-ups of my family were talking among themselves,
speaking of an uncle of mine who lived in Philadelphia
and operated a pharmacy near the university.
I had never seen this uncle and was curious about
him, so my ears were open. Presently a reference
to the Quakers caught my attention. I wanted
to know who the Quakers were. What was told me
then I have remembered ever since. The Quakers,
I was told, are people who wait for the spirit to
move them.
A picture formed in my mind.
Many a time I had seen my grandmother sitting quietly,
an aura of peace around her as she sewed or crocheted
or did her beautiful embroidery work. So I pictured
older people, most of them with white hair like my
grandparents, all with kindly faces, gathered in silent
assembly, heads bent slightly forward, waiting to be
moved. It never occurred to me that young people,
boys and girls of my age and even younger, might be
present and participating.
As the word “spirit” meant
nothing definite to me, I could have no idea of just
what would move the Quakers, but I had a sense that
it would be something within them, perhaps like the
stirrings that sometimes moved me, and I may have
had a vague notion that this something within them
was somehow related to what people called God.
I never thought to ask what the Quakers might do after
they were moved.
Had I been invited in those days to
attend a Friends meeting for worship I would have
gladly gone. I would have gone because my picturings
had given me good feelings about the Quakers.
I would have gone because, young though I was, I liked
to be silent now and again. Sometimes my best
friend and I would sit quietly together, happy that
we were together but not wanting to talk. Sometimes
I would go off by myself on walks to look at the wonders
of nature, to think my own thoughts, to dream, to
feel something stirring in me for which I had no name.
Or I might withdraw for a time from the activities
of the boys and girls and sit on the porch of our
house, my outward eyes watching them at play, my inward
eyes turned to an inner life that was as real to me,
and sometimes more wonderful than my life with the
group.
Certain experiences I had when alone,
certain experiences I had with my young friends, attitudes
and feelings that would suddenly arise in me at any
time or place these made up the mainstream
of my religious life. Such religion as I had
was life-centered, not book-centered, not church-centered.
It arose from the well of life within me, and within
my friends and parents. It arose from the well
of life within nature and the human world. It
consisted in my response to flowers, trees, birds,
snow, the smell of the earth after a spring rain, sunsets
and the starry sky. It consisted in my devotion
to pet rabbits and dogs, and to some interest or project
that caught my imagination.
I had been taught several formal prayers.
One of these I said every night, regularly, before
getting into bed. But I am thinking of the unformed
prayers that welled up in me whenever I had need of
them. I had been read some stories from the Bible
and some of the psalms, and from these I had doubtless
gained attitudes of reverence. But I am thinking
of the worship that spontaneously arose as I beheld
the wonders of the world which God created. Young
eyes are new eyes, and to new eyes all things are
fresh, vivid, original.
It is sometimes asked if children
and young people are capable of the religious life.
Certainly they are not capable of sustained effort
towards an unswerving aim. Certainly they cannot
hold themselves to a consistent discipline. They
cannot engage in the religious life as a conscious
way of living. These abilities come only as we
grow up and subject ourselves to training. But,
just as certainly, young people do have religious
experiences, and these often are more vivid and glowing
than those of the elders. That is it children
can glow. They can light up. This capacity
to glow is at the very heart of what we are talking
about.
To be sure, people young and old need
instruction. We need instruction in the Bible,
in poetry, in all literature that contains truth and
beauty. We need to be helped to struggle against
our faults, to overcome our imperfections. And
we need to be curbed on occasion, as the only way
in which we may eventually become able to curb ourselves.
But it should not be forgotten that all people, especially
young people, have poetry in them. And, more
than that, according to the faith of the Friends all
people have within them something of the very spirit
that created the scriptures.
Religious education, it seems to me,
is on the wrong track if it assumes that religion
is something that must be drilled into people.
It is on the right track if it recognizes that the
source of religion is within us as a native endowment,
and that the function of education is to call this
endowment forth, supply it with the nourishment it
needs in order to grow, and guide it in ways that
promote maturing. People should have reason to
be assured that formal religion is not contrary to
the springs of innate religious experience and longing,
but is in accord with the life and light within, and
simply seeks to direct and develop this spiritual
life.
Had a Friend approached me in those
days with some such understanding and assurance, and
had I been able to understand what he said, I would
have had still another reason, and this a compelling
one, for attending a meeting for worship. And
so I would have gone. I’d have sat there
with the others, feeling much at home, perhaps feeling
I was in a holy place. I’d have sat as
quietly as any for the first ten or fifteen minutes.
I would not have worshiped in any formal sense, for
I had not been taught any form. But I would have
practiced my kind of inwardness, thinking my own thoughts
as I did when alone, dreaming wonderful dreams, feeling
a life stir within me. Had there been a spoken
message or two, I would have listened attentively,
tried to understand, and honestly responded.
Presently, however, I would have begun
to fidget. Not knowing what I should try to do
in a meeting for worship, I would have had nothing
to fall back on when my thoughts ran out, no purpose
for curbing my increasing restlessness. Through
the windows my eyes would have caught sight of the
world outdoors, and I’d have wished I were out
there having fun with the boys. Time would have
dragged. I’d have asked myself, “Will
the meeting never end?” And when finally it did
end, I’d have been as glad for the ending as
I had been for the beginning.
What should we try to do in a meeting
for worship? What do we hope to attain through
it? Why is silence desirable? What is the
main idea behind the Friends manner of worship?
It is true that Quakers wait for the spirit to move
them. Why wait? Wouldn’t it be better
just to go ahead? Besides waiting, what more
is to be done? Can we not pray and worship when
we are alone, or as we go about our daily affairs?
Why is it necessary to meet together? What is
worship?
These are not questions that you answer
once and for all. You continue to think about
them and continue to increase your understanding.
But it helps us to think if we put our thoughts in
order and study the thoughts of others. So I
am going to write down some of the thoughts that have
come to me. We shall think about worship and the
central faith of the Friends, and let the answers
come as they may.