In an old Tuscan villa, a chapel ordinarily
makes one among the numerous apartments; though it
often happens that the door is permanently closed,
the key lost, and the place left to itself, in dusty
sanctity, like that chamber in man’s heart where
he hides his religious awe. This was very much
the case with the chapel of Monte Beni. One rainy
day, however, in his wanderings through the great,
intricate house, Kenyon had unexpectedly found his
way into it, and been impressed by its solemn aspect.
The arched windows, high upward in the wall, and darkened
with dust and cobweb, threw down a dim light that
showed the altar, with a picture of a martyrdom above,
and some tall tapers ranged before it. They had
apparently been lighted, and burned an hour or two,
and been extinguished perhaps half a century before.
The marble vase at the entrance held some hardened
mud at the bottom, accruing from the dust that had
settled in it during the gradual evaporation of the
holy water; and a spider (being an insect that delights
in pointing the moral of desolation and neglect) had
taken pains to weave a prodigiously thick tissue across
the circular brim. An old family banner, tattered
by the moths, drooped from the vaulted roof.
In niches there were some mediaeval busts of Donatello’s
forgotten ancestry; and among them, it might be, the
forlorn visage of that hapless knight between whom
and the fountain-nymph had occurred such tender love
passages.
Throughout all the jovial prosperity
of Monte Beni, this one spot within the domestic walls
had kept itself silent, stern, and sad. When the
individual or the family retired from song and mirth,
they here sought those realities which men do not
invite their festive associates to share. And
here, on the occasion above referred to, the sculptor
had discovered accidentally, so far as
he was concerned, though with a purpose on her part that
there was a guest under Donatello’s roof, whose
presence the Count did not suspect. An interview
had since taken place, and he was now summoned to
another.
He crossed the chapel, in compliance
with Tomaso’s instructions, and, passing through
the side entrance, found himself in a saloon, of no
great size, but more magnificent than he had supposed
the villa to contain. As it was vacant, Kenyon
had leisure to pace it once or twice, and examine
it with a careless sort of scrutiny, before any person
appeared.
This beautiful hall was floored with
rich marbles, in artistically arranged figures and
compartments. The walls, likewise, were almost
entirely cased in marble of various kinds, the prevalent,
variety being giallo antico, intermixed
with verd-antique, and others equally precious.
The splendor of the giallo antico, however,
was what gave character to the saloon; and the large
and deep niches, apparently intended for full length
statues, along the walls, were lined with the same
costly material. Without visiting Italy, one can
have no idea of the beauty and magnificence that are
produced by these fittings-up of polished marble.
Without such experience, indeed, we do not even know
what marble means, in any sense, save as the white
limestone of which we carve our mantelpieces.
This rich hall of Monte Beni, moreover, was adorned,
at its upper end, with two pillars that seemed to consist
of Oriental alabaster; and wherever there was a space
vacant of precious and variegated marble, it was frescoed
with ornaments in arabesque. Above, there was
a coved and vaulted ceiling, glowing with pictured
scenes, which affected Kenyon with a vague sense of
splendor, without his twisting his neck to gaze at
them.
It is one of the special excellences
of such a saloon of polished and richly colored marble,
that decay can never tarnish it. Until the house
crumbles down upon it, it shines indestructibly, and,
with a little dusting, looks just as brilliant in
its three hundredth year as the day after the final
slab of giallo antico was fitted into the
wall. To the sculptor, at this first View of
it, it seemed a hall where the sun was magically imprisoned,
and must always shine. He anticipated Miriam’s
entrance, arrayed in queenly robes, and beaming with
even more than the singular beauty that had heretofore
distinguished her.
While this thought was passing through
his mind, the pillared door, at the upper end of the
saloon, was partly opened, and Miriam appeared.
She was very pale, and dressed in deep mourning.
As she advanced towards the sculptor, the feebleness
of her step was so apparent that he made haste to
meet her, apprehending that she might sink down on
the marble floor, without the instant support of his
arm.
But, with a gleam of her natural self-reliance,
she declined his aid, and, after touching her cold
hand to his, went and sat down on one of the cushioned
divans that were ranged against the wall.
“You are very ill, Miriam!”
said Kenyon, much shocked at her appearance.
“I had not thought of this.”
“No; not so ill as I seem to
you,” she answered; adding despondently, “yet
I am ill enough, I believe, to die, unless some change
speedily occurs.”
“What, then, is your disorder?”
asked the sculptor; “and what the remedy?”
“The disorder!” repeated
Miriam. “There is none that I know of save
too much life and strength, without a purpose for
one or the other. It is my too redundant energy
that is slowly or perhaps rapidly wearing
me away, because I can apply it to no use. The
object, which I am bound to consider my only one on
earth, fails me utterly. The sacrifice which I
yearn to make of myself, my hopes, my everything, is
coldly put aside. Nothing is left for me but
to brood, brood, brood, all day, all night, in unprofitable
longings and repinings.”
“This is very sad, Miriam,” said Kenyon.
“Ay, indeed; I fancy so,” she replied,
with a short, unnatural laugh.
“With all your activity of mind,”
resumed he, “so fertile in plans as I have known
you, can you imagine no method of bringing your resources
into play?”
“My mind is not active any longer,”
answered Miriam, in a cold, indifferent tone.
“It deals with one thought and no more.
One recollection paralyzes it. It is not remorse;
do not think it! I put myself out of the question,
and feel neither regret nor penitence on my own behalf.
But what benumbs me, what robs me of all power,-it
is no secret for a woman to tell a man, yet I care
not though you know it, is the certainty
that I am, and must ever be, an object of horror in
Donatello’s sight.”
The sculptor a young man,
and cherishing a love which insulated him from the
wild experiences which some men gather was
startled to perceive how Miriam’s rich, ill-regulated
nature impelled her to fling herself, conscience and
all, on one passion, the object of which intellectually
seemed far beneath her.
“How have you obtained the certainty
of which you speak?” asked he, after a pause.
“O, by a sure token,”
said Miriam; “a gesture, merely; a shudder, a
cold shiver, that ran through him one sunny morning
when his hand happened to touch mine! But it
was enough.”
“I firmly believe, Miriam,”
said the sculptor, “that he loves you still.”
She started, and a flush of color
came tremulously over the paleness of her cheek.
“Yes,” repeated Kenyon,
“if my interest in Donatello and in
yourself, Miriam endows me with any true
insight, he not only loves you still, but with a force
and depth proportioned to the stronger grasp of his
faculties, in their new development.”
“Do not deceive me,” said Miriam, growing
pale again.
“Not for the world!” replied
Kenyon. “Here is what I take to be the
truth. There was an interval, no doubt, when the
horror of some calamity, which I need not shape out
in my conjectures, threw Donatello into a stupor of
misery. Connected with the first shock there was
an intolerable pain and shuddering repugnance attaching
themselves to all the circumstances and surroundings
of the event that so terribly affected him. Was
his dearest friend involved within the horror of that
moment? He would shrink from her as he shrank
most of all from himself. But as his mind roused
itself, as it rose to a higher life than
he had hitherto experienced, whatever had
been true and permanent within him revived by the
selfsame impulse. So has it been with his love.”
“But, surely,” said Miriam,
“he knows that I am here! Why, then, except
that I am odious to him, does he not bid me welcome?”
“He is, I believe, aware of
your presence here,” answered the sculptor.
“Your song, a night or two ago, must have revealed
it to him, and, in truth, I had fancied that there
was already a consciousness of it in his mind.
But, the more passionately he longs for your society,
the more religiously he deems himself bound to avoid
it. The idea of a lifelong penance has taken
strong possession of Donatello. He gropes blindly
about him for some method of sharp self-torture, and
finds, of course, no other so efficacious as this.”
“But he loves me,” repeated
Miriam, in a low voice, to herself. “Yes;
he loves me!”
It was strange to observe the womanly
softness that came over her, as she admitted that
comfort into her bosom. The cold, unnatural indifference
of her manner, a kind of frozen passionateness which
had shocked and chilled the sculptor, disappeared.
She blushed, and turned away her eyes, knowing that
there was more surprise and joy in their dewy glances
than any man save one ought to detect there.
“In other respects,” she
inquired at length, “is he much changed?”
“A wonderful process is going
forward in Donatello’s mind,” answered
the sculptor. “The germs of faculties that
have heretofore slept are fast springing into activity.
The world of thought is disclosing itself to his inward
sight. He startles me, at times, with his perception
of deep truths; and, quite as often, it must be owned,
he compels me to smile by the intermixture of his
former simplicity with a new intelligence. But
he is bewildered with the revelations that each day
brings. Out of his bitter agony, a soul and intellect,
I could almost say, have been inspired into him.”
“Ah, I could help him here!”
cried Miriam, clasping her hands. “And
how sweet a toil to bend and adapt my whole nature
to do him good! To instruct, to elevate, to enrich
his mind with the wealth that would flow in upon me,
had I such a motive for acquiring it! Who else
can perform the task? Who else has the tender
sympathy which he requires? Who else, save only
me, a woman, a sharer in the same dread
secret, a partaker in one identical guilt, could
meet him on such terms of intimate equality as the
case demands? With this object before me, I might
feel a right to live! Without it, it is a shame
for me to have lived so long.”
“I fully agree with you,”
said Kenyon, “that your true place is by his
side.”
“Surely it is,” replied
Miriam. “If Donatello is entitled to aught
on earth, it is to my complete self-sacrifice for
his sake. It does not weaken his claim, methinks,
that my only prospect of happiness a fearful word,
however lies in the good that may accrue to him from
our intercourse. But he rejects me! He will
not listen to the whisper of his heart, telling him
that she, most wretched, who beguiled him into evil,
might guide him to a higher innocence than that from
which he fell. How is this first great difficulty
to be obviated?”
“It lies at your own option,
Miriam, to do away the obstacle, at any moment,”
remarked the sculptor. “It is but to ascend
Donatello’s tower, and you will meet him there,
under the eye of God.”
“I dare not,” answered Miriam. “No;
I dare not!”
“Do you fear,” asked the
sculptor, “the dread eye-witness whom I have
named?”
“No; for, as far as I can see
into that cloudy and inscrutable thing, my heart,
it has none but pure motives,” replied Miriam.
“But, my friend, you little know what a weak
or what a strong creature a woman is! I fear
not Heaven, in this case, at least, but shall
I confess it? I am greatly in dread of Donatello.
Once he shuddered at my touch. If he shudder
once again, or frown, I die!”
Kenyon could not but marvel at the
subjection into which this proud and self-dependent
woman had willfully flung herself, hanging her life
upon the chance of an angry or favorable regard from
a person who, a little while before, had seemed the
plaything of a moment. But, in Miriam’s
eyes, Donatello was always, thenceforth, invested with
the tragic dignity of their hour of crime; and, furthermore,
the keen and deep insight, with which her love endowed
her, enabled her to know him far better than he could
be known by ordinary observation. Beyond all
question, since she loved him so, there was a force
in Donatello worthy of her respect and love.
“You see my weakness,”
said Miriam, flinging out her hands, as a person does
when a defect is acknowledged, and beyond remedy.
“What I need, now, is an opportunity to show
my strength.”
“It has occurred to me,”
Kenyon remarked, “that the time is come when
it may be desirable to remove Donatello from the complete
seclusion in which he buries himself. He has
struggled long enough with one idea. He now needs
a variety of thought, which cannot be otherwise so
readily supplied to him, as through the medium of
a variety of scenes. His mind is awakened, now;
his heart, though full of pain, is no longer benumbed.
They should have food and solace. If he linger
here much longer, I fear that he may sink back into
a lethargy. The extreme excitability, which circumstances
have imparted to his moral system, has its dangers
and its advantages; it being one of the dangers, that
an obdurate scar may supervene upon its very tenderness.
Solitude has done what it could for him; now, for
a while, let him be enticed into the outer world.”
“What is your plan, then?” asked Miriam.
“Simply,” replied Kenyon,
“to persuade Donatello to be my companion in
a ramble among these hills and valleys. The little
adventures and vicissitudes of travel will do him
infinite good. After his recent profound experience,
he will re-create the world by the new eyes with which
he will regard it. He will escape, I hope, out
of a morbid life, and find his way into a healthy
one.”
“And what is to be my part in
this process?” inquired Miriam sadly, and not
without jealousy. “You are taking him from
me, and putting yourself, and all manner of living
interests, into the place which I ought to fill!”
“It would rejoice me, Miriam,
to yield the entire responsibility of this office
to yourself,” answered the sculptor. “I
do not pretend to be the guide and counsellor whom
Donatello needs; for, to mention no other obstacle,
I am a man, and between man and man there is always
an insuperable gulf. They can never quite grasp
each other’s hands; and therefore man never
derives any intimate help, any heart sustenance, from
his brother man, but from woman his mother,
his sister, or his wife. Be Donatello’s
friend at need, therefore, and most gladly will I
resign him!”
“It is not kind to taunt me
thus,” said Miriam. “I have told you
that I cannot do what you suggest, because I dare
not.”
“Well, then,” rejoined
the sculptor, “see if there is any possibility
of adapting yourself to my scheme. The incidents
of a journey often fling people together in the oddest
and therefore the most natural way. Supposing
you were to find yourself on the same route, a reunion
with Donatello might ensue, and Providence have a
larger hand in it than either of us.”
“It is not a hopeful plan,”
said Miriam, shaking her head, after a moment’s
thought; “yet I will not reject it without a
trial. Only in case it fail, here is a resolution
to which I bind myself, come what come may! You
know the bronze statue of Pope Julius in the great
square of Perugia? I remember standing in the
shadow of that statue one sunny noontime, and being
impressed by its paternal aspect, and fancying that
a blessing fell upon me from its outstretched hand.
Ever since, I have had a superstition, you will call
it foolish, but sad and ill-fated persons always dream
such things, that, if I waited long enough
in that same spot, some good event would come to pass.
Well, my friend, precisely a fortnight after you begin
your tour, unless we sooner meet, bring
Donatello, at noon, to the base of the statue.
You will find me there!”
Kenyon assented to the proposed arrangement,
and, after some conversation respecting his contemplated
line of travel, prepared to take his leave. As
he met Miriam’s eyes, in bidding farewell, he
was surprised at the new, tender gladness that beamed
out of them, and at the appearance of health and bloom,
which, in this little while, had overspread her face.’
“May I tell you, Miriam,”
said he, smiling, “that you are still as beautiful
as ever?”
“You have a right to notice
it,” she replied, “for, if it be so, my
faded bloom has been revived by the hopes you give
me. Do you, then, think me beautiful? I
rejoice, most truly. Beauty if I possess
it shall be one of the instruments by which
I will try to educate and elevate him, to whose good
I solely dedicate myself.”
The sculptor had nearly reached the
door, when, hearing her call him, he turned back,
and beheld Miriam still standing where he had left
her, in the magnificent hall which seemed only a fit
setting for her beauty. She beckoned him to return.
“You are a man of refined taste,”
said she; “more than that, a man of
delicate sensibility. Now tell me frankly, and
on your honor! Have I not shocked you many times
during this interview by my betrayal of woman’s
cause, my lack of feminine modesty, my reckless, passionate,
most indecorous avowal, that I live only in the life
of one who, perhaps, scorns and shudders at me?”
Thus adjured, however difficult the
point to which she brought him, the sculptor was not
a man to swerve aside from the simple truth.
“Miriam,” replied he,
“you exaggerate the impression made upon my
mind; but it has been painful, and somewhat of the
character which you suppose.”
“I knew it,” said Miriam,
mournfully, and with no resentment. “What
remains of my finer nature would have told me so, even
if it had not been perceptible in all your manner.
Well, my dear friend, when you go back to Rome, tell
Hilda what her severity has done! She was all
womanhood to me; and when she cast me off, I had no
longer any terms to keep with the reserves and decorums
of my sex. Hilda has set me free! Pray tell
her so, from Miriam, and thank her!”
“I shall tell Hilda nothing
that will give her pain,” answered Kenyon.
“But, Miriam, though I know not what passed between
her and yourself, I feel, and let the noble
frankness of your disposition forgive me if I say
so, I feel that she was right. You
have a thousand admirable qualities. Whatever
mass of evil may have fallen into your life, pardon
me, but your own words suggest it, you are
still as capable as ever of many high and heroic virtues.
But the white shining purity of Hilda’s nature
is a thing apart; and she is bound, by the undefiled
material of which God moulded her, to keep that severity
which I, as well as you, have recognized.”
“O, you are right!” said
Miriam; “I never questioned it; though, as I
told you, when she cast me off, it severed some few
remaining bonds between me and decorous womanhood.
But were there anything to forgive, I do forgive her.
May you win her virgin heart; for methinks there can
be few men in this evil world who are not more unworthy
of her than yourself.”