When the last of the twelve strokes
had fallen from the cathedral clock, Kenyon threw
his eyes over the busy scene of the market place, expecting
to discern Miriam somewhere in the ’crowd.
He looked next towards the cathedral itself, where
it was reasonable to imagine that she might have taken
shelter, while awaiting her appointed time. Seeing
no trace of her in either direction, his eyes came
back from their quest somewhat disappointed, and rested
on a figure which was leaning, like Donatello and
himself, on the iron balustrade that surrounded the
statue. Only a moment before, they two had been
alone.
It was the figure of a woman, with
her head bowed on her hands, as if she deeply felt what
we have been endeavoring to convey into our feeble
description the benign and awe-inspiring
influence which the pontiff’s statue exercises
upon a sensitive spectator. No matter though it
were modelled for a Catholic chief priest, the desolate
heart, whatever be its religion, recognizes in that
image the likeness of a father.
“Miriam,” said the sculptor,
with a tremor in his voice, “is it yourself?”
“It is I,” she replied;
“I am faithful to my engagement, though with
many fears.” She lifted her head, and revealed
to Kenyon revealed to Donatello likewise the
well-remembered features of Miriam. They were
pale and worn, but distinguished even now, though less
gorgeously, by a beauty that might be imagined bright
enough to glimmer with its own light in a dim cathedral
aisle, and had no need to shrink from the severer
test of the mid-day sun. But she seemed tremulous,
and hardly able to go through with a scene which at
a distance she had found courage to undertake.
“You are most welcome, Miriam!”
said the sculptor, seeking to afford her the encouragement
which he saw she so greatly required. “I
have a hopeful trust that the result of this interview
will be propitious. Come; let me lead you to
Donatello.”
“No, Kenyon, no!” whispered
Miriam, shrinking back; “unless of his own accord
he speaks my name, unless he bids me stay, no
word shall ever pass between him and me. It is
not that I take upon me to be proud at this late hour.
Among other feminine qualities, I threw away my pride
when Hilda cast me off.”
“If not pride, what else restrains
you?” Kenyon asked, a little angry at her unseasonable
scruples, and also at this half-complaining reference
to Hilda’s just severity. “After daring
so much, it is no time for fear! If we let him
part from you without a word, your opportunity of doing
him inestimable good is lost forever.”
“True; it will be lost forever!”
repeated Miriam sadly. “But, dear friend,
will it be my fault? I willingly fling my woman’s
pride at his feet. But do you not
see? his heart must be left freely to its
own decision whether to recognize me, because on his
voluntary choice depends the whole question whether
my devotion will do him good or harm. Except
he feel an infinite need of me, I am a burden and fatal
obstruction to him!”
“Take your own course, then,
Miriam,” said Kenyon; “and, doubtless,
the crisis being what it is, your spirit is better
instructed for its emergencies than mine.”
While the foregoing words passed between
them they had withdrawn a little from the immediate
vicinity of the statue, so as to be out of Donatello’s
hearing. Still, however, they were beneath the
pontiff’s outstretched hand; and Miriam, with
her beauty and her sorrow, looked up into his benignant
face, as if she had come thither for his pardon and
paternal affection, and despaired of so vast a boon.
Meanwhile, she had not stood thus
long in the public square of Perugia, without attracting
the observation of many eyes. With their quick
sense of beauty, these Italians had recognized her
loveliness, and spared not to take their fill of gazing
at it; though their native gentleness and courtesy
made their homage far less obtrusive than that of Germans,
French, or Anglo-Saxons might have been. It is
not improbable that Miriam had planned this momentous
interview, on so public a spot and at high noon, with
an eye to the sort of protection that would be thrown
over it by a multitude of eye-witnesses. In circumstances
of profound feeling and passion, there is often a
sense that too great a seclusion cannot be endured;
there is an indefinite dread of being quite alone
with the object of our deepest interest. The species
of solitude that a crowd harbors within itself is
felt to be preferable, in certain conditions of the
heart, to the remoteness of a desert or the depths
of an untrodden wood. Hatred, love, or whatever
kind of too intense emotion, or even indifference,
where emotion has once been, instinctively seeks to
interpose some barrier between itself and the corresponding
passion in another breast. This, we suspect, was
what Miriam had thought of, in coming to the thronged
piazza; partly this, and partly, as she said, her
superstition that the benign statue held good influences
in store.
But Donatello remained leaning against
the balustrade. She dared not glance towards
him, to see whether he were pale and agitated, or calm
as ice. Only, she knew that the moments were
fleetly lapsing away, and that his heart must call
her soon, or the voice would never reach her.
She turned quite away from him and spoke again to
the sculptor.
“I have wished to meet you,”
said she, “for more than one reason. News
has come to me respecting a dear friend of ours.
Nay, not of mine! I dare not call her a friend
of mine, though once the dearest.”
“Do you speak of Hilda?”
exclaimed Kenyon, with quick alarm. “Has
anything befallen her? When I last heard of her,
she was still in Rome, and well.”
“Hilda remains in Rome,”
replied Miriam, “nor is she ill as regards physical
health, though much depressed in spirits. She
lives quite alone in her dove-cote; not a friend near
her, not one in Rome, which, you know, is deserted
by all but its native inhabitants. I fear for
her health, if she continue long in such solitude,
with despondency preying on her mind. I tell
you this, knowing the interest which the rare beauty
of her character has awakened in you.”
“I will go to Rome!” said
the sculptor, in great emotion. “Hilda has
never allowed me to manifest more than a friendly regard;
but, at least, she cannot prevent my watching over
her at a humble distance. I will set out this
very hour.”
“Do not leave us now!”
whispered Miriam imploringly, and laying her hand
on his arm. “One moment more! Ah; he
has no word for me!”
“Miriam!” said Donatello.
Though but a single word, and the
first that he had spoken, its tone was a warrant of
the sad and tender depth from which it came. It
told Miriam things of infinite importance, and, first
of all, that he still loved her. The sense of
their mutual crime had stunned, but not destroyed,
the vitality of his affection; it was therefore indestructible.
That tone, too, bespoke an altered and deepened character;
it told of a vivified intellect, and of spiritual
instruction that had come through sorrow and remorse;
so that instead of the wild boy, the thing of sportive,
animal nature, the sylvan Faun, here was now the man
of feeling and intelligence.
She turned towards him, while his
voice still reverberated in the depths of her soul.
“You have called me!” said she.
“Because my deepest heart has
need of you!” he replied. “Forgive,
Miriam, the coldness, the hardness with which I parted
from you! I was bewildered with strange horror
and gloom.”
“Alas! and it was I that brought
it on you,” said she. “What repentance,
what self-sacrifice, can atone for that infinite wrong?
There was something so sacred in the innocent and
joyous life which you were leading! A happy person
is such an unaccustomed and holy creature in this
sad world! And, encountering so rare a being,
and gifted with the power of sympathy with his sunny
life, it was my doom, mine, to bring him within the
limits of sinful, sorrowful mortality! Bid me
depart, Donatello! Fling me off! No good,
through my agency, can follow upon such a mighty evil!”
“Miriam,” said he, “our
lot lies together. Is it not so? Tell me,
in Heaven’s name, if it be otherwise.”
Donatello’s conscience was evidently
perplexed with doubt, whether the communion of a crime,
such as they two were jointly stained with, ought
not to stifle all the instinctive motions of their
hearts, impelling them one towards the other.
Miriam, on the other hand, remorsefully questioned
with herself whether the misery, already accruing from
her influence, should not warn her to withdraw from
his path. In this momentous interview, therefore,
two souls were groping for each other in the darkness
of guilt and sorrow, and hardly were bold enough to
grasp the cold hands that they found.
The sculptor stood watching the scene
with earnest sympathy.
“It seems irreverent,”
said he, at length; “intrusive, if not irreverent,
for a third person to thrust himself between the two
solely concerned in a crisis like the present.
Yet, possibly as a bystander, though a deeply interested
one, I may discern somewhat of truth that is hidden
from you both; nay, at least interpret or suggest some
ideas which you might not so readily convey to each
other.”
“Speak!” said Miriam.
“We confide in you.” “Speak!”
said Donatello. “You are true and upright.”
“I well know,” rejoined
Kenyon, “that I shall not succeed in uttering
the few, deep words which, in this matter, as in all
others, include the absolute truth. But here,
Miriam, is one whom a terrible misfortune has begun
to educate; it has taken him, and through your agency,
out of a wild and happy state, which, within circumscribed
limits, gave him joys that he cannot elsewhere find
on earth. On his behalf, you have incurred a
responsibility which you cannot fling aside. And
here, Donatello, is one whom Providence marks out
as intimately connected with your destiny. The
mysterious process, by which our earthly life instructs
us for another state of being, was begun for you by
her. She has rich gifts of heart and mind, a
suggestive power, a magnetic influence, a sympathetic
knowledge, which, wisely and religiously exercised,
are what your condition needs. She possesses
what you require, and, with utter self devotion, will
use it for your good. The bond betwixt you, therefore,
is a true one, and never except by Heaven’s
own act should be rent asunder.”
“Ah; he has spoken the truth!”
cried Donatello, grasping Miriam’s hand.
“The very truth, dear friend,” cried Miriam.
“But take heed,” resumed
the sculptor, anxious not to violate the integrity
of his own conscience, “take heed; for you love
one another, and yet your bond is twined with such
black threads that you must never look upon it as
identical with the ties that unite other loving souls.
It is for mutual support; it is for one another’s
final good; it is for effort, for sacrifice, but not
for earthly happiness. If such be your motive,
believe me, friends, it were better to relinquish each
other’s hands at this sad moment. There
would be no holy sanction on your wedded life.”
“None,” said Donatello, shuddering.
“We know it well.”
“None,” repeated Miriam,
also shuddering. “United miserably
entangled with me, rather by a bond of
guilt, our union might be for eternity, indeed, and
most intimate; but, through all that endless
duration, I should be conscious of his horror.”
“Not for earthly bliss, therefore,”
said Kenyon, “but for mutual elevation, and
encouragement towards a severe and painful life, you
take each other’s hands. And if, out of
toil, sacrifice, prayer, penitence, and earnest effort
towards right things, there comes at length a sombre
and thoughtful, happiness, taste it, and thank Heaven!
So that you live not for it, so that it
be a wayside flower, springing along a path that leads
to higher ends, it will be Heaven’s
gracious gift, and a token that it recognizes your
union here below.”
“Have you no more to say?”
asked Miriam earnestly. “There is matter
of sorrow and lofty consolation strangely mingled
in your words.”
“Only this, dear Miriam,”
said the sculptor; “if ever in your lives the
highest duty should require from either of you the
sacrifice of the other, meet the occasion without
shrinking. This is all.”
While Kenyon spoke, Donatello had
evidently taken in the ideas which he propounded,
and had ennobled them by the sincerity of his reception.
His aspect unconsciously assumed a dignity, which,
elevating his former beauty, accorded with the change
that had long been taking place in his interior self.
He was a man, revolving grave and deep thoughts in
his breast. He still held Miriam’s hand;
and there they stood, the beautiful man, the beautiful
woman, united forever, as they felt, in the presence
of these thousand eye-witnesses, who gazed so curiously
at the unintelligible scene. Doubtless the crowd
recognized them as lovers, and fancied this a betrothal
that was destined to result in lifelong happiness.
And possibly it might be so. Who can tell where
happiness may come; or where, though an expected guest,
it may never show its face? Perhaps shy,
subtle thing it had crept into this sad
marriage bond, when the partners would have trembled
at its presence as a crime.
“Farewell!” said Kenyon; “I go to
Rome.”
“Farewell, true friend!” said Miriam.
“Farewell!” said Donatello
too. “May you be happy. You have no
guilt to make you shrink from happiness.”
At this moment it so chanced that
all the three friends by one impulse glanced upward
at the statue of Pope Julius; and there was the majestic
figure stretching out the hand of benediction over
them, and bending down upon this guilty and repentant
pair its visage of grand benignity. There is
a singular effect oftentimes when, out of the midst
of engrossing thought and deep absorption, we suddenly
look up, and catch a glimpse of external objects.
We seem at such moments to look farther and deeper
into them, than by any premeditated observation; it
is as if they met our eyes alive, and with all their
hidden meaning on the surface, but grew again inanimate
and inscrutable the instant that they became aware
of our glances. So now, at that unexpected glimpse,
Miriam, Donatello, and the sculptor, all three imagined
that they beheld the bronze pontiff endowed with spiritual
life. A blessing was felt descending upon them
from his outstretched hand; he approved by look and
gesture the pledge of a deep union that had passed
under his auspices.