That night Arthur’s condition was, to Pearl’s
sharp eyes, alarming.
He tried to quiet her fears.
He would be well directly, it was nothing, nothing
at all, a mere indisposition (Pearl didn’t know
what that was); but when she went into the granary
with a pitcher of water for him, and found him writing
letters in the feeble light of a lantern, she took
one look at him, laid down the pitcher and hurried
out to tell Tom.
Tom was in the kitchen taking off his boots preparatory
to going to bed.
“Tom,” she said excitedly,
“get back into yer boots, and go for the doctor.
Arthur’s got the thing that Pa had, and it’ll
have to be cut out of him or he’ll die.”
“What?” Tom gasped, with one foot across
his knee.
“I think he has it,” Pearl
said, “he’s actin’ just like what
Pa did, and he’s in awful pain, I know, only
he won’t let on; and we must get the doctor
or he might die before mornin’, and then how’d
we feel?”
Tom hesitated.
“Remember, Tom, he has a father
and a mother and four brothers, and a girl called
Thursa, and an uncle that is a bishop, and how’d
we ever face them when we go to heaven if we just
set around and let Arthur die?”
“What is it, Pearl?” Mrs.
Motherwell said coming into the room, having heard
Pearl’s excited tones.
“It’s Arthur, ma’am.
Come out and see him. You’ll see he needs
the doctor. Ginger tea and mustard plasters ain’t
a flea-bite on a pain like what he has.”
“Let’s give him a dose
of aconite,” Tom said with conviction; “that’ll
fix him.”
Mrs. Motherwell and Pearl went over to the granary.
“Don’t knock at the door,”
Pearl whispered to her as they went. “Ye
can’t tell a thing about him if ye do. Arthur’d
straighten up and be polite at his own funeral.
Just look in the crack there and you’ll see
if he ain’t sick.”
Mrs. Motherwell did see. Arthur
lay tossing and moaning across his bed, his letter
pad and pencil beside him on the floor.
Mrs. Motherwell did not want Tom to
go to Millford that night. One of the harvesters’
excursions was expected-was probably in-then-there
would be a wild time. Besides, the two-dollar
bill still worried her. If Tom had it he might
spend it. No, Tom was safer at home.
“Oh, I don’t think he’s
so very bad,” she said. “We’ll
get the doctor in the morning if he isn’t any
better. Now you go to bed, Pearl, and don’t
worry yourself.”
But Pearl did not go to bed.
When Mrs. Motherwell and Tom had gone
to their own rooms, she built up the kitchen fire,
and heated a frying-pan full of salt, with which she
filled a pair of her own stockings and brought them
to Arthur. She remembered that her mother had
done that when her father was sick, and that it had
eased his pain. She drew a pail of fresh water
from the well, and brought a basinful to him, and
bathed his burning face and hands. Arthur received
her attentions gratefully.
Pearl knew what she would do.
She would run over and tell Jim, and Jim would go
for the doctor. Jim would not be in bed yet, she
knew, and even if he were, he would not mind getting
up.
Jim would go to town any time she
wanted anything. One time when she had said she
just wished she knew whether Camilla had her new suit
made yet, Jim jumped right up and said he’d
go and see.
Mrs. Motherwell had gone to her room
very much concerned with her own troubles. Why
should Tom fall into evil ways? she asked herself-a
boy who had been as economically brought up as he
was. Other people’s boys had gone wrong,
but she had alway thought that the parents were to
blame some way. Then she thought of Arthur; perhaps
he should have the doctor. She had been slow
to believe that Polly was really sick-and
had had cause for regret. She would send for the
doctor, in the morning. But what was Pearl doing
so long in the kitchen?-She could hear
her moving around-Pearl must go to her bed,
or she would not be able to get up in the morning.
Pearl was just going out of the kitchen
with her hat and coat on when Mrs. Motherwell came
in.
“Where are you going, Pearl,” she asked.
“To git someone to go for the doctor,”
Pearl answered stoutly.
“Is he worse?” Mrs. Motherwell asked quickly.
“He can’t git worse,”
Pearl replied grimly. “If he gits worse
he’ll be dead.”
Mrs. Motherwell called Tom at once,
and told him to bring the doctor as soon as he could.
“Where’s my overcoat mother?” Tom
called from the hall.
“Take your father’s”
she said, “he is going to get a new one while
he is in Winnipeg, that one’s too small for
him now. I put yours outside to air. It
had a queer smell on it I thought, and now hurry, Tom.
Bring Dr. Barner. I think he’s the best
for a serious case. Dr. Clay is too young, Anyway,
the old man knowns far more than he does, if you can
only get him sober.”
Pearl’s heart sank.
“Arthur’s as good as dead,”
she said as she went to the granary, crying softly
to herself. “Dr. Clay is the only man who
could save him, and they won’t have him.”
The sun had gone down and heavy clouds
filled the sky. Not a star was to be seen, and
the night was growing darker and darker.
A sound of wheels came from across
the creek, coming rapidly down the road. The
old dog barked viciously. A horse driven at full
speed dashed through the yard; Pearl ran shouting
after, for even in the gathering darkness she recognised
the one person in all the world who could save Arthur.
But the wind and the barking of the dog drowned her
voice, and the sound of the doctor’s wheels
grew fainter in the distance.
Only for a moment was Pearl dismayed.
“I’ll catch him coming
back,” she said, “if I have to tie binding
twine across the road to tangle up Pleurisy’s
long legs. He’s on his way to Cowan’s,
I know. Ab Cowan has quinsy. Never mind,
Thursa, we’ll get him. I hope now that
the old doctor is too full to come-oh, no
I don’t either, I just hope he’s away
and Dr. Clay will have it done before he gets here.”
When Tom arrived in Millford he found
a great many people thronging the streets. One
of the Ontario’s harvesters’ excursions
had arrived a few hours before, and the “Huron
and Bruce” boys were already making themselves
seen and heard.
Tom went at once to Dr. Barner’s
office and found that the doctor was out making calls,
but would be back in an hour. Not at all displeased
at having some time to spend, Tom went back to the
gaily lighted front street. The crowds of men
who went in and out of the hotels seemed to promise
some excitement.
Inside of the Grand Pacific, a gramophone
querulously sang “Any Rags, Any Bones, Any Bottles
To-day” to a delighted company of listeners.
When Tom entered he was received with
the greatest cordiality by the bartender and others.
“Here is life and good-fellowship,”
Tom thought to himself, “here’s the place
to have a good time.”
“Is your father back yet, Tom?”
the bartender asked as he served a line of customers.
“He’ll come up Monday
night, I expect,” Tom answered, rather proud
of the attention he was receiving.
The bartender pushed a box of cigars toward him.
“Have a cigar, Tom,” he said.
“No, thank you,” Tom answered,
“not any.” Tom could not smoke, but
he drew a plug of chewing tobacco from his pocket
and took a chew, to show that his sympathies were
that way.
“I guess perhaps some of you
men met Mr. Motherwell in Winnipeg. He’s
in there hiring men for this locality,” the bartender
said amiably.
“That’s the name of the gent that hired
me,” said one.
“Me too.”
“And me,” came from others.
“I’d no intention of comin’ here,”
a man from Paisley said. “I was goin’
to Souris, until that gent got a holt of me, and I
thought if he wuz a sample of the men ye raise here,
I’d hike this way.”
“He’s lookin’ for
a treat,” the bartender laughed. “He’s
sized you up, Tom, as a pretty good fellow.”
“No, I ain’t after no
treat,” the Paisley man declared. “That’s
straight, what I told you.”
Tom unconsciously put his hand in
his coat pocket and felt the money his father had
put there. He drew it out wondering. The
quick eyes of the bartender saw it at once.
“Tom’s getting out his
wad, boys,” he laughed. “Nothin’
mean about Tom, you bet Tom’s goin’ to
do somethin’.”
In the confusion that followed Tom heard himself saying:
“All right boys, come along and name yer drinks.”
Tom had a very indistinct memory of
what followed. He remembered having a handful
of silver, and of trying to put it in his pocket.
Once when the boys were standing in
front of the bar at his invitation he noticed a miserable,
hungry looking man, who drank greedily. It was
Skinner. Then someone took him by the arm and
said something about his having enough, and Tom felt
himself being led across a floor that rose and fell
strangely, to a black lounge that tried to slide away
from him and then came back suddenly and hit him.
The wind raged and howled with increasing
violence around the granary where Arthur lay tossing
upon his hard bed. It seized the door and rattled
it in wanton playfulness, as if to deceive the sick
man with the hope that a friend’s hand was on
the latch, and then raced blustering and screaming
down to the meadows below. The fanning mill and
piles of grain bags made fantastic shadows on the wall
in the lantern’s dim light, and seemed to his
distorted fancy like dark and terrible spectres waiting
to spring upon him.
Pearl knelt down beside him, tenderly
bathing his burning face.
“Why do you do all this for
me, Pearl?” he asked slowly, his voice coming
thick and painfully.
She changed the cloth on his head before replying.
“Oh, I keep thinkin’ it
might be Teddy or Jimmy or maybe wee Danny,”
she replied gently, “and besides, there’s
Thursa.”
The young man opened his eyes and smiled bravely.
“Yes, there’s Thursa,” he said simply.
Pearl kept the fire burning in the
kitchen-the doctor might need hot water.
She remembered that he had needed sheets too, and carbolic
acid, when he had operated on her father the winter
before.
Arthur did not speak much as the night
wore on, and Pearl began to grow drowsy in spite of
all her efforts. She brought the old dog into
the granary with her for company. The wind rattled
the mud chinking in the walls and drove showers of
dust and gravel against the little window. She
had put the lantern behind the fanning mill, so that
its light would not shine in Arthur’s eyes,
and in the semi-darkness, she and old Nap waited and
listened. The dog soon laid his head upon her
knee and slept, and Pearl was left alone to watch.
Surely the doctor would come soon...it was a good
thing she had the dog...he was so warm beside her,
and...
She sprang up guiltily. Had she
been asleep...what if he had passed while she slept...she
grew cold at the thought.
“Did he pass, Nap?” she
whispered to the dog, almost crying. “Oh
Nap, did we let him go past?”
Nap yawned widely and flicked one
ear, which was his way of telling Pearl not to distress
herself. Nobody had passed.
Pearl’s eyes were heavy with sleep.
“This is not the time to sleep,”
she said, yawning and shivering. Arthur’s
wash-basin stood on the floor beside the bed, where
she had been bathing his face. She put more water
into it.
“Now then,” she said,
“once for his mother, once for his father, a
big long one for Thursa,” holding her head so
long below the water that it felt numb, when she took
it out. “I can’t do one for each of
the boys,” she shivered, “I’ll lump
the boys, here’s a big one for them.”
“There now,” her teeth
chattered as she wiped her hair on Arthur’s
towel, “that ought to help some.”
Arthur opened his eyes and looked
anxiously around him. Pearl was beside him at
once.
“Pearl,” he said, “what
is wrong with me? What terrible pain is this
that has me in its clutches?” The strength had
gone out of the man, he could no longer battle with
it.
Pearl hesitated. It is not well
to tell sick people your gravest fears. “Still
Arthur is English, and the English are gritty,”
Pearl thought to herself.
“Arthur,” she said, “I think you
have appendicitis.”
Arthur lay motionless for a few moments. He knew
what that was.
“But that requires an operation,”
he said at length, “a very skilful one.”
“It does,” Pearl replied,
“and that’s what you’ll get as soon
as Dr. Clay gets here, I’m thinking.”
Arthur turned his face into his pillow.
An operation for appendicitis, here, in this place,
and by that young man, no older than himself perhaps?
He knew that at home, it was only undertaken by the
oldest and best surgeons in the hospitals.
Pearl saw something of his fears in
his face. So she hastened to reassure him.
She said cheerfully:
“Don’t ye be worried,
Arthur, about it at all at all. Man alive!
Dr. Clay thinks no more of an operation like that
than I would o’ cuttin’ your nails.”
A strange feeling began at Arthur’s
heart, and spread up to his brain. It had come!
It was here!
From lightning and tempest; from
plague, pestilence
and famine; from battle and murder
and sudden
death;-Good Lord, deliver
us!
He had prayed it many times, meaninglessly.
But he clung to it now, clung to it desperately.
As a drowning man. He put his hand over his eyes,
his pain was forgotten:
Other lights are paling-which
for long years we have
rejoiced to see...we would not mourn
them for we go
to Thee!
Yes it was all right; he was ready
now. He had come of a race of men who feared
not death in whatever form it came.
Bring us to our resting beds at
night-weary and
content and undishonoured-and
grant us in the end
the gift of sleep.
He repeated the prayer to himself
slowly. That was it, weary and content, and undishonoured.
“Pearl,” he said, reaching
out his burning hand until it rested on hers, “all
my letters are there in that black portmanteau, and
the key is in my pocket-book. I have a fancy
that I would like no eye but yours to see them-until
I am quite well again.”
She nodded.
“And if you...should have need...to
write to Thursa, tell her I had loving hands around
me...at the last.”
Pearl gently stroked his hand.
“And to my father write that
I knew no fear”-his voice grew steadier-“and
passed out of life glad to have been a brave man’s
son, and borne even for a few years a godly father’s
name.”
“I will write it, Arthur,” she said.
“And to my mother, Pearl”
his voice wavered and broke-“my mother...for
I was her youngest child...tell her she was my last...and
tenderest thought.”
Pearl pressed his hand tenderly against
her weather-beaten little cheek, for it was Danny
now, grown a man but Danny still, who lay before her,
fighting for his life; and at the thought her tears
fell fast.
“Pearl,” he spoke again,
after a pause, pressing his hand to his forehead,
“while my mind holds clear, perhaps you would
be good enough, you have been so good to me, to say
that prayer you learned. My father will be in
his study now, and soon it will be time for morning
prayers. I often feel his blessing on me, Pearl.
I want to feel it now, bringing peace and rest...weary
and content and undishonoured, and...undishonoured...and
grant us...” His voice grew fainter and
trailed away into incoherency.
And now, oh thou dignified rector
of St. Agnes, in thy home beyond the sea, lay aside
the “Appendix to the Apology of St. Perpetua,”
over which thou porest, for under all thy dignity
and formalism there beats a loving father’s
heart. The shadows are gathering, dear sir, around
thy fifth son in a far country, and in the gathering
shadows there stalks, noiselessly, relentlessly, that
grim, gray spectre, Death. On thy knees, then,
oh Rector of St. Agnes, and blend thy prayers with
the feeble petitions of her who even now, for thy
house, entreats the Throne of Grace. Pray, oh
thou on whom the bishop’s hands have been laid,
that the golden bowl be not broken nor the silver cord
loosed, for the breath of thy fifth son draws heavily,
and the things of time and sense are fading, fading,
fading from his closing eyes.
Pearl repeated the prayer.
She stopped abruptly. The old
dog lifted his head and listened. Snatching up
the lantern, she was out of the door before the dog
was on his feet; there were wheels coming, coming
down the road in mad haste. Pearl swung the lantern
and shouted.
The doctor reined in his horse.
She flashed the lantern into his face.
“Oh Doc!” she cried, “dear
Doc, I have been waitin’ and waitin’ for
ye. Git in there to the granary. Arthur’s
the sickest thing ye ever saw. Git in there on
the double jump.” She put the lantern into
his hand as she spoke.
Hastily unhitching the doctor’s
horse she felt her way with him into the driving shed.
The night was at its blackest.
“Now, Thursa,” she laughed
to herself, “we got him, and he’ll do it,
dear Doc, he’ll do it.” The wind blew
dust and gravel in her face as she ran across the
yard.
When she went into the granary the
doctor was sitting on the box by Arthur’s bed,
with his face in his hands.
“Oh, Doc, what is it?” she cried, seizing
his arm.
The doctor looked at her, dazed, and
even Pearl uttered a cry of dismay when she saw his
face, for it was like the face of a dead man.
“Pearl,” he said slowly,
“I have made a terrible mistake, I have killed
young Cowan.”
“Bet he deserved it, then,” Pearl said
stoutly.
“Killed him,” the doctor
went on, not heeding her, “he died in my hands,
poor fellow! Oh, the poor young fellow! I
lanced his throat, thinking it was quinsy he had,
but it must have been diphtheria, for he died, Pearl,
he died, I tell you!”
“Well!” Pearl cried, excitedly
waving her arms, “he ain’t the first man
that’s been killed by a mistake, I’ll bet
lots o’ doctors kill people by mistake, but
they don’t tell-and the corpse don’t
either, and there ye are. I’ll bet you
feel worse about it than he does, Doc.”
The doctor groaned.
“Come, Doc,” she said, plucking his sleeve,
“take a look at Arthur.”
The doctor rose uncertainly and paced
up and down the floor with his face in his hands,
swaying like a drunken man.
“O God!” he moaned, “if
I could but bring back his life with mine; but I can’t!
I can’t! I can’t!”
Pearl watched him, but said not a word. At last
she said:
“Doc, I think Arthur has appendicitis.
Come and have a look at him, and see if he hasn’t.”
With a supreme effort the doctor gained
control of himself and made a hasty but thorough examination.
“He has,” he said, “a well developed
case of it.”
Pearl handed him his satchel. “Here, then,”
she said, “go at him.”
“I can’t do it, Pearl,”
he cried. “I can’t. He’ll
die, I tell you, like that other poor fellow.
I can’t send another man to meet his Maker.”
“Oh, he’s ready!”
Pearl interrupted him. “Don’t hold
back on Arthur’s account.”
“I can’t do it,”
he repeated hopelessly. “He’ll die
under my knife, I can’t kill two men in one
night. O God, be merciful to a poor, blundering,
miserable wretch!” he groaned, burying his face
in his hands, and Pearl noticed that the back of his
coat quivered like human flesh.
Arthur’s breath was becoming
more and more laboured; his eyes roved sightlessly
around the room; his head rolled on the pillow in a
vain search for rest; his fingers clutched convulsively
at the bed-clothes.
Pearl was filled with dismay.
The foundations of her little world were tottering.
All but One. There was One who
had never failed her. He would not fail her now.
She dropped on her knees.
“O God, dear God,” she
prayed, beating her hard little brown hands together,
“don’t go back on us, dear God. Put
the gimp into Doc again; he’s not scared to
do it, Lord, he’s just lost his grip for a minute;
he’s not scared Lord; it looks like it, but he
isn’t. You can bank on Doc, Lord, he’s
not scared. Bear with him, dear Lord, just a
minute-just a minute-he’ll
do it, and he’ll do it right, Amen.”
When Pearl rose from her knees the
doctor had lifted his head.
“Do you want hot water and sheets
and carbolic?” she asked.
He nodded.
When she came back with them the doctor
was taking off his coat. His instruments were
laid out on the box.
“Get a lamp,” he said to Pearl.
Pearl’s happy heart was singing
with joy. “O Lord, dear Lord, You never
fail,” she murmured as she ran across to the
kitchen.
When she came back with the lamp and
a chair to set it on, the doctor was pinning a sheet
above the bed. His face was white and drawn, but
his hand was firm and his mouth was a straight line.
Arthur was tossing his arms convulsively.
The doctor listened with his ear a
minute upon the sick man’s heart, then the gauze
mask was laid upon his face and the chloroform soon
did its merciful work.
The doctor handed Pearl the bottle.
“A drop or two if he moves,” he said.
Then Horace Clay, the man with a man’s
mistakes, his fears, his heart-burnings, was gone,
and in his place stood Horace Clay, the doctor, keen,
alert, masterful, indomitable, with the look of battle
on his face. He worked rapidly, never faltering;
his eyes burning with the joy of the true physician
who fights to save, to save a human life from the
grim old enemy, Death.
“You have saved his life, Pearl,”
the doctor said two hours later. Arthur lay sleeping
easily, the flush gone from his face, and his breath
coming regularly.
The doctor put his hand gently on
her tumbled little brown head.
“You saved him from death, Pearl,
and me-from something worse.”
And then Pearl took the doctor’s
hand in both of hers, and kissed it reverently.
“That’s for Thursa,” she said, gravely.
Tom was awakened by some one shaking him gently.
“Tom, Tom Motherwell, what are you doing here?”
A woman knelt beside him; her eyes
were sweet and kind and sad beyond expression.
“Tom, how did you come here?”
she asked, gently, as Tom struggled to rise.
He sat up, staring stupidly around
him. “Wha’ ’s a matter?
Where’s this?” he asked thickly.
“You’re in the sitting-room
at the hotel,” she said. He would have lain
down again, but she took him firmly by the arm.
“Come Tom,” she said. “Come
and have a drink of water.”
She led him out of the hotel to the
pump at the corner of the street. Tom drank thirstily.
She pumped water on his hands, and bathed his burning
face in it. The cold water and the fresh air began
to clear his brain.
“What time is it?” he asked her.
“Nearly morning,” she
said. “About half-past three, I think,”
and Tom knew even in the darkness that she had lost
more teeth. It was Mrs. Skinner.
“Tom,” she said, “did
you see Skinner in there? I came down to get
him-I want him-the child is dead
an hour ago.” She spoke hurriedly.
Tom remembered now. Yes, he had
seen Skinner, but not lately; it was a long, long
time ago.
“Now Tom, go home,” she
said kindly. “This is bad work for you,
my dear boy. Stop it now, dear Tom, while you
can. It will kill you, body and soul.”
A thought struggled in Tom’s
dull brain. There was something he wanted to
say to her which must be said; but she was gone.
He drank again from the cup that hung
beside the pump. Where did he get this burning
thirst, and his head, how it pounded! She had
told him to go home. Well, why wasn’t he
at home? What was he doing here?
Slowly his memory came back-he
had come for the doctor; and the doctor was to be
back in an hour, and now it was nearly morning, didn’t
she say?
He tried to run, but his knees failed
him-what about Arthur? He grew chill
at the thought-he might be dead by this
time.
He reached the doctor’s office
some way. His head still throbbed and his feet
were heavy as lead; but his mind was clear.
A lamp was burning in the office but
no one was in. It seemed a month ago since he
had been there before. The air of the office was
close and stifling, and heavy with stale tobacco smoke.
Tom sat down, wearily, in the doctor’s armchair;
his heart beat painfully-he’ll be
dead-he’ll be dead-he’ll
be dead-it was pounding. The clock
on the table was saying it too. Tom got up and
walked up and down to drown the sound. He stopped
before a cabinet and gazed horrified at a human skeleton
that grinned evilly at him. He opened the door
hastily, the night wind fanned his face. He sat
down upon the step, thoroughly sober now, but sick
in body and soul.
Soon a heavy step sounded on the sidewalk,
and the old doctor came into the patch of light that
shone from the door.
“Do you want me?” he asked as Tom stood
up.
“Yes,” Tom answered; “at once.”
“What’s wrong?” the doctor asked
brusquely.
Tom told him as well as he could.
“Were you here before, early in the evening?”
Tom nodded.
“Hurry up then and get your
horse,” the doctor said, going past him into
the office.
“Yes, I thought so,” the
doctor said gathering up his instruments. “I
ought to know the signs-well, well, the
poor young Englishman has had plenty of time to die
from ten in the evening till four the next morning,
without indecent haste either, while this young fellow
was hitting up the firewater. Still, God knows,
I shouldn’t be hard on him. I’ve
often kept people waiting for the same reason and,”
he added grimly, “they didn’t always wait
either.”
When Tom and the old doctor drove into the yard everything
was silent.
The wind had fallen, and the eastern sky was bright
with morning.
The old dog who lay in front of the
granary door raised his head at their approach and
lifted one ear, as if to command silence.
Tom helped the doctor out of the buggy.
He tried to unhitch the horse, but the beating of
his heart nearly choked him-the fear of
what might be in the granary. He waited for the
exclamation from the doctor which would proclaim him
a murderer. He heard the door open again-the
doctor was coming to tell him-Tom’s
knees grew weak-he held to the horse for
support-who was this who had caught his
arm-it was Pearl crying and laughing.
“Tom, Tom, it’s all over,
and Arthur’s going to get well,” she whispered.
“Dr. Clay came.”
But Pearl was not prepared for what happened.
Tom put his head down upon the horse’s
neck and cried like a child-no, like a
man-for in the dark and terrible night that
had just passed, sullied though it was by temptations
and yieldings and neglect of duty, the soul of a man
had been born in him, and he had put away childish
things forever.
Dr. Clay was kneeling in front of
the box cleaning his instruments, with his back toward
the door, when Dr. Barner entered. He greeted
the older man cordially, receiving but a curt reply.
Then the professional eye of the old doctor began
to take in the situation. A half-used roll of
antiseptic lint lay on the floor; the fumes of the
disinfectants and of the ansthetic still hung on the
air. Tom’s description of the case had
suggested appendicitis.
“What was the trouble?” he asked quickly.
The young doctor told him, giving
him such a thoroughly scientific history of the case
that the old doctor’s opinion of him underwent
a radical change. The young doctor explained
briefly what he had attempted to do by the operation;
the regular breathing and apparently normal temperature
of the patient was, to the old doctor, sufficient
proof of its success.
He stooped suddenly to examine the
dressing that the young doctor was showing him, but
his face twitched with some strong emotion-pride,
professional jealousy, hatred were breaking down before
a stronger and a worthier feeling.
He turned abruptly and grasped the young doctor’s
hand.
“Clay!” he cried, “it
was a great piece of work, here, alone, and by lamplight.
You are a brave man, and I honour you.”
Then his voice broke. “I’d give every
day of my miserable life to be able to do this once
more, just once, but I haven’t the nerve, Clay”;
the hand that the young doctor held trembled.
“I haven’t the nerve. I’ve been
going on a whiskey nerve too long.”
“Dr. Barner,” the young
man replied, as he returned the other’s grasp,
“I thank you for your good words, but I wasn’t
alone when I did it. The bravest little girl
in all the world was here and shamed me out of my
weakness and,” he added reverently, “I
think God Himself steadied my hand.”
The old man looked up wondering.
“I believe you, Clay,” he said simply.