(Reprinted by permission of Saturday Night,
Toronto.)
It was at exactly half-past three
in the afternoon of a hot June day that Mrs. Theodore
Banks became smitten with the idea. Mrs. Banks
often said afterwards she did not know how she came
to be thinking about the Convention of the Arts and
Crafts at all, although she is the Secretary.
The idea was so compelling that Mrs. Banks rushed down
town to tell Mr. Banks she felt she could
not depend on the telephone.
“Ted,” she cried, when
she opened the door of the office, “I have an
idea!”
Theodore raised his eyelids.
Mrs. Banks was flushed and excited
and looked well. Mrs. Banks was a handsome woman
any time, and to-day her vivacity was quite genuine.
“You know the Convention of
the Arts and Crafts which begins on the
twentieth.”
“I’ve heard of it somewhere.”
“Well, it just came to me, Teddy,
what a perfectly heavenly thing it would be to invite
that little Mrs. Dawson, who writes reviews for one
of the papers here you remember I told you
about her she is awfully clever and artistic
and good-looking, and lives away off from every place,
and her husband is not her equal at all perfectly
illiterate, I heard uncultured anyway.
What a perfect joy it would be to her to have her
come, and meet with people who are her equals.
She’s an Ottawa girl originally, I believe,
and she does write the most perfectly sweet and darling
things you remember I’ve read them
for you. Of course, she is probably very shabby
and out of date in her clothes by this time.
But it doesn’t really matter what one wears,
if one has heaps of brains. It is only dull women,
really, who have to be so terribly careful about what
they wear, and spend so much money that way!”
“Dull women!” Theodore
murmured. “Oh! is that why? I never
really knew.”
She laughed at his look of enlightened
surprise. When Mrs. Banks laughed there were
three dimples plainly showing, which did not entirely
discourage her merriment.
“And you know, Teddy, there
is such a mystery about her marriage! She will
really be quite an acquisition, and we’ll have
her on the programme.”
“What mystery?” Mr. Banks asked.
“Oh, well, not mystery, maybe,
but we all suppose she’s not happy. How
could she be with so few of the real pleasures of life,
and still she stays with it, and actually goes places
with her husband, and seems to be keeping it up, and
you know, Ted, she has either three or four children!”
“Is it as bad as that?” he asked, solemnly.
“Oh, Ted! you know well enough
what I mean don’t be such an owl!
Just think of how tied down and horrible it must be
for her out there in that desolate Alberta, with no
neighbors at all for miles, and then only impossible
people. I should think it would drive her mad.
I must try to get her on the programme, too.
She will at least be interesting, on account of her
personality. Most of our speakers are horribly
prosy, at least to me, but of course I never listen;
I just look to see what they’ve on and then
go straight back to my own thinking. I just thought
I’d ask your advice, Teddy dear, before I asked
the Committee, and so now I’ll go to see Mrs.
Trenton, the President. So glad you approve,
dear! And really there will be a touch of romance
in it, Ted, for Bruce Edwards knew her when she lived
in Ottawa it was he who told me so much
about her. He simply raved about her to me it
seems he was quite mad about her once, and probably
it was a lover’s quarrel or something that drove
her away to the West to forget, and now
think of her meeting Bruce again. Isn’t
that a thriller?”
“If I thought Bruce Edwards
had brains enough to care for any woman I’d
say it was not right to bring her here,” said
Mr. Banks; “but he hasn’t.”
“Oh, of course,” Mrs.
Banks agreed, “he is quite over it now, no doubt.
Things like that never last, but he’ll be awfully
nice to her, and give her a good time and take her
around you know what Bruce is like he’s
so romantic and cynical, and such a perfect darling
in his manners always ready to open a
door or pick up a handkerchief!”
“I am sure he would if
he needed the handkerchief,” Theodore put in,
quietly.
“Oh, Ted! you’re a funny
bunny! You’ve never liked Bruce and
I know why and it’s perfectly horrid
of you, just because he has always been particularly
nice to me he really can’t help being
dreamy and devoted to any woman he is with, if she
is not a positive fright.”
Mrs. Trenton, the President of the
Arts and Crafts, received Mrs. Banks’ suggestion
cautiously. Mrs. Trenton always asked, Is it right?
Is it wise? Is it expedient? It was Mrs.
Trenton’s extreme cautiousness that had brought
her the proud distinction of being the first President
of the Arts and Crafts, where it was considered necessary
to temper the impetuosity of the younger members;
and, besides, Mrs. Trenton never carried her doubts
and fears too far. She raised all possible objections,
mentioned all possible contingencies, but in the end
allowed the younger members to carry the day, which
they did, with a clear and shriven conscience, feeling
that they had been very discreet and careful and deliberate.
Mrs. Banks introduced her subject
by telling Mrs. Trenton that she had come to ask her
advice, whereupon Mrs. Trenton laid aside the work
she was doing and signified her gracious willingness
to be asked for counsel. When Mrs. Banks had
carefully laid the matter before Mrs. Trenton, dwelling
on the utter loneliness of the prairie woman’s
life, Mrs. Trenton called the Vice-President, Miss
Hastings, who was an oil painter by profession, and
a lady of large experience in matters of the heart.
Mrs. Trenton asked Mrs Banks to outline her plan again.
When she had finished, Mrs. Trenton
asked: “Is it wise is it kind?
She has chosen her life. Why bring her back?
It will only fill her heart with vain repinings.
This man, illiterate though he may be, is her lawful
husband she owes him a duty. Are we
just to him?”
“Maybe she is perfectly happy,”
Miss Hastings said. “There is no accounting
for love and its vagaries. Perhaps to her he is
clothed in the rosy glow of romance, and all the inconveniences
of her life are forgotten. I have read of it,”
she added in explanation, when she noticed Mrs. Trenton’s
look of incredulity.
Mrs. Trenton sighed, a long sigh that
undulated the black lace on her capacious bosom.
“It has been written it
will continue to be written, but to-day marriage needs
to be aided by modern ” she hesitated,
and looked at Mrs. Banks for the word.
“Methods,” Mrs. Banks
supplied, promptly, “housemaids, cooks, autos,
theatres, jewelry and chocolates.”
“You put it so aptly, my dear,”
Mrs. Trenton smiled, as she patted her pearl bracelet,
Mr. Trenton’s last offering on the hymeneal altar.
“It requires ” she paused again Mrs.
Trenton’s pauses were a very important asset
in her conversation “it requires ”
“Collateral,” said Mrs. Banks.
Miss Hastings shook her head.
“I believe in marriage all the same,”
she said heroically.
“Now, how shall we do it?”
Mrs. Banks was anxious to get the preliminaries over.
“You have decided to invite her, of course.”
Mrs. Trenton nodded.
“I feel we have no choice in
the matter,” she said slowly. “She
is certainly a woman of artistic temperament she
must be, or she would succumb to the dreary prairie
level. I have followed her career with interest
and predict great things for her have I
not, Miss Hastings? We should not blame her if
in a moment of girlish romance she turned her back
on the life which now is. We, as officers of the
Arts and Crafts, must extend our fellowship to all
who are worthy. This joining of our ranks may
show her what she lost by her girlish folly, but it
is better for her to know life, and even feel regrets,
than never to know.”
“Better have a scarlet thread
run through the dull gray pattern of life, even if
it makes the gray all the duller,” said Miss
Hastings, who worked in oils.
And so it came about that an invitation
was sent to Mrs. James Dawson, Auburn, Alberta, and
in due time an acceptance was received.
From the time she alighted from the
Pacific Express, a slight young woman in a very smart
linen suit, she was a constant surprise to the Arts
and Crafts. The principal cause of their surprise
was that she seemed perfectly happy. There was
not a shadow of regret in her clear grey eyes, nor
any trace of drooping melancholy in her quick, business-like
walk.
Naturally the Arts and Crafts had
made quite a feature of the Alberta author and poet
who would attend the Convention. Several of the
enthusiastic members, anxious to advertise effectively,
had interviewed the newspaper reporters on the subject,
with the result that long articles were published
in the Woman’s Section of the city dailies,
dealing principally with the loneliness of the life
on an Alberta ranch. Kate Dawson was credited
with an heroic spirit that would have made her blush
had she seen the flattering allusions. Robinson
Crusoe on his lonely isle, before the advent of Friday,
was not more isolated than she on her lonely Alberta
ranch, according to the advance notices. Luckily
she had not seen any of these, nor ever dreamed she
was the centre of so much attention, and so it was
a very self-possessed and unconscious young woman
in a simple white gown who came before the Arts and
Crafts.
It was the first open night of the
Convention, and the auditorium was crowded. The
air was heavy with the perfume of many flowers, and
pulsed with dreamy music. Mrs. Trenton, in billows
of black lace and glinting jet, presided with her
usual graciousness. She introduced Mrs. Dawson
briefly.
Whatever the attitude of the audience
was at first, they soon followed her with eager interest
as she told them, in her easy way, simple stories
of the people she knew so well and so lovingly understood.
There was no art in the telling, only a sweet naturalness
and an apparent honesty the honesty of
purpose that comes to people in lonely places.
Her stories were all of the class that magazine editors
call “homely, heart-interest stuff,” not
deep or clever or problematical the commonplace
doings of common people but it found an
entrance into the hearts of men and women.
They found themselves looking with
her at broad sunlit spaces, where struggling hearts
work out noble destinies, without any thought of heroism.
They saw the moonlight and its drifting shadows on
the wheat, and smelled again the ripening grain at
dawn. They heard the whirr of prairie chickens’
wings among the golden stubble on the hillside, and
the glamor of some old forgotten afternoon stole over
them. Men and women country-born who had forgotten
the voices of their youth, heard them calling across
the years, and heard them, too, with opened hearts
and sudden tears. There was one pathetic story
she told them, of the lonely prairie woman the
woman who wished she was back, the woman to whom the
broad outlook and far horizon were terrible and full
of fear. She told them how, at night, this lonely
woman drew down the blinds and pinned them close to
keep out the great white outside that stared at her
through every chink with wide, pitiless eyes the
mocking voices that she heard behind her everywhere,
day and night, whispering, mocking, plotting; and
the awful shadows, black and terrible, that crouched
behind her, just out of sight never coming
out in the open.
It was a weird and gloomy picture,
that, but she did not leave it so. She told of
the new neighbor who came to live near the lonely woman
the human companionship which drove the mocking voices
away forever the coming of the spring,
when the world awoke from its white sleep and the
thousand joyous living things that came into being
at the touch of the good old sun!
At the reception after the programme,
many crowded around her, expressing their sincere
appreciation of her work. Bruce Edwards fully
enjoyed the distinction which his former acquaintance
with her gave him, and it was with quite an air of
proprietorship that he introduced to her his friends.
Mrs. Trenton, Mrs. Banks and other
members of the Arts and Crafts, at a distance discussed
her with pride. She had made their open night
a wonderful success the papers would be
full of it to-morrow.
“You can see how fitted she
is for a life of culture,” said Miss Hastings,
the oil painter; “her shapely white hands were
made for silver spoons, and not for handling butter
ladles. What a perfect joy it must be for her
to associate with people who are her equals!”
“I wonder,” said Mrs.
Banks, “what her rancher would say if he saw
his handsome wife now. So much admiration from
an old lover is not good for the peace of mind of
even a serious-minded author and such a
fascinating man as Bruce! Look how well they look
together! I wonder if she is mentally comparing
her big, sunburned cattleman with Bruce, and thinking
of what a different life she would have led if she
had married him!”
“Do you suppose,” said
Mrs. Trenton, “that that was her own story that
she told us? I think she must have felt it herself
to be able to tell it so.”
Just at that moment Bruce Edwards
was asking her the same question.
“Oh, no,” she answered,
quickly, while an interested group drew near; “people
never write their own sorrows the broken
heart does not sing that’s the sadness
of it. If one can talk of their sorrows they soon
cease to be. It’s because I have not had
any sorrows of my own that I have seen and been able
to tell of the tragedies of life.”
“Isn’t she the jolly best
bluffer you ever heard?” one of the men remarked
to another. “Just think of that beautiful
creature, born for admiration, living ten miles from
anywhere, on an Albertan ranch of all places, and
saying she is happy. She could be a top-notcher
in any society in Canada why, great Scott!
any of us would have married that girl, and been glad
to do it!” And under the glow of this generous
declaration Mr. Stanley Carruthers lit his cigarette
and watched her with unconcealed admiration.
As the Arts and Crafts had predicted,
the newspapers gave considerable space to their open
meeting, and the Alberta author came in for a large
share of the reporters’ finest spasms. It
was the chance of a lifetime here was
local color human interest romance thrills!
Good old phrases, clover-scented and rosy-hued, that
had lain in cold storage for years, were brought out
and used with conscious pride.
There was one paper which boldly hinted
at what it called her “mésalliance,”
and drew a lurid picture of her domestic unhappiness,
“so bravely borne.” All the gossip
of the Convention was in it intensified and exaggerated conjectures
set down as known truths the idle chatter
of idle women crystallized in print!
And of this paper a copy was sent
by some unknown person to James Dawson, Auburn, Alberta.
The rain was falling at Auburn, Alberta,
with the dreary insistence of unwelcome harvest rain.
Just a quiet drizzle plenty more where this
came from no haste, no waste. It soaked
the fields, keeping green the grain which should be
ripening in a clear sun. Kate Dawson had been
gone a week, and it would still be a week before she
came back. Just a week seven days.
Jim Dawson went over them in his mind as he drove the
ten miles over the rain-soaked roads to Auburn to get
his daily letter.
Every day she had written to him long
letters, full of vital interest to him. He read
them over and over again.
“Nobody really knows how well
Kate can write, who has not seen her letters to me,”
he thought proudly. Absence had not made him fonder
of his wife, for every day he lived was lived in devotion
to her. The marvel of it all never left him,
that such a woman as Kate Marks, who had spent her
life in the city, surrounded by cultured friends, should
be contented to live the lonely life of a rancher’s
wife.
He got his first disappointment when
there was no letter for him. He told himself
it was some unavoidable delay in the mails Kate
had written all right there would be two
letters for him to-morrow. Then he noticed the
paper addressed to him in a strange hand.
He opened it eagerly. A wavy
ink-line caught his eye. “Western author
delights large audience.” Jim Dawson’s
face glowed with pride. “My girl!”
he murmured, happily. “I knew it.”
He wanted to be alone when he read it, and, folding
it hastily, put it in his pocket and did not look
at it again until he was on the way home. The
rain still fell drearily and spattered the page as
he read.
His heart beat fast with pride as
he read the flattering words his girl had
made good, you bet!
Suddenly he started, almost crushing
the paper in his hands, and every bit of color went
from his face. “What’s this?
’Unhappily married ’ ‘borne
with heroic cheerfulness.’” He read it
through to the end.
He stopped his horses and looked around he
did not know, himself, what thought was in his mind.
Jim Dawson had always been able to settle his disputes
without difficulty or delay. There was something
to be done now. The muscles swelled in his arms.
Surely something could be done!...
Then the wanton cruelty, the utter
brutality of the printed page came home to him there
was no way, no answer.
Strange to say, he felt no resentment
for himself; even the paragraph about the old lover,
with its hidden and sinister meaning, angered him
only in its relation to her. Why shouldn’t
the man admire her if he was an old lover? Kate
must have had dozens of men in love with her why
shouldn’t any man admire her?
So he talked and reasoned with himself,
trying to keep the cruel hurt of the words out of
his heart.
Everyone in his household was asleep
when he reached home. He stabled his team with
the help of his lantern, and then, going into the
comfortable kitchen, he found the lunch the housekeeper
had left for him. He thought of the many merry
meals he and Kate had had on this same kitchen table,
but now it seemed a poor, cold thing to sit down and
eat alone and in silence.
With his customary thoughtfulness
he cleared away the lunch before going to his room.
Then, lamp in hand, he went, as he and Kate had always
done, to the children’s room, and looked long
and lovingly at his boy and girl asleep in their cots the
boy so like himself, with his broad forehead and brown
curls. He bent over him and kissed him tenderly Kate’s
boy.
Then he turned to the little girl,
so like her mother, with her tangle of red curls on
the pillow. Picking her up in his arms, he carried
her to his room and put her in his own bed.
“Mother isn’t putting
up a bluff on us, is she, dearie?” he whispered
as he kissed the soft little cheek beside his own.
“Mother loves us, surely it is pretty
rough on us if she doesn’t and it’s
rougher still on mother!”
The child stirred in her sleep, and
her arms tightened around his neck.
“I love my mother and
my dear daddy,” she murmured drowsily.
All night long Jim Dawson lay wide-eyed,
staring into the darkness with his little sleeping
girl in his arms, not doubting his wife for a moment,
but wondering all night long wondering!
The next evening Jim did not go for
his mail, but one of the neighbors driving by volunteered
to get it for him.
It was nearly midnight when the sound
of wheels roused him from his reverie. He opened
the door, and in the square of light the horses stopped.
“Hello, Jim is that
you?” called the neighbor; “I’ve
got something for you.”
Jim came out bareheaded. He tried
to thank the neighbor for his kindness, but his throat
was dry with suppressed excitement Kate
had written!
The buggy was still in the shadow,
and he could not see its occupant.
“I have a letter for you, Jim,”
said his friend, with a suspicious twinkle in his
voice, “a big one, registered and special delivery a
right nice letter, I should say.”
Then her voice rang out in the darkness.
“Come, Jim, and help me out.”
Commonplace words, too, but to Jim Dawson they were sweeter than the chiming of silver bells.....
An hour later they still sat over
their late supper on the kitchen table. She had
told him many things.
“I just got lonely, Jim plain,
straight homesick for you and the children. I
couldn’t stay out the week. The people were
kind to me, and said nice things about my work.
I was glad to hear and see things, of course.
Bruce Edwards was there, you know I’ve
told you about Bruce. He took me around quite
a bit, and was nice enough, only I couldn’t
lose him you know that kind, Jim, always
saying tiresome, plastery sort of things. He
thinks that women like to be fussed over all the time.
The women I met dress beautifully and all talk the
same and at once. Everything is ‘perfectly
sweet’ and ‘darling’ to them.
They are clever women all right, and were kind to
me, and all that, but oh, Jim, they are not for mine and
the men I met while I was away all looked small and
poor and trifling to me because I have been looking
for the last ten years at one who is big and brown
and useful. I compared them all with you, and
they measured up badly. Jim, do you know what
it would feel like to live on popcorn and chocolates
for two weeks and try to make a meal of them what
do you think you would be hungry for?”
Jim Dawson watched his wife, his eyes
aglow with love and pride. Not until she repeated
her question did he answer her.
“I think, perhaps, a slice of
brown bread would be what was wanted,” he answered
smiling. The glamor of her presence was upon him.
Then she came over to him and drew
his face close to hers.
“Please pass the brown bread!” she said.