In certain valleys there was a hunter.
Day by day he went to hunt for wild-fowl in the woods;
and it chanced that once he stood on the shores of
a large lake. While he stood waiting in the rushes
for the coming of the birds, a great shadow fell on
him, and in the water he saw a reflection. He
looked up to the sky; but the thing was gone.
Then a burning desire came over him to see once again
that reflection in the water, and all day he watched
and waited; but night came and it had not returned.
Then he went home with his empty bag, moody and silent.
His comrades came questioning about him to know the
reason, but he answered them nothing; he sat alone
and brooded. Then his friend came to him, and
to him he spoke.
“I have seen today,” he
said, “that which I never saw before-a
vast white bird, with silver wings outstretched, sailing
in the everlasting blue. And now it is as though
a great fire burnt within my breast. It was but
a sheen, a shimmer, a reflection in the water; but
now I desire nothing more on earth than to hold her.”
His friend laughed.
“It was but a beam playing on
the water, or the shadow of your own head. Tomorrow
you will forget her,” he said.
But tomorrow, and tomorrow, and tomorrow
the hunter walked alone. He sought in the forest
and in the woods, by the lakes and among the rushes,
but he could not find her. He shot no more wild
fowl; what were they to him?
“What ails him?” said his comrades.
“He is mad,” said one.
“No; but he is worse,”
said another; “he would see that which none of
us have seen, and make himself a wonder.”
“Come, let us forswear his company,” said
all.
So the hunter walked alone.
One night, as he wandered in the shade,
very heartsore and weeping, an old man stood before
him, grander and taller than the sons of men.
“Who are you?” asked the hunter.
“I am Wisdom,” answered
the old man; “but some men call me Knowledge.
All my life I have grown in these valleys; but no man
sees me till he has sorrowed much. The eyes must
be washed with tears that are to behold me; and, according
as a man has suffered, I speak.”
And the hunter cried:
“Oh, you who have lived here
so long, tell me, what is that great wild bird I have
seen sailing in the blue? They would have me believe
she is a dream; the shadow of my own head.”
The old man smiled.
“Her name is Truth. He
who has once seen her never rests again. Till
death he desires her.”
And the hunter cried:
“Oh, tell me where I may find her.”
But the old man said:
“You have not suffered enough,” and went.
Then the hunter took from his breast
the shuttle of Imagination, and wound on it the thread
of his Wishes; and all night he sat and wove a net.
In the morning he spread the golden
net upon the ground, and into it he threw a few grains
of credulity, which his father had left him, and which
he kept in his breast-pocket. They were like white
puff-balls, and when you trod on them a brown dust
flew out. Then he sat by to see what would happen.
The first that came into the net was a snow-white
bird, with dove’s eyes, and he sang a beautiful
song-“A human-God! a human-God! a
human-God!” it sang. The second that came
was black and mystical, with dark, lovely eyes, that
looked into the depths of your soul, and he sang only
this-“Immortality!”
And the hunter took them both in his arms, for he said-
“They are surely of the beautiful family of
Truth.”
Then came another, green and gold,
who sang in a shrill voice, like one crying in the
marketplace,-“Reward after Death!
Reward after Death!”
And he said-
“You are not so fair; but you are fair too,”
and he took it.
And others came, brightly coloured,
singing pleasant songs, till all the grains were finished.
And the hunter gathered all his birds together, and
built a strong iron cage called a new creed, and put
all his birds in it.
Then the people came about dancing and singing.
“Oh, happy hunter!” they
cried. “Oh, wonderful man! Oh, delightful
birds! Oh, lovely songs!”
No one asked where the birds had come
from, nor how they had been caught; but they danced
and sang before them. And the hunter too was
glad, for he said:
“Surely Truth is among them.
In time she will moult her feathers, and I shall see
her snow-white form.”
But the time passed, and the people
sang and danced; but the hunter’s heart grew
heavy. He crept alone, as of old, to weep; the
terrible desire had awakened again in his breast.
One day, as he sat alone weeping, it chanced that
Wisdom met him. He told the old man what he had
done.
And Wisdom smiled sadly.
“Many men,” he said, “have
spread that net for Truth; but they have never found
her. On the grains of credulity she will not feed;
in the net of wishes her feet cannot be held; in the
air of these valleys she will not breathe. The
birds you have caught are of the brood of Lies.
Lovely and beautiful, but still lies; Truth knows them
not.”
And the hunter cried out in bitterness-
“And must I then sit still, to be devoured of
this great burning?”
And the old man said,
“Listen, and in that you have
suffered much and wept much, I will tell you what
I know. He who sets out to search for Truth must
leave these valleys of superstition forever, taking
with him not one shred that has belonged to them.
Alone he must wander down into the Land of Absolute
Negation and Denial; he must abide there; he must resist
temptation; when the light breaks he must arise and
follow it into the country of dry sunshine. The
mountains of stern reality will rise before him; he
must climb them; beyond them lies Truth.”
“And he will hold her fast!
he will hold her in his hands!” the hunter cried.
Wisdom shook his head.
“He will never see her, never hold her.
The time is not yet.”
“Then there is no hope?” cried the hunter.
“There is this,” said
Wisdom: “Some men have climbed on those
mountains; circle above circle of bare rock they have
scaled; and, wandering there, in those high regions,
some have chanced to pick up on the ground one white
silver feather, dropped from the wing of Truth.
And it shall come to pass,” said the old man,
raising himself prophetically and pointing with his
finger to the sky, “it shall come to pass, that
when enough of those silver feathers shall have been
gathered by the hands of men, and shall have been
woven into a cord, and the cord into a net, that in
that net Truth may be captured. Nothing but Truth
can hold Truth.”
The hunter arose. “I will go,” he
said.
But wisdom detained him.
“Mark you well-who
leaves these valleys never returns to them. Though
he should weep tears of blood seven days and nights
upon the confines, he can never put his foot across
them. Left-they are left forever.
Upon the road which you would travel there is no reward
offered. Who goes, goes freely-for
the great love that is in him. The work is his
reward.”
“I go” said the hunter;
“but upon the mountains, tell me, which path
shall I take?”
“I am the child of The-Accumulated-Knowledge-of-Ages,”
said the man; “I can walk only where many men
have trodden. On these mountains few feet have
passed; each man strikes out a path for himself.
He goes at his own peril: my voice he hears no
more. I may follow after him, but cannot go before
him.”
Then Knowledge vanished.
And the hunter turned. He went
to his cage, and with his hands broke down the bars,
and the jagged iron tore his flesh. It is sometimes
easier to build than to break.
One by one he took his plumed birds
and let them fly. But when he came to his dark-plumed
bird he held it, and looked into its beautiful eyes,
and the bird uttered its low, deep cry-“Immortality!”
And he said quickly: “I
cannot part with it. It is not heavy; it eats
no food. I will hide it in my breast; I will take
it with me.” And he buried it there and
covered it over with his cloak.
But the thing he had hidden grew heavier,
heavier, heavier-till it lay on his breast
like lead. He could not move with it. He
could not leave those valleys with it. Then again
he took it out and looked at it.
“Oh, my beautiful! my heart’s
own!” he cried, “may I not keep you?”
He opened his hands sadly.
“Go!” he said. “It
may happen that in Truth’s song one note is like
yours; but I shall never hear it.”
Sadly he opened his hand, and the
bird flew from him forever.
Then from the shuttle of Imagination
he took the thread of his wishes, and threw it on
the ground; and the empty shuttle he put into his
breast, for the thread was made in those valleys, but
the shuttle came from an unknown country. He
turned to go, but now the people came about him, howling.
“Fool, hound, demented lunatic!”
they cried. “How dared you break your cage
and let the birds fly?”
The hunter spoke; but they would not hear him.
“Truth! who is she? Can
you eat her? can you drink her? Who has ever
seen her? Your birds were real: all could
hear them sing! Oh, fool! vile reptile! atheist!”
they cried, “you pollute the air.”
“Come, let us take up stones and stone him,”
cried some.
“What affair is it of ours?”
said others. “Let the idiot go,” and
went away. But the rest gathered up stones and
mud and threw at him. At last, when he was bruised
and cut, the hunter crept away into the woods.
And it was evening about him.
He wandered on and on, and the shade
grew deeper. He was on the borders now of the
land where it is always night. Then he stepped
into it, and there was no light there. With his
hands he groped; but each branch as he touched it
broke off, and the earth was covered with cinders.
At every step his foot sank in, and a fine cloud of
impalpable ashes flew up into his face; and it was
dark. So he sat down upon a stone and buried
his face in his hands, to wait in the Land of Negation
and Denial till the light came.
And it was night in his heart also.
Then from the marshes to his right
and left cold mists arose and closed about him.
A fine, imperceptible rain fell in the dark, and great
drops gathered on his hair and clothes. His heart
beat slowly, and a numbness crept through all his
limbs. Then, looking up, two merry wisp lights
came dancing. He lifted his head to look at them.
Nearer, nearer they came. So warm, so bright,
they danced like stars of fire. They stood before
him at last. From the centre of the radiating
flame in one looked out a woman’s face, laughing,
dimpled, with streaming yellow hair. In the centre
of the other were merry laughing ripples, like the
bubbles on a glass of wine. They danced before
him.
“Who are you,” asked the
hunter, “who alone come to me in my solitude
and darkness?”
“We are the twins Sensuality,”
they cried. “Our father’s name is
Human-Nature, and our mother’s name is Excess.
We are as old as the hills and rivers, as old as the
first man; but we never die,” they laughed.
“Oh, let me wrap my arms about
you!” cried the first; “they are soft
and warm. Your heart is frozen now, but I will
make it beat. Oh, come to me!”
“I will pour my hot life into
you,” said the second; “your brain is
numb, and your limbs are dead now; but they shall live
with a fierce free life. Oh, let me pour it in!”
“Oh, follow us,” they
cried, “and live with us. Nobler hearts
than yours have sat here in this darkness to wait,
and they have come to us and we to them; and they
have never left us, never. All else is a delusion,
but we are real, we are real, we are real. Truth
is a shadow; the valleys of superstition are a farce:
the earth is of ashes, the trees all rotten; but we-feel
us-we live! You cannot doubt us.
Feel us how warm we are! Oh, come to us!
Come with us!”
Nearer and nearer round his head they
hovered, and the cold drops melted on his forehead.
The bright light shot into his eyes, dazzling him,
and the frozen blood began to run. And he said:
“Yes, why should I die here
in this awful darkness? They are warm, they melt
my frozen blood!” and he stretched out his hands
to take them.
Then in a moment there arose before
him the image of the thing he had loved, and his hand
dropped to his side.
“Oh, come to us!” they cried.
But he buried his face.
“You dazzle my eyes,”
he cried, “you make my heart warm; but you cannot
give me what I desire. I will wait here-wait
till I die. Go!”
He covered his face with his hands
and would not listen; and when he looked up again
they were two twinkling stars, that vanished in the
distance.
And the long, long night rolled on.
All who leave the valley of superstition
pass through that dark land; but some go through it
in a few days, some linger there for months, some
for years, and some die there.
At last for the hunter a faint light
played along the horizon, and he rose to follow it;
and he reached that light at last, and stepped into
the broad sunshine. Then before him rose the almighty
mountains of Dry-facts and Realities. The clear
sunshine played on them, and the tops were lost in
the clouds. At the foot many paths ran up.
An exultant cry burst from the hunter. He chose
the straightest and began to climb; and the rocks
and ridges resounded with his song. They had exaggerated;
after all, it was not so high, nor was the road so
steep! A few days, a few weeks, a few months
at most, and then the top! Not one feather only
would he pick up; he would gather all that other men
had found-weave the net-capture
Truth-hold her fast-touch her
with his hands-clasp her!
He laughed in the merry sunshine,
and sang loud. Victory was very near. Nevertheless,
after a while the path grew steeper. He needed
all his breath for climbing, and the singing died
away. On the right and left rose huge rocks,
devoid of lichen or moss, and in the lava-like earth
chasms yawned. Here and there he saw a sheen of
white bones. Now too the path began to grow less
and less marked; then it became a mere trace, with
a footmark here and there; then it ceased altogether.
He sang no more, but struck forth a path for himself,
until it reached a mighty wall of rock, smooth and
without break, stretching as far as the eye could
see. “I will rear a stair against it; and,
once this wall climbed, I shall be almost there,”
he said bravely; and worked. With his shuttle
of imagination he dug out stones; but half of them
would not fit, and half a month’s work would
roll down because those below were ill chosen.
But the hunter worked on, saying always to himself,
“Once this wall climbed, I shall be almost there.
This great work ended!”
At last he came out upon the top,
and he looked about him. Far below rolled the
white mist over the valleys of superstition, and above
him towered the mountains. They had seemed low
before; they were of an immeasurable height now, from
crown to foundation surrounded by walls of rock, that
rose tier above tier in mighty circles. Upon them
played the eternal sunshine. He uttered a wild
cry. He bowed himself on to the earth, and when
he rose his face was white. In absolute silence
he walked on. He was very silent now. In
those high regions the rarefied air is hard to breathe
by those born in the valleys; every breath he drew
hurt him, and the blood oozed out from the tips of
his fingers. Before the next wall of rock he
began to work. The height of this seemed infinite,
and he said nothing. The sound of his tool rang
night and day upon the iron rocks into which he cut
steps. Years passed over him, yet he worked on;
but the wall towered up always above him to heaven.
Sometimes he prayed that a little moss or lichen might
spring up on those bare walls to be a companion to
him; but it never came.
And the years rolled on; he counted
them by the steps he had cut-a few for
a year-only a few. He sang no more;
he said no more, “I will do this or that”-he
only worked. And at night, when the twilight settled
down, there looked out at him from the holes and crevices
in the rocks strange wild faces.
“Stop your work, you lonely
man, and speak to us,” they cried.
“My salvation is in work, if
I should stop but for one moment you would creep down
upon me,” he replied. And they put out their
long necks further.
“Look down into the crevice
at your feet,” they said. “See what
lie there-white bones! As brave and
strong a man as you climbed to these rocks.”
And he looked up. He saw there was no use in striving;
he would never hold Truth, never see her, never find
her. So he lay down here, for he was very tired.
He went to sleep forever. He put himself to sleep.
Sleep is very tranquil. You are not lonely when
you are asleep, neither do your hands ache, nor your
heart. And the hunter laughed between his teeth.
“Have I torn from my heart all
that was dearest; have I wandered alone in the land
of night; have I resisted temptation; have I dwelt
where the voice of my kind is never heard, and laboured
alone, to lie down and be food for you, ye harpies?”
He laughed fiercely; and the Echoes
of Despair slunk away, for the laugh of a brave, strong
heart is as a death blow to them.
Nevertheless they crept out again and looked at him.
“Do you know that your hair
is white?” they said, “that your hands
begin to tremble like a child’s? Do you
see that the point of your shuttle is gone?-it
is cracked already. If you should ever climb this
stair,” they said, “it will be your last.
You will never climb another.”
And he answered, “I know it!” and worked
on.
The old, thin hands cut the stones
ill and jaggedly, for the fingers were stiff and bent.
The beauty and the strength of the man was gone.
At last, an old, wizened, shrunken
face looked out above the rocks. It saw the eternal
mountains rise with walls to the white clouds; but
its work was done.
The old hunter folded his tired hands
and lay down by the precipice where he had worked
away his life. It was the sleeping time at last.
Below him over the valleys rolled the thick white mist.
Once it broke; and through the gap the dying eyes
looked down on the trees and fields of their childhood.
From afar seemed borne to him the cry of his own wild
birds, and he heard the noise of people singing as
they danced. And he thought he heard among them
the voices of his old comrades; and he saw far off
the sunlight shine on his early home. And great
tears gathered in the hunter’s eyes.
“Ah! they who die there do not die alone,”
he cried.
Then the mists rolled together again; and he turned
his eyes away.
“I have sought,” he said,
“for long years I have laboured; but I have
not found her. I have not rested, I have not repined,
and I have not seen her; now my strength is gone.
Where I lie down worn out other men will stand, young
and fresh. By the steps that I have cut they will
climb; by the stairs that I have built they will mount.
They will never know the name of the man who made
them. At the clumsy work they will laugh; when
the stones roll they will curse me. But they will
mount, and on my work; they will climb, and by my
stair! They will find her, and through me!
And no man liveth to himself and no man dieth to himself.”
The tears rolled from beneath the
shrivelled eyelids. If Truth had appeared above
him in the clouds now he could not have seen her, the
mist of death was in his eyes.
“My soul hears their glad step
coming,” he said; “and they shall mount!
they shall mount!” He raised his shrivelled hand
to his eyes.
Then slowly from the white sky above,
through the still air, came something falling, falling,
falling. Softly it fluttered down, and dropped
on to the breast of the dying man. He felt it
with his hands. It was a feather. He died
holding it.