A mother sat alone at an open window.
Through it came the voices of the children as they
played under the acacia-trees, and the breath of the
hot afternoon air. In and out of the room flew
the bees, the wild bees, with their legs yellow with
pollen, going to and from the acacia-trees, droning
all the while. She sat on a low chair before the
table and darned. She took her work from the
great basket that stood before her on the table:
some lay on her knee and half covered the book that
rested there. She watched the needle go in and
out; and the dreary hum of the bees and the noise
of the children’s voices became a confused murmur
in her ears, as she worked slowly and more slowly.
Then the bees, the long-legged wasp-like fellows who
make no honey, flew closer and closer to her head,
droning. Then she grew more and more drowsy, and
she laid her hand, with the stocking over it, on the
edge of the table, and leaned her head upon it.
And the voices of the children outside grew more and
more dreamy, came now far, now near; then she did not
hear them, but she felt under her heart where the
ninth child lay. Bent forward and sleeping there,
with the bees flying about her head, she had a weird
brain-picture; she thought the bees lengthened and
lengthened themselves out and became human creatures
and moved round and round her. Then one came
to her softly, saying, “Let me lay my hand upon
thy side where the child sleeps. If I shall touch
him he shall be as I.”
She asked, “Who are you?”
And he said, “I am Health.
Whom I touch will have always the red blood dancing
in his veins; he will not know weariness nor pain;
life will be a long laugh to him.”
“No,” said another, “let
me touch; for I am Wealth. If I touch him material
care shall not feed on him. He shall live on the
blood and sinews of his fellow-men, if he will; and
what his eye lusts for, his hand will have. He
shall not know ‘I want.’” And the
child lay still like lead.
And another said, “Let me touch
him: I am Fame. The man I touch, I lead
to a high hill where all men may see him. When
he dies he is not forgotten, his name rings down the
centuries, each echoes it on to his fellows.
Think-not to be forgotten through the ages!”
And the mother lay breathing steadily,
but in the brain-picture they pressed closer to her.
“Let me touch the child,”
said one, “for I am Love. If I touch him
he shall not walk through life alone. In the
greatest dark, when he puts out his hand he shall
find another hand by it. When the world is against
him, another shall say, ‘You and I.’”
And the child trembled.
But another pressed close and said,
“Let me touch; for I am Talent. I can do
all things-that have been done before.
I touch the soldier, the statesman, the thinker, and
the politician who succeed; and the writer who is
never before his time, and never behind it. If
I touch the child he shall not weep for failure.”
About the mother’s head the
bees were flying, touching her with their long tapering
limbs; and, in her brain-picture, out of the shadow
of the room came one with sallow face, deep-lined,
the cheeks drawn into hollows, and a mouth smiling
quiveringly. He stretched out his hand. And
the mother drew back, and cried, “Who are you?”
He answered nothing; and she looked up between his
eyelids. And she said, “What can you give
the child-health?” And he said, “The
man I touch, there wakes up in his blood a burning
fever, that shall lick his blood as fire. The
fever that I will give him shall be cured when his
life is cured.”
“You give wealth?”
He shook his head. “The
man whom I touch, when he bends to pick up gold, he
sees suddenly a light over his head in the sky; while
he looks up to see it, the gold slips from between
his fingers, or sometimes another passing takes it
from them.”
“Fame?”
He answered, “likely not.
For the man I touch there is a path traced out in
the sand by a finger which no man sees. That he
must follow. Sometimes it leads almost to the
top, and then turns down suddenly into the valley.
He must follow it, though none else sees the tracing.”
“Love?”
He said, “He shall hunger for
it-but he shall not find it. When he
stretches out his arms to it, and would lay his heart
against a thing he loves, then, far off along the
horizon he shall see a light play. He must go
towards it. The thing he loves will not journey
with him; he must travel alone. When he presses
somewhat to his burning heart, crying, ‘Mine,
mine, my own!’ he shall hear a voice-’Renounce!
renounce! this is not thine!’”
“He shall succeed?”
He said, “He shall fail.
When he runs with others they shall reach the goal
before him. For strange voices shall call to him
and strange lights shall beckon him, and he must wait
and listen. And this shall be the strangest:
far off across the burning sands where, to other men,
there is only the desert’s waste, he shall see
a blue sea! On that sea the sun shines always,
and the water is blue as burning amethyst, and the
foam is white on the shore. A great land rises
from it, and he shall see upon the mountain-tops burning
gold.”
The mother said, “He shall reach it?”
And he smiled curiously.
She said, “It is real?”
And he said, “What is real?”
And she looked up between his half-closed eyelids,
and said, “Touch.”
And he leaned forward and laid his
hand upon the sleeper, and whispered to it, smiling;
and this only she heard-“This shall
be thy reward-that the ideal shall be real
to thee.”
And the child trembled; but the mother
slept on heavily and her brain-picture vanished.
But deep within her the antenatal thing that lay here
had a dream. In those eyes that had never seen
the day, in that half-shaped brain was a sensation
of light! Light-that it never had
seen. Light-that perhaps it never should
see. Light-that existed somewhere!
And already it had its reward: the Ideal was
real to it.
London.